#about trusting people kr thinking ots okay to lean on people when i need them only for them to not be there

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#...................................................................................... #................................................................................................................................. #........................................................................................................................................... #ya know;; j really hate being negative here so genuinely pls just ignore this at this point #but like you can literally bare your whole exsistence to people and pick them uo and just be there when you need them #you can spread yourself the thinnest yoi can be anr barely be hanging on by a thread and the second tou say you arent okay everyone #turns around and acts like they dont see kr hear #i just feel shitty #about everything. #about trusting people kr thinking ots okay to lean on people when i need them only for them to not be there #or for being shitty and not being able to physically answer or reply to people becaus eim so fucking anxious that they hate me or something #like idk #and im always okay i am but its randomly i just get scared like holy shit #is thw world around me falling apart? idel #idek* #it's sounds selfish but i fight myself between wanting people to be there for me because ive been for them and its not in a i want this #in return for helping you cause i genuinely dont expect anything back from people but like itd be nice. i try and try and its just wasted #like maybe im the shitty one? kskks #then wjen people are there for me i dont respond bevause im scared ill say too much or make them uncomfortable and eben burden them with #everything #idk #hhhhhhhhh #i just am here but im not here that is all #suni.txt #im going to go wirte a fancafe letter telling kyun he is bright or something dndjd