#I think I have undiagnosed dyscalculia but it’s too late to get a diagnosis and some help now lmao

[darlingfreddie]

Me being this 👌🏽 close to dropping out is kind of hilarious since this is my second to last semester

#this math class I’m taking is so fucking hard but I need it to fulfill my degree requirements. I’m gonna throw up #it’s statistics and I’m trying so hard but it’s not enough #I think I have undiagnosed dyscalculia but it’s too late to get a diagnosis and some help now lmao #I just literally can not comprehend mathematical concepts at all like I can do it in pieces sometimes but I can’t solve problems on my own #idk sorry for venting I’m just so stressed and the prof for this class is awful

[vampirecatprince]

hi! i was looking at your adhd reblogs and one of them mentioned something about how adhd affects emotional health. if you’re comfortable talking about it, i was wondering how it impacts it? also since you weren’t diagnosed until you were an adult i was wondering how you were able to tell that your hyperactivity wasn’t neurotypical. if this is too personal i’m sorry to be a bother and don’t worry about answering this!!! thank you either way!!

I’d be more than happy too help, but I do warn that my knowledge is fairly limited. I’ve only had a proper diagnosis since about June or July of this year and thus my knowledge is SUPER limited.

From what I understand, having ADHD means that some emotional regulation stuff is just different than someone without. I often get very angry or frustrated over things that don’t matter. At all. I’m also hyper-critical of myself, have a huge case of impostor syndrome, and am always trying to be super aware of what people think of me.I have trouble reading social cues and struggle, A LOT, with not interrupting people. I can also be SUPER spite motivated about things. Spite is a great motivator for me, because I am the most petty bitch ever and Will Prove You Wrong. 

I’m actually pretty sure I have a form of Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria, which is apparently common in people who have ADHD and also SUCKS. (That said, I’ve also dealt with utterly dehabilitating undiagnosed adolescent PTSD which is like 98% managed now. But, it did NOT help with the emotional regulation issues, let me tell you. It was probably the reason that I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety for a while instead of PTSD and ADHD. Well... and the fact I’m AFAB.)

I’ve always been able to tell since roughly mid-puberty that I wasn't neurotypical, but I’ve always been a hyperfixating human disaster zone since I was a very young child. I’ve always been a disorganized mess and I’ve always struggled with paying attention to things that I don’t enjoy, but I had always been generally smart enough to not have to put much effort into schooling until around late high school. I remember these being issues as far back as kindergarden. This whole process has been an experience of minor epiphanies tbh. (Like, I used to stim as a child A LOT and had it trained out of me for the most part.)

I’m honestly amazed with how far I’ve gotten in college so far, without any assistance from a Disability Resource Center. I was actually diagnosed because I was having trouble learning languages at my university and it turns out I have a language based learning disability and very mild dyscalculia because of my ADHD. But, because of my ADHD, I’m super passionate about my career path and it makes the classes about those topics an absolute blast! I often joke that I’m exploiting my ADHD for fun and profit, which is kinda true. It makes me so excited about the future and gives me a really deep drive to work on things I love. If I can find something I enjoy about a project, then I become ABSOLUTELY UNSTOPPABLE and I love that. :P

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