#I wish I am wrong tbh

[eluxcastar]

Three a.m. Riri thoughts I've suddenly decided I'm salty because five seconds ago it clicked that Kagami's idea of Urd and Rígr making up after a THOUSAND YEARS of animosity and fighting is just Rígr being like "wouldn't it be so cool if you trusted me 😇😇 dad was a wayyy bigger dick than me" and Urd was kinda just like "Yk what it would be cool" and then ig they just told everyone they kissed and made up in the span of one conversation which given its simplicity could've happened at any point??? Why a thousand years after it we know he knew where Rígr was??? I got mad WATCHING it go down in a different universe forget being on either of these fuckers' side and being told "That guy who was supposedly a traitor for the last millennium is fine now because he actually didn't mean it lmao"

It wasn't even that I knew and didn't realise how shallow it is but that I DIDN'T EVEN REALISE THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE THEM MAKING UP. This whole time I've been waiting and only just now as I sit in my kitchen spinning on a chair did I realise that THAT was what I had been waiting for. Really??

I could genuinely see so much I liked in this because there was hints this was important to those characters. Rígr had elements of a person who burdens himself with responsibility and hurts the people he cares about in order to protect them while Urd was just a lonely guy who wanted someone who could understand him and would make having to live literally forever when he's not mentally built to do that a lot easier and I was like "maybe Kagami does have one subplot for me to look forward to" and then I remember he doesn't because he ends his subplots by suspending them or just snuffing them out in order for nonsense to take place instead

I can think of so many ways that he could've dragged the plot out if he really wanted to that would be far more fulfilling and contribute to the story more than whatever the hell he is dragging it out with 😞😞

#☆ — riri says. #rant over I got mad mid typing #free my man he didn't do anything #I need someone to tell me I'm being trigger happy even if they're lying #it's 100% the way I read into characters to gauge any amount of personality atp #but like why did he give us a whole chapter of stuff about them for THIS to happen #even if I'm pleasantly wrong it would still make me mad #I wish I am wrong tbh #urd #urd geales #rigr #rigr stafford #owari no seraph manga #owari no seraph #seraph of the end #ons #sote

[yourelosingains]

i don’t care about what anyone says, these are the real ‘’fruity fours’’.

#ya'll sleep on the first one so much #stonathan shippers we must rise #i wish we saw a lot more of lucas max mike and will as a group tbh #stranger things #stranger things 4 #byler #ronance #byclair #jargyle #i am never wrong /j

[bunnihearted]

☁️🌷

#ugh im so anxious and like i think i have more pains bc of it #i overslept bc ever since i got a new phone my alarm is so quiet i never wake up?? this is the third time this happens for this class #but i cant miss more bc if i have more than three weeks absence they'll fail me :< so i hurried and walked to school #i wish i had a bus pass T-T since they introduced civilian clothed controllants i havent dared taking the bus at all i dont wanna get a fine #so yes anyway. on top of that im pretty sure my sister stole my keys. bc they were in my jacket pocket yesterday and today they werent there #and she left somewhere earlier this morning. so now im anxious abt not knowing where they are + will i get inside?? my mom wakes up late af #ummm what else???? idk im just so stressed. i got to class and have been here for 40min now and the teacher left for lunch #i'll leave now bc i cant focus enough to sit here more. my tooth aches too :(( #i just wanna cry tbh #the entire way here i was like i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die #i feel so awful.. and stupd and worthless. why am i incapable of getting a job? or even studying at university? im so bad at everything #im like an anxious wreck who can barely function. everything hurts both physically and emotionally #i dont even wanna walk home im just sitting in my empty classroom bc i dont wanna kove #move* #what's wrong with me? how did i turn into this? i miss school. like i miss being able to actually do my work and talk to the teachers etc #im only a shell of what i used to be. and im scared i'll never be anything other than this :(((( #well i gotta move ig bc the sooner i do the sooner i can get home and lie in my bed & cry over how useless i am :3

[danidoesathing]

am i the only one who feels like alex(the world ender guy) was kind of a missed oportunity in vide noir? like, he was set up by johnnie to be a badass gang leader just for him to never even appear in the end, we just got a close up to his face scar

i feel like buck's encounter with the psychic would've been way more powerful if it was alex instead. its implied that johnnie and moonbeam had a relationship ig, but its barely even hinted at, and he never even mentions her. but with johnnie and alex, johnnie actually mentions him and speaks highly of his brother, and says alex will help buck if he sees the red cloth that belonged to johnnie

the fact that all that build up led to buck not even TALKING to alex kinda irks me. imagine how much better the payoff would be if alex had received the cloth instead of moonbeam? if we had seen his reaction to johnnie's death? if he would've helped buck like johnnie said he would? if we saw what johnnie implied alex would do to the guys who black brained his brother? idk man i think we were robbed

im new to the fanbase, so im gonna be very embarassed if this is a topic that already came up here LOLL but i still wanted to get it off my chest💀sry if this ask is messy, i suck at writing down my thoughts lmao

No I gotta agree on that. Like I LOVED seeing Moonbeam and getting know her as her and having all this new information about her (her being part of the World Enders is still wild to me and I love it) and it’s a good scene and all, but I’m still confused as to why they built up Alex so much, especially since this is the first time we’re hearing about him, and he never even got the chance to speak. If it were Dale I’d be a bit more understanding as we know him already (tho not by much cause I would have loved to see more of Dale). But it’s Alex, whose not only the leader of the World Enders but also Johnnie’s (and Dale’s) brother. I would’ve have loved to, you know, actually meet the guy. Especially with how much build up he got. And I GET IT Lord Huron’s lore is meant to be weird and vague and hard to pin down but like. Didn’t need to tease me like that come on

The only reason I could think of was maybe they needed to get Buck on his own again? Like having this the beginning of a war between the World Enders and Z’Oieasu shown or having Buck work with them consistently might have thrown off the tone. It is supposed to be Buck’s story and his own descent into madness. The whole album has this isolated vibe to me, like being alone in a city of people Hard to get that when there’s other people around, especially a group as lively as the world enders. Or maybe they just wanted to include Moonbeam back into the story again lol

GOD I would have loved to see Moonbeam’s scene with Buck done with Alex. I can only imagine how that scene would’ve played out and his reaction to Johnnie’s death. Contrasting Buck’s scene with Johnnie with Alex’s own personality, the possible dynamics, the anger and grief that could arise…..ough

#thanks anon now you’ve given me the urge to write that scene. how am I supposed to do a character that doesn’t even have A SINGLE LINE /lh #I’m already struggling to characterize Dale how am I supposed to do Alex. why would you do this to me /lh #seriously tho I wish we got more of Alex. or anything or Alex tbh #I wanna know more about him #Alex Redmayne who are you….. #it’s also possible they were originally going to include a scene with him but it got cut/changed for whatever reason #tho honestly I think moonbeam was always gonna come back into the story in some sense due to the song #my own personal theory (thanks to the clip in POTU) is that Buck and Moonbeam were supposed to have something going on but it got cut #mostly cause the dynamic in the clip is way different from the one they’ve got in the movie #but idk I’m glad they didn’t force a romance at least. imo they didn’t really have romantic chemistry in that second scene. at all #whether that’s due to rewrites or just a decision to cut it I don’t know. I don’t think it would’ve fit the story anyway #i could be wrong tho so take my theorizing with a grain of salt #however it is very funny that one character with a love song that has all the hallmark’s of Buck’s writing isn’t probably done by him lol #esp since he’s got chemistry with the other characters. women hate him ghosts want him /j #dani speaks #ask #asks #lord huron

[mymp3]

trailer talk

#compendiumnotebook #i probably articulated a lot of my trailer thoughts better to my mutuals and friends i was dming the other day #but the tldr of it is that im kind of disappointed they only seem to be adapting mostly movie and portable stuff #not that i hate hate portable or hate hate the movies #but saying that this is going to be a faithful remake of base 3 and having only portable events and options available + adding movie stuff #feels like a big slap in the face to fes and manga enjoyers. and dont get me started on the hammy lovers. #and also is just straight up incorrect. wish they would say what they're adapting rather than saying its a faithful remake #damn im so sorry yall. especially because if they wanted to do a portable adaptation she should be here. #even if im not her number 1 fan i get how dirty it feels #but tbh i am leaning more towards femc as dlc rather than the answer as dlc now #bc atp it just seems like they take fes for granted and brush it off #bc its not as popular #just feels kind of mean a bit #“manga and fes are there. but portable and movies seem to be popular so we can do more of that!” #minato being able to work a job is something i dont like. he's constantly overworked in every other department of his life. #now hes gotta work too? #it seems like this hero is less chronically ill tired angry and like theyre trying to give him more energy and “wipe away his wrongs”. #iddkkkkkk #im sure I'll warm up to it in game #and find a way to work this into my reading #but for now those are my thoughts #oh! i like his mp3 player saying hi to him. thats precious.

[incorrectdeceptionquotes]

holy sh¡t a Deception fan in the year of our lord 2023?? how does it feel being in a fandom with 4 people in it bestie

Do not cite the deep magic to me, child... I was there when it was written!

#jokes aside #I remember when the fandom had a somewhat active 200+ fans that made fan content for the show #I was 18 when I started this blog #I'm 23 now and... wow #I made jokes about how it'll be five years and I won't be over this show... apparently I was not wrong lol #though now it's more of a fond nostalgia #I have fics I never finished #though I kinda wanna make little summary posts to just explain how those fics would've ended #in the summer of 2018 I wrote SO MUCH fanfic content because I didn't take summer courses my first year #tbh sometimes I wish I never even heard of the show but then I think of the good things it brought me #like the cool online friends I found #to discovering that I love to write and pulling me out of my first year depression #wow this got kinda sentimental #point is... #I am still kinda a fan #I make incorrect quotes now and then when I find something I think would work #I would love to see some sort of closure to the story #and tbh I still get excited by new fics #especially the Kaymeron ones #but I would love to talk more about it #if people were interested #deception

[wereh0gz]

Is my discomfort with my boobs gender dysphoria, body dysmorphia, or just a general discomfort with the sensations of having a human body that comes with possible neurodivergency

#ramblings #it's probably all three tbh #it's not severe. like i can live with this. it's fine #but also i generally wish i had a flatter chest #every time i imagine myself in my head i see myself with a flatter chest #but like do i wanna go through the trouble of getting rid of them entirely #or should i just try getting a binder or something #or should i just. leave things as they are #idfk #i don't think top surgery would be an option bc money and. i'm scared of surgery honestly #and the recovery looks painful as shit #and like what if i regret it? what if i was wrong and that wasn't the best option for me? #i think i should just try to get a binder or something. just see how that works for me #and contemplate surgery when i'm older and can support myself and am more sure of whether that's right for me or not #also i'm. hesitant to call it anything bc again it's not really that severe #it's like. a thought that occassionally crosses my mind. at least once a day.. and doesn't leave for a while.... #hm yeah no maybe it's not as mild as i thought it was actually. wonderful realization to come to in the middle of writing a post #anyways. idk if anyone has any binder recs or anything i'll take 'em #also maybe tips on how to approach my mom abt this?? idk if feels like something i should talk abt with her but idk how to even bring it up

[kpgimpactor]

playing elden ring has made me realize how weak my pattern recognition skills are. watching other people play online and seeing them learn and use the boss’s attack pattern to their benefit is fascinating. I wannttttt to be good at the patterns so badddd bc it looks cool. But those bosses start swinging and I just devolve into a button masher up close lol

#girls I am MASHING that dodge roll #we are somersaulting everywhere #I am level 83 and I just realized that maybe learning to parry could help me out #idk I just know there’s a ton of leyendell bosses coming up and I know I’m gonna get my ass kicked #tbh mage build + decent spirit ashes has carried me a long way!! #and there’s no wrong way to play etc #but it looks so cool when ppl get the patterns right #god I wish that were me #elden ring

[sage-nebula]

Can confirm, I was one of the people going insane because of how little Annie, Shane, Steven, and Matt knew about Pokémon in this week's podcast.

#Annie can't even pronounce Pokémon correctly 😭 she says it as wrong as you can say it without actively trying to be wrong #tbh I almost didn't listen this week when I saw Pokémon was a topic bc i was worried it would be a disaster #i wish i had listened to my instincts even tho the rest of the ep was fun 😔 #pod watcher #watcher entertainment #literally was about to start screaming right as they were like ''people are screaming at their phones rn bc of how wrong we are'' #and i was like yes. i am. it's me. i'm people.

[truckstoptigers]

anybody else feel like their father deserves the electric chair

#thinking again #i cant get over the fact that he started molesting me when i was four #he had it all planned out in his head... i was five the first time i was raped. six when he started trafficking me #he had a game plan for this shit. i dont know how else it would be perfect 1-year increments #i was just a little girl #thats what kills me the most. i was so little. i look at pictures of myself from that time and i am so small. #and i look like im afraid of everybody. afraid of cameras. i dont know. #its just. i wish that just one person had realized something was very wrong there. it wouldve only taken one person. #but i was too afraid of him to tell so would it have really done anything? #i try not to think about it too often because i cant change it & wishing i could doesnt do anything but. it still hurts i guess #even if i dont blame my moms side of the family for not realizing either #milo murmurs #csa vent #the fact that i was four when it started and 12 when i got out also fucks w me a lot tbh #that felt like the longest period of my life. it WAS my life for nine years straight #thats. almost a decade of abuse. and thats so hard for me to comprehend even though i lived it

[wellhalesbells]

15 Questions, 15 (or whatever) Tags

I was tagged by @kikiroo​ - thank you!!  *heart hug!*

1. Were you named after anybody?

Nope.

2. When was the last time you cried?

Um, I cannot stress enough that I cry at the drop of a hat in fictional situations (pretty much never in real life) so it was either Ted Lasso or reading The Celebrants by Steven Rowley, or it could’ve been The Emperor’s Bone Palace by Hailey Turner - I just finished that.  I can’t remember if I did or not, but I was so stressed out, I probably did, things went poorly for a bit there and I was a wreck.

3. Do you have kids?

I do not and have no plans to.  I’ve never wavered on that, I’ve always been very ‘who knows, could change,’ about it but so far: nah.  And I feel like if I had ever wavered, my sister having two pandemic babies and me being her entire village (I am the only relative who lives in the same state.  And the people who are best at babies do not live in the same country.) has nudged me more firmly towards: that’s really not for you, broh.  I love them to death but I am so glad I get breaks where I just get to be a selfish monster for seventy-two hours straight.

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Neever.

5. What sports do you play/have you played?

I played soccer for maybe a few weeks in middle school and then I was like: this is just running, and running is so much worse than sitting, was everyone aware of that?  I’ll be on the bench if you need me. *throws up a peace sign*  Though I did just tell my sister that I would absolutely fucking kill at basketball against K-1st graders and I stand by that.

6. What’s the first thing you notice about someone?

Sense of humor.  Honestly, I don’t know if it’s an ace thing or not, but I can’t even describe people beyond: heightish and hairish until you interest me as a person, which is usually because you make me laugh.  It’s kind of embarrassing sometimes because I really do not notice, and sometimes I’ll be asked to describe someone I’ve been in the vicinity of for, like, two months and I’m like: I genuinely cannot tell you a single thing about this person, I’m so sorry.  I just don’t track details.  That’s why I try really hard with names.  I can’t tell you what they look like in any detail (do they wear glasses? Have freckles? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ), but I can tell you their name.  And sometimes that can feel like a superpower tbqh, because you know who people come to find out the new person’s name: moi.

7. Eye color?

Blue.

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

Oh scary movies, hands down.  They’re my favoritest things.  I regularly have them on as background noise.

9. Any special talents?

If I do have them, they’re a secret even to me.  I like to have that Kathleen Madigan mindset about it: “What if we’re all prodigies, but it’s just at something we’ve never tried yet? ... What if I sat down at a pottery wheel and made a cup and people were like: Holy Christ, lady, that is the most phenomenal cup ever made.”  It could happen!

10. Where were you born?

St. Pete, Florida.

11. What are your hobbies?

Writing, reading, tending to an imaginary beluga whale that lives in my nephew’s bathtub, creating to do lists over and over again that I have no intention of ever completing, and playing Pokemon Go.  There’s a girl at my work and we were the two nerds who were really into it, we would get together, do the fests and the raids and community days and such.  We have now converted half our workplace into either reactivating their accounts or creating them and there are now at least two more people who are just as - if not more - into it than we are.  (Like, they had to make a Pokemon Go policy because of us spreading it like a virus, lololol.)

12. Do you have any pets?

I have a doggo that I accidentally made obsessed with me and super introverted.  You know how they say owners start to resemble their dogs?  Nope.  I broke her and now we like to stay in, are wary of strangers, and essentially try to occupy the same space at all times - I blame COVID, honestly, we were both way more normal before that.  Or she was, anyway.  The good news is I can let her off leash ‘cause she’s going precisely zero places without me.

13. How tall are you?

5’

14. Favorite subject in school?

English in high school, Evolutionary Psychology in college.

15. Dream job?

I hate to say it but: I do not dream of labor.  Anything I’m passionate about doing, I would immediately tarnish by needing it to now be the source of my livelihood.  It would lose all its joy because I would put immense pressure on it.

Though if I could somehow make bank through sleeping? Yeah, that.

I don’t know who to tag because I feel like I’ve seen everyone do this on my dash so: um, whoever hasn’t done it yet and wants to - consider this me tagging you!

#meme answers #meme #if you've ever met me you're probably like 'how are YOU your sister's whole village??!' and like YEAH #i don't know what my sister's doing here tbh #she HATES cold weather but she wanted to leave dc and was like: where are you moving and i was like: #washington in six months and she was like: cool i'll go check it out with my boyfriend on a road trip #and then she got pregnant on the road trip and now they're married and live here lol #this is nOT where they want to be - either one of them #they want hot hot hot weather #(which i despise - my sister's trying to come up w a compromise state and i'm like: *gently* those are opposites my love) #they want to be in florida but i was like: dude you gotta homeschool if you go there #and my sister's already like: i don't like the american scool system in general so you're not wrong #and the draw there is my parents who...... do not like children and are not that interested lol #HIS parents are but they live in occupied palestine soooooo ???? THOSE are the options lol #(occupied palestine is winning just on florida politics alone ???) #not to say i don't ADORE them being here and wouldn't miss them like crazy if they left #but i do wish their bench were deeper than me bc i am already laying down and reading a book on there

[piplupod]

if there werent like... four people who actively care about me and would be fucked up if i died, then i would be gone tonight. idk how the fuck im supposed to deal with my brother implying that leftists (specifically queer ppl) are on the same level as nazis. and yknow honestly thats so fucking weak and stupid of me, people deal with worse all the time and /I've/ dealt with worse, but for some reason this is just breaking me tonight.

#i wish i was alone tbh i just wish i could be done #im tired. im tired im tired im tired #suicide tw #i cant even process this and idk what to do fhfkdl i just am so ready to go thru w like three plans at once but I can't bc itd hurt ppl #im so fucking tired though #this is so pathetic of me fhfjdl this shouldnt be messing me up so bad like I've had worse said to me before so wtf is wrong w me #delete

[eviltothecore13]

lots of people in this fandom CLAIM to love Gomez but when someone makes a post with Morticia as "Barbie is everything" and Gomez as "he's just Ken", it gets likes and reblogs

like...isn't that meme essentially saying "he's bland and boring/doesn't do anything interesting/is no good at anything and has nothing special about him, and no-one cares about him that much because he's just some bland generic guy with no personality beyond being a sidekick"?

do the majority of fans genuinely believe Gomez has no personality and no interesting traits?

#I really am starting to consider deleting all my fics and my Tumblr #because most of my planned WIPs focus on Gomez quite heavily #and I feel like no-one will care or want to read them because apparently everyone thinks he is dull and bland #I'm also assuming everyone I've ever talked to about him was secretly #thinking 'I wish this loser would stop going on about this boring character who no-one cares about' #'ugh they're pathetic he's the most generic bland guy on the planet why would anyone be a fan of him' #even if at the time people seemed interested I'm starting to think they must just have been pretending #because APPARENTLY the whole fandom thinks he's boring and useless and bland and stupid and has no personality #if I post any of my fics I'm worried I'll either get zero response because no-one likes or cares about Gomez #or I'll just get comments from people going 'give up and quit writing no-one cares about this stupid character he sucks and so do you' #I don't get why he's apparently seen as dull and boring when he swordfights and builds robots and blows things up but apparently he is? #I especially don't get it from Morticia fans tbh #because I don't think SHE'D actually like people calling Gomez dull and bland and forgettable and useless #she generally seems to believe he's amazing just as much as he believes she's amazing #but hey what do I know I'm clearly the only person in the fandom who finds him interesting #or thinks he has a personality or is anything more than Morticia's forgettable stupid sidekick #so I guess I'm just stupid and wrong about everything #and should stop writing fic because apparently I'm too stupid to understand the characters properly #and I'm just an idiot with bad taste and bad opinions #because if I was a true fan who understood the characters I'd think Gomez was boring and useless too like everyone else does #it's just not fun to know that everyone I thought was interested in my fics and headcanons was only pretending to be

[violetclarity]

people love to comment/compliment me on how busy I am socially, because more days than not I am either seeing a friend in person or skyping a friend who lives farther away, and I like being a social person but also, I wish that people realized that a big reason I’m always busy is because I’m single and live alone, which means that if I don’t make plans to see people, I’ll spend all of my time alone in my apartment with my cat

#don't get me wrong I love hanging out with my cat #but also the lack of human contact and interaction kind of sucks sometimes! #what if I want to see people but don't want to make it a thing or haven't already made plans! #like today I really wish I could have a movie night with someone but pretty sure everyone I know is busy #reasons I'm considering living with a roommate in the future tbh #like I'm sure folks who live with partners/family/roommates wish that they could have the place to themselves plenty of times #but I cannot overstate how fucking lonely it gets sometimes #(or how touchstarved I am but that's a complaint for another day)

[daisies-on-a-cup]

working in a customer service job and helping ppl who are nice: yippie!!!

working in a customer service job and getting objectified: boooo

#tbh im making it a bigger deal than it was but like dude!!! i am not the one!!! #was helping someone who got locked out of their room and when i entered the space- announcing that i am with housing and entering bc i am #a girl and this was a space for boys- another guy goes 'damn i wish i was the one locked out' #like bro! no! pls stop! #had to come back a second time bc i got the wrong key and it was still so weird #i was taller than all of them and im pretty sure they were high schoolers urgh

[sick-as-a-dog]

×

#just the thought of him not loving me the same way and amount i love him makes me want to slice myself up #ill only stop cutting when i cant feel anything anymore not pain not love just emptiness #just want to be with master but dont want to make him stressed out because im too dependent and reliant on him #why cant i just feel my emotions the right way or a normal amount or at least less strong? why am i like this? #why cant i love like a human and why must that shit be so complicated? why am i so feralminded? #and why cant i feel my loves separately? should i even? or am i not understanding it right? why do i feel everything wrong? #why must i love him like a wild animal loves its lifelong mate? but also like how that animal loves the taste of prey and hungers for it? #like a dog loves its master and feels the unending loyalty and unconditional love overtake remaining wolflike instinct #like a best friend i also wish to do stereotypical romantic and domestic things with and so much more #i want to be bound to him in any way possible marriage and collars and microchips and blood pacts and marking and such #but im so scared he wont want that anymore i want to stop feeling i need to completely stop feeling and worrying but i cant #even when im emotionally numb i still feel that canine love for him even if just a glimmer #i wish i knew what he thinks love is and what hes comfortable with and how he felt and experienced love and if he still loves me like #he did before he came out as aro....im scared to bring up how calling himself aro and me his exception actually hurts and idk if i should #tbh him saying hes aro yet says he loves me feels like when a close friend keeps saying they dont have any friends while youre right there #like my existence makes his identity a lie or a betrayal to him i cant shake the gross feeling that hes forcing himself to stay for my sake #....hell am i even his exception anymore? what did he mean by same amount but not the same? what changed? did anything actually change? #wish i could figure out what love is and how to feel it right..esp dont understand romantic or queerplatonic or anything its all confusing #i want to take on the world with him and stop being an emotional wreck so we can fuck anyone together like we swore to #i just want to live the rest of my life by his side and i want to experience all we can together #picnics and movies and living together and sharing a nest and....idk i just want to be with him forever and hope he still feels the same #it would literally kill me if he ever left or fell out of love i think i would lose whats left of my mind and end up bleeding myself dry #i want us to be together forever and never ever stop being mates but i cant help but be terrified and confused and hurt