#I still feel like last night was real

[allieinthesky]

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#I still feel like last night was real #she played FUCKING Long Live #there was a music video premiere of her vault song #and fucking Taylor Launter was there #and FOR ME…. I’m done. #god I love live music so fucking much #I love ts so much

[wiseabsol]

I wish I vibed more with CR3. I think the only times I felt deeply engaged with the material were when Eshteross was around, during the Laudna resurrection arc, and during the Molaesmyr arc. And I really wish that wasn't the case, because the plot should be engaging me! We've gone to the moon! We're meeting aliens! We're fighting psychics and a god-eater! I should be so into this. But I'm not, and I think that largely has to do with the characters and their bonds with each other leaving me cold. And I don't know why! But I'm struggling to feel any interest in watching the episodes and that sucks.

#Critical Role #CR3 #A PC character just died for real last night #I should be sad #And that is not what I feel #And yeah maybe the problem is me #But I don't think I'm the only one struggling to engage with this campaign for whatever reason #I still love the company and team and hope that if they do a campaign 4 it will grab me like the first two #But for now it feels like a waiting game

[theygender]

For any horror fans out there that haven't read it yet: The Twisted Ones by T. Kingfisher is SO GOOD. I don't remember ever being so scared by a book

#the hollow places is also very good but it made me feel more like... fascinated than scared #the twisted ones actually has me like... i cant read it alone at night bc i get too spooked lol. i have to read it in bed next to my gf #and then i STILL get spooked. i spent all of last night in between dreams Scared Of Monsters Getting Me #until i woke up this morning and realized wait a second... that was in the book not real life #i am. so pleased by this. it is SO hard for me to find content that actually scares me anymore #and i love the authors voice too. the characters in each book have their own unique voices and both books have way different vibes #but even with that theres still some sort of just... essence that the author brings thats very present in both books and i really enjoy it #would definitely recommend both of them and i will DEFINITELY be checking out more of her books #rambling #edit: im looking at a list of her other books and two of them have a nonbinary mc?? hell yeah!!! #ive never seen a nonbinary person just casually represented in a non-lgbt focused novel. ESPECIALLY not as the protagonist in a horror #t kingfisher I LOVE YOU

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Hey! I can't remember if you ever found out what the red flower vines on Frank's house could be, but I think I found a candidate! It's called the Red Mandevilla Vine and their meaning is interesting

OHHH THAT'S THE BITCH!!! that's gotta be the bitch!!! i'm stuck between that one and the red trumpet vine, but i think you probably Got It. hopefully... god i'm gonna be chewing on this all night aren't i

if anyone is curious, this ask is referencing This Post i made about neighborhood observations / flower symbolism

#'feeling secure in the love we possess inside us rather than needing something from the outside to feel complete/whole' #give. gimme a second im. oh my god i. oh. um. WAILING #some other symbolism found from the mandevilla im seeing is #thoughtlessness/recklessness from one source #perseverence/determination from another #and the last im finding is strength/resilience/adaptability #i love how flower symbolism is like 'heres five different interpretations have fun' #i think all of em could fit frank perhaps? we'll have to see #rambles from the bog #wh speculation #motherfucker there was something else i wanted to say!!! #i had it primed to add on and then i went to type it and Poof! Gone From My Brain!!! #shit!!! im mad now. thats gonna bother me all night #sigh. anyway #the level of insanity im at is zooming in to count flower petals #which is very ridiculous of me #but still... looking real hard at those vine flowers and they could easily be either mandevilla or trumpet.... #bc the way some of them are clustered look like trumpet... but also do they..... im losing my mind #rocking back and forth in a corner chanting 'its not that deep its not that deep' #But What If It Is. huh. What Then.

[todayisafridaynight]

seeing info only about the kiryu and majima statuettes but absolute radio silence on the ichi one is utterly sending me. Theyre hiding the fact theyre gonna make ichi pale as a cracker again

#snap chats #theyre in the lab making a skin tone with melanin in it for once im SCREAMING #JUST LET ME SEE MY BOY PAINTED LET ME SEE HOW BAD THE DAMAGE IS #whether i spend $150 is entirely dependent on if ichi is pale or not and im so serious its why i didnt get his plushie #anyways i got hate crimed today i was getting lunch with my dumbass friend WHICH. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY I DO #CAUSE WE JUST SIT IN DEAD SILENCE AND SHES TERRIBLE AT CONVERSATION RIGHT anyway. #we were getting lunch and her prof ask her like ‘oh are you on a date <3’ like prof i would rather kms !!!! then go on a date with this gir #literally my biggest fear i hope people dont think we’re dating id actually drop out #‘snap you make her sound awful’ because she is and i dont feel bad about bullying her anymore NO LISTEN #WE WERE PLAYING Y7 LAST NIGHT AND SHE BUTT DIALS HER FRIEND. LIKE A DUMBASS. #AND DEADASS ME AND HER FRIEND JUST TALK ON HER PHONE ABOUT HOW MUCH SHE SUCKS.. WHILE SHES SITTING RIGHT THERE. #i felt so validated cause everything he was complaining about id complain about like oohhhh my god i should meet him #hes the guy that called me that invincible character. and mystery man. i think i talked about this already wait— #ITS STILL FUNNY TO ME IDC ive never felt so seen in my life. why an i friends with this girl idk we’ll figure out one day #right now i want. ichi statue to be real and tanned #ok bye i have class soon

[marsixm]

ocd rly sucks sometimes bc i swear my paranoia just shoots me in the foot with my personal life so bad

#its like this weird combo of anxiety and favorite personing #that makes me fixate on if one specific person whos opinion i care about #like hates me or not #i currently am struggling to shake a specific paranoid delusion that cropped up last night #even tho its....... SOOOOOO unlikely #but even still #its the kind of thing if id just like #get out of my own head. would probably be fine #like #so fucking often #i just wish i could act normal enough around people to not care #its like i feel like i hide my true self from the people i want to be real with the most #and im like man if i was just acting like. normal/chill we'd be best buddies and everything would be fine #but instead i have to be fucking insane #its just hard and weird and complicated bc im so used to keeping things secret and to myself and not being able to explain things #i dont even know how to fucking talk to people sometimes #i just want to make real ass friends man #why is this so hard

[raiiny-bay]

it’s honestly kinda crazy to me that kel & co were literally the first OCs i ever made

#my test subjects if you will #& yet i am still obsessed w them after all these years #idk i just think it’s kinda special bc it’s like we grew up together almost? #the first iteration of kel & co were honestly very wacky. like the deviant art era of my oc making if you know what i mean #but they’ve changed & grown a lot over the years & that’s kinda fun!! they’re very dear to me tbh #sometimes i read through old notes for them & i’m just like. man what was i thinking #i could honestly write an entire essay on all of the scrapped lore for these guys. the kel & co multiverse is Very extensive lol #the original three the story was about were bow kel & a lil ghost i named tragedy (i was 12 lol) #her real name is isobel. she’s not in canon anymore but she IS in monster boyz. i put a lot of the old characters in mbz. #dhes wasn’t in the original story at first either. he was a character i made for an rp lmao #but once that ended i decided i loved him so much & had to put him in my main project #he has changed the most from his original design tbh. personality wise i mean #he went from very minor side character to the literal focus of the story #he’s essentially the main narrator. even more so than kel #idk. i was just randomly thinking about them & how long it’s been. #gives me feelings when i think about it all lol #i did not sleep last night at all btw #rainyrambles

[shitouttabuck]

inspiration saturday lol if you squint

tagged by @try-set-me-on-fire @rewritetheending @alyxmastershipper 💘

being thwarted every time i try to write this weekend because in an out of the blue and on the nose twist of events, as of 10am yesterday i am suddenly fostering a four month old golden retriever mongrel mix 😭 he was left tied up outside a friend’s house and he’s the sweetest cuddliest guy im calling him jigsy short for jigsaw

here he is demanding attention sorry to i love you like a dog fic im busy being loved by a dog

@jeeyuns @diazblunt @forthewolves 💓💓💓 if you guys have anything to share @anxieteandbiscuits sami you’re in writing jail while ur wrist heals but i want u to look at this little guy

#he’s fully untrained which is. there’s so much piss and shit guys #he chewed through two separate pairs of boots :’) i was like oh real original bud!!! but he doesn’t care :’) #he climbed into bed with me last night and fell asleep across my chest and i could feel his heart against mine and i cried myself to sleep #this might’ve been the biggest mistake of my life because im already so in love with him i’d start world wars. and someone’s gonna adopt him #tag game #also i’m 23k into this fic and i’ve still got a third to go

[indynerdgirl]

Hello, my lovely followers! I hope you're all having a good Monday so far. 😊

I just wanted to let you all know that starting tomorrow, I won't be as active on here during the day as I currently am because I'm starting a new job tomorrow that has much stricter internet use policies on work computers than my current job. Because of that, I expect my active Tumblr hours will shift to the last afternoon/evening (I'm in EST if that helps!).

While I'm super excited for this new chapter in my life to start, I am kinda disappointed that I won't be able to use Tumblr as my daily brain breaks like I currently do and I'll also miss being able to chat via messages.

Anyways, wish me luck and say some prayers for me because I still feel like an imposter. 🙃😆

#personal #life update #i still feel like i might have girlbossed a little to close to the sun in getting this new job #because i was reading my job description again last night and omg #this is the realest 'real job' i've ever had before #like one of my responsibilities listed is 'develop recruitment - orientation - and training for volunteers' #another one is 'take charge and full responsibility for planning - implementing - and directing the volunteer program' #then there's #'advance objectives for the department and routinely review departmental operations with staff to measure effectiveness #LIKE I AM ACTUALLY GOING TO BE IN CHARGE OF A WHOLE FUCKING DEPARTMENT. #THE IMPOSTER SYNDROME IS HUGE RIGHT NOW

[outer-edges]

it's insane how one terrible forty five second interaction can ruin the next entire day. anyway. i guess time to consume maximum amount of fluff and scroll through tumblr ad nauseam to try and take my mind of things.

#mattie gets personal #fucked up real bad last night #wasn't paying attention while walking #ended up walking by a bunch of harassers and for the entire time it took to walk by they were just being terrible #and now my anxiety is off the fucking charts #un fucking real #and i actually feel so bad because my friend followed me thru it #and the only reason we were going that way was because she was letting me lead #but i was just running on autopilot and NOT paying attention to our surroundings #and i should not have been responsible for that #by the time i realized what was happening like turning around would've been the same distance as just powering thru so i tanked it #but still #fucking terrible #i apologized to her so many times but i just feel like such an idiot #i'm just like #i never usually have to deal with that #because i'm typically paranoid as fuck and also look like teenage boy usually #but yesterday i was NOT paying attention to anything and also was in a very revealing outfit because it was a music festival #some dude followed me earlier in the day too #he only stopped when a guy friend i was with shouted at him to leave me alone #cuz obviously me telling him to fucking leave me alone didn't work #anyway. this is one of the reasons i dress like a teenage boy #not just the gender thing #this is the worst i abused the tags but no one reads these and i need to like put this into the world but not have it be consumed ukw i mea #cuz it's so normal i just like haven't had to deal with it before

[littlepuddingsworld]

Adventurine brain rot? 🤨

-panna cotta

NO because im COMPLETELY okay and SANE and i DONT simp over some PRETTY SLY GAMBLING BOY im mentally HEALTHY and i DON'T INTO RED FLAGS AT ALL im just colorblind to some shades of green and hes ABSOLUTELY green even greenpeace JEALOUS of HIM i just want to CHOMP HIS CHEEKS let me IN or im NOT taking responsibility for my future actions because im going to get UNDER his skin because he's my little mewo meow GUINEA PIG and im completely OKAY and STABLE just let me IN or im going to in MYSELF—

#ৎ୭ — voice from under the bed #ৎ୭ — little puddings #ৎ୭.panna cotta<333 #babyboy didn't come to me very quickly but it's still a 50/50 win so #with my top 3.1 in general and bottom 49 i suppose i can still bear it somehow :/// #but like kakavasha is SUCH an yandere material im SO clearly not OBSESSED!!! #aventurine that lets you relax in the gambling and believe in your luck so that you can then offer to sleep with you for the night??? #a poker game where the bet is either he pays for your dinner or you go for a little 'walk' with him<3 #people like him don't make 'friends' - you're are sure - but you're still letting this holiday romance last a little bit #after all he's even *cute* and somehow resembles a gallant gentleman or a footman (affectionately) who is trying to court you #everyone needs to relax and even if you are sure that he is trying to achieve something using you #you condescendingly allow #you are only a little confused when things start to get out of control and the connection with your comrades disappears for some reason #but he is always ready to help!!! how cute<333 #no wait #since when have your companions been missing for so long and you feel so sleepy? #you *really* should return to your place in real world #how nice that he is concerned about your condition and is ready to wake up with you to help #such a gentleman<3 #... not that it's his fault. It's not for nothing that they say not very good things about the sigonians #someone may say that this is skill issues on your part #but for him it is definitely a 50/50 win without guarantee #it's all or nothing<3 #🍮.yandere

[commandercoriandersalamander]

she responded to the antibiotics, her energy/enjoyment levels went up, and my dad cancelled (or possibly never scheduled?) the appointment.

she's still in the end stages of her life and we're not going to do much besides comfort care at this point, but we get to keep her a little bit longer.

#cw pet death #...except not really #this is objectively good news and I am happy honestly #but at the same time kind of stunned #like I really prepared for her death and I think somewhat emotionally closed off? like in preparation? so when my dad texted me #i didnt know how to feel #still working it out honestly #because I love her so much but at the same time when he told me part of me was like 'oh. okay. now I don't have to be bracing for this news #anymore' and of course now I am again #but like. if she's happy I'm happy. and dad says she's improving for now. #it doesn't feel real? like this is the kind of thing you dream while your phone is in your hand waiting for the text to tell you its time #(which is how I slept last night lol))

[astriiformes]

Genuinely touched by how many of my friends have either told me they watched the episode last night and thought "Oh no, I hope Nate is okay" or outright messaged me at some point today to check in. Love is stored in the knowing how much someone cares about a narrative, and perhaps also a small red bird

#for real i am holding up okay #cried my eyes out last night and probably will again on a rewatch of the ep and/or assorted s2 episodes but #it's in more of a 'this hit hard' way than a 'i hate this narrative choice' one #and also it was genuinely such a good episode that did so many other things i really really liked #plus the writers really showed their hand in a few areas where like #i feel like i can see some of the machinery of the story chugging along in a way that's going to make certainly developments click #so that always helps when the story has gone dark places and isn't resolved but you can piece together part of where it's going #and i like some of what my brain is seeing there already #THAT SAID...... i had not actually cried all that much over a toh ep yet #and i knew my time was coming #but i was still not prepared #love you guys #toh spoilers

[ezraphobicsoup]

perpetual egg fried rice

#there’s so much i should be doing but it’s warm and nice here #gonna do some reading and see how i feel after that #the egg fried rice bit is cause i had some last night and i feel like it’s still there in some capacity #ezra’s real life rambles

[that-was-anticlimactic]

universe of constant spinning, every end a new beginning

“So, do you have an umbrella? That was like, your thing, right? At Claw?”

Ah—not again! He can’t keep zoning out while talking to people—especially his boss.

But… why was Reigen still here? It was late and he always got to work early. It wasn’t his job to stay and coddle his employees. “I—uh—no,” he stuttered, fingers twisting anxiously. “Mine was, uh, "is” broken, sir.”

‘Broken’ was a mild way to put it. More like it got destroyed.

[or, reigen gives serizawa an umbrella]

☔️2,651 words | serirei☔️

#corey writes:) #HOLY TRASH #no guys last year i challenged myself to write and post one fic a month so that i made sure i was still taking time to do what i enjoy #and not lose myself to school work right? aND I DID IT!!! so i challenged myself AGAIN this year and none of the stuff i've been working on #is fully done and i had time so i started this last night and worked on this on my down time during student teaching and when i got home! #this prolly isn't Great but it's short and something i've been thinking about since the minute i finished s2 sooooooo #and the brainrot has been SO real and actually tbh i'm pretty surprised that the fic i wrote isn't r.itsu centric lol but this idea would #NOT leave my head and i knew it wouldn't get super long like all of my r.itsu and kiddo ideas ijuhbgfvbhyuio #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #serirei #serizawa katsuya #reigen arataka #mp100 fanfic #serirei fanfic #guys it's about the m.lb umbrella scene okay #idk maybe this has been done before but also i. do not care because Feelings and i diD IT even tho its at the last minute lol #oops i need to shower i'm teaching all day tomorrow and my supervisor is coming to observe me ahhhhh send good thoughts pls jiuhygtfghuijoiu #okayyyyy i'll stop now i ramble when i am sleepy or nervous and i am Both i just don't want this fic to be bad but ig i panic a bit before #posting any fic haha gonna go shower now MWAH love y'all <333

[yo9urt]

falls on the ground

#mine #i think daylight saings did something to me i could NOT sleep last night...it was very annoying #either that or the fact that im close to finishing my current beegee3 playthrough and i know its going to emotionally destroy me #wat ever... #i feel sooo weird...next week is finals week and like ... idk in 2 of my classes i dont think i have any real work left #just like optional stuff and going ti the actual class but theyre both low credit and one is asynchronous #so its just one meeting #in my other ones i have some work but really not that much.... #but at the same time i still have to GO to those classes u know and idk im just lost and confused #i dont know what to do with my time like on one hand i feel like i have tons of free time #but on the other i feel like i have none? #also i need to do my taxes soon and i would really rather die but whatever......................