#NO GRANDMA DONT FUCKING SAY THAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT

[azuneekun]

#stardew valley #stardew valley evelyn #stardew evelyn #sdv evelyn #NO GRANDMA DONT FUCKING SAY THAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT #THIS ISNT HARVEST MOON PLEASE NO DEATH FLAGS #why are the new dialogue in 1.6 so fun and YET

[thepavementsings]

Honestly I think about all the different people I know in my life who have in one way or another been responsible for getting us through this pandemic in the best way we can and how people have been fundamentally changed both personally but also professionally and the burnout and psychological impacts that has on people while others run around like it doesn’t matter at all. What a time to start my life as a working person watching people not care about working people!

#tw Covid #most people in my family have worked through this pandemic ON this pandemic and it has been. so shit #I remember being an intern last winter coming out of a meeting about low supplies of fucking dry ice in the country #and then going to my online class where some kid said the govt should have bought and shipped all of the vaccines already #the DAY we announced purchase agreements. And i wanted to fucking scream. #I remember my grandma who runs a downsizing business for seniors asking my family if any of us grandkids could spare to work extra shifts #because so many of her clients who she moved to retirement residences had d*ed and she didnt have staff to clear their possessions for them #I remember my mom who is semi retired and immunocompromised calling me last may to say she had to go back to the ICUs cause they were short #asking her because she worked the trauma ICUs in SARS when we were young. Hoped she could mentor the nursing students through their first #emailing me her contact list for medical power of attorney/her will because she knew it would upset my dad too much to talk about the risk #we are all fundamentally changed #and there are people out there who aren't. and i dont wish it on anyone. #We have been lucky and privileged too. There are people who have had it so much worse. #but I simply cannot fathom the opportunity to make the world a bit better and a bit safer existing and not taking it #anyways im thankful for everyone who has done the work and done their best to get through #im rooting for a little bit of humanity to keep us going

[apathyfairy]

every year i wake up the day after my birthday and my brain is like “welcome to the day after your birthday crisis!! you need to change everything in your life and make amends with everyone as well. also go in the bathroom and cut your own hair.”

#im about to cut my hair but here's my issue and this happens every year #my f*ther talks to me exactly once a year and by talks to me i mean he sends me a text on my birthday that says happy birthday #and also he throws in a merry christmas so he doesnt have to talk to me again SKDJF and just typing that i can see this is such a non issue #but anyway i havent seen him since i was 13 and he p much stopped talking to me all together when i was probably 15 #like the last time i remember talking to him on the phone was when i was 16 and he called to tell me my grandma died and that was over 10 #years ago so anyway the issue is of course i feel guilty for not talking to him EVEN THOUGH he's the parent #and he should be trying to reach out and talk to me. HOWEVER he's actually insane and so am i so i know that the reason he wont talk to me #is a. because he thinks i stopped talking to him and he's not talking to me to 'respect my wishes' which is bullshit because b. the real #reason he stopped talking to me is because he's mad at me for not kissing his ass when i was growing up even though. again. #HE'S the parent quote unquote and HE should have been making the effort because i was a Child #or am i wrong literally i dont know #anyway he's a selfish asshole and i know that he's also emotionally abusive i know that #and i HATE this phrase more than anything and i do not condone using it but he is my dad. you know #and i hate that as i get older literally im a senior citizen now and im like well.....maybe we should just catch up or something i dont know #he didnt even congratulate me on graduating college or even high school for that matter like #i know he knew because his dad my grandpa knew it's not like he asked me or anything anyway #and i guess my thing is like. ever since i found out my ex died like here we go again with this i KNOW. #ever since i found that out im like well. maybe it is better to just be vulnerable and tell people things while you can #because when you can't it fucking blows so hard. so im like. maybe i should just take the plunge and be like maybe we should #talk sometime like i dont know i know it's a bad idea believe me i do because he's the kind of guy who u give an inch and he takes a mile #like and then he does have me thinking like i shouldve been more responsive when he would text me but then again. like i keep saying. #he's the parent and he shouldnt have just given up on me right OR NOT I Literally dont know #anyway i didnt send him my obligatory thanks! text because im deciding if i want to kill myself and say we should talk some time because i #dont know if i want the consequences. i mean at this point we honestly are strangers he hasnt seen me since i was 13 #like if we ran into each other on the street he wouldnt in a million years know it was me like i dont know. i just dont know what to do #not to have daddy issues on main but what do i do

[tema-makes-art-sometimes]

I watch encanto and my roommate strikes to fucking kill and I don't like it

#shes right #but i dont fucking like it #qq #encanto #I love mirabel way too much #shes a sweetheart #and #yes #my roomie is right #luisa is.... so much of a mood #like oh god #my heart #i had to pause cause i was sobbing #brunos great #what else do i say #all of the fam is good #yes even the grandma #yeah i know #controversial statement but i said it #even if i grew up with family like her

[mwagneto]

oh yeah my scooter is finally here in my hands.......... im once again a full person

#it's been so fucking loooonnnng im so :'''''))))) #also the box says not to go downhill with it dmmtgjengienifsjkxksdjs #buddy i live on a mountain. I've been going downhill w these since 5th grade #it's an oxelo town 5 which is the model i last had before it broke after about 3 years #it's been YEARS bruh I'm pretty sure none of my friends on here knew me back #when i still had a working scooter #havinf one is literally part of my personality like it's part of my VIBE my SOUL #my look even....... #i rly hope it doesn't rain tomorrow im gonna use it to go over to water grandma's flowers #and then I'm picking a friend up at the train station #pls dont rain. #barking

[ariescults]

leos rly annoy the fuck out of me

#not my grandma always wanting to be praised for her fucking food????? #BUT WHEN I MAKE FOOD SHE ALWAYS CRITIZES IT N THEN I POINT OUT how she always criticizes my food n she is like #'well if you dont wanna learn i will stop pointing it out' #like bestie the point is that if i say anything bad regarding YOUR food you choke me to death! why you do this to me then i cook everyday! #jesus christ. ppl like this are my villain origin story #anyways. we move ig

[lordiavoloremade]

god if there ever was a fucking week to kill myself this surely woul dbe the one!

#literally fucking everything has been terrible. #my moms fucking depressed and she has scoliosis and shes always in pain and shes always in a bad mood now and she never wants to do anything #even when shes in a good mood because shes always in pain and she takes it out on me and my dad and its just been miserable since 2015 when #she tried to kill herself in front of me and my dad over spring break #and then the period of time between 2017-2019 i had to deal with my abusive relationship and about every other month she would have another #depressive episode stop taking her medicine then she would get physically violent with my father and throw things at him and would tryt to #kill herself or say she was d***ng in front of me and that was after my first mental breakdown ehere i was crying every day for 3 years #straight because my life was such a fucking hellscape and me and t**** had at one point a suicide pact because of how bad everything was #getting and finally when things were normal again he broke up with me in front of the whole school on graduation morning and i cried all day #while he just laughed and had fun with his friends like nothing had happened while i could hear him all day long and then he apologized #like 2 hours after we left school and i took him back before the graduation ceremony part and just these last fucking 6 years have been a #fucking hellscape i lost my uncle then i lost my favorite uncle then i lost my fucking grandma and i had to deal with an emotionally manipu #lative piece of fucking shit for 3 of those years who ostrocized me from my friends and now i cant fucking remember the last 6 years for shi #shit and finally when things were looking up now i was a fucking idiot and overwrote my fucking phone back up and now its saying it has not #enough memory on the device to restore it which doesnt make any sense its the same phone and i just want to fucking #cry and i cant because i cant upset my mom because if i do shes going to get worse so i have to hold evverything in and i #cant leave the house ebcause i cant work i cant do anything my only option is to kill my self thats all i can see anymore the #world is burning i dont have anyone close to me anymore the last time i let anyone in was t**** and im never going to let anyone #in again because of how he hurt me and used everything against me and ive ruined my life ive made tooo many unforgiveable mistakes i will #never be able to take back i just want to die and go up to my inner world / afterlife where i can hug lucifer and asra and mammon and every #one i love is there and were all happy and no one hates eachother its just like how it was when i was young and everyone was there and no on #e had died yet or got sick or any thing i just want thth ab ack why does everything hve to change every year i lose antoher person i cant fu #kcking take it anymore ij ust want t odie and go to my afterlife i m of no use here i make no one happy everyone hates me #my mom and dad are dissapointed in me they dont want me around anyore because all i do is cause conflict and waste money im just a fucking b #urden and no one can tell me other wise because i shut out everyone else and now i only trust myself and my own opinions i odnt see anyone o #n my level anymore i havent had a friend since i was 15 that was the last time i let anyone in who actually cared about me #and wasnt just there to use me for my parents money or generosityy or anything else #i dont have anyone all i have is my f/os and my cats who love me thats it #go forward link #suicide /

[zippers]

just to be clear, i guess, i am not anti-adoption, but i am anti-adoption industry and there is a lot of reform that needs to be done... unfortunately it is a state-by-state thing and, at least in the case of texas, we have been fighting for decades (well, me personally since 2015 but others before me have for decades) but the texas senate is a beast in the pockets of the industry!!!

also i don't hate all adoptive parents, i know some very good people who are adoptive parents. My mom's adoptive father was an amazing man. i do hate abusive adoptive parents which unfortunately is more common than you would think. My mom's adoptive mother was abusive to her husband and actual horde of adopted children, and she is still controlling some of them as adults today, and having them stalk my family from the other side of the country. (cw: racism, racist abuse, and death) the white lesbian couple who abused & killed the children of color they adopted, for example... you know that famous photo of a Black boy crying and hugging the police? (link is to a New York Times article exposing the abuse). he was one of the children. These are extreme cases but they are not the only extreme cases, and even well-intentioned adoptive parents can cause irreparable harm to the people they adopt if they are not educated on the many traumas of adoption.

Increasing access to birth control, abortion, and sex education is how to prevent unwanted pregnancies. The adoption industry wants to restrict access to these services because for each person who is compelled to relinquish a child to them, they make thousands and thousands of dollars. Meanwhile, birth parents and adoptees are left with silent trauma that will last their whole lives and often ends up becoming intergenerational.

#also if anyone tries to say oh you would not be here today if your mom was aborted be grateful for adoption #and literally my grandma didnt consider abortion she wanted to keep the baby but was pressured #a) abortion was illegal when my mom was born so shut the fuck up #b) i believe in reincarnation of the soul so shut the fuck up dont push your religion or beliefs on me #c) shut the fuck up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[channoticedmeuwu]

the audacity of some people.

#can we just take it into consideration tjat HER BODY IS BEAUTIFUL AND DOESNT DETERMINE HER WORTH OR HER HEALTH #SHES PERFECTLY HEALTHY SHES MY STRONG BABY HOW DARE YOU TELL A DAMN CHILD TO WATCH HER WEIGHT #HOW FUCKING DARE YOU HAVE THE AUDACITY TO EVEN L O O K AT HER IN THAT WAY #youre tELLING HER TO COVER UP??? YOURE TELLING HER TO NOT WEAR TIGHTS???????? #SHES A CHILD?????????? WHY ARE YOU LOOKING AT HER LIKE THAT??????? #the girl can't even wear a DRESS because its showINg hEr knEeS LIKE SHUT UP YOU FUCKING DICK #WHY ARE YOU LOOKING AT A CHILD'S ARMS SHES A DARLING LITTLE BUNDLE OF JOY HOW FUCKING DARE YOU LOOK AT HER AND SAY SHES DRESSING WRONG #HOW D A R E YOU #IF YOU TELL HER IN FRONT OF ME TO WATCH HER WEIGHT #I WILL TELL YOU TO STOP RIGHT THERE IN FRONT OF EVERYBODY #SHE IS A CHILD. CHILDREN ARE SUPPOSED TO GODDAMN EAT HOW THE FUVK ARE THEY GONNA LIVE YOU DIMWIT #IDC IF I GET LABELED AS diSrEspEcTfUl IN YOUR DISGUSTING EYES YOU CANNOT TELL OFF A FUCKING CHILD LIKE THAT #SHES 5 MY GUY FUCKING F I V E YEARS OLD #WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING WITH YOUR LIFE MAN YOU'RE A FUVKING GRANDMA #HOW WHAT WHY???? THE THINKING PROCESS????? #who aRE YOU TO SAY THAT???? #GO KNIT SOME FUCKING SWEATERS AND DONT TELL A CHILD TO WATCH HER WEIGHT YOU PRUNE #GODDAMN I WANNA KILL YOU RIGHT NOW #kai's grand rants

[lettuce-seize-the-day]

:// i think my poor kitty has a UTI :(( but i might just have anxiety and noticed him peeing a few times and thought it was a lot but i just had bad timing! or am I trying to convince myself of that bc i don't have the funds to pay for a vet appointment when he had his checkup and vaccination one a MONTH ago. :((

#shut up hanna #if he needs to go. i will go!! ill miss a car payment. take the credit hit and shit from my grandma #send my account into overdraft i literally do not give a single fuck #my cat is my number one priority ALWAYS #but i dont wanna do all that just for them to say 'oh he just had to pee a lot that day hes fine but give us $500 now' #dont ANYONE come at me for not being able to afford a vet 1 month after the appointment #i literally. never even wanted to get these cats #(not that i didn't want them or that im not extremely thankful for them) #its just that my mom impulsively got all 3 without asking me #and now i have to care for them #and i do the best i can #but i simply would not have adopted pets that i was not absolutely certain i could care for well #so now i feel inadequate when i cant give them the care they deserve (vet appointments anytime Just In Case) #and i did talk to one online (chewy membership comes with free online vet consults #and she said that he needed to see a vet irl bc it may be nothing but it also may immediately become an emergency #but he zeems better today???? #hdbdhsjdsk #u ever think about how literally all of my problems genuinely stem back to being fucking poor #stress abt college? money. #stress abt caring for my babie #? yes #money. again #want to stay in shape so badly #but have to work and dont have enough energy #and also cant afford classes or gym membership atm and hate every other form of exercise even if i had energy #if i had fucking money i could either work less and still afford classes and have energy. or. #work the same amount but still be fine bc i could afford classes and also afford to miss them if i need #just!!!!! seriously. seriously fuck poverty #i wish to god i could do a normal goddamn job without wanting to kill myself bc id love to have money #but money doesn't do u much good if ur dead ❤️

[semercury]

Ah, so I'm to the point in whatever is wrong with me that commercials make me cry specifically ones with child cancer patients or dogs.

And a commercial with a child cancer patient and a dog? Forget about it, man.

#stuff sarah says #oh yeah #also #my grandma got moved ro a nursing home after she had a mini stroke in the hospital #and we just found out today that the nursing home is now closed to visitors bc of the rising rates #and i would like to invite anyone who wants to tell me im directly responsible for this bc i wear a mask to go fuck themselves #sorry for thinking that a respiratory disease us less likely to be transmitted if we're not directly breathing on each other #dont talk to me. dont look at me. go fuck yourself

[aircushionedsoles]

i want to rip my hair out my family makes me so dysphoric i cant. be around them for this long.

#i feel bad being the estranged son #but like. i want to go home. to my cats and my roommate and my friends who dont treat me like this #its not fucking hard to use my name and pronouns its not hard #and yet AND YET #i know they dont see me as a boy still. almost a year and a half on T and they just dont even try #ive been here for a week and a half. its getting torturous #i saw my conservative brother and he didnt comment he just didnt say anything and acted like nothing was different #even my grandma who is the most supportive out of my family isnt trying #it hurts #anyways #im tired #personal

[depresseddepot]

i feel stupid

#and sick. dont forget i feel ill constantly #re: jesus all i fucking do is complain #i know many MANY people go to college and get useless degrees and end up fine #and taking a year off or changing my mind isn't something uncommon that i have to be ashamed about #but i thought maybe like. i would be okay #and my brain doesnt work right so i didn't understand how the uni im transferring to (maybe) works #and now im worried that im so stupid that i dont know how anything works and i fucked up WAY more than i think i did bc im so naive #and i realize this sort of thing is normal for someone in college but to my parents (who dropped out of high school) this is a big problem #and hearing them (people who are successful without further education) say 'kayla that is a lot of fucking money' is really scary #if i asked they would and could give me a full time job. like my grandma would love that #but idk if i can work at the same place he works at #as shitty as it is my family is less unbearable now that my grandpa is dead but i still have to see that bastarf every week #i dont know if i could do it every day #i feel like im a failure for not being able to afford college #i know thats stupid bc nobody can fucking afford it but i was really trying #i wish i wasn't mentally ill #i wanted so badly to go into clinical psychology but i know i wouldn't be able to take it #that wouldve been a much clearer education path at least #i might've found an alternative uni that will work but im so worried my graduate college will think it isnt good enough #i dont know how this shit works #ive asked a hundred times but nobody answers in a way i understand #are all unis regionally accredited? is it bad to attend one outside of your region and then go to one in your own region for a masters? #i hate this #everything i do makes me feel stupid #even when i do things that make me feel smart and accomplished everyone around me is like 'oh. neat' #or they've done it ten times over and struggle w the same road blocks i do so then whats even the point #normally i can forget about my problems for a while but i can't do that with this #ive already gotten a lot of help from financial aid but it isn't enough and i feel like i should've been able to make it work #im so tired of living like this

[ghost-long-lost]

Just found out I have a lot of Scottish in both my mom's side and my dads side

And my dad's grandma's side is predominantly Scottish and Irish

Idk what to do with this info I just think it's cool idk 💀

#my dad saying my grandma is scottish was my dads way of explaining that im related to brice willis #idek who he is all that much tbh and i still dont know how exactly im related to brice willis or if that's even true so 💀💀💀💀 #i am very confused #i just woke up and I'm confused already wtf #probably gonna delete this later lmao #*bruce jesus fuck why does it keep autocorrecting to brice wtf

[blossomkoushi]

:(

#talked to my parents abt my birthday and its gonna suck #idk why i thought that it'd be celebrating it with my relatives bc apparently we dont do that after the 20th birthday #and i was saying that oh even if we invite the relatives no one will show #anyway so my family might just be coming here #i sound like such a greedy little shit but this year has fucking sucked and i just miss being a kid and getting celebrated #and i completely missed my friends birthday bc i just honestly didnt know when it is #so i doubt she or my classmates will do anything #and im too scared to host a party #so.... yeah #looking forward to spending my 20th birthday on my own in my apartment and writing an essay #fun. #and also just ahaha my grandmas birthday is the week after mine so thats gonna stir up some emotions #i say as if im not already sad about it #tulip.rains

[haemosexuality]

im so tired i just want to go to a beach and see my family and hang out with friends and walk around town doing nothing and travel ive been inside for one year and a half and its not even close to being over

#didnt think being abke to get the vaccine would make me so upset but like #i dont know i got happy for a few hours thinking it wouod mean i cohld go back to normal but then i remembered thatno #its all gonna stay the same and i cannot fucking stand the sane anymore i cant #i really cant #when i say ive been inside for one year and a half i mean it #the only places ive gone that werent either my house or occasionally stores/markets where #my cousins house #once last i think april #another cousins house also only once last september #my grandmas house for like 5 minjtes to pick up stuff that came in the mail #and the doctors office #like thats it. since march 2020 #and sometimes one of my cousins comes to spend the weekend at my house #but since stuff got really bad again in march this year we've only done that once #and its gonna stay that way bc he went back to normal school so hes way more at risk getting it #i dont see the point of doing all this for however long it takes until it goes back to normal #if it ever does #not when my life was shit before not wjen im going insane trapped inside my house and not when theres just not a future in which yoi can be #happy bc you gotta work every day all day #i hate crying my head hurts