#Holyshit Im alive lmao

[askspookyfox]

Wow, my artist, my guy, thanks for a whole lotta nothing for 3 years. It's a'ight. It's fine. Cool cool cool cool. Don't worry my sinners, I do still exist! Imma try to make plans to make a dramatic return and have an explaination for everything, but the timing just isn't quite right. Those of you who still watch this blog, I 'presh you. ✌️ Until then, I hope y'all been taking good care of October in my absence (and by 'good care', I mean annoy the heck outta her, heh).

Mod Mutt: Heeeeeyyy.... So... 'Bout droppin that ball that I mentioned in my last post... Three years, huh? My bad, y'all. 😅

As it was stated in that post, I had some serious financial priorities that I needed a second job that demanded a lot of my free time (thanks student loans, always a blast whenever you sap up a third of my paycheck every month 👍👍👍). As of 2023, even though some things are new in my life, I’m still technically in the same situation as I was back in 2020. It’s really hard to have the energy and motivation to do art in general and when I do, I usually couldn’t do more than a sketch before I tuck it away and don’t finish. I’m knee deep in a burn-out, stuck in a cycle of working two jobs and taking care of adulting shit on my weekends. 

Honestly, I’m tired of living this way. 

I feel like a shell of who I used to be, giving my life to work. I miss the creativity that comes with art and telling stories. I adore watching my best friend do their October’s blog, year after year, and every year, I get the inspiration from them but lack the time to jump back into it. Such as this year, it’s just too late as we only have a week left in the month. 

However, if you’ll have me, as a New Year’s resolution for next year, I want to refocus back to art and sharing Spook’s stories and help Night push October’s storyline along with Spook’s help. If this means having to work on Spook posts once a week every week leading up to October 2024, then so be it! I can’t guarantee anything, I can’t make promises as life do still take priority, but I do have a lot of sketches and answers to your questions sitting in my computer, waiting to be completed, so who knows what you’ll see! For right now, please accept my apologies for literally disappearing on everyone in 2020. I want to do better and I want to bring Spook and all of his scary toothy sassiness back to you. Thank you to those who’s still around, I hope that you’ll come back in 2024.

Until then, stay spooky!

#Spook #Mod Mutt #Mod Mutt Talk #Holyshit Im alive lmao #Sorry bout that #Thank you for your patience #If yall are still here lmfao #Seriously though #thank you #Spook is real mad #Time to buckle down and start workin #Love yall

[raideo]

Good news: had the best talk with mom I think I’ve ever had and was in a receptive mood not to let the occasional stupid thing she said ruin it

Bad news: I’ve been through such a fucking crazy emotional roller coaster, so much trauma, and loss of sleep, that I’m starting to hallucinate and get CRAZY anxiety. I’m hearing noises that aren’t there and feeling things touching me and seeing stuff out of the corner of my eye, and every single time I feel like I’m gonna have a FUCKING heart attack.

#jfc #good night holyshit #im waffling between wanting to go swimming in the middle of this insane thunderstorm because i feel so alive #and wanting to crawl in a hole and hide and pretend i dont exist #i think this is the most fucked up my head has ever been #illbe ok i just need sleep #to the lizard overlords controling the computer simulation i live in #please dudes im begging you #ive had enouh lmao #anxiety #mental health #to anyone reading my vent posts and thinking: stop being a drama queen there are people who have it worse than you: 1 you dont know me #2 i know that and pain and loss is not a contest #if it sucks it sucks idk what else to say #3 fucka you