Love and Leather /part forty/
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Warnings: language, drug talk, super angsty, super sad, super fucked up
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*this continues from the previous chapter
I was sitting in Nikki’s dressing room, waiting for him to come back from the stage. I wanted to attempt to smooth things over with him. I could hear the music all the way from backstage and behind closed doors, Mötley was currently performing ‘Wild Side’ which meant they were a few songs away from ending the night.
I sighed as I picked at my nails, readjusting the rings on my fingers, when there was a knock on the door.
“Come in!” I yelled, not bothering to get up and answer it.
“Hey, they said I’d find you in here.” I turned around as the back of the couch was facing the door. I saw Slash in the door frame, leaning against it with a can of beer in his hand.
“Just waiting for Nikki...” I told him as he shook his head, “Why? He was such an asshole to you at dinner.” I watched as he entered the dressing room, closing the door and coming to sit right next to me on the couch.
I shrugged, “I know...but our fight the night before got out of hand.” I mumbled as I looked over at his low hazy eyes, I knew that look. Nikki always has that look.
My eyes traveled down his bare torso, before looking at the crease of elbow. They were bruised and I could see a little pinhole that looked fresh.
“You too?” I asked quietly, finger running over the abused skin. He moved away from my touch.
“Sixx. He offered.” He explained, looking away from me and putting the can of beer on the table aside us, “Well, showed me the other night. I’ve never felt anything like it before.” He explained as I rolled my eyes. Do I just have a thing for junkie rockstars?
“Be careful with that stuff, wouldn’t want to see you fuck yourself up.” I told him as he smiled at me.
“Thanks for caring.” He said, putting his hand on the side of my face.
“I like you, Vanity.” I listened to him, watching his hand grip my thigh before running his fingers along the inner part of my legs.
I gave him a sweet smile, “I could treat you so much better than a guy who doesn’t appreciate you.” He retorted as I swallowed the lump in the back of my throat. I nodded in understandment as he put his hand under my chin, gripping it to make me look at him.
“He clearly doesn’t see what’s in front of him. You’re so damn beautiful, you’ve got a heart of gold. You could be my girl, and I wouldn’t be scared of it like he is. Nikki is fucked up in the head.”
I pulled away from his touch, “Don’t talk about him like that.” I of course, defended Nikki. I always did when he wasn’t around.
“Angel, c’mon. How long are you gonna play this cat and mouse game with him?” He questioned as I shook my head, “Slash, stop. You don’t know what you’re talking about.” I ordered as he nodded.
“You’re right. I don’t. But I know how guys like Nikki are. They string you around, promising you all the wonderful things in the world, but at the end of the day fails to fulfill those promises.” He said as I listened to him.
“First, you think he’s changing for you and that he’s actually trying to make you happy. Make you think he wants the relationship. Spending money on lavish gifts for you, taking you out to the best places, traveling, buying you a nice house.” I stared at him as he sipped on his beer, his hands were getting dangerously close to the hem of my skirt, fingers fumbling with it.
“But the materialistic things can only last so long. You’re a girl who needs structure, that’s how you were raised. You need stability, he can’t fucking provide you that when he’s off getting high every single second of the day.”
I felt my eyes burning, tears forming at the brim. How did he even know all of this?
“I can tell by the way you look at him, you want that life with him. You want the house, the marriage, the family...but really, and be honest. Do you really believe that a guy like Nikki Sixx can give that to you?”
“No...” I said as I wiped my eyes, being careful not to mess up my make up.
“Angel don’t cry-“ Slash said, wrapping his arms around me and kissing my shoulder, “He’s made you cry enough, don’t you think it’s time to move on?” His hand was soothing as it ran down my back.
“I can show you how a man is suppose to treat a woman, I was raised right. Unlike him. You don’t need that problem.” He cupped my jaw, pulling me into a kiss and moving me onto his lap.
“Angel, he pushed you away and right into my arms, so just let me.” He broke the kiss, his lips still grazing over mine.
I nodded as I engulfed my fingers into his hair, placing my lips on him. He was quick to tug down the tube top I was wearing. Placing rough, wet kisses down my neck and chest.
I gripped his shoulders as I looked up at the ceiling. Maybe it was time to let this thing with Nikki go. It’s not good for either me or him. I moaned when we started sucking at my neck, his hands venturing down my body and continuing to take the rest of my clothes off.
*Nikki’s POV*
“That was a fucking good ass show! The crowd was insane! I’m ready to fucking party!” T-bone was energetic as usual, more so after the concert.
“Hey man, I know you guys are fighting, but can Van come?” He asked me. I exhaled as I handed my bass to a roadie and grabbed a towel, wiping the sweat off my face before draping it over my shoulders.
“Yeah, I don’t care. But if she mouths off to me I’m blaming you.” I warned him as he laughed, “Dude, just fucking apologize to her already, y’all are two moody ass individuals who are even more moody when you two aren’t getting along with each other.”
I glared at him before snorting a quick line of blow. I rubbed my nose, “Fuck off, don’t you think I know that.”
“I’m gonna go shower before-“ I was interrupted when Axl walked up to me “Hey Sixx, Vanity wanted me to tell you she’s in your dressing room waiting for you.” He said, with Duff at his side. Duff was trying not to laugh, this idiot was always fucking laughing at something.
Tommy laughed as he smacked my chest, “Maybe she’s already ready for you, as usual.” I was swift to punch him in the arm
“Fuck you, T-bone-“ I let out a chuckle, “Thanks for telling me man, I’ll catch up with you guys after.” I told them before I started walking back to my dressing room.
I smirked at the groupies that were waiting near my door, “Sorry girls, not tonight.” I told them as they then stuck their nose up at me. I rolled my eyes as I reached for the door knob.
I opened up the door, rage instantly flooding through me. Vanity’s eyes were closed. Moaning loudly with lips parted open as she was on top of Slash naked. I knew that face like the back of my fucking hand, she was about to fucking cum.
“Are you fucking kidding me!?!” I shouted, slamming the door. Her eyes snapped open, going wide in shock as she saw me standing there.
I watched as she got off of him, “Nik...Nikki, just calm down.” She stuttered as she put her top back on, Slash was quick to pull up his pants.
“In my fucking dressing room!? You want me to fucking calm down!?” I screamed, kicking over a small table that was full of empty glass bottles.
“...and you, get the fuck out!! Get the fuck out of my sight!!” I yelled at Slash, he did what I said and left.
“I am so sorry, I...I, Nikki, I’m sorry!!” She trembled as she pulled jeans back on. I saw her start to cry.
“Sorry?! You’re sorry?! What for?! Sorry you got caught!? Don’t you dare start your fucking crying with me!!” I shouted at her, seeing her flinch at the loudness of my voice. Usually I would feel bad, but I didn’t give a flying fuck.
She quickly wiped the tears from her face, but they kept coming, “I didn’t meant too!!” She fought back, tears and sobs escaping from her. I laughed in her face.
“Didn’t mean too?! You just happened to trip on his dick!? You sounded like you very much meant too!!” I screamed at her as she tried coming closer to me.
“Nikki...I..” She was at a loss for words, “Baby, I’m sorry!” She exclaimed, trying to reach out for me but I slapped her hands away.
“Don’t! Call me your fucking baby!!” I yelled at her, “Get the fuck out!!” I yelled, gripping her arm and trying to force her to the door.
“Get the fuck out!! You ain’t fucking sorry!!” I screamed in her face, as she tried pushing me away.
“No! I’m not leaving!” She shouted back, removing my grip from around her arm, “You fuck girls all the time and I never get mad! But I fuck one guy that’s isn’t you one time, and it’s suddenly fuck you, Vanity, right!?!” She screamed as I stared at her in disbelief. This wasn’t the fucking same.
“Don’t give me that fucking bullshit!! You’re mad because I caught you being a little slut!! I would never fuck a girl in your own god damn space!!” I yelled at her, “Fuck it. I’m fucking leaving.” I said as I reached for the door and walked away from her.
“I’m done! I’m fucking done with you!!” I screamed back her, knowing she was following me down the hallway.
I felt her hand go around my wrist, but I pulled my arm away from her, “I’m not done. Don’t you fucking walk away from me!!” She yelled as she followed me out the doors and outside, I felt the cool air hit my face, I was fucking heated. I felt like I was gonna explode.
I turned around fast, as she smacked right into my chest, “Go finish off with him!!! I know you were about to cum!! Go let him feel how good it is! Let him fucking feel where my cock has already been!!” I screamed at her, before sticking my middle finger in her face, “Tell him to enjoy my sloppy seconds.” I growled, before turning my back towards her once again and starting to walk to my tour bus.
“Nikki! Stop!” She yelled, grabbing my arm and forcefully spinning me around, “Please, Nik. I am so sorry, just talk to me.” She begged, trying to catch her breath as she stared at me through bloodshot watery eyes.
“Talk? What the fuck is there to talk about?” I snarled, “You wanted to fuck him so bad, so go on and do it then.” I said, as she shook her head.
“I have nothing to say to you, Vanity.” I said, running my hands over my face as I stepped away from her and stared at the ground.
How could she do this to me?
“I...I don’t know what I was thinking. I shouldn’t have let him into your dressing room. I am so sorry. He was just saying stuff to me and I believed him...I, Nikki I am so fucking sorry.” She pleaded, running her nails through her hair.
I looked at her, my eyes matching hers as I was so fucking pissed I felt tears building up, “Why do you do this to me? You let every other guy flirt and talk and fuck you, but god forbid I want those things.” I expressed my feelings as I stared at her.
She seemed puzzled as she sniffled, “We do those things all the time...” she trailed off, wiping her eyes.
“No! Not the way I want...not the way I want and with how I feel.” My voice was timid, I was becoming scared of the emotions that were slipping out of me.
She wiped her cheeks with her hand as her eyes never left me, “Nikki, What are you talking about?” She asked, clearing her throat.
“I love you.” I said softly, letting her reach for my face as her nail brushed over my cheek. Wiping away hurtful tears and the face paint.
“Nikki, I love you too. You’re one of the closest people I’ve ever had in my life.” I groaned as she wasn’t comprehending what I was saying. I pushed her hands away from me.
“Fuck, do I have to fucking spell it out for you?! I love you, Vanity. I’m in love with you!” I yelped, making her take a step back from me.
“Nikki...” she whispered my name, “I have been in love with you for such a long fucking time now. You’re all I fucking think about. You’re the only sober thought I have and crave for when I’m alone.” I shook my head as she gawked at me.
“But I get you. I get it. You can’t love me back because you’re Vanity Blackwood. I’m too much for you, too sleazy, too god damn useless to you. Only going to ruin you one day like the other girls, right?”
She shook her head, biting her lip as she looked away from me, “Its true and you fucking know it, so don’t try to tell me it isn’t.”
I heard laughter when I saw Tommy and Vince walk out with girls on their arms. Vanity looked over her shoulder as they got closer to us.
“Hey guys! We ready to go-“ Vince stopped talking when he saw her crying and me livid.
“Uh...never mind, we will uh....see you two later.” Vince said, as Tommy patted my shoulder, “Love you, Van.” He tried making light of the situation, seeing that her and I were in the middle of something. They continued to walk to the limo.
She gave him a forced smile, as she looked back at me. Her lips parted as she wanted to say something, but didn’t. She instead shook her head and turned away from me, holding herself as she walked back inside.
I followed her, gripping her arm to turn her around. She was full of tears and wouldn’t look at me, “I gotta go...” she muttered as she walked back into my dressing room, grabbing her jacket and purse.
“Vanity...” I said her name, not knowing what to even say to her but she continued getting all her stuff anyways. She avoided my gaze the whole time. I didn’t even realize she followed me without putting her shoes on.
“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry, Nikki.” She said, before walking past me and out the door, hand covering her mouth to keep her sobs in.
I was quick to slam the door behind her. I stared at the couch before flipping it over and throwing glass bottles at the wall. I kicked over the table, not caring that it sent all the blow flying around the air.
I saw a bright green wrapper on the floor, I stared down at it. At least they had the fucking common sense to use a god damn condom.
I stood in silence as I tried to keep everything together. I was trying to keep myself from running, from going back home and locking myself away in the closet. But I couldn’t. Tonight was the first night of the tour.
I rubbed my face before pushing my hair back. The guys said they were going to the strip club. Wonder if Slash went too? I should go see what they’re up too.
I walked into the strip club all the guys were at. Booze, drugs and loads of tits were instantly in my face. Usually I would enjoy it, but it was all just a distraction at this point. Out of the corner of my eye i saw Slash laughing with his own band mates, plus T-bone and Vince. Mick probably already went to the tour bus.
Slash looked up from laughing and leans back, "Man, I never seen a woman so close to coming yet so scared. It was sort of a turn on."
I pushed his boots that were comfortably resting on the table, off, “She was only scared of what I might do if and when I found out.” Nikki says, taking the bottle of Jack Daniels from Vince’s hands and sitting down next to Tommy
Slash glared at me, putting his boots back up on the table before finishing his drink and calling for a server to refill it, "I'm not scared of your scrawny ass Sixx."
“Well you fucking should be. You should be thankful I’ve allowed you to stay and enjoy the booze and drugs I’ve shared with you.” I barked at him, taking a long swig of the whiskey.
"Hey, its not my fault that you can’t be a fucking gentlemen to a an amazing girl." He laughed, shaking his head.
“Fuck you Slash, you don’t know anything about me or her and what I’ve done for her!” I yelled at him, Vince put his hand on my shoulder to push me back onto the couch.
"Yeah well I guess the rumors are true about her." Slash spoke out, Axl and Duff followed with a collective “oh”
“Slash, don’t.” T-bone warned him.
I slapped the cup out of Slash’s hands, sending the liquor to the floor, “Shut the fuck up. None of that shit is true.” I was quick to defend Vanity. I knew one of the rumors of her going around were true, she’s only been with one guy on the rockstar scene, and that’s me. The rest were all made up by jealous groupies and other bands we have performed with. She always turned everyone down, why couldn’t she just do the same with Slash?
He looked at me, shaking his head in disapproval, “Whether you like to admit it or not, she goes around. She even fucked T-bone. It was totally worth the hundred bucks."
“You put a fucking bet down on her!?” I yelled, standing up in complete fury. I was about to rip his god damn head off his shoulders, “T-bone has never fucked her....right man!?” I shouted, looking over at him.
My expression changed when I noticed Tommy looking down at the floor and swirling his beer in his cup.
I then smacked the cup out of his hand, “Tell me you did not fuck Vanity!!!”
"It-we it just happened..."
*flashback, Tommy’s POV*
Vanity held my hand as I helped her walk up the stairs of the hotel entrance, “T-bone, slow down you fucking giraffe.” She giggled as I sighed, I may have gotten her too drunk and Vince may have fed her one to many rails of cocaine.
“Let’s just get you back to Nikki, before he kills me.” I said, pushing open the door, but I heard her trip behind me.
“Nice, real nice.” I laughed as I saw her sitting on the stairs. She wiped off the blood from her knees and got back up, “Can you carry me? I don’t think I’ll make it.” She asked, a shit eating grin on her face.
I turned around, “Jump on.” I said, patting my shoulder. She jumped on my back after a few attempts, her legs were wrapped around my waist and her arms were around my shoulders.
“Nikki is such a big baby! I was just sick two weeks ago and I went out and partied, but he gets a little fever and cough and it’s suddenly the end of the world.” She complained as I pushed the button for the elevator
“Y’know how he is. He’s the most dramatic fucker I’ve ever met...besides you.” I teased her as she playfully smacked the side of my head.
“That is so untrue! You’re dramatic as well, talking about I’m in love with a new girl everyday. Please, T-bone.” I could tell just by her tone, that was said with a long eye roll.
“I got so much love to give, Princess. You’re lucky Sixx snatched you up when he did.” I laughed as she chuckled in my ear.
I walked down the long hallway, “I’m not ready to stop partying, do you have any blow in your room?” She asked as I nodded, putting her down in front of my door as I unlocked the room.
She walked in front of me, “Jesus Christ, this place is a disaster.” She said, pointing at the TV that was on the floor face down, bottle upon bottles of alcohol and multiple mismatched pairs of thongs and bras.
She sat down on the edge of the bed, kicking off her heels as she looked at me, I stared at her seeing her dress was rising up just a little before she pulled it back down.
“Well, do I need to get it myself? Or are you just gonna stare at me the whole time? I mean both is fine.” She said, an arrogant smirk on on her face as she ran her fingers through her hair.
“Mhm, yeah...right.” I turned my back to her, going through my bag as I found a baggie of coke.
“This what you want?” I teased as I brought it over to her. Her eyes lit up as she bit her lip.
“I should just introduce you to the guy that gives us this.” I said, but she shook her head, “That sounds scary. I’ll just take yours instead.” She responded as she watched me cut a few lines for her.
“I’m sorry that you had to get a tattoo the other night, I thought you would put up a fight or Nikki would say no.” I confessed, as she snorted up lines, rubbing her nose as she looked at me through low, bloodshot eyes.
“It’s okay. I kinda like it. I know Nikki loves it. He wants me to get more.” She explained as I laughed, “Of course he would like it, now your his for life.” I joked as she let out an eye roll.
“Yeah, Yeah whatever.” She said passing the tray to me.
“T-bone?” She asked as she laid onto the bed, I turned my cheek to see her. Hair sprawled out as she bit on her lip, “Ye-Yeah, Princess?” I asked as I cleared my throat.
“Does Nikki ever talk about me when I’m not around?” She questioned, sitting back up as I passed it back to her, she continued railing lines.
“Van, he never shuts up. Sometimes I’ll start banging on the drums or Mick will hit a riff just to get him to shut the fuck up.” She giggled as she leaned into my shoulder.
“The only time he’s quiet is when you two are fighting, then he’s on edge.” I expressed, hearing her let out a sigh.
“I wish him and I didn’t fight the way we do, it’s toxic.” She said, resting her head against my arm as she snorted another line.
“I think you two both know what you want, you guys are just scared to admit it.” I explained, putting down the tray and grabbing a half drunken beer, she followed my movements but grabbed a bottle of whiskey.
“I don’t know what I want from him, all I know is he is a great fuckin lay.”
“Says the same thing about you..” I told her, wiggling my eyebrows as I saw her cheeks turn pink.
“Shut up, T-bone.” She rolled her eyes, looking away from me as she took a sip of the alcohol.
“I meant what I said, just a little while ago. You’re lucky he got to you first.” I said, as she tilted her head to the side.
“I mean technically, you guys were both in the diner at the same time. But yeah, you’re right. Why do you say that though?” She seemed curious as I took the bottle out of her hand, putting it back where she found it.
“I see you as my sister, but sometimes I wonder what it would be like if we were more.” I said slowly, noticing her eyebrows furrow as she bit on her bottom lip.
“I mean, you’re fucking hot. Drop dead gorgeous, and Nikki is a lucky son of a bitch to have you on his arm…I also think he doesn’t realize how lucky he is sometimes. I love him to death, but it’s dysfunction junction over there, Y’know what I mean?” I laughed as she smiled at me, shaking her head. I quickly put my hand under her chin to get her eyes back on mine.
“You’re gonna get me in trouble, Tommy.” She breathed out, looking down at my hand as I traced random shapes against her thigh.
“Maybe we don’t tell him.” I whispered before placing a kiss on her lips, god they were soft. And she tasted like a fucking vanilla cupcake.
She was quick to pull away from me, getting off the bed and standing in front of me, “Tommy…we can’t. You’re Nikki’s best friend. He would kill us if he found out.” She was hesitant as she bit her her thumb nail, giving me a worrisome look.
“He would hate me.” I grabbed her hand gently and brought her back to me. I wrapped my arms around her waist, hands squeezing her ass as she gripped my shoulders.
“He won’t find out Princess, I promise.”
*end flashback, Nikki’s POV*
I rolled my eyes, “fuck all of you, fuck the rest of this tour. I’m done.” I stood up and started walking out. How the fuck could she treat me like I’m a fucking joke?
“Nikki…” Tommy followed after me when I stepped outside, “it was a mistake you know I view Vanity like a sister. It was a moment and its never happened again.” I was sick and tired of everyone giving me bullshit excuses tonight.
I turned around, shoving Tommy away from me, “You still let it fucking happen!! You’re my fucking brother! How could you fuck her when you know how I feel about her!?” I shouted at him.
“And then you’re just sitting here with that fucker and laughing with him, whose fucking side are you on!?” I screamed at him.
“I’m sorry dude…we just…I…it was my fault. She was reluctant to sleep with me, but I convinced her anyways. I’m so sorry, Sixx.” Tommy explained, running his hands through his hair.
“You want to kick his ass? We can kick his ass. You can kick my ass if you want? I’ll take the beating like a man.” I shook my head.
“I really am sorry. I was drunk and she was high. If it makes it any better, she made me use a condom.” I scoffed at his remarks as I glared down at the parking lot.
“But I swear to you Sixx, it hasn’t happened since. That was the only time. She avoided me for like a wee-“
“That’s why she was avoiding you!? She said it was cause of the whole tattoo thing and she was just pissed at you.”
Everything made god damn sense now.
“Fuck this, I’m going to her fucking house.” I said, walking over to my car but he grabbed my arm.
“Alright, let’s just fucking take a breath. You’re pissed off and she is probably emotional right now, that is one deadly combination.” I shook my head, after taking a breath like he said.
“Yes I am. I am fine. I just want to talk.” I grumbled as i opened the door of the limo. Tommy looked like he wanted to pull his hair out.
“God, just….don’t do anything you’re gonna regret.”
*Vanity’s POV*
“Okay, okay…lets just relax. Take a breath, honey, you are hyperventilating. You need to calm down.” Tonya said, holding me in her arms as I cried and sobbed into her chest.
“I…I-I can’t.” I clutched my chest, sitting up as I was having a panic attack. I was gasping for air, gasping for him. I felt like my whole world was crashing and burning around me.
I started coughing so hard, I began gagging, “H-How could I be s..so fucking stupid!!” I yelled out in frustration as I buried my head in my knees.
“Maybe he’ll-“ Lucia looked at the brighter sides of things, “He’s fucking done with me!!” I yelled out, choking on more tears.
“He..he just came in and started saying, hyping up his game and saying sweet words to me! That I fucking bought into! And I just fucking got naked for him!!” I yelped, gripping the couch cushions, my nails digging in to them.
“And Nikki’s face when he walked in. It fucking killed me! I know he’s not my boyfriend but I practically fucking cheated on him! How could I be so stupid!?” I cried out, grabbing the tissue Lucia held in front of me.
The doorbell rang, “oh, food. Good, I was getting hungry…you hungry Van?” Lucia said, walking over to the front door.
“N-no…” I breathed out, leaning into Tonya’s shoulder.
“Move! Where the fuck is she!” I heard Nikki’s booming voice echo into the living room.
“Nikki, no. Go away!” Tonya yelled, getting off the couch as I pulled myself up too.
“Vanity, come here. Now!” Nikki yelled, looking straight at me.
“Am I just not fucking good enough for you!?” He yelled at me as I took hesitant steps to him. I cried as I shook my head, “You say no, but are you really fucking sure!?” He yelled at me.
“N-no…that’s not true!!” I fought back, voice croaking as I stepped out on the front porch with him.
He laughed bitterly, “Why’d you fuck Slash, better yet. Why in the fucking world did you sleep with Tommy!?”
I heard Lucia and Tonya collectively gasp. I stared at him. I couldn’t think of anything to say. He was never suppose to find out.
*flashback, Vanity’s POV*
“Hold still!” T-bone let out a giggle as he tried putting a line of coke on my ass, but I kept shaking it in his face.
I heard him snort it, then felt his tongue drag across my skin, “Wooo!!” He yelled out as he smacked my ass.
I laid down on the bed naked as his eyes traveled down my body, “Wanna go again?” He asked me, his hand running between my thighs.
I shoved his hand away, getting up and putting my dress back on, “I have to get back to Nikki, he’s probably waiting for me.” I said, bending over to put my heels on.
“Can I keep these?” I looked at Tommy, he was holding up the purple panties i was wearing before he took them off.
I rolled my eyes, “Goodnight T-bone.”
“Goodnight, my dirty little secret.” He cackled, as I turned around to flip him off before shutting the door.
I walked into the room I shared with Nikki. He was sitting in the middle of the bed, playing the bass and writing in a notebook.
“Oh..hey.” He said with a smile as I gave him one back, “Hey yourself, how are you feeling?” I asked, as I slipped out of the dress and put on a loose fitting shirt of his.
“Well, I downed a bottle of cough syrup and then passed out for a while. I feel a little better, I still can’t get rid of this headache.” He said, putting the bass on the floor and laying down next to me.
I ran my fingers through his hair as he laid his head on my chest, “Did you have fun with the guys? Where did you go?” He asked, resting his chin against me as his hazel eyes stared up at me.
“Uh…we um, we went to a bar, and then Vince fucked some guys girl in the bathroom so we had to leave because the dude was trying to fight Vince.” I explained, rubbing my hand over my face as I tried to recall the nights events.
“Typical.” Nikki giggled as he kissed the side of my jaw.
“And then we went to a strip club, the guys are so adamant about getting me a lap dance.” I rolled my eyes, “They enjoyed their selves…I just stayed at the bar and drank. I think I made a friend. She bought me a few of them. I think she was hitting on me too..” Nikki started laughing.
“I would have paid good money to see that.” He chuckled.
“I missed you.” Nikki said, head nuzzling on my shoulder as he kissed the side of my neck. He held me tight against his body.
My nails grazed up and down his bare back as we laid in comfortable silence, “Happy you’re here with me…” he mumbled as I exhaled deeply. He was being way to affectionate for me right now, it was making me feel guilty as hell.
*end flashback*
“I…I didn’t-“ He slammed my front door, blocking Lucia and Tonya’s view of us, “So now you’re a lying whore!? Slash fucking knew you fucked T-bone!!” He screamed at me, I flinched as I wrapped my arms around myself. I was cold and it was pouring rain. How poetic.
“You weren’t suppose to find out!” I defended myself as he rolled his eyes, “Just Keep fucking lying to Nikki so you can get what you want from him, right!?” He shouted in my face, I shook my head as tears kept pouring down my face.
“It happened only one-“ he cut me off, by raising his hand up to silence me. I stepped back, I thought he was going to hit me.
“One time? Yeah one time with Tommy, one time with Slash, whose next on your list? Hm?” He spat his anger out at me.
“Nikki, I’m sorry.” I said quietly as he laughed.
“Sorry? I’m sorry for you Vanity! He fucking placed a bet down just to get into your fucking pants! I’m sorry that you’re living up to all these rumors that surround you!!”
I closed my eyes, clenching down on my jaw as hot tears fell down my cheeks. I was just a bet to Slash?
“Those rumors aren’t true and you know that!!” I defended my character as he shook his head, “That’s what I thought too, but now I don’t know. It’s like I don’t even fucking know who you are!! After all these god damn years and the fights we’ve had, it’s all been fucking pointless!” He shouted, taking a step away from me.
“Nikki, this isn’t pointless.” I said, grabbing the collar of his leather jacket to keep him close to me.
“Yes it is. Its all been pointless. Everything.” He said, taking my hand off of him.
“This is done, Vanity. We’re done.” His words were sharp as they stabbed right through my god damn heart. Was he breaking up with me? He couldn’t fucking break up with me…we were never dating. But god damnit, this felt like a break up.
He started walking away from me, “This isn’t done!” I shouted, chasing after him as I began to get drenched by the rain.
“Yes it is!! We are done!! This is done!! Nikki and Vanity are done!!” He turned around, as I shook my head.
“No!” I shouted, putting my foot down as I glared up at him.
“We’re over Van! Go back inside!! Stay away from me and the band!” He yelled, pointing to the door behind me.
How could he tell me he loves me and then tell me to go away?!
“Nikki…please, I am sorry.” I begged him. He couldn’t leave me. I needed him to fucking stay with me. Why can’t I just fucking get those god damn three words out of my fucking mouth!!
Nikki wiped the rain off his face, the black paint now smearing down his jaw. He stared down at me, “Please?” I croaked, seeing that little jaw muscle clench.
He remained quiet as he turned his back to me, walking straight for his car. My brain couldn’t make the connection to my feet. I wanted to chase after him, but I couldn’t move. My heart felt like it was about to jump right out of my chest. I watched as he drove down the street, before he turned, disappearing from my sight.
Nothing lasts forever, not even cold November rain.
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