#I need to try and fix my sleep schedule

[tangledinink]

; w ; i said i was gonna be productive and get stuff done today but then i got overwhelmed and took a three hour nap and im not sure if its too late to take adderall or not

#i mean on one hand its not like i have to get up at any certain time or anything so.... #i guess its fine? #but also im kinda sorta trying to FIX my sleep schedule rn #not #WORSEN IT #gosh diddly dangit. fudge and beans. jeez louise. man. #personal #txt posts #vent #i really need to make some food to eat #but to do that i should really go to the grocery store #but to do that i really need to do my laundry #thats tOO MANY TASKS

[rat-prophetess]

I have this deeply unfortunate condition where I cannot absorb verbal information without doodling, but also I have the drawing skills of young child and the permanently shaky hands of a wizened crone SO the results are. Unfortunate.

I am definitely making a great impression on my classmates and future colleagues by scrawling stick-figure patho characters next to them while they’re trying to listen to orientation lectures 👍🏻

anyway this (+ illegible handwriting) is why I can never lend people my notes. termitarywallart.jpg

#my art inspires questions in the mind of the spectator. such as ‘ok then…?’ and ‘yeah but like. why’ #do not kill the part of you that is cringe. kill the part of you that cringes :) #on another note #i won’t say it again: bloodstains should be considered business casual. maybe business formal #i need to fix my sleep schedule and generally get my shit together #it’s going great #anyway your honor those are my emotional support scrimblo bimblos. my comfort scrunklies. my favorite special little guys #pathologic #pathologic 2 #мор. утопия #silly pathologic doodles #fully forgot what the executor mask looks like. also fully forgot what birds look like #katerina saburova #clara saburova #rat prophet #the 2nd one is me every time they try to take my blood #i have shitty veins #rats: they’re just like us!

[evil-gay-person]

news about aida

Hey guys I'm kinda going through some shit mentally and I'm probably going to be significantly less active than usual. Some of you may have already noticed my decline in activity, some may have not, but I guess I'll be going on a semi-hiatus until... date to be determined :)

Feel free to reach out and talk to me on Discord, but you've been warned, I'm not always online there.

I love you all so so much and I'll be thinking of you guys while I'm away :))

#i will be popping in on a daily basis #but i wont have tumblr open all day everyday like i normally do #i'd probably only check during lunch break and after school #i just need to get my grades back up and to get my shit together #im really processing a lot of trauma and grief atm and i've been ignoring it by distracting myself #but not dealing with it #i'm starting edmr therapy soon #and i feel like it would be better if i didn't have as many distractions in my life right now #im gonna try and fix my sleep schedule #and work on fixing myself up #so yeah #i love you guys so much #<333

[rohirric-hunter]

Everyone has been so mean to Corunir and Golodir lately and I loaded up RangerCamp so I could just hang out and watch them vibe and chill and have a nice time.

Then I spawned in 12 bandit chiefs and for some reason they all had the ice spike spell which instantly crashed my game.

#rangercamp #fallout new vegas is doing that thing where when i open it it instantly minimizes itself #i dont remember how i fixed that with skyrim so. le siiiiiiigh #anyway lothrandir did not eat at his scheduled mealtime #radanir did tho so theres that #i need to add eating sleeping and patrol routines for corunir and golodir #i need to add it other assorted routines so they will all mingle a bit more; right now corunir and golodir just kind of hang out alone #radanir comes up here occasionally but the others do not #i wonder if i can expand the sandboxing area? although i think its the presence of stairs that is keeping them from moving #because i specifically positioned corunir in such a way that the stuff in the lower camp would be in his sandboxing range #and yet he doesnt go down there #stairs :shakefist: #the navmesh is fixed tho and what a weight off my shoulders #anyway i added in a thing where if your health is under 50% candaith will have a special greeting where he advises you to sit down #demonstrating you know a reasonable amount of concern for what 50% health actually entails #unfortunately this line also triggers if you are under 5% health and its sort of ridiculous then #so. idk how to fix that. i could add another condition to the line #i could add a different line that triggers if youre under 10% and set its priority higher #i think i tried to do that actually but it didnt work because i was trying to add a scripted event to it #where like once a day if you triggered the line he would give you a small health potion or something? #anyway scripting in skyrim is horrible and i hate it and all the tutorials out there SUCK #so. i might have to put all this on hold while i do a damn scripting tutorial from the beginning #because no one will just explain how to make npcs hand you things #its all 'were going to learn how to make notifications pop up onscreen and make text boxes!' #why would i want that. skyrim modding tutorial authors #why would i want to do that

[thethingything]

had to lay down. woke up at nearly 7am. got overwhelmed by our sleep schedule once again being fucked because yesterday we actually went to bed at roughly the right time and thought "oh this is great we've fixed it". decided that we're just gonna deal with it and it'll be fine. and then our brain decided that no actually we're gonna have a combination of emotions that's maybe gonna give me another breakdown if I can't figure out how to deal with them but I have no fucking clue what to do with them

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #I fucking hate this. we barely did anything yesterday because we were too fatigued and then slept at a weird time #and we're still too fatigued to do much and we need to do the stuff we'd normally do before bed #and by the time we've done that we'll probably need to nap because we will feel so much worse if we don't #and I don't want to have to try and fit my whole day around trying to fix my sleep schedule but once again what else do I fucking do #and the whole last month has been like this over and over and it's because we got covid in February and have been way more fatigued #so we have to keep laying down and when we do that we just pass the fuck out #also waking up at like 7am (shortly before what should be our bedtime) leads to us feeling really sick #the way we used to feel when we had to get up early for college. like our body can't handle it and makes us feel like shit #and to top it all off the emotional shit I'm dealing with has nothing to do with this and it just another overwhelming thing on top of it #dysphoria and homesickness my fucking beloathed #I just want to be awake at the right time and have a nice stress free day and feel relaxed for once #like we keep trying to take time to relax and set aside time to do something fun and relieve some stress #and we still end up just as stressed and when we decided to spend a whole day just trying to relax we just ended up even more anxious #I'm so fucking tired. just let me sleep at the right time. just let me fucking relax for once in my life

[theyhitthepentagon]

does anyone know how to get myself to eat when the idea of eating anything makes me feel like i have a rock in my stomach. because ive been stressed so badly for the past couple days and if im too stressed i cannot eat

#my truth #ask to tag #delete later #i dont like being public abour this stuff but google does not fucking help breh #um ... youcant eat ... ? ur too stressed ? well....whydont you just.... try to stop being stressed out ...? #why dont you fix ur sleep schedule and um... eat food you like ....? #NOT HELPING BOY! #i think the strat is to just like. slowly eat small portions #but idk #baby stewie need help

[bmpmp3]

why do the most tantilizing and interesting research rabbit holes always come to me exactly 30 minutes before i need to go to bed

#im TRYING to fix my sleep schedule but every time i blink it becomes 1 am #what i experience could probably accurately be called hyperfixation but my dad always referred to it as 'perseveration' #(he and my mom do it pretty intensely too LOL) so i cant help but be attached to that term #it feels accurate. i am locked onto that thing and going constantly forward. perseverating hjfsdjfkds #i need to stop. looking at pictures of animatronics and listening to idol music and go. to bed

[aashiqq]

Even as someone who absolutely hates how the current hip-hop scene in our country works I must say I find it quite alluring

#so you just aint gotta be good at the singing part only you have to put on a show #become appealing to what the people find suitable to their aesthetic #i planned to dive into it by January but apparently ive only been dipping my toes sitting on the shore #cause im too much of a wimp and a huge procrastinator to do it #the wimp part because i cant sing for shit and even if i have 1% of the singing capabilites i *might* have inhereted from my mother #i still wont try to explore it cause “what if someone hears it and laughs?” #plus i absolutely hate how the voice in my head changes whenever i think about hip-hop it become african american bitch im indian stay desi #the indian rap scene is definitely different from the one in the us or other countries #and i should try to maybe sink my knees into it just because it actually provides a better outlet for rhymes than poetry i currently do #aint no one buying a fucking poem collection anymore #and im definitely not writing a novel with this amount of laziness that i have #i cant even fix my sleep schedule for shit #so yea #i cant sing i cant write i cant study #and i want to do all three #not just do i want to be the best #interesting how my dumbfuck brain works sometimes if i had only put so much thought into better things when it was needed #okay not diving into that train of thoughts its 4 am i have to sleep #goodbye shubhratri i hope you didnt read all of it its embarrassing #bye fr

[caramiaaddio]

sometimes autism is fun and sometimes you decide to go to bed at midnight but then at 11:30 you see a post fighting misconceptions on your special interest and then you wake from a fugue stare at 2 am finding you just wrote a college-length essay on nuclear accidents

#I wanted to fix my sleeping schedule :( #the siren call of somebody misunderstanding your special interest #but now I’m tired AND all worked up from my greatest fear #also I guess like. good for me that my greatest fear is no longer failure now it’s ionizing radiation…which I am obsessed with #I’d ask if anybody has any documentary recs but I’ll be honest I’ve probably seen all of them #you can’t imagine what it was like for me when hbos chernobyl came out like #I’d seen every documentary most of which were eh in quality and were mostly about trying to explain the explosion #and then here comes this high budget super long docuseries with dramatic actors playing the entire fallout (no pun intended) of Chernobyl… #it’s not like a kid in a candy store it’s like a kid in a town made entirely of candy #this rant is not at all helping me go to sleep #oh shit I forgot I just drank a bunch of Mountain Dew with dinner yeah that’s probably part of this too #if you need to know anything about me this post can pretty much sum up my whole personality lol

[lemonsweet]

Naver mind cannot draw didn't realize how tired I was .

#i need to fix my sleep schedule .... #i need to try drawing earlier in the day

[lyxchen]

When the light starts coming back and you can hear the first birds outside, that's when you know you've been awake for too long

#i do kind of feel the urge to go outside and just sit there because 5am probably is one of the most peaceful times of the day #it's not dark anymore and there's no other sounds to drown out the birds #it's probably very pretty actually #but doing that would wake my parents up so i'm not gonna do that #but also #i really don't like when this happens to me because it means that i have been awake for way too long #like i also know that because i have a watch in my room but my time perception is kinda messed up so that doesn't mean a lot to me #But hearing those birds is a very clear reminder that i need to go to be Now #idk #i thought i had my sleep schedule a bit more under control because for a while i actually went to bed at midnight every day #but today is like the 5th day in a row where i've only started sleeping after 4am #and it's getting later every day #and idk how to fix this #also being awake at night is really calming so i kinda also don't want to go to bed so early #but maybe get back to 2am #that would be nice #anyways it's 5:30 am now i'll try to sleep #lea's random thoughts

[bekkathyst]

Hey everyone! Tomorrow I will be catching up on all messages and emails 🙏 I just wanted to update you all, and I apologize for keeping some of you waiting. It’s been rather busy and hectic here.

I am heading to bed now so I can wake up early to finish up all my work before I go take pictures in the forest!

#unfortunately this past week I’ve ruined my sleep schedule and I’m really trying to fix it #I need to stop going to bed at 3 in the morning because it just makes me sleep deprived and unable to work correctly 🤦‍♀️

[codgod]

charlie’s streaming qsmp at 8am for me so i’m wondering if i should take a nap first, try and stay up, or just sleep through it again and watch the vod..

#.txt #i’ll probably have a lie down first then try and watch it live #i desperately need to fix my sleep schedule again idk how this keeps happening #why is it so easy for me to throw it out of whack but then so hard to go to bed #at normal times again #it’s 3:35am like what’s wrong with me #i guess i could get a couple hours in before stream #idk i wanna catch A stream live at Some point #charlie hasn’t streamed this much in ages #brazil changed him

[hylianpixl]

man I must be tired tired. just legit considered sending my mom a text post that says "disabled people should get 200 dollars whenever someone suggests exercising more" and adding the caption "pay up 😈"

luckily came to my senses before I had a chance to send it. bc my god. the shit storm that would produce. even if it would be funny (to me) (only me) (for like five minutes) (until the aforementioned shit storm)

#what a wonderful day for text posts #anyway im trying to fix my sleep schedule but i think. i may need. a nap.

[girlwithfish]

sorry for always being sad at 6-7am it will happen again

#💀fkn stupid #i just always start thinking abt sm whenever i try to sleep stuff i need to do stuff i have to do stuff i havent done #everytjing i feel guilty sad unsatisfied with all the stuff i should be doing its stupidd feels like i have like #300 tabs open but in my brain #idk im not that sad rn its just the inherent sadness. the general sadness .. #But #im just gna force myself to stay awake today cuz i have to wake up in less than 6 hrs so ill just stay awake after nd not nap so ill be #tired tonight nd go to bed at a decent time #srsly need to fix my schedule ive been sleeping at 6-8am lately. more close to the end of that range #im soo ashamed lol .