#Sometimes I'm really enjoying life

[revvethasmythh]

I don't really understand the idea some people have that being a hater somehow precludes you from thinking a character is complex. like, yes, absolutely, [insert character here] is complex, but I am a hater first and foremost and if I can write a post that dresses them head to toe in clown gear, that is my gods given right. *bangs gavel* you are sentenced to life at the circus, motherfucker. go juggle while i point and laugh. this is what true joy looks like

#liliana they could never make me like you #but no really did you know you don't have to discuss EVERY facet of a character in EVERY post to prove you understand them? #sometimes you can just write simple hate posts about villains and enjoy your life #this is about all of the vanguard leaders btw not just liliana #if they're going to act like clowns i'm going to talk about them like they're at the circus! #this does not mean I think they're (all) flatly villainous with nothing going on in their brains #in my posts they are clowns dancing for my entertainment because this is fandom and that is FUN

[sprucewoodmpreg]

watcher lore dislikers are reported to be mildly scared and afraid during this season of life series

#discourse #SPOOKY SOUND EFFECT......TAG RANT AHEAD..... BEWARE !!! #you have no idea how worried i am that they're gonna pull some ''lore'' stuff #storytelling does not always need supernatural Mega Powerful Beings for the stakes to be high or for the story to be interesting #sometimes the interesting parts come from the clear Lack of those elements #sorry to martyn but i do not exactly fuck with his lore. and i'll be a bit disappointed if it becomes ''canon'' #i say that like i wont just ignore it and then get on with my life LOL #i guess it's like. i enjoy the life series for the narratives it tells in regards to people and their choices #brushing that all aside to be like ''there's big evil space guys in control of the whole thing who are EVIL!!! or NEUTRAL MAYBE!!!'' - #- just feels really disinteresting to me. you don't need to invent a Big Bad. let the players tell the story on their own #this is a lite version of my actual frustrations with it but i'm not going in depth about it because like. #i've got more important things to worry about LOL

[phantombmoll]

Greg x Reader - A little appetiser Summary - Greg's messed up, your teasing is justified but he still gets cocky. Rating T/M - Mature themes, sexiness but no explicitness Author Note; There was no prompt for this I just really like writing domestic Greg all happy and in love.

"Your arse in that dress is sinful." Greg pressed close as he passed by watching you as you pulled the wineglasses out of the dishwasher.

"Well don't get any ideas because your friends will be here soon." You could feel his eyes on you as you straightened up and it would be a lie to say you hadn't chosen the dress for the purposes of torturing him. He deserved it though. He was the one who'd invited everyone round after too many beers the week before and then he was the one who'd offered to cook, then had to stay late at work leaving everything to you.

"They're your friends too." Greg said his lips pressing gentle kisses with intent along your neck his arms sliding around your waist. You loved him and warmth radiated through you, the delicious slow burn of arousal starting low in your belly.

You weren't going to give in to him though.

"Hmm but I didn't invite them round-" You replied as Greg persisted at your neck, you stopped the groan about to leave you and tensed your legs to stop them from going to jelly as he hit that spot. "-and I wasn't the one who forgot he'd invited everyone around until someone at work reminded him. I also wasn't the one who promised to cook and then stayed late at work leaving my better half to do all the prep, shopping and organising."

Greg's hands skimmed your shoulders, pausing to slip a finger under your bra strap and admire it. He knew it was his favourite, the one with the lacey trim that fit just right, made your chest look like something from a thoroughly indecent 50's blue movie.

"I did apologise about that." Greg said against your shoulder. "And I get the feeling you might be getting your own back." His hands skimmed over your waist and started to scrunch the base of the dress, letting out a groan when his fingers found the top of the suspenders. "You're definitely punishing me."

"I don't know what you're talking about, I simply got ready for the dinner you organised and now I'm trying to carry on with the prep." You turned into his arms before pushing past him, heading for the stove. You dipped the tip of a teaspoon into the pan and tasted it to check then turned it down to a low simmer.

"I really am sorry." Greg said sliding his hands back around your waist. You turned into him, allowing him to kiss you. His lips soft and warm and wanting. The pressure seemed to slip straight between your thighs and if you carried on the battle would be lost. You'd give into him easily. Greg pushed his luck hooking his hands under your thighs and lifting you onto the counter. His hands slid up your stocking covered thighs and up under your dress.

You groaned, cursing yourself for letting the sound escape and Greg pressed himself between your thighs.

"Let me taste you." He grinned against your lips. "Just a little appetiser."

Fuck.

Your heaving chest is enough of a giveaway that you don't want him to stop. Not really. Especially not when he talks like that and especially when you know how good he is with his mouth.

"You're a very bad man." You say fingers raking the hair at the base of his skull. He moans and grins at you. Sliding his hands further up your thighs, inching the dress up higher. It's tight but the fabric has a stretch that means it gives you some leeway.

"And you are a very bad girl." He says, fingers skimming the dampness of the lacey black knickers he loves so much. Your hips react to him and the grin comes back.

He's cocky.

Too cocky.

"Ready and waiting for-"

BZZZZZ

The door bell buzzes. His head drops to your chest and he makes a noise of disappointment that makes you laugh quietly.

"We could ignore it." He says into your chest.

"You invited them." You say scrunching your hands in the base of his hair again, just the way he likes, knowing it will do nothing to abate his arousal and now he'll have to answer the door with it and have it hanging over him all night. You press on his chest and jump down off the counter adjusting your dress. "Go answer the door." You say pressing a kiss to his cheek and patting his chest.

#greg lestrade #greg lestrade x reader #;greg lestrade #;light of my life #sherlock fic #;fanfic #fanfiction #x reader fic #I just really really enjoy writing him in like domestic settings or with someone he's clearly been with a while #and like they've fallen into adorable and sometimes sexy patterns #LISTEN I'M JUST A SUCKER FOR HAPPY COUPLES OKAY #LIKE romantic soulmate shit #my tense is all over in this #i promise im going to edit them better #trying to post this whilst a whingey puppo wont leave me alone haha

[dykeinthedark]

venting in tags about gender n shit (long as hell) (u can comment and talk 2 me as always :3)

#okay so i got a really masc haircut about a month ago and i know it's just a haircut but holy shit has it changed EVERYTHING for me #like.... i've always leaned masc except 1) before i came out 2) when i was actively in love with someone who i knew liked femmes #and they always described me as a fem. because that's what i showed her. because i wanted to be with her. #but lowkey whenever i'm in a not-impressing-anyone raw-dogging-life-no-crush era i always resort to a very masc style #like masc being my default and i'd only lean fem to impress people whether it's for love or peer pressure in a specific setting #like ''dressing up'' has always been a form of drag to me. like something i HAD to do to fit in or impress my parents (scott favor core) #but ever since this haircut i've realized... i could just BE masc innately like i really don't have to be womanly if i don't want to #which i usually don't. again i have only ever dressed fem for other people. but it's not even being masc that attracts me on its own #it's like. being masc in a distinctly lesbian way. as in whenever i look in the mirror i don't wanna be like a Guy i wanna be a dyke. #like lesbian as a gender identity too sort of thing honestly. okay i've been waffling but basically i sort of want to call myself butch #but i don't know if i like... can?? if i'm allowed to??? #everyone always says it's MORE than just wearing boy clothes and not wearing makeup and having short hair (which i already do all those) #i mean i've always id'd as genderqueer because it literally just means gender weird and i experience gender in a queer way #what's probably the most telling is that my friends (all queer) CALL me a butch lesbian #like every time they do i feel really internally validated. it's not just my clothes but my personality too ig is what people tell me #i have a higher pitched voice relatively speaking but apparently the way i talk is quote ''very clockably into women'' #which?? gender euphoria asf. my best friend specifically he (gay trans guy) always uses butch to describe me very intuitively #people have also noticed that i ''transitioned'' in all aspects except hormonally. like ppl have commented and noticed my masculinzation #but at the same time i always feel rly haunted by my ex relationships because one wanted me to be more masc #(she's the one who came out as straight and would treat me like a man) which i didn't like and i didn't like playing up being fem either #bc now it feels like she (butch) won't believe me if i called myself butch too bc she remembers me being femme #idk i feel like there's her voice in my head all the time that sees everything i do through her eyes (i'm lowkey still in love) #i feel like even though this comes so naturally to me i must be putting on a performance #even though i've actually read stone butch blues and done research into the history and i truly love and id with the culture like i rly do #that im still just a sad imitation of a butch lesbian and can never really be a part of it because i used to enjoy dressing up sometimes #like it's so stupid but can i still be butch if i wore a dress to prom and i think i looked good in it?? #even though i was envious of my friends who wore suits?? that i used to try goth makeup?? that i liked long dresses?? #that i enjoyed stacked necklaces and rings on every finger??? #and tbh ALL OF THAT CAME FROM A CONCIOUS EFFORT TO FEMINIZE MYSELF IN JUNIOR YEAR OF HIGHSCHOOL WHEN I WAS 16 #because omfg it was 2 months before junior prom and i was worried that i was too masc and wanted to get comfortable with being fem

[icewindandboringhorror]

I have found a beautiful perfect humble rock specimen that is light yellow with a weird dark yellowy brown lining, somewhat resembling a chunk of smoked gouda cheese... effervescent

#I am still very into trash collecting at the moment and even went out and got one of those grabby sticks for cheap and a little #bucket I can carry around and put trash in. so I am going on walks in nature a bit more (not really to enjoy nature but more to play the #very fun Real Life Hidden Object Point And Click Game that is 'hunt for bottle caps and cans' .. but eh.. whatever gets me out of the #house lol).. anyway.. some nature places near water will have cool rocks #Which I know you're not supposed to take them and I MOSTLY dont.. but every once in a while it's like... when else will I ever find a #gouda rock... I have cleaned up 4 buckets of trash today.. I have helped the environment.. mayhaps.. i could take a One Single Rocke as a #treate... ANYWAY. but yeah. I don't know the names of rocks but there's a rock that's a matte muted marigold yellow sort of #color and I call them 'cheese rock'. I'm pretty sure this one is of the 'cheese rock' species but it just has weird brown coloration #like maybe it got stained or something on one side of it. Most of the other cheese rocks have no markings. though sometimes there will be a #auburn reddish sort of hue on a corner or something.. hrmm.. curious. I also got a Beginner's Hobby rock tumbler and some supplies #so I might try polishing some of the rocks from my enormous rock collection. even though they're all street rocks I picked up from sidewalk #and stuff. I saw a video where someone put random gravel and stuff in a rock tumbler and none of them were Stunning Gems or whatver #but some still turned out cool enough that I would be pleased with the result... OUgh.. I want to post more I need to like do costumes and #sculptures and stuff and be Active On Social Media and think about my Future and Career and how it always benefits artists to keep an #active social media or etc. but I just feel so tired and bad lately. I think the summer heat waves have really exhausted me. I also have #been trying to make new friends + on a weird schedule so I've been socializing and also watching media too much. I notice I always start #to feel this kind of unsettled stress of not making any forward progress in my life if I do that for too long. like 'Okay this week I've #done nothing but meet up with two friends & watch like 10 episodes of tv and only worked on a few projects on the side.. this is HORRIBLE!' #(ppl who follow me here that I talk to on discord: this isn't about you! Im specifically just referencing being tired of introductory talks #with a new round of random strangers during my Friend Hunt. Just clarifying so it couldn't be misinterpreted as vaguepost implying that I'm #secretly bothered by talking to you or etc. lol.. anyway) . Which I know to MOST people 'I talked to a lot of friends and watched some cool #stuff!' sounds like a GOOD relaxing time but.. to me it is not ghhj.. Those are 'external' focuses on things outside myself which bothers #me if not moderated. Like.. i MUST retreat internally to work on my worldbuilding and my own thoughts and etc. at very regular intervals or #it will really start to bear on me too much. Brain Mandated Hermit Isolation lol. Just being too detached from my world and stuff for #too long feels increasingly bad. PLUS. every day I don't make tangible progress towards my goals is a day wasted that I could have been #investing in my future by working on novels/games/sculptures/actual career relevant stuff. Not even in a Capitalism way i just genuinely #enjoy Completing Tasks & feel miserable if I don't for too long. EVEN the media I'm watching I turn into A Task since I rank in a detailed #google doc list after viewing lol.. Like EW movie too boring on it's own. NEED to turn it into something I can categorize and analyze ghghj #LOVE to make things more complicated than they need to be. like YAAAY organizational tasks! yaay meticulous sorting!! BOO ''mindless fun''!

[sophiethewitch1]

in my hater era

#sophie speaks #tw vent #like. what. what??? #i do try not to upset anyone with trauma dumping or whatever but sometimes that bites me in the ass because people assume I'm not strugglin #struggling hugely #had one of my most violent meltdowns ever recently and it was after pushing myself to do something #and you know. thats on me #but saying like #im NOT trying?? #i dont want to start any problems but oh my GOD what do you think being sick constantly does to a person #what??? #trying to be a proper adult here but i am quite upset #idk how are you supposed to deal with shit like this #express this has upset you and that you are having a hard time #but then they dont believe you?? #trauma dump it is. hope you enjoy my psychiatrists notes #like im level 2 support needs autistic. i need a little fucking leeway or i genuinely try to kill myself #i KNOW its pathetic i KNOW its weak but my number one priority is keep myself alive #im so tired #ive been suicidal for like 7 years now #my life sucks so incredibly hard and I'm in constant pain and that just #it doesnt make me willing to deal with this shit #cripplepunk core lmao #cripple and im going to kill you #this is just geniunely upsetting #i feel like i need a good cry #i really am so tired #i feel like i just dont want to do this #why am i paying for this? why am i doing this? #if im not enjoying this why the fuck would i do it

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

telling myself that sometimes things do work out.

#combating the pessimism today ladied #I think I've developed this complex bc of moving so much that like... I believe that in my life nothing good or hopeful #or that I really enjoy or love can ever last. because I've been ripped away from everything I've ever loved eventually #and I know that aside from God and His kingdom everything IS temporary #but I'm trying to beat it into my head that I CAN enjoy good things without having to preemptively mourn them from the get go #which is my habit. #sometimes things work out!!!! #Lu rambles #shrimp emotions 2: electric boogaloo

[mobgeo]

I feel so clueless on how jokes work. I know what makes people laugh, and I can repeat what makes them laugh so I can be funny, but I still don't understand the joke itself. I know how to make people laugh but I don't understand WHY it elicits laughter

#I don't understand people. I don't understand how socializing works #It's like I'm pretending to be a person who understands social cues #I know how to impersonate allistics but I don't know why they are laughing #It's a fun house mirror but I don't see my own reflection #you know? #Even with other autistic people I just still. Don't understand so many jokes that circle the internet and in real life conversations #I wish I could understand why people enjoy something so deeply while laugh #I swear to god I'm autistic. but no one in the system understands it #like #I understand the ADHD is so strong in others they just don't understand the subtle autistic traits #Everytime I talk to anyone it just feels like a weird inside joke that I wasn't there for #except I WAS there #the things I do find funny... sometimes others laugh along but it still feels so separate on what others find entertaining #sounds are just too much. all the time #I can't think about how loud a sound is without just wanting to... #remove my brain or something #I think being autistic is so painful. Not to get really real but I'm #so tired of just not understanding anyone around me or getting so overwhelmed by the slightest thought of a interaction to anyone #and everyone I know #ah. #I could go on forever. I just need to watch season three so i stop fronting #txt #autism is so hard. guys.

[bunni-bun]

🥲.

#y'all ever feel really weird about your age and the age of people you care about that are younger than you or is this just me? #like idek why but i guess i feel almost...... left behind? like in terms of joining my brothers and my younger cousins to go and do things #i think it's because of our age gap tho since like i'm over a decade older than all of them #but i guess i also feel a little jealous/sad that even tho we like the same things the same way #i still have to choose to be an adult instead of indulging in my child's side #and sometimes i don't want to be an adult #i want to enjoy life as the kid i didn't really get to be because of eldest daughter syndrome #idk i'm just...... a little sad. i wanna go home. i don't like feeling this way. #cyndy speaks

[cquackity]

think i'll either be taking a break from this blog or not posting as much 👍

#i dunno. im kind of tired of this fandom space 😭 #ill be here to reblog brverse stuff and art i enjoy. maybe talk sometimes #but its just felt so toxic here lately 😭😭 #and with this blog being as big as it is now people honestly are just. kinda fucking rude to me 😭 #or have this false sense of familiarity with me #i just don't have fun anymore interacting with this community #and gives me unnecessary anxiety like who gaf it's tumblr. idk. #gonna focus on writing whatever and do whatever i suppose #and honestly. i'm also really fucking busy with adult shit. life's intense recently #personal

[coquelicoq]

"each thing I learn about you just makes me want to know you more" <-text from my neighbor just now. i don't know what i'm winning at, but i'm definitely winning at something.

#he wants to go for a walk tomorrow so i can tell him about my favorite words from the french dictionary. #'do you do anything that's not dorky and interesting?' <-another direct quote #he said that before he knew about the dictionary. this was in response to learning i write crosswords #joke's on him though because now that he knows about the dictionary i think he's caught up on all the dorky & interesting stuff #i do feel like i'm really winning this acquaintanceship. not as a competition between him and me but rather #as a competition between this acquaintanceship and all other acquaintanceships i've had with other people #the trick is to not say anything about your hobbies for the first like. four interactions. then you start parceling them out one at a time. #it only works because we have so much other stuff to talk about. being neighbors. #like at no point have we had to do the awkward 'so what do you do for fun?' thing. so it's just when it comes up organically #anyway i'm enjoying this because i usually feel like i'm a VERY boring person #but i have just been nailing the pacing here. the suspense! keep em wanting more #myfirstname mylastname international man of mystery #also the other day we were talking and i said 'i told you about my mom's vibrator‚ right?' because i was sure i had told him that story #and he was like NO????? so basically he just thinks my life is about 5000% more interesting than it actually is #i'm fine with that though. if it means i get a walking buddy (who has a cat! and gives me fruit sometimes!!!) all the better #fuck it i will just make a tag for him #voisin de palier #now i need to find my first post about him from like 2018 when i was sooooo suspicious of him for absolutely no reason

[cheekblush]

woke up early and took a bath, got my nails done and took a walk around the lake soaking in the sun but i still feel horrible 😔

#i'm just so tired of everything at the moment #i'm questioning my whole life and existence again... why can't i just be happy for once? #i have to work 44 hours next week the mere thought of that makes me want to puke #the sun is finally out again after so many gloomy days the weather is lovely but i can't even enjoy it bc my mind keeps going to dark places #i wish i could just focus on the positive things but i always think of the things i lack #sometimes i'm so overwhelmed with these negative thoughts #i just yelled at my dad on the phone over nothing really i'm such an ungrateful bitch sometimes tbh #things aren't even that bad rn but my mind keeps focusing on the negative things & it makes me feel so depressed & hopeless #☁️

[morningmask27]

it is currently midnight, I have a somewhat busy day waiting for me technically today already. I can wake up a bit later, and that's my only saving grace, BUT I am on the edge of falling into a Deep rabbithole to work out exactly how the climate is going to work both on a grander scale in my world, but also in a few important cities in particular. I know I will regret doing a full, long night, but I Want To.

#morningtalks #god the occasional nerd moment to worldbuild and thus start researching how climate works in specific places #so I have to look up examples that ressemble it in real life to understand the gimmicks #and even then sometimes things are different; mountains can have a huge impact and the presence of mountains or not can make approximations #very wonky so I have to chek that out too. I'll probs also work with altitudes in my world soon. I have a mountain range sitting there spli #in two seemingly (for story reasons) so I have That but I want to plan out how High the rest will be #one of my groups lives by the coast mostly so that's not too hard but then I have the other groups in different places and even the coastal #group doesn't just live next to the coast but also spreads out a bit inlands #so it's going to be chaotic; I'll enjoy it a lot but nonetheless it's 1 not going to be relevant in an actual story i'm creating and #2 I will lose sleep to this endeavor sooner or later #and I want to ride this wave of motivation now before I lose interest in this stuff #I still want to finish mapping out the coastal group's capital; it's really fun but I've been neglecting it a bit lately #But First the climates! #I'm off guys #byeeeeeeeeee

[mermaidsirennikita]

Haven't seen Malcolm's list yet (though I plan to) but as someone who watched QC I feel like even season 2 of Bridgerton failed when it came to better research and SCREENTIME for the Sharmas. QC has some really blatant issues that I wish they hadn't put in (or explored in the way they did re: Danbury's marriage), and the real-but-actually-fake monarchy backdrop further adds to the confusion, but its one "strength" of sorts was that it was tighter than Bton season 2 in terms of side plots. The side plots make even less sense to me now because you could not pay me to explain to someone what the point of Benedict's art school thing was, or the poorly done Eloise one, or the Featheringtons. I feel like this can even be traced back to season 1 because aside from all the blatant problems, Simon felt like he was sidelined in the last episode and I don't know how to explain why, other than to give significance to Daphne 'understanding' him? Anyway, thanks for the Tom Jones rec

I ended up watching QC with a friend through venues that are comfortable to me. And I’ll be honest, I thought it was kind of complete dog shit and I don’t really get the praise and passes it’s been receiving. Obviously everyone is free to like and dislike what they wish. But….

—the pure manner in which Lady D’s husband is portrayed. Darkest skinned person on the show, and much like Simon’s father, he’s not only a horrible person but depicted as grotesque. She doesn’t want to huge his “giant babies”, they give the actor (who’s a handsome guy irl) fake teeth and weird makeup to make his skin look ashy. He flaps around desperate for white approval when he’s not raping his wife (the darkest skinned woman in the show) in a manner the show plays as comical. Then he dies trying to rape her again. Wow.

—both black female leads end up essentially alone and they hate their kids and are depicted as cold mothers. But hey, they’re strong and dignified TM so who needs love? Not them! I know everyone was laughing at the way Charlotte skimmed over her son sobbing about his dead daughter but it seemed to me a stark contrast to sweet mom Violet who’s just so horny right after her son goes on his honeymoon

—they did an entire episode going over things we’d already seen, but this time with FARMER GEORGE TM torture porn. I found the depiction of his mental illness both laughably under-researched (some theories re: George in real life surround him suffering from bipolar disorder… speaking as someone who has that, actually, I can tell you the show’s version doesn’t have any kind of bipolar disorder I recognize; his symptoms are basically what the plot requires).

—homeboy was barely present in the back half; romance show? What romance show?

—the much promoted gay love story ends in one party alone and the other either gone or dead for no reason

—why did anyone love each other? They would speak a few random sentences and then trope trope trope it’s fine you know what we need? More Danbury rape

I’ll be real, I didn’t see a tighter show. A tighter show would’ve cut the entire present day storyline, which did nothing, and everything to do with Violet (but I guess we needed a white woman to bemoan her horniness to Lady Danbury who’s Beyond That Now).

I don’t have a really great opinion of either of the previous seasons, but they for sure had better leading men (I am begging people to stop comparing Farmer George to Nick Hoult) and at least they weren’t incredibly depressing and quite as rape heavy. Season 1 did have a pivotal rape, but it didn’t have like…. Five comical rapes.

Mr. Malcolm’s List and Tom Jones walk circles around this franchise. Fuck, so did season 1 of Sanditon.

#not gonna tag bc i don’t need that in my life rn #the best part was when lady d the hottest woman on the show fucked the boringest man ever #while wearing a Burger King hat #not bc it was like good but bc I laughed very hard #again people can enjoy what they wish but i just really don't understand the response here #i kind of regret watching it but if i'm gonna dislike something i'm gonna watch it first to see if like... #i'm right #and sometimes i've been pleasantly surprised--i thought i'd hate MML

[satari-raine]

Sometimes I wonder about starting a writing blog. It feels silly to imagine it since I don't write as much as I'd like (although having something dedicated to it might change that.) For a while now, easily over a year but probably a lot longer, it's been tempting to change my handle or just go full anonymous with what I write? I mean, I'm kind of anonymous now - I try to keep away most connections to offline stuff, as far as that goes, and I don't have a large presence anywhere - but I don't know.

Sometimes I feel trapped by my handle or any semblance of my identity being attached to what I do even though I probably shouldn't, and I don't know if I could even articulate that thought well enough at the moment. I know there's something freeing almost with a fresh start. I do it enough in video games to know it's an addictive feeling, so sometimes I wonder if I did so with my writing - if I dropped the satariraine handle, changed it up, made another blog, whatever - that maybe I could do more or feel braver, or try new things.

Not sure where I'm going with this. Just a thought.

#Satari rambles #Potentially to be deleted #Hi I've been on this hellsite for years and it still feels weird to use it as an actual blog #I think also with wanting to do art again it's making me wonder if I could even manage to have a personal creation blog #Instead of just the fandom mishmash that I've cultivated here #I say cultivated like it's impressive #Where in actuality I'm just vibing along with posting a new fic out once per year and enjoying talking to all the lovely people in my phone #Which is more than fine because I've had work and undergrad and grad school and life in general #But I see people have so much fun with hobby or creation blogs #And I wonder if I could be braver and stand to have my thoughts and emotions and opinions more out in the open #If I wasn't still here behind what I've had for over ten years or honesty if I wasn't such a timid person in general #There's nothing wrong with where I am now or this blog or anything of it all really #I guess sometimes it's just an itch to have a new identity #I really don't know if any of this makes sense #If you've made it this far I hope you have a wonderful timezone #Drink water and give yourself a hug or a pat on the back

[salsflore]

been almost 3 yrs and i am still struggling with the whole mikachi first meeting thing. bye

#for zl its something simple. i just saw cute fanart of it with another ship [ p sure it was someones 2 ocs ] and enjoyed the idea #i lost my black umbrella irl but tbf it doesnt really matter because i always fucking forget to bring it anyways. so sometimes i get caught #in the rain. so idk zl lends me his umbrella bc. fuck! heading in the same direction and is like hey loser . . let me help you . . #cue immediate heart eyes bc handsome stranger helped her. like Wow Yuo Are So Cool... ♡ #afterwards she mentions this interaction to her friend [ yun jin or hu tao .. unsure but they are both so silly so its hard 2 decide ] and #then they are like wait i know that grandpa you're talking about! let me set you up lalala theres this whole thing i'm lazy #i'll write about it Maybe bc i do want to write for my platonic f/os. and also cover all the [ firsts ] in my self ships #its just: i don't like feeling obligated to stick to things (like a series or theme or whatever) so maybe not. would be nice though.. #nobody in this world is allowed to laugh at me i'll die #as for childe my plan was he breaks into her house and then shes like wtf who r u?!! they make eye contact and kiss + get married asap #no actually i truly dont know. zl's is slightly easier because he lives a mortal life. just chills #has connections with a lot of the liyue chars. literally just enjoying his retirement era now #ajax doesn't have many connections ( other harbingers but they dgaf about each other i think x ) and i just cant imagine that. idk #just fucking. bumping into him would lead to anything. maybe i should turn into a fish and have him fish me up and then i transform into a #girl and then we fall in love what do you guys think (losing my grip on humanity) #💭 #mika ♡ ajax #mika ♡ zhongli