#illbe ok i just need sleep

[raideo]

Good news: had the best talk with mom I think I’ve ever had and was in a receptive mood not to let the occasional stupid thing she said ruin it

Bad news: I’ve been through such a fucking crazy emotional roller coaster, so much trauma, and loss of sleep, that I’m starting to hallucinate and get CRAZY anxiety. I’m hearing noises that aren’t there and feeling things touching me and seeing stuff out of the corner of my eye, and every single time I feel like I’m gonna have a FUCKING heart attack.

#jfc #good night holyshit #im waffling between wanting to go swimming in the middle of this insane thunderstorm because i feel so alive #and wanting to crawl in a hole and hide and pretend i dont exist #i think this is the most fucked up my head has ever been #illbe ok i just need sleep #to the lizard overlords controling the computer simulation i live in #please dudes im begging you #ive had enouh lmao #anxiety #mental health #to anyone reading my vent posts and thinking: stop being a drama queen there are people who have it worse than you: 1 you dont know me #2 i know that and pain and loss is not a contest #if it sucks it sucks idk what else to say #3 fucka you