#I'm at a doctor's appointment entertain me internet

[delcat177]

I guess there's been a lot of Discourse about Animorphs lately?

I haven't picked one up since (by date) April 1998, at which point the team went to a slaughterhouse and my 11-year-old ass went "I am having Issues", and the last foray I took into them was finding out that one *particular* ghostwriter was responsible for the weirdly obsessive "let's torture Tobias" books, which explains a lot in retrospect.

I remember Animorphs being just right for me until that point, which is to say, dark as hell and deeply affecting. I was still on the cusp of getting into horror, and it was a horror series, Cinnabons or no. I am never gonna scrape Rachel becoming a blue whale but first being a giant human with "pores the size of manhole covers" (blarf) out of my brain, and it fits in with the general whale trauma.

It wasn't the body horror that made me put it down so much, though. It was fucking *dark*. These kids get chosen out of nowhere to be child soldiers and it really shows. They make the terrible decisions 13-year-olds would, and they're constantly finding out awful things about their circumstances. Everyone cheers for exploding giant alien bugs until they find out they're actual *children* who think they're playing a game--I remember how that crept under my skin. The constant inability to trust anyone around them, and in a lot of cases, each other. The whole thing where they ruin a kid's life by turning him into a rat and leaving him on a garbage island, and questioning how the hell it came to something so morbid.

If there's one thing that lives rent-free, it's the time Rachel was bear morphed and got fire ants in her ear canals when they found the android race with all protocols against violence in place, refusing to help them in battle because of it--except the one younger android who is like YEAH DUDE YEAH LEMME FIGHT so they rewrite it so he can, and he takes on a battle with them.

Afterwards, he isn't okay. He isn't harmed, but it's a bloody, terrible battle, and he tells them "I can't forget". They slowly grasp the depth of that--the memories are already fading for the humans, but a machine experiences that memory without degradation, over and over again, fresh as yesterday, forever. They rewrite his code and never use him again, but it's too late.

I think I found that amazing compared to the other stuff I was reading. It could be too late, and it could be too late on shit that *mattered*. Goosebumps ate at least one kid a book, and that was expected, I remember maybe two where they made it out happily and I was distrustful of those endings. It was assumed they were toast. Animorphs was about child soldiers, not kids, and reading any book you pick up, there's a "war is hell" message there.

(Most of the books. The Tobias torture thing is so explicable in retrospect. Please don't molest the wildlife, ma'am.)

Bad things happen, and characters corrode. I'd really love to read the series in full, see what kind of nostalgia glasses I have on if any, and see if Marco, like...made it out okay. He was the one who was like "You know this kind of sucks and shouldn't belong to us as a responsibility" and was Frequently Unwell.

I dunno, I mainly remember that the books challenged my sense of self and well-being and my outlook on the world, and that it was a good thing for a sheltered church kid

Also the acquisition of scouting raptors just to think "Ah yes, it's riding the thermals", the one post is true

I was a giant hawk nerd and still am so sue me

Any of my mutuals Animorphs nerds?

#Animorphs #The Discourse #I was ages I think 9-11 I honestly don't know #Literary #Childhood #Nostalgia #I'm at a doctor's appointment entertain me internet

[lucianalight]

Hi! I'm back :) after another long hiatus😅 I have missed all of you❤️

First of all a huge thank you to everyone who were worried and asked about my health and how I was doing. I wasn't doing well tbh. I'm one of those people who had the misfortune of never quite recovering from covid. I already had one chronic illness that was messing up my life and health. Having another on top of that takes a lot of physical, emotional and mental toll and limits my energy greatly. So I needed time to get used to my new reality and condition and learn to how manage it and live with it. It's still a work in progress and doctor appointments are seeming endless but at least some meds are helping. So there's that.

You probably already know the second reason why I wasn't doing well. I've seen terrible things…And you need time to process them. To grieve, to deal with trauma and survivor's guilt, and nurture your anger and keep fighting, keep resisting…

And well, internet connection still sucks so using social media is kind of an ordeal :D

There were a lot of times that I wanted to come back on tumblr but every time some issue would come up and take my motivation and energy. Then two weeks ago, after I couldn't crush the little ray of hope that maybe this time I'm going to see sth I like, I started watching season 2 of Loki. I watched it while promising myself that I'm not going to care anymore if it's bad, reminding myself that I might see sth as bad as season 1. Still I was surprised that I didn't hate it. On the contrary there were moments that were entertaining and even enjoyable. And those moments were more than the ones I dislike. It was better than season 1 and admittedly that's a low bar since I consider S1 one of the worst tv shows I've ever seen, but there were noticeable changes in pace and tone of the narrative and characterization in S2. Some issues in S1 was addressed. Loki was actually the main character of his series and got to do badass magic stuff :D The characters were flesh out and three dimensional and likable(I love OB so much :D). There was no romance. The ending was great.

There were of course things I didn't like. Removing Loki's backstory and his issues with his family from the story is one of them. How some of his moments in past was addressed. The episodes at times got boring or very predictable. There were times that Loki was ooc or comedic moments that weren't delivered well.

It wasn't perfect but at least acceptable. And probably the best Loki content we got since TDW. And I liked the ending a lot. I found myself keep going back to rewatch some scenes. I found myself analyzing the content happily. I had things to say. So here I am :D basically I'm 100% back to my Loki bs and I'm making it everyone's problem :P

Whether you loved the series or hated it, you're welcome on my blog and you're welcome to send me your opinions and engage with me in discussions and metas. I will tag posts accordingly in case you want to avoid certain content(tbh I still don't know what the new tags will be because I haven't written anything yet but I will make a post when I do).

There will be posts of some new fandoms so block their tags if you don't want to see those posts. The new fandoms are Sandman tv show(I haven't finished the comics so plz don't spoil them for me), Wednesday, My Hero Academia, Shadow and Bone, and The Bifrost Incident.

As I mentioned above I'm dealing with multiple chronic illnesses and have a limited energy each day. I will try to answer your messages, comments and asks as soon as I can but it might take a long time. Sry about that.

And finally a warm welcome to all the new followers and thanks to everyone who are still following me❤️

#back from hiatus #because of loki :D #personal #blog maintenance

[winderlylandchime]

I am so glad to know that my brother has provided entertainment for others as well. He is currently mine and my two cousins (who showed me qaf) main source of entertainment. And I’m glad to know those long messages yesterday weren’t annoying, because even I went ‘shit’ when I saw the whole thing typed out. I do feel like i have to say: 1) my parents did actually know about qaf but i think they both forgot about my hyperfixation 2) my father who is a lawyer had to ask me this morning to make sure my brother doesn’t get any funny ideas and calls his office with this shit. And yes, i already had to stop him from calling his office 3) we only watched 2x01 bc he had a doctor appointment and in case you are wondering: yes, he did mention it to the doc when he was asked ‘hows it going’ the reaction was the same you give to a toddler ‘ooookay..so you found something to do’ 4)i woke up today to a voice memo from one of his friends asking me wtf is going on because my brother sent him a 9 minute voice memo about Britin without every mentioning that he’s talking about a show/fake characters so his friend thought it was real. He is now also invested. There is now a group chat with 4 people about it.

And i guess the only other thing I’d like to say is, if there are any moments from the show or specific episodes that y’all would like to know his reactions to, i am taking requests since I literally have nothing better to do and am already keeping 3 other people updated (bless working from home)

DEAR SWEET ANON. The world is now invested. I got asks overnight with messages to tell you how invested people are. Last night, over dinner, I did a dramatic reading of your messages and my responses for my spouse (a bit of dinner theater, my spouse is the one who got me into QAF) and my spouse wants you to know they are now invested in your brother's journey.

(My spouse also says "I'm at an age where laughing this hard is a real risk of peeing myself a little.")

So, no, not annoying at all. VERY WELCOME.

HE MENTIONED IT TO HIS DOCTOR AT HIS POST SURGICAL FOLLOW UP. I die.

HE SENT HIS FRIEND A NINE MINUTE VOICE MEMO AND FAILED TO MENTION THESE ARE FICTIONAL CHARACTERS. I cannot.

I think I (and the fandom) most want to know about the major Britin moments of S2 - the computer, the tuition, Sap's party (will your brother have prom flashbacks?), the trip to VT, and, of course, Ethan. I'm also very curious how he reacts to Michael's reaction to Debbie dating Carl. Does your brother come done on the ACAB/fuck the police side of things or "Stop being a whiney shit, you didn't like it when your mom told you not to date Ben" side of things. Or both? Both is legitimate.

Anon, your brother has at least 10 strangers on the internet who are fully invested in his QAF journey and who are so grateful to you for your detailed live blogging.

#ask winderlylandchime #dear sweet anon #queer as folk #a straight man watches qaf us 2000 in the year of our lord 2023

[ewanmitchellcrumbs]

Hi love! I don't want to bother you, so you don't have to answer but I can't go to sleep unless I let you know how ridiculously entertaining I find your blog and your thoughts and how sorry I am that fandom doesn't seem as fun as it should be. I've spent many years on tumblr on/off and lurking on ao3 in various fandoms and I HATE how drama ridden it can get and how draining some conversations become but I love your work and if you do decide to take a break I dont want you leaving without knowing that I'm going to miss hearing your thoughts on everything <3

Thank you, love <3 I won't be going anywhere, don't worry. I had a good cry about it and have taken some time away from screened devices and I'm feeling like I'm in a better headspace for it.

The last couple of weeks have felt really tense for me. I have some ongoing health issues which I've been putting off appointments for, because I know that this bullshit has been exacerbating it and I don't want to have to explain to the doctor "the internet is making me unwell"

My real life is busy and stressful and writing and interacting with lovely fandom people is a really nice escape from all of that. I'm not ready to go just yet. It will take more than a few spiteful messages to scare me off (that's not an invitation to anyone!)

Feeling a lot more positive. I want to heal the stupid, pointless rifts that are in fandom, or at least exist in a space where I can ignore them, and continue to cultivate a space for creating and interacting with other people's creations.

#asked and answered #lovely moots 💕

[arielle0808]

Hey there ^^; it's my first time requesting stuff like this, so I hope I'm doing it right. I was wondering how you'd imagine the RFA + Unknown reacting to MC having some kind of eating disorder. This is sort of dark and triggering so I really understand if you don't want to do it! Thank you for taking the time to read my ask! I'm also really sorry if you've done this before, maybe I just didn't look hard enough for a master post. Thank you again! -a sorry and slightly anxious anon

Aaah, you’re alright, hun, you did perfectly well💜 Thank you so much for requesting! I’m so happy that you felt comfortable enough to leave an ask :3 

Also, there is a masterpost for headcanons (which I should update soon enough). It’s tagged, so you should be able to find it.

I’m sorry that this took so long to answer and I reaaaally hope you like it

Stay lovely!

Yoosung

Looks in Internet new recipes to make tastier and food which looks apetising and easy to digest, and prepares the right portions for them.

Makes up all kinds of eating prizes to encourage them to eat and always keep an eye on them to make sure they don’t go to the bathroom.

He is very encouraging and celebrates little achievements with MC.

If it’s due to stress, he would ask them to go with them to the vet to be around animals, which can be very therapeutical.

Still, he would advise them to go to therapy.

Zen

He compromises to improve his diet with them, eating healthily and the right amounts of food.

He would encourage them to do some light exercise with him so that their apetite increases.

As he has never cooked before, MC has to help him, so in no time they become quite good at cooking and experts in keeping a balanced diet.

Still, Zen would make sure that MC goes to therapy and to the doctor’s to make sure they stay healthy.

Jaehee

She makes her own research in the Internet to find out the best ways to help MC with their eating disorder. 

She prepares new recipes and asks MC to prepare them with her, believing that making the food themselves may help to feel proud and have positive feelings for food.

Always keep an eye on them while they eat to make sure they’re doing it correctly and afterwards.

Also celebrates every advances with them. Maybe with some delicious treat~?

Jumin

The first thing he does is making appointments with a nutritionist to set a diet for MC and advice them a therapist to help them.

He takes MC on gourmet experiences and food tourism when he has holidays, and when he doesn’t, he invites them to have lunch at the C&R and always makes sure to have breakfast and dinner together at home.

Meals become moments in the day when they can be together and MC starts valuing them a lot!

When they are chilling at the couch, he makes sure MC has some wine or is caressing Elizabeth 3rd instead of eating snacks.

707

As Zen, he compromises to change his diet with them.

Snacks become strictly prohibited, becoming small ways of celebration when they’ve achieved a month of eating the correct ammounts of healthy food.

It’s really difficult at first, and he even asks Vanderwood to keep an eye on MC and him, but fighting together is better than alone!

They both go to therapy.

Whenever they start feeling the urge to have snacks, Seven always comes with the funniest ways of keeping them entertained, like playing games. Anything that keep their hands occupied.

Saeran

As Yoosung, he starts looking for new recipes and forms of making food look good.

He has a weak stomach, so all the food he prepares is really healthy and easy to eat, and he makes sure it’s the right amount.

Instead of eating snacks, he advises them to have tea or juices, which are more healthy.

As Jaehee, he looks for information about their eating disorder, but also advises them to see a therapist.

From time to time, he brings them roses to remind them of how well they’re doing

Requests are OPEN!

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#mystic messenger #mysme #mysme headcanons #mystic messenger headcanons #yoosung kim #zen hyun #hyun ryu #jaehee kang #jumin han #707 #luciel choi #saeyoung choi #saeran choi #unknown #mc with eating disorder #mention to mental illness #angst #hurt/comfort

[emoali]

How do I work on letting things go and not dwelling on things that I wish I could change

So I've been having really nice dates with Brian. We had a fun Valentine's Day he got me roses and Candy which was really nice I feel like this is the first time that he has had money to spoil me

We went out to dinner on Monday it was chill we have been kissing just pecks nothing too sensual

We text each other here and there but it's not like we're talking on the phone he keep saying I miss you and I don't say anything back I just feel awkward when he says it.

I went over to his house for Super Bowl as well and I left after half-time I didn't really feel like being there mostly because I don't find football entertaining but also I didn't want to run out of things to maybe talk about on Valentine's Day. I feelx like the space has definitely been nice for me I'm enjoying it cuz when I do see him in nice it's not like I see him everyday. But I got 10 grand in my grandmother's will the exact amount that I said that I would want to be single. Before I got that in the mail I was telling Evan that I was going to go visit Asia in California and he ask me if I've said it there yet because he wants to go as well. So even though I've been having a really good time with Brian lately which I have noticed I'm more lovey when I have had some drinks in me around him when I'm sober I feel like less lovey dovey towards him. So maybe I shouldn't drink around him anymore. I got really excited when Evan said he wanted to go to California to meet Asia and Connor are they are boyfriend and girlfriend. And then when you were in the Discord and there was like eight of us and I had mentioned the night before that I think it would be fun to rent an Airbnb and split it between like 10 of us so it would be cheap and then the next night everyone was talking about where we would want to go we're looking at places in Vegas of course Evan was one of them so I got really excited cuz that's another chance for me to meet him. So I'll just feel kind of confuse my game plan as of right now is to keep enjoying my company whether it's Brian Evan friends being alone Jewish Family and just focus on my goals I have that list of goals that I want to come play Shannon just trying to take it one day at a time obviously a few more motivated to lose weight now that I'm going to go visit some friends from the internet. I want to get those doctors appointment set so I can get the blood work you know what we talked I want to make sure my car is all good when I get my mirror fixed when I get it a check up on my car before I go drive to California which isn't going to be telling June or July I want to possibly get back into school and get my associates and then maybe do my bachelor's degree and then maybe ask one of these appraisers to train me of course I would ask them before I start getting my Bachelor's degree. And I don't want to rush into anything and I've got this 10K now if something God forbid happens bye have a nice pillow I'm going to most likely pretend like I don't even have it cuz I know before my mind was fantasizing about dying like a townhome and what I was going to do but even with 10K feel like it's enough I feel like it's best to just keep saving as much as I can keep living with my brothers as long as I can I can't tell Brian about this money if you found out he would pretty much be all over me trying to get me and it would just push me away even more cuz now I'm his golden ticket to moving out. And I don't want that can I pressure.