#I’ll try to not let you down!

[kithtaehyung]

it’s been like a day since i read dalo and honestly i need to get this off my chest: ITS SO HURTFUL THAT YOU THINK I CAN SURVIVE A CLIFFHANGER LIKE THIS LIKE HOW CAN YOU POSSIBLY EXPECT US TO WAIT FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER?!?! YOU CLEARLY HAVE SOME HIGH EXPECTATIONS OF US BECAUSE IM ALL CRUMBLEY INSIDE NOW AND IDK WHAT TO DO!! THANK GOD I HAVE THERAPY TODAY BECAUSE I AM A WEAKKKKK SOLDIER

LMAOOO??? First of all I barely hung on while writing this and it took me days so I just need time to rest and recover💀 but y’all can do it !! We’re gonna wait for it together🤧🍊

#pls wait😭😭 #I’ll try to not let you down! #anon #asks:3tan #3tan7 #*ryenfictalk #mailbox💌 #q!

[necessarymeanstoanend]

spade represents the tip of a pike; an implement for killing

alex’s

white void of doom

sketch and background element/scribble that isn’t really visible but i’m sharing just in case anybody did notice it.

other details

#now i have to draw one for alex *sobs* #how tf do you guys come up with backgrounds for EVERY DRAWING?! oh my god. i’m not creative enough for this bullshit #two things i discovered with this drawing: 1) birds are hard af to draw. 2) wet black hair is hard af to draw #you guys have no idea how many purple hues are actually in this art piece #this is like if dream and jessamy happened to have met under way worse circumstances #anyway let me know if you guys have any ideas for alex’s (i have no idea when exactly i’ll actually get around to it but still) #bones and shit #a majority of this one was inspired by The Locked Tomb fanart and symbolism #6 hours and 34 minutes but i’m gonna guess that roughly an hour and a half of that was me trying to figure out a background #tom sturridge #like minds #murderous intent #like minds 2006 #nigel colbie #art #fanart #drawing #digital art #nigel colbie fanart #artist of tumblr #like minds art #nigel colby #<- including the old tag bc why not #somebody get this movie out of my brain #scoop it out along with all the other useless shit i keep in there #i was thinking maybe alex’s should be the complete opposite of this #like instead of his head being turned down it would be turned upwards #maybe he should be wearing the clothes he did when we first saw him with sally rowe (or maybe his school uniform) #i ​definitely want both of them to be side profiles and the theme is going to have to be somewhat consistent as well #<<‹ these tags are mostly so i remember my own thought process but feel free to leave your two cents

[fujii-draws]

OKAY! Chatot rant in tags below! Read at your own discretion.

#okay starting from the beginning of where ppl usually dislike him. apple woods chapter. #he doesn’t give hero/partner the CHANCE to explain themselves despite them being relatively good recruits up until that point. #and that legit might be my only gripe with that chapter bc!!! stories need conflict! I LIKE the conflict in apple woods!!! #hero and partner being punished so something they didn’t do! #the misunderstanding! how team skull (Skuntank) actually outplays the main duo with a clever yet rotten trick. I LOVE that it segways into- #one of the more sweeter scenes of guild members looking out for eachother. I LIKE APPLE WOODS CONFLICT. #but chatot just. not giving them a chance. is so dumb. #I’d personally fix this by having a lil montage of hero/partner fucking up on jobs. A LOT. and chatot giving them a pass every time. #and let the perfect apple incident BE the one where he puts his foot down and doesn’t listen to them. bc he’d given them loads of chances. #and doesn’t want to hear any excuse. #but yeah. I legit dont mind him during that chapter except for that really stupid and frustrating moment. #NOW. CHAPTER 17. #UGGGGHHH WHERE DO I BEGIN #Him not believing hero and Partner about Grovyle and the future being in ruin? FINE. ACTUALLY GOOD. BC CHATOT WOULD BE SKEPTIC. #IT FITS HIS CHARACTER!! #BUT WHAT DOES SUCK. IS HIM GOING ‘Dusknoir isn’t the bad guy. he didn’t do anything wrong’ #WHEN HE LITERALLY KIDNAPPED HERO AND PARTNER RIGHT I N F R O N T OF HIM. #(​NO LITERALLY. HIS CHARACTER IS IN THE FRONT ROW WHEN IT HAPPENED.) #and him. having the GALL to tell hero and partner they must’ve been ‘seeing things’ and downplaying the HELL they went through. #despite them being missing for hours/days. his own guild recruits. and his angry sprite showing up. #like. I think that’s when I genuinely despised him. #that and him going ‘OH I BELIEVED YOU THE WHOLE TIME HEEHOO :)’ shit was so fucking annoying. #just playing it off as a joke the second the guild started to believe hero and partner. #IMAGINE IF HE W A S ACTUALLY TESTING THE GUILD’S TRUST. SHOWCASING HIM AS THE MORE RESPONSIBLE AND RESPECTFUL RIGHT HAND OF THE GUILD. #and yes. Brine cave he saves hero and partner. but at that point I just didn’t care anymore. #he fucked those two over so much. that I didn’t care what ‘valiant’ sacrifice he had. #and he grills Team Skull for what they did OFF SCREEN. they couldn’t even give us THAT. #<<< THAT or him outright saying sorry would’ve been nice. IKIK his ‘actions’ or whatever but. #eughh again this is all imo. I’m not trying to make people hate him or change their mind. #I’ll get into positives in the second post cause I’m running out of tags

[seimei-chsq]

why don’t you go watch 19x world record holder, 2x world champion, 4x grand prix final champion, 6x japanese national champion, 2x consecutive olympic champion, figure skating icon yuzuru hanyu perform haru yo, koi and then maybe you’ll calm down.

#the ‘you’ in question is me. i am going to go watch HYK and maybe then i’ll calm down. #yuzuru hanyu #figure skating #rambles #we are ~6 hours away from the press con and a girl is trying to cope #@ the stars and sky and universe #please be kind #please be good #please let him be happy

[chxrryrose]

idiots: i don’t understand daniels decision

daniel: *explains his decision for the millionth time*

idiots: … but i don’t understand wh-

seriously what’s so hard to understand about someone prioritising their mental and physical well-being over throwing themselves in another seat, out of desperation and fear, when they’re not in the right state to go straight into another team?

#we’ve been having this exact same conversation for months #stop trying to undermine and belittle his decision!!! #like I’ll let you have this conversation once or twice but MONTHS down the line? shut up now #australian gp 2023 #daniel ricciardo

[marsixm]

i schwear to god ur not gonna find someone who enjoys working in the grocery store against their better judgement more than me, i am so fucking autistic about this job and everyone knows how good i am at it all, but nothing kills it like the dumb corporate overlord bs. the work can be grueling, the customers can be horrific, but i have got to serve- even the irritating mystery shopper score can be coped with- but when you start picking on me about the stupidest dress code shit that’s when you lose me. like now a new manager is saying they may force us all to wear those chunky nonslip shoes within the year. i have a pair but man they hurt my fucking feet. i cant do that shit every day thats why i wear converse. i said these are nonslip man they used to play basketball in these. he said “lets spill oil on the floor and see how you do” ok girl yes! try me!

#also every time i buy a new pair of pants LITERALLY TRYING TO BE IN DRESS CODE its some kinda problem like leave me alone!!!!!! #literally every problem i have with various dress code shit comes down to autistic sensory issues #OR my connective tissue problems causing pain #like please! i’m not just being difficult! god! #also like i hate this corporate bs when its like #omg yes be yourself!!!!! unless you want to express it in any way in which case shut up!!! #i will say they do still let me do a lot but i have got the distinct impression theyre inventing new dress code rules all the time just to #deal with me personally LMFAO #yall can take my makeup and my jewelry alongside my resignation letter if it comes to that #…..ok probably not bc im a coward and the job market is terrible rn #but! i’ll find new ways to torture u! mark my fucking words!

[chirpsythismorning]

Saying gay Mike would be hated by the ga bc that would mean that he used El all those years, is homophobic, just like saying bi-Mike would be hated by the ga bc that would mean he could have just stayed with El if he is also attracted to girls, is biphobic.

Bylers using either of these as the basis for why their interpretation is most likely to play out in canon, just makes me cringe bc why are we even wasting time giving validation to homophobia/biphobia as having the last word for how the show has to play out?? Is that what it all comes down to then? Appeasing bigots??

Gays aren’t evil or trying to intentionally hurt others, least of all gay kids that are figuring out their sexuality. Let’s not act like being gay wasn’t seen as being broken or needing to to be fixed, meaning that going along with what society views as normal, was and still is seen as the only option for queer people in general. And I say queer people in general bc you don’t necessarily have to even be gay to experience questioning your sexuality and feeling like you have to do things because everyone else is. Arguably we all go through that! But especially gays in the 80’s bc for a lot of people back then, it was a matter of blending in to survive (for many it still is).

Bisexuals aren’t evil or trying to intentionally hurt others for falling out of love, losing feelings, or just merely not being attracted to/compatible with someone of the opposite sex. Straight people are capable of recognizing that they aren’t attracted to or compatible with every person they meet of the opposite sex. Does any of that make them less straight? No. So why is it so hard to understand it’s the same way for bisexuals and even queer people in general? Nobody, bisexual or otherwise should have to stay in relationships with someone they no longer have romantic feelings for, just bc they’re attracted to them or even were just confused and thought they were but it ended up not being enough?? Attraction is important, yes, but feelings are arguably even more so (especially when you have something else to compare it to, causing the dilemma in the first place). I mean look at Stancy/Jancy? Is Nancy viewed as problematic for being attracted to Steve and having deep feelings/being attracted to Jonathan, and having conflicting feelings about that? No! And so why should it be problematic for Mike?

The reality is, homophobes are going to hate Mike if he comes out as queer, regardless of whether he is revealed to be gay, bi or unlabeled.

This is why basing Mike’s sexuality on the backlash of bigoted audiences’ is a moot point to me.

I mean, as it is, most of the general audience already hates Mike as a result of his behavior in s3-4, and this is straight Mike we’re talking about! I’m obviously not referring to milkvans or Redditors, bc they only make up a minority of hardcore fans who hate byler and will defend Mike to the point of demonizing El. I’m talking about viewers that have seen the show once through each time a new season releases and then move on afterwards without being in online spaces. That is the majority. The majority of the general audience, homophobic or otherwise, does not like Mike anyways at this point. So, who the hell cares what they think about queer Mike in the end??? They’re already anticipating going into s5 and continuing to dislike him, so the argument that the show can’t do this or that bc those same people won’t like him?… That ship has already sailed.

If anything I could see the non-homophobic majority accepting queer Mike, regardless of what label he ends up identifying with, bc then at least it will finally give them some clarity about where that resentment they had for him was coming from, ie misunderstanding him completely and now finally getting some answers.

At the end of the day, bigots will do what they do best. They’ll make up any reason they can think of for why queer Mike is wrong. And so why should we base our interpretation of things on what will be more palatable to those that the show was never intended for in the first place?

#byler #gay bi mike discourse #just another Thursday in the byler tag #being a ‘remains to be seen’ truther is hard #so many are dead set one way or the other #and I just can’t defend ppl that have to shit on one to defend the other #like I’ll see a bi Mike take and be like I LOVE THIS but then it’ll end with something homophobic and it’s like ok nvm #like I just don’t see a need to tear down gay mike to get back at the problematic gay mike truthers #leave him out of it 😭 #seeing homophobia/biphobia doesn’t mean you get a free pass to inflict that hate casually #two wrongs don’t make a right in this scenario #I’m an I love mike wheeler no matter what he comes out as truther till the end #and I’m willing to entertain evidence that exists out there for both #but it’s hard to support both sides when at times it comes with this cloud of homophobia/biphobia #bc I just can’t subscribe to that #and when/if mike is revealed to be gay/bi/unlabeled #please don’t be hurtful to others that ended up being wrong #like… it’s just so gross out here sometimes #we’re all real people outside of this space let’s try to remember that #let’s make this space one that’s worthwhile for those that want to be apart of this community #otherwise it’ll cease to exist bc no one will want to be here

[heybobbygirl]

MORE OC SHIT YAY

I love gay people so much I wish they were real

Xavier’s hair did not come out the way I wanted it to at all but it’s whatever

#These guys are from the same plot line as Clarissa #btw #this is just before shit went down #(it was entirely Matthew’s fault by the way I’ll let you figure out what that means) #oc art #my ocs #my art #art #traditional art #gay couple #theyre so cute #why did matthew have to try and kill them all #wait fuck spoilers #forget i said anything

[frecklystars]

Me cooking dinner for everyone (all my Ryan F/Os) Ken has to come by with another plate and I’m like “didn’t I just give you an entire burger” and Ken says yeah but he needs another because K took his food and then Luke says “yeah he ate my food too” and K is at the table in tears shoving spoonfuls of fresh veggies and meat in his mouth openly weeping “I’ve been eating nothing but instant protein-grub noodles and rice for my entire life Please just Let me Have This I Beg of You”

#i burn the eggs by accident he says no problem and still eats them saying they’re amazing #meanwhile ken is having trouble trying to eat the food that isn’t plastic #he’s like what do you mean I can’t just imagine taking a bite. oh god. this burger is huge. how do I fit my mouth around it #Six is absolutely housing an entire stack of pancakes all by himself in the corner of the room he’s not letting anyone have it #Colt is butting heads with him #no I don’t know Colt yet but he’s included. what food does he like? don’t know yet... MY COOKING #I can’t cook for shit but I’ll learn for my hungry boys <3 #that was painful to type I’ll never say that again Lmfao #i make apple pie just for driver bc I know he likes it #driver nuzzles me the entire time I’m baking he’s snuggly asf. he’s exhausted too #stayed up all night on a getaway job. knows I stayed up all night having nightmares and being unable to sleep again #he gets it. he doesn't force me to try to sleep he knows i can't. but he encourages me to lay down after cooking #and to rest my eyes for a bit. and then it turns into a huge snuggle pile #we've got [counting on fingers] one two three... ten... a dozen Gosling F/Os #one of my best friends says it's like a flock of baby geese following me around SLKDFJSLFSDF #so fucking cute #Luke is canonically snuggly. idk Jacob or Holland yet... I'd want them to cuddle too #all of them are trying to have contact w/ me in SOME way once we're snuggled in bed #Ken's gotta hold my hand and put his head on my tummy HE'S GOTTA. or he'll PERISH #Lars isn't one for touch very often unless if he's the right person. I am that Right Person #but he will still just hold my hand and let everyone else do the full body snuggling #K's sitting up just like Six is when he's resting. alert. protective #Six is relieved he doesn't have to tie his shoelace to the door or worry abt intruders. he can just fall the fuck ASLEEP #they've all got full tummies and maybe some of them chat with each other #while others are like SHH LET KERI SLEEP. but im like no no your voices are like angels to me pls keep talking #esp Luke and Sebastian their rasps will lull me easily #love notes

[ginanalex]

Haroo

I guess I really need to warn you that in the nearest future there will be no drawings by me. There will be doodles not drawings.

It’s because I have really disturbing and difficult period. I need to adjust my studies and live in general cause my anxiety has increased a lot so I really need to take a rest till the period will end (around the end of April)

Please be nice. I promise this time will pass very quickly ;)

With big big love, Aluminium Jellyfish ♥︎

#text post #everything will be fine (maybe) #just know that I love you guys #thank you for all your support #thank you for everything #its literally boost my energy and motivation to do thing #and again i love you #i won’t let you down #i’ll try all my best

[neonparades]

omg hi to everyone who followed me from my rtc post…… forward warning that sometimes i just don’t post. for undefined intervals of time. enjoy ur stay ^_^!!

#i’ll try to post more just for you guys so i don’t let y’all down 💔 #i swear i’m still an artist please pl

[the-trans-dragon]

What’s the appropriate way for me to respond to customers handing me religious pamphlets/cards? I’m not worried about getting fired btw.

#sorenhoots #I was considering eating the pamphlet but that isn’t fun in practice. only theory #I considered crumpling it up and throwing it in their face but that might count as like. attacking lol. #like I have so much to say. maybe I should just vent at them about how Christianity left me broken and hopeless and [redacting details]. #not for their benefit. just to drag them through my incredibly painful emotions. maybe to make them suffer with me. maybe just to vent #without worrying about how my vent will impact them. #the first one took his card back when I said no. the second left his pamphlet and the TONE he used when he told me to read it. THE TONE. #was like a parent telling a toddler to eat their vegetables. ‘we’ll give it a try. it’s good for you. it’s got good stuff in it’ #god I wish I had facial recognition so I could refuse to check him out next time. #the first guy has a memorable appearance so I’ll never check him out again. #but that fucking second one. ohhhhh I was so mad. I went on break and went straight to the warehouse #to break down boxes for the bailer. exercise is very regulating for me! I felt much better afterwards #BUT I WANT TO SAY SOMETHING NEXT TIME. either funny. or scathing. or rude as all hell. or anything. #anything that will let me feel like I have some control over the situation. I can’t make them take back their pamphlet… well I could. lol. #Sir do NOT leave your trash here. I am not a trash can. you can throw it away down there #where our trash can is located. #anyways another guy tipped me $2 so that was real nice

[howlonghaveyoubeenseventeen]

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#cw for heavy grief stuff in the tags I’ll type some more words to make sure it doesn’t pop up in the preview of the tags #so y’all can skip past if you can’t/don’t want to read that sort of thing right now #okay that should be enough to cover it up #realized the two traumatic events from mid to late 2018 are still festering inside me as grief #bc 2019 was me trying to just be a person again #and then 2020 was the beginning of the pandemic/lockdown #so I haven’t had time to heal and share my grief with others #and I haven’t even been able to share the grief anyway bc I have been burying everything deep down #I’m learning how to let myself feel and share things #but I do not want to have to address this grief bc it’s so so hard ! #texted my best friend so she’ll text me back in the morning when she’s awake #I better get sleep soon too