#Ella cries

[sleepylixie]

ELLIANAAAAAAAAAA

ZETAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

#Ella's moots #zeta jeonwonhi #askbox things #ella cries

[elbiotipo]

A24 sigue hablando de Cristina. Deeply unserious channel

#igual no estoy muy contento con Cris en estos días #pero la obsesión que Majul y A24 tienen con ella es enfermiza

[grccve]

ryota: *deja un montón de besitos en la carita preciosa de crystalcita* 💗💗 (todavía no sabe cuántos besitos son demasiados así que no se cansa nunca)

Sus mejillas rojitas delatan lo mucho que lo está disfrutando. Su silencio confirma que no desea que los besitos se detengan. Delicadamente, de vez en tanto, regresa un tímido beso también.

#❝ ┊ INTERACCIÓN 。( crystal ) #404files #no más aparezco porque le han dado besitos a mi hija #y ella merece todo el amor *cries*

[that-cheer-up-anon]

Went to the doctor

Have to get back into antidepressants. Trying a new one. They also don't believe I have ADHD, which is fair. All he has to go off w is my own self diagnosis which ethically he can't do anything with that. But what bothers me is that he said in the time I've been his patient he has never suspected it. Like PTSD and depression yes, but not ADHD.

I like to think I don't make it obvious but now it's making me doubt if I have it, even though I feel like everything I've seen by ADHD specialist psychologists resonate w my life experience. I was never good at trusting myself but this is making my self doubt even worse.

Good news is that my blood tests came back normal. No autoimmune stuff going on so that's good. Forgot to ask about some blood spots coming up on my legs. Other good news is that I have a certificate for the next few weeks (while I'm taking the new antidepressants and hoping they make my chronic pain better) that I have to work 3 days max/week instead of the 4 bc it was too much for me.

#Ella life #really upset at having to go back on antidepressants #feels like I've taken a step backwards in my recovery #I was really proud of getting off it this year and now I have to get back on it #loved not having to spend what little money I earn on meds regularly #cried after my appointment. still crying but less #have to go buy my antidepressants

[selfproclaimedunicorn]

👀 Robella Father

Everything was so familiar; the gold and rich colors and dark wood of Lady Shireen’s Pentoshi relatives' manse, Ella's distressed shriek hidden behind the door of one of the spare rooms. When he opened the it she was standing in the middle of the room instead of laying face down on the bed, a brightly painted vase clutched in her hands before she screamed again and threw it at the wall. Robert winced when the vase shattered, shards falling to the ground to break into even smaller pieces of bright red on the tiles.

His wife moved to grab something else, and he rushed into the room to pin her arms to her sides. Ella cried out, forlorn and desperate as she weakly struggled against his hold. She then went limp, letting out a long, choked sob as she did. After a moment, Robert let go of her and gently turned her around to pull Ella into his arms. She sagged against him as he rubbed her back, crying into his shoulder.

He had been afraid something like this would happen, but Ella’s desperation to see her friend overruled warnings of seeing her father. Robert was glad their children had stayed behind with their cousins, she wouldn't want Griffith and the girls seeing her so upset.

They stayed like that for a long time, until finally Ella cried herself out and could not even manage more than quiet shaking in his arms. When she spoke, her voice was hoarse and barely loud enough to hear, "why don't I hate him?"

#asks #nat tag #ENJOY ANGST. I LITERALLY CRIED! #small preview of something so far flung in the future idk what chapter it is #sotf extras #oc: robert tyrell #oc: ella royce #my writing

[ellzilla]

#quick doodle because I've been working all day making a shed #i am not done btw #cries in physical agony but at least there is blorbos #lizard's art #ella greenwood #creepypasta oc #meatbag #gore cw

[lifewouldbebetteronmars]

THOMAS BRODIE SANGSTER AKA MY FIRST EVER CRUSH THANKS TO A FANDOM EVER IS IN DOCTOR WHO

I CANT BREATHE

WHEN TWO WORLDS COLLIDE KAT-

#this is how i felt when i realized hugh dancy was in ella enchanted #i cried #ask answered #mutuals

[imokimi]

“ ¡todavía no puedes entrar! ¡espera! ” exclama desde el otro extremo de la puerta, dentro de nuevo departamento. anuncio de la sorpresa de cumpleaños había sido hecho, por lo que, técnicamente, ya no era una completa sorpresa. sin embargo, quería mantener el suspenso de lo que serían sus regalos: dos cajitas envueltas con papel dorado brillante que yacían sobre la mesita de noche junto con un enorme ramo de rosas, y una comida preparada por la japonesa, receta sacada de una de las primeras lecciones que su novia le había dado. y, por supuesto, los múltiples globos de feliz cumpleaños no podían faltar, mismos que toma para colocarse cerca de la entrada para recibirla, amplia sonrisa en sus labios. “ de acuerdo, ¡ya puedes pasar! ¡feliz cumpleaños, preciosa! ” / @johhaeri​ 

#* 𝒎𝒐𝒏𝒆𝒚 𝒎𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒔 —— diálogo. #johhaeri #weno . #imagina todo decorado #like . es como una fiesta para sólo ellas *cries* #y finjamos que es todavía su cumple ok? ok

[nomniki]

bf hcs for literally any group: reader buys them a teddy and they name it & sleep with it and everything! pls i love giving people teddies, it makes me so happy to see people looking after them!! :)

I IMMEDIATELT STARTED THUNKING OF HYUNJIN :(( sunni imagine getting into crotchet or smth right? and you kind of suck at it to be honest, but you gift hyunjin your first creation anyways. it was somewhat of a gag gift, after all it didn’t look much like anything other than a blob of brightly coloured green yarn with two uneven eyes. it was supposed to be a silly gag gift, one of those “oh this is u” moments but he actually LOVES it ??? like absolutely ADORES IT.. sends you selfies every single day with that misshapen lump in his arms, balanced on his shoulder like some ugly mutant pea but all of your insults go unheard. he refuses to give it back, even when your skills improve and you offer to make him another plushie or at least fix all the beginner mistakes but he refuses to let you near his pea. i wouldn’t put it past him to make an instagram account for it.

#ella answers #i think #hyunjin very nearly cried when he couldn’t find it #his heart stopped in his chest #when ji threatened to feed it to bbama #it’s His Pea. #it’s the cutest thing ever tbh

[crypt1dcorv1dae]

thinking about ocs again oouughghhh

#my silly lil magic kids who are so fucked up and sad <3 #thinks about ella and winston (the twins ever) and cries bc ghey ar e so.... ouchie.....

[r-o-s-e-f-i-r-e]

One woman drives across five states just to see her. The woman being driven to has no idea anyone's headed her way. The driving woman crosses three bridges & seven lakes just to get to her door. She stops along the highway, wades into the soggy ground, cuts down coral-eyed cattails, carries them to her car as if they might be sherbet orange, long-stemmed, Confederate roses, sheared for Sherman himself. For two days she drives toward the woman in Kentucky, sleeping in rest areas with her seat lowered all the way back, doors locked. When she reaches the state line it's misting. The tired pedal-to-the-metal woman finally calls ahead. I'm here, she says. Who's this? The woman being driven to, who has never checked her oil, asks. The driving woman reminds her of the recent writing workshop where they shared love for all things out-of-doors and lyrical. Come, have lunch with me, the driving woman invites. They eat spinach salads with different kinds of dressing. They talk about driving, the third thing they both love and how fast clouds can change from state line to state line. The didn't-know-she-was-coming woman stares at she who has just arrived. She tries to read the mighty spinach leaves in her bowl, privately marveling at the driving woman's muscled spontaneity. She can hardly believe this almost stranger has made it across five states just to have lunch with her. She wonders where this mad driving woman will sleep tonight. She is of two driving minds. One convertible. One hardtop. The driving woman shows her pictures of her children. Beautiful, the other does not say. Before long words run out of petrol. The woman who is home, but without pictures of her own, announces she must go. The driving woman frets & flames, May I walk you to your car? They walk. The driver changes two lanes in third gear, fast. The trunk opens. The Mario Andretti look-alike fills the other woman's arms with sable-sheared cattails. Five feet high & badly in need of sunlight & proudly stolen from across five states. The woman with no children of her own pulls their twenty pounds in close, resting them over her Peter-Panning heart. Her lungs empty out, then fill, then fill again with the surge of birth & surprise. For two years, until their velvet bodies begin (and end) to fall to pieces, every time the driven-to woman passes the bouquet of them, there, in the vase by the front door, she is reminded of what falling in love, without permission, smells like. Each time she reaches for her keys, she recalls what you must be willing to turn into for love: spiny oyster mushroom, damson, salt marsh, cedar, creosote, new bud of pomegranate, Aegean sage blue sea, fig, blueberry, marigold, leaf fall, fogs eye, dusty miller, thief-of-the-night.

-- Cattails, Nikki Finney

#ella read this poem to me in the car today and we both cried #poetry

[houkagokappa]

We reached my second favourite pair of episodes of the bullying arc in 3-gatsu, where Akari joins Hinata for a talk with the school. It’s too late for me to write anything coherent, but I just have to say that I love how involved everyone in Hinatas life is, and how strong Hinata is. Not only did she go against the bullies, but she supports Akari when she’s out of her depth with the whole situation, and you have to appreciate how much Akari does for her sisters, basically giving up on her own life and youth, which is touched upon every now and then, but could get more focus.

The situation has been horrible, but it’s finally turning around and the combination of all the fear, anxiety and anger is mixed with this cautious sense of relief and hope. It’s such a weird mental state to be in, because it takes some time for the more positive emotions to settle and you’re not sure if you dare to believe that things are finally getting better, even though it seems like it could be true. It’s incredibly touching to see how both Hinata and Chiho eventually find the right people to help them, and that they are on the road to recovery.

Idk the relief of finally getting in touch with someone who says they’ll help, and seeing how it’s not just empty words or failed attempts, and you’re actually getting out of a bad situation really gets to me. I wish I would’ve been as headstrong as Hinata is. I wish I would’ve had a similar network instead of being forced to deal with everything mostly alone, and I’m thankful my life is looking better too, even if it took me years and years.

Lastly, the “three steps to making a friend”, starting by making friends with animals, then with older people and finally with people your age has me bawling my eyes out. It’s unfair how bullying can destroy a person, while the bully walks away scot-free. It’s brutal how far back it can set a person, and how you’re then stuck taking these tiny steps to get back to ‘normal’.

I have immense respect and adoration towards 3-gatsu for portraying bullying in such a realistic way. I don’t think I’ve seen any other work deal with the difficulties of finding a solution or the long-term consequences quite like 3-gatsu has.

#my nonsense #ella watches anime #and cries #3 gatsu no lion #also i really love the next arc with souya and rei #i wish we could've continued further but we only did 3 episodes #which is the most we watch of any show lol #ah i wasn't supposed to write this much but i'm glad to get the feelings out #since i need to hold them in more when i'm watching with other people

[apricotesque]

i deserve multiple awards for being able to sit through midge's storyline in this season actually!

#not to be dramatic!! but!! my god . . . #her writing regarding her feelings towards shy up until his wedding was. STUNNINGLY inconsistent idk #like everything from her revenge monologue to her anger and bitterness towards him except for that?? one singular scene #where she cries upon finding out about his wedding?? and idk maybe the purpose of that scene was probably to illustrate that despite #her resentment she still feels remorse for him but the way it was executed in the context of the rest of the plotline just felt #really out of the blue #and the way she acted at the wedding . . . #i will admit her apology towards him in the bathroom went a lot better than i thought it would? like it felt more resolved than i expected #but i honestly still struggle with how to perceive her apparent anger at him beforehand #i feel like it rests on how midge's “i was angry you left us on the tarmac because i wanted to apologise to you on the plane” #is meant to be intended?? if it was supposed to be seen as some kind of 'plot twist' like gasp she was angry bc she didn't actually get to #express her regret and explain herself towards him!! in that perspective the execution still felt. kinda poor #if it was supposed to actually be expected (although that's. probably unlikely) the execution also felt. quite poor 😭😭 #god i don't know but i did still get the feeling that the gravity of the situation should've been reflected on more instead of focusing #on how bitter midge felt towards him the whole time #like. she TRULY fucked him over lmao i really have no other way of saying it she really messed him up #a very soft part of me wants to see it positively resolved in some way at least in the next season #but also at this point i have lost QUITE a bit of faith in the writing 💔💔 #anyhow. idk. rest of the season was fine ig?? still processing but hey i discovered 'someone to watch over me' #ella fitzgerald's cover is very lovely :'') #the marvelous mrs maisel #na.txt

[that-cheer-up-anon]

Finally arrived in Melbourne!

It was raining and I saw a rainbow when we landed.

Honestly everything that could go wrong has gone wrong w flying. Flight cancelled and then the make up flight was delayed, couldn't sit w my partner and surrounded by a family w lil kids and a separate couple w a baby, my luggage hasn't shown up and it has my meds in it, late hotel check in. Absolute mess.

For some reason I haven't been frustrated or mad or super annoyed at all through this, but my partner has, which I can't blame at all. I'm just super confused and surprised why I haven't been feeling this way even though it's all for my birthday.

Hopefully my luggage comes tomorrow morning, bc it has all my clothes and toiletries and makeup which I brought specifically for POTO.

#Ella life #Ella thoughts #he broke down crying as soon as we got on the couch which honestly if I weren't feeling so chipper I would be the same #maybe even cried earlier

[bensiskos]

GUYS. My sibling and I came up with the number one best idea: Breba meets dave’s parents and gains some grandparents <3

#I nearly cried imagining jt #ella talks #Ella’s ocs #breba

[smileflowcr]

oficial arin, usted es la policía más bonita que han visto mis ojos ojojo(?) ;)

[ arin.exe has stopped working ]

“No no, usted es mil veces más bonita.” evitará comentar que siente las mejillas arder en 0,01 segundos(?)

#ella: *no debe demostrar emociones* #also ella: *se muere porque nunca le han dicho que es bonita TT* #( dialogue: the gardenia ) #le puse gardenia porque la flor significa pureza y dulzura?? #ES TODO LO QUE ELLA ES EN EL FONDO #*cries in the corner* #grccve