#I'm living for the terror

[notbecauseofvictories]

I think the most terrifying part of any relationship is the ongoing awareness that you are going to have to trust someone when they appear to like or love you. There is no objective way to check your status with someone, no app that will say "they like you overall but are mad at you right now, specifically for x or y or a vague z thing that you didn't even clock when it was happening. But! if you send them a nice card and small gift, they will forget about it and return to base level affection"

instead, you have to just....keep having a relationship with that person, doing big and small things with or for them, and praying that you will both be brave and evolved enough to raise x/y/z as an issue if it genuinely is problem.

Mortifying ordeal of being known, down to your very gluons, and disliked.

#this is worse with family I think. because I listen to my family talk about how other members #are frustrating or did a thing and isn't that irritating?? that this person is themselves???? #(I am not blameless in this; I talk about other members of the family too) #but I am 100% sure I love my family. even talking about how annoying they are! I love them. #I can only hope they love me. #or worse - that they put up with me when I'm in front of them but when I leave...? #I live in terror of being That Person for the next generation. #celestial emporium of benevolent knowledge

[luckybyler]

This was a reply to someone else, but I'm making this its own post because so many people are being so evil right now re: Noah Schnapp.

You can find other, longer explanations with history and all, but all the places I've seen more or less agree with this:

So you're all calling people to cancel Noah because he's in favor of a Jewish nation in what is today Israel. Which is a perfectly reasonable, decent and educated opinion to have, especially when you, to use a trendy term, "educate yourself" and find out why the state of Israel was created.

11000 dead Palestinians, half of them children

According to Hamas. Don't forget that, ever. They're the current, official government of Gaza, thus they're the ones who give numbers. This means that the real number could be 10, 1 million, anything in between. What I've read is that they probably give more of less accurate total numbers. What they fail to do, however, is distinguish between Hamas militants and civilians, and beteween civilians killed by IDF strikes, civilians killed by failed Hamas or Palestininan Islamic Jihad's rockets (which happens a lot), and Palestinians murdered by Hamas/PIJ (which also happens, a whole damn lot). They also don't specify how many civilians they have prevented or tried to prevent from evacuating or receiving aid.

11k dead people is a horrible number. Even 1 dead person is a horrible number. However, urban warfare in such a densely populated area is its own kind of hell, especially when the other side is fond of using civilians as human shields in every way possible. The fact that the number is 11k and not 50k, 100k, and so on, indicates that the IDF have indeed done a lot to minimize deaths. You don't genocide people by doing roof knocks, opening evacuation lines, dropping guided bombs, putting up an Iron Dome to deal with rockets while avoiding escalation, etc. simply because actual genocide, while a lot worse, is also cheaper, easier and faster than what they're doing. This is important because caling every act of war genocide dilutes the word, and there are actual genocides happening around the world. Also, there is a difference between striking military targets and causing civilian deaths as a side effect (what the IDF is doing) and planning and carrying out a massacre deliberately targeting civilians and inflicting as much pain and humilliation as possible on them. And there is a difference between doing so by breaking a ceasefire (which is what Hamas did), and defending your country because if you don't do that a terrorist group will anhilate you (which is what the IDF is doing).

Back to Noah. So far, these are the things that people have tried to cancel him for:

Traveling to Israel (a completely normal thing)

Having Israeli friends (another completely normal thing)

Condemning Hamas' horrible attack on October 7th (the decent thing to do)

Posting a statement saying he feels unsafe as a Jewish person in the US (which, given the rise of antisemitic acts in the world, including the US, including where he lives and where he studies, is a valid feeling to have)

Signing a letter, along with Shawn Levy, Brett Gelman, Ross Duffer and I think Cara Buono, asking Biden to press for the liberation of every hostage by Hamas. This especially shows the utter ignorance of the cancellers because, as it turns out, caring about every hostage implies a slowdown of IDF's actions (and, at the time, a delay of a ground invasion).

Supporting the existence and preservation of the state of Israel (once again, a completely normal thing). The fact that people are turning against him for these things says to me that the real reason you are all hating Noah is beacuse:

He's Jewish. Like, really really Jewish.

And the fact that this all comes from a place of antisemitism isn't hidden at all: I've seen y'all on here, on Twitter, Reddit, every other social media calling him slurs (such as "cunt"), censoring his name, pretending he's not part of the cast, asking the Duffers/Netflix to fire him, wishing him failure, doxxing him, calling on his classmates to physically assault him, etc. He doesn't need to educate himself: you guys are already teaching him a great lesson on why a Jewish state is necessary. If that's the treament he gets from his own "fans", what can he expect from the world at large?

#byler #noah schnapp #antisemitism #jumblr #stranger things #i know many people here are actual children or college students #who have never lived war or armed conflict #and this is baby's first social justice fight #but the way you're acting towards Noah is disgusting and evil #I'm not even jewish but I know what terrorism is like #and I know what it's like to have idiot 1st worlders be on the terrorists' side because they think they're “liberators” or something #harming the very people you think they help

[uglynicc]

I'm still absolutely terrified they'll make live action Mass Effect content that:

1.) Doesn't feature Fem Shep

2.) Doesn't feature Shepard and an alien love interest

3.) Somehow makes Turians and Krogans less hot

#fem shep or NOTHING #mass effect #y'know I'm ride or die Shakarian but if they did a human LI it'd be the most boring shit ever #like ALL THE HOT ALIENS ARE RIGHT THERE #and adapt a space opera at all if you're not gonna get funky with aliens #i live in mortal terror of hearing about mass effect adaptations for movie or tv #i love it too much I cannot handle it being done wrong by me🤣 #kitchen sink rambles #I love paragon or renegade or combo of both Shep but it needs to be fem shep #DO MY WIFE JUSTICE

[captainkirkk]

My captaaaaain! I read Hands of the Emperor because of you and I am *obsessed*. It's so... there are books that try to keep you reading because Things Are Happening, but HotE is so quiet with it? It is all of my favorite older relatives telling me stories without all of the context and showing me what they love(d) about their lives and the people in them, and the regrets that they can't *really* bring themselves to regret and this book just loves people so goddamn much that I can't stand it. You start reading and it's so comfortable to pick up and put back down that even the hard emotional moments feel like lightly defined colors but clear brushstrokes and now I am three quarters of the way through the book and I am going to die if I can't get more of my uncle Clioper's slice of life in the government of fantasy 1800s. I shall never be the same.

You put it into words!!! Some fantasy books are really fast paced and chaotic, but HOTE will have you SCREAMING about middle aged men DARING to make small talk and look one another in the eye. It'll have you laughing hysterically about a career burecrat auditing a bank in his home town. And then something totally batshit will happen like a lord mage turning someone into a table and it's never mentioned again. This book makes so tender and happy and also feral. What a read!!

#i STILL think about cliopher auditing the fisheries department three years in a row #i'm going about my business and suddenly i'm at the grocery store dying of laughter thinking about cliopher storming into the fisheries dept #for a THIRD CONSECUTIVE YEAR #every dept lives in quiet terror that theyre next for the audit chopping block #he is the burecratic batman of the palace of stars #not the hero they want but the hero they need #(he is 100% what his radiancy wants though) #ask

[floralcrematorium]

i think alfred can very much be a pizza snob considering the regional battle for pizza superiority (new jersey/new york style pizza cough), but i think he ruins it by dousing it in ranch dressing

lovino looks on in horror

questioning everything he thought he knew and loved about this man when alfred breaks out the hidden valley ranch

#i am slowly approaching the romerica shipyard by having alfred routinely terrorize lovino with what he does to italian american cuisine #i'm not italian but a friend who Is of italian descent and lives in the same state/went to college w me out of region thought i was #which is really funny to me because its entirely based off of the food i've cooked for her #like i'm sorry girl i don't know how to tell you i'm not i just grew up with good cooks around #anyway if you ask me to make any filipino food idk what i'm doing. i can make pancit. lumpia. and adobo and that's it. SOB #hetalia #hws #romerica #hws america #alfred f jones #hws romano #hws south italy #lovino vargas

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

Books of 2024: NEVER WHISTLE AT NIGHT: An Indigenous Dark Fiction Anthology, ed. by Shane Hawk and Theodore C. Van Alst Jr.

This has a bunch of authors I already love in it (Stephen Graham Jones, Darcie Little Badger, Waubgeshig Rice, and Rebecca Roanhorse!!), and several authors I've been meaning to try (like Tommy Orange, Nick Medina, and Kelli Jo Ford, to name a few), so I'm really hyped for them all to be together in one volume! Plus dark fiction is very much my jam (especially when it comes in a bright and colorful package).

#books of 2024 #books #book photography #never whistle at night #never whistle at night: an indigenous dark fiction anthology #shane hawk #theodore c. van alst jr. #stephen graham jones #rebecca roanhorse #darcie little badger #waubgeshig rice #i'm sorry i'm not tagging ALL of them lol there are twenty-six (26) stories in here and i do not have the attention span for that many name #i love all the details on the cover too!! #the longer i look at it the more i find #full disclosure: i did in fact used to whistle at night because i don't want to startle creachers directly into my face when i take out-- #--the trash or nocturnally shovel snow but uh. i have stopped doing that. since this book hit my shelf lol #(also sorry i just now noticed that the detached human eyeball is PURPLE of all things) #(driscoll posting) #(yeah this was vaguely in the driscoll lineup too #that's where it's been living on my shelf in the meantime) #(right next to OTHER TERRORS lol) #driscoll #in btw #anyway ignore this next text post i'm about to make pretend i'm reading this #and/or doing my damn taxes

[saints-who-never-existed]

I'm choosing violence: least favorite popular Terror fanon?

Apologies for the delay, mate - I wanted to think a bit longer about how violently to reply to this one, only for it to get lost temporarily in my drafts!

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One of my least favourite aspects of Terror fanon is something that's quite broad and common to many fandoms, and that's the rampant flanderisation of characters and relationships, and the overemphasis on shipping and sex.

Like, if that's your thing then more power to you but it's never been mine, and I can't help but feel that you miss out on so much nuance and intrigue and enjoyment when you only consider things in those narrow terms.

I hope @laststandx3 doesn't mind me including their excellent tags from my Hickey/Tozer Face-Cupping Incident post here because they really do sum up my own feelings on the matter, and I've been thinking about them for days:

#I love that dk is like we can have such interesting complicated relationships with characters that don't always have to be flattened in #A sexual relationship and the fandom response was 'let them fuck' #Same with jopson crozier. Like i get the ships need i get it. But once in a while can we like entertain the idea that not everything #Needs to be a sexual relationship every single time #Like hickeytozer is much more interesting like this (they've barely touched before but committed treason together anyway) than just having #Them be lovers right away or even during the mutiny #It flattens them #You guys are finding those relationships SO interesting exactly bc they aren't as easily defined as romantic/sexual

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(Also, just as a side note, I do sort of regret not including a longer quote from the Q&As in that post that would make it clearer that Nagaitis and Walmsley - presumably mates in some capacity having worked together multiple times before - BOTH discussed the idea of the face-touch, and BOTH came to Dave K with it.) #JusticeForDwalms

#Again I don't want to be too negative #By all means engage with things in whatever way you wish! #I'm a live-and-let-live kind of lass really #I guess I just get so much enjoyment out of the way I personally choose to engage with the show that I want to share that joy! #That's all :) #The Terror #The Terror AMC #Asks #Ask Game #Friendos! #Also again #Justice for Dwalms #That sentiment I really do stand by

[thedreadvampy]

legitimately insane how to some people, "we should wipe out this ethnic group that we've violently constrained to a ghetto because they're just genetically more violent and dangerous" is a reasonable and justifiable statement but it's Nazi Rhetoric to say something like, "it's bad that Israeli civilians are being killed but acknowledging that as tragic includes acknowledging that the almost daily state-sanctioned murder of civilians by the Israeli government is also tragic and unacceptable"

btw guys speaking of Nazi shit - can we check in, alongside what's been done to Palestinians in the last 75 years, what's the Israeli government's take on the Azerbaijani government's newest round of ethnic cleansing of Armenians? oh are the Israeli government's actions maybe not determined by Jewish identity, but by a commitment to colonial supremacy which puts them on the same page as other violently genocidal states like Azerbaijan, the US, and the UK? god can you Even Imagine?

(framing speaking against Israeli war crimes as inherently antisemitic requires understanding the Israeli state as representing all Jewish people, when it doesn't even represent all Israelis.

framing Israeli war crimes as synonymous with Jewish identity is pretty fucked up if we're being honest. I don't think that controlling water and power and movement for a captive population and shooting children dead for throwing stones is an inherent value of Judaism, any more than I think the torture carried out at Guantanamo Bay is an inherent value of Christianity - in both cases they're atrocities carried out by a far right genocidal government using religious identity as a shield.

Calling statements like "Israel is committing genocide against the people it's displaced" inherently antisemitic is doing more to further the idea that all Jewish people are associated with Israel than saying "the Israeli government is doing war crimes," which is a statement of fact about a country that exists and does war crimes. Is criticism of Israel as a nation often used as cover for antisemitism? Absolutely. Does that mean the Israeli government isn't doing literal war crimes repeatedly, on record, while talking publicly about scrubbing an ethnic group off the map? Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh well in the last 48 hours they've definitely cut off water and power to almost 600,000 civilians and allegedly used white phosphorus against civilians so in an extremely factual and unambiguous way yeah man those are Literal War Crimes whoever does them.)

#red said #sorry man saying 'it's bad to do genocide and war crimes' doesn't actually mean 'I'm happy when Jewish people die' #it means 'there is a context to Palestinian militants attacking Israelis which involves Palestinians being killed wounded or imprisoned #very nearly every day by the Israeli state and settlers. so no you can't treat a Palestinian attack on Israel as an unprecedented tragedy #without also recognising that Israeli forces have repeatedly visited attacks of similar magnitude on Palestine which is ALSO tragic #as well as the regular state-sanctioned murder of over 200 Palestinians in the 9 months BEFORE the Palestinian attack on Saturday #It means 'Palestinian lives don't matter less than Israeli lives' not 'Israeli lives don't matter' #this week is literally the FIRST TIME SINCE RECORDS BEGAN that more Israeli lives have been lost than Palestinian #bc for every year since 2000 orders of magnitude more palestinians than Israelis have been killed in this war #you don't get to say 'it's only bad when X ethnic group is killed it's GOOD to kill Y ethnic group' then accuse OTHERS of genocide apologis #it is legitimately a tragedy for Israeli civilians to be killed and wounded en masse. the people are not the nation. #but it's not less of a tragedy for Palestinians to have been killed and wounded en masse week after week for decades. #and when peaceful protest gets you shot and bombed and acting against the military gets you shot and bombed #and just existing doing nothing at all gets you shot and bombed. living near someone accused of terrorism. looking for your fucking cat. #when you're getting shot and bombed daily whatever you do. it's not surprising that sometimes people move to violence against civilians. #because as people from Gaza have said. better to die fighting for survival than die on your knees waiting. #which like. I'm not making a moral judgement one way or the other bc i am intrinsically disgusted by mass killing. as we all should be. #and this might be the movement which liberates Palestine and it might be the excuse which allows Israel to finish Palestine #and either way hundreds of people are dead on both sides and however you slice it that's a fucking tragedy #but we cannot. treat it as if Hamas' strike began the violence. and ignore the 200+ Palestinians killed by the IDF this year beforehand #Palestinian lives matter as much as Israeli lives. 700 Israeli citizens dead is a tragedy. 600 Palestinians dead is a tragedy. #and if you lay out the numbers from this weekend alone you can pretend that Israelis are getting decimated by Palestine. #but to do that you have to ignore the facts that for every 1 Israeli killed in the past decade 3 Palestinians die. #and that Israeli deaths happen in occasional outbursts of violence while Palestinian deaths happen every week #whether or not Hamas or any other Palestinian faction initiates violence

[traumainpyjamas]

JOHNNY \\ 240226 NCT Johnny Instagram Live

#johnny suh #nct 127 #nct instagram live #johnny looks so good with spring sunlight shining on him #I also love that color. sweater looks good #once again these gifs are brought to you by my need to terrorize my dear friend #she gleefully sent me a clip of johnny condoning slacking off middle of monday. and then proceeded to distract me the rest of a day #not gonna lie. her distractions were pretty enjoyable #also how are we feeling about johnny and the paris fashion week? everyone still alive? I'm not sure if some of us are ever going to recover #nct #gifs

[cienie-isengardu]

Mortal Kombat 1 Behind the Scenes AU: Deep in trouble (Mom is visiting #2)

Author Note: A continuation to “Get. Lost.”, “Dating”, “Permission”, "Why date a punk like him" & "Panic (Mom is visiting)"

[Cage’s Mansion] [Waiting for Liu Kang] [Special Bonus] [Grandmaster’s commentary] [Climbing scene] [Madam Bo’s Inn] [Cage’s Mansion 2 (fire extinguisher)] [Medic] [Shang Tsung’s sad face] [Smoke’s Fall] [Scenography (1)] [Scenography (2)] [Show off!] [Favorite brother] [Climbing on the wall (nonsense)] [Tomas’ commentary] [Perfectly fine] [Sexy, sexy man~♪] [Brothers between filming - Scenography(3)] [Wrong team!] [Since when you two are friends?!] [I like being evil sorcerer more] [I forgot my line, sorry!] [Read the script Kuai!] [Get. Lost.] [Dating] [Permission] [Why date a punk like him…] [Panic (Mom is visiting)] [Decapitation then]

#mortal kombat #mk1 behind the scenes au #kuai liang #bi han #tomas vrbada #sub zero #scorpion #smoke #mention of shang tsung #mention of bi han tomas & kuai liang's mom #aka the biggest terror of lin kuei according to kuai liang and tomas #bi han is mama's boy so he has nothing to fear xdd #is mom angry about the fake date drama or her son hiding from her or is it just bi han's older brother instinct to mess with his siblings? #a good question indeed #(and i'm living to make pyromancer kuai liang suffer lol) #for shang tsung meeting bi han's mom was the top of the top most stressful things that happened to him #his titan self of course did not help at all #The Mom and Bi Han probably wanted to troll shang tsung because every cryomancer in this family is a troll #while tomas is the unlucky guy that gets in trouble by association with kuai liang alone XD

[azelmaandeponine]

Today in shitty takes:

"Drayton bad because of fanart where he trolls Kieran".

One, Kieran deserves it after the crap he pulled.

Two, fanart??? Isn't??? Canon???

Kieran Stans learn media literacy challenge.

#pokemon #drayton #elite 4 drayton #kieran stans and having no media literacy. name a more iconic duo. #you all really HATE teenagers acting like teenagers! #kieran is not the victim. he literally terrorized the league club and made them miserable because ogerpon didn't chose him. #he was nothing short of a toxic bully #he's not a “soft bean who needs protecting”. #drayton defense squad #god i'm gonna have to start tagging shit with that now because some kieran stans live on a different level of reality #and no kieran having issues and mental health problems does not give him a pass to be a massive dickhead #like you all make me want to hate kieran sometimes SO MUCH it's not even funny #pokemon scarlet and violet #pokemon scarlet dlc

[foxesonstilts]

really enjoying whatever the fuck true detective: night country has going on ngl

#this is some dyatlov pass the terror top of the lake the thing mishmash fuckery and i'm living for it #HBO said ben you've been a good boy we're gonna give u some fucked up shit in the snow <3 AND THEY DID <3 #no idea where the fuck this is gonna go but i'm here for the ride #esp. after that fuckn. mini-carcosa in the frozen trailer YO DUDE TELL ME MORE WHAT THE FUuuuuuuuck #true detective night country

[irvingcoded]

You are in the world’s best place for it. 

#🍓 #john irving #lieutenant john irving #cornelius hickey #the terror amc #the terror edit #the terror #my gifs #MY EDITS #hickving #don't mind me just remaking an older post in gif form... 🤪 #im not gonna be ok when horrible from supper goes live this weekend i'm not <3 #this is a promise a warning a threat

[fluentisonus]

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#I just feel so like. idk how to even describe my state of mind. #it's like I've gone from depressed in a dull helpless way to depressed in a hysterical way but sometimes for a #little bit I'm also normal. i feel like the most boring person in the world & also like I'm losing my mind. #i genuinely never thought i would actually really get to this point in my life ever. not in that i thought I'd die per se it was just never #real to me it never felt like something i could feasibly accomplish & now I'm there i feel like i just stepped off into the deep end of #some alternate universe world i shouldn't even exist in like i don't belong here. #like when i pictured my life as a kid reality just ended here & everything else was fantasy I realistically knew I never could do #& I'm Trying so hard to get myself a job so i can do smth with my life beyond sort of stewing in boredom & existential terror mixed but #i do not feel like a real person who could feasibly do that. like i just thought I'd disappear or something I don't know what I thought. #like someone would just close the picture book of my life because I'm not someone whose capable of living a normal life. #like I've failed the test (just like I always expected to!!!) but I'm still stuck here they forgot to take me out of the experiment. #<- sorry I'm okay mostly I'm just. really going through it w the transitional stage of life thing

[leejihoonownsmyheart]

In my passion project, romcom Jihoon fanfic that I keep talking about I wrote this scene and it's really funny to me and it is important to me that someone reads this and says: "brie this is really funny" and includes something kind of personal about the little tid bit and I will not be posting any story ever again until someone says that AND ITS GOT TO SEEM ORGANIC. And no context because my genius amazing writing ability needs no context at all okay here it is:

“Oh!” You looked up from the ipad you were coloring on, realizing that the bell to the coffee shop had dinged a while ago. You gave a smile to the girl that had walked in as you closed your ipad. You glanced over your shoulder, grateful that Wonwoo was in the back so he wouldn’t have noticed that you were too distracted by your ipad to notice customers…

Just like he said you would be when he specifically told you not to play with your ipad on the clock. You looked back at the person who had just come in, trying to see if you could place her.

“Is… Wonwoo here…?” The girl asked, looking over your shoulder past you. You pouted your lips slightly, gesturing towards the back. She glanced that way. “So you’re…?”

You could tell in her eyes that she recognized you. You smiled brightly and pointed at your name tag, telling her your name as if you genuinely believed she didn’t know it.

“I just started working here.”

“What?!” She blurted suddenly. You let your head fall to the side innocently.

“What?” You asked her back. As she stared at you, Wonwoo peaked through the back curtain.

“Y/n, what are you doing?” He asked with a sigh, as if you were causing a huge scene of some sort. You turned to him with an expression of anger mixed with shock- one that the girl wouldn’t be able to see. He rolled his eyes at you, and looked at the girl at the counter.

“Let me guess, y/n can’t even ring you up a cup of coffee,” he commented. He stopped next to you. “12oz iced latte with maple and almond milk.”

He stood next to you, not moving to touch the register. The smile that you had sported just for show in front of this girl grew into one that was real.

Wonwoo still couldn’t use the register. Even though it was inarguably easier to use than that stupid piece of junk he had before. You chirpily rang the drink into the register.

“Maple coffee,” you said conversationally. “That sounds-”

Wonwoo shoved a coffee cup in front of you as Dayoung curiously tapped her debit card to the card reader.

“I didn’t hire you to talk, I hired you to make coffee.”

You wanted to make Wonwoo look bad so you let a flash of hurt and confusion cross through your eyes, and then you glanced at the girl, as if you just remembered that she was there and could see the two of you and pretended to force a smile.

“I make amazing coffee,” you stated. As you walked over to the coffee machine, you heard Wonwoo get hit in the chest, and you smiled in satisfaction. Your plan had worked, because of course it had. 

“Wonwoo is that-”

#if i wake up to this i'm going to delete it #Context is that y/n is a very famous person who suddenly retired out of no where and moved to a small town where #y/n is now recking havoc (trying to live a normal life) #by terrorizing (forcibly befriending) #people #and also y/n got this job with wonwoo by forcing him to hire them #WHAT DO YOU GUYS WANNA SEE THAT SCENE TOO ITS ALSO VERY FUNNY #seventeen fanfiction

[goldkirk]

I AM SO GLAD I'M STILL ALIVE FOR ALL THIS

#personal #really thought the blob full of nothing but terror and grief stage was permanent for a while there #and i wasn't even suicidal anymore i thought i had just permanently borked my brain #no!!!!!!! it just needed time! and my body needed more health!!! and i needed more community again! #DON'T GIVE UP!!!!!!!! if you're seeing this and you're exhausted beyond your bones or being eaten alive by a black hole #please know that you don't need to have hope and you don't need to be gung ho about it to survive #just keep going through the slog and take any opportunity that seems vaguely better each time you can #and rest rest rest i guarantee you that you need unholy amounts of rest that you're not getting #and just hold on. just hold on. it might take years but god everyone was right it was worth it to stay and keep going a while longer #you can give up on life. just don't give up on yourself. you keep hold of yourself and don't let ANYONE convince you to let go including #your own brain. you are SO much cooler and braver and wilder and livelier than you think you are and you're only going to improve over time #i love you and i'm here if there's anything i can do for you #don't be afraid to change your mind and don't be afraid to demand your right to live #those are my two rules for life at this point besides the cardinal rule of 'everyone is suffering and traumatized so be as kind as possible #and watch what happens in a snowball effect around you' #i love you. i love you. i am so glad i am alive to love you.