#I'm just really....intuitive?

[rabidwerewolfie]

Holding All The Cards

Ok, so...

Anyone that's known me for more than 30 seconds knows I like playing with tarot cards. I've been doing it since I was.... I don't even remember how old I was but let's say 20. That's close enough. I know I was barely over 18 but I WAS over.

I'm not the best reader out there, and compared to some of the pros, I really suck. But I enjoy doing it anyway and usually do it for free. But what I DON'T do is (intentionally) cold read. It probably happens by accident but I actively try not to do it.

And I'm about to piss off a LOT of other readers with what I'm about to say but... there's no actual magic involved in tarot reading. You don't have to have psychic mind powers (although it would probably help) and the only thing all the rules and rituals are good for is to get you into a good mindspace TO read.

I often talk about how my decks "talk" to me and each one has it's own personality, and that makes me sound crazier than I (admit) that I really am. The REAL process is a bit more mundane, and a tarot reading is a cooperation between the reader and the sitter.

Let's say I agree to do a reading for you. I have never met you, never talked to you before, I don't even know your name. I personally like to have A name to focus on because it helps my mental process, but it's not vitally important.

Either you or I shuffle the cards and then I lay them out. (I personally don't do the Choose A Card method, some people do) If I'm doing a spread, each placement has a meaning. It could be a simple Past Present Future or it could ask something more specific Forces Working For/Against Me etc. Each card has a name and pictures on it. The pictures are symbolic and the name has keywords attached to it.

So for this example, let's say that I'm only pulling one card. "Why can't I find a boyfriend." 3 of swords.

The key words for the Three of Swords are things like Heartbreak, Love Triangle, Heartburn, yadda yadda. So when I look at all of these things connected, images and emotions form in my head. It's pure imagination.

Why can't you find a boyfriend? You're picking the wrong type of guy. You're still hurting for a past boyfriend who did some dirty dealings and you haven't completely gotten over him yet. You're also not being open with yourself or potential partners. Your emotions are muted or locked away. You need to work on yourself before you can attract a quality guy.

Does this mean I know about your ex Travis who slept with your sister? Not at all. Not even an inkling. Do I know that you've dated a string of cheating losers since then or that your last ex wanted an open relationship? Never crossed my mind. But YOU do. So you have to take what *I* just said and apply it to yourself.

Wow, you HAVE been chasing a bunch of "bad boys" because they reminded you of Travis. You HAVE been holding back because you're afraid of being hurt again. You HAVE been spending too much time crying into your Ben & Jerry's. Maybe you should look into therapy or do some other form of self improvement.

But because of the way the human mind works, you now start thinking "Oh wow! That was SO relevant to me and specifically me! This person must have some sort of special ability! They don't even know what I look like, how would they know that was the EXACT answer I needed?"

Cold readers are even worse. You can google what that is if you don't know.

I don't have any special abilities no one else has. I'm just really good at weaving a narrative from the clues I'm given. You fill in the gaps. It's honestly that simple and any honest reader who doesn't huff their own incense will tell you the same thing.

But this is basically a magician explaining the slight of hand behind the trick, so this is not a popular explanation. "Well just because YOU don't have a genuine gift doesn't mean NO ONE does!!"

Sure, I'll give you that. I'm just open minded enough to say that it is COMPLETELY POSSIBLE that there really is someone out there who has a genuine psychic ability. But no one ever claimed Randi's million dollars so the vast majority (if not all) of these people who say there's all these rules and rituals and supernatural components are hyped up on their own self importance, WAY too superstitious, or straight up lying to you.

#Rabid rambles #personal #I joke about being a psychic but I'm not #I'm just really....intuitive?

[13eyond13]

love it when a character that's hard to read intuitively for you has like a dedicated fandom interpreter who can just glance at their blank face in a panel and then give you a 3k word essay on their innermost thoughts & desires & fears and neatly tie it back into the themes & whatnot as if it's the most obvious thing in the world

#im talking about griffith btw #guts i feel i get intuitively - maybe because i have some personality traits in common with him #and we get more about his life concretely told to us in canon. so he is a bit easier to pin down as a character and feel attached to for me #but whenever i was reading the manga i just kept wanting more insight about griffith's actions and feelings #like ok yeah its fun to have mysterious antagonists and suspense /tension etc but its also fun to feel like you deeply understand them too #and i felt like that was a bit missing from him for me in canon #so reading about him in analysis and fics is the most fun for me rn #he always felt kinda half unreal to me- which maybe was the point of him - but i wanted a bit more about his childhood or something? #and wished we had more stuff explicitly from his pov in the story to read or explanation about his transformation or wtv #and now he's so much more closed off to me even than he was in the golden age. i keep waiting for him to explain stuff and he does not #ANYWAYS all this rambling to say some people out there are very good at interpreting him and making his like. insecurities #more obvious to me bc i didnt really get that side of him from canon intuitively well #also im really enjoying reading the first few berserk fics ive read #there may not be a ton of them out there but there is def writing talent in the fandom #i'll share some recs once i'm done sifting through most of what's out there to read #also (not to tie everything back to death note but it IS my home fandom after all) #i feel griffith is obvs the more light-like character here and L maybe a bit guts-like? but unlike berserk in death note #light is the one you get to know best and L is the mysterious / unreal one you don't get a lot of concrete insight into #and in the DN fandom I can read the more mysterious character intuitively but had to warm up to the less mysterious one instead #and the mystery of L makes sense to me and doesnt bug me as much due to like - he HAS to hide a lot about himself or else he will die lol #so some similarities there but also some opposite feels as well #berserk spoilers #p

[glorious-spoon]

My oldest kid STRUGGLED with learning to read - part of this is that Covid started when she was in kindergarten and distance learning was an unmitigated nightmare, so she pretty much lost any momentum she'd had and took most of first grade to catch back up. It was really only when my sister in law got her a Captain Underpants book for Christmas when she was seven that she was suddenly like, oh! this can be fun! and took off with it.

My younger kid, on the other hand, just sat down and read me an entire book, out loud, barely stumbling over sounding out three- and four-syllable words. He's five; this is well beyond what they're practicing in school. He just... learned how letters make sounds and instinctively picked the rest up. The contrast is wild.

#i was a kid who really struggled with learning to read #it's really weird watching him just intuitively get how it works #parenting #kids #but it's also like - that it's worth putting that effort in because some people who end up loving to read #are not people who just got it effortlessly #i read a lot; i'm a librarian and i write for fun #and i was not a precocious reader #my daughter wasn't either #but she's got a stack of funny graphic novels and science books about space in her room now #and she loves them

[astranauticus]

had to relisten to 2.4 for my last drawing and got compelled to draw the scene of dani point blank shooting her own dead dreams so here we are

#rolling with difficulty #dani rwd #this was so much fun like i wasn't expecting to enjoy this as much as i did but like!! complementary colours go brr i guess #it's just.. such a cool visual like design choice? anyway #in hindsight this is dnd so i'm not sure if she's supposed to have an actual handgun but it's fine #i just googled pistol and took the first pic off google images #i should draw dani more her design is so much fun #every time i draw the hypnagoug i jsut choose to ignore more of its description but come on #i think sacrificing a bit of accuracy for rule of cool in this case is pretty understandable #as a side note the reason why i drew my last hypnagoug comic in greyscale was that for some reason that entire fight is just #greyscale. in my brain. idk why like genuinely that's how i imagine it #but for this one i really wanted to get the blue/orange contrast so here we are #ALSO side note to the side note but if you saw my demon possession au comic from the discord (which. no you didn't) #THAT ONE was in greyscale bc i was trying to save time bc i literally rushed that in more or less one sitting #and colouring in greyscale is just.. pretty intuitive for me for whatever reason so i just did it so i thought it would be faster #idk fun fact i guess #art I made

[dykeinthedark]

venting in tags about gender n shit (long as hell) (u can comment and talk 2 me as always :3)

#okay so i got a really masc haircut about a month ago and i know it's just a haircut but holy shit has it changed EVERYTHING for me #like.... i've always leaned masc except 1) before i came out 2) when i was actively in love with someone who i knew liked femmes #and they always described me as a fem. because that's what i showed her. because i wanted to be with her. #but lowkey whenever i'm in a not-impressing-anyone raw-dogging-life-no-crush era i always resort to a very masc style #like masc being my default and i'd only lean fem to impress people whether it's for love or peer pressure in a specific setting #like ''dressing up'' has always been a form of drag to me. like something i HAD to do to fit in or impress my parents (scott favor core) #but ever since this haircut i've realized... i could just BE masc innately like i really don't have to be womanly if i don't want to #which i usually don't. again i have only ever dressed fem for other people. but it's not even being masc that attracts me on its own #it's like. being masc in a distinctly lesbian way. as in whenever i look in the mirror i don't wanna be like a Guy i wanna be a dyke. #like lesbian as a gender identity too sort of thing honestly. okay i've been waffling but basically i sort of want to call myself butch #but i don't know if i like... can?? if i'm allowed to??? #everyone always says it's MORE than just wearing boy clothes and not wearing makeup and having short hair (which i already do all those) #i mean i've always id'd as genderqueer because it literally just means gender weird and i experience gender in a queer way #what's probably the most telling is that my friends (all queer) CALL me a butch lesbian #like every time they do i feel really internally validated. it's not just my clothes but my personality too ig is what people tell me #i have a higher pitched voice relatively speaking but apparently the way i talk is quote ''very clockably into women'' #which?? gender euphoria asf. my best friend specifically he (gay trans guy) always uses butch to describe me very intuitively #people have also noticed that i ''transitioned'' in all aspects except hormonally. like ppl have commented and noticed my masculinzation #but at the same time i always feel rly haunted by my ex relationships because one wanted me to be more masc #(she's the one who came out as straight and would treat me like a man) which i didn't like and i didn't like playing up being fem either #bc now it feels like she (butch) won't believe me if i called myself butch too bc she remembers me being femme #idk i feel like there's her voice in my head all the time that sees everything i do through her eyes (i'm lowkey still in love) #i feel like even though this comes so naturally to me i must be putting on a performance #even though i've actually read stone butch blues and done research into the history and i truly love and id with the culture like i rly do #that im still just a sad imitation of a butch lesbian and can never really be a part of it because i used to enjoy dressing up sometimes #like it's so stupid but can i still be butch if i wore a dress to prom and i think i looked good in it?? #even though i was envious of my friends who wore suits?? that i used to try goth makeup?? that i liked long dresses?? #that i enjoyed stacked necklaces and rings on every finger??? #and tbh ALL OF THAT CAME FROM A CONCIOUS EFFORT TO FEMINIZE MYSELF IN JUNIOR YEAR OF HIGHSCHOOL WHEN I WAS 16 #because omfg it was 2 months before junior prom and i was worried that i was too masc and wanted to get comfortable with being fem

[adozentothedawn]

Thoughts about Rogue Trader so far:

Well that sure was the fastest promotion I've ever gotten. xD I'm kinda sad about it, I was hoping for a mean space mom, but I'll take it.

I like the characters so far! Although Abelard does not appear as space dad either for now, but that's alright he's still cool. As are Indira and Argentum.

I am a bit confused by the gameplay and am uncertain how much of that is just Warhammer things I don't get or strange choices. I'm sure the "wounds" label probably comes from ttp so whatever, but the fact the whole characteristics and skills thing seems a bit unbalanced to me for now considering that Int controlls nearly half of all skills alone. But maybe I'll know better once I've gotten a better handle of it. It just seems unintuitive as a whole right now. I like the combat though! Might turn the difficulty a bit higher even, I'd like to get a bit more of a challenge I think. (That said, story mode does do what it's supposed to. It should be extremely easy, I just changed my mind on what I want) Still somewhat confusing like the hologram thing I think might not entirely work as intended but I'll get a handle on it.

Main criticism for now: This game is badly optimizied. Apparently that is a notorious Unity sin so I won't blame them too much, but I do hope they'll patch it soon, this game should not make my cooler run louder than BG3. Turning off v-synch and putting a lower fps cap has helped for now, but come on.

#warhammer 40k rogue trader #I am having fun i am just confused a bit #i'm not really used to that anymore since most rpgs I've played in a while worked at least somewhat similarly #like bg and pathfinder are not that far apart #even drachen alter is at least close enough to intuit a few things #i guess mass effect is a bit off but it's also honestly kinda simple #mass effect's main draw is not inherently complex mechanics #meanwhile with this game most of the time i'm just sitting here going ????? #it's an interesting challenge #somethings are cool some seem vaguely annoying #that said I'm not very far along yet so we'll see what I'll think once I'm better acquianted with everything

[fisheito]

Hi! Um, any tips on how to color/shade?

-Because i am beyond terrible at it

m..me?? cooouring? i mean. i hate colouring so much that i flat-col the minimum for character recognition and call it done

if i absolutely HAvE to shade something . i'll use the :shrug: shortcut of starting with the base colour, then tweaking the Saturation/Lightness bars: -shadow: lower saturation and lightness -light: whatever saturation, higher lightness

if the character is somewhere with a distinct colour theme, i'll try to shift the base/shadows/lights to that colour.

likewise if there's a distinct coloured light source, i'll make the light on the char similar to that source

imagine me sitting on one section of the colour wheel. and walking toward the destination colour. just picking up colours in between. idk how legit it is, but i'm doing it

sometimes i'll be all srs and try detailed light/shadows but. it ends up makin my drawing too busy. a mess.

CORRECT: try to replicate that light source IRL or thru reference so u can figure out why it looks wrong, then correct your placements

INCORRECT, BECAUSE I'M LAZY: do a simple shape-based cel shade and let the audience's brain finish the job 😂

also i try not to use pure black or pure white for shading. i used to paint the night sky as 100% (zero lightness) black and the moon as 100% (ALL LIGHTNESS) white and my instructor wanted to fling me out a window. i could see it in their eyes. as they gently explained how IRL conditions are rarely 100% black or 100% white. maybe the night sky, depending on the conditions,, (if u actually colour drop a photo) is like 9% lightness with a tinge of blue. the moon is 96% lightness tinged orange. idk

#sometimes when i'm really tired of the way i colour #i go to those palette websites #find a palette i like #and just colour pick those. #regardless of what a realistic or fitting palate for that drawing would be. #idk sometimes it's nice to see a harmonious palette instead of whatever my greyscale brain wants to come up with #and maybe over time i'll intuitively pick up on colours that work well together?? palette osmosis? i can only hope #it's ok nonners! u colour the way u like!! if it's rly important to u #u can do that thing with the full study of references and chiaroscuro BS and reaaally get into it #like the concept artists who know how to tweak their warms and cools *just so* #but if you're like me and colour is rly not what u wanna focus on. not ur emphasis. then. join me in the lazy zone #god sometimes i just wanna pluck all my painter friends and have them colour my lineart because LIGHTING CAN CHANGE A DRAWING SO MUCH!! #but. alas. i am but a single me. and i have little interest in mastering light and shadow #asks

[forcebookish]

feel like i'm being gaslighted by the ofs fandom like where are all these wild think pieces coming from we can't possibly be watching the same ONE EPISODE of the same drama

anyway,

#the amount of baseless fanon is... wild #and by baseless i really do mean like. two sentences and a trailer #i feel like.......... bl fandom has never seen a couple like. actually be in the dating phase #so everyone is interpreting their little dance as two MASTER MANIPULATORS when they're just like... feeling each other out?? lmao #also some of u really think that mew is lying about being a virgin #so either he's been lying to his three closest friends for 4+ years or they're lying for him even during private moments with no one around #on the off chance that some hot guy is going to learn about it and want to date him because of it #that is breathtakingly bad writing #(of note: said hot guy was already interested in him before learning he was a virgin and still would've gone home with him had he not known #and if mew is so much of an unreliable narrator that we can't believe ANYTHING that is on screen that is also unbelievably bad writing lol #some of you are CONVINCED that he is an absolute psycho #????????? #ofs liveblog #i use that gif and then these are my tags #also i don't say all this like i know who mew really is. because it's been one episode lmao but he's definitely guarded and intuitive #i'm open to being wrong about MY interpretation of him but if any of these headcanons are true i probably won't finish it lol #(but i find it really unlikely... especially from how many of these takes are from people who hate top...) #(which tells me that you're not actually interested in understanding him as a character and want to cling to your own ideas of him) #(an attitude that i have a hard time believing you don't apply to all the characters. especially mew) #ANYWAY

[pepimeinrad]

new and edited version of the list of anthems I know the lyrics of by now:

‘know’ means I could properly sing it with everyone at a sporting event - so for most of them it’s just the first verse and chorus. * means I know more than that () means it’s a dependency/territory so not technically a ‘national’ anthem I’ll also count anthems that don’t have official lyrics if I can whistle them in full

Germany

UK

France

Italy

Canada (both English and French)

Austria

Switzerland (only German)

Uruguay*

Belgium (only French)

(Aruba)*

Spain

Australia

Aotearoa (both English and Te Reo)

Sweden

Finland (only Finnish)

Iceland

Denmark

Norway

(French Polynesia)

Liechtenstein

(Guernsey)

(Scotland)*

Brazil*

Ghana

Mexico

Cuba

(Wales)*

Monaco

Togo

Japan

Haiti*

Jamaica*

Nigeria

Portugal

Saint Kitts and Nevis

Papua New Guinea

(US Virgin Islands)

Fiji

Namibia

South Africa

Argentina*

Mauritius

Chile

Central African Republic

Nepal

Czechia

Slovakia

Albania

Netherlands

Slovenia

Croatia

Romania

Serbia

Hungary

Ukraine

Poland

#main anthem post #ollie's log #fun with anthems #original tags: #the reblogging to add new ones under a post with a readmore where you can't actually see anything easily didn't work for me #so now I'll just edit and reblog this post whenever I can add a new one to the list #currently I'm still struggling with two lines of the portuguese anthem that just don't want to stay in my brain #because they're just really NOT intuitive even if you know what the words are #I had similar problems with the brazilian anthem #must be the language... #anyway not really sure what I want to tackle next #probably some that are in english but whose melody I can't recognize yet #like papua new guinea or namibia or st kitts and nevis or something... #original tags end

[apocalypticdemon]

ughhhh writing hard

#it has truly been like pulling teeth today. #sometimes i write things that are actually good with prose that makes me go 'oh that's clever' #and sometimes writing is like it is today. where i all i do is 'they do this and then do this and then do this and oh my god. #i have repeated myself 3 times already i can see it. but i don't know how to fix it' #yes yes i know that's what editing is for but god dammit do i wish i didn't have to edit every fuckin' thing i write #if only things could be good the first time i try. ugh ugh ugh #i know where i want it to go brain just doesn't want it to go anywhere today #worried that it's bloated. that i have too many words. that too many things are irrelevant. #that there's no real plot despite Altogether Too Many Words. that i haven't put in enough conflict to warrant this many words. #that things are just cobbled together upon my whims and will not read in a way that is intuitive. #mrghhhhhh #it's fine i'll be fine i just want this to be good. i don't want to post altogether too many words of poor-quality writing. #i want it to be good and atmospheric and compelling like so many fics i've read that have been impactful. #i'm afraid it won't be good at all. #i'm trying really hard not to get in my own way and not get stuck on these moments #and just get actions and happenings down on the page so i don't get hung up on my writing quality #and just never finish anything #i've been writing on my own for a few years now (fic that i haven't cobbled into anything coherent and never posted) #but i don't really know if it's good. sometimes there are moments. but it's never what i want it to be. #and i'm afraid. but i want it. i'm trying. #just painful today is all.

[ante--meridiem]

Certain tumblr anti-vegans say they don't see the point of veganism because animals and plants are both alive and have equal moral value to them, and there could maybe be a cogent position there, except... do any of these people actually see it that way in practice?

Do they consider joking about accidentally killing all your houseplants morally equivalent to joking about adopting puppies and then neglecting them to death?

Do they see kids who dismember insects for fun as morally equivalent to kids who make daisy chains for fun?

Maybe they do, far be it from me to disbelieve people who say they hold fringe positions, but most of these people don't seem that fringe in how they approach living beings, so I do wonder.

#Vagueblogging #To be filed under people confuse me #I mean not really confuse. Just I'm uncertain about the genuineness of the beliefs they claim to hold. #Poorly chosen hills to die on #For some clarification on my reason for doubting: if they said they believe all those implications I'd believe them #My question is because 'plants and animals have equal moral value' seems easy to claim to believe #And then not actually apply when it conflicts with common intuitions #So you know. If people say they've thought through that conflict #Or there is no conflict because they don't have those intuitions #I'll believe that #It's just also easy to imagine they didn't though

[brw]

You can tell I don't know fuck from shit about video games because I'm immediately enjoying Devil May Cry 2 so much more than the first.

#brieuc.txt #DMC1 wasn't bad I just find the controls of DMC2 a lot more intuitive? and I like running on walls. #and at risk of sounding like I'm pitting women against women I find Lucia a much more active character #Trish really only appeared for three scenes and it was difficult to feel like the bond they were attempting to build was genuine #i.e. I did not feel much when she sacrificed herself because we had two conversations before then #while even as early as I'm in Lucia feels more active and I feel I know more about who she is and what she does compared to Trish #and Dante's outfit fucks harder #basically I don't understand video game opinions I am having fun #but I have learned Trish appears in the next games so I imagine she's more of a character there #and that's why she is so iconic and enduring #but I don't know where people are getting that ship from. a guy says he likes me because I look like his mother I am fucking running. #devil may cry

[adamshallperish]

at this point it's a win whenever i don't start fucking crying when someone at work tells me i'm doing something wrong

#i know i'm not supposed to care and i don't i really don't care #there are just so many hidden rules that i just can't intuit and i hate it i hate it #and it's not like i love my job it's just my life already revolves around it too much and i'm so scared about losing it and my stability #i'm so miserable when i go home and then i just sleep for 10+ hours for no reason so i can't even do the things i want to do #i hate this nightmare world and my stupid life #hotel stuff #mine

[as-if-and-only-if]

I have a new zest for category theory! by going through a couple of very basic proofs with attention to how I was thinking, I think I identified part of what was making it frictional in my brain.

weirdly (in part) I had the intuition for composing arrows, but not decomposing arrows. that is, my brain and intuition had internalized how you could have f : a -> b and g : b -> c and get gf, but not how you could start with h : a -> c and be on the lookout for factorizations of h through some such f, g.

which is kind of odd, right? I mean, aren't these just the same fact? well, yes, but they're not necessarily regarded as the same by your intuition! it's a reminder of how brains (and, more generally, "implementations" of math, such as in a proof assistant) need not expose the parts of the math that actually drive its use, but only "incidentally" allow the important parts to happen. I mean, I was perfectly fine seeing some such h be decomposed in a proof, and even doing it myself as an incidental step in a proof, but I realized I hadn't indexed it as a fundamental part of how categories(/categorical proofs) work for ready application.

and that's what intuition is, really: not the stuff you understand per se, but the mental processes that are "at hand", that are "active" or "triggerable" in your brain when you're thinking about something.

(by the way: the other part of re-developing fundamental parts of my intuition here was realizing that I can intuitivize(? not intuit, that means something else...) universal properties the same way I intuitivize unique factorization theorems.)

#would this intuition have naturally developed if I just actually did enough category theory for real? probably #but tbh I don't really have occasion to (until I do) so I'm deliberately engaging now #math

[haarute]

i impulse bought a model someone made for 3d printing and now i'm looking at videos on how to paint printed resin figures lmao

#it's my favorite character of all time so i had to. she has no merch except one figure that came out in like 2009 that's like 800$ now. #so i guess fuck it we'll make it ourselves?? #note: i do not own a 3d printer. #but i can send the file to a shop who'll print it for me and send me the parts #leaving the painting to me. which honestly i'd be super down to do because i love the idea of painting figures #however. it's been A WHILE since i painted anything with real brushes. #just kinda hoping my raw inherent artistic intuition is enough to do it. #i'd genuinely get super invested into this and commit to getting air brushes and the like. but i don't have the working space for it #so i have to do it classic style and hope that it's good. #just like with anything in life i'm hoping i do get started on this project because if i do and it ends up OK i'm probably going to do more #and that'll just be like a fun hobby for me #there are some really good 3d models people have made.

[phlyaros]

i get 'ohh the youngins dont know how we had it' sometimes but like you realize you will inherently be excluding people from both their own age group AND yours by basing it entirely on time right. Time is linear but the human experience does fucking loopty loops. You know that right

#welcome to the fucking logic puzzle borne of space needs. go fuck yourself if you're not 30 and you know how to do it because it's actually #really fucking intuitive! #also poptropica had a level where you had to translate a phone number to progress lmao #like i said. human experience does loops #ppl still use phones like that. like u know that right. every new phone my pa's gotten is like that #the age restriction on experience isn't real. #phlyaros' nonsense #tempted to make this unrebloggable bc im just a little testy bitch but I'm right.