#Four sure doesnt know

[kikker-oma]

Poor Four, he really has no idea what's happening to him 🥺

#poor boy is confused and hurt #wondering if this is a dream or reality #are thes mist people here to help or hurt? #Four sure doesnt know #hes just wondering where this wound came from #and where the heck did his sword just go? #linked universe #linkeduniverse #lu fanart #lu four #lu boys #tw blood

[randomminty]

On break..

#im on a roll tpday i love you johto #pokemon #art tag #gym leader koga #champion lance #wait kogas e4 #elite four koga #elite four bruno #elite four karen #elite four will #hgss #lance is getting constant texts from silver asking to battle and for battling tips hehe #and sometimes random insults #karen is kind of silly to me. i think as an e4 member she makes sure she looks composed and cool but she actually p laidback #and i see will as the youngest + less experienced and is salty abt it. and feels like he needs to prove himself #he doesnt hes already part of the e4 everyone knows hes strong but he wants to anyway #and burnos also silly. rage manjū #im devolving into headcanons im gonna post this before i get carried away

[love-3-crimes]

HOLE-DWELLING HOLE-DWELLING HOLE-DWELLING

#i sure hope the video doesnt get messed up #made this on procreate dreams btw! #im so cool that i didnt need tutorials #i totally didnt crash the app like five times because i kept messing with it #chonny jash #angelo tag #i think this took me like four days? #idk i kept getting distracted with school stuff #hello person still reading the tags #shh dont tell anyone but its my birthday today #i only celebrate w family so u are the only one that knows #okay byeeee

[mariatesstruther]

okay but sarah celebrating tommy every year for mother’s day

#who needs a mommy when you got a tommy #the first time shes does this its preschool teacher maria’s idea #shes four and mothers day is coming up and its usually a hard time for her so joel lets maria know just in case she has any behavioral issue #miss maria is like 🫡 i gotchu #she makes sure to emphasize to the kids that families are all different #they spend every day of may leading up to mother day reading books exploring diversity in families and talking about what mom really means #that it doesnt have to be the person who had you in their tummy or a girl or even a person we call mom #for example miss maria’s real mommy wasnt so nice growing up so miss marias TRUE mommy is just her daddy and her auntie rose #because those are the people that loved her no matter what and kept her safe and taken care of and fed #thats all mom is #it just means someone thats there for you every day and loves you and cares for you #someone who is one of your favorite people and who would say the same about you #all the kids go around and say who they think are their moms #mosy say some iteration of ‘mommy’ and ‘mama’ or ‘grammy’ #but then baby ellie says ‘tess and auntie marlene’ #and baby sarah says ‘uncle thommy’ #one of the other littles says ‘daddy and miss maria’ 😭 #and they all make heart cards for their mommy firgures #they cant write or really read anything but a few letters yet #(even though hyperlexic baby sarah does have pretty incredible letter recognition for her age) #so they tell miss maria what to write on their cards and then decorate with oil pastels #sarah’s says dear uncle tommy thank you for being my mommy you are so funny and i love when we play horsey and princesses. happy mommy day #when he picks her up at the end of the day shes like HI MOMMMMM all giggly and hes like ????? hi???? whats this???? OPEN IT OPEN IT OPEN IT #and when he does and read it he literally drops to his knees to hug her and cry #because theres really nothing more precious than his little angel his baby his best girl #thats tommys DAUGHTER DO YALL UNDERSTAND?????? #miss maria watching them from the cubbies like: godDAMN theyre so cute #the next day tommy brings her a oat milk chai from her favorite coffee shop as a thank you because it meant a lot to him and shes like ???? #how did u know???? and hes like my brother and you ran into each other there last week yeah? he told me abt it i asked for your order #and shes like 🥹🥰🫠 thanks

[tangledinink]

I can imagine the first cycle after moving. Probably Leo because Donnie likely has internal scarring, so leo goes through the process of laying his eggs, panics, his brother can't help, and finally, *finally* they ask for help. It's not willingly. It's not for fun. It's purely necessity. It's purely because there's *literally noone else* and the idea of telling anyone at all is so scary that the way they do so is in a note. Splinter sits them down and basically walks them through "You're safe, you're fine. We can handle this however you feel most comfortable, including getting you both on blockers if you prefer" and they just.... sigh. For the first time, there's *someone else* in their circle, and it's willing and it's warm, and it's *safe*. There will be tears.

Yes, except I'm not convinced that either of them could stand to tell anyone. Even if it was literally life or death (which it has been before,) I'm not sure if either of them could bear to give up that information. Donnie is finally, finally away from the people who hurt him when he got found out last time, and even though logically, he knows that it's different here, he's absolutely petrified of the thought that the same thing will happen again and it won't be over anymore. He's still horrified by the idea of anyone else knowing about Leo when he's gone to such lengths for so long to protect him, and Leo is likewise terrified in the same way. They've spent years with this being their more closely guarded secret, and that's going to be really difficult to give up.

But it's really not a secret they'll be able to keep for long.

They're in a completely different environment, with far less space and privacy. They're both stressed as hell and Donnie WAS on birth control and taking all sorts of vitamins and supplements to make sure he didn't eggbind again and now he's suddenly not and it's not only messing with his body, it's fucking scary. It literally keeps them both up at night. Neither of them know how to wash blood out of clothes or sheets. There's no private en suite bathroom they can sequester themselves away in. They're both literally making themselves sick with anxiety trying to deal with this, and they're used to handling this on their own, this is routine for them, but they're not used to all of this.

They'd probably metaphorically limp through a few cycles before their family puts it together and gently confronts them.

Venus probably figures it out first. She's pretty smart, and incredibly observant, and after all-- she quite literally experiences the exact same thing. April may not lay eggs, but I think she'd be able to get the idea after a bit as well. And while I think Splinter would realize something was wrong pretty quickly, Draxum would probably realize what was wrong first. Splinter has April, so he has a little bit of experience in this realm, but Draxum has Venus and so he has far more experience.

And so when they do sit them down and talk with them, it's going to be really scary at first. And then they get to, "you're safe, you're fine, we can handle this however you feel the most comfortable. It will be okay. No one will hurt you."

And then there's finally other people in the know, in the circle, people who will actually help them. And yes-- there will definitely be tears.

#leo in particular will probably panic at least a little when theyre confronted #because its been what? almost four years? #almost FOUR YEARS of him keeping this a secret at any cost #almost four years with no one else in the universe aside from his twin knowing #and now the spell is broken #but its okay #and they might panic and cry for a little but then they calm down and its... actually ok. things will actually be okay #april will take to big-sistering them so hard #and lowkey just? having venus exist in the household will be incredibly helpful #(she was honestly so baffled that everyone else didnt realize what was going on right away. it wasnt obvious????) #mikey tries to spoil them the same way he tries to spoil venus whenever she feels nasty #(but has to adjust a bit to respect boundaries because. donnie will bite him...) #likewise raph tries to take care of them the same way he'd take care of casey #(ie by leaving offerings at their doors and staying the fuck out of their way. just overall letting them do or have whatever they want) #their family will take care of them and keep them safe and things will get better #its honestly a huge relief when they get caught in some ways because leo can finally be like #and donnie got really sick one time and almost died and im scared itll happen again PLZ can we make sure it doesnt happen again #donnie in the background like >:0000 that leo just fucking OUTTED HIM LIKE THAT #but to leo 1000% worth it if it means donnie wont get sick and die #(as if donnie is actually realistically at any more significant risk of that than leo is) #(quite frankly theyre BOTH at risk of it at the time because of how stressed they are. lowkey a miracle neither of them eggbound yet smh) #also donnie def has internal scarring lmao;;;; poor bab. makes it a bit rough... #menstruation #tw menstruation #cw menstruation #gemini au #asks #anon #csa implied #cw csa implied

[socksandbuttons]

Question, is Bean Bloodmoon even allowed near the kids inside the daycare?

So far it seems:

Bean Lunar is adorable...

Bean Eclipse is a menace...

Bean Bloodmoon is a whopping Holy #@$&

You know you pose a good question. Something tells me he's probably not allowed in the daycare when its OPEN. Just a safety precaution, more or less. Sun would like it if he wasn't at all but also I wanna take these two. and Make them unlikely friends. But later maybe. Please do NOT have Eclipse and Bloodmoon at the same time in the daycare while its open. It's not good for anyone. Killcode learns the hard way.

#i can see eclipse being bullied to hell and back tremendously by bloodmoon (remember! they did electricute him for fun once!) #eclipse in the daycare??? Menace. He has some access to things in there and bloodmoons just not to be trusted around small children yet. #so having them BOTH in there??? hope it was by accident or killcode is around because its gonna be a mess #mostly of the pla structures #Lunar doesnt know whether to step in or take a Seat #im sure theyll chill in eachothers presence eventually but at first its just Very Bad #Lunar is the brother they both go 'we can chill by u.... but ur on thin ice' when hes actually not #no drawing cause im trying to focus on another thing but beannnsss #bean eclipse au #killcode '....my four children... why are they like this' 'WHO SAID I WAS UR KID-' 'FATHER THE SUN MAN- CHILD THING IS PLOTTING' #'IM NOT A KID. LUNAR TELL THEM-' 'NO IM ASKING WHY IS KC SAYING IM HIS KID NOW-' '*sigh*' #proceeds to put everything in the tags again

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

how is it talking to anons all day because people are too shy to be known?

normal <3

#im very used to it! it doesnt feel like much of anything #ive been consistently answering anon asks for almost four years now lmao #its just how it works! #rambles from the bog #all anons are just one big amalgamation to me #who knows. maybe theyre all the same person #its none of my business thats for Sure!

[rafasbiscuits]

yaaYYY! tagged again by lovely @schumi-nadal , I love you sm and thank you for tagging me, yk how much I love these 🥺🤍

Rules: bold stuff that applies to you and then tag your friends.

Appearance:

i'm over 5'5" // i wear glasses/contacts // i have blonde hair // i prefer loose clothing to tight clothing // i have one or more piercings // i have at least one tattoo // i have blue eyes // i have dyed or highlighted my hair // i have gotten plastic surgery //I have had braces // i sunburn easily // i have freckles // i paint my nails // i typically wear make-up // i don’t often smile // i am pleased with how i look // i prefer nike to adidas // i wear baseball hats backwards.

Hobbies and talents:

i play a sport // i can play an instrument // i am artistic // i know more than one language // i have won a trophy in some sort of competition // i can cook or bake without a recipe // i know how to swim // i enjoy writing // i can do origami // i prefer movies to tv shows // i can execute a perfect somersault // i enjoy singing // i could survive in the wild on my own // i have read a new book series this year // i enjoy spending time with friends // i travel during school or work breaks // i can do a handstand.

Relationship:

i am in a relationship // i have been single for over a year // i have a crush // i have a best friend i have known for ten years // my parents are together // i have dated my best friend // i am adopted // my crush has confessed to me // i have a long distance relationship // i am an only child // i give advice to my friends // i have made an online friend // i met up with someone i have met online.

Aesthetics:

i have heard the ocean in a conch shell // i have watched the sun rise // i enjoy rainy days // i have slept under the stars // i meditate outside // the sound of chirping calms me // i enjoy the smell of the beach // i know what snow tastes like // i listen to music to fall asleep // i enjoy thunderstorms // i enjoy cloud watching // i have attended a bonfire // i pay close attention to colours // i find mystery in the ocean // i enjoy hiking on nature paths // autumn is my favourite season.

Miscellaneous:

i can fall asleep in a moving vehicle // i am the mom friend // i live by a certain quote // i like the smell of sharpies // i am involved in extracurricular activities // i enjoy mexican food // i can drive a stick-shift // i believe in true love // i make up scenarios to fall asleep // i sing in the shower // i wish i lived in a video game // i have a canopy above my bed // i am multiracial // i am a redhead // i own at least three dogs.

Tagging: hmmmmmm... @tam-is-blogging @a-swiss-and-a-spaniard @thefrootloopman @swaggypsyduck @yoellglia @soronya @kingfisherprince @hubillusion @shambolicchaos @jcferrero @game-set-canet @raulsevyn @janesurlife @thestarsstillfall @melissa-leaf @tennis-kittens @wimbledon2008 and any of you who wants to do this! (Ofc the ones I actually tagged, as always, it's not a must, it's just for fun <3)

#the nike adidas thing i dont have a preference whatever. i just wear whats given to me. if its adidas then adidas if its nike then nike. 🤷 #ANYWAYS the part of the world where i live in doesnt have four seasons..it doesnt have autum summer winter whatever. #its summer alllll yeaarrrr looooooong. if rainy and fruit season is a season then sure include that ig XD #BUT if i had to choose my fav between the four seasons (spring summer autum winter) its gotta be autumn. pretty withering leaves. prettyyyy #so the thing is irl im more colder and closed off so yeah. yall dont want to mee me irl it can be a lil awkward🙈 #the relationships one are like crazyyy complicated so some that happened i didnt bold it cause its just....complicated... #i used to play violin and piano but i forgot how to sooo ye💀 #tag game #another day another get to know qas (yay!)

[timeisacephalopod]

I've kinda seen some pushback to the idea of representation in media and I don't necessarily think it's bad to point out actual rights are more important than Disney's thousandth first gay character that's fine, but I've had a LOT of people comment on my works about asexual characters and tell me what I wrote changed their life-and it's always that phrase- because they now have the language to describe what they feel. I've had people who ARENT ace or aro comment that what I wrote finally made a concept they didn't understand make sense, or that the way I explained things was interesting and enlightening and I'm kind of a mediocre writer who hasn't written anything in ages.

Like idk, if reading something from a writer who is fucking around and only somewhat talented can genuinely impact someone because they've not seen anything like them reflected back at them in life or media I don't think pushing for representation in media is as "needless" as some people seem to think and caring about that doesn't mean you don't care about more "important" (although if you think seeing people like you in media ISNT important it's because you already have that representation or are privileged enough to not care if you do, in which case maybe pipe down) stuff. Hell, I even got a Facebook message ages ago from someone who found a comment I left in an ace group about QPR's and what they meant to me and how I perceived them and the person no joke said what I wrote two years before they even found it changed their life forever because they finally knew what kind of relationship they actually wanted.

So like sure, of course there's always bigger fish to fry them diversity in media (you know, like diversity in real life lol) but I don't think it's as frivolous as some people are beginning to act like it is. At least not if you're an aspec person it's not, I STILL don't see ace characters almost ever and I'll bet my whole everything if I asked a writer of a show why they'd tell me that EVERYONE has to be in a sexual relationship and characters that aren't won't sell and are boring- I say this because in film school I had a teacher TELL ME every character needed to basically be sex obsessed and when I pointed out a GREAT MANY CHARACTERS are not revolved around sex (Supernatural stars two brothers, I pointed out) and when she asked if I had love interests I was like ??? That doesn't matter- using my aforementioned supernatural example almost all their love interests die or get mind wiped because at the end of the day that's not what the story was about. So actually I think writers who act like that teacher need like 50 reality checks, and representation in stories isn't unimportant and also support indie writers you'll probably find more funky shit there then Disney anyway lmao.

And also even the asexual characters I DO see in media don't remind me at all of myself even if I appreciate the effort, but they never feel real or genuine and their sexuality doesn't get a lot of exploration so 🤷🏻‍♀️ I actually could use more media focused on characters that I can genuinely see my sexuality reflected in in a meaningful and narratively impactful way because I've got nothing.

#winters ramblings #todd from bojack horseman im sure is SOMEONES version of asexuality but i dont see ANYTHING of myself in him #great character dont get me wrong but not relatable to me on any level including our shared sexuality #sex ed got a bit closer with their brief ace character although maybe she got more exploration in season three or four?? #the latest one i havent watched lmao. but being closer and having a moment wjere shes told shes not broken #while DEEPLY vindicating isnt necessarily all im looking for either #like i wamt a REAL character thats ace or aro or both thats written by people who UNDERSTAND what theyre writting #not just well meaning people who dont know what theyre doing its kind of tiring #also idk why theres no dating shows with gay men because reality dating shows are ALL ABOUT who fucks who and who gets together #gay men would be hooking up ALL OVER THE PLACE and the DRAMA youd think reality tv freaks would be SALIVATING #but no none of that lmao. just ru pauls drag race and thats great it is like its not my bag but people love it #back on yrack though the weord blowback representation is getting is strange and its VERY clear to me #the people writing those posts havent gotten dozens on dozens of messages from people like them who found their writing #and haf their life altered forever for the better because someone who KNOWS what theyre talking about wrote a character like them #and it opened doors they never knew existed. doesnt even need to happen with fiction either i had a friend i had in toronto #tell me the info i sent to her on being aromantic changed her life- THAT'S the phrase i keep getting thats TELLING- because it describefld #described** how shes felt her whole life but didnt have words for. how frivolous IS representation if im getting these messages? #not very i dont think if some rsndom indie fic writer who hadnt written anything substantial in years can change someones life #REPEATEDLY might i add. ive been getting a LOT of messages like this lately and seeing this new bramd of discourse latetly too #like maybe YALL have enough that you dont care anymore but speak for your fucking selves

[cinnabeat]

i was reasonably certain the no one dies in this series bc its a dramedy at heart but damn im not so sure anymore

#i seriously dont think anyones gonna die but you never fucking know #literally every bastard thats died has come back in some form #i mean they died in the past before the present in story timeline but without fail these fuckers keep coming back like cockroaches #reminds me of fairy tail although fairytail was wayyyyyyy worse abt it #will never forget my brother asking me if i recommended it and immediately i was like absolutely not #like yes i watched AND read it yes i was religioulsy reading the updates every week #yes i have lots of the anime ops and eds on spotify yes i have a keychain with the main fours guild marks #yes i absolutely cried when it ended but i wouldnt recommend it to anyone on pain of death #truly is not worth it like literaly bothing after the magic games arc matters #as far as im concerned it ended there with fairytail regaining their glory and absolutely nothing else world shaterring and apocalyptically #ending happened #couldmt even tell you what happens after the magic games arc like genuienly it was so nonsensical and just straight up bad that i perma eras #permanently erased it from my memory #anyways im reasonably sure no ones going to die but if they do i deeply deeply hope its not my fave he doesnt deserve that #his brother can go tho #michi tag

[mysticarcanum]

genuinely fucked up that the tiebreak on taskmaster involved learning pi because now ive been given profoundly niche evidence that there is a practical application to memorizing pi, and now im filled with the urge to memorize another 10 digits and shoot for 60

#i like memorizing stuff!!! it's so fun!!!!! #ive been scratching that itch in the past few years with complicated song lyrics (see: blackboxwarrior) #but what if i got back into the og #a nice round 75 sounds nice... is that too ambitious??? #the upcoming chunk to memorize is 5820974944 #and that's QUITE pleasing #expecially the 974944 #it has a pleasant rhythm to it. NINE seven four NINE fourfour #5820 isnt as good but it's blunt. direct. #but im defaulting to thinking of it as five eight twenty #which doesnt ring well when saying it out at once #but five eight two zero sounds abominable #there's no soul there #that'll be the sticking point for sure #down here in the trenches of pi 50-60 isnt nearly as pleasurable as some of the preceding numbers #nothing's ever going to beat 169399. thats as good as pi gets right there #you know im starting to think maybe im not neurotypical. but i have no clue what ive got going on so im just gonna go back to memorizing pi

[rindomness]

okay so having reviewed... most? of the spamton sweepstakes lore stuff since i missed most of it cause i was busy at the time ive concluded that some people need to remember that deltarune ch 1 was released as a .exe file called “survey program” downloaded off of an objectively kind of sketchy site after a series of cryptic tweets and no other fanfare or warning. so idk why im seeing people surprised hed release important lore information through some weird arg-adjacent-slash-auction event. this is pretty standard par for the course toby fox behavior actually

#im catching up from the weekend #cause i was either sleeping or doing homework p much the whole time #thanks to quill showing me some of the actual pages i didnt get to see them i still dont 100% know how to get to them #if theyre still up? idk what the situation is there #im half asleep so this probably. doesnt make much sense #but like. at this point. if you are surprised/shocked by toby fox doing weird shit with deltarune meta #where have you been the last four years #i found out about deltarune bc my ex kept showing me the tweets and then a very frantic text the night it dropped #for the first hour of gameplay i wasnt sure what the fuck was happening and that any minute now it would just stop and be revealed as some #odd ruse #only to discover it would qualify as a wholeass game even w/o the promise of a ch 2 #for free legally just there on the internet for all to find #i was not completely sure it was not going to be a virus until i got a thumbsup from my ex cause my antivirus flagged it #like would have missed this w/o that text #anyway im going to sleep now but like #man. every time toby does something theres going to be some group of people baffled #BAFFLED that he would reveal information in this fashion

[sanstropfremir]

AYE! You liked pop? pop! by csr? I recently found the song and omg it's so catchy and reminds me of the innocent cute concept I think? Do you have any thoughts on the group's concept? I find it cute that all the girls are the same age like actual high school class! I realized that's not too common in kpop or at least I can't think of any groups that everyone is the same age off the top of my head

yea i did! however i know truly fuck all about the group, so i don't even know what their concept is. i think that's kind of fun as an idea? they're doing age appropriate stuff too so that's good i suppose. to be honest i am not really interested in following them actively bc i only really liked pop pop and not anything else from their eps, and i don't really find them interesting to watch. also i'm too old for a high school concept lol

#nu'est was almost entirely the same age! #4/5 are 95s (cursed to know theyre the same age as me) and aron is a 93 #also i think the nu'est boys are all like within four months of each other (and me lmao) birthday wise so they really are all the same age #i think their concept was also school based? or at least it was for debut bc face was about bullying #face my beloved......nu'est i miss you so goddamn bad #ateez is 5/8 the same year which is more than half. plus theyre all within a three year range so i count that as being the same age #a lot of the young bgs are all within a few years of each other #just b is like 4/6 01 and two 02s i think? #but yea its pretty rare for groups to be entirely the same year bc it means you have to be rly restrictive with who you cast #or also. theyre lying about birth years lol. since it doesnt matter so much with girls (no enlistment) #restricting casting by a specific year like that instead of range is not at all a general practice #i'm sure there's a lot of options for trainees now but imagine getting someone incredible auditioning and then not casting them #bc theyre one year too old. like that's SUCH a bad idea from a creative standpoint #limiting something by an arbitrary/purely logistical number like that is really dumb in terms of actually getting good talent #csr w #text #answers

[sashthesloth]

What's witch hat atelier about?

it's about this girl Coco (who has always had a passion for magic after a chance encounter when she was younger but never expected that she could learn magic) who ends up becoming a witch (because of Reasons) and learning magic in order to find a way to save her mom after (things) happen! ft. really amazing art, beautiful costume designs, and a great cast of characters (I love love love the relationships between all the apprentices and their teacher, and I adore the character development that happens to a lot of them)

I jumped into this knowing jacksquat except that the art is pretty but oh boy I got sucked in so fast I can't stop reading it, I need to find out more

#im sure other people can explain it better than me but yeah! #im only on volume 5 so who knows what happens in the other 4 i have yet to read! #the four apprentices i love them so much #i love finding out about everyones backstories and the secrets people are hiding and their motivations!!! #if this doesnt make sense its because im watching chasing corals at the same time at 1.5X speed for class

[todayisafridaynight]

RIGHT YEAH I was also thinking about the scenario of Jo accompanying Masato in relation to this, in the vein of… that'd solidify that the whole lie was always about His Family and not The Family right… because what can Jo even DO for the family while he's away? He's more than a glorified accountant.

Though thinking about it, he probably wouldn't have been away too long, at least compared to a prison sentence for murder. Because Masato only faked his death in 2004 (at the very latest, I guess; it's when the news went public) and Bleach Japan was founded "almost 20 years" prior to 2019, at which point Aoki and Ogasawara had already graduated and returned to Japan.

That and Aoki wasn't in a wheelchair anymore when he met Ogasawara at Harvard, so perhaps Jo would only really /need/ to stay for the procedure and Aoki's physical therapy and all, though of course I can see him staying longer. Still, not too long, all things considered.

So this scenario's kind of the worst of both worlds, because perhaps those first couple of years it's Arakawa's own stubbornness, and then the rest of his family has to go away anyway. And he's so sure in that time what he needs is to be with his family again and he'll at least feel less alone, miss Ichi less.

But then Masato's Aoki now and only really staying in touch to use him and the Arakawa Family's resources for his own gain, and Jo--as you perfectly put it--doesn't know how to emotionally take care of him. So things he should be ecstatic about--seeing his son walk on his own two legs for the first time and having his right hand man back in action--end up bittersweet at best. Aiiieeeeee……

OH YEAH SHINJI I half-remembered there was a visit in 1 but not who actually went to visit Kiryu sorry for doing you like that my boy </3 still counts as part of a pattern to me though… subordinate visiting his aniki…

SPEAKING OF KIRYU. Yeah. Typical Kiryu L. Kazuma Kiryu you have blood on your hands and NOT in the funney Reddit meme way… ABSOLUTELY DERANGED to blame Ichi for anything in the ending whatsoever though like WHAT. He got him immediate medical attention and WE AS THE AUDIENCE don't even have time to react, let alone anyone living the fucking moment good god my blood pressure is spiking

ALSO THE JO POST… YEAH… yeah yeah yeah that's the shit I'm talking about… and like. This is where localization frustrates me so Bear With My Complaints a moment but his very last line is mistranslated in both versions, the sub in terms of what he was actually saying and the dub in terms of giving him this bitchy, flippant tone that doesn't convey his intent. So I'll cut them down the middle and say it's "[The] legit [way]? The word has never crossed my mind, not once."

There's just something to it as a clear thesis for his whole life and his eventual fate. Like of course Adachi means in terms of going through the proper legal processes, but words like proper, legit, decent, these also have clear connotations of adequacy. So for him to literally say NOTHING he's done has been adequate in his eyes perfectly illustrates what you were saying. Like he's always taken it as a matter of fact that nothing he could do would be enough, like that's a truth woven into his existence so tightly he never even thought about it. And now there really is nothing he can do.

i have my own theoretical timeline on masato's stay in america, but even with what we have there's a lot of variables involved with for exactly when certain events happened

under the assumption masato was to enroll at harvard in the fall of 2001 (assuming he was somehow able to be approved for a lung transplant as soon as that year), then jo would- at max- might only have to be abroad for (assuming they leave in january) nine months (to account for the time it took for masato to get approved for surgery and then the surgery itself plus the potential 3-6 month recovery period afterwards)

alternatively, if masato had to wait a year- two max if we're being optimistic so he could graduate on time under an accelerated 2-year academic schedule to get surgery- then jo, similarly, would have to be abroad for a similar amount of time.

the time gone doesn't matter too much i guess: arakawa will still be left alone for a long time, and that really couldnt have been easy either way. the time his family's gone only makes their comeback all the more bittersweet, as you put it (´▽｀;;)

OH BUT YEAH NO THE Y7 BIT THAT SHIT PISSED ME OFF SO MUCH WHEN I READ IT like mates were trying to be smart about it like 'wow ichi way to go showing how much you love aoki and how you'd do anything for him 🙄' like God Forbid a human character acts human and imperfect what the fuck you want him to do he aint got no goddamn spidey sense how the shit was he supposed to know (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)(;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)(;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)

but yeah.. speaking of Doing The Right Thing jo's never ending feelings of inadequacy are my favorite </3 cause its like.. it's a reason why i love jo so much if i can be weird to say: what he did wasnt something that you can confidently forgive or try to say 'he's done the most to rectify this' or anything like that because putting a baby in a coin locker's like.. a lot of steps are involved to do that.. not really a spur-of-the-moment kind of thing that would have grounds to forgive yourself for.. so the fact jo knows this and just has that intense guilt- it's my bread and butter to say the least 😔

#long post #snap chats #i didnt mean to ramble about my masato timeline OOPS. i havent mentioned it in months tho.... i do like thinkin a it.... #thats not even to consider the idea of jo staying abroad all four years to make sure masato was getting along fine #and to make sure he made it back to japan alright- but for the sake of giving masato some independence for a bit #we can also say jo went back when he was 'no longer needed' and just let masato live how he wanted to #but again i guess the exact amount of months and years dont matter too much #as for Jo's Suffering though i can't explain why i love it so much #i think its just cause like. its nice that a character acknowledges they did something unforgivable #like even if aoki did get the lung transplant and he's fine- or WAS fine rip- that doesnt negate the 24 some years he had to be miserable #i cant explain it im very bad at explaining things can we tell #its just such a weird situation. because again what jo did isnt something you can excuse or forgive yk #like masato's critical years and his early adulthood were severely impacted by his disability #to say half his life was altered by jo's actions is an understatement- and jo knows that right #even if he made sure everything that could be done for him to make his life better was done #there was probably always that thought of 'this extra work wouldnt be necessary if i didnt do that' yk what i mean #so i guess im just glad he's dedicated to acknowledging that and trying to take responsibility for it now #idk idk i cant explain it but i hope we know what i mean. dear god i hope we do words arent my strong suit #but yeah again.... now he cant do anything to continue righting that wrong in his eyes #now its just guilt with no means of alleviating it and THAT. hurts the soul in a good way. me thinks anyhow

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RP:

PRIVATE TRANSMISSION

EP: Hello. How have your attempts been going?

FTL: Hello, Echoes of a Paradox. I do believe that I am succeeding.

EP: Good. I only ask because it's polite or something. I do not actually care past making sure that you survive. You'll manage either way

FTL: That statement is contradictory in of itself, but I appreciate your confidence in me.

EP: It's less confidence and more knowledge.

EP: Also the fact that you never go back on your promises.

EP: You do, after all, still owe me an apology, remember?

FTL: I do.

EP: You don't even deserve me worrying about you.

EP: You probably don't even know what you have to apologise for.

FTL: ...No, I do not. Is it not for the 'me leaving the group chat and abandoning you two only to come back when I am in crisis' situation?

EP: No, not completely. Think about it. I don't think you'll realise, but. I don't need you to.

FTL: You confuse me.

EP: I know.

FTL: You're never consistent with what you say. You're worried about me and yet distant and spiteful.

EP: Yep, I am. That's because I don't know how to feel about you. You're my older brother, it is completely justified of me to worry, you know? It's to be expected. But you don't even realise the shit you've done, you don't even think about it because you don't know what you're doing.

EP: high contrasts in behaviour aren't uncommon. Though they are something that's more experienced by those who, you know, actually pay attention to their feelings and allow themselves to feel hurt.

FTL: Then explain what I've done wrong. Explain, point it out. I don't know what you're talking about, and I am aware that that's your whole point. But why be so contradictory in your behaviour?

EP: I can't tell you. That'd ruin the whole purpose. You're hurting yourself exactly the same way you've hurt us. I don't blame you, but I am allowed to feel insure.

EP: I know you're not the best with this stuff, I know how you think of yourself, I know you didnt mean for your mindset to cause harm, I know all that. I know this is just messing the situation up even more as this probably confuses you even more.

EP: I know. But I still expect and apology, as hollow as it could be. I don't think you'll ever learn. That's not necessarily bad. But unmeant hurt is still hurt. No matter who it's directed at.

EP: It's starting to feel more like I'm the older sibling, y'know?

FTL: ...I'm sorry.

EP: For what?

FTL: For not knowing. For not understanding. I should, but I don't. Something just out of reach.

EP: That something is emotional awareness and acknowledging that you're not just a machine.

FTL: But I am.

EP: And there lies the barrier.

FTL: ...

FTL: What is it with you people and 'defining yourself by traits other than your purpose'. LIFEGIVER said something along the same lines. I don't understand it. It is pointless, irrational. As I have stated before, personality and emotions are nothing in the face of purpose and the nature of my existence.

EP: LIFEGIVER? nevermind. What matters is that this LIFEGIVER is right.

EP: I am not going to have this conversation with you right now. Figure it out yourself, or dont. Whichever way it goes, I wouldn't be surprised.

EP: Please, just stay alive, make sure your plan goes well, and think a little bit. As unlikely as the result of you realising how your mindset is wrong is.

FTL: I... I have better things to do. Rather than ponder upon this. You're being unclear, I do not know how to reply or what to do. And that does appear to be the whole point, though I certainly do not see it. You'll get your apology though.

FTL: If you need to talk to me, do not expect a prompt response, I am still working on fixing the FTLR-3 issue.

#ive gotten eight hours of sleep in the past sixty-four hours /srs #so im sorry if this is incoherent Ɛ> #its kinda supposed to br #cause echoes of a paradox is #agh how do i describe this whole situation #ftl fucked up but doesnt know it bcs well. he doesnt understand emotions properly or something #(like me?? no way?? another similarity between i and the character i created??? no fucking way?????) #ep is pissed at him but just wants him to be safe #both from the rot and from himself #so uh #i hope that was SOMEWHAT conveyed properly #and isnt out of character for ftl #i dont think it is? #but #i aint sure #my perception of ven changes quickly as soon as i come up with a new plot point and it may not necessarily remain in-line with the previous #posts #actually while proofreading this i realised that it isnt THAT bad #if one assumes that ftl acts differently when talking to his siblings then #yeaaaa this can be explained away sdkfhsa #tldr of this post: ftl is not okay and ep knows and is trying to help whiel also feeling somewhat resentful of ven and it aint going well #or something #idfk im gonna go sleep i have to wake up in 7 1/2 hrs #rp #chatlogs #finely-tuned line #echoes of a paradox