#I had a middle school weeb phase like everyone else

[strawberryteabunny]

for the lolita fashion ask: 1, 11, 19 💗

Thank you for the asks!! ૮꒰ྀི >⸝⸝⸝< ꒱ྀིა

1: how and when did you first get introduced to the fashion?

I don’t know how I first learned lolita existed- probably through anime tbh- but I remember getting into it through 2 things; I was browsing Pinterest for historical costuming ideas and I kept seeing these Rococo and Victorian dresses, except they were super short for ballgowns which really confused me (I didn’t figure out that they were lolita but I thought they were so pretty) and second- I saw a girl wearing lolita on my college campus! I wore casual jfashion at the time (Liz Lisa, etc) but even though I knew what lolita was it felt super out of reach and like something only girls in Japan could wear. But there she was, in real life! It was a magical moment. I wish I could remember what exactly she was wearing or that I’d gotten a chance to meet her again but she completely changed my life! I put two and two together and realized I could wear these Victorian-esque dresses myself 🥰

11: what's one item you have that you would never sell?

This is tough, I have a lot of things I really love… I think probably my IW Renoir OP though. It’s definitely the dress I wear the most (it layers really well with like half my closet too..) and unlike a lot of other pieces I love I wouldn’t be able to sell it for a lot of money either.

Like, I would never want to sell my usakumya or my Milky Chan JSK but if I was in a bind financially they could be worth a couple hundred dollars each so if I had to it would make the most sense yknow?

I’d never want to sell my parasol either as it was a gift from my mom <3 and I have a couple vintage Gunne Sax pieces I’d never sell because with how popular the brand has gotten I’d never be able to replace them 😅 and I wear my Gunne blouses constantly too…

19: do you remember the first dress you ever saw? do you still like it?

Angelic Pretty’s Pompadour OP! I remember coming across it and not even realizing it was lolita, just thinking ‘huh someone made a version of Mme de Pompadour’s gown but they cut it so short, I wonder why’ haha. I’d love to own this dress! I’m a huge fan of the original painting and I think the color combo and design is so pretty. It would be a really nice convention/fancy tea party piece.

#mine #askbox #sadly mystery lolita chan was not in my comm and I never saw her again #just a mystery angel come to give me the gift of lolita lol #I don’t even remember what she wore I just remember it was navy colored #oh and I’d never sell my bunny chan coat! forgot about that #it’s just too cute I can’t let go of bunny chan… #probably also my Chelsea JSK not just because I love it but because it’s damaged too lol #so like she’s only worth anything to me but I love her #I don’t know if I’d say the Renoir OP is my favorite dress but it’s probably the one I’d save first in an emergency lol #it goes with everything and is so comfy #like that would be what I’d wear if I were a cartoon with one outfit yknow #(although I think giving a lolita only one outfit is a crime but w/e) #also yeah I probably found out about lolita through anime sorry lol #I had a middle school weeb phase like everyone else #I don’t think it’s a bad thing to be into lolita fashion and anime either as long as you realize most anime outfits aren’t actually lolita #is there still a stigma about that? there was when I started #also like I mean ‘short’ for pompadour in the sense of compared to floor length #bc I thought it was an attempt at historical fashion and not lolita lol #sorry for the essay haha

[tomyo]

Hi there, I uploaded a lot of comics tonight so I thought I'd just give some info on things no one care about!

So I'm trying to get my eggs in order lately. My therapy comics had kinda been a big practice into being better towards my page layouts in general while also just trying to emotionally vomit hard shite. Admittedly they are also in part just to have a comic portfolio of some sort for event marketing. Tonight was mostly part 1 of working to empty out my backlog but I still have a few left. First what's actually been on the back burner; two 8+ pagers that are kinda foundational to all these since one is a redraw of essentially the first therapy comic and the other was a metaphorical peeling back of the layers of the stages of my mental illness journey to find the start of it. It would've only been those two but tonight I ended up sketching two more 1 pagers, a two pager from when a glass ceiling lamp smashed on my head, and a four pager.

In general my work is in a weird transition, my autobio comics are skewing slightly towards more queer stories and I'm debating taking up another slightly longer project later this year about how even realizing I was gay at 19 felt kinda behind everyone else. There's also been a semi joke story Top Quest which I don't know if I even have the balls to properly work on it. Outside of that my hope is to move onto more fictive stories properly.

Do You Need Love? Is my oneshot I came up with in 2019 thats taken me an ass load of time mostly because I struggle to design the MC fully. The concept is a new customer to a coin op professional cuddling booth; philosophical debate ensues!

Her Tanlines Catch My Eye was supposed to be an even easier one shot because it was August last year and I was gay but my understanding of CSP slowed me down a little on it. It remains to be seen if I'll pick it up again.

'Middle School Zine' is a little bit of a hybrid of a story from each year of being in middle school as a weeb mixed with the 'Naruto Doujinshi' I tried to make in the 8th grade story (it's peak cringe and pick me at points despite being a whole 6 pages).

And then finally is the actual big project I've been sitting on waaaaay too long.

Natural Disaster's Agape was something that's really been sitting around for a while. It's the story of what if someone gave into making every wrong impulsive decision. Gale is a dumb angry lesbian with too much baggage that she doesn't deal with. Her only experience with therapy was being forcibly hospitalized, she self medicates on her friend's meds and drugs, and she causes a lot of unneeded fights. Its hard to sell it beyond that without giving away much more than she gets a girlfriend and they are the worst uhauling, shameless pda ing, couple anyone has ever seen but I can say I'm going for the feeling of a Greek tragedy. NDA has been roughly 40-50% outlined but also always struggled at the character design phase which isn't helped by the fact I keep putting it off for "when I finish all my other shorter projects" which never happens.

As it is, currently it's "a bunch of time sensitive for max effectiveness" charm season that will likely come first but my hopes are that maybe I can finish DYNL in time for Valentine's Day (even though it isn't a love story), maybe try to get the middle school zine done in April and then try to make room to give my attention to NDA the rest of the year (alongside the soul eater plushies which probably mostly just need production back and forth and campaigning to raise the money).

Anyway that's all

[rpf-bat]

19, 27, 33 for the Weird Writing asks?

19. Tell me a story about your writing journey. When did you start? Why did you start? Were there bumps along the way? Where are you now and where are you going?

I started writing fanfic in August 2011. It was right after I came home from summer camp. I’d made a friend at camp who used Fanfiction.net, and it inspired me to make an account myself. ^^;

Initially, I wrote a bunch of weeb shit (Yu Gi Oh, Avatar: The Last Airbender, Fruits Basket, Naruto, etc)

In December 2013, I joined Tumblr. I went through a somewhat cringey Supernatural phase, and ended up posting a couple SPN fics on my FF account.

Then, in late 2015, I got really into Fall Out Boy. In March 2016, I posted my first RPF fic, to my main blog. It was Pete Wentz/Reader. It was set in the Sixteen Candles music video universe (so…Vampire!Pete).

I never actually finished it, because I got some rude comments about how writing fic about Real People was weird and cringey. 😔

Then, in July 2016, I started getting into MCR…and I wrote Party Poison/OC.

Someone I was mutuals with on main - trying to defend me - said, “well it’s not actual Gerard, it’s just a character he played. So it’s not weird haha”

Me in my head: I really want to write about Actual Gerard, though. Fuck. 😰

In October 2016, I created this blog, so I could write MCR reader inserts without shame. ^^;

From October 2016 to February 2021, I was consistently writing MCR fic. That’s an incredibly long time, and I’m so grateful for the friends I’ve made in this fandom. 🖤

But, as winter came to an end, MCR stopped being my special interest. In March 2021, I got really into the anime RWBY, and made an AO3 account, so I could post my RWBY fics there.

Then, In May 2021, I watched Eurovision, and it changed everything.

Mere days after Måneskin won the competition, I started writing a Damiano David/Reader fic. It was multichapter, which was huge for me, because I’d written literally nothing but oneshots for five years straight.

….I didn’t finish this fic, either. 🤦‍♀️

Sometime around August 2021, when Balboa came out, my brain switched special interests again, from Måneskin to Blind Channel.

…and that’s still where it’s at now, a year later. 🤷‍♀️ I don’t know how long this will be my special interest. Or what the next one will be after this. But, I’ve made so many great friends in the BC fandom, too. 💖 So, I hope I stick around for a while.

27. Who is the most stressful character you’ve ever written? Why?

….I had to think hard about this one, because fanfic is rarely stressful for me! I have so much fun with all my characters. 😄

I guess I kind of stressed about Demon!Niko, because that AU was far dirtier and more explicit, than anything else I had written in years. 😳

33. Do you practice any other art besides writing? Does that art ever tie into your writing, or is it entirely separate?

Writing is pretty much it for me ^^;

But, I don’t only write fanfic! Fun fact: I’ve been writing poetry since I was like, nine years old.

During middle school, I started reciting my poetry publicly. I even caught the attention of my local literary magazine, while competing at a poetry slam. The magazine was only published in the county where I lived, but I got to tell everyone I was a Published Author lmao

I also got second place in the school talent show 🥈

I took a break from it for a while, but, when I was 20, my friend convinced me to recite some poems at an open mic night at my university. I got so much applause, I was really blown away 🥰

I wish I could find an event like that where I live now. I really miss it. As for how it ties into my fic writing…I’m able to relate to Niko and Gerard a bit more, because they’re lyricists. Singing on stage and reciting on stage feel a little similar, I guess?

#thank you for your ask! #jfc I got so fucking rambly here 🤦‍♀️

[svtskneecaps]

11:21 am and i woke up 20 minutes ago (for real; i've been waking to my alarm every 9 minutes since 8:30 but i have no class and thus no self control)

and i'm thinkin about all the shit that logic dicates i should be and yet somehow i am not any of those things

#the list so far? #1) a weeb. bc i'm a kpop stan and everyone around me even in hs was a weeb #literally everyone #even before i got into kpop #just. weebs. #even in middle school. hella weebs. #and yet i'm not a weeb lmao #2) never had a creepypasta phase #all of my middle school friends did. deadass all of them. i read one story and couldn't get into it #missed that phase lmao #3) not straight #idk if i give off straight vibes but i've been told i don't quite #there's always a chance i'm bi and have been writing off the gay attraction as 'oh i just want to be their friend!!!' #bc maybe those attractions manifest different for me bc ew men vs every woman i see i'm like SHIT #but anyway i've only landed things i deemed crushes on guys so 😔 looks like i'm straight for now #there was something else but idk what it is #maybde 'a bitch' bc i'm white and lived in a 2 story house on a cul de sac #and if i changed a couple things about my appearance i could look like every mean girl ever #idk i don't remember anymore lmao #the weeb one is the main one idk how i managed to not be a weeb for fuckin 6 or 7 years while surrounded by them #by all accounts it doesn't make sense #i guess i give off weeb vibes bc all my friends since middle school are weebs #not kpop #shut up vic #idk bro lmao and i got into kpop in march of my sophomore year so that's not even a main factor

[scmsdivinecultists]

What your fave SCM god says about you

I read one psychology article and now I’m all knowing. Hope at least one of these points apply to you simps

If your favourite is Leon, you are one of the following:

Youngest child

Outcast or the “popular” kid

Daddy issues

Your childhood dream was either to be royalty or be rich

You hyperfixate to many things

You might say ur not charismatic but you’ve had at least more than 1 person you rejected a love confession to

“You’re wrong, I’m right, shut up.”

You don’t fall in love easily but once you do, you fall hard

You like smug bastards or you have a bondage fantasy

Your favourite voltage game is one of the following: Kissed by the Baddest Bidder, Court of Darkness, Masquerade’s Kiss, or Kings of Paradise

You have fairy lights in your room filled with pictures or posters

You had a massive friend group but at least 5 people have left from then to now

You cling onto memories like they’re a lifeline

You have the latest phone or more than 3 leisure electronics

If your favourite is Scorpio:

You can’t be any taller than 5′6

You probably listen to bands and can’t go anywhere without your headphones

Really creative

Your favourite Shakespeare play was Hamlet or Macbeth

Have had or is going through an emo phase

Hates writing essays

Have 3 best friends max

You have definitely bought albums, posters, or merch of your faves

ur probably a weeb

you’ve broken a bone or you’re very knowledgeable in the medical field/how to harm the human body for some reason

dark humour is the best humour

Your friends are very concerned for you because of said humour

You like watching people play Monopoly bc of the chaos

into so many fandoms that you know the lore of your faves more than you know the material you learn at school

If your favourite is Teorus:

You are an only or youngest child

Spoiled

Daddy/Mommy issues

Abandonment issues

You feel like you fade into the background/don’t contribute much to the group

You feel like you are often forgotten

You’re close with your cousins

You probably have a pet

Taylor Swift or 1D for life

Have definitely threatened to kill or beat someone up despite you intimidating no one

You want to play an important role but you are so not the leader type

You like Ouran Host Club

You like the outdoors

You probably like To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before

Your favourite disney princess is Rapunzel or Cinderella

If your favourite is Huedhaut:

You are definitely a romantic

You’re not an air sign (Gemini, Aquarius, or Libra)

You’re a moron or you make bad decisions and Hue is there to help balance that out

Chances are you read more fanfic than actual books

Your system is 70% caffeine

For some reason you have lots of random trivia

Have you considered therapy for your suppressed trauma?

Dungeons and Dragons fan

You’re really into alcohol or you despise it

Loyalty is the trait you admire most

You want to feel like a sassy and classy bitch but you gave up after 2 days

Your favourite ship trope is enemies to lovers or slow burn

A lot of pent up angst but you hide it 

you put other people > yourself bc you don’t want them to make the same mistakes you did

Why do you have so many memes saved?

Why do you have reaction pictures for everything?

If your favourite is Dui:

You’re probably not into guys

FAKE IT TILL YOU MAKE IT

Either you’re a precious sunshine child or you are the most fucked up human in your friend circle

You have a choking kink

You either take sides in fights or you’re the middle ground

You make lots of threats but no one is acc taking them seriously

You probably are a massive manipulator

You’re psychotic and have violent tendencies 

Your best friend lives far away from you/ you have an internet friend that gets you more than your IRL ones

You say honesty is the best policy but you lie the most

Everyone comes to you for advice but you think you’re the most mentally unstable

You have identity issues and u change ur mind all the time 

Whatever you were as a kid, you’re probably the opposite of that now

If your favourite is Ichthys:

You are attached to the characters with the most trauma

You must not be a clean freak or your room is equally as messy as Ikky’s

Oldest or middle child (either way u have siblings) 

Never got to go to an amusement park as a kid 

Want attention/didn't get enough attention as a kid

You want Ichthys’ parents to adopt u bc they are the family stability you crave

Unresolved trauma and definitely not mentally stable 

You liked dinosaurs as a kid

You had pet fish as a kid and they all died bc you overfed them

Using anything else to escape ur reality 

Cartoons > real life actors

Probably hate seafood or afraid of the sea (ironic as it is)

Nostalgia is your best friend

Hurt/Comfort is your favourite AO3 tag

You collect random shit or you have a memory box

You are the reason child leashes were invented

You got into real dangerous situations as a kid and you’re wondering how you lived through that

Your comfort characters all got it the worst or are dead

If your favourite is Zyglavis:

How are those high expectations treatin ya? 

You either want to get into medical, sciences, or law

When you were younger you got enrolled in extra classes (swimming, piano, ballet, etc)

Your parents encouraged creativity until you got older and they told you to choose a more “realistic” goal

Good grades = everything and you’ll pull all-nighters to finish tasks or assignments

Former gifted student 

The actual smart kid in class 

YOU HAVE SELF ESTEEM/CONFIDENCE ISSUES

80s are not good enough for you or your parents

Overachiever for any reason 

Sleep? What is sleep?

A dom or a brat

You have strict parents or you have had pretty loose rules growing up

You had a lot of friends in grade school and now you have like 4 friends

You are no longer human, you’re just a walking husk of stress

If your favourite is Krioff:

You want to fuck one of Krioff’s family members

You have siblings

A pyromaniac or deathly afraid of fire

Commitment issues

You watch or ur a sports fan

You own an iPhone 6

You’ve ate forbidden items or you’ve thought about it (the fish tank pebbles, erasers, glass, slime, etc)

Everyone thinks you’re the awkward kid but no you’re just shy

You actually like the ocean waves

Once people get to know you, they got a whole thing coming for them

You either suck at driving or can’t drive

A great listener but you don’t feel like you give good advice

Conflict is a no no for you

You definitely had a glow up

You’ve befriended the seniors growing up

You either don’t like kids or you love them

You have a sweet tooth and everyone questions how you are not diabetic with the amount of sweets you’ve consumed

If your favourite is Aigonorus:

You’re either an insomniac or a hypersomniac. Whichever one, you don’t know how much sleep is enough sleep

You’re probably a sub

Commitment or abandonment issues

Desperate for validation and appreciation

touch/love/attention starved

You have a stuffed animal collection or you still have those childhood stuffed animals

You love the idea of love but you are not ready to deal with breakups

You wish you didn’t care but you care too much

Your aesthetic is cutecore

Probably into maid cat boys

Studio Ghibli or Sanrio stan

Comfort > style anyday

You only own sneakers nothing else

If your favourite is Partheno:

You’re definitely not into just guys 

You’re a drama kid and you are here for the tea whether it involves you or not

you have the receipts for everything

You were the one kid that played “family” or “house” every recess

no one knows where you get all your cute shit but it serves

have been suspected of witchcraft or considered the dark arts

Stole makeup from your fam as a kid and played with it

HIDE THE TRAUMA. HIDE THE PAST.

You already have a senior quote picked out

You’re either really horny or you just want to cry over how much you love so and so

“Why do men-”

You really want to own that Partheno doll in that one CG

Your most used social media app is Instagram or Snapchat

Your favourite demon brother from Obey Me is most likely Asmodeus 

If your favourite is Tauxolouve:

Your favourite KBTBB guy is either Baba or Mamo

You’re into music or theatre

Your ideal date is to go to an opera or a museum

You say you like/dislike something but end up changing ur mind later or when you try it out

In your opinion, the music nowadays is just not it

You recently found a receipt from Walmart for something you bought 5 months ago

Anniversaries are important

When making decisions, you pick the worst possible one

Your most expensive clothing items are your shoes or jewelry

You wish you could attend a ball and marry into royalty, like Cinderella

You like the idea of soulmates or string of fate 

Obviously or secretly insecure/self deprecating but you’ll raise all hell if your loved ones talk shit abt themselves

You want your partner to propose first

You like the underrated characters or your favourite characters are unappreciated

If your favourite is Karno you are:

You have childhood trauma, some of you are just not aware of it

You’re the parent of the group

You enjoy ships that have a mom/dad dynamic

Either you’re banned from the kitchen or you’re the one banning people from the kitchen

You were threated with the slipper or you threaten with the slipper

As a kid, you enjoyed Dora or Ni Hao Kai Lan

Your favourite trope is the found family trope

Either you’re an example to your family or you keep getting compared to other kids

An angel around the family but a chaotic bastard with others

You’re probably into some really kinky shit

You like Dangonronpa

Spiritual or religious

Probably had an imaginary friend 

You decided you were gonna turn your life around after reading/watching something and went back to the hot mess you were in 3 days

#admin san #y’all getting fed well today damn #all i wrote was a few points in the server now i made a whole post abt it #so tell me was i right or wrong #im just guessing id be suprised if i called u hoes out accurately #i feel so powerful :) #star crossed myth #scm #scm zyglavis #scm scorpio #scm tauxolouve #scm leon #scm teorus #scm karno #scm krioff #scm ichthys #scm partheno #scm aigonorus #scm huedhaut #scm dui #scm headcanons

[monomono-headcanon-machine]

Celestia refuses to admit that she, like everyone else, was awkward in middle school. Most people believe her and even those who don’t would never guess just how cringy she actually was in middle school.

Celestia: I never had an awkward middle school phase  Meanwhile at Celestia's childhood home: photos of a very awkward edgy weeb Taeko

#celestia ludenberg #danganronpa #character headcanons #headcanon #hc

[bich-the-moss]

50 Questions You’ve Never Been Asked Before

Thank you @agoodafternoon !!!

1. What is the color of your hairbrush?

Black

2. A food you never eat?

Not a fan of most fish

3. Are you typically too warm or too cold?

My hands and feet are always freezing. I’m pretty sure it’s a circulation issue.

4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago?

Trying to enroll in classes for next semester before realizing that I can’t take most of the ones I picked out because my advisor approved my schedule without telling me i needed to complete pre-reqs for them 🙃

5. What is your favorite candy bar?

Three Musketeers

6. Have you ever been to a professional sports event?

I got to see 2 SF Giants games in middle school.

7. What was the last thing you said out loud?

What is this? Weeb Central?

8. What is your favorite ice cream?

Brownie

9. What was the last thing you drank?

white zinfandel

10. Do you like your wallet?

It’s fine. I want to get a smaller one though.

11. What was the last thing you ate?

Carnita quesadilla

12. Did you buy any new clothes last weekend?

No, last time I bought clothes was right before everything shut down for quarantine.

13. The last sporting event you watched?

I think it was the Super Bowl?

14. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn?

White cheddar

15. Who was the last person you sent a text message to?

My pal Tony.

16. Ever go camping?

A few times with my family. We went to Sequoia Park twice when I was 11-12 and then we camped on a beach in San Diego a few years ago.

17. Do you take vitamins?

Collagen pills to help with my hair. It’s not very thick and it falls out easily if I’m stressed. They’re kind of helping though.

18. Do you go to church every Sunday?

Sort of. My family is pretty religious, so I kind of have to go. But my parents go through dry phases where they won’t even think about going to church for a few months. It’s off and on.

19. Do you have a tan?

My mom likes to say I’m the J-Lo of the family. White in winter, Mexican in summer.

20. Do you prefer Chinese food or pizza?

Chinese

21. Do you drink your soda with a straw?

If it’s an open cup with ice, I’ll take a straw.

22. What color socks do you usually wear?

White

23. Do you ever drive above the speed limit?

Always.

24. What terrifies you?

Hurting people

25. Look to your left, what do you see?

My window and curtains

26. What chore do you hate?

Folding laundry

27. What do you think of when you hear an Australian accent?

Outback Steakhouse

28. What’s you favorite soda?

Pepsi

29. Do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?

I like going in and sitting inside.

30. Favorite cut of beef?

Carne asada

31. Who’s the last person you talked to?

My sister

32. Last song you listened to?

Half a Person by The Smiths

33. Last book you read?

Just Kids by Patti Smith

34. Favorite day of the week?

Thursdays are underrated

35. Can you say the alphabet backwards?

Yes

36. How do you like your coffee?

Bold but sweet

37. Favorite pair of shoes?

My docs for casual stuff. Chelsea boots for things I want to dress up for.

38. At what time do you normally go to bed?

Who knows anymore? 1-4 am?

39. At what time do you normally get up?

9:30-11 am

40. Sunrise or sunset?

Sunset

41. How many blankets are on your bed?

1, it’s too hot for 2

42. Describe your kitchen plates?

I have two sets. Circular ones that come is purple, red, orange, and green, and square plates that are all teal.

43. Do you have a favorite alcoholic beverage?

White wines and rosé are fun. Triple Sec is good too.

44. Do you play cards?

Nope

45. What color is your car?

Black

46. Can you change a tire?

I’ve never had to, but I think I can figure it out

47. What is your favorite state/province?

I like California even though everyone in my area hates living here lmao

48. Favorite job you ever had?

I was a barista up until everything shut down. I hated most of the customers, but the actual work was fun

49. How did you get your biggest scar?

I have two noticeable scars that are about the same size so I’ll just talk about both.

The scar on my thigh is from walking through some bushes. We were at a barbecue, it was getting late, and I had to carry my little brother to the car. I took a short cut through the bushes on the side of the house and scraped my leg on a stray branch. It wasn’t bad at all, but still left a scar. It’s faded a lot over time too, so it’s down to about 3 inches.

The scar on my ankle is just a bad shaving accident. I managed to take a chunk out because I was too busy singing Young Americans to pay attention.

50. What did you do today that made someone else happy?

A friend of mine is really touch starved. She didn’t get much physical affection growing up and she has an aversion to touch now. She got drunk and sick last night/this morning, so I came over to help her. I asked if I could rub her back while she was throwing up and she was fine with it. Then at one point she said “this is the most anyone has ever touched me. It’s nice.” She hugged me for the first time when she started to sober up

I’m too lazy to tag everyone so if you see this, consider yourself tagged <3

#tag game #long post

[deesselouvre]

Tagged by @v-v-e-g-a !!! ♡♡♡♡♡

Tag #1

1. Icon: Beehunter from Arknights

2. My content: This is my main/personal blog so it's mostly just reblogs of funnyman jokes, Helpful References/Tips, and interests I'm either too lazy or not enough into to make a sideblog for (JJBA, Animal Crossing, Castlevania [debatable], etc.)

3. Letter colour: I'm assuming this is blog title color so--white.

4. Header: a screencap of Invader Zim saying "PHASE TWO" but instead it says "HOES MAD". I need to change it tbh but idk to what.

5. Url: I love vampires AND thigh high socks,,,,Could I Make It Anymore Obvious

6. Blog title: From one of those phrase/word generators I forgot why I used it, but I really liked the phrase even though I'm really bad at poetry...

Tag #2

Who were you named after?: I Vibed(tm) with Maid Marian from the Disney Furry Robin Hood Movie as a kid but I wanted it to be more gender neutral so now I'm Mr. Mosbey ☆ Ellis is similar enough to my deadname so I can get onto family and the like for "forgetting"

Last time you cried?: I don't have a concept of time so I don't remember so,,,,,maybe a week or two?

Do you like your handwriting?: I guess? It's pretty a looking blend of print and cursive but it can be hard to read if you're reading it for the first time :(

What is your favorite lunch meat?: FRIED BOLOGNA. If cooked doesn't count idk honey ham or turkey I guess ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Longest relationship?: 2 years. Don't Ask.

Do you still have your tonsils?: Yup.

Do you bungee jump?: Nope!

What is your favorite kind of cereal?: Honeycomb, w/ French Toast Crunch as a close second. But tbh as long as its not bland like cheerios or corn pops/puffs I'll live.

Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?: I DESPISED tying my shoes as a kid idk why so I always slip mine off.

Do you think you’re strong willed?: Not particularly, I think? I'm a people pleaser but I'm also stubborn as hell so....

Favorite Ice Cream?: Birthday Cake!!! French Vanilla or Wedding Cake is good too--anything really REALLY vanilla-y is top notch.

What is the first thing you notice about a person?: Their smile and I guess like...idk how to put it....their Build? Like if they're lanky with broad shoulders or tall 'n buff or short 'n stocky, stuff like that.

Football or baseball?: I only attend football games for the Marching Band halftime shows

Favorite donut?: Anything filled with cream or custard tbh. Maple-flavored dunkin donuts donuts are good too, though.

What are you listening to?: A lot of Vouge Remixes/Music apparently? Like DJ Boyfriends and stuff. I like high-energy beats.

If you were a crayon, what color would you be?: A deep jewel tone that's labelled "peacock" but you can't really tell if its a green or blue until you use it.

What is your favorite smell?: Vanilla Bean Noel from Bath and Body Works, Honeycomb, and Harry's Pomegranate-Spice Blend Soap (really specific I Know). Hairspray always smells really sweet to me idk why people say they hate the smell???

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?: My D&D group (5 HOURS!)

Hair color?: Too dark to be blond, too light to be brown. I wanna dye it either that jewel toned blue again or black, but I don't feel like buying hair dye rn.

Eye color?: Brown brown brown! FUCK what anyone says brown eyes are the BOMB my entire family has either green or blue eyes so I've spent TOO LONG self-depreciating over that shit.

Favorite food to eat?: Lemon Cake w/ mascarpone is soooo good. Nothin tops Hoppin' John with Wild Rice though.

Scary movies or happy ending?: Happy Endings. I'm not (that) much of a sap but Scary Movies sometimes really work up my anxiety :(

Last movie you watched in a theater?: Once Again, time is an illusion but I think Frozen 2? NO it was Birds of Prey! Loved it.

What color shirt are you wearing?: A black State Marching Band Championship hoodie.

Favorite holiday?: Halloween by default since a good 80% of holidays are boring.

Beer or wine?: I've only had (dessert) wine but I didn't really like it so neither I guess. I don't see myself liking beer anyways.

Night owl or morning person?: Night Owl but God likes to punish me so I always wake up at 6/7/8 even when I don't need to anyways.

Favorite day of the week?: Tuesday or Friday? Time isn't real, dude.

Favorite animal?: BATS BATS BATS!!! I have a plushie of a Mariana Flying Fox I got from the zoo as a wee kid and I WUV THEM their name is Mango :3c. I also like peacocks because of their colors, & hummingbirds because they remind me of my grandmother and how they zip around!

Do you have a pet?: 3 cats (Meimei, Rico Suavé, and my dearest darlingist loudest witch cat Mina) and 3 dogs (Emmy, Jake, and Gucci "Chupi" Chupacabra).

Where would you like to travel?: Japan (b/c I'm a weeb and I've wanted to since middle school), but tbh visiting just about anywhere would be cool, especially in Europe just because I keep slacking on language learning. My family vacations for Food mainly so anyplace with good, different grub than Southern Landlocked USA is 👌👌👌👌.

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I never know who to tag in these ddgdkddjkskabcksbals uhhhhhh @binch-im-stressed @screamingredpanda @6fangs @foolishrats @wondertainment & any mutuals or ppl who constantly interact because I'm writing this in my notes app and never use desktop tumblr so I can't really keep track of my mutuals like everyone else (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)

#DON'T WORRY @ MUTUALS I SEE YOU I JUST HAVE SHIT MEMORY #There's also ppl who constantly like/rb stuff from me and idk if i follow their sideblog or somethin' & I'm too nervous to tag you all #BUT I SEE YOU #persephone-boi.....ratarcade............zozzles.....I See U and tag u but like.....telepathically....lowkey...only if u wanna

[screamoshaymin]

this is going to be an unusual post for this blog, but i feel like it needed to be made at some point. i've discussed bits and pieces of this whole thing on discord and other places, but i feel like it would help to know the whole thing for context and insight.

the whole thing is below the cut, but i'm putting a few content warnings in place -- emotional and mental abuse, racism, suicidal tendencies and religious extremism warnings ahead.

i might have mentioned being a foster child in the past in one way or another. specifically, i lived in Tennessee for the grand majority of my life (i only moved to Minnessota with my now-fiance sometime in May of 2017, so less than a year before i made this post) and i was removed from my biological mother sometime after i turned 13 years old. when i got to the first of my foster homes, i was still very upset, which i imagine would be normal for someone who is torn from their whole life and thrown into a new one. there was a point where i made an attempt to strangle myself with a belt (i was barred from using belts shortly after, which was understandable). these people had two young toddlers who i'm pretty sure weren't disciplined at all. they would literally break into my room (which i was advised to lock the door to, but that didn't help anyway) to steal my things. i told the parents what happened, and the toddlers even admitted to doing it, but i was told that i was a liar -- despite the admission from the kids. shortly after, i was talking to the father in the home and listened to him use racial slurs in the context of being a police officer. i was removed from them shortly after.

this next home is where the majority of my stories come from in regards to foster care, mainly because i was forced to live with her for three years.

i came to her house late one night and was given dinner and a bed, which was nice at first. later on, i asked her if it was okay if i liked Pokemon (which was more of a self-confidence thing i did since i was made fun of for liking pokemon before coming into care) and she told me that it was objectively demonic and she would not allow it in her home. i took that as her not really showing any interest and decided that i would keep my enthusiasm on such a thing to myself. things got way worse however.

a week after i moved in, i was coming home from school (something related to that later)and was told that she went into my room, took my CD collection, 'listened' to the music (i doubt she took the time to even do that) and confiscated all of the CDs she considered inappropriate or 'depressing.' (essentially, all of them). i tried to do something suggested to me by a therapist in stressful situations -- the basic "breathe in, breathe out" action. she screamed at me to stop. she screamed at me to stop making an effort to not lash out. (years later, i never got any of my CDs or anything else she took from me back. i'm convinced she burned it all.)

later on, i was coming back from a dentist appointment where i made a joke (granted, it wasn't really appropriate anyway) involving the weight of the lead vest they put on me to take an x-ray. this foster mother was a bus driver, so normally i'd have to sit on a bus for three hours every early morning and afternoon after school anyway. she never mentioned it around the other kids on the bus, but after that last one got off the bus she started dragging me to the bus assistant and literally using the phrase "i wanted to wring his (my) neck!" at this point, i broke down to tears (again, she screamed at me to stop) and didn't even make an effort to keep this between us.

she had a tendency to tell everyone she could when and what exactly i do wrong (or 'wrong' depending on what happened.)

later on, she completely barred me from ANY computer use whatsoever. she did this because i was in my weeb phase and read a lot of manga online, including pokemon. she never mentioned this earlier on, but she started condemning anime and manga as "demonic propoganda" and even referred to the characters (or even the ones who looked similar at all) as "//THOSE// people," somehow giving her the justification to take even more of my things away from me. it escalated to me being unable to improve in my drawing because i would never be allowed to practice properly because my characters looked too "demonic" for her.

during my time at middle school, she tried to essentially force the administrators to prevent me from using computers at all, to the point where i needed to get a /teacher's/ permission to do a REQUIRED project before i could start with everyone else.

later on even further, i was brought into a therapy session with both my therapist and my foster mother. keeping it short, we argued for an HOUR about how i referred to Justin Bieber as a "14-year old pimp" (this was around the rise in his popularity) and they interrogated me in trying to get information on a LITERAL TEENAGE PIMP i supposedly hired for my mother.

i forgot to mention that this was something i wrote in a letter to my mother, which i was under the impression that NO ONE other than her would read. needless to say, i wasn't allowed to send her letters anymore.

come christmas, i now had a foster brother. he was alright and had definitely been through more traumatizing and horrible stuff than i had (he had night terrors every night when he moved in, it was that bad). he had mentioned that he wanted a Wii for christmas. i mentioned the same thing, since we both had saved money from our state-appointed allowances in order to spend on ourselves every once in a while, so we could buy it for ourselves if we wanted to. she would tell me that she didn't want me to get a Wii because it could get on the internet. i thought, "fine. i don't need a wii anyway, i have other things to keep me entertained." later i asked about a Nintendo 64. she said the same thing: i can't get one because i wasn't allowed on the internet. i tried to convince her that it couldn't go online (i owned one before i was brought into custody, so that's how i knew) but she was incredibly stubborn on her decision. eventually i caved and asked for a Sega Genesis plug-n-play console, which she had no qualms about from what i could tell.

on christmas day, we opened our presents, and guess what i got? an obviously poor-quality rip-off Wii plug-n-play system. it was so small i could fit in in my hand, but she was somehow convinced it could play retail wii games as she got me TWO physical Wii games that same day. my foster bro? he got an actual, official Wii.

later on, i managed to find a way to use the internet without her immediately finding out -- through a PSP she bought at a yard sale. i started using Facebook to chat with friends as well as i could on a PSP and even got to catch up with mom. she eventually found out from my DCS worker that i was on facebook, and she was not happy at all. she then started going through my closet, my backpack, my clothing drawer and EVEN MY GARBAGE to find more reasons to be upset (i don't know what she was thinking i would be hiding)

up to this point, i had explicitly said MULTIPLE TIMES to both her AND MY CASEWORKER that i was not happy or felt safe in that house. every time i did, i was told "you don't just say you're not happy, that's not how it works. you're staying here whether you like it or not." and even after this happened, and i had told my caseworker about her LITERALLY GOING THROUGH MY GARBAGE, my caseworker still sided with her. my caseworker still sided with this manipulative, emotionally abusive right-wing nutcase and told me that she would "absolutely" tell her to invade my privacy like that.

a day or two later, a final meeting was held, where this woman told everyone in the room that my mother started STALKING her after i was chatting on facebook with her, convinced that she was standing in her driveway after apparently grabbing her IP address through me and using that to find my location. after that, i was removed. she had all of my stuff packed already. she acted like i was in the wrong by actively "rebelling" against her.

that's the last story i have on this. i was moved to another home, where i was happier and given more freedom in my interests. i then moved to live with a same-sex couple who planned on adopting me, which didn't work out and led to me moving again, but for the last time before aging out of the system altogether.

that was a whole heaping doozy of a story. i feel like the kind of things i went through in the foster care system really warped me in a way that i'm now a broken, depressed young man who feels irredeemable as a result of being emotionally abused under the guise of "Christian morals" and "good values" for years. if you can take anything away from this, its that the foster care system is a broken, biased mess and we should work to prevent stories like this from happening again.

by the way, the nutjob cyberphobic conservative is still allowed to take care of foster kids. blech.

#abuse warning #suicide warning #racism mention #religious extremism warning #screamo babbles a lot #dcs #foster care #foster parents #anime backstory? lol

[band-aidbunny]

11 facts

@scribbledstars @goodnightpunks both tagged me in this oh gee

1.) Im an 19-year-old in college but if you asked anyone to guess my age they 9/10 would say 12-14

2.) I’m an obsessive, heavily anxious, Clumsy Bisexual, hoarder who cant spell

3.) i have a box of dead bugs in my room because I like bugs... no one else cares for that box aside me tho...

4.) Everyone but my mom in my imidate family looks like my dad. we are like clones, blonde, greenish-eyed clones.

5.) I took dance for 6 years because in middle school I wanted to choreograph burlesque and strip shows 

6.) lowkey health issues including but not limited to

horrible eczema that causes a whole mess of issues including not being able to wear any makeup, and my own sweat hurts me. a Bleeding disorder called VWBD, Back pain, Seasonal insomnia (This one is Questionable) , and at the tender age of like 7 i had scarlet fever. the perk of all this though is i don’t really feel pain from any of these things anymore becuse i’m so used to them. 

7.) when I was like 5, my favorite games were “My Little Pony friendship gardens” and “Battlefield Vietnam”

8.) Despite being in Dance for 6 years i cant do the splits but i do have a double joined middle finger and legs that can bend up to my butt from watching to much tv in that position

9.) I have a bad tendency to arrive to fandoms to late...so i miss the hype and just obessive over the things sometimes even years after its been out... this gets annyoying when the fandom is dead. 

10.) In middle school and high school my fashion sense changed so drastically  i went from

- mostly black, Trench coat/Large black sweater,  long skirt, with anime bag

-Full blown anime weeb

-Blazers and button up shirts and tight pants

-black with hints of color, long skirts

-Discount pastel thrift store aesthetic 

now im just a mix off all those things but the blazer phase 

11.) Im a /SLUT/ for Aesthetics Making them clams my anxiety and movies with really specific aesthetics are like my favorite thing... 

Im only tagging @memetownshowdown becuse he is my son

#dont cry over spilt milk #i laughed making this #becuse i dont know how yall fallow me #when im like this

[pajnloki]

5 // hello growth

Okay as I was already hinting about writing about this topic which is really important to me, I’ll be starting now. And just a short disclaimer: its going to be very personal and emotional so yah lets go.

We were three. Three teenagers: Each one of us living a different life. In our daily life we saw different people, experienced different situations and we didn’t see each other that often. But the moment we went home we were connected. It sounds ridiculously corny right now but that’s just how it was. It’s weird that in our generation it’s so easy to communicate with people living miles away from you but that’s also a beautiful thing, right? I do know about all those technology criticism but we’re evolving and it’s a process that can’t be stopped anyways and we as humans have always been striving for education, development and improvement. Anyways, back to the actual topic, which is about friendships and everything else connected to that. We were three. It’s an uneven number that alone is already posing kind of a problem, lol.   I used to be friends with both separately before we formed or three-man squad. We were like friendship goals lol and I was always so glad that I had those two to talk to. But it wasn’t always like that. I often felt really left out and just as if I was third-wheeling, kind of. Yeah, I often felt like that. As if that one friend liked the other and more and didn’t care about me as much as they did about the other one. It was sad obviously but I just shrugged it off but that feeling always lingers and it’s always in your unconsciousness. However, I was so young and naïve back then that these things really hurt me on a different level. Like it was fr bad because now I’ve changed and these kind of things like “oh they like them more and I’m being left out” … these kind of things really don’t matter me as much as before or like I wouldn’t be hurt by it anymore and I kind of learned and realized how I should be dealing with it the right way. Basically I grew up and matured a lot to be honest. Like I cant even think about my old self because I used to be so innocent and simply a crybaby, which didn’t cry that much but was always on the edge of lol. My past self who was dealing with that feeling of being left out didn’t really know how to handle it. She didn’t know whom to tell her worries and she was feeling hopeless. I was experiencing a situation like that in elementary school and in the beginning of middle school already so I was kind of traumatized. Because you gotta understand I was literally just trying to have some friends but in the end they were like excluding me. And it was ended up being like that I was w h y. QUESTION MARK QUESTION MARK QUESTION MARK. Basically. It wasn’t until grade 7 when I found a real friend. And she was pretty much my friend or the only one I was able to reach out to in daily life. I was young and introverted somehow. My younger self was extremely in the “I only need one friend” mode so I was only friends with that one girl from 7th grade to like 10th grade. For these whole three years I only had one close friends, but I did have some other viet friends as well. The school system in Germany is kind of confusing because we’re in classes until grade 10. So my school had classes from A to D with 30 people in each class. But the moment you get into grade 10 the classes melt together into one big one and from there on it depends on which subjects you’ve chosen. That means that mostly have different people in different subjects. It was a whole new experience for my introverted ass. But like I wasn’t your stereotype intro-girl. I’m pretty open-minded and I can talk to people really easily it’s just that making close friends is hard. Just talking in school and joking around is totally okay though. So yeah in 10th grade I had to opportunity to talk to many different people and I started bonding with lots of them because I think I’m a pretty fun person to talk to ;) like I was always really up to date with all the memes and slangs and stuff because I used to be in lots of fandoms (hints: weeb, kpop lol bye kms) and I just knew the trends and stuff. And it’s also important to understand that I literally had one friend and she also only had me in school so we were like an inseparable duo. <3 And we weren’t one of the cool kids because I didn’t own a phone till I was like 15 years old or so and I never actually got to get close to the cool kids. All the cool kids from each class were friends which each other, considering the fact that friendships outside of one owns class wasn’t really common. So during class 10 all those cool people and the popular kids were like THE SQUAD everyone wanted to be friends with. I also went through a lot of changes during that time. I used to look really nerdy and my mum mostly bought my clothes but my style and look changed drastically. It was a sort of glow up.. probably. I’m not really sure but I definitely started to look way cleaner and just had a better sense of style. It was the start of me being interested in fashion and all that stuff and I just generally speaking developed a conscious were I started to think way more mature and I literally grew so much that year. I mean I was always an open-minded person who had a lot of different interests: I had phases where I liked kpop and anime and gaming and stuff. So also had discord and was talking to like all the guys so I got pretty close to them and I started started to get closer with some other girls but was never really part of that cool squad. I never saw the need to join them anyways so I was okay with me having my two friends and discord friends or so lol. It wasn’t until 11th grade when I really started to get close to people. As I already said before it’s really hard for me to bond with people on a closer level unless we have a lot of common interests but I was able to bond some. I mean there were already some people I was close to since my class but we weren’t like THAT close to the point where we would meet up in our freetime every day or so. It was just sometimes u know. But then I went to a trip because of the IB and I started to become really close to that one girl and we clicked immediately. Through her I kind of got into that cool squad and I already knew most of the people in there because some of them were in my class and they liked me. I became a like “squad member” somehow because my one friend (the one since grade 7) also started to get close to different people and we both kind of found new people and so we kind drifted apart BUT LIKE NO. It wasn’t as if we stopped talking but it was just that we kind of got into different squads. I was extremely sad because it was always just us two but then we grew up and met other people. It’s normal of course but I did feel a tad emo. Grade 11 was really the turning point of me and my friendships. I kind of met tons of new people and got close to some and dropped some but in the end I found my real close friends like my real squad. My current squad consists of me and three other girls. And all three of them used to be in my old class. We already knew each other and also met each other a few times but wasn’t as if we were that close. But it’s important to note that this big cool squad’s actually pretty toxic and shady but we weren’t really supportive of their behavior of judging others and their doings when we’re all flawed and all doing mistakes and having other values. So we as the “supportive” ones grew very very close and now we’re like the best friends (not a big fan of that word but that just kind of describes how much I love them). The three of them were already really close before so it was pretty much just me being the new one but It was never awkward we clicked SO WELL. And we’re still extremely close and we love each other and it’s just so nice when we’re together because there’re only good vibes which is not so often with that “cool” squad since they’re all really toxic and started to realize that the moment I got close with them. I did try to change them but it didn’t actually work out so I try to tell them when they’re being rude but I just distanced myself a bit. YES. And I already explained. 11th grade was WEIRD. And it changed me and made me the person I am know. Ofc every single year is influencing me but I feel like grade 11 really had the biggest impact on my values and morals and how I want to be treated and how I want to treat others. I mentioned it in the beginning that I had two friends and they were living in different cities. We met each other in like 2015 and were still going strong. Kind of. We always hung out on discord and pranked others and we always met each other in each other’s cities and it was nice. But I started to feel left out as I explained and also said that it may be due to my low self-esteem back then which didn’t come back until grade 11! So when my self-esteem rose again I knew how I wanted to be treated and how I want to feel. If people make me sad and cry I can’t call those my friends and one of them was just making me feel worse day after day and meeting after meeting until someday when I decided: no more. I couldn’t deal with it anymore and I started to ignore both of them because I didn’t what to do and how to do it but I needed space. And time to think about our friendship. I only had a problem with one of them but it felt wrong to just “attack” one. I was scared and I felt sorry. I started to ignore them for like a week and they were hella worried cause they obviously didn’t know what was going on especially since they both live somewhere else. And when I felt really to speak up I told that friend what was bothering me and how hurt I was. I talked and I cried because it was really stressing me out. I also tried to say in a reAAALLY nice way to not offend her in any way. But it didn’t work out I guess because she then answered with a long ass text and implicitly said I was at fault. It kind of escalated and in the end we couldn’t talk about it because she blocked and deleted me everywhere. And there was still the other friend who was in the middle of us. She was like between us and didn’t know to handle the situation as well since she was friends with both of us. So it got awkward and it took us both  quite some time until we grew close again and now we’re stronger than ever. The two of us. She still feels awkward telling me about her meeting the other friend but im okay with it. However yesterday she suddenly sent me a voice message where she was at a amusement park with the other friend and they both talked. And I heard her voice and I felt like a clown. Her sending me that felt really really weird and it was just uncomfortable but I couldn’t tell her because I didn’t want that whole situation to happen again so now im here feeling hella confused and exhausted. Idek what to write anymore because im so dead inside so im just gonna leave this draft here like I didn’t even check for correct spelling and stuff so yolo. Just wanted document how much ive changed during the last few years and how proud I am of me actually for finally understanding my worth.

#pajnapple5

[biggerb0at]

I gotta give this off my chest

from the makers of “anime was a mistake” brings you “cute dorky bf” in other words someone who spent their time only on 4chan and tumblr for all of their weeb interactions so much so that they couldn't get a meme right where you could even see political opinions in it which 4chan does a lot of the time. 

its as if they never interacted with anyone who enjoyed the shows that they watched or had any passion for watching it that it inspired them to make fanart of it, or do something. No its as if this guy porky only had interaction with those who critic the show at every giving episode who would only watch it because”haha boobz are funny, look I made an r/animememe that’s been posted since the dawn of time that everyone is sick of (oh look that exactly what you put in your meme I guess you don't interact with people who enjoy things)”. 

and then instead of taking his other mutuals opinion about how dog shit that meme is or how it hurts them since anime had an important impact on their life that I don’t wanna be insulted hell “insecure haha he hates himself” so what at least I was able to get out of that phase by being able to talk about my likes in anime and find out people would have the same taste but I guess yall are still in the phase of continuing to argue and make fun of people, like in middle school.  

but hell my opinion doesn't matter because for some reason that only you know and I could take a wild guess at why you took a wack at your old mutual on this site where a lot of people love to hate him that they will jerk you off for instulting him, maybe that's why hes the only person you replied to about that meme so you could soften the blow “see guys if hes mad then this meme is good because we only judge popular peoples take on things”, you know who I'm talking about trillizard and everyone else was called a trilldrone despite talking before he did hell every other take never talked about you doing this to impress others and once that happend you had to think every elses take was just that you jerk every response was only to him, oh other what about mutuals you didn't give a fuck about hurting their feelings or anything just who the hell are you because you should have known its impact on your mutuals before making it “oh hey my mutuals love this x that they splurge in it well time to get the baseball bat to hit them with and then ignore them”.

you picked and choose your response but if you choose not to respond from mutuals and only one person to make yourself look good (because everyone knows that his response was a galaxy brain one) well then you should be mature enough to know what happens and everyone else's feelings about ignoring them, by now I thought ok I could pass that instance up so you got bad takes once in a while, and then I saw you use that response on Twitter and oh wow this mutual actually thinks this way huh hes never gonna be nice about my interests unironically and is just gonna play me as a fool and hurt my feelings and never respond. and look at all this I had pent up inside me that I guess one response ticked off so because of that it needed to be said, because, despite everything you never considered people who disagreed with that meme or didn't also insult trill, I guess this is what happens on here.

#I could go into detail about anime for me but I dont wanna put a trigger warning on this post I am serious about that #sorry but if you keep acting like that I cant be friends #oh why is this a page long well jeez you try to shorten your feelings you cant every single word has to come out #ive made new friends with my anime interest they dont act like you even with their ups and downs