#I am a tiny wind up robot pls put me on a nice floor and face me in a direction I am currently facing the sky

[ko-eko-ev-go-ms]

Me internally: If I don’t do things or sleep the next day won’t happen or exist

The next day: it is 7:42am

#thoughts #oni talks #there’s a better format for this but idk fuck man #I haven’t had a proper meal or slept or finished my work for today #and I have so much to do today too #and for the rest of the week #and yesterday was a weird weird dnd day filled with anger #also I’m scream inside at all of life and existence #and I haven’t found a way to obtain stimulation I crave so I can’t do anything bc everything is boring and/or stressful #and also if I start anything fun I can’t really enjoy it bc I know I gotta either do smth else or it’ll take time and effort or #it reminds me that time exist and after I do whatever it is I have to do things and this is oof #everything blurs together as I hazily try to rebuild structure #structure that I spent over a year Lowkey more building all at once while also trying not to implode #and as I have learned apparently I don’t function without structure which ofc makes making the structure itself difficult #also I didn’t even finish creating the structure I had originally a #and also I then hve to immediately throw it away and completely rebuild and then probably again but I don’t know when or where and AAAAAAHHH #I am a tiny wind up robot pls put me on a nice floor and face me in a direction I am currently facing the sky