#I think Richas would and they would be of himself

[phatcatphergus]

Okay so now that we have an economy in the qsmp, someone needs to make nfts of one of the eggs

#I think Richas would and they would be of himself #and fit would be an NFT bro #idk how to explain it #but I think he would #we also need pyramid schemes #someone has to start an essential oils business #I think Tina starts it as a business venture but pac and bbh buy into the health benefits and continue the mlm scheme #qsmp

[magicalmanhattanproject]

man im just like. thinking about egg signs and how they've evolved over the course of the qsmp and how the qsmp has evolved over the course of the qsmp and just feeling so much love and affection for every part of the project. i dont have any grand overarching point with this just. like. here's a history of egg comms bc of the kind of person that i am

so wayyyy back ten months ago now at the start of the short and sweet egg event that was planned to last maybe a month at most, the eggs had their own custom, decorated signs!

[ID: Leo with a pink sign with an egg on the bottom corner that reads "hello" in all caps. Her nametag reads Leonardo. End ID]

They were extremely simple, single word signs. There was hello, hola, story, feed, sleep, and maybe one or two more and each was its own separate sign. The eggs could only communicate the most basic needs in words and everything else was through minecraft body language or just hoping their parents guessed right.

But obviously, there was a lot more that parents wanted to hear from their children. I'm not sure who was actually first, but the earliest departure from this system I know about is BadBoyHalo giving Dapper a simple oak sign so he could name his pet slime. (Screenshot from @/lxrd-ren)

[ID: Dapper wearing a diver's helmet standing next to a tiny slime in a boat with an oak sign reading "Bouncy (slmecicle but better)" End ID]

Parents quickly realized how much more convenient this was and pretty soon every single egg had stacks of signs to communicate with.

The next innovation came from Vegetta, who was the resident mod knower at the time. He knew about colored canvas signs and gave Leo signs in her favorite color purple because he loved her and gave her everything she wanted.

[ID: Leo's bed in her room under some Fooligetta fanart with a purple sign reading "<3" End ID]

Colored signs obviously had a lot of advantages. Being able to tell at a glance which egg placed which sign was a huge step forward in eggs being able to have long, complicated conversations as well as leaving obvious marks of their personality everywhere they went. It took a little while for them to be standard for every egg though. Bobby never stopped using oak signs even after Richas and Pomme both showed up with colored signs.

[ID: Two signs reading from right to left a red Pomme sign reading "we already started working on a guillotine factory" and a dark grey Dapper sign reading "thats the most french u have said so far pomme" End ID]

And this was the system for a while! And it worked pretty well for most people! The biggest struggle most people had was egg signs not being translated, but streamers adjusted to that by reading signs out loud so the translators would pick up on them. This also lead to adorable and fascinating dynamics like Richas swearing in signs he wrote for Bad and then warning Bad not to read them out. There was also the genuinely phenomenal development of Leolingo where Leo writes only in Spanish to Foolish because it's easier for her to write and he takes his time to puzzle his way through it and learn in a way that's super cool to watch someone else do onscreen.

Then Tubbo joined the server. And Tubbo himself had no problems at all with the system, but he is dyslexic and he casually mentioned offhand that it was getting kind of annoying to read signs after a ten hour long stream and the admin team Fucking Cooked.

Within 24 hours, they had TTS working on the signs. Within 48 hours, it was working on books too. I can't remember how long it took to get translation working, but it was definitely under a week.

And this opened up a whole new world of possibilities for the entire QSMP. The admin team has been on top of capitalizing on it for story purposes, but also just allowing the egg admins to speak in their native languages to everyone whenever they want has been so enriching for everyone involved. Leolingo is awesome but Foolish has been learning Spanish insanely fast and his process is a lot slower and more frustrating than most people can do in front of an audience of thousands of people without feeling discouraged. That's also one language. We've had everything from Foolish being able to check his work a bit more faster to Phil insisting on his eggs taking a day to speak to him in their native languages to Ramón writing a book for Fit in Cantonese, a language we haven't even seen on the server in any other context!

And all of it is fully understood and fully communicated! Sometimes the translators mess up but no one expects them to be perfect and people ask for clarification if the translator says something that doesn't sound right. It's not only a massive step forward in communication technology, but it's a great demonstration of how to use it and when you can and can't rely on it.

And finally, the most recent innovation! One of BBH's viewers sent him a dono saying they had trouble reading certain signs because they were too low-contrast. Bad, Richas, and Pomme just. Took it upon themselves to fix the problem right there and then. Based on One (1) bringing up their own personal struggle, those three came up with new signs that innovate tremendously on the originals.

[ID: Two separate images of the before and after. The first is the egg signs in their original colors with the corresponding egg's name written on them to demonstrate the font color and the second is in the new, higher contrast colors with the same text. The new signs also have custom decorations for each egg. The second picture also has two signs from Pomme in all caps that read "Send all the love to Richas he spent a whole night making this he's the best <3" End ID]

There are three main innovations visible in the above pictures

1: Obviously, the colors are higher contrast. The signs with white text have darker colors and the signs with black text have lighter colors.

2: The colors themselves are lower saturation. Richas said this made it easier for him personally to read them so he corrected that way, but that's open to change if it causes difficulties for more people than it helps

3: The decorations are for accessibility reasons! People with various different forms of colorblindness will find different sets of colors easier or harder to distinguish, but any of them can look at the decorations and use them to identify whose sign is whose instead.

But! Those innovations are not why I made this post! It's these ones!

[ID: The backs of the new signs when placed on the ground. Most visible are Chayanne's with vines and a hardcore heart, Sunny's with shining sunglasses, and Pomme's with an apple and the Eiffel Tower. End ID]

Richas added distinguishing marks to the backs of the signs too! This is something that Bad brought up specifically as something he wanted because it was hard for him to tell who was talking when he was using TTS from behind signs and couldn't see the colors at all.

We went from custom egg signs (a hotbar or so of words and nothing else to communicate with) through a long journey of expanding communication and expanding who we're bringing along on the communication and how easily they can join in and we've circled all the way back around to custom egg signs (they can say anything they want in any language they want and anyone will know it's them saying it from any angle)

and i guess i have enough feelings abotu that to write All This about it

#sorrelposting #qsmp

[rhiaarrow]

With Bad joking about preparing to go live as a hermit if the eggs are gone for a long time it really got me thinking about how important the eggs and their eggy actors have been to him.

Not that they haven't been important to everyone, the eggs are such a huge part of the server but tonights ramble is about Bad.

To the shock of absolutely no one! I'm a Ghostie first and foremost, with a hyperfixation and a penchant for writing novel length rambles. This is just the usual atp :')

Before the Qsmp Bad was not a daily streamer, not even close, just check his vods channel. Hell, even when he joined the QSMP he didn't stream every day of the start of the server. He only streamed one or two days for a handful of hours...but then he got Dapper.

And with him being a single parent Bad had to log on every day to do Dapper's tasks.

(Yes, Q was also a single parent but he had ppl babysit Tilin, also she died within the first 2 weeks of her being around soooo yeah, different circumstance)

Then because Bad was on every single day he took up a position of babysitter for most of the eggs since their parents couldn't be on as frequently.

To begin with it was mostly just Tallulah, she could've been taken care of by Philza but her schedule didn't originally line up with Phil's so it was easier for her to wake up for Bad to do her tasks.

Then Ramon started joining them some nights so he could hang out with Dapper.

Then Bad became closer with the French and started to watch Pomme for them when they logged off for the night since Pomme was a night owl.

Then Vegetta stopped logging in as often and Leo kept barely missing Foolish so Bad started taking care of Leo's tasks when Foolish couldn't and she started spending time with him as well.

Then Richas started hanging out with Dapper and Pomme, so they formed the late night trio and hung out almost every night which eventually became Richas just hanging out with Bad whenever he felt like it.

Then Pepito arrived and since Roier wasn't on as often late last year Pepito would hang out with Bad and Foolish most days.

Then Em immediately decided that Bad was her favorite Uncle and would hang out with him when Bagi went to bed if she wanted to stay up.

When the eggs disappeared, rather than his usual 6-10 hour streams Bad was streaming 3-5 hours because his entire time on the server was usually spent hanging out with the eggs.

I've rambled before about how qBad and Tio Bad are two separate things because Tio Bad isn't rp, it's just ccBad atp but I feel like some people don't realize the extent to which ccBad spends time with the Eggy actors.

Every single stream, from 5-12 hours, he's only ever without an eggy companion for a couple of hours maximum.

I mean there's the probability of each egg just showing up to hang out with Bad at any point in the day,

Obviously you've got these 3;

Dapper, Pomme, Richas - highest probability

Then these 3;

Empanada, Pepito,Tallulah, - high probability

Then these 5;

Ramon, Chunsik, Sunny - low probability

Chayanne, Leo - lowest probability

There is no egg that has never shown up randomly to hang out with their Tio Bad (and yes I am counting the Ghostie streams in this, it was still ccBad so yknow)

ccBad spends so much time with them.

Not counting all the stuff he's done on stream with all the eggs, he has;

built the snowman with Talluladmin and Pommin,

played battleship with Pommin and Ricardão,

worked on create farms with Dappmin,

worked on the signs with Pommin and Ricardão,

built decorations with Empanadmin and Pommin

Just to name a couple of the stuff we know, not even mentioning the nights they just spend together after stream doing nothing important

The server feels especially empty as a Ghostie because ccBad himself is just so used to hanging out with not just the eggs but the eggy actors as well.

His days are usually dictated by what one of the eggs wants to do, not even necessarily his kid.

If an egg wants to go on an adventure to find a particular thing but knows it's rare or could take a while, they know that the easiest thing to do (if they don't want to drag their parents to do it) is probably ask Tio Bad to take them to look for it. Em's done it, Tallulah's done it, Sunny's done it, Pepito's done it, Leo's done it, literally every egg except Chay and Chun.

His ass is always online and always willing to do anything for the eggs, unless it's ridiculously dangerous, then he draws the line.

If that man does go live as a hermit due to everything reminding him of the fact that the eggy actors are temporarily on break I will not be shocked.

ccBad spends so much of his time with them, not just their little eggy characters.

#qsmp #qsmp badboyhalo #badboyhalo #qsmp admins #qsmp meta #qsmp eggs #rhia rambles

[thesmpisonfire]

Forever and Cellbit fought. Badly. Forever has 4 prohibited itens, and he wants to give all of them as soon as Cucurucho gives him the chestplate he asked for. Cellbit wants Forever to give only one instead, holding back the other 3 for more negotiations

This is what sparked the fight. Forever is terrified of what the Federation can do. He said it himself, the only punishment that would work to him would be hurting Richarlyson, but he would never risk that. Cellbit disagrees, he thinks the Federation would never hurt the eggs and Forever should push more

"You're able to give up Richa, I'm not"

Cellbit tried to convince him once again, this time backed up by BBH, by saying the eggs would die anyway. Forever agreed, and then said that it didn't matter since he'd rather lose Richa fighting that just let the Federation take him

"I already toed the limit. I'm standing on the yellow line by the railway track, barely missing when the train pass by me. You are leaning in and waiting for the hit"

Cellbit tried to argue that it would be for the better of everyone, it would mean freedom, and maybe Richa didn't even get hurt, they wouldn't be sure the Federation would actually hurt him. BBH agreed but Forever didn't even move, kept his position all the same.

"I'm the one with him everyday. I complete his tasks, I go out with him, I put him to sleep. I'm not letting you just give up on my son"

By the end, Cellbit made an offer and Forever agreed, saying he'd give 2 out of the 4 itens to both Cellbit and BBH and then the two would have to deal with Cucurucho as his part of the deal would be solved

Forever then went back home to see Richa had drawn him and Forever, which made Forever tear up as he tucked Richa to sleep. He sang Richa s lullaby and ended saying nothing would take Richa from him. He'd let the world burn before letting Ricga go

#qsmp #forever player #Cellbit #badboyhalo #guys im so unwell help me god

[kaztheghost]

Oh my gosh Tubbo freaking out about Bads INSANE reaction time to save richas is so silly but it also reminds me of this short little moment that happened months ago, I think around the time the Ninho was just finished and one of the first instances of an egg downing while it existed, and from all the parents perspectives they were scrambling to work the remote and figure it out and it took a bit before they could really get it but they saved the egg and I remember Bad afterwards just fiddling with the remote and opening his inventory and moving things around and I remember him timing himself and his reaction time to it, murmuring along the lines of, 'however long it takes me to get this remote interface open is time that is taken from saving the egg', where 'they could get hit again and be permakilled or we take too long and it's over', and he sounded so upset with himself for panic having taken over his motor ability to properly navigate it and the chat was like don't beat up on yourself the egg is fine it happened to everyone and he just couldn't let it go that he needed to do better and be faster and he afterwards mentioned to all the parents the remote should be in the hot bar and honestly, after every kids knock down he would tell himself that he should've been faster and now, to Tubbo's timing, it takes him seven seconds flat to open the remote to warp to teleport the egg and to start res-ing them, that's /insane/ and it all leads back to Bad's insistent self blaming nature that if HE isn't doing the absolute most, then it will always be his fault when something goes wrong

#qsmp #badboyhalo #EVERY BBH POST TURNS INTO ANALYSIS IM SORRY I LOVE HIM

[anon-402]

Roier's Interview (Eng Translation)

TN: The small font is for everytime they speak English.

Cucurucho: I have a few questions for you–

Roier: But I don't know English!

Missa: Alright. (To Roier) He says he has some questions for you. I can translate for you.

Roier: Oh, okay. He's going to be my translator. (With broken English) He- He- going to- to- 'traductation'.

Missa: Yeah, I will be the interpreter, okay? So ask anything to him and I will say it in Spanish.

Roier: Work harder, Alfonso!

*Missa hurting sounds*

Cucurucho: What is your biggest accomplishment on the island?

Roier: What did he say?

Missa: How big is your dick.

Roier: Fuck, well– soft, I think two. And hard, three. *Richas hits him* What is it? Why are you punching me?

Missa: He said he didn’t accomplish anything. He’s a loser in this game.

Roier: Hey, what does that mean, pendejo?! What did you say?

Missa: Eh– that you want to do bigger things but that you’re running into some–

Roier: And what does that have to do with the size of my penis?!

Missa: Ah. Right. Wait. (To Cucurucho) Can you repeat the question, please?

Cucurucho: What is your biggest accomplishment on the island?

Roier: My best companion?

Missa: Uh– yes.

Roier: My best companion… is… is, uh– me. My loneliness. *Cucurucho looks at Missa* Why is he looking at you like that?

Missa: Oh, sorry. (To Cucurucho) He just said that the best thing he’s done is himself.

Roier: I– what.

Missa: (laughs) He’s alone in this city.

Roier: Cucurucho, dude, you spoke Spanish before, what happened?

Missa: Wait, wait. *Hits Roier to shut him up* He just told me that the best thing he has accomplish is being alone but being like, uh, eh– is enough for him. You don’t need anyone.

Roier: Bro, I’m paying you money, why you don’t know how to speak English?

Missa: *Ignores him* He realized that he didn’t need anyone. The accomplishment that he have done is being happy with himself.

Roier: *High pitch voice* I don’t know what he said but he’s lying!

Missa: *Keeps struggling with English*

Roier: *Tries speaking English*Fernanfloo, I’m German. Hi I’m German. Vegetta777–

Cucurucho: Good.

Missa: (To Roier) He said dick. That’s how you say dick.

Cucurucho: What is your happiest memory on the island?

Missa: Says what’s your favorite memory card.

Roier: My favorite memory card? I had one for the PS2 to play the ‘Urugata’ *Crash Bandicoot sounds*– I liked that one a lot. I also had the Spyro one. *Looks at Missa* Said that. The Spyro and the ‘Urugata’.

Missa: The best memory of his is him being happy next to Bobby. But he’s dead.

Roier: WHAT?! Bobby?! What did you say?!

Missa: No, no, no. I said boobs. I said you liked boobs.

Roier: Oh, yes. *Looks at Cucurucho happily and nodding* Yes, yes.

Missa: So he treasures all those memories with himself, so he learned to be happy with himself, missing the old times but doesn’t want to be here again.

Cucurucho: Good.

Roier: What.

Missa: He said god. Like–

Roier: Ahhh, god, god. Like.

Missa: Game of Thrones.

Roier: Like how kids say ‘that’s so god’.

Missa: Yeah, that’s so god. Uh-huh.

Roier: Okay. So what?

Cucurucho: Have you ever felt like the protagonist of the story? If yes, when. If no, why?

Missa: He said if you ever felt like a dick– or– can you repeat?

*Cucurucho repeats himself*

Missa: Okay. He said if you ever felt like– *laughs*

Roier: The porn?

Missa: Yes. That if you ever had found– that if you have ever enter a bathroom while someone is shitting on the island.

Roier: Yes. Several times.

Missa: Several times. Okay, let me tell him. *Turns to Cucurucho* He’s been trying to be happy with himself so he’s being working on his own story. Uhm– at least he’s the protagonist of his own story, so–

Roier: Hey, I didn’t talk that long, bro!

Missa: He saw Cellbit in the bathroom.

*They get distracted by an admin flying around*

Cucurucho: If there’s something in your story that must stay, that is important, what is or what would it be?

*Missa asks to repeat the question*

Roier: What did he say, dude?

Missa: If you had a comic you liked so much that you wanted to keep.

Roier: Well, in Spain I saw a comic of Halo2 that I wanted to buy but at the end I didn’t, because I said, maybe I will buy it but never read it, y’know? Average dumbass moment where you buy something but never read it because you’re too lazy. So. I didn’t buy it, but I really did like it. That one of Halo2. In a store that Polispol took us to. That store was good.

Missa: That happens to me too. I will tell him. (To Cucurucho) Halo2.

Roier: Great.

Cucurucho: Good.

*Missa laughs*

Roier: Good. *Starts looking around* So what? Is this Coppel–

Missa: ‘Two’? ‘Two’ is two.

Roier: ‘Two’? You. No, ‘two’ is you, dude. ‘You’.

Missa: Halo2. Your halo.

Roier: You jerk off to– (TN: to jerk off, ‘jalar’, sounds like halo)

Missa: I wanna see your halo–

Roier: Cucurucho, what’s up?

Cucurucho: If you were to be recognized for something you did, what would it be? Would it be something good or bad?

Roier: Badboyhalo?

Missa: Yes. He said if you were recognized on the street, would like to be mistaken for Badboyhalo?

Roier: Fuck no. Said that to him.

Missa: He says that–

Roier: Say ‘Nelson’ (TN: a really slangy way to say ‘no’ in Mexico and the internet)

*Missa.exe not working*

Roier: Nelson. Nao. Nao.

Missa: *Asks if this counts for his answers as well*

Roier: Nao. Badboy? Nao.

Missa: (To Roier) Maybe this is serious and we’re fucking up his operation…

Roier: No, dude. *Looks at Cucurucho* Or is it true?

Missa: I don’t know, I don’t know.

Roier: He looks too happy, I don’t think he’s angry.

Cucurucho: Would you be more motivated into completing something with a premium to be received at the end?

Missa: Says if you’re willing to pay for Youtube Premium.

Roier: No– Well, yes. Quackity doesn’t want to but I do. I pay it. When I see videos *Gets distracted by the Cucurucho award and starts breaking it*

Missa: Roier, you motherfucker–

Roier: *Sits down again after stealing it* When I see videos and make reactions there’s no ads. Well– except one time. I was watching the ‘Amigos’ (TN: LuisitoComunica reference) going to Brazil, and I wasn’t on my Youtube account so there were some ads.

Missa: While you were watching–

Roier: Yes. But only one time and I do pay it.

Missa: (To Cucurucho) Yeah, he would like to be recognized as a person, important for the server. So yes. He would like to be rewarded by that.

Roier: Exactly. Yes.

*They get distracted by the bubbles and the lag*

Cucurucho: If there was a future out of the island, who would you take with you to continue your journey?

Roier: What?

Missa: A future item? *Cucurucho repeats the question* a feature? Ah, a future.

Roier: A token. [TN: Token, ‘ficha’, sounds like feature]

Missa: A future, ohhhhh. Okay. (To Roier) If you had a token– pogs [TN: Pog, ‘tazo’, is another word for Token]

Roier: Pogs to play?

Missa: If you had some pogs, would you like them to be of Pokemon or…?

Roier: Oh, you know which ones were really good? The WWE ones with Randy Orton were so fucking good, and they sounded like– *Pogs clashing sounds* And the ones with Mucha Lucha were good too. And the Pokemon ones.

Missa: You remember the Medabots ones? The metallic ones.

Roier: Yesyesyes. I only had like five because I didn’t have money. But yes.

Missa: One time as a kid, I was like six, and I had a collection and I was in a serious match and they fucked me up. They took all of them.

Roier: *Laughs* They took everything?

Missa: Bro, I was in a town, in a really far away town in Sinaloa. And– *Laughs* And I fucked up *Roier laughs* I lost everything. It was–

*Cucurucho laughs*

Roier: Hey, bro, he’s laughing at you. What the fuck? You’re gonna let him?

Missa: They already took the pogs.

Roier: Dude, why’re you laughing at the pogs? You don’t have anything. You don’t even have hair. Fucker.

*Everyone gets quiet*

Missa: Anyway, if the server had a feature, what would you like to have that could help you in your mission?

Roier: I need a good internet without lag.

Missa: *Laughs* You’re the only fucker who has internet problems.

Roier: That’s why I want them to give it to me. They have a ton of money, look where they are. They have a mansion ‘gameplay funny moments’.  

Missa: That’s true. (To Cucurucho) He says he’s okay with anything. He didn’t need anything, That’s okay. Thank you so much for being so kind and to help us all to be better in this server.

Roier: Yeah.

Cucurucho: Good.

*Awkward silent moment*

Cucurucho: *unintelligible* a huge nomination, what message would you give your supporters?

Missa: That’s a good one. (To Roier) If you had a big Venom– Something like that.

Roier: A Venom?  

Missa: Yes. How would you name it.

Roier: If I had a big Venom… The Chirawaso or– *Missa laughs* I don’t know. I never had one. I’ve never touched one.

Missa: But if you had one right here, what would you tell it?

Roier: How– How handsome. *Notices how his backpack disappeared* Hey, they took my backpack! They’re undressing me here! Fuck, they’re taking my things.

*Cucurucho laughs*

Roier: You little fucker. You were the one who took it. You don’t know we are both from Sinaloa, dude. [TN: Famous Mexican state for having really high crime rate] At any time we can disappear you, dude.

*Missa starts singing ‘Pena Tras Pena’ from El Recordo de Cruz* [TN: Famous Mexican band from Sinaloa]

Roier: *Starts throwing Mexican insults that are really hard for me to translate to English*

Cucurucho: Good.

Roier: *Gets distracted by the missing backpack again*

Cucurucho: What advice would you give others into continuing pursuing goals? What is the first and more important step?

Missa: Okay. If you were playing soccer and you scored a goal, with who would you celebrate with? Messi or Ronaldo?

Roier: With Messi.

Missa: *Laughs* This guy…

Roier: Why ‘This guy’?! You’re Team Cristiano Ronaldo??? You’re from the Goat– No, the Goat is Messi. Now is Messi, pendejo.

Missa: Of course.

Roier: Bro, I’m feeling so awkward. Why are they asking? *Gets up*

Missa: Sit the fuck down. That chair is a fucking Herman Miller–

Roier: This fucking chair– My coccyx is already hurting–

*Cucurucho gives Roier a book with an actual translation to his question*

Roier: Pendejo, you didn’t translate it correctly!

Missa: No, that’s an extra question!

Roier: Oh, okay. What advice would I give? To keep doing it.

*Missa gets all wet cat and starts apologizing for not doing rp and not answering seriously*

Roier: I would tell them to follow their dreams, and to keep searching their goals. In any time you’re going to make it. And if you don’t make it, that’s because you haven’t arrived to the end. I know you can do it. Fucker.

#qsmp missa #missasinfonia #qsmp roier #qsmp cucurucho #qsmp translations #long post

[bloodpen-to-paper]

Tubbo's "Return" Summarized (Feb 22):

---Recap---

-Didn't realize he was gone for a week; thought it was only a day or so

-Has something he wants to do but doesn't know what it is; described himself as "having one piece missing"

-Insisted he is alive and human to an odd extent (implications that he is not fully human)

-May have canonized that the Streamer Awards was a dream he had during his absence

-Kept bringing up how Chayanne was supposed to protect him and failed; seemed very upset about it but also brushed it off as a joke when prompted

-Kept asking people who they think the worst egg parent is (has asked everyone he's talked to so far, including Cucurucho)

-Described feeling like his brain had been taken out of his skull and had the dust blown off it, leading to him being able to see and think clearly and at max capacity like never before (certain descriptions used are reminiscent of a lobotomy procedure)

-Described being dead as very calm, and waking up felt very warm (like when you're cozy in bed and don't want to get up yet)

-Wants to reinvent himself

---Behavioral Patterns---

-Hates loud noises

Showed fear and nervousness at the prospect of loud noises

Persistent noise not loud enough to cause ringing but enough to cause annoyance makes him highly irritable and aggressive

Ringing-induced noise (typically sudden) causes him to mentally tune out (when Cucurucho shot a gun next to him he had to lie down until his ears stopped ringing)

-Mood swings wildly and to different levels of emotional elevation

-General aggressive aloofness at what's going on around him (like he's excited to do things but incredibly detached)

-Impulsive decision making; moves on to the next thing very quickly (saw a random house, decided it was his, and promptly forgot about it seconds later)

-Still retains core aspects of his personality, but with differing behavioral patterns

Noted by Fit and Chayanne to have amplified emotions (joy means extreme joy, boredom means extreme boredom, etc)

Sad when hearing Sunny was alone on her birthday, salty about the Create mod not being unlocked, and generally acted like himself but as if he was on drugs

-Gets incredibly defensive when he feels left out (Sunny and Chayanne kept having private conversations from him and he got very cross)

-Irritability gets quickly squandered when called out in some cases

Had moments of lucidity where he'd ask himself "why did I do that?"

Yelled at Chayanne to wake up in an unusually aggressive manner before Sunny told him to calm down, to which he insisted he was calm but complied and went to sit down quietly

-Strong sense of justice; willing to cross strange lines to enforce it

Incredibly upset upon learning Richarlyson destroyed Leo's garden and insisted it be fixed by Richas and only Richas

Couldn't understand why Sunny wanted to fix Leo's broken garden when it was Richas who destroyed it

Was willing to stand over Richas' bed and wait for him to wake up just to make him fix the garden

-Seemingly inconsequential actions that most would let go is something he feels very strongly about

Believes that letting go of the little things is a detriment as they will build up and eventually destroy you (most likely a product of unresolved feelings from before he died)

#phew its been a while since I pumped out one of these #mcyt #qsmp #qsmp recap #qsmp analysis #tubbo

[boytoyhalo]

Contrary to what you might expect, Fit isn't the one who ends up finding Pac's pelt - it's Ramon. He finds it tucked into it's usual hiding spot while he's looking for Richas during a game of hide and seek. Pac is with Fit when it happens, taking in the view from the top of the lighthouse in companionable silence while he works on some simple repairs. There's only maybe 10 minutes between the initial, violent wave of shivers that wrack his body as his skin is touched for the first time in years and the moment Ramon runs in, calling shakily for fit through wet sobs, and Pac spends all 10 of those minutes fighting to maintain his composure through the panic attack that tries to overtake him.

By the time Ramon bursts in, clutching the pelt tightly to his heaving chest and babbling an explanation to his concerned father (who of course abandons his work the minute he hears his son's distraught voice) He's managed to calm himself down a bit - but he's barely managed that, let alone come up with a plan. And despite his initial relief that it's Ramon whose found it instead of any of the many worse things that could have, his panic returns in full as Fit gingerly take the skin from his crying child and he realizes that it's already too late for him to salvage this; no matter what he does, his cover is blown. There's no way he can ask for the pelt in a way that won't raise suspicion, and he certainly can't steal it. His only options are to submit and accept his fate of being Fit's property forever, or to explain what he is and pray that he's kind enough to not only believe him but grant him his autonomy, instead of doing what any reasonable person would do and using his "discovery" to his advantage.

Pac.... he trusts Fit, as much as can trust a human, but that's just it: at the end of the day, Fit is human. Pac knows humans, he knows their greed and their cruelty and their innate instinct to hoard anything that gives them advantage over their peers - to capture and poke and prod and kill. He thinks, a bit deliriously, that maybe the best way out now is death - he'd much rather die than surrender his autonomy and deal with the relentless itch of his human form forever, or see his friend become everything he's feared he would be.

The feeling of somebody touching the pelt is. not painful exactly, nor exactly pleasant, but it's..... invasive. intimate. It feels like somebody reaching into Pac's chest and physically touching the deepest parts of his soul, parts that are meant to stay hidden and protected - like having every single painstakingly crafted layer of defense stripped away from him at once.

The few humans (ones that he tries not to remember) who have held Pac's skin before had bled enough of their motives through to leave a gross, sticky residue on his violated conscience, one that only got worse and worse as his captors fully realized and utilized their power. He had fought hard to escape those people, had sacrificed so much for his freedom, he can't go back to that - But Fit is carefully stroking the dark fur along his spine with gentle melancholy, eyes sad and brows furrowed; it sends an icy cold fire through Pac's nervous system, viscerally uncomfortable in a new way that he doesn't know how to deal with.

"Who did this?" Fit mutters, curiosity almost evident enough to completely drown the hint of sorrow in his tone. "It's well preserved..." he brushes a thumb back and forth absentmindedly as he inspects the skin on the inside of the pelt. Pac has to lock his whole body in place to suppress the gasp that tries to escape him. "This has to be one of those seals from that one pod that likes to hang around, right? That's a real shame, I like those guys a lot. But, we saw them all together yesterday didn't we...?"

Ramon's whimpers wobble their way back into sobs, and Fit takes his eyes off the grey fur to focus on comforting his son with soft whispers, promises that he'll find whoever skinned the animal and make sure it never happens again. He places the pelt behind him, out of sight from both him and Ramon as he takes the poor kid into his arms; Pac can finally breathe just enough to speak, and he jumps on the opportunity before it can disappear again.

"Can I- Can I take it?" He chokes out, distress far more evident than he would like. Two faces swivel to look at him with twin looks of confusion, Ramon's features still quivering in an attempt to reign themselves in. Pac swallows, doing his best to dislodge the knives in his throat before trying again. "Can I have the pelt. Please? Fit?" He looks at the ex-soldier, trying not to let his desperation bleed into his eyes.

"Uh." Fit hesitates, bewilderment visibly growing by the second as he studies Pac. The selkie sends a prayer to every god of every religion he can think of. "Why?" He draws out the end of the word slowly.

"I just- I mean it- I'm just..." Fit's eyes would be completely invisible if his brow were furrowed any deeper. Deep breath. He turns his gaze to Ramon. "I'm going to return it! There's a seal out there somewhere missing it's skin, he's probably- probably cold, you know?" He knows the wide smile he puts on is completely see-through, probably even more so than it feels from the way Fit is staring at him. He's a few seconds away from cracking his voice open pathetically on another "please" When the unsure twist of his friends mouth softens into a small smile; a little bit more real but equally as see through as Pac's own.

"Okay. Yeah," He says simply, looking back to Ramon. "See, everything's gonna be okay! Pac is gonna give the seal his skin back! Hey, maybe as reward for getting it back to him he'll let you ride on his back, yeah?" Pac is frozen in shock, speechless as his plea dies in his throat. What? Ramon glares at his father, deadpan.

"It's dead, Fit." Fit sighs, letting his joking face fall away to look at him seriously.

"I know baby boy, but- these things... they are what they are, y'know? we can't change them we just have to- we have to make some space between us and our emotions." The last sentence is slower, sounding almost rehearsed in its meticulousness. Ramon's sniffles have softened a bit, and he's looking at his dad tiredly. "I'll tell you what, why don't we let Pac take the fur away and go find Richarlyson, we can go back to the house and I'll read to you guys, or you can draw or whatever you need to do. And when you feel a little bit better you can decide whether you want to keep it, or do something with it, or throw it away. But until then, it'll be out of sight out of mind, ok?" Ramon sighs and nods, burying his head in fits shoulder and wrapping his little arms around him. "That's my boy. Come on, let's go find Richas- thank you so much Pac."

Pac startles as he's acknowledged, brain still stuck on Fit agreeing to give him his pelt back. "Wait, really? I mean- uh- you're sure?" There's still skeptical curiosity behind Fits gaze as he looks over his shoulder at him from the where he now stands in the doorway, an arm under Ramons legs where they wrap around his waist - he still doesn't buy it, Pac can tell. But he just gives him a single nod - he's really letting me take it? Just like that? "I- I mean. Yeah, no problem! Thank you!" He's too stunned and too relieved to pay mind to his own awkwardness. Fit grunts an acknowledgment and turns back to the door, continuing to walk.

"We'll see you later, then. Meet us back at the house when you can."

"Sounds good! Bye fit, bye Ramon!" Pac is glad Fit's back is turned so he can't see how hard he's shaking. The minute the door closes he's on his knees scrambling over to his discarded pelt, gasping as his fingers clutch it and his world finally settles back into place, lungs filling with air for what feels like the first time in hours. He had fully, wholeheartedly expected to be trapped or to at least - well. whatever he was expecting, it certainly wasn't that. To be set free, no questions asked. He drops his head down to sigh into the soft fur, feeling like every drop of energy has been wrung out of him. He can agonize over Fit's choice and the wrench it's just thrown into the knowledge of humans that he thought he had later. Right now, he wants nothing more than to slip into his skin and dive into the cold comfort of the water; the itch that usually starts slow after a full day of wearing his human one has come early and at full force. He prepares himself to ask Forever to cover dinner with Fit tonight, not sure he'll be able to stomach walking on dry land for the next few days.

-

Some time later - around 19 days later, not that Pac had been counting - he finds the courage to ask Fit the question that's been tormenting him.

"Why did you let me take it?" Fit glances at him, idly flipping the smooth, flat stone he'd been weighing in his hand. The last strokes of sunset paint the horizon in soft purples and pinks. Ramon and Richas are asleep in a pile that's just visible to where the two men stand on the shore outside Ramon's bedroom window, tired after a long day of insisting on helping Fit with his work.

"What do you mean?" He asks genuinely. The selkie takes a second to steel his nerves, willing himself not to back out.

"The seal pelt. You let me take it - Why?" There's a beat of silence as Fit studies his face before turning back to the ocean, expression unreadable.

"You asked for it," he says simply, like it's the most obvious thing in the world.

"But-" Pac sputters. "But I didn't give you a reason? I-" I was on the verge of tears. I was scared. I was lying. You knew there had to be a reason. Fit shrugs lightly, finally tossing the stone. Pac watches it skim across the surface of the water.

"Made Ramon stop crying. That's reason enough for me." The stone skips 1, 2, 3 times before it sinks into the water with a plop.

"Fit..." Pac's voice breaks a little bit. He's pleading, though he's not sure what for. Fit looks at him for a few second, concerned. His face grows serious before he turns back to the water.

"You've been keeping secrets from the beginning, Pac." Pac's heart stutters, and a small, terrified sound almost slips out of him before he's blessedly cut off. "I don't fault you for that. I've got plenty of my own- plenty of other people's too." A beat. He crouches down to find another flat stone. "I don't need to know. You're a good friend and a good father. I-" He stills, swallowing as his eyes pierce into Pac yet again, pinning him in place and stealing his breath with their raw earnestness. "I trust you, Pac."

Pac.... Pac isn't sure what to do with that. He isn't sure how to react to the warmth that floods his face or the way his stomach swoops- Fit trusts him. Fit is a grizzled soldier that doesn't know anything about him, that's only known him a few months, that could've kept him or sold him out or done any number of things that would've benefitted him but instead... he trusts him. The weight of that isn't lost on Pac, though he's not sure what he did to earn it, and he - he's completely lost on where to go from here.

"Whenever you do want to tell me what you wanted it for though, or what you ended up doing with it, or where..." Fit trails off, staring out at the ripples in the water. Pac stares at the gnarled scarring on the side of his face. "Well. You don't have to. But I won't judge."

And for a long, long second Pac considers it - considers throwing caution to the wind and taking Fit to his current hiding place, stripping down and donning his skin and slipping into the water in front of him, answering all his questions - because Fit trusts him and despite every part of him knowing he shouldn't, he trusts Fit too.

...But, Fit trusts him under the assumption that he's human. Once he learns he's been lied to - well, that's a level of vulnerability that Pac can't afford. He's not ready to put his fate in Fit's hands again, no matter how gentle they were last time. Not yet, at least.

Besides, Mike and Cellbit would kill him. And if he tried to explain or justify why he trusted Fit, that strange fluttery feeling would come back and then none of his family would let him hear the end of it. So instead, he just nods.

"Okay." his voice is barely audible. Fit nods back.

"Okay." Pac stares at him, trying to commit his profile to memory. He grins.

"Thank you." Fit's mouth curves into a smile - a real smile, small but genuine.

"...yeah, no problem.

#selkie au #these just keep getting longer. consume my brainrot boy #qsmp au #fitpac

[sparklysparklingsparkles]

Baby steps are developing into being slightly bigger! Thank you Ramon 🫡

[full transcription:

Ramon: 'so about fit'

Pac: "So about Fit? Yeah, so about Fit, do you want me to tell you everything about Fit?"

Ramon nods

Pac: "Okay! I don't even know where to begin with. Uhmm let me think.. okay. You know uhm, me and Fit, we started being uh right, good friends uhm.. I-i- I'm not sure if we are ready to take the next step, you know. You know what I'm saying? But uhh" stuttering "we have been getting.. getting closer and closer, you know. I don't know how talk about this, Ramon! Uhh, I'm a little shy. Uhm, but, well, nothing 100% I would say, you know! In the meantime i would say we are probably like just.. good good friends! I think."

Ramon: 'take your time :D'

Pac: stuttering "But like, do I have your- your blessing? You know, that's important to me, you know. Cause like, you are really attached to Fit and Fit loves you a lot! Soo, having, you know, that blessing from you, it really means the world."

Ramon: 'if you don't hurt him'

Pac: "If you dont hurt him? No, not at all!"

Ramon: 'and love him with all ur heart'

Pac's face lights up

Ramon: 'and take care of him'

Pac: "Okayy."

Ramon: 'then you have my blessing :D'

Pac: "Ohh so I- Oh that- that's so cute of you Ramon! You know, I'm gonna do everything as you said on those signs, you know! That's actually gonna be my-my- how can I say, my core, you know, my core st- I don't know how to say, but my core stuff, you know."

Ramon nods

Pac: "I'm gonna follow those guidelines and I'm gonna do exactly as you- as you said."

Ramon keeps nodding

Pac: "You know, and thank you Ramon. That means a lot to me, you know, coming from you! And I.. I hope everything turns out good, you know, and me, you, Fit and Richas! Can all hang out and have-"

Ramon: 'i look forward to ur wedding then'

Pac laughs

Pac, stuttering: "You know, Ramon, as Fit once said to me, baby steps! You know, we are walking on baby steps!"

Ramon nods

Pac: "M-m- maybe one day, who knows, you know.. uhm.."

Careless Whisper starts playing on stream (sadly not saved on the vod)

Pac is stuttering

Ramon: 'walk faster :D'

Pac laughs

Pac: "I will try my best! You know, in the meantime we're just walking like this, you know." walks forward slowly "yeah yeah yeah.." walks backwards fast "sometimes we will go wooo!" walks forward slowly "and then yeah.. But I'm gonna drink a swiftness potion and do my best to, wrom! Run at it."

Fit: "Uhh-"

Pac jumps

Fit: "Hate to break up the conversation, but we've got a raid going on in Tubbos factory, we gotta kill all these pillagers!"

Ramon: 'thank u Pac :D'

Pac: "Oh yeah yeah! Thank you, Ramon, thank you!"

nervous laugh

Pac, to himself: "What happened?"]

#the amount of times pac says you know is crazy #fitpac #pactw #fitmc #qsmp ramon #qsmp #hideduo #qsmp clips

[jams-sims]

Anyway i've calm down, taken a couple of deep breaths and I'm ready to tackle whatever the fuck it was we all just experienced the latter half of the stream.

Tubbo is confirmed dead, he is a robot of some kind, he made another robot called Creation, creation finds the Gurdian, the guardian is Philza, Philza and Creation meet it is initially hostile from Philza end, Everything is hashed out, Creation says he must rebuild tubbo for Sunny, they go to see Tubbos body, Create says that Tubbos is missing data.

Create must find the one that killed Tubbo to get that missing Data. The data is purpose (I think, I remember them saying a couple of name but for now we are calling it purpose.) it between all of that, create says the data must be in the possession of the person who killed Tubbo. That is Richas.

We go back to spawn we meet up with people, inbetween all of that, Creation scans Richas and says he believe Richas has the missing data/know as purpose.

This is the part that is really up in the air. I don't believe creation would have any reason to lie and say Richas has something he doesn't. But because no one check it pretty much has become schroders cat.

Now it could be Richas has another items of important. He may not even have this thing/data known as purpose. Because Tubbos has been in limbo the entire time we have had this reset.

Tubbos love life is in shambles, he feels out of place in the morning crew, he doesn't have create. He was in a bad place and there is a real world where purpose is not a physical item but something that Tubbos must attain himself. It is not something he can just be given or collected in data.

The second part that crazy is the only way to bring him back is for someone to unlock create and build a super computer. The problem everyone is super broke expect for Bad. An the person who was asked and given a special name was Philza, Philza is broke monetary in the new system. He can't do anything.

WELCOME TO CAPALTISM BABY!

This is not even touching on how soul crushing it is for sunny to be left alone. Tubbo and Sunny had a big fight and now sunny alone with no one and it's heart breaking. It ironic because the one that can relate to her the most is Tallulah.

Tallulah has gone through it beat for beat. An it sad that they couldn't have talked more and Sunny anger is valid. Her hate for Richas for taking her dad away will need to be worked through but for now she is left alone go back to her house to be with Leo.

It is on top of that I'm also bring up with the seriousness of the situation. Philza went directly to the spawn point to try and break laws to get a bunny to show up. It is heart breaking to see him breaking shit and screaming out into empty air for someone to show up.

Tubbo has named Philza correctly, he is a Guardian.

#qsmp #philza #tubbo #chayanne #qsmp sunny #qsmp tallulah

[cat-mentality]

One day people on this forsaken site will realize Cellbit is not nearly as trusting and naive as he makes himself to be, and that is the day I will finally be at peace.

Cellbit knows he isn't trusted!

He has known this since the very moment he got back and he acts accordingly because this man values trust and loyalty more than anything and he knows how to protect himself, it's just that the way he chose to go about it is not the way people expected.

The Order is an open secret. Because Cellbit wants it to be. He wants people to be included in the investigation, he wants to show them that they are trying to go against the Federation, that they are the problem and leaving the Island should be a main goal. Even if some of the members are so very obviously very fine with said Federation he still wants them to know what is going on.

Foolish is a friend. We all joke that Cellbit is his biggest apologist and honestly I think there is a bit of truth here in the way Cellbit remembers how, even in the middle of his darkest moment, Foolish was still there, he was one of the people who didn't judge him for any of his actions and that is a very important ally to have.

I think Cellbit also understands that Silly Guy Foolish is much more clever than anyone gives him credit for, and much darker as well, and in the end he will choose the side that benefits him and his family more.

And Cellbit wants that side to be the Order, not only as "fuck you" to the Federation, but because he sees a friend in Foolish. Is he someone he really trusts with all his secrets? Absolutely no, but he is someone he cares about and care for him is very tightly connected to trust.

And Jaiden!!!!! Cellbit knows Jaiden is very fond of Cucurucho but she is also someone he cares about, someone who is also very dear to his husband, and he also knows very well what loneliness can push you to do. He doesn't want her to feel excluded because he understands that will be the quickest way of shoving her into the Federation's arms.

So he keeps her close. He shows her the games the Federation plays with them, he exposes their cruelty and manipulation, he offers her a place and he hopes that it will be enough.

Cellbit has experience with how quickly things can go downhill in a group when he refuses to share knowledge with people, when he tries to control them. And he is not that man anymore, he is not the man who isolates himself to the point he has no one to watch his back.

But there are very few people who Cellbit trusts with his darkest secrets, with all the information he has collected. Richas, Roier and Forever. Those are the people who he knows have his back, the ones who would never willingly betray him as long as they could and those are the people Cellbit allows access to his true investigation, mas has a literal hidden room in his castle to store the important things he finds and that literally only his close family even knows that exists.

He doesn't show all his cards even if he does share much of what he finds- The truly sensitive shit? The mysteries without a conclusion? Those Cellbit keeps close to his chest, to be shared as the need arrives, if it ever does.

And also, Cellbit is fucking good liar.

So good in fact that he has managed to trick everyone into thinking he is a bad one. So when he does have to actually lie nobody bats an eye because they don't believe he is capable of lying so easily.

#im a Cellbit defender and apologist and i have a aneurysm when people act like is just trusting everyone and their grandma #qsmp cellbit #qsmp #qsmp analysis

[littleseasalt]

I've been thinking about why q!philza seems to be able to understand and read q!forever and the situations about him for a while now, and now I'm finally able to type out this full ramble so bear with me.

First I wanna say this post is in no way saying that Philza is the only person that understands and knows Forever, there are multiple characters that understand and know him, but I wanna focus specifically on Philza because he might as well be the most curious one to analyze: Other characters that understand Forever are generally his close friends, whom he spends a lot of time with. Meanwhile, Philza and Forever, thanks to the ccs timezones, don't get to hang out quite as much. They are friends, yes, but we don't often see them interacting like philza and the morning crew do, or forever with Cellbit, bbh and baghera, you know? Like, in character, most characters probably don't even understand how their bond actually plays off and how much they trust each other, etc etc.

So, why is it that Philza can understand Forever and the situations around Forever very well? He doesn't always gets it perfectly, obviously, but he always gets at least some parts right. What is it that makes Philza comprehend him?

And the more I think about it, the more I realize that this might be because Philza, out of all the characters, might be the character who has one of the closest audience perspective on Forever.

Now I know that sounds insane but PLEASE, hear me out. Of course, he doesn't have as much knowledge of Forever as the audience, especially cause he doesn't stream everyday and timezones and stuff so he does misses on a lot, but the thing is that Philza was the only character who was there for every single thing that is crucial to understand Forever.

How many people in character knows how much of an impact Tallulah's death left on Forever? I genuinely think Philza is the only one- they thought together that day and he was there to see how down Forever got after she died. On the same day, he also saw the sparks of what would become the ninho project later- him, Forever and Chayanne talked about egg protection rules, such as the safe room, and thought about ways they could use those rules to the maximum. Then there was Bobby's death, which lead Forever to pick up what he talked about the day of Tallulah's death and dedicate himself to this big project to protect all the eggs. He saw Forever's dedication to this project, dropping everything he was doing just to grantee the eggs safety. He sees how much Tallulah's and Bobby's death impacted Forever. He was also there when the whole Quackity taking Richas away and Cellbit traitor thing happened and he was there to cheer Forever up. These three things are *crucial* to understand Forever's character. And Philza night as well be the only one who was there to witness how all these situations actually impacted Forever- again, this isn't to say other characters don't know, understand or comprehend Forever, because other characters do, but Philza specifically stands out to me because he really was there for the initial things that ended up guiding Forever as a character.

#qsmp #qsmp philza #qsmp forever #sugarduo #I still find it sort of hillarious how you can link Tallulah's first death with Forever becoming the president tbh

[the-crimson]

I just had a thought and… what if bbh doesn’t die but he loses himself so fully that killing him is the only way to stop him/fix him?

The behavior we saw from him today was… harrowing to say the least. Today is the first time in the entire 10+ months of the qsmp that I thought the eggs were not safe in his presence.

There were many times where my breath caught in my chest and my thoughts raced “is he going to…?”

Switching to a paxle while looking at Dapper’s bed and wondering how he could get the hat. Criting Richas twice with his sword. Following Pomme with bow drawn for several seconds several times. Idk if it was just me or the fact that the eggs are immortal rn but it felt like he hit the eggs a lot more than usual during battle. He’s usually super cautious about the sweeping edge but there was so much friendly fire today…. And the fact that he repeatedly talked about killing Richas and how Richas needed to die for stealing his horse. Usually something like that would be like oh haha so silly but… it worries me.

It seems like his body degrades through the night and slowly heals during the day only to be destroyed during the night again. More and more of him is being eaten away by his wounds and we are seeing that now in his change in behavior. We were all thinking he was going to die but what if it’s a metaphorical death? What if bbh loses everything that makes him who he is? His love, his protectiveness, his compassion… what then?

It’s already happening.

His lack of care for Pomme’s trauma around explosions. His total disregard for her distress after the nuke creeper incident. Yesterday’s stream ended in a somewhat similar situation. Pomme was upset and dug herself a hole in the ground. Bbh eventually followed her down and sung her what he remembered of Sunshine.

Today. He stayed at the top and tossed her some toast, seemingly completely unaware or uncaring of why she was upset.

He lost the song. He can’t sing to them anymore because he’s losing his ability to care.

What happens when their dad is a walking shell of his former self? What happens when he smiles and laughs and strikes them with weapons and wonders why they are distressed? He knows he is dying but what happens if he loses himself instead? What happens when his children are forced to kill him themselves?

I don’t know.

I don’t know

#qsmp #crimson speaks #I think the eggs being forced to kill him would be so poetic #either in self defense (not likely) or to force him to reset #to me - that’d be the most satisfying conclusion to this arc #but I’m sure what ever he’s got planned will absolutely destroy me #XD

[thesmpisonfire]

Ever since yesterday when Richas saw everything Pac did in the time he was one, I've been thinking about a sign he put "You did all of this alone, pai?" and Pac just sadly smiled and said "Yeah, Richas. I had to keep going somehow, even if it was starting something brand new all alone just so I could show you later"

Bc just. Fuck dude. Loneliness isn't anything new in Quesadilla. Cellbit has been alone most of his life, Bagi has been alone ever since Cellbit was missing, Fit had to be alone in the Wasteland, Phil only had his goddess as company, Bad spent more time alone than with Skeppy. Loneliness isn't special, it's something all of them dealt during their whole lives

Everyone but Pac and Mike

They have always been together, ever since they were kids. Their souls are connected, they're chosen soulmates. There has never been Pac without Mike or Mike without Pac

Until it did. When Mike first lost Pac and almost went insane all by himself and only sustained by Fit and Richas, it was only a week but felt like eternity for Mike, to the point he let his patron goddess Mine take over for a day because he couldn't handle the pain of being alone in his own mind

Meanwhile, Pac didn't have that. He had to drown alone, he was locked away alone, he had to listen to others being tortured for days all alone in his mind. And even when he got back, he barely had time to heal before Mike was taken too

And to screw the knife deeper in his chest, Richas was gone just a couple of days after. And then right after that, Pac saw Forever lose himself. Pac didn't know he could go for Fit for help as Fit was also grieving, he never felt more alone

For the first time in 16 years he was alone again. It crushed him so badly his passive suicidal tendencies became active. He wasn't built for loneliness, he only had nightmares and a gut terror when trying to remember how it was to be by himself

All he needed was a single reassurance, all he needed was Fit saying "I'm right here, I'm not letting you go" to be able to get back on his feet and push through all that pain. He had to get back up, he needed to save Forever, he had to keep going somehow. All alone

Pushed through months of crushing loneliness and guilt and addiction, managing to never break more than he could handle to heal again, to not go back to his worst version of himself. It would be so easy to just go. But he didn't. He's so fucking strong and he doesn't even knows it. He makes me insane

#qsmp #pactw #character analysis

[1-hanyi]

Something I can't stop thinking about is how Roier said Pepito reminded him of himself. And that's the problem right?

Pepito IS Roier, when he was weak and vulnerable and deprived of affection. Roier has found family and love many times, and he always ends up alone. He won't make the same mistake again. He won't open his heart to love again. And in doing so, he won't let Pepito feel love either.

Because there's nothing to gain from love. He loved Spreen and his friends. And they betrayed him. He let himself love Bobby. And he was taken from his hands. He got adopted by Vegetta and Foolish. And now his parents are gone and who knows if his sibling will wake up. He decided to marry Cellbit. And now Cellbit is missing. And he let himself love Richas as his own kid. And now he is in a coma.

When Bobby died, Roier tried to kill himself. He was depressed, reckless and a mess. He did not care for his health or his safety. And so, why would he now? After he has lost more people, why would he be kind? When he sees a version of himself that seeks love, the same mistakes he has make too many times, why would he love Pepito?

Pepito is himself, Pepito is a reminder of what he has lost, Pepito is a responsability that he did not want. And if Roier can barely take care of himself, if he can barely hope that Cellbit will come back, if he can barely admit that Pepito is real and not a product of his mind, how can we expect Roier to take good care of this new egg?

#qsmp #qsmp roier #roier #qsmp pepito #i think theres a lot of reasons why roier is acting this way #but i think we need to explore the “roier has suicidal and selfdestructing behavior” more #ffs he really threw himself of his tower after looking at bobby's painting #tw suicide #tw self destructive behavior #hope he heals and also heals his relationship with pepito #because yesterdays hug.... really pained me

[youphoriaot7]

just saw a heart-wrenching edit on tiktok (sad music and all) about q!cellbit and the way he interacts with the eggs and i just...

i remember when i was still getting into the qsmp (which i did from cellbit's pov) and was scrolling the wiki on the daily, trying to figure out past lore and relationships and everything

and every single time i clicked on an egg's page i would end up seeing cellbit's face somewhere in the relationship box. and it always made me grin so wide because it was just...cute. and then i realized a lot of them had even mentioned things like him being one of their favorite tios or whatever and i'm just so. fucking. soft. about the idea of just-

this guy. comes to this island. in the middle of nowhere—doesn't really know how he ended up there, doesn't remember much about where he came from, nothing. and, like, it's natural to be a bit skittish or at least defensive, especially when there's already so many people here, because you don't know what they will do to you, how they'll react to anything: they are essentially unknown entities.

and if you really think about it, that completely includes the eggs. because although they're just kids, q!cellbit was canonically in a war at, like, age 15. he's definitely not one to underestimate someone because of their age—he is damn well aware of how scary people can be, regardless of what their age is.

but then they start interacting, and, like—tallulah gives him flowers, and ramon picks him for a partner in the boat race, and he's able to joke and play around with chayanne and bobby, and...in a way, it's like seeing himself, or rather, what he could have been.

because he never got that; he never got to do that. he can see the relationships they have with their parents—tallulah and chayanne with phil, ramon with fit, dapper with bbh, bobby with roier and jaiden—and he sort of comes to realize, like, "these kids don't know." they don't know what it's like to be at war. they don't know what it's like to end up in jail. they don't know what it's like to not be able to live because you're too focused on surviving. whether it's been that way in the past and they don't remember or not, they don't know.

and, inwardly, he decides he's going to make damn fucking sure it stays that way.

so he starts collecting flowers, to give some to tallulah the next time they meet, and the way she beams assures him he'll continue. and when ramon makes a mistake in the boat race and starts beating himself up about it, he empathizes and reassures him. (practically makes the poor kid cry.)

he sees the way chayanne takes the lead around the younger eggs and takes note, making sure to joke around and play with him whenever he can—because he may be the oldest, and the most responsible, but he deserves to have fun, too.

all of this includes richas, of course. in fact, it's even more exaggerated, to the extent that (in some ways similarly to fit) he mostly lets richas do what he wants, only growing concerned or stern if the kid's life is in danger. (because he saw what happened to bobby, and he's not going to let it happen on his watch.)

because there's enough pain in the world. chaos runs rampant on the island, from the federation to the codes, from the kidnappings to the tasks, from the bombs to the capybaras. there is death at every turn, and this island can be deceiving, because it doesn't seem like it. it seems perfectly fine.

but he knows.

he's been in this position before, where everyone and everything is trying to kill him. he's familiar with the concept of survival. and this island is survival.

but these are kids. they don't need that. hell, he had that as a kid, and look how he turned out. no, if he has anything to say about it, nothing will seem out of the ordinary. as much as he can help it. he will gives flowers to tallulah, he will make jokes with chayanne, he will explore with richas, he will spend time with ramon and dapper—all to offer even a semblance of normalcy.

so uh the fluff part of this train of thought is over so click off now if you don't want the hurt <3

but then things start to change. bobby dies, and the federation teases them about it, dangling the child above their heads. the codes ramp up their attacks. the kidnappings start to increase. people die and respawn more frequently. and the more he tries to get free, to get away from the island, the worse things get for the current inhabitants.

he meets pomme. this terrified egg that's been trapped behind a wall since before he even got there. and he realizes that he won't be able to shelter them forever.

things are going to happen, one way or another, to shatter the fragile illusion of reality the islanders are trying to create for these kids. in some way, the curtain is going to fall, and it is going to hurt. it's going to hurt as badly as it hurt him when he was thrown into battle. it's going to hurt as badly as it hurt him when he ended up in a top-security prison when he was barely an adult. it's going to hurt as badly as it hurt him when the wool was yanked away from his own eyes by that white bear not a week after his arrival on the island.

so whatever you do, don't think about what it must've felt like to find that book. don't think about what he must've been thinking as he flipped through those old, yellowed journal pages. don't think about him reading that lost egg's words, and just thinking, "god, this could've been me."

because it very well could've been.

the book literally talks about not wanting to survive, but wanting to live, and all he can think about for the rest of the day is how it was abandoned. same as him—only one was on a battlefield, and one was in this tiny-ass room. and there was no warrior in shining armor, no police officer taking pity to pull this egg out of there. he had someone. this egg had no one.

so of course he switches out the keychain on his backpack. because carrying that egg with him is like carrying a piece of himself, in just the same way that all the eggs feel like a piece of himself.

he can't protect the eggs forever. he knows that. but that doesn't mean he can't try.

#i'm just- i'm just really not okay thinking about the relationship of q!cellbit and the eggs. #long post #they genuinely make me so upset :( <3 #qsmp #qsmp drabble #qsmp headcanons #qsmp cellbit #qsmp eggs #ev;memory #character study #i don't even know if all of this is a hundred percent accurate i'm just. #spewing words and having feelings.