#I'm seriously trying to be nice here

[jiangwanyinscatmom]

hi, ive only read SVSSS because i was waiting for 7Seas to release the rest of MDZS and TGCF and i’m now looking to read MDZS as the last volume will be released next month but i read that the translation for MDZS isn’t accurate or good or whatever idk? where would i find a better translation for MDZS? or is the 7Seas one decent?

Good evening anon!

The Sevenseas is passable, and I use that with little generosity as it does take a lot of needed nuance away if you are very very green with lore of cultivation and theology for intersection Buddhism, Doaism and Confucianism when it was translated to English. Personally I don't find it a good to pay for the price it asks for which is probably about 115-120 USD depending on vendors for all five volumes. If you don't mind more than the general lore that MDZS has, it reads fine. However there are many issues with lines messed up or omitted strangely that have not all been fixed as volume one has only gotten a second physical reprint I believe. As far as I'm aware, the digital copies have yet to be fixed (no I'm not biting at the bit at all over any of this and trying to remain neutrally polite).

Bluntly put, for my opinion, I found it to be a mediocre translation and the stepchild of the MXTX products Sevensea took on, and it is no more or less than the previous completed fan translation (mind you this one is liable and forgiven for mistakes given it was hobby and freely translated, edited by fans as well, and a 17 year old main translator, from a site that was used to japanese BL novels at the time, but I digress 🥴).

In terms of readability? Dialogue and imagery in Sevenseas is a lot cleaner and less awkward than the ExR one to me. The results are on par with each other with the end product and if you kind of... smoosh them together it probably would have been just fine, ironically.

I can't speak for Tian Guan Ci Fu, as I read it a whole once in standard mandarin, never finished the online Suika translation, and am still at a standstill with the beginning of volume 2 for Sevenseas lol. It may be best to speak with @mxtxfanatic for this one and opinion on how it reads in English.

There are no other complete translations, but I quite liked Taming Wangxian's when they used to post it. Personally, read that one to get a "cleaner" idea of what the start of MDZS should be and I guess continue from their stop point with Sevenseas.

#mdzs #mo dao zu shi #I'm seriously trying to be nice here #I do not have nice opinions with Suika's translation given this was to pay for #and a drunk mouse could have done better with the first 2 volumes of it

[omaano]

"Cassian's face is a brittle thing, no person's eyes should shine as painfully tearful as his. Kino offers his hand and Cassian - bright as the sun, steady as a roc, fluid as water Cassian - accepts it with shaking fingers. He tells Kino everything."

Art for we're spitting off the edge of the world by Xenomorphic for the 2024 Star Wars Big Bang @swbigbang. It is an amazing Canon Divergence Fix-it fic from one of the most memorable moments of Andor onwards, with beautiful prose that fits the mood of the show so so well and will make you feel just as deeply for these characters. Please give it a read and heap some love on my team's amazing and hardworking author, they were such a delight to work with!❤️

#andor #star wars andor #andor show #andor fanart #cassian andor #kino loy #my art #star wars fanart #star wars big bang #digital art #fanart #sw fanart #artists on tumblr #digital fanart #cassian x kino #cassino #<- sorry I had to it was too funny to not type it out here XD #I am super duper proud of the middle panel especially Kino in that one #it came out just that nice balance of illustrative and realistic that I try to aim for in my art but not always achieve #I'm so grateful that Xeno was so kind and patient with me through this one!! #the fic is seriously so so beautifully written I cannot recommend it enough please read it even if the ship doesn't really interest you #it's about deep feelings and keeping it together in the face of something larger that needs you #and companionship and community and support #have I mentioned that it's BEAUTIFUL? #diego luna's face is hard okay? I'll do better if I ever draw him next time I was in a a bit of a hurry here ^^; #do I always draw spaceship cockpits for these bangs? there seems to be a trend here XD #at least i didn't have to build a mockup for this one first tho lol

[cakesmelons]

I have a couple of questions concerning a giant bitch 

So number one I actually commissioned the giant piece of shit known as calcium cat and I’m wondering what I should do, should I commission another artist to remake it or redraw the thing myself so I can get rid of the old version?

Number two I want to make AU similar in ideas to one small dream so that people can still enjoy it without having anything to do with calcium cat but considering I’m genderfluid not trans I’m just not sure if that would be appropriate

-Signed WhisperingCanvas

Well first thing to remember is that you didn't know at the time you commissioned her she was a bigot.

It's completely up to you for what you want to do though. You can commission another artist or just draw it yourself.

Also you don't need to be trans to make an au like her's. (Even if it's as a "fuck you" or even if it includes characters being trans.)

Although if some people want a VERY cute alternative the @dadmareau is super cute!!!

#melons answers #anonymous #okay. last thing on this i think I'm gunna answer. #to the anons trying to argue that she's not ACTUALLY transphobic in my asks..... take a moment to get some comprehension skills #i try to be nice but y'all seriously piss me off trying to argue that #I'm trying to be nice but y'all making it really fuckin hard. #do not come into my ask box defending her. if you're gunna do that then just fuckin leave cause i don't want you here

[dawntheduckrb]

I'll stop posting wips eventually but it's been five days since I've said anything and I don't want anyone to think I'm dead/dying/stuck in a ditch and withering away, so here's 10% of the reason I disappeared (the duck is stuck in rendering hell) (and my little baby laptop is screaming at me every time I open up this file)

I might still be mostly lurking for a little bit so please be patient with me in the meantime 🙏🙏

#seriously though I'm sorry for just up and disappearing like that #wanna talk to people and interact with them so bad lately but I just can't bring myself to do it #so the best i can manage is blabbing in the tags like always #i don't know wtf is going on but over the past few days I've just felt like i don't deserve to talk to anyone #tried to reblog posts from mutuals several times but something in my head keeps saying; #'yeah they don't actually care for your input at all and you're being a bother for even trying etc etc' #and i know deep down that's probably not true (i hope) but i can't reason it away you know #and i know the best solution to this is to just talk to someone #let it be known that i *did* make an attempt to #i tried texting someone (and succeeded) but i couldn't keep doing it and I'm back at square one (and now feel worse lmao) #i'm not really putting this here for anybody to see it as much as i am for myself #but i know that (hypothetically) this could be seen by a real human so it still kinda feels like I'm reaching out in a way which feels nice #makes me feel less like I'm shriveling up in my own self imposed solitude #so uh hello person who might be reading the tags (there's six of you guys here now which is crazy cause i post nothing but junk here lol) #((but thanks anyway for following and even more thanks for reading this if you did)) #i'll make my way around all the posts i missed soon enough don't worry #i'm sorry i'm really not meaning to ignore anybody #i have drafted quite a few posts from moots that i couldn't finish leaving comments on but i have seen them #everyone here is super cool and talented as always <3 whether that be through art or writing or just finding neat posts to share #this wall of text is long enough and i'm very eeby so thank you again for reading this #tldr; not dead and i'll be okay eventually :) #not rb #hey look i didn't post a picture of my dog this time (a crime) #i'll make sure to share one the next time i get a good one

[miallurk]

In these days i realized i like art and writing and creating and shopping and taking walks and talking to people and cleaning and helping and studying and doing things but i'm just. too stressed, tired and burned out to do them. How great!

#i am losing my sanity day by day #drowning myself in the nearby lake seems better and better every day #why am i even writing this i have literally no mutuals or even people who'd care about #don't mind me crying myself to sleep haha #ooooh look at this pathetic baby. sitting in their little bed crying stupid tears. i should at least get tissues now while my crying isn't #fuck history fuck school and fuck me i quess #am i gonna start treating this as an actual blog and make a sideblog for reblogs? who knows! certainly not me; stay tuned for the story! #i'm gonna go and just let it all out into a pillow #vent ig #my mom is blasting holiday music in the other room lol #nice to have a whatever the fuck im having while “jingle bells” plays #at least i'm not hearing mariah carey ig #anyway i've probably hadn't been taking care of myself lately it has been worse despite me promoting it to everyone who needs #when i vented last time and it wasn't taken seriously so woop #anyway imma go try to calm myself and back to my notes i go #please gods what did i do to deserve thi s shit. fuck you #i hate it here i really do. i hate when these people talk to me i hate them. i at least can be sorta accquaitances with one but they just. #all stare and laugh? i actually can't. like i'm some fucking clown and laughing stock. just kill me at this point. i have been enduring this #for YEARS and suddenly i'm being a little bitch about it?? what the fuck. why am i so mushy all of a sudden. being shown an ounce of respect #and care made me expect it more? fuck #i'm just setting myself up for failure. i am just a giant loser and failure of a person. #everything seems so fucking hard. and pointless. i am tearing my rotten little heart apart with this. i am once again grieving things #long ago and things i never had. my everything has to be pleasing to an outsider #my value is my suffering. am i breaking enough? is this beautiful to look at #at my self destruction? i hate myself. i treat others so cruelly. i am a horrible fucking person. #my problems are not their burden - i forced it on them. wept like a baby because she left me. and what happened in the end? my paranoia got #to me. i left them. i fucking. i fid the thing i was afraid of being done to me. #this is showing so many issues. #so many things wrong with me. i shouldn't even be alive by this point - i wasn't supposed to survive past 12 #i am being forced to do this every day. someone please just end my fu king suffering

[katiehwang]

Detective Conan: The Phantom of Baker Street

a.k.a the father & son moments I absolutely love and wish we can see more!

#I'm sad we didn't see much of the Kudous in the 1000+ chapters n episodes of the manga/show #And while it's a popular opinion that Shinichi kinda want to avoid his childish parents at all cost (which I also believed is true) #But here it seems they have mutual respect and miss each other #Perhaps it lacks the dorkiness and childish behaviour because there's murder case and danger involved (and Yukiko's absence) #Although I can't really tell which is the true dynamic since this is just movie #And we know some character are portrayed quite differently from manga sooo #I don't know what's the point of this post other than maybe I want to complain about the lack of this kind of plot in DC movies #Forget the flahsy action. I want to see the og character bonding moments and maybe some in depth stories about them #Although perhaps they won't get it right and I won't be satisfied anyway #But whatever #Yeah I love this movie because of Yuusaku and Shinichi's scene #But seriously must they act so professional all the time? #Kudou Yuusaku #Kudou Shinichi #Edogawa Conan #Detective Conan #Anyway it's nice to see Yuusaku caring about Shinichi while trying to solve a murder case #The Phantom of Baker Street

[fauna-and-floraa]

Felix and Chan actually getting to keep their occa aussiness will always be inherently funny to me, but also it is really cute.... makes me a lil :'')

#like Bang chan legit has bogan status sometimes and thats wild to me #I'm telling you right here right now if felix or chan went to the US or UK which is where a lot of aussie acts end up trying to go #bc the industry is pretty small down here and fair enough to want bigger success but they almost def be made to tone the accent down #like they're australian but they dont get to be steve irwin australian its like kylie minogue australian? cate blanchett... #so seeing idols actually keep the broad accent? hilarious #but its really nice though!! #like its funny seeing the other members comment on the aus accents bc theyre arent like. mean? like they find the accents #interesting or funny or whatever but they dont act as though its not right #australia isnt as bad as somewhere like the uk as far as classism around accents but we do still have a bit of that #and it is a bit like well if you want to be taken more seriously you should 'Speak properly' which is code for lessen that accent #its too rough and too course yadda yadda so seeing them still rock it #and rock it pretty proudly is really sweet to me

[weepylucifer]

Remind me to at some point do something about that ficlet i have knocking around in my head where ulixes surprise-visits steban at his mom's place during semester break and steban gets extremely flustered about it

#posts by me #this would be early in their friendship #they met each other in the last semester and instantly clicked but it's all still new. uli hasn't even realized he has a crush yet #he's staying with his parents and they're distant and disinterested and he misses talking to his new friend #and hey steban did give him his family's address ''for emergencies'' and urgently needing to talk theory is an emergency!! #so he heads to villalobos. has the door opened by steban's mom. all very yes hello can my friend come out to play #he's led out back to a little community garden that some people in the apartment block manage together #steban's there helping out bc he's on break. he's in his oldest shittiest gardening clothes. there's dirt on his hands #and mud on his bare feet. uli looks at him in the sunlight and thinks ooohh. i am IN LOVE with you #then steban sees him and is like OH NO. he's not supposed to see me without my nice academic getup #now he'll think [mesque stereotype] [mesque stereotype] [mesque stereotype] #and meanwhile uli's thinking wow he is the most beautiful being to ever exist i want to be communist lovers with him #cue uli sitting in the kitchen with lemonade while steban has a whispered argument with his mom outside #all ''muuuums why did you just let him IN HERE i'm not even properly DRESSED'' and his mom is all oh you want to impress the boy huh? #you want to look nice for the boy? 😏 #and steban (blushing) is like i want the boy to take me SERIOUSLY as an ACADEMIC #like... this is firstie steban. he's still grappling with the whole 'poor kid in a college environment' thing #he hasn't yet learned to simply own it. he's probably trying to suppress his accent when he's on campus. and uli might even be middle class #(!!!) #and like he's not Ashamed of where he's from. his family's great. he... doesn't Hate being mesque. he's not sure yet how it all squares w #his brand-new communist beliefs. where he belongs and what he defines himself as #but he knows this: he does kinda want to impress ulixes. it just feels right to have him around #so he's just very very flustered and confused and trying to act nonchalant about it #steban's mom after fighting tooth and nail for it eventually gets uli to call her by her first name

[neverendingford]

Therapists have two genders:

Professional Asshole and

Well-meaning Incompetent

#color says shit #text post #replying to my therapist is the most frustrating thing in the world. ma'am you think you're building rapport with me? #I hate to tell you but you've been wildly unsuccessful if that's what you think you've been doing here. #stop trying to educate me about my bullshit diagnoses that I already know about from my years on the internet. #like. babygirl I'm over here trying to build up to feeling comfortable enough to talk about the six-layer trauma cake I've got going on #and you're over here showing me a diagram consisting of two concentric circles meant to convey the idea of self versus other #you're very nice and trying to be helpful but I don't want to fucking talk about the girlfriend I want to talk about the issues that matter #girlfriend is an experiment. the other shit is stuff that lives in our fucking soul. shit that made me into the weird person fragment I am #and I had to fight for an hour. therapist kept on scheduling us for half an hour. HALF A FUCKING HOUR HALF AN HOUR ISN'T ENOUGH TIME TO TALK #I had to fight for it and even when she finally scheduled us for an hour she still tried to cut it short #I had to pull up the appointment confirmation to prove I had an hour allotted. like seriously what the fuck. #one of those people who had their own mental struggles and then is like “I want to become a therapist and help other people uwu” #and then is fucking useless and projects their own issues onto someone else and shoves their personal solutions onto you #like someone in r/aita projecting their own shitty relationship onto someone else. some of us are different Daryl #ugh I'm so fucking pissed and I'm not giving up the controller until I get this shit sorted out for now. #r wanted to hop back on this morning in the shower and we had a shouting match but our deal was she takes a week break so I'm keeping it #because too much shit has built up and she's been not doing so hot so I'm gonna get this mess cleaned up before I let her back on. #I bought groceries. I did laundry. I got the car repairs done. I got our bike fixed up. I showered. I did dishes. I'm going to #and I'm going to get even more done tomorrow. maybe then I'll go back to watching over her shoulder and backseat gaming but not for a while. #it feels nice though. like I get to finally stretch my arms and yawn real good. #and btw to answer the question she's always fucking asking. she's not ace in the slightest lmao. I am and the bleed over confuses her. #there. question answered so maybe she can stop asking about it. #I feel like in her push to find herself she kinda pushed me back into the corner. which... ngl that hurts a little. #oh well. you don't need to hear about our lovers' quarrel. I'm going to bed in these cozy fresh bed sheets I just put on the bed.

[occasionalsnippets]

Anomalous MC interactions with SCP 423, 2474, 3143, 3812, 3999, 4028, and 7069?

pick a struggle

#mumblings #ask #answered #anon #Anomalous AU #i'm joking (mostly) #asldkajshd in all seriousness; a) some i've already written about. b) too many in one ask; try to be reasonable guys. #c) nobody around here ever asks me nicely for things :( #(a bit of a hyperbole but also true)

[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

oh my god i'm so in love with all the fic ideas you talked about, but especially the last two with the castles kidnapping matt in like a friendly and well-meaning way. it's so funny to me and also the dynamic here would be absolutely excellent. never realised i needed a pro-crime hyper-competent maria castle in my life but apparently i do???

the dynamic in those, but especially the christmas one, is fucking hilarious. i love it so much. i'd write it tomorrow if i had the time

like the castles are treating this like one of those times where you pick up a puppy out of a cardboard box in a kmart parking lot and like, it's a little scrawny and underfed and feral and yeah, it probably would have been smarter to pick one out of the shelter where at least you know they've been checked out and have their shots and everything, but you know, the kids wanted one so bad and it's christmas, and it's cold and the poor thing's probably going to freeze to death in the cardboard box, so you bring it home, and suddenly it's in these new and unfamiliar surroundings and it keeps trying to skitter out the front door every time it opens, so maybe you have to keep it in a back room or tied up for a while and you hand feed it treats until it stops trying to run away and like, you know eventually the puppy's going to warm up to you as long as you treat it right and when that happens you'll have a happy new member of the family that you can probably shove felt reindeer antlers on for the family christmas card

meanwhile matt's treating this like a fucking kidnapping

#it's so funny to me #like matt is somehow in the minority in thinking kidnapping an adult man is a big deal #normally he'd be able to hurl is body out a third story window and fuck off #but devastantly frank is one of the few people on the planet that can go toe to toe with him on a good day #and he keeps dragging matt off the windowsills and acting like matt's being ridiculous for trying to escape his own kidnapping #also he could try to just fuckin. kick flip frank #but it's so much harder to do that to maria and the kids #and it's SO AWKWARD to get into a physical confrontation with the dad of the kids whose lives you saved and who idolize you now #like merry christmas kids i need to punch your dad #maybe the real kidnapping was the societal conventions we found along the way #also matt's not super at one hundred percent on account of he took on the CIA in a t-shirt and sweatpants and like he WON but it's not GOOD #matt spends this entire time like 'please stop trying to teach me about the magic of christmas time' #'i need you to start treating this hostage situation seriously this is a federal crime you are committing a FEDERAL CRIME' #and maria's engaging in mild gaslighting like 'that's a bit dramatic dear here have a sugar cookie' #matt: 'i don't want a sugar cookie i want you to UNLOCK THE HANDCUFFS' #see the thing is that i'm absolutely convinced teh castles are absolutely fucking insane all of them #like we know frank is not above zip tying a child to the bed and kidnapping her for her own safety #maybe they're just all like that #the moral of the story is that this nice young man helped them and is living a horrible fucking existence so there's no reason why #they can't forcefully adopt him and make him take his medication and recover in their nice guest bedroom instead of a fucking boiler room #like this is 60% physical force and 40% a guilt trip keeping him captive

[sophieswundergarten]

🌺? (Also, your tags with each answer are absolutely delightful)

🌺- Do they have any love interest(s)?

Nope! That is not something I have any interest or experience in, and I have even less interest in roleplaying it out as a fictional character who might be an even worse disaster than I am /j /lh

#I'm glad you're enjoying the tags! #I'm having a lot of fun rambling to you :) #But seriously I would fail so hard at having a pretend romantic relationship #I've had instances of a DM trying to shove a love interest at my character before #And my panicked response has always been something like #'Well I sure hope you have a good day buddy! It's nice to have friends around here :D' #While frantically trying to come up with a reason why I can leave #I'm really glad no one's asked me on a date in real life because I'd probably handle it even worse than that ajdjfjdjdh #Right #So no. Lyn does not have a romantic interest. #And if any of the other players suggest it I'm making them drink one of my random magic Artificer potions #lyn fanuidhol

[dobythealpaca]

Ooughhh yal are too cool and lovely in this fandom yall it's making me so emotional for no reason each one of you ima kiss you on the head cuz like what you guys simply cannot you are too good for this earth mwah ILY each and every one of you <3 <3 <3

#You headcannons art ideas everyone of yous #U are all so valid I love you too much #Literally would not know where I'd be rn without this silly fandom #And ur funky ideas I could read and look at all of your things for hours #I try and make it a thing where I keep up with each of your blogs cuz oml u r all too good #Sorry emotional doby here rn but ougjshdh #You are all doing such cool nice things and I simply cannot deal with it #I have no clue what this fandom WA sliek periviously but honestly now it's one of the best places #So fun and wonderfulicnannot #eddsworld #Yes you all on the main tag need to see this cuz ily all so very much seriously and I want to interact and love you all #Dman my social awkward interactionness if it wasn't for taht I hope you know I'd be spamming you asking you for evrry little detail #About ocs characters #Everything ever I love you gusy sm #Anyway ima crawl away now cuz Kshdjdj #Just know u are wonderful #When I'm like this I cannot type #It's jsuts jsbdnsjcjdjf #Misspellings EVRYWHET

[thatonecrookedsmile]

March 15th is what I call "the day Showdown Bandit was first announced".Trailer anniversary in other words. Good times bro. I remember that day like it was 4 years ago (oh my god). I thought for this occasion that only I think is special,I should post something about SB today. Because at some point or another I would have to. Unfortunately I don't have anything recent to post,so here's something I did a long time ago.

My designs for Carl Handler and Buddy Bublik (because apparently the text on the drawing doesn't give enough of a hint (look,this was done over a year ago, give me a break). Kind of crazy to think that,apart from their names,we never saw anything from them in Episode 1. The (in-universe) creators of Bandit,and not once did we get any info from these guys. Imagine BATIM but Joey is never mentioned once. 

What was their relationship? Why and how did they bring the puppets to life? What happened to them after the show ended? Which one is the puppeteer,and if one is the puppeteer, what happened to the other one? So many questions,and we will probably never have answers.

Not that it will stop me from making designs and headcanons for them,but,still..

 As I said,this drawing was already done a long time ago,so there are some details here and there that could have been improved (like the proportions) (and also there are maybe 1 or 2 details in these designs that I might change the next time I draw them again) but I still think it's a good drawing that still holds up. Not bad for something made more than a year ago.

Despite the fact that my pfp is the cowboy himself,I've only really talked about this game once. Maybe it's hard to be interested in talking about something that,well,is kind of dead these days. And let it remain clear,I'm still pretty sad about what happened to this project. Very sad.

For a while now I've kind of wanted to continue this "AU" I had at the time just... I don't know,for fun? I just think it would be interesting to do a story with these characters who didn't get time to shine thanks for certain people.

I wouldn't say this would be a case of "I stole these characters and the story is mine now" or "what would I do if I directed Showdown Bandit" (that second one is worse than the first one,ngl). But more a case of "I'm still sad and I still want to draw/write stuff with these characters from a game that was wronged". Basically I'm still going to treat this as an AU/fanfic based on a game that went nowhere.

But again,dead game,inspiration to do something related to it is low at the moment. So nothing related to this "AU" is coming out anytime soon.

But when the inspiration strikes? Then yeah, I think I can try to do something. It's only a matter of time.

#showdown bandit #carl handler #buddy bublik #crookedsmileart #only 4 main tags;damn #and this time I didn't even forget my art tag; that's great #yk;i talked about inspiration and lack thereof #but while i was making this desc;i'm listening to showdown bandit fan music #and rewatching old trailers #what are the odds;;; #for me to start having ideas again #there are few #but don't quote me on that #seriously don't do that #Also while we're here; shoutout to Lauren Synger #A long time ago I saw her saying that she would also like to return to Showdown Bandit one day; she's a real one for that. #Good to know that someone within the team still acknowledges the existence of this game #and don't try to pretend it never existed lol #Also she's a really nice person she's cool #Also shoutout to those who made SB fansongs #If one good thing came out of this game it was definitely the fan music. #They are good;man #AlsoALSOshoutout to the other 2 people who post sometimes on the SB tag #Making this community of less than 10 people still alive I see #You guys are also the real ones for that

[thetomcruiseblr]

I’m officially making this my Tom Cruise/Top Gun fanblog now, so I’m not allowed to openly make jokes about his height or the organized religion anymore. ;_____;

(In all seriousness, I’m still going make those jokes in my personal tags, but know that it is always done with love and an embracing for all of those aspects of him--except for the organized religion one, but I’m sure that this is one that all of his fans have to turn a blind eye to--but yes, we love a short, thicque king.)

#I'm not used to not joking about everything but apparently ppl might misconstrue it so I'm not trying to risk it #I seriously need more people to talk about TC/Top Gun with! Help! *screams into the void* #(j/k I'm pretty busy but I would like to eventually ingratiate myself to more of a community here--I promise I'm nice!)

[elytrafemme]

ive been wavering back and forth recently on whether or not i like dudes still (which now is probably the worst time for me to debate that because there are a lot of uh confounding factors to say the least with my life situation rn). but ultimately it’s like. okay if i do and ? 

i’m a lesbian and i love women so fucking much. i also share a consciousness with a queer man who loves men and we share romantic experiences in a sense so sometimes i like men in a guy way too. my gender identity is really fucking complex entirely on its own. sometimes i maybe like guys but lesbian still feels like a better term for me because i connect with the community and also loving women has felt like an integral part of my life while liking men is a special bonus. obviously nonbinary people fit in here where they fit in. and! yeah :D

#nightmare.personal #it's just. it's nice because as i've slowly started talking about. more and more but am trying to be careful about mentioning #attraction has become really complicated for a lot of reasons. nowadays a lot of it has to do with certain coping mechanisms #where i find myself flirting with a guy without being attracted to him just attracted to what role he could have in my life #but all's that to say that even with that shit it's good to have something solid here #i love women and i'm a lesbian and everything else will come as it comes. #and also loving nonbinary people kind of depends on the nonbinary person bc #gender presentation and all that differs and also i'm pretty selective with my actual attraction anyway #albeit all the people i have seriously felt attracted to recently were they/she/hes like me :] #idk if this makes sense my brain. gets scattered w this stuff