#LIKE WOW MOM WONDER IF IM UPSET BECAUSE THE FUCKING PET THAT IM THE ONLY ONE WHO CARES FOR IS FUCKING ILL. BITCH

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

god im so sick of my mother i take my post from this morning back i hope that bitch chokes on her coffee for real

#swearing cw #personal posts and stuff idk #one of the fish has swim bladder which we are not adequately equipped to handle fully. just like how yk WE WEREN'T EQUIPPED TO HANDLE #FUCKING FISH IN THE FIRST FUCKING PLACE #BUT NO THAT BITCH HAD TO BUY TWO GODDAMN FUCKING FISH ON A WHIM #AND WHOS THE ONE TAKING CARE OF THEM??? FUCKING ME. IM THE ONE TAKING CARE OF THEM #SHE DOESN'T TAKE CARE OF THE FISH #SHE'S NEVER HELPED EVEN A FUCKING BIT #I HAD TO FIND A PLACE TO PUT THEM I HAVE TO CHANGE OUT THE WATER AND CLEAN THE TANKS I HAVE TO FEED THEM IM THE ONE #THAT HAS TO BE FUCKING WORRIED ABOUT THIS NOW #i hate that bitch so much #so when IM annoyed because none of this would happen if someone fucking didnt do shit on a fucking whim or at least took responsibility for #living fucking beings THEY purchased #im the one getting fucking snappy im the one whos getting fucking uppity im the one who should watch her mouth #shes the one thats comforting my siblings because the fish are 'gonna be in a better place' like shes not the one who fucking. #god i fucking HATE HER #LIKE WOW MOM WONDER IF IM UPSET BECAUSE THE FUCKING PET THAT IM THE ONLY ONE WHO CARES FOR IS FUCKING ILL. BITCH #aethers rants #cw vent

[lilyclawthorne]

Keeping Up A-fear-ance's Thoughts

I finished writing this shortly after 3 am after watching the new episode like three times because I simply had too much energy about it and I have so many thoughts because I simply live for clawthornes and also I tried to break it up with more photos this time sorry not sorry if it's a lot ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

YOUNG EDA!! let me just say I am quite a fan of opening with a flashback like we've done here and the last episode

"we have never seen a curse like this before" Lilith you had shit luck picking out curses huh

"cut it out if we have to" goddamn Gwen let'a calm the fuck down a bit.

anyways we've only really seen young Eda as a wild and confident and happy little child so I appreciate seeing this side of her with the anxiety and fear she's feeling here. I love seeing what the curse stuff was like for her as a kid

Gwen: I raised a perfectly fine kid

Me: no you didn't look at her she's got anxiety

I'm guessing this is their backyard or just some woods behind their house?? wonder if the portal was placed there by another elder family member.

lmao I can't even begin to imagine what small Eda experiencing the human realm was like for the first time

Gwens giving me "I can't accept that my child is disabled/chronically ill/etc." here. y’know the kinda parent that'll put their kid through hell over something they probably will find a way to learn to live with (which Eda did do)

ok that's it I humbly request to know the story behind the fang now (also the noise she made when she put it in was freaking cute)

new dress! new boots! new dress! new boots!

..yikes that fridge is empty

"calm down the curse acts stronger when you're stressed" Eda do you know who you're talking to here

confirmation losing limbs is in fact a side effect of the curse!! (y'know since Eda originally said it just happens when you get older)

please I love these sisters they're so sweet and make me wanna go 🥺

"suddenly curious about my past" "always. always curious" Luz says exactly what we all think

witchlet?? sweet flea?? she's got pet names for them 🥺 (although idk how much I'd like to be referred to as any kind of flea sorry Lilith)

ok Gwen is very much not close to what I expected and I'm kinda grateful for that

she's more like super caring but still managed to royally fuck up which was my original head canon for clawthorne parents so uh that's cool. but literally, look at their body language, Eda's pissed, Lilith's sad and making herself small. she's clearly messed up with her parenting on both of them along the way.

"who knows what they put in those nasty concoctions?" mama clawthorne would be a fucking anti-vaxxer wouldn't she

ok I side with Eda here more than Luz and Lilith. just because Luz misses her mother, or Lilith hasn’t seen their mom in so long doesn’t mean Eda has to feel all grateful for the presence of Gwen, especially if the woman has caused her a lot of trouble over the years

I feel like the fact that its actually both Lilith and Gwendolyn have spent their whole lives dedicated to trying to find a cure could probably have held some kind of weight on Eda at some point. Even though she shouldn't feel guilty or responsible for that, I still feel like it's gotta suck knowing these people have spent so much time on something you know is likely never gonna happen, all for you.

Lilith 😞 her mother really just didn't pay attention to her all these years

hey if this guy does some next level healing magic then why isn't he more well-known, huh? why’d it take so long to come across him?? Gwen do you know what the fuck you're doing cause I think you don't

Lilith just because you're depressed about your mom doesn't mean you have to bring king down too 😠

SUPER irrelevant but is anyone else just bothered by the way Lilith is holding her spoon?? that doesn't seem like a comfortable way to hold a spoon. also is she left handed??

"knife season came early" EDA WHAT DOES THAT MEAN. is this a boiling isles things or is this a it’s common for people to throw knives at you thing

also I want to be surprised Eda fell for the apple blood signs but I am not 😔 

Luz please trust you're gut on this one and not mama clawthorne

ok now I need to know why the fridge was empty but they had 18 cartons of ice cream this is why you guys don't have food you're wasting it all on ice cream.

wow never thought I'd see the day hooty became the voice of reason

also, night market ice cream?? are they implying this ice cream is like, edibles of some sort?? Lilith does seem kinda high here ngl. idk man but at least she wants to stand up for herself so good for her.

PLEASE kings just offering her ice cream while she transforms

"first in a series" Gwen honey oh no. you've been duped. I think we can see where Lilith got her naïveté from huh.

Also, nice snatch Luz 😊

anyways love how this show is basically making fun of moms who refuse to give their kids proper medical treatment or listen to medical professionals here

EXCUSE ME why do we know Gwen's palisman's name before we know Lilith's?????

"I am a mother who'll do anything for her daughter" you're mom who's suffocating obsession with one daughter has left the other neglected and is currently causing her to turn into a full on beast ya dummy

Eda DOES have a right to be upset. it sucks that her own valid emotions that she should get to feel will cause her while body to betray her.

PLEASE I’M SO GLAD LILITH’S BEAST DESIGN LOOKS LIKE HER AND IS NOT THE THING FROM THE TRAILER THAT IS ACTUALLY IN EDA"S HEAD WHEN SHE’S TRANSFORMED

but also why is she SO massive?? also anyone concerned that this is her first transformation and the light glyph trick wouldn't even work??

Gwen look at what you've done, you've fostered feelings of inferiority in one daughter causing her to feel the need for sibling rivalry that the pure instincts of the raven beast cannot suppress no matter how much their sisterly relationship had improved.

HOW COULD YOUR OTHER DAUGHTER ALSO BEING CURSED BE A PART OF THE PROCESS GWEN??

"after Eda was cursed, I joined the beast keeping coven" woah woah WOAH. you're telling me you only joined because of trying to help Eda. that covens existed, before Eda got cursed, and you very much weren't a part of one. combine that with "some words for belos" she has and do I smell wild witch theory still plausible???

anyways at least mama clawthorne is getting some sense into her head here

Morton c'mon help a girl out, that's some dang good art too what the heck dude

ok fine mama clawthorne to the rescue

no pls not raven beast Lilith crying im crying now

Gwen: I raised a fine and self-sufficient child

Me: no you didn't look at her. she's got, SO MUCH.

GODDAMN THATS SOME POWER. ngl this only adds fuel to the fire in my head that there was some kinda reasoning these sisters were torn apart, that someone felt they'd be too powerful together (and they were probably right)

"I heard you but I couldn't stop myself, I couldn't do anything" may be just because she's not used to the curse but again part of me is concerned that because she couldn't pull herself out of it even a little bit like Eda did that there's something wrong there. but she also could've been stressed beyond reasonably calming herself down too.

ok but this is sweet

NOOO im so sad Lilith's leaving :( I literally cried ok

"you lived here?" fine OKAY king that was hilarious even if im sad about this

"reconnect with dad" excuse me where the fuck has this man been in the middle of all of this. curse shit is going DOWN and he's just chilling at home.

I am curious about people's thoughts regarding the whole Lilith regression thing and the fact that she's literally going to be living with her parents again. I feel like it could help nurture that inner child she's been reverting back to and help her out a LOT. but I could also be concerned about it feeding into the regression and making it worse?? idk and this show probably ain't getting that actually deep into psych anyways

"some day my hair is gonna be big enough to do that too" Luz I cannot wait for the day. also mood, I wish I could do that too.

alright who's holding the fucking pen for hooty we need a volunteer RIGHT NOW so we can remain in contact with Lulu

NOT THE ONLY HUMAN? my bets on the real azura rip never mind she said he

Titan’s Blood?? interesting. If the blood of the titan is around I wonder what that means regarding the titans existence, and how long its been since the titan fell.

AHH BABY LUZ PHOTO

ALSO WHO THE FUCK IS THAT?? They're really gonna spring that on us like this??? Camila's gotta notice somethings wrong right??? Unless any differences she just chalks up to the camp?? oh god :(

well, anyways lumity shippers come get yo juice next weekend

anyways im gonna need to add a NOT canon compliant tag on that one Gwendolyn fic I wrote because it definitely do not comply anymore

#toh #the owl house #owl house #keeping up afearances #keeping up a-fear-ances

[sierrza]

I'm cray but I make it seem like it's the new beautiful.My jobs won't last long. My relationships are miles and miles down a dark part in my head. I get restless and feel like if I spend enough time stuck in one place my life flashes before my eyes like this:Born without lungs I couldn't use without a machine helping me remember to breathe so 3 months in a box NICU/ gravesite in the hospital where other babies were dying next to me and I was operated on every day hating life then hallelujah handed off to my teenage full on scream throwing shit annoying kyle parents who know how to get pregnant but not turn into role models or parents fit to handle their child without going all warzone style 5 or 9 days of the week and making me listen to them from the bedroom trying not to pee my pants because if i left the safe zone i'd regret it and wow fuck after 9 years of that bs my time got split by weeks on and off with each psycho.. I couldn't choose families so instead these fuckers mysteriously disappear right when a girl needs to get their parents shitty guidance the most..Normal 12 year olds deal with the growing spells and emotional rollercoasters and hit the fan normally. My heart started failing around the time my friend died while I was on restriction once again for months for asking a fucking question thats when my dad mad lost respect from me when I got yelled at for being upset about it minutes after realizing he texted me with no answer before killing himself and mom just got up and left with her kids a milli miles away n signed her rights solely to my dad who emotionally abused the shit out of me all that summer and on till I turned 16. mom never called back so i raged like hell when i physically fought him back after craving one day to get him to try me and he threw hands before kicking me out his gf and kids got to live with him. After billions of drastic measures to get myself free from never going out and seeing friends and sharing xanax with his ex to handle life for a year and a half and then having to withdrawal when she left him when I didn't even know what that word meant.Life flashes before my eyes and I want to change the channel and find something else God let me take over.I got free written all over me nowGangsta rap and millions of quotes for motivation made me do it biiitch. Till I hit a wall and started arguing with myself about who made the turn into that wall instead of climbing it and fighting that fight bagging up the wasted time.Mad frets being an orphaned only child with 2 siblings and parents closed off like I'm not allowed into their mix like family vacations and pets dying or weekly interactions or whatevs. Last year my mom kicked me out for the 5th time and I fought with my boy dude all aggravated and tried draining all my blood out in a Linda Lane parking space. God came over to me and handed my bloody spine a surge of survival juice and then did it again when I was drunk and made my car do cartwheels and kicked up the dirt on miracles when I walked away without getting paralyzed or killing someone and even gave me some advice and asked me politely to dig elsewhere instead of at myself and my health and my luck with my freaky misguided baddie self.I'm promising the world a better bitch because a bitter bitch is bound to get barked at by emotionally abusive barking freaks.I'd rather do the barking. I'm living like it's hard to die cause it is but this past year I've gone from codependent as a left shoe, to mad at the ones who got me twisted into something I wasn't, to gifting myself the go get em attitude back, and asking me aggressive ass questions about how I want to leave the world when my time does come and my heart retires. As kind as ever I be asking it to show willingness to undoubtedly fill others hearts who are broken too as a requirement for my shenanigans I left on my loved ones hearts last summer.I'm not trying to die as much as I'm trying to stop feeling so extra extra alive when everything gets so overwhelming and I just wanna be with my friends souls and not my retched body that has to endure so much thinking and wondering and blah blah blah.I'm not trying to give up but I'm lifting up every stone to find another reason to keep going when I'm running with no direction. My retched life is as important to keep from enforcing extinction as my friends were as important to me before passing too quickly.This journey is a fucking trip now that I'm flashing ya'll with it all girls gone wild style. The dreams I have are vivid and I talk a bunch about all that makes up who I am and why I think that is.And I'm mad and weird and people get intimidated by my lack of structure because I have trauma inside me like black on a yellow highlighter but this post is proof of just a quarter of whats fueling the weird greatness that is me. And its strength doesn't go unnoticed so I'm thrilled to be of distraction to you from whatever it is going on where u are.You really can't say you know what it's like to try and treat life like it's gold when it's an empty farm and no one is around to feed you.You can't feel sorry for me if you know that if you were in my shoes you would have been sent back to a better place ages ago because there was no way in hell you fit in this tank of a lifetime.You really can't say you hang in there cause you have the lives of 7 cats because piles of survival follows you like a shadow you can't detach from..I am my parent I am my guardian and I have been acting like I'm out of control in hopes of being acknowledged and loved for it but I'm mostly losing daylight doing that so I am forcing acknowledgment with this post and practicing self love for the science experiment that is the first child/girlfriend/friend that no one wants to remember having.This is not easy being single and wishing you could move vicariously through a partner but you're making that partner be you for once.. I don't know what to do with my hands..don't make that sexual I was just referencing taladega nightshahah andI love my parents they just face their children like they face their demons.. differently.Thank god I got all these prayer angels helping me see the light cause I'd be a dark lil somethin else if I didn't! God gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiersTop tier immortality might have accumulated in here too idfk yet tho hopefully not ha ha ha (nervous laughter) (im really 900 years old but I forgot my ID to prove it to you)that's all for now.

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