#They will be mine...once i get paid...

[hetalia-club]

this doesn't have anything to do with anything but I posted the link to the sunglasses I gave Flavio which are one of the pairs of Gucci sunglasses I own. But I posted a link to the wrong ones. Some knock off Gucci brand. They look extremely similar to the ones I have and I didn't even notice it didn't say Gucci on the side.

here's the actual ones I have.

#other fashionistas please forgive this sin #i know not what I've done #but did ya'll see the heart ones they got in their summer vault? #They will be mine...once i get paid... #or whine enough to my BF to buy them for me #whichever comes first #AND THE LITTLE PURSE THAT LOOKS LIKE A CHERRY BOX!!!!

[gierosajie]

*Sculpting a portrait with terracotta* I should do this for the rest of my life

#bleep bloop #once I find a place near my house to get clay it's OVER #the stuff I'm using atm was secured by our prof but we also paid for it so it's mine now. I should make fanart. #me out of nowhere while eating dinner: I should get a kiln #my roommate: ???? #we also got to try making tiny pots on a wheel with clay that turns almost as hard as metal #I'm obsessed now

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

it's the night before payday, otherwise known as The Evening Of Spending-Related Soul Searching, where I spend at least an hour contemplating how much needs to go into my college savings fund and how much I can allow myself for spending money and what in particular to spend money on during this payperiod and what things I'm going to have to give up/wait till next payperiod to buy bc I want other things more.

#we have these absolutely adorable dinosaur plushies at my workplace rn but they're a seasonal item and once they're gone we don't get more #there are three different herbivorous species and they're each a different colour and they're *so* soft and cuddly and I love them #and we had them last season and I waited too late and while I got two of the three colours I accidentally missed out on the third colour #so I was overjoyed when they came back this season! but I've been waiting till it looks like they're selling down before I get mine #just bc there are other things I also need to spend money on and some are a little more pertinent/important than buying myself yet another #stuffed animal lol #buuuut I *had* planned to get one this payperiod... and then I found another thing that I'd like to get #(a real steal of a find on mercari that's exactly the thing I need for a cosplay I want to finish before starting college) #and I had sorta agreed with myself that if it's still available when I get paid I'll buy it #but NOW there's ANOTHER thing that I've been wanting for a long time possibly becoming available next week #and I really want to get that while I have a chance #and so now I'm stuck trying to decide which things to prioritize and which ones to wait on. *sigh* :') #gurt says stuff

[enjolraspermettendo]

Would I be a bitch if I started asking for money in exchange for my class notes

#People are starting to get rude and bossy #Like I've been sending my notes for classmates because this one student doesn't speak the language well enough to follow #This other student works #And I don't mind helping them every once in a while #But it's gotten to a point in which everyone is stopping taking their own notes to then text me for mine #And apparently ignoring them is not enough #So what if I put up a price???? Either I get paid or I don't get bothered anymore

[cinna-bunnie]

GOD. I forget how much fun writing can be. I don’t actually like the semantics of writing out dialogue n stuff (yet?) but I really love coming up with lore and background information and putting a bunch of stuff together for references. 

That metroid dread post and my lil rant in the tags has only further inflamed my desire to make that story I have in mind REAL. I wanna do a Volume Zero type of story in webcomic format so it flows p nicely but def have some reading I need to do for reference.

I have my silly little google doc going though and idk I think if I can stick with it as a thing I keep coming back to for a creative outlet it’d be really fun as a way to work on both my drawing and my writing.

I figured at least while I’m being indecisive about the actual art style I could work on getting some other details together that will guide me later on.

If u are a metroid nerd and r interested in seeing my lil guiding document I would love 2 share a link (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠) right now it's just some stuff hastily thrown together in the middle of my shift but i think it's shaping up into something Fun so far

#hhhhhh look. #a week off from work is not enough. #I need a paid YEAR to seclude into a mountain (with internet) so I can solely work on my art uninterrupted by life's responsibilities. #it's an exciting ongoing project of mine though and the actual reason I got into digital art to begin with #Metroid as a childhood/all-time favorite series too just idk. It's nice to have a deeper way to engage with it as a universe. #Like at this point there is def a certain gameplay style players are expecting that I think kinda locks it in a box ykwim? #like there are SO many interesting little pieces of lore that are just fucking small besides-the-point footnotes and i'm like WHAT?? #AND Y'ALL AREN'T GONNA EXPLORE THAT FURTHER AND PLAY WITH IT?? EXPAND UPON IT?? #but look if /i/ can work myself up to being able to explore and expand upon it that is extremely satisfying in its own way #and idk aaaa. i'm just rly pumped. once u start writing (or drawing. or anything creative) it's sooo hard to stop but i have to WORK #ಥ_ಥ anyways.... just wanted to word vomit about my excitement here and what i'm up to. Sapphic art is its own kind of lovely and fun #and so is furry art. but i rly wanna get into this and get it going fr.

[quarklynx]

Since I'll be taking a brief break from commissions to rest after that huge batch, I wanna try to make my own anime shirts, but like cool ones. I do have the skill to create linocut prints, but I have to figure out what anime to start with before I can even start designing! ...Yet another instance where loving so many things is a curse as well as a blessing smh

#lynx thinks #there are too many good options #whatever i decide on eventually I'll probably design something for it digitally first #and then I'll print it or trace it on tracing paper and transfer it to a block #I'll need to buy a linocut tool since i lost mine.... hm i might need ink for fabric printing specifically too #I'll also have to figure out where i can get cheap blocks #I've done linocut prints before so this is very feasible actually as my next project once i get paid #who knows! maybe I'll even do limited runs of designs if people are interested! #if i can find a cheap source for blocks I won't even have to limit myself to just black and white #ah exciting! #i need to prioritize the geralt cosplay though since the con is next month #but I'll need time for brainstorming and designing as well as resource gathering #so i think this will actually work out perfectly

[burningspy]

Definitely not how I wanted to start my day.

While getting ready to leave this morning I received a text from a coworker asking "did you get paid today?"

I first checked and saw that my paystub was emailed to me like normal and had all the correct hours and pay info on it. Appears everything is good. Then I decided to log in to my bank account. Nope. No paycheck had been deposited. The money was not there.

Get to work and ask a couple other coworkers, they did not get their pay either. Send a text to my boss and his boss, they also have not received their money.

Absolutely no one in our company got paid, not even the highest level executives.

It appears there was an issue with the payroll processing company my employer uses and, even though paystubs were sent out to everyone showing a paycheck was issued, no money actually went anywhere.

They claim it has been resolved and everyone should receive their pay by tonight, but I won't know if it has really been fixed until the money shows up in my account.

As long as I have it by end of day tomorrow at the latest. Rent is due on Saturday!

#personal #mine #work #pay #paycheck #not getting paid on time sucks #I will start working hard again once I have my money

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#unprecedented emotions in this body o mine. like. this may b surprising given the amount of bitching i do on this website #but let me assure u irl i am exceptionally patient. but right now. there is a limit and that is where we now stand #and again this is prob my fault but ive come to the conclusion that fuck these custom chambers. fuck the amount of work that went into them #fuck all of this. im not fucking using them. i will sit here with this one fucking bryophite chamber if it takes me all goddam day bc at #least i fucking trust the values. that means ill have to split up measurements by 2 days but fuck u im right abt this #the solution is: u cant fucking do 98 samples at once. that it. im sorry. fuck u #and i would probably have come to this conclusion earlier if i had thr time to test but doing it all rught now with no fucking room for #grace makes it very fucking clear. so idk. im not fucking using the chambers. and im not looking forward to explaining this to my boss #bc shes so excited abt this project that i have been dreading since its conception. i started with the 3 chambers and it was somehow #even more awful than i would have imagined. fuck that. 2 or 3 fucking weeks of this #and im not even getting paid for all the extra work i do bc i don't get overtime. im not even technically allowed to work weekends or over #40hrs a week. im just doinf this bc im already so miserable why thr fuck not. #hhhhh im being such a brat abt this for real. ugh but i dont wanna meet with my boss #bc this feels like the time where i have to explain that like. listen. u know that thing im really good at and have spent fucking hour and #hours and hours and hours of time doing? well its catastrophically destructive to my brain and thats whats landed us here #where im so fucking fed up that i wanna quit. clean cut and never work with this stuff ever again #and if i have to use the 3 chambers i might die. i might just evaporate away into a million pieces bc i dont wanna deal with this #but i dont wanna explain that bc then shell feel bad and this isnt her fault. i have an issue thats out of my control and im letting it #devour me whole so like 🤷‍♂️ its my fault bleh #whatever. itll be fine. ive got a coherent argument as to why this is too much. and i kno im fucking right so there it is #i feel like that helps me make decisions: heres what has to happen. heres whats preventing that from happening #and there it is. it either u can fix it or u cant. thats it. u deal with the things in ur control #lol at least im not alone to stew in my anger. im working with 2 other ppl today. so i mean i say that im fucking furious bc im visual fine #lol bc im a patient and level headed person irl im just really whiney online bc i have no outlet. so itll b fine. decision made now we just #deal with it. ugh but how tf am i gonna distract myself from how miserable this is all day? thats the real question #brain gets Interrupted ever 5 min bleh agony #unrelated

[prismaticutie]

Everyone LOOK AT MY NEW PINS...

#I love them I love them I love them I love them I love them #They're blind boxes so you can't guarantee which ones you get #I wasn't gonna buy them at first but then I saw SUNDROP AND MOONDROP #And I was like I HAVE TO. #So I did :3 #And I got lucky! The series has 6 pins and after buying 5 boxes we got 4 unique ones! #We got a double of Chica but that's okay bc she's a cutely ♡ #I got some hot cash (yes I got these at Hot Topic) so I'm gonna buy more...once my hot cash can be used... #Also apparently everything in the store was buy one get one 30% off? So we paid less for the pins to begin with! #Yippee! #REALLY unknown fact abt me is that I collect enamel pins. I like them a lot they are everything to me okay...? #I get most of mine from Hot Topic which sucks but I just don't know anywhere else to get enamel pins #Lumi talks #<- new tag. I might use it more I might not. Who knows...?

[lvllns]

well that’s one way to find out everyone apparently thinks i’m already in a master’s program

#reed.txt #my mother asked ONCE if i had heard back in AUGUST #and i was like ‘no’ and that. that was the last time anyone said. anything. #and then i get the family update letter from my grandmother which is so passive aggressive i hate it #and she’s like ‘how’s the degree going’ LIKE??? EXCUSE ME???? #IT ISN’T GOING!!! I HAVE NEW SCHOOLS TO APPLY TO. #also why tf do u care u paid for everyone else’s school but not mine so kick rocks #THE BEST THING. nobody has. asked what i’m planning on studying either like. ffs. #literally just like. i don’t know how to word this but like. nobody listens or cares in this family. #everyone was sooooo involved with my sister all the time they loooove her #and then it’s like ‘oh yeah what about you i guess’ like I KNOW OKAY I GET IT #u don’t have to make it THAT obvious that i’m the fuck up okay #like hi i also exist too but oh no—okay we are too busy with sister things i see now okay #negative cw #MAN FUCK THIS i had been having a GOOD day and now >:|

[autistic-shaiapouf]

I need to go to work and be nothing short of absolutely mid

#same pay no matter what i do and i need to make it all about meeeeee #as soon as the debt isn't hanging over me i think i need to start really looking for something else #as per what my therapist would say. this job no longer aligns with my values #i need to scale back how i work or i am going to burn myself out really badly and ive already done that once #like yeah the pay is nice but i am no longer being paid enough for the shit we're making me put up with #i just. need something slower. and if i end up getting lucky and supplementing income with my art #it would open a lot more venues; FUCK i could drop down to part time but that's a huge huge huge if #i wouldn't count on it but. you know. i need to keep telling myself how much of this isn't mine #the attitudes given to me are not reflective of me or my work. whatever happens must happen #i want to hold onto that while I'm there and being pressured to do 20 different things #i saw a post with the phrase ''calculated mediocrity'' and. yeah. yeah i think that's what i want here #pay to cover the bills but not enough to break my back over it #shai speaks

[crybabydraws]

This teacher is about to feel my academic wrath. A fully online class, no late work allowed, no make-up work, no extra credit, very few assignments and they all are 10% or more of your grade; and no reminders, announcements or interaction from the teacher about said assignments and due dates.

All of the assignments are available for submission rn. I'm gonna finish this class before the end of February out of pure spite. She'll see me turn in the final paper before March.

#I cannot stand classes like this. I missed one deadline for a class that I forgot that I even have and I can't get an A anymore. #I've written a full research paper 13 pages long before in 3 days. The page requirement was 5. Your assignments are all 2 pages long. #You think I can't finish your course in a month or less? You think I won't make sure I never have to interact with a class I paid for ever #again just bc I hate it? You think I'm going to deal with your bullshit class for a whole semester and risk forgetting about an assignment #and missing the deadline because I waited for the week it was due? Hell no. The second you give me a 10/10 on an assignment I am #submitting all of them all at once bc by the time you've graded said assignment I will have finished every single one. #ramblings #mine #AND IN A SCHOOL WHERE IF YOU GET A C- IN A CLASS YOU HAVE TO FUCKING RETAKE IT BC IT COUNTS AS A FAIL! #ALMOST FORGOT TO MENTION THAT PART

[binders-and-beanies]

I am having. A very bad day

#car repairs taking multiple days and costing more than I’ll make this entire ‘break’ #dad berating me for getting my car worked on at all + treating me like I’m stupid for taking it to the only place that would do it #when it’s literally my money out of my pocket #literally forced me to cancel one of the services to get it done somewhere else that will take longer #bc he sees every car issue as an opportunity to leave me without transportation bc he wants me isolated and dependent #complained to the people at this second repair shop about how stupid it was for me to get it done at the literal only reliable place here #complained the whole drive home about my mom being poor and a burden and basically asked me to tell her that #asked me to get her family to Also ask her to just decide to stop being poor #he also consistently lies about money knowing that I know he’s lying #bc I see his tax info I know how much he has. it’s hundreds of thousands #he complains that he has ‘literally no money’ after he has to spend his ~bonus~ on anything that’s not another international vacation #imagine having a fucking bonus. my entire last paycheck covered 10% of part 1/2 of my car repairs #I’m already upset about having to spontaneously pay $1000 + whatever this ‘cheaper’ place charges me. tomorrow if I’m VERY LUCKY #I don’t need him treating this like something I did to spite him. when I’m the one who paid #I don’t need him treating me like a bad person for needing a car repair #I don’t need him reminding me my mom may be literally left to die once he retires in a year #I’m having a bad enough day. I only rarely see him and this is how he acts when I do #and then he’s like why don’t I see you more #mine #txt #personal #+ he talked abt needing to have a ‘hard conversation’ w my mom and now I have to decide whether to tell her #whether to give her the heads up or let her not be more afraid than she already is. this should not be my responsibility

[gothamcityneedsme]

whens time displacement coming back dude i love it

I'm glad you have enjoyed it!!!! TD is a story very close to my heart and I am so happy that people are still enjoying it.

I don't really have an ETA for the next chapter. It is extremely not well-formed yet. I have loads of notes and such about TD but the actual bones/structure of next chapter are...very very minimal.

I will get back to it though, TD is just not something I can work on all the time. I have to gear up for it and do a lot of sort of rereading and pre-research because I'm just not as into Homestuck as I was when I started it.

I do want to do a full Homestuck reread, which would help my process immensely, but that's a pretty big undertaking, so I haven't yet started that.

Depending on how things are going in my life, I might try to get work done in early 2024 so I could get another chapter out for Homestuck day, but I don't know. I wrote/edited/etc the 20k words of Chapters 22 and 24 to get them out this year, but Chapter 22 was a full draft that I had to rewrite and Chapter 24 had several thousand words of half-formed scenes before I went in to finish it and then edit.

TLDR I just don't have the same amount of pre-work done for Chapter 25 yet so it is much much less formed atm.

Sorry if this isn't the answer you wanted? I'm sort of vaguely rambling about my process here. Just know that TD is a story I want to continue writing and will continue writing, but it's just not viable for it to be 'priority #1' for me, so it's sort of a side project.

#shitpost #i know like. writing and updating a fic once a year if that is like. pretty bad updates-wise #and while i am still passionate about TD and while I do still like Homestuck like. #it was something i was way more into in college. it has not become like #a long-term special interest of mine. so #writing a story that is so large and intense for something that is not as much of a special interest means it takes like. #a more concerted effort? I really have to gear up for it and focus #It takes so much time to write every TD chapter post like. chapter 15 or so. And I love doing it but like #the scale of effort it demands is a lot #and i mean writing in general is always that way! and im always writing so many things #If I only wrote TD I would have progressed far more but. I just can't do that #all of this being said. ive considered a joke commission tier called 'i want it now' #and if someone paid it i would write the next TD chapter like. as my active project. haha #I don't think i'd actually try to impliment that and I really doubt anyone would ever like. DO that. but it's a funny thought #Since I write for fun I can't stick to any project all the time. #If I was paid it would be like. a different mindset. but #I have to chase my interest/my joy and while I do buckle down and PUSH and WORK to get things done. #i like....have to choose where i put that effrot #i only have so much effort and so much time #so i have to choose to spend it well #and im afraid right now my two 'main projects' are long-running OC stuff. and. a completely different fanfiction #okay sorry again for how long and ramblely this is #fic: time displacement

[alxclaremont]

hahahahahaha i am so screwed hahahahahahaha

#got an email today to send in our information for the big scholarship i got last year and guess who doesn't meet the GPA requirement!!!!!!!! #i litrally don't know what to do #i literally can't even text my friend who also got the scholarship because her grades and gpa are wonderful and mine are shit and it will #make me feel like the most stupid person in the world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #anyway. i am going to email the lady tomorrow and be like 'hey heres the situation pls tell me if theres anything i can do' #because i was genuinely depending on this scholarship to help me pay rent and stuff but lol #im kinda hoping that they'll take pity on me since i'm retaking the class that i failed that plummeted my gpa and once i transfer the credit #it will boost my gpa and just be like 'yeah no worries we'll send the money once you meet the requirement' #that OR they'll be like 'due to ur special circumstances of being an orphan we are taking pity on you and will work with you' #OR EVEN 'yeah whatever we'll send the money this time but if it happens again you're getting it taken away' #i genuinelly don't know what i'll do if i get it taken away #like yeah i'll have my school paid for but literally only because i took out loans #not to mention that i will have to tell everyone that i lost the scholarship and even if i don't tell them they will find out because they #do a banquet every single year to celebrate new and past recievers and everyone will notice i am not there #and i will be the biggest failure in the entire world who couldn't even meet a very simple fucking gpa requirement!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #anyway. forcing myself to not panic and feel despair yet #i am actually going to text one of my other friends who is not involved in this whatsoever and get her advice #its fine it will be fine it will all work out i am not going to lose the scholarship they literally told me even if my mom hadn't died my #senior year that they still would have given me the scholarship it is FINE i will be FINE #lacey talks

[eggs-can-draw]

May our killing game ocs do a funny dance together

May they do their silly little jigs!!

#eggs can answer #just to make sure its clear my ocs arent specifically dr ocs I have a Thing I'm working on for them #they're for a turn based rpg (which is why the mc is semi nonverbal lmao shes a (mostly) silent protag) #one day maybe I'll mkae a fangan with fangan characters tho #I love logic games like dr that force me to think #ive paid lip service to the concept w/ a friend of mine maybe I'll revive the project once we both get more time lmao