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hermits-that-craft · 4 years

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Staying With The Traitor - Chapter Two

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AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/26695042/chapters/65201827

“Eret where did you go?” Nikki’s voice echoes through the large, empty castle. Sunlight filters through the rainbow stained glass, casting beautiful patterns onto the floor.

She knows it’s dangerous to be walking so close to the glass, so close to where the Manburgians could see her, but she doesn’t care. Eret is missing, and she needs to find him. “Eret?”

“I’m here!” Eret’s voice calls out. “Sorry for worrying you Nikki.”

“I heard the Manburgians last night.” Nikki says, her pace quickening as she runs towards where Eret’s voice came from. “I thought they attacked us.”

“Not us, another hunting party.”

“Did they find the boys?” She asks, her hair flowing behind her as she runs into the throne room.

Where Tommy and Wilbur stand, bandages covering any exposed limbs and outfits soaked through with water, soot and blood. They both look like shit, dirt and blood indistinguishable besides the fresh stuff, and bags under Wilbur’s eyes practically giving him another inventory of space. Tommy has a new cut on his cheek, unbandaged and bleeding. Tommy has a blanket around his shoulders and a thousand yard stare that looks through Nikki and out the other side. Wilbur’s eyes are empty, hollow and tired.

“You’re okay.” Nikki mumbles, walking towards them slowly. She raises her hand, brushing a stray tear from Wilbur’s cheek before pulling him into a hug. “You’re okay.”

“I’ll prepare some food for everyone.” Eret says softly. “How does pancakes sound?”

“That would be nice.” Wilbur says softly and Tommy nods, a small smile on his face. A sad one.

“I’ll throw in some chocolate chips.” Eret nods, walking out of the room.

“When did you guys arrive?” Nikki asks, pulling the two men onto some seats. They’ll move to the dining hall later.

“About five minutes ago.” Wilbur says, pulling off his beanie. He holds it in his hands, gently passing the saturated material between his hands. “We’ve been walking all night.”

“You should have messaged me, I would have brought some horses.”

“Didn’t want to wake you up.” Tommy mumbles, his voice almost as hollow as Wilbur’s eyes.

What happened to them, out there? Nikki wonders to herself, half ready to whisper to Tubbo or Fundy to ask them the question.

But she can’t ask them.

Then Schlatt will know that she’s with them.

“I wouldn’t have minded.” Nikki says, placing her hand on Tommy’s. She tried to ignore the small flinch from the teen. Months of working on his PTSD from the war, and it looks like it’s all gone again. Unless something else happened to them. “Do you guys need any health potions?”

“We can handle it.” Wilbur says immediately, before guilt flashes across his face. “Sorry, Nikki, it’s just-”

“We’re under Dream’s rule again.” Tommy spits, glaring at the floor. There’s an emotion that Nikki can deal with, can help the teen with. Anger. “We fought and died and lost everything for L’manburg and we’re back the same place we fucking started!”

“I know.” Nikki says sympathetically. “But you need to be safe, and this is the safest place for you both and-”

“You don’t understand, Nikki. We’re citizens of the fucking place again!” Tommy yells. “We fought, and we died, and it was all for nothing.” His voice cracks on the last word, tears streaming down his face. “It was for nothing. We lost.”

“Tommy-”

“Tommy, do you want the first pancake?” Eret’s voice cuts through what Nikki was about to say, and Tommy gets up, walking out of the room.

“Does he know where the kitchen or the dining hall is?” Nikki asks Wilbur softly, and the man shakes his head.

“He’ll find it. He’s a teen, he’ll just follow the scent until he gets to the food.” Wilbur laughs, though it doesn’t reach his eyes. “I failed him, didn’t I? I promised freedom and the world to him, and now he’s back where we started. I might as well goddamn lied to him.”

“You didn’t fail him.” Nikki reaches out to Wilbur, though he doesn’t look at her. His eyes, though empty, harden like stone before her eyes. “You did what you had to do to survive.”

“I promised him freedom. I promised him safety.” Wilbur glares at the ground. “This is all my fault. If I hadn't held the election none of this would have happened.”

“Do you really think Schlatt would have sat back and let you have power?” Nikki asks softly. “You know him, you remember what he’s done, what he did. You know him better than the rest of us. He wouldn’t of let you have power, let you run your country. You did the right think.”

“And now Tommy is homeless, stuck in a country that he died to escape, a country that leader killed him, and now we have to play the role of ‘good, upstanding citizens’ while our country burns.” Nikki holds back a finch at Wilbur’s words, though she can’t help but agree with him. They’re citizens of L’manburg, they shouldn’t be here. In Eret’s court. They aren’t Dreamers, they are not his citizens. L’manburgians through and through.

“If we don’t play that role we won't have a safe place to stay.” Nikki mumbles. “We need their allyship. We can’t afford to lose L’manburg.”

“We already have.”

“Only with that attitude.” Nikki jokes, and Wilbur finally cracks a smile. It’s small, but it reaches his eyes.

“I guess.” Wilbur smiles, tilting his back. “I guess we haven’t lost yet, why else would Schlatt be hunting us?”

“Besides how we are the good looking members of L’manburg?” Nikki teases, and Wilbur laughs, punching her shoulder. “We’re going to have to play the part, Wil. We have to make Eret trust us. We need his help.”

“I don’t trust him. I won’t trust him.” Wilbur says, his voice barely above a whisper.

“I don’t either. But we have protection here. We’ll need their allyship if we want to get L’manburg back.”

“Techno and Phil are coming.” Wilbur says, and Nikki feels hope spark in her chest, a small yet warm fire, dancing brightly. “We won’t need Dream, or Eret, not once they arrive.”

“Only as a back up.” Nikki smiles. “We can let Tommy flip them off when we leave. When are they arriving?”

“In a month or two.” Wilbur smiles. “Not too long, all things considered.”

“We’ll need to set up a base, and get armour ready.” Nikki says. “We could use Eret and the Dreamer’s to get the supplies for it.”

---

“Where are they?” Jschlatt yells, slamming his hands down on the table. Tubbo flinches in the corner, his eyes wide as he watches the room argue. “We can’t afford for them to start a rebellion against us.”

“Really, you shouldn’t have exiled them.” Fundy says, waving his hand. “We could have thrown them in prison or something like that, you know? Kept a close eye on them.”

“Nikki didn’t stay in prison, what makes you think that those two bastards would have?” George rolls his eyes at the fox hybrid, who just glares back to him.

“You don’t think that Nikki’s with them, do you?” Jack asks Tubbo, staring into Tubbo’s soul. His throat goes dry, feeling the room’s eyes on him.

“I think Nikki is hiding nearby.” Tubbo mumbles, trying to avoid everyone’s eyes.

“Where would you suggest that place be, Tubbo?” Schlatt asks him, his voice kind and dark, the threat not needing to be spoken for Tubbo to understand what will happen to him if he lies again.

“Eret. With Eret.” Tubbo says softly. “I think that she’s hiding with Eret.”

“They always were close, weren’t they?” Jack nods to himself. “It makes sense that she’d hide with Eret.”

“And Eret knows where Wilbur and Tommy are hiding as well, he told me so last night.” Schlatt smiles. “I think it’s time we pay the king a visit.”

“Not yet.” Tubbo blurts out before he can stop himself.

“And why not?” Schlatt glares at the teen, who tries his hardest not to cower.

“Because there’s a ball coming up, we’re all invited.” Tubbo says softly. “Better to show up invited and burn the place down than to declare war. We can always blame Wilbur or Nikki for that. Not if we all show up now.”

“Tubbo i didn’t realise that you were so good at planning.” George whistles under his breath, and the men in the room give Tubbo a nod that turns his insides to ice.

He’s just betrayed them all.

---

Tommy sits on the roof of the castle, his hair blowing in the wind as he reads through Techno’s letter for the second time that day. Below him, Wilbur and Nikki are discussing a deal with Eret so that they can get help with getting equipment for the rebellion. Tommy wasn’t invited, Wilbur saying something about him ‘not being the calmest’.

As though Tommy didn’t make most of the trade deals between L’manburg and Dream SMP when Wilbur was too mad with Dream or Eret to meet with them.

So Tommy sits on the roof, a music disk playing softly over the air. Far, he thinks, wondering where Eret got the disk. It's peaceful, at the very least, playing softly as the sun sets. The sky lights up in golds and ambers, birds flying in the distance. He wonders about Manburg, about Tubbo and Jack and Fundy. Are they alright? Are they actually working for Jschlatt, or are they going to double cross the man?

He doesn’t know. Doesn’t want to know. Does he have to know, if it means that he will lose more of his family? Knowledge is a curse.

Maybe thats the real reason that Wilbur and Nikki didn’t want him there, in that meeting. Maybe they didn’t want him to lose more hope, to lose more family and friends. Would it hurt more to find out loyalties now, or later? Would it hurt more now, to find out if Tubbo is fully with Schlatt, then to find out if Tubbo was fully with Schlatt after weeks of trusting him? What would be worse?

A bee flies idly by, trying to find its hive before dark. Tommy doesn’t know why the bee would be here, there are no gardens in Eret’s castle, no flowers to be found. Maybe he could plant some, for this bee. For any other bees nearby. That's something he can do, that’s something that won’t hurt anyone. It’s not training, but it isn’t running either.

He’ll have to check with Wilbur and Eret, and see if they approve.

---

Tubbo watches the sun set over the water, turning the ocean into a deep orange. Inside Nikki’s bakery, Schlatt, George, Fundy, Jack and Quackity drink. They took all the yeast from the bakery when Nikki left, turning it into beer. Tubbo has been put in charge of finding more, trading for it with his villagers. It could be worse, Tubbo thinks to himself, They could have banned me from baking bread like they banned Nikki from it.

Of course, Schlatt banned him from gardening, but at least he can bake. They haven’t taken that away from him. Sure, it’s his duty, and when the men leave, stumbling and drunk and angry, Tubbo will work until midnight preparing tomorrow's bread.

So Tubbo watches the sunset, longing to find Tommy. He could leave, right now. The Manburgian’s are drunk, always drunk at this hour of the night. Though normally one doesn’t drink, keeping an eye on Tubbo to make sure he doesn’t run.

He’s been caught trying to run before, on the night of the inauguration. George caught him, and he slept in the prison instead of in his bed, down with Nikki. It was nicer in the prison than in his room, with two guards outside his door to ‘protect’ him. In any case, he wouldn’t be able to run far tonight, shackles around his ankles keeping him from taking too large of a step, let alone running.

He shouldn’t have disagreed with Schlatt.

Glass breaks in the bakery, and Tubbo strains to hear anything other than the fighting from inside the building. He can almost imagine Far playing on the breeze, and a stray tear falls down his cheek. Tonight won’t be good.

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TAJRID YANG DIPERBOLEHKAN SECARA SYARA', AKAL DAN PERASAAN إِرَادَتُكَ التَّجْرِيْدَ مَعَ إِقَامَةِ اللهِ إِيَّاكَ فِي الْأَسْبَابِ مِنَ الشَّهْوَةِ الْخَفِيَّةِ, وَإِرَادَتُكَ الْأَسْبَابَ مَعَ إِقَامَةِ اللهِ إِيَّاكَ فِي التَّجْرِيْد اِنْحِطَاطٌ مِنَ الْهِمَّةِ الْعَلِيَّةِ. Keinginanmu untuk lepas dari urusan duniawi, padahal Allah membekalimu dengan sarana penghidupan, adalah syahwat yang samar (tersembunyi). Sedangkan keinginanmu untuk memperoleh sarana penghidupan, padahal Allah telah melepaskanmu dari urusan duniawi, adalah suatu kemunduran dari cita-cita luhur. Keterangan: Asbab (bentuk jamak dari sabab) yaitu hal-hal yang dijadikan perantara untuk mendapatkan sesuatu yang dituju (diinginkan) dalam kehidupan dunia. Misalnya kesibukan seseorang dalam bekerja untuk memenuhi kebutuhan hidupnya sehari-hari. Tajrid adalah memperoleh sesuatu yang dituju dalam kehidupan dunia tanpa perlu melakukan hal-hal yang menjadi perantaranya. Misalnya seseorang yang mendapatkan rezeki tanpa perlu melakukan suatu pekerjaan. Jika dilihat dari perlu atau tidaknya seseorang melakukan kegiatan untuk mendapatkan sesuatu dalam kehidupan dunia, maka kedudukan manusia terbagi menjadi 2 yaitu : 1. Maqom Asbab Kedudukan seseorang yang memerlukan kegiatan (pekerjaan) untuk memenuhi kebutuhan hidupnya Allah SWT berfirman : وَلَقَدْ مَكَّنَّاكُمْ فِى اْلأَرْضِ وَجَعَلْنَا لَكُمْ فِيْهَا مَعَايِشَ Dan sesungguhnya kami telah menempatkan kalian di bumi, dan kami telah menjadikan bagi kalian pekerjaan-pekerjaan di dalamnya [S. al-A’raf : 10] Rasulullah SAW bersabda : مَا أَكَلَ أَحَدٌ طَعَامًا قَظُّ خَيْرًا مِنْ أَنْ يَأْكُلَ مِنْ عَمَلِ يَدِهِ، وَإِنَّ نَبِيَّ اللهُ دَاوُدَ عَلَيْهِ السَّلاَمَ يَأْكُلُ مِنْ عَمَلِ يَدِهِ Tiada seseorang yang memakan makanan yang lebih baik daripada makanan dari (hasil) pekerjaan tangannya, dan sesungguhnya nabi Dawud AS memakan (makanan) dari pekerjaan tangannya. [HR al-Bukhori] Tandanya: Jika ia merasa tenang dalam beribadah saat ia memiliki pekerjaan, dan ia dapat melakukan kedua hal itu (ibadah dan bekerja) dengan baik, lancar dan kebutuhannya tercukupi. 2. Maqom Tajrid Kedudukan seseorang yang tidak memerlukan kegiatan (pekerjaan) untuk memenuhi kebutuhan hidupnya Tandanya adalah jika merasa tidak tenang dalam beribadah jika ia bekerja dan ia tidak dapat melakukan keduanya dengan baik atau adanya halangan-halangan saat ia bekerja. Allah SWtT berfirman : وَلَوْ اَنَّهُمْ اَقَامُوا التَّوْرَاةَ وَاْلإِنْجِيْلَ وَمَا اُنْزِلَ إِلَيْهِمْ مِنْ رَبِّهِمْ َلأَكَلُوا مِنْ فَوْقِهِمْ وَمِنْ تَحْتِ اَرْجُلِهِمْ Seandainya mereka (orang-orang ahli kitab) sungguh-sungguh menjalankan (hukum) Taurat, Injil dan (al-Quran) yang diturunkan kepada mereka niscaya mereka akan mendapat makanan dari atas mereka dan dari bawah kaki mereka. [S. al-Maidah: 66] Rasulullah SAW bersabda: لَوْ أَنَّكُمْ تَوَكَّلُوْنَ عَلىَ اللهِ حَقَّ تَوَكُّلِهِ لَرَزَقَكُمْ كَمَا يَرْزَقُ الطَّيْرَ، تَغْدُو خِمَاصًا، وَتَرُوْحُ بِطَانً Seandainya kamu bertawakkal kepada Allah dengan tawakkal yang sesungguhnya maka Allah akan memberi rezeki kalian seperti Allah memberi rezeki pada burung yang berangkat dalan keadaan lapar dan kembali dalam keadaan kenyang. [HR Ahmad, an-Nasa-I dalam Sunan al-Kubra dan at-Tirmidzi beliau berkata: Hadis hasan sohih. Hadis ini dsohihkan pula oleh Ibnu Hibban dan al-Hakim] Jika seseorang telah ditentukan oleh Allah di maqom asbab kemudian ia berpindah ke maqom tajrid dengan kemauannya sendiri maka perbuatannya ini sebenarnya adalah sayhwat (nafsu) yang tersembunyi. setiap orang itu memiliki maqom (kedudukan) sendiri-sendiri yang telah ditentukan oleh Allah SWT. Dan ia tidak dapat berpindah ke satu maqom ke maqom yang lain kecuali telah ditetapkan oleh Allah SWT. Jika seseorang tidak tahu apakah ia termasuk maqom asbab ataukah maqom tajrid maka hendaklah ia mencari guru yang soleh dan makrifat yang dapat menunjukkan atau menetapkan maqomnya di dunia ini. Jika seseorang telah ditentukan oleh Allah di maqom asbab kemudian ia berpindah ke maqom tajrid dengan kemauannya sendiri maka perbuatannya ini sebenarnya adalah sayhwat (nafsu) yang tersembunyi. Misalnya karena ia melihat orang lain yang tidak bekerja hanya tinggal di rumah sudah memperoleh rezeki tanpa perlu bekerja maka ia pun meninggalkan pekerjaan dan hanya beibadah saja dan mengharapkan kedatangan rezeki. Mungkin dalam hatinya ada rasa malas untuk bekerja dan tidak ingin bersusah payah untuk memenuhi kebutuhan hidupnya. Mungkin pula ia ingin mendapatkan penghormatan atau kedudukan di masyarakat. Ini sebenarnya adalah syahwat (nafsu) yang tersembunyi yang diselubungi dalam bentuk kebaikan dan ibadah. Tandanya jika ia dalam keadaan miskin atau kebutuhannya tidak tercukupi maka ia kembali lagi sibuk mencari pekerjaan. Demikian pula jika seseorang telah ditaqdirkan Allah di maqom tajrid maka ia berpindah ke maqom asbab dengan keinginannya sendiri, maka sebenarnya ia telah menurunkan derajatnya sendiri baik di sisi Allah maupun di sisi manusia. Misalnya ia melihat orang lain sibuk bekerja untuk memenuhi kebutuhan hidupnya, maka ia pun meninggalkan ibadahnya untuk bekerja. Padahal meskipun ia tidak bekerja selalu ada rezeki yang dating kepadanya. Maka ini dalam dirinya terjadi 2 penurun derajat. Yang pertama, penurunan derajat disisi Allah karena berkurangnya rasa tawakkalnya. Yang kedua, berkurangnya kehormatannya di sisi manusia, misalnya seorang ulama yang biasa dihormati masyarakatnya kemudian jika ia bekerja maka ia menjadi menjadi bawahan atau pesuruh majikannya. Jadi seseorang ditempatkan oleh dalam maqom asbab atau tajrid itu karena adanya hikmah dan kehendak yang baik dari Allah. Kita harus menerima maqom kita masing-masing dengan baik dan ikhlas karena kita tidak mengetahui rahasia Allah saat menentukan kedudukan maqom kita. Allah SWT berfirman: وَعَسَى اَنْ تَكْرَهُوا شَيْئًا وَهُوَ خَيْرٌ لَكُمْ، وَعَسَى اَنْ تُحِبُّوا شَيْئًا وَهُوَ شَرٌّ لَكُمْ، وَاللهُ يَعْلَمُ وَاَنْتُمْ لاَ تَعْلَمُوْنَ Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu padahal ia amat buruk bagimu. Allah lah yang mengetahui sedangkan kalian tidak mengetahuinya. [S. al-Baqoroh: 216] Perpindahan dari maqom asbab (amal dhohir) kepada maqom tajrid (amal batin) itu seharusnya menampakkan bekas kepada anggota-anggota tubuh seorang hamba. Allah SWT berfirman: إِنَّ الْمُلُوْكَ إِذَا دَخَلُوا قَرْيَةً أَفْسَدُوْهَا Sesungguhnya raja-raja apabila memasuki suatu negeri niscaya mereka akan merusaknya. [S. an-Naml: 34] Tampaknya bekas pada anggota-anggota tubuh setelah perpindahan ke amal batin inilah yang disebut dengan tajrid. Menurut ahli tasawuf tajrid itu ada 3 macam: 1. Tajrid adl-dlohir Tajrid adl-dlohir adalah meninggalkan sebab-sebab dunia dan penghalang-penghalang jasmani. Artinya meninggalkan setiap hal yang menyibukkan anggota tubuhnya dari ingat kepada Allah. Tajrid adl-dhohir yang sempurna adalah dengan meninggalkan sebab-sebab dunia dan mengosongkan tubuh dari pakaian-pakaian yang umum. 2. Taajrid al-batin Tajrid al-Batin adalah meninggalkan ikatan-ikatan jiwa dan penghalang-penghalang keingingan. Artinya meninggalkan setiap hal yang menyibukkan hati dari kehadiran hatinya bersama Allah. Tajrid batin yang sempurna adalah dengan mengosongkan hati dari setiap sifat yang tercela. 3. Tajrid adl-dhohir wal batin Tajrid adl-dlohir wal batin adalah meninggalkan ikatan-ikatan batin dan penghalang-penghalang jasmani. Artinya menyendirikan hati dan tubuhnya hanya untuk Allah saja. Abu al-Hasan asy-Syadzili berkata: Adab seseorang yang tajrid ada 4 yaitu: 1. Memulyakan orang yang lebih tua 2. Menyayangi orang yeng lebih muda 3. Menyadari (insaf) akan nafsunya 4. Tidak menuruti (menolong) nafsunya Adab orang yang asbab ada 4 yaitu: 1. Menyayangi dan membantu orang-orang yang baik 2. Menjauhi orang-orang yang fajir (durhaka) 3. Mengerjakan shalat berjama’ah 4. Menyayangi orang-orang miskin Bagi orang di maqom asbab hendaknya ia juga berusaha melakukan adab orang yang tajrid, karena akan menjadi kesempurnaan baginya. Termasuk adab orang di maqom asbab adalah terus menerus (konsisten) melakukan pekerjaannya sampai Allah SWT memindahnya dari maqom asbab ke maqom tajrid. Tandanya ada isyarat dari gurunya atau jika semua usaha (pekerjaan) yang ia lakukan sudah tidak menghasilkan. Maka barulah ia berpindah ke maqam tajrid. Kesimpulan: Sesungguhnya orang yang tajrid dan orang yang asbab adalah 2 pekerja Allah SWT, karena kedua-duanya dapat menghasilkan ibadah kepada Allah SWT. Hal ini dapat diibaratkan seperti majikan yang punya 2 pembantu, maka ia berkata kepada salah satunya : “Bekerjalah lalu makanlah”, dan ia berkata kepada yang lainnya :”Tetaplah bersamaku nanti aku akan memberimu makan.” Seseorang yang melakukan tajrid tanpa ijin dari Allah maka sebenarnya ia tetap dalam maqom sabab. Dan orang yang melakukan asbab dengan ijin Allah maka sebenarnya ia telah melakukan tajrid. ياحي ياقيوم ، برحمتك استغيث ، فاصلح لي شأني كله ، ولا تكلني الى نفسي طرفة عين نفعنا الله به والمؤمنين امـــيـــــن يا رب العالميين – Read on Path.

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