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[01:41 AM] from yoongi

―somewhere along the lines, i know i will run out of words and all the regrets of the unspoken will leave me submerged in the waters. so in-between these lines and in all the spaces that separates my verses, there will always be a distance holding us together. this is a promise; a forever bathing in blues of the afternoon sun where we stand still. some day when my pen will give up on me, i want to build a house for you with my bones and you will know that there’s love in giving up too.

delivered.

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if this guardian angel!vernon fic ends up being more than 5K+, i'll d-word over my laptop but the story is so good, i can't stop thinking about it.

#vernon #wip #a:pffbts #seventeen

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a goodbye letter.

hello everyone, it's been a long time, isn't it?

i haven't written anything in months and tbh even if i wanted to further give life to all my wips, i wish i had even a drop of motivation and energy to do so. some of you might have as well forgotten about my little blog, which had its own humble beginnings. and tbh i don't mind at all. it's been, i don't know almost 5+ years that i've had this blog. i started it out during the last two years of my high school, when i was struggling very much to cope with all the pressure and anxiety. this little corner of the internet became my comfort space. i could pour my heart out into snippets of letters and the love that i received from all of you who were there from the beginning only fueled my passion to write more and of course, helped me immensely in escaping the cruelty of my reality.

since then, i have graduated school. my reality is still harsh but i'm surviving. i have also graduated from my college with two degrees that i was doing simultaneously. currently, i'm preparing to sit down for my master's 1st-year exam coming months and job surfing at the same time. tbh i wish i had enough energy and positivity to motivate myself to pen down something. but it seems like we have to finally pull the curtains down on this blog.

yes, there is a lot of stuff that's still pending to be completed as you will know if you care to check my masterlist. but i'm not going to give you any false hope by saying that someday i will magically come back and finish and place them all in front of you. it would be too selfish of me to keep you on your toes like that.

i know i've let down a lot of you. many have told me me how much, especially my letters have helped you guys during hard times. even though i know i shouldn't even bother to think like this considering i know none of you in-person. still, it's the crippling humanity in me. honestly, i feel sad for myself. my life took so many things away from me. even the capacity to keep this comfort space alive for myself. some of you have left a long time ago. probably life has happened to you all too. i have also met some of you during the latter part of my journey here and i'm very glad that you all loved my work even with all my incompetency in keeping up with the schedules. you guys were too kind to me.

this actually came too suddenly - this realization that something needs to end. i don't think there will come any other time in the future when i'll read fanfics or write them myself. but it's a bit too much to delete the whole blog considering the reblogs will still exist in the tumblr algorithm. therefore, the letters will still be up along with the fics.

although i don't think i will stop writing. i have my substack where i will experiment with my creative writing but that's just my way of growing up as a writer. these days i'm too busy both in my head and physically, i wish i can overcome becoming a moss. my produce is sparse but my want is bigger than that. although for fanfics, there's no want anymore. i've had my fill and i'm sad to say, this is where we part.

pffbts is thus archived. all my posts will remain. if you send in any mundane sweet ask, i will answer them as soon as possible. kindly please don't send in any requests for fics (i've had to delete a couple of them from my ask box and it felt terrible.) i'm not completely going away. as a person, i will stay. it's just the fanfic writing part of me that will take a permanent leave. i'm almost 24 and it's been almost 10 years that i've started out in creating fanfics. i think it's enough, nah? plus writing this post for you all has strangely made me feel calm, as a certain baggage has been let down from my shoulders.

thank you to you all from the past & the present. i hope you all stay well and healthy. it has been truly a good time to have you all with me.

-K.

#a:pffbts #personal

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hello! just wanted to let you know that i always go back to reading a fool’s act whenever i needed to feel something haha that fic always brings me to tears i absolutely love one-sided stories! jongho’s fleeting time monologue and y/n’s internal monologue right after always hits me in the chest. it’s pretty hard to find jongho angst fics on here or ao3 so thank you for writing it and i hope you know how much your writing means to people! have a good day! <3

my goodness, anon, you're so lovely 🤧 i just went back to check that fic out and man, it's been more than 3 years. recently, i have gotten so detached to writing (except for my journaling) that i almost don't recognise myself in my past writings anymore but i'm still so grateful for your warm words, anon.

please stay healthy, safe & happy. hoping for all your dreams to come true. sending you lots of love too 💞

#(also 'a fool's act' is definitely not proof checked 😭 bc the amount of mistakes i found oh my) #so more thankful bc you find comfort or something to let out your stream through this unedited rough work #i miss stanning ateez though...maybe one day i'll get ibto their music again 🥲 #anon answered #a:pffbts #*into

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Hi, how have you been?

frankly speaking, not quite well, anon. my health has been seeing frequent bad days for the last 3 weeks. i almost saved myself on the spot from a fatal accident last week on the road while on my way to college but ended up with a bad muscle injury on my left upper arm and two deep scrapes on my skin. this week i had to skip college because i had the worst fever in the last 5 years. i was bedridden for two whole days and on top of all that, i had thrown up multiple times while having the worst stomach ache of my life, even had a mini diarrhoea for god knows why but yeah, there we go, let’s add more to the list, shall we?

my mother isn’t quite well herself since last 2 months so i have to take care of her once in a while along with her routine medication. i have told her multiple times to see a doctor but she’s very adamant on treating herself on her own plus she thinks it’s a financial hassle right now to spend money on her treatment.

as for my college, my vfx sem has just started (which is 3 weeks ago, yep, my 3rd sem started on a terrible note, anon, like i almost feel like crying) & for some odd reason, maybe it’s the professor who’s teaching but i’m not yet vibing with the subject matter right now. although i do agree it might also be because i’m not in a good state of mind and body right now BUT i’m trying my best in catching up. i’m a bit well today even though i still am suffering from no appetite for food, i attended college yesterday and i’m gonna practice some task so there’s that.

thankfully, as for my other degree which is eng hons, i’ve already submitted my final assignments and am now waiting for the final exam dates. so idk how to explain, i’m not well but it’s not like i’m giving up. i’m going to try my best in  recovering well and tune back to my studies and my hobbies which is writing & watching my favourite shows and binging movies.

also this is not exactly directed at you, lovely anon but because this ask might be passing by some of my reader’s dashboard, i wanted to say - i know i had opened my request box one month ago and have not produced much even though i’ve promised to. i’m terribly sorry for that but for now, give me some time, you kind people, i’ll come back well and strong, okay? your requests are safe & sound with me. the plotlines are all drawn. all they need are threads of words.

oh and um sorry for rambling i’m just all over the place these days, anon, i hope i’m not annoying you!

#thank you so much for checking in though...it's pretty rare these days on my blog for ppl to check in #again sorry for the rant... #i hope you understand #anon answered #a:pffbts

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hi! i came across one of your stories by fate, and i was in awe when i found out your mother tongue is bengali. When i read “a moment’s indulgence” in your story i knew i had to read it in bengali, so i was wondering if you could tell me where i could find the original poem (in bengali) because i’ve been searching for it everywhere. Lastly, I’m in love with your writing, one could only imagine writing like you.

aaahhh thank you so much for saying so, anon! also, yes sure why not? i actually did mention this headfirst in my "a moment's indulgence" fic but i'll elaborate here for your convenience considering you asked so sweetly for it :)

the poem in the original language was published in another collection of tagore called gitobitan (if you have the book, you'll find it there for sure!) it is song number 95 in that collection but in gitanjali, in the english translation & the original bengali version, it's song number 5.

here's the poem:

you can find the eng trans side to side to the bengali one here for your easy reading!

also thank you so much for your compliment! this kinda ask always motivates me whenever i'm trying to pump out a fic or any writing. looks like bc my exams are currently going on, i'm having a hard time concentrating on penning down any piece, so thank you so much for sending in your words. i appreciate them so much!

#i hope this answers your request! #anon asked #a:pffbts

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hello fellow Desi!

oh hey there! 🤗

#lonelystudio #a:pffbts #ask answered

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Hi where do live?

i'm from kolkata, anon 😇

#anon asked #anon answered #a:pffbts

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me and my friend always bond over how much we love your words and your writings. you're so precious, i hope you always know that <3

that makes me so happy, anon! thank you for your kind words. be sure to be safe & sound ❤️

#anon answered #a:pffbts #someone bonding with their friend over my writings feels incredibly....surreal & therefore.... #it makes me feel happy even when im currently struggling to write #hopefully i'll be back with some new writing but till then please take care lf yourselves everyone #*of

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Hi!! How are you? 😀 I really hope you're doing good/better and I wish you a very happy new year!! 🎉✨️❤️ I hope you have an amazing 2023 full of love and good things! 🎇 Stay safe and healthy!! Take care! 💕

there's a feeling of loss and i feel like this past year was a bit regretful but for now, i'm doing neither good nor bad. although i'm always praying for good days, so thank you for your wishes! hopefully, you've a fruitful year ahead too, anon! make sure to stay safe & sound. take care of yourself and a very happy new year!

#anon answered #this sounded pretty depressing but i'm never been the one to get excited about new year....it's a personal conflict :/ #but i'm always hoping for everyone's happiness and days of peace #a:pffbts

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Hello! (: I'm the anon who requested "a thousand steps away" and I would like to thank you for writing it!! It was so perfect, I loved it 💕

ahhhhhhhh that makes me so happy, anon! i'm really glad you liked it 💞 hope you're safe & sound, wherever you are :))

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I'm so proud of you for your results, you're really amazing!! 🤩

Take care of yourself and do what makes you feel good, just remember to rest properly and not to overwork yourself, please!

Don't feel pressured to do anything, I'm sure we can all wait patently for you to post again, no matter how long it takes 🙂

Stay safe as well, I love you so much!! ❤️

You're seriously one of the kindest, anon. Thank you for making me feel so fuzzy and warm. I finally got myself into writing so there's that and yes! I love you too! I hope you're taking care of yourself too!

#anon asks #a:pffbts

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Hii!! I seriously have no idea what to say but I'm so happy to find someone Bengali here, and i hope you're doing well. I just read your Taehyung piece and it was mesmerizing 💜 love your writing, keep it up 💖💜💕

Oh my god, hello there fellow Bong! How are you? I'm sorry if this reply is late but thank you so much for your kind words. I appreciate it! 💌 I'm grateful that you enjoyed my last Taehyung piece that if I'm being honest, I wrote on a whim. Glad it reached your heart.

#skyfull0fstories #anon answered #a:pffbts

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Hello °◡°

Hello there, sunshine, do you want to say something?

#anon asks #a:pffbts

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It seems like August is nobody's month. :( I hope things will start getting better soon for you! And you could never bother me with your rant <3 I care about you, after all. I'm proud of you for staying so strong. You're incredible and I wish you the best, take care!! ♡

you must be an absolute angel, anon :(

thank you so much for encouraging me. your words put a big smile on my face. this is a last-minute call for me but i think i'll skip college tomorrow to rest for a while because it has been quite overwhelming for me - these couple of weeks along with some previous tenecious months.

also, oh no, seems like your august is giving you a bit of trouble too anon? i hope whatever you, yourself are going through passes away soon. i'm sending you all the good energies!

#and yes! take care of yourself too love #i think your ask and my rambling in your prev ask made me take the decision to skip college tomorrow for my own sake #i feel like i would have gone complete crazy if i had gone though #even maa keeps telling me that i look sick & i seem to have lost some weight too #idk maybe it's her mother instinct but yeah #gonna put myself first before anything else for this weekend #plus monday will be a national holiday for us so there's that #anon answered #a:pffbts

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Hello! I'm new to your blog, but I instantly had to dive in and read your little letters that you have posted. So beautiful and sweet and poetic. I have yet to read them all, but just wanted to drop in and say that I love your writing! 💕💕 Have a great day!

ahhhhh thank you so much, love, for your kind words! i`ll keep them close to my heart.

also! yes, feel free to take your time & read as much as you want (there’s a lot and tbh i've lost count of how many letters i`ve written lol). and, you too, have a wonderful day/night ahead. take care of yourself~

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