#Throwing it back old school

[trustyalt]

I forgot how sick starting a new semester makes me feel o(-(

#call me a 7 year old the way going back to school makes me want to scream and throw up <3

[seventh-fantasy]

trying out the questionable, unpopular cdrama which was still in my ptw despite the apparent red flags solely bc it has all my guilty pleasure tropes then it actually turns out watchable and has more decent writing than many other popular cdramas I've tried??????

#I LOVE YOU DIVORCE I LOVE YOU 先婚后爱 I LOVE YOU 职场都市言情 I LOVE YOU 破镜重圆!!!!!!! (and throw in 师生 toooo) #it has the exact flavour of old school romance dramas i always loved and perpetually crave for. WE'RE SO BACKKKKK #never revealing what drama this is in public or at least before i'm done #bc what if it turns around in the next 5 episodes to completely stab me in the back lmao #i'm only done with 4 episodes so far BUT I'M ALREADY LIVING #my posts #i cant rmb which cdrama reviewer i think low君 was the only one of them who talked abt this drama but it was with mixed feelings #so honestly. i really went in with nothing but negative expectations and a vague hope for smth trashy fun (it kinda is that)

[enderspawn]

im tired of having to “work” or “have a job” like sorry boss but my schedule is actually already very full of “needing to invest myself wholly in stupid shit” i don’t have the time for both

#I want to. throw myself back into w101 or the papa games So Bad rn #but. I at least have work tomorrow #and like 2-3 more days Next Week #then it’s back to school and like. o(1( #I know I had a lot of ‘fuck off and do notbing’ time but I wasted it pls I have BETTER nothing now #idk I’ve also just seen the dash like. discussing what they’ve invested in over the holidays content hiatus #and beyond like. Play Pokémon and (as of like. yesterday?) look up old Specific AU/Trope fics for another fnadom #I don’t Havte that but I want it :(( #og post #personal

[i-am-totally-not-a-lizard]

Fun part of having long hair and zero motivation to get out of bed for 9 months of the year: hair ties accumulate everywhere. I found 63 from just cleaning the floor of my room 🤠

#it feels kinda gross to just put them back in my hair how does one even go about cleaning a hair tie because i don't wanna throw them away #I'm not even done cleaning my whole room this was just from the floor but that's probably where the majority would be #the amount of doodads and thingamajigs I've found is so crazy it's like my own scavenger hunt of my own neglected belongings #that's kinda sad but hey at least i get to recover my old school supplies in anticipation for the new school year #because HOW did summer go so fast it feels like march was just yesterday and it's already almost August??? #i HATE the passage of time like literally stop. like just stop nobody wants you to keep going.

[la-cocotte-de-paris]

Yeah 90% sure I'm not right in the head in this country

#well 100% sure #I'm disgusted by raw meat and my mother makes me cook it if i want to eat it #which like fair enough i guess #but i got so disgusted and pissed off and the grill had old grease on it that the grease was getting cooked more than the fucking meat #and i just had a screaming meltdown #and now i wanna throw myself off a cliff #my period is supposed to start today but hasn't yet and that damn deposit I'm supposed to get back is still not back yet #so I'm just...agitated... #and i gotta pay for audition fees if i wanna try for drama school so i really want my deposit back asap #I'm not even fucking hungry now

[paverics]

a straight woman at work used the word “dyke” so causally in conversation today that i nearly had an aneurism

#listen i cautiously call myself bisexual so i have no real valid stance on the word #call yourself it. don’t. I don’t care #personally I hate (!!) it because i went to an all girl high school and it was slur of the day every day #like the homophobic girls did not care. they didn’t distinguish lesbians from bisexuals from straight girls they just didn’t like #nobody was safe from being called it and if they had a shred of evidence to back it up. no matter how flimsy. game over for you #so just on a personal level - don’t like it at all. throws me back to being 13 years old and fucking terrified #if other people call themselves or their friends or other lesbians it — don’t care. if you say it around me— don’t care #but hearing a straight woman say it…. #and not even like meant as a slur. she just said it. she could have said lesbian and the sentence would have been the same #like she wasn’t making a comment about lesbianism or being specifically derogatory #she was just saying that someone she knew was a lesbian and that was it #but it was fucking weird

[loregoddess]

2, 3, 8, and 19 for the fandom game, for any fandom(s) you feel like talking about :)

(for 3, fic and/or meta posts, can't actually remember if you've posted straight up fic before haha)

2. My favorite fic from the fandom that I’ve read

I haven't read a ton of fic sadly (although I haven't read a lot in general the last few years due to college making me read So Many academic papers and books that I got burnt out and haven't quite recovered my love of reading. Yet). Although, my friend @lookerdewitt has written literally some of the best fic I have ever read, so I would probably say one of their fics.

3. My favorite fic from the fandom that I’ve written myself

I have actually sort of written fanfic (both legit fanfic, and also a few "thinly veiled technically fanfic if you changed the names" for a fiction writing class that I had to write several stories for and wanted to see if I could get away with it), but I haven't actually. Shared those fics with anyone? Partly bc I have historically almost never finished any fiction writing project that I have started, ever, and partly bc I'm just shy about sharing my writing in general.

I have been working on a LoZ fancomic idea for the past uhhhh four or five years (technically last decade since I first came up with the idea in late high school and then had it sit in the back of my head for several years bc all I had was a setting and a handful of characters), and I have never in my life stuck with a project this long, so I guess that would be my favorite from my personal works bc it's apparently something I care about enough to not abandon entirely. I've actually made a decent amount of progress on my "detailed outline" recently, so here's hoping I can stick it out and actually get to the script and then to drawing pages one day.

For meta posts I think my favorite is actually my analysis of the Octopath 1 cast and how the major antagonists in each of their stories acts as a mirror and foil to each character. I really enjoy analyzing stories in general, but I so rarely write it out, so I was happy to actually do so for once. Gave me a lot of confidence for all the other meta and headcanon posts that I wrote afterwards.

There's also a Legend of Dragoon meta post sitting partly-finished in my drafts where I analyze themes surrounding each dragoon spirit and its wielders, which I haven't finished bc I only remember to work on it when I'm doing my yearly replay of LoD, and also bc it started looking like it might need to be a series of posts due to uh....length. Like I make a lot of lengthy posts, but each dragoon spirit's analysis was about a short essay's worth of words, and there are eight spirits soooo....hopefully I'll finish that one day, bc it's an analysis I've spent years thinking about.

8. Is there anything I wish people would write more about in fics? (A dynamic, an exploration of an arc, just a character that doesn’t get much screentime, etc)

I'm always a sucker for post-canon healing/recovery/rebuilding arcs. Can't get enough of them honestly (when I have the motivation to read). There's something so fascinating about looking at a character who Went Through Some Stuff, but the main narrative didn't look at the effects of that, and so a dedicated writer took up the challenge of trying to explore what comes after.

Most of my favorite characters are weird side characters who don't get a lot of love from the writers of canon or fans, so I'm always glad to see stuff for them as well.

19. Favorite headcanon

Oh hmmm, there's a lot and it depends on which media we're talking about, so if you're curious about a specific game let me know. Off the top of my head though hmm...

Okay I have this headcanon that Milo TriStrat snorts when she laughs genuinely. Like sure she's got the ladylike proper, cute laugh that's part of her spy job and totally fake, but when she is being fully honest and laughing for real, she snorts.

#space-spring #ask game #I still don't have an ask tag #the fact that I got an idea in high school wrote a short blurb that I didn't feel was going anywhere and shelved said idea for uh #close to a decade before I suddenly all at once had a plot to go with the setting and characters like #never throw out your old stuff I guess you never know when it'll come back to you

[hollowflight-propaganda]

Me: has my sixth sudden crying spell of the week

Also me: "yeah but I'm probably not ACTUALLY depressed"

#gonna be honest boys. I have been feeling like dogshit #started with me having a good ol' existential spiral at 4 am a week ago and now I don't even know what's bothering me #and then there's all of the bad stuff going on making me anxious for myself and everybody on top of everything #all the abhorrent transphobia has been making me feel worried for the future #(as if the passing of time doesn't already horribly scare me but I digress) #idk man. I already feel like I'm unequipped for the future because I've realized I never thought I'd still be alive right now #majority of my childhood was filled with adults preaching at me to think about where I'd be going in the afterlife so I did just that #that plus they were the type to believe that the rapture is soon cause “the signs are all coming true” #so I always thought that either that would happen or I'd die before now #well. I'm still here and I don't know what the fuck I'm doing. #and I'm lonely. really fucking lonely and I'm going mad cause of it #never had actual friends besides the kids I was with at my old private school. now they're all raging conservatives who mock minorities #I was able to get away but moving on isn't as easy as I hoped #it'd be so much easier to betray all my beliefs and act ignorant again so I can have my friends back #but of course I can't do that. I can't throw out who I am and all of the wonderful people I know who would be “sinful” in their eyes #idk man. I think I've finally reached the breakdown I've been feeling coming for the past two years #fuck. sorry for this trauma dump of a post. I've just felt numb for months and now everything's catching up to me #needed to yell about it I guess #vent #phoenix prattles

[russkayas]

dearest mutuals, i am so sorry for reblogging House MD in the year of our lord 2023

#but also i’m not sorry it’s not my fault those old men r gay #this is my most shameful brainrot since high school ngl #anya.txt #if you filter tags you can block house md or hate crimes md #otherwise enjoy the ride 🫡 #throwing myself back into ff7 and totk with fervor in the hopes that this brain rot can be stopped before it reaches critical levels

[moinsbienquekaworu]

I've gone from insane about the pilot when it dropped and so so into it to mildly interested and kind of cringing at the actual first episode. 4 years's not a lot but I feel like I got old

#i'm talking about h@zbin h0tel btw. i refuse for this to appear in the tags this is a mutuals only post #like. i was sooo into the pilot in high school #and now it's uh. i can see the strings and there's a lot of them #by that i mean i see what they're trying to do and how they're trying to do it #instead of the techniques having the intended effect and being seamless #the swearing is.... a bit tedious. the singing was mych better in the pilot than it is in ep1 #i am also the one person on earth who doesn't like v@ggie's va i think? #her sound quality is Different and she sounds like a real person talking to a friend #which you'd think is good but actually it sounds Off for a show #also like the characters... cringe. this throws me back to when i thought this was the height of cool and it doesn't work for me #what gets me is it's pretty tied to its fanbase compared to what i usually engage with #like. it got big based on the fanbase and the reaction to the pilot is the vibe i get #and the fans are.... teenagers? who think this is the height of cool? #which. when i was like 15 i was so into this. but i am Not 15 Anymore. #and i don't want to be around 15yos who don't like the same things in media as me #man this makes me feel old and i was born after 9/11. like. i'm not old. i'm young! #but this makes me feel ancient. like i'm an old no-fun allowed cat lady #wow i have a ramble tag now

[apricotforher]

i for sure need this school to come stop me from being stupid like this

#context.. im starting a new school TOMORROW #and i was like #... throwing my old life away #by getting too drunk #alone #so its sad and depressing and not fun or cool at all #like its giving alcoholic #ANYWAY #im comitted to the school thing #id rather shoot myself in the face than fail at that #IVE BEEN WORKING ALMOST 10 FUCKING YEARS TO BE ABLE TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL #IM NOT GONNA FUCK IT UP #idk what i just pressed to send that not finished tag... #WHAYEVER #i woke up drunk and blind unable to find my glasses #my darling younger pup had apparently thought theyd look better on the sofa rather than my nightstand #so now im like 1.5hrs to being awake.. and im downing “a glass” of wine for it #honestly w the stress of over 500€ looming over me for the most time that ive been conscious today? i deserve it #alcoholic speaking isnt it #good that i dont have any more in the house lol

[deus-ex-mona]

little brothers and their will to #slay, man </3

#while yes yes this post technically does apply to the simp bros i wanna cry about my own bro in the tags so you have been warned~? #so to start off my monthly existential crisis rant i just wanna say that… i’m so so soo envious of my bro. like to a really unhealthy extent #he’s tall enough to reach the top shelves. i can barely touch them if i jump. he has so many friends and even a gf. i have 0 irl friends. #he is able to sit in one spot and focus on his studies. i can’t even sit down for a full half hour to *eat* without getting up to take a nap #he’s learning how to drive. i can’t. he was admitted into university. i wasn’t. he’s able to find what he likes and stick to it. i can’t. #like mannn. he thrived in the course he chose in tertiary education while i lost my passion for it in the middle of my first year. #he’s good at picking up everything he tries (puzzle cubes; bball; you name it he’s good at it) while i’m just. bad at everything i try lol #he’s very good at his studies (aside from languages) and sports. i’m not good at anything at all. #he gets told that he has a great sense of humour. i’m just. boring and annoying. lolllll #he’s super sociable and he has good relations with pretty much every single family member (sans me). i’m not in contsct with most of the fam #heck he was pretty much the favourite from the moment he was born. his baby pics still get brought up from time to time bc of how cute he is #(granted it’s bc he looks like a bby m*ch*l*n man (like the tire company mascot) and he’s super cute in them but still) #and he’s also a guy and content with being a guy which is just… not fair y’knowwww~~~ asian family boy biases and all (cries) #our father pretty much cast me aside once my bro was old enough to hang with him. and even before then the bias was as clear as day. >:((((( #i make the dude mad? i get screamed at and whaccced. bro gets the dude mad? he gets a lesson on how to throw punches instead!!! like wow!!!! #he’s the only one who got to escape any direct physical harm from the guy and yet!!!! he was the 1st one to be singled out for trauma focus #idk if it’s bc of his age back then or whattttt but i can’t believe i had to friggin’ ask my therapist back then for a trauma assessment :( #2015 was a different time… my bro managed to succeed in school while i was rejected from the drama club for being too depressed :(((( #but i’m sure my bro has his own share of struggles… and i’m glad that he has a few groups of friends to chill with. really. #but i just can’t help feeling extremely envious of him. i could never tell him any of this though we hardly talk at home lol #and he pretends not to know me when i approach him in public lmfaoooo. i don’t blame him though; i’d do the same if i were to approach me #so yeah. if you read this i’m sorry for being cringefail and bad at everything~~ am i still allowed to pollute your dash~? <3 #and also. idk if i’ll be able to continue sischange over this week bc i’ll be handling 2 workstations by meself :( and idk how tired i’ll be #but we’ll see ok~? sorry for having zero time management skills am i still qualified to be a legit adult~? #sunday’s 🧂saltfest🧂

[weaponizedhorse]

Someone sent me an ask to write that ADHD part of my disability appeal better but Tumblr has apparently ated it:( if you are that person please send it again!

#ask #I put ated instead of eaten on purpose #throw back to that old school 'I made you a cookie' comic thing

[bicon-crange]

THAT NEURODIVERGENT IN SCHOOL POST IS FUCKING ME UP SO BAD IM RETHINKING MY WHOLE LIFE.

why. like why why. WHY am i so impossible to get rid of. im having like. vivid flashbacks to this kid in high school that my god i think i was just BOTHERING. like he was so explicit like "do not touch me. i hate you. i hate being around you." and i would just be like Haha Thats SO Funny I'm going to poke your arm now. :] like just. was NOT born understanding boundaries at all and also just. not understanding anything.

#HOW DID I EVER NOT GET THROWN OFF A BUILDING #also flashback to when one of my high school friends kept punching me and i was like 'hey. stop that or im going to punch you back.' and #she didnt so i socked her in the stomach and that was TOO FAR and that whole group stopped talking to me #like im. i. how have i ever gotten any friends ever. #like just got told TODAY that one of my old friends was probably a bad one bc I DIDNT KNOW THAT. TAKING A BOOK OUT OF SOMEONES HAND #AND THROWING IT IN THE TRASH WHENEVER YOU TRY TO READ IT... WAS NOT A SILLY GOOFY FRIEND THING #SHE DID THAT WHENEVER I READ A BOOK SHE DIDNT LIKE #bro. how did i. how am i LIVING. #gripping my head in my FUCKING hands today #SO MANY DIFFERENT PEOPLE WERE LIKE FUCK OFF LEAVE ME ALONE AND I JUST. looped my little arm in theirs and was like haha Ok Bestie :] #AND I JUST NEVER LEFT THEM ALONE. FOR YEARS!!! HELPPPP

[krispiecake]

thinking about all the times i was cat called in my school uniform. thinking about how if i wasnt a child or wasnt a girl i would have thrown rocks at their shitty cars. thinking about how if i did do that i might have been attacked and killed for it.

#its kinda crazy cuz like the first time i was cat called i was 11yrs old and walking home from school #ill fitting blazer and ugly blue satchel and new school shoes still hurting. #and it was a man in a grey car. i didnt see him well but i think he was like 30ish #i dont even remember what he said. but i remember how i wanted to throw up. how i wanted to stop walking and i how i just didnt know what #i was meant to do with it. like just keep going and swallow back the anger? #whatever. raised a girl always a girl but never quite a woman like really definitely not that.

[theriverdalereviewer]

please tell me someone here has watched 90210 (the cw remake)

#I just watched the first episode season 2 for the first time in God knows how many years #and it was… fucking genius #not to sound like an old man screaming at clouds #but they don’t make teen dramas like this anymore #like naomi’s big sister jen gets back at naomi by lying to naomi’s boyfriend to get him to sleep with her #and then when Liam realizes that he slept with Naomi’s sister he lies and let’s people think he slept with Naomi’s best friend instead LMAO #and then no one believes annie when she says she didn’t sleep with liam so she calls the cops on the party naomi is throwing #and gets the entire school sent to summer school #and that same night she kills a homeless man in a hit and run #and weeks later starts dating a guy who happens to be the homeless man’s newphew #LIKE? WTF 😭 #and omg naomi was such a mean girl this season #like her tall ass looked ready to stomp over annie the loser #and what naomi did was so fucked up like she spread a naked picture of annie all over the school that’s actually deeply fucked up #and at that point annie stopped giving a fuck so she starts going along with the lie that she slept with Liam #just to piss off naomi even more you know what am you’re a queen for that one #no teen drama is touching that