#actually i dont want to jinx myself

[princekirijo]

2024 might not be my year but it is gonna be the year I start treating myself with even a little bit of respect

#mark my words boy i WILL start self respecting #brought to you by some bullshit happened last weekend and ive been doing some thinking #self isolating convincing myself everyone secretly hates me it WILL stop i cant keep doing this to myself #and i will set boundaries as well!! even if im terrified of doing so!! fuck!! #on a serious note i am so so tired of being so cruel to myself i really can't keep living like this huh #ive been real quiet on here lmao (i think i actually have no idea if people perceive me as being quiet/chatty/whatever) heres why #this is all based on irl stuff btw i always feel i need to say that idk why #but yeah anyways i dont want to jinx anything but like for me personally the only way is up. right #i dont really have anywhere i can say this irl so i will tell the gay people on my laptop (affectionate) as usual lmao

[mihai-florescu]

How many weeks into a job would it be appropriate to start wearing my wataei itabag to the office?

#i can already see myself from a stranger's perspective #taking the train between my city and the capital every day going to my creative industry job in the pretty house by the river #maybe going to premiers of films the company worked on (i stalked my supervisors on linkedin) #i always struggle with stepping more and more into becoming an adult. i feel like i havent grown since i was 18 #but i have. and then i regressed. but now im going to start going forward again #right? #i want to believe it will all work out well so badly #im afraid to talk about it too much in case i jinx it #but im really...from an outsiders view in im really happy. i dont know how ill feel until i actually start though #i am scared what if they just felt bad rejecting me. which isnt what you should think when you get a job #but it just seems too good to be true

[thehoneyedhufflepuff]

thank you @ivelovedhimthroughworse for the tag 💜

writing? Don't know her. Things have been really chaotic for me lately (moreso than usual) so words haven't really been happening. But...here's a small snippet from chapter 22 for fun

SIMON

#six sentence sunday #btl #btl woes #i'll finish it eventually #someday #sometime #actually i do have a goal for finishing it but y'know. dont want to jinx myself. or put on too much pressure. anyway #snowbaz

[thanksfortheflaglove]

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#have been an anxious lil piece of shit since my mother walked past/then in my room bc she smelled something- #this was yesterday btw .. first thing she said was 'u dont vape do u?' and i was like 'no' *queue john mulaney voice: like a liar* #ok well technically only on occasion like if i dont have w**d #anyway she steps into my room and starts fuckin sniffing around and goes 'it smells like .. weed 😐' and just looked at me and guys .. #i am the WORST but my mothers brother aka my gay uncle got kicked out when they were younger bc he smoked too and my mother has grown to #not be fond of it since . so BASICALLY i lightly gaslit her and was like 'mom. seriously ? 🙄' #bc we joke about it on occasion like she went to denver and came back with a fuckin pot that says 'a little pot from colorado' meant for #weed and in my head im like 😭 bro i could actually use this 😭 #so thats how we joke but obviously for me its genuinely funny bc of the irony but anyway . #my anxiety was so high after that bc i literally had my pen on me and i just left the situation and started petting my dog and filled up my #waterbottle trying to think of what the fuck i was going to do next but that was literally the end of that #(at least for now but i dont even want to jinx it) #to be proactive tho bc newsflash i do smoke! i got smart as shit and wrapped my smell proof combo bag to make it look like a gift for my #my friends when i go back to school so she wont think anything of it #and then put my pen old battery and vape in a box hidden away so i can still access them if i need but god DAMN #i was def just being stupid tho bc i forget when im at home i cant be so lax and rip the shit out of my pen with my door closed and no fan #anymore like 😐 u dumb fuck i was smarter at 16 with this shit #anyway. its definitely on me and im just mad at myself for it and hope it doesnt come up again/that she isnt overly paranoid with me like i #am with myself rn #also just for some more background my mom and i have never been super close but im really close with my dad but i love with my mom ? so #after this semester not just bc of this situation but i might be like. ive never had a room at dads and id like to at least for summer #and go from there. they just moved and its so cozy and id love to make my room mine over there for once even if it means moving in for abit #but the one thing that would absolutely break my heart is that my dog lives with my mom and its not like i couldnt still see her but i feel #like id feel guilty/like im abandoning her or something :'( #idk if anyone read this far pls lmk ur thoughts #oh and i work right by my moms so its not like i couldnt still visit her but it would break my heart #kylas thoughts #drugs /

[helpicant-stop]

Superhero AUs and found family for the trope game?

C: Neutral. A good author might be able to sell it, but a bad one will kill it deader than dead.

surprisingly c for both of them! i have a superhero au myself (i succumbed😔) (also if you want to ask me what its about i wilk GLADLY rant about it for hours) but i feel like its so hard to find a genuinely good one like.

most of them just feel so recycled, out of character and uninspired (especially the most popular ones but you didnt hear that from me) although there are some gems i've found like the one from @jinx-blackout-84, an unpublished one from @bewaretheidesofmarchyall and another from a mutual who is sadly now deactivated but trust me when i say it was REALLY good. there could be more but i just forgor😭

as for found family i LIVE for it i LOVE it i LAUGH with it but oh god people just dont know how to write that like. a lot of people just write found family as a regular nuclear family but none of them are related. and like oh my god TOO much sbi like i started off neutral-positive with sbi but now it's so oversaturated and for what!!!!!

wheres my found family consisting of two uncles a big sister a grandfather three 6th-grade children a straight up homunculus and a malewife-girlboss couple from 500 years ago!!!!! (yeah i just vagued the secret series what about it. youll never write a better found family than the terces society)

and people keep making found families out of stuff that does NOT need to be found family like guys come on las nevadas is a dysfunctional vaguely homosexual toxic workplace sitcom not a wholesome found family guys please. there are a lot of dynamics out there that people can expand to that doesnt have to but still can be a found family and people arent taking advantage of it enough!!!!!

nobodys talking about how the big 6 from izombie are a fucked up little found family enough like its so funny. og zombie and her girlfriend* i mean best friend who is the ex-mayor and her strange bisexual boyfriend and his mortal enemy and the homicide detective that hates him and the Actual Former Chaos Killer who is ex-fiance now good friend of said og zombie. holy shit

*[plaintext: girlfriend]

#ask game #asks!! #howdy🐎 #chitter #izombie #{censor bar}'s tss brainrot

[lilyliveredlittlerichboy]

not to jinx it or anything but 2024 is doing great for me so far. im just at a point in my life where i know who i am and i know what i want much better than ever before. ive surrounded myself with lovely people and reconnected with others who are thrilled to have me back in their lives. im learning to ask for things im learning to rest and i have some really exciting things lined up for later in the year. i feel like im finally arriving where i need to be and doing what i need to do. my mental and physical health is improving. i dont want to die anymore. not even a little, most days. im actually looking forward to the rest of my life. im making art and music and eating good food. i care a lot less about stuff i cant change - most prominently other peoples opinions of me. im just over here doing my own thing and i know it makes a positive difference to people. im happier and more chill than i have been in ages, maybe ever. it really does get better. it really does get easier. ageing is fun and great actually

#i need a tag for my own rambles

[moonjxsung]

star i know i dmed u about this but like i cant. i cant. AAADSJDJDADJSDKJDJDDS I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY ABT THE CONCERT (ISABEL LAROSA + ARI ABDUL GODS WATCHING TOUR!!!) I WENT TO YESTERDAY

I GOT THERE AT THE VENUE AND FOR SOME REASON EEVRYTHING WAS DELAYED BY AN HOUR AND I DONT . I DONT KNOW I WAS DEVASTATED I WAS LIKE SHIT I CANT EVEN SEE THE SECOND PERSON PERFORMING (IT WAS A DUAL TOUR) AD IW AS SO SAD BUT SOMEHOW. BY SOME MIRACLE. MY DAD TEXTED ME AND WAS LIKE "IM SO TIRED PLZ COME USING THE TRAIN" HOLY SHIT. I COULD STAY AS LONG AS I WATN AS LONG AS I COULD DRIVE THE LIE EVEN FURTHER WITH MY MOM. AND THATI EXACTYL DID!!@#!@#!@# I KNOW I SHOULDNT BE SO EXCITED AND HAPPY ABOUT LYING BUT IM JUST. HAPPY I GOT THIS EXPERIENCE INT EHE FIRST PLACE. LIKE THIS WAS THE BEST POSSIBLE OUTCOME. I GET TO GO HOME BY MYSELF, I DONT GET CALLED BY MY PARENTS, I GET TO SEE (ALMOST) THE ENTIRE SHOW, I GET FRONT ROW VIEW?? LIKE IT WAS LITERALLY THE BES TPOSSIBLE OUTCOME AND I THINK PERAHPS IT WAS A REWARD FOR THE SHITTY WEEK IVE HAD THIS ENTIRE WEEK. YETSERDAY SINGLEHANDEDLY MADE UP FOR IT. I LEFT THE VENUE AROUND 11:40 PM ISH??? AND GOT HOME AROUND 1 AM LMFAO how was i not questioned at all idk. i dont wanna jinx it like what if my mom asks me today abt everything i did. but also what the fuck how was i able to get away with such a big lie WHILE keeping it for HOURS???????????? HOURS PAST THE TIME I SAID ID BE OUT?!?!? no but like i cant beleive that these people are REAL like wym iw as in the same ROOM AS THEM? IC ANT. I CANNOT! the first girl (isabel) was BEAUTIFUL like ic ouldnt stop staring at her at all she was GLOWING. the crowd was lowkey fake and dead af tho.....like live in the moment stop staring at your phones tryna get aperfect fancam of her this aint a kpop concert!!!!!!!!! you came here FOR her not a recording of her!!!!!! well i undertsad the recording part bcs i was recordin gtoo but liek NO ONE WAS JUMPING OR SINGING ALONG OTEHR THAN ME BASICALLY AD IW AS LIKE WTF?!?! i love her older music so when she performed one of my favorites (heaven) i almost cried out of joy. but the crowd wasnt evenr ecording or singing along so i hope they were at least admiring her in person bcs she truly looked heavenly. like an angel. the white spotlight was shining down on her and she looked liek she had WINGS bro. i cant believve i got to see this live. INCLUDING ONE OF HER UNRELEASED SONGS THAT IM JUST SO IMPANTIENT FOR. NOW I HAVE AN UNOFFICIAL RECORDING OF THE ENTIRE SONG FOR ME TO LISTEN TO UNTILT HE ACTUAL RELEASE! i actually like her older songs a lot and one of my faves from her next to heaven is closer but she never performed that </3 i guess it was never on the setlist and she never performed it live pensive emoji stop i said i was near the stage nad i ltierally was like i dmed u the video of one of the girls (ari) TOUCHING MY HAND .. WHAT THE FUCL. I ALMOST ORGASMED HER VOICE IS SO HOT SED HELP stop her normal speaking voice made me DIZZY. it was raspy and lowkey deep and so like. so. it was giving dominant. why was she speaking liek that thru the mic do you want me to explode in my pants . someone needs to study me and my infatuation w women that have sexy deep voices like i also am heavily obsessed with fu hua from honkai impact bcs her voice is so hot and Ugh okay lets not get into the voice kink (guess my skz bias if u couldnt already from my previous asks .) BRO SHE STARTED TAKING OFF HER TIE TOO I ALSO SENT U THAT CLIP LIKE IAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAOKAJOASKOAKOAOKOkookakokoakoakokaskodaidjaddsk

while i was buying merch before i left (i had to leave before the last two songs from ari, one of them being my faves </3 bcs i didnt wanna risk it any further) i was telling the girl by the stand that i had to be discreet bcs my paretns did Nawt know i was at a concert and some girl w her mom overheard and laughed and we made small talk and her mom was like "dont even worry about sneaking out for a concert, ive done worse as a kid. im glad you were able to give yourself this experience bcs we only live once" and i was like 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 damn some validation from a mother that isn't even mine surely feels nice. ANYWAYS. i got a signed photobook from them! i really wanted a shirt w the tourdates but alas my paretns once again dont know i was at hte concert and they are also religious as fuck and im pretty sure any shirt that mentions god in a nonreligious context would get my ass beat. Im still in disbelief like how did i even get away with this i cant believe it. also im crying bcs in order to drive the "conference" image, i went dressed in a whole business formal outfit LMFAOFOOFO you kow that meme that slike "me at my wedding vs me at some other event" with that guy. yeah that was me. me at my wedding (in my pjs) vs me at the gods watching tour (in an all black blazer outfit)

anyways yeah thank you for the lil pep talk you gave me and your comments on it <3 im glad i took the risk and went and therefore i had to tell you everything about it.

SPEAKING OF CONCERTS I SAW THAT U GOT LOLLAPALOOZA TICKETS!!! CONGRATSSSSS I HOPE YOU HAVE FUN WHEN YOU GO!

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HELDPDOSKKEMFKFKEKRKJRKTT THE LAST PART OF THIS MADE ME LAUGH SO HARD W YOUR REFERENCE TO THE MEME W THE SUIT AND RHE CASUAL DRESS PLEELWKKSKXKEEO THATS SO REAL 😭😭😭😭 NO but real talk im so fucking glad you went AND that everything somehow worked out in your favor????? YOUR DAD COINCIDENTALLY GETTING TIRED HOLY FUCKKKKK I always feel bad when something happens where I can’t be 100% honest with my parents but like that lady said it’s literally worth it because it’s a once in a lifetime thing!!!! When I first bought tickets to see bts and booked my hotel and flight and everything I told my parents nothing but the bank called about the charges and they found out and I felt soooo bad but I literally regret NOTHING like concerts are such a fleeting thing and you gotta take advantage and GO when you can!!!! Holy fuck dude though I can’t believe you got that CLOSE to them??? AND GOT AN UNRELEASED SONG???? I do know Isabel from tik tok her music’s GOOOOOD (she’s always the audio in those hot ass skz edits djkekekckdkdkd) BUT I CANT BELIEVE YOU GOT TO BE SO CLOSE TO THEM also getting a signed photobook????!:!:!:!!:!:!:!.! YOU WON SOOOO GOOD BESTIE 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 IM SO GLAD YOU WENTTTT I hope you’re able to take advantage of whenever you have special opportunities and that you always get this lucky!!!! Don’t feel guilty about lying either one day these years will be mere memories and you got out of it clean so relax and celebrate bc YOU GOT TO BE SOOO CLOSE TO YOUR FAV FUCKING ARTISTS HOW COOL IS THAT……… ILY BBY MANIFESTING MORE MOMENTS LIKE THESE FOR U IN THE FUTURE 🫶💓💖💞💘🩷💕

#💫 anon #ask

[spiritofwhitefire]

Omg guys so like - idk i dont want to jinx myself but I have a date at a cocktail bar tonight and I actually am not even tempted to drink! Like im looking forward to being sober for this date and feeling good and happy and just being myself :) maybe I will actually be able to do this sober thing

[sexydreamgirl]

hi!! im that anon that asked abt turning back time and worrying abt time whatever. i totally forgot i asked that lol! that persisting actually went horribly because i was giving fear power and i was just so scared i spiraled for like 3 days. but yesterday i said no FUCK that. im gonna reclaim my power. idk if this is a success story or an ask but im gonna put it here anyway.

i put up sticky notes on the side of my computer to remind myself to NEVER look back, and that morning i decided that i had perfect self concept and that i WOULD be aware of it before the end of the day. i was so scared! lol but i kept persisting. i didnt give fear power, i pushed it by and said NO WAY! NOTHING can get in the way of me and inevitably becoming aware of my perfect self concept.

as the day went on i had less anxiety and everything and around 4 i did some tarot reading, it was all very very great outlook, but it definitely predicted something. two cards basically said that my ambitions were running the risk of being undermined by my timidity and lack of self confidence, and the other card said that i will likely find myself with a problem but i will overcome it and triumph, i have the courage to do so. it scared me a little but i kinda brushed it off.

flash forward an hour, im washin dishes and im like damn i feel pretty fuckin good abt my self concept actually! i sat down and rhe feeling faded but i went back to my room and suddenly i looked at the clock and i laughed so hard that i started crying. july 24th?? fr? lmao?? like...thats just not true. i couldnt stop, i was so happy i just knew that the world was in my pocket. i just knew that theres no way its july 24th, its insane to even think about anything but my desires being the truth. i genuinely truly felt inevitable peace in my desires, i didnt even desire them in the 3d anymore. that morning i felt like id never get out of that cycle of lack and anxiety so bad i wanted to throw up and couldn't sleep but there i was. it truly was the best feeling i could ever ask for.

but it faded. and i know it was an accidental reversal. i had a twinge of fear that i could jinx it, reverse it. before then i dont think i ever thought of the concept of knowing a manifestation couldnt be reversed, especially not as a part of a good sc, it just never crossed my mind because it seemed obvious. it was a fear i couldnt push back and ignore. i didnt realize then that dwelling on the old story and doubting and all that has no power, it doesnt matter if you do that. i couldnt tell if it was birds before land or a reversal at first but i decided it was a reversal, it makes more sense and it feels more uplifting that i truly did do it. i doubted so much and i was so scared but in the end i really did become aware of it. even though it faded i stuck true to the reading, i wouldnt let it bring me down, this is just proof of how powerful i am. i didnt fail, its just a speck of dirt in the palm of god. im still scared ofc haha, but today ill be doing the same thing but ensuring it'll be forever. that i'll never reverse it, that's impossible.

i'm scared but i'm going to do my best to not let a thing stop me. i did it! everything will only get easier from here. if you have any input though id love to hear it

"i didn't fail, it's just a speck of dirt in the palm of God"

This right here. You may have doubts, you may feel fear but you still choose to have courage and continue regardless of what you're feeling. This is persisting.

#I'm so proud of you!

[comfortcomes]

i dont want to jinx it but i think i may have pulled off an actual girlboss moment for myself this week 

#tfw not passively letting life happen to me for once

[lovestrucksuggestion]

hey, sorry if this is too much or smth, but i really don't wanna tell anything to my friends i fearike it'd be "too real" AND OBVIOUSLY I WANT IT TO BE REAL BUT, i don't know, i feel like i'll jinx or fuck it up somehow if i tell it;;

hello, again, okay so, a few weeks back we had this thesis project 6 per group and ive had converstaions w all of them except for 1.

by this point i was lamenting over a past love, we werent necessarily together since we were like, idk 14 or smth when it happened and its been 7 years, we kinda drifted apart after graduation since i thought 'it wouldnt last anyway' and i kept rejecting their advances for a year or two, but i still liked them;;; anyway back in 2020 we got in touch again and i told them that i still liked them and i was just dumb and all that and they seemed to return my advances and ofc i asked if they were comfortable and not just going w the flow yknow and they said yes so.

i confessed and they said not yet cause of school stuff but they do like me still and so i said id wait, THEN it was all okay since we joke and all that but they always seem to reject when i ask them directly about us or like even just to meet up or smth, and ofc i get it so i try not to bother them too much until valentine's rolls in and they post smth on ig with them and their friends and theres this girl with a solo shot of her being goofy and smiling and i just.

idk i took it as a sign to stop since he always used to do that w me before so yeh.

and then like with school i just got lost in all it and directed every ounce of my passion so we finished some stuff quite early, theres only 2 big ones of them we needed to do so a member suggested to split the work between us six. one of thems easier than the other so i got grouped with the guy i havent talked to, kinda scared abt it but all was fine. i added him (lets call him graham) on facebook so we could talk in messenger about planning what to do and all that, then after i found that he's friends with another group member who happened to be someone im close with, kinda AND they messaged me so i asked whats up cause i thought it was abt the project and they reply with smth along the lines of "nothing, graham's just rlly overjoyed since u addrd him cause he likes u" AND IM WHAT CAUSE IM P SURE WEVE NEVER MET then he follows it up w "ure his type, smart and hardworking" AND I DONT HAVE THE HEART TO TELL THAT IM A FALSE ADVERTISEMENT CAUSE IM RLLY NOT ALL THAT AND IM SCARED OF DISAPPOINTING ANYONE

anyway they let it be and i didnt think much of it cause maybe theyre just messing around yknow so nothing much happened, we finished the project and everything's all right until we were grouped for another thing through our society/club whatevr and i was kinda nervous since its my first time meeting them and everything was fun actually turns out it was graham's bday last tuesday so i greeted him and we joked a bit cause wednesday's the club thingy, i didnt even know what he looked like since his pfp's from when he was a kid

wednesday rolls in and im in the library with a friend, a mutual friend of ours and he said hello to me and i was so happy somehow??? I DONT REALLY GET IT MYSELF I USUALLY TAKE SO LONG TO ACCLIMATIZR TO SOMEONE BUT LIKE THE CLUB THINGY WENT WELL AND WE WERE JOKING BY THE END OF THE DAY AND I JUST, i think i like him as well?? he even asked to take a picture with me he seemed so nervous i wanted to hug him I ACTUALLY THOUGHT ITD BE OUR WHOLE GROUP IN THE CLUB but it turns out it wasnt so !!!!!!

thursday comes and we messaged a bit (he chatted first, abt the thesis) we were in a seminar and i was a bit late that day so i was at the back and our other classmates r upfront w him so never really met, until a friend of mine and i were going home and we MET THEM ON THE TRAIN ISTG MY HEART WAS JUMPING UNTIL I GOT HOME SMILING LIKE AN IDIOT WHILE WALKING

okay sorry but like, tldr, im a bit afraid that i only "like" him cause he liked me first, yknow after i waited for the previous person and evrything for so long and receiving little to nothing ++ i think his expectation of me's kinda high im neither smart nor hardworking im just anxious all the time so i have to do my work quick or else i'll die and some part of me's still doubting his feelings for me as just a prank cause nsjdhbf idk im not really pretty too so whats up why is this happrning but he's so fucking cute (generally) and i am falling as well and im scared cause we'd be graduating in a year so what if this also doesnt end quite well and i end up losing a friend?

i kinda also wanna just come up to him and invite him for a date but yeh :( and yesterday my phone died and i was stoked to meet him but he wasnt at uni so i was kinda sad then i find out the previous person i like messaged me and idk they were kinda flirty and i feel bad if i leave them again cause ive done it once and i was only left with regrets so what if im just repeating history aaaa its so hard to like manage everything too if graham and i somehow manage to be together im not great at balancing things what if i let him slip away or smth

again sorry for this i just wanted to know what other people think i really wanna shoot my shot at the same time i feel like im a people pleaser so yknow what if im just doing this cause of attention or smth idk huhu thanks in adavmce if u answer this but no hatd feelings if u dont thank u boo

Hello, you seem very stressed out! Please take several deep breaths, put on some calming music and remember that none of this is life or death.

First of all, you're right to let this past love go, it's simply not in the cards and I'm proud of you for recognizing that. Throw the whole man away, if he makes you feel bad(even if he's not doing it on purpose!) you don't need that drama.

I'm not going to diagnose you with anything over the internet, especially not based on one interaction, but I will say that in this ask specifically, you are exhibiting pretty high levels of anxiety and worry that it might be good to speak to a professional about. Your university should have free mental health services, if you have insurance you can call and ask what providers they cover, and failing that, there are many therapists and psychiatrists who offer sliding scale coverage for low income patients.

Alright, now that's done, what needs to happen here is something that I know you will not like, but is pretty much mandatory-you need to have a conversation with Graham. It's okay if it turns out you only like that he's interested in you, and when you get to know him you're less into him. You're not asking him to marry you after all. It's also okay if you're not smart or funny or hardworking (I think you're being too hard on yourself, but even so, it's okay).

If you talk with him and express your interest, you can set a boundary on how you like to be complimented(i.e., low pressure compliments that don't comment on your abilities) and specify if you want something casual just to see how you vibe. Even if you graduate, you might stay together, or you might not. You definitely won't know unless you try.

Also, who cares if you want attention???? you're human, that's totally natural. You're not gonna go to Needy Jail for it.

All that to say:

go to therapy

figure out what you want (in general and from Graham specifically. You can do this in therapy)

stop talking to past love

start talking to Graham about what you want

remember that even if things end up less than ideal, it's okay

#relationship advice #love advice #advice #anxious anon #come back and tell me how it goes!!! #im rooting for you!!!!!

[ratanslily]

I thought you romanced Wyatt? Or do you have two accounts too 😂

I dont have two accounts, as much as i want to have them, unfortunately my phone has limited space😫 i barely manage to keep rc + my other apps so another duplicate rc is out of question.

I have actually grown tired of Wyatt. so I replayed to get into D'Mario's path but i didnt post about it till i achieved it, just to not jinx myself haha. I must say, I enjoy wyatt more as a friend rather than a love interest. and I am absolutely impressed by D'Mario as a character, so no regrets! sure I get to see too less of him but he's worth the wait.

#ask

[aftonfamilyvalues]

omg you reminded me of when, after the arcane reddit ama, ppl were whining about the writers calling silco and vander brothers, basically accusing them of only saying that because they hate shippers. 😐 as if silco doesn't literally call vander "brother" multiple times. idc if people ship it, obviously it's not actual incest, i myself enjoy shipping pairs with zero canon compliance, but. how are you getting mad at the writers repeating something that's literally said in the actual source material

yeah like i dont care if people ship them, its whatever, but i cant say i think thats written into the show. i know there are people who interpret it as a "brothers in arms" sort of brotherhood rather than a familial brotherhood but given the themes and how everything was executed i cant say i would agree with that.

its obvious silco cares for vander and was desperate for his approval again, he wanted them to be the way they were, but that parallels how jinx feels about vi. vi was her world, her sister, the minute she hears vi isnt dead she uses the flare that vi gave her all those years ago to signal her. but as with both relationships, they could never go back to the way things were, they all changed. silco and jinx wanted their siblings back by their side, vander and vi regret what they did to their siblings to make them the way they are now but they cant accept the deals given to them.

i honestly hope they dont try to backtrack or rewrite anything just to make fans happy though. i dont want them to give into any demands or compromise their writing to accommodate what internet people want. like as much as i love silco, i want people to shut up about resurrecting him. they set him up to die and i doubt theyre going to turn him into another character the way its theorized theyre doing with vander being warwick.

#ask #league of fazfuck

[saucymalum]

The Daily Grind pt.24

coffee shop!au Calum Hood x fem!reader x fem!OC

Originally posted on my Instagram

Summary: Y/N has worked at this coffee shop for almost a year when her coworker makes a group chat. Little did she know that would lead her into so much trouble.

pt.1, pt.2, pt.3, pt.4, pt.5, pt.6, pt.7, pt.8, pt.9, pt.10, pt.11, pt. 12, pt.13, pt.14, pt.15, pt.16, pt.17, pt.18, pt.19, pt.20, pt.21, pt.22, pt.23

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The moonlight peaks into the apartment through the blinds. I didnt bother turning on the lights when I came home. I didnt see the point if, in the end, I know I’m going to break down. The pressure of the decision thats been weighing on my chest is finally too much. I slam my door shut as the tears fall from my eyes and trap my bag in front of it. I always knew I would have to choose. I knew I’d have to break a heart eventually but I let myself live in the bubble that I would be able to keep this life forever. The walls of my perfectly built fantasy are crashing around me and I dont know what to do.

I crash down on my couch, sobbing into the soft fabric. I clutch my blanket tight to my chest as the moonlight makes lines on my face. My sobs are eventually interrupted by my stomach growling so with a heavy head and heart I drag my feet to the kitchen. I brew up a cup of tea and look around for a delivery menu. 

Just as I take a sip of my tea my front door opens to reveal my two loves.

“Jesus, it’s fucking dark in here!” Calum shouts as he trips over my bag.

A smack echos against the walls followed by a yelp before Lilah’s voice speaks up, “Don’t shout, what if she’s sleeping?”

Cal opens his mouth to reply but I beat him to the punch. “I’m not asleep.”

Their eyes snap to me and take in my form. My loose sweater almost slid off my shoulder and my hair stuck to the tear trails I didnt bother to wipe away. I stand in front of their eyes nervously.

Lilah rushes over and pulls me into her arms. As soon as her arms circle around me I latch onto her. Sobs wrack my body again as I fall apart from her warmth. 

Lilah pulls away and places her hands on my cheeks, “Love, why the tears? What’s wrong?”

I open my mouth to speak but my tongue gets tangled when I look into Cal’s eyes. I cover my face with my sleeve-covered hands as my tears fall.

"Baby, please tell us what's wrong." Cal pleads as he pulls me into his arms.

A take a couple of deep breaths, breathing in the scent of his cologne. "I don't want to hurt you two," I whisper.

"What?" Lilah and Calum ask in unison. If it were any other time they'd be arguing about jinxes. 

"I have to choose eventually and I don't want to." 

Calum sighs as he combs his fingers through my hair and I tighten my hold on him.

"Why don't we go to the couch and talk about this? Maybe turn on a light or two." Lilah suggests and not two seconds after me nodding Cal pulls me to the couch.

Lilah sits next to us and that's when I see they actually brought food. My emotions are such a mess I actually think for a second I might cry at the sight of the restaurant logo.

Lilah grabs hold of my hand and pulls it to her lips. "We chose to be in this mess with you. This isn't just your weight to bear."

Calum continues to brush his finger through my hair and I look up into his eyes, "No matter who you choose we're still your friend."

I shake my head vigorously as the lump in my throat starts to surface again. "But I don't want to choose that's the problem! I can't choose."

Calum and Lilah share a smile before they look back at me. "What if you didn't have to?"

I swear my heart stops, "What?" I croak.

"Lilah and I were talking earlier and, well, both of us are falling in love with you and there's really no reason you have to choose if you don't want to. We both want you and if you want both of us that'd be amazing."

"Are you serious?"

"If you want us then we're here"

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Hi! Ily and all ur work and u totally don’t have to respond or answer this is u dont want💗 Ive just been wondering for an ‘eta’ of sorts for the part 2? However long u need is perfect just curious!!

hi friend! i love you right back, i am actually just about done with it. finishing touches basically, i went away for christmas and i was in the mountains w no service so that blocked me :( but i would say it should be out in the next week or two, maybe sooner but i don’t wanna jinx myself. BUTTTT, if you would like a sneak peek let me know!

#thanks anon!

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i’m sending this to some of my favorite blogs, so i’m sorry if you see this more than once, or if it makes this feel any less special. i promise it’s the most sincere. i just want you all to know.

how do you deal with the hate? or do you deal with it? the way you and other writers overcome the nervous feeling of posting something, knowing that there’s people out there who just love attacking people for no reason, really makes me admire and envy you guys. i think a lot of people—almost everyone to be exact—really overlook what writers do for their fans, not only that but also the things that are said to them. what’s said to writers can be very harmful, especially in terms of their mental health, self image, the list goes on. they seem to forget that actual REAL people run these blogs. it must be really hard dealing with what you guys go through. i’m so sorry that you all have that in your lives. i just wanted to say you do what i could never do. you are very strong. i’m sorry if that’s weird. i just wanted to let you know ❤️❤️

im so sorry, i know the whole message is about dealing with hate as an author and you said such kind words but i'm going to be honest here—i've never received hate.

and i find myself very lucky that i can say that because i know there are a ton of writers on here who get mean people in their inboxes, even my friends. i dont know how no ones ever said anything mean or rude to me and i hope this isnt jinxing it but yeah, i cant answer your questions bc i haven't experienced it. and i think thats.. a good thing? i mean, im so sorry that i cant give you an answer but im also happy i cant (?)

but it is hard posting things knowing people can have their opinions and say what they want ! you just have to suck it up and keep posting bc in the end, its your blog and you can do whatever you want with it <3

#chats w riri #nommies <3