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hazelpuff · 3 months

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I just wanted to say that I'm in love (and a bit jealous haha) with your style. It's so pretty and unique! Your hoods are gorgeous and your sims even more! (may i ask you what technique do you use to make them? Pooklet's? Face templates? A lot of sliders?)

I jumped around a lot between maxis-match, semi realistic, etc. trying to find something i liked (and i still feel i didn't quite found something i like 100%) and I'm in awe of how you made something that doesn't look like ts4 nor ts2 but a so cool and pretty in between!!!

(also a disclaimer because I'm a tiny ball of anxiety: this is no shade to anyone who likes other styles, i find them pretty awesome in other people's games, they just look a bit boring on mine. The sims is about having fun and everyone deserves to play it as they like!)

Hi! Thank you for your sweet message!

(disclaimer at the beginning of the post, my keyboard is dying since half a year and i'm putting aside the moment to replace it, but after this post, I think I'm gonna make my mind soon lol. So sorry for any misspeling - you can get double nn, no n, no m, no c, double cc, no c and many other surprises - i tried to fix everything but I could miss something xd).

I've restarted my hood 5 times I think before I got it to my recent version. I'm terrified every time through most of the process, it doesn't come easily to me xD.

Also ofc, everyone can have whatever aesthetics they like - the sims is the perfect series to express that.

With my sims it really depends. I mostly make a sim that I really like and then use it as a base for other sims, but not always. Sometimes I make a sim that I think looks quite unique but it's still missing somethig when it comes to features and makeup face details. During those moments I just open up my body shop sometime later or the next day and try to tweak this sim, sometimes it's more than once. And other times I end up liking the idk 3rd attempt but i still keep going since i want to make more similair sims, and also it's tiring to start the process from the beginning every time xD.

(pics under cut)

sry for the baldness xD - i deleted the wip hair conversion files they had and now i can't never change their hairstyles lol, idk how i did it for those two last sims seriously.

As you can see, all those sims have this maxis chain necklace, which means that I started the process using the same base sim and it just evolved into many differet results lol.

Other times I'm editing some maxis face templates to make them more my style (it's really fun!)

I also made one of my sims face into face template to make the rest of the family. I didn't want their faces to be - mouth: mom; eyes: dad; nose: mom - just a mix of both and adding something extra to make them a little more unique. Kinda pookleted their faces with two face templates.

I just really like this face. It can look either goofy or good xD.

I sometimes get inspired by images of some real life ppl (models, actors). When I'm really out of ideas I'm also dowloading sims made by others and use them as a base - just tweaking their features to be my style, mostly it's about face proportions and replacing the cc they used to the one I have. There is muuuch more examples that I could give but a lot of times it's just a result of tweaking some sims a couple of times xD.

Also due to the fact that i make my sims in body shop, idk how their faces will look whit face expressions. I was always using my sims to create previews for my cc conversions so I'm also testing them that way and if something looks too off - I'm just going back to body shop to fix that.

I think I've developed my style around the clay hair conversions that I've made - I wanted the sims in my previews to go well together with clay hair. I remember that I've picked the hair first, THEN sculpted my sims faces. There just werent that many to choose from at 1st.

I don't really use face templates - I have some, but I don't use them much - i think the proportions on faces of my sims are the closest to the maxis sims 🤔. I like their sharp features so when I'm stuck with making a sim, I'm using the pooklet method with those maxis templates but only a tiiiny bit - like 10-20% and only on those parts of the faces that I want to tweak a little more. After that I'm going back to editing the face myself.

(also a lil bonus of my sim from 2017, the only older picture that i have, i found it recently by accident and i think this is the only time when it's kinda in-context to post it 🤣).

#answered asks

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yaz-the-spaz · 5 years

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ahem. ziam fam may i have your attention please!

so this is apparently the shop where liam’s gotten his most recent rings from (the mickey mouse skull ring and winged gem ring)

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and i’m currently laughing my gay ass off y’all cause not only does basically everything on their website LOOK like exactly zayn’s style...it LITERALLY IS ZAYN’S STYLE (reference pics below) and that’s ON TOP of the fact that they also sell the anatomical heart necklace that liam was wearing recently and the eye rings (which they point out are each made unique and which is why i need an hq pic of liam’s asap so i can compare it to zayn’s properly to see if it really is the same one lol, not that it really matters anyway cause it’s still similar enough and a big enough coincidence, that they’ve both worn them, to leave everyone 👀)

anyway onto the pics!

liam in the mickey mouse skull ring and winged gem ring:

mouse skull ring

winged gem ring (which is also available in onyx like liam’s and can be seen in a closer up/better quality pic here)

some of their eye rings

both liam and zayn wearing brown eye rings (update: partial credit to @81sziam on twitter whose post i got the pics from, they also have a tumblr which that link is to, so go check them out and give ‘em a follow if you don’t already! however all original credit goes to @ziamminds who those pics originally came from, and who you should def go give a follow too if you don’t already!)

(eta: forgot to point all the similarities/coincidences in the fact that not only are they both horizontal - as opposed to vertical like is also an option - and appear to be the exact same shade of brown, but if those lines going through liam’s are in fact just a glare/shadow/result of weird lighting like i suspect they might be then i think it’s pretty safe to say it’s probably the same exact ring which he also just so happens to be wearing on his ring finger aka the same finger that has the 4 tattoo on it while he was supposed to be stunting with maya lol if that ain’t a giant bat signal idk what is 😏)

[putting the rest under a read more cause this got wayyyy long as usual]

anatomical heart necklace

liam in said necklace (second one’s a bit closer up for better viewing)

(update: i’ve since learned the pic of zayn that was formerly included here where he was wearing their indian chief ring is actually a manip and it wasn’t his hands nor his rings...sorry for the misinformation but just wanted to be forthcoming)

anyway...

zayn with a ring that looks very similar to their stone signet ring

(although keep in mind that since most of these pics of him are older it’s possible that there’s even more he’s worn from them that they don’t sell anymore or that what’s in their store right now might be a slightly different style than what he’s wearing in pics but still looks pretty similar enough that i felt it deserved to be included)

it’s hard to tell for certain from the quality of the pics for these next couple but one of the bracelets (third one down) in this pic looked a lot like their small skull bracelet

i know people have also always speculated that that chainlink bracelet was a cartier one but after looking around this website i wondered if it’s also possible it’s their shackle bracelet...might not be since the shape/style of the chainlinks/shackles looks a little different on zayn’s but just throwing it out there as a possibility

and the middle one here definitely looks like their black woven bracelet (which is possibly also in that first pic of zayn above but it’s easier to see in these pics since they’re more hq and not in black and white)

and this looks a helluva a lot like their thick link bracelet

there’s also these plain bands that we’ve seen zayn in a lot over the years

(he’s wearing one in that first black and white pic above too but here’s another one)

and last but not least this plain gold ring that i feel like i vaguely remembered liam wearing (or at least something similar/resembling it?) sometime back in like 2017 or so but for the life of me i can’t seem to find a pic of him in it even though i’m sure i reblogged it and tagged it

(edit: nvm i was remembering wrong, it was a similar-looking but different ring, the face had a design on it instead of being plain like this one)

but anyway here’s a (quite old now) pic of zayn in one that looks a lot like it, funnily enough from the night changes video lol

(also side note but the guy on their pendants page has some tattoos that look very similar to harry’s lol and harry’s rose ring looks to be from there too so #ot5 for the win)

(another update: just found out louis also follows the shop on IG and is believed to have bought the rose ring from them for harry years ago so yeah...definitely ot5 for the win, man do i love coincidences lol)

anyway feel free to browse around their website and see for yourselves and if anyone else notices any other good similarities/comparisons let me know and i will update this post!

#ziam #obvious husbands are obvious #i repeat OBVIOUS HUSBANDS ARE FUCKING OBVIOUS #THIS IS NOT A DRILL PEOPLE #i mean i'm simultaniously surprised and not surprised #we know september's a special month for them #and if old insider info/fan theories are to be believed so is paris and the eiffel tower in particular so...#first rumors of them both being in paris and now this shit with liam being obvious as hell lol #like...even if you don't necessarily believe they're still together #you gotta believe they at least talk or are still friends after this #cause lbr the chances of two celebs who supposedly don't talk shopping/buying stuff at the exact same obscure ass online jewelry shop?#(and harry too who is also supposedly their arch enemy?)#slim to fuckin none my dude #and when you pair that with rumors of them both being in the same city at the same time yet again...#once more the coincidences pile up lol #ziam coincidences #ziam jewelry #ziam proof #ziam evidence #ziam masterposts #(also credit to lstarry for bringing the site and their jewelry to my attention in the first place)#(also also if you liked this post please go give a nice little message of thanks to ziamminds #they are the originator of the eye ring pics without which i wouldn't have had anything to base the post on #and probably never would've made any of these connections that i did)#tacking on this tag from storyanonguy cause it's too good of a sum up not to:#that's a lot of happen stance from one website lol

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tripstaysnoided · 6 years

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First, thanks @nickysimblr!

This will be long as I have a lot of thoughts about screenshotting for almost six years now. I’ve taken somewhere in the realm of 10,000 - 15,000 most likely. Uptown alone has 3,600 screenshots uploaded to WordPress and many more than I don’t use...

I got my “start” a lot earlier (quotes because my storytelling attempts were just...different from what I do now and I barely stand behind them now) and in TS3′s run. The top screenshot is my first extant screenshot ever and it dates back to the summer of 2012. Middle is one of my first TS4 screenshots, and last is an Uptown pic from a few days ago (though that editing job was for this post in particular...no idea what it’ll look like in a chapter)

I’m not good at using the camera to convey emotion but I think that the characters themselves can make up for it. I started out as someone who wrote very game-driven stories and leaving my characters and their faces alone, but there is little effective emotionality without manipulation. The Sims, at least in its last two incarnations, is not a very smart game in that regard. So Journeyman, my sim in the first picture, had two modes: stone-faced TS3 idling and fighting with his wives (dude got divorced and remarried a lot). He had a lot of personality but it came in bursts, short-lived ones in the grand scheme of his life. I was imagining that he was in a bad mood getting up that day, but what about him says that?

But for a while with TS3, I still loved simply playing my game and trying to rationalize its logic. So I settled for screenshots that weren’t quite as emotional as I wanted. Ones that betrayed my seriousness for a bit of game-induced silliness, even though I optimally wanted something that was serious. I always had that desire to be.

The fear of “faking it” was something I let go of when I discovered poses and got good at using them. And more when I first started making ones for personal use. Suddenly it felt much more right to manipulate the game and mod it to get what I wanted to see. The big moment was just...knowing the game’s system too well. For The Sims as a whole, there’s a point where the illusion stops and you’re not playing a game. You’re watching mechanics you figured out continue on and it hits you: this is all fake. Why keep up the illusion yourself when you don’t believe it? Why not cheat and pose and mod until your game crashes under pressure?

And with that, I got where I wanted to be at last.

I did at least always employ decent composition, and I kept the damn walls up and plumbobs away from Day One. I heavily prefer it for gameplay too. What drew to me to screenshotting and visual storytelling at all was treating it like an extension of photography. Now I do very little photography in meatspace but my screenshot collection grows and grows. The tools change but images are images. You’ll hear the same rules for composition repeated throughout the visual arts. It’s my biggest question to anyone struggling with it: “find an image that you find visually appealing. What do you like about it? What did they do to make it that way?” I absorbed a lot of technique from television and I have absolutely no shame about that. (I also have no shame in taking writing influence from TV and movies and no one should)

Was my walls up obsession born out an innate desire to tell “real” stories all along? Idk. And has my composition improved? There’s one thing I keep catching myself doing (even today) and it’s not getting the tops of heads in shot. Hence me cherrypicking a recent picture that I framed correctly. Granted, there can be a reason to have to frame a shot that way, but when I catch myself, often the full head is a better choice. Close shots are great and rarely do I see beginners who shoot too close rather than shooting far too far away, but I’ve been at this game for too long to keep excusing it for myself.

At the end of 2014 was when my laptop croaked after I spilled coffee on it, so I upgraded to a better desktop and got a major graphics bump. Unfortunately, graphics quality is not a thing that can be learned.

Editing is still my weak spot, considering that I hadn’t done much of it before joining the Tumbles. I resize and sharpen my pics and have for a while now, but I’ve just been...allergic to pushing myself further. I’m also stubborn. I won’t use Photoshop, I won’t use Reshade for TS4 (considering it if I go back to TS3), I don’t like my sharp edges messed with. I’m always trying to find a place that’s comfortable for me.

But I also read through stories and blogs and no one has their aesthetic and editing figured out on Day One. It evolves and changes if it needs to and I’m happy to find people that continue tweaking theirs. It’s actually what I like the most about a storytelling community like this: there’s real-time feedback and a record of progress unless you purge it (like meeeee).

Now this one isn’t a linear improvement, but a thing I had to re-learn in TS4. I like busy images and all the sensory overload of them. In TS3, I did a lot of pattern and texture overload to make a room pop. To give it a rich and detailed landscape for the eyes to soak in, even for something as simple as a bedroom...

...and then EA pulled the rug out from under me. TS4 had no create-a-style (as we know) and a lot of the earlier items are pretty wretched in how little texture they have and there’s a lot I refuse to use. Where’s my fabric? My wood grain? I’m glad they improved and that we have some fantastic CC creators out here, but I repeat those questions a lot.

Some people would find the setting for my first TS4 shot fine, if bizarre (fighting in your son’s room, really?) but the flat textures just are gross to me and the room has nothing interesting going on.

EA and I have both gotten better. For me, it was through learning. Maybe pattern overload is a thing for a different game.

But as it turns out, I might not need it.

#gaymes

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seven-oomen · 4 years

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Lol, glad to be of service on the plot detail. Can not wait to find out precisely how I helped, and congrats on finishing the chapter. Very, VERY excited for the new one, though if previous experience is anything to go by, it’ll probably show up right about when I have to clock in. But that will give me something to look forward to during my shift. :D That game sounds awesome, but so intense. The other person I know paying it said she only made it about three hours before she had to pause for a while due to emotional overload. And I’m well used to that authorial tendency towards “sorry not sorry” when it comes to reader reactions. XD

Oh god, I love the idea of them as potentially competing players. Huge chunks of the unaffiliated/unaffected Houses would get caught up in the rumors and romance of it all. Chris in the stands getting all kinds of weird looks because he keeps rooting for both teams (uh…no pun intended?). And yeah, I like Defense Against the Dark Arts and History of Magic for Chris. Oh god I can see all of them excelling at the dueling club. He and Noah take Muggle Studies and develop a minor fascination with muggle weaponry. Ooh, what would their Patronuses (Patroni?) be? Would Peter be a wolf Animagus instead of a werewolf given their representation in the books?

And I love all the kids reacting to new siblings. (Jackson will always be the baby, even when he’s not, lol.) Hmm, I can’t decide if I like the idea of going more fantasy or sci-fi for the nursery (Fables sounds amazing, though, and I feel I need to find some copies. But perhaps slightly dark for a nursery.) Part of me feels they could give it sort of Hobbit-y feel, with rolling hills and towering forests, but add woodland characters in from lots of other series, too, scattered throughout the trees (and Ents, and Groots). Maybe a fake tree in one corner with one or two of those hanging chair things. But part of me just keeps screaming “OMG OUTER SPACE!!!" She could paint galaxies and nebulas across one wall. They could put glow-in-the-dark stars on the ceiling, and have a mobile of Star Wars ships over one crib and one of Star Trek ships over the other. Gah, I can’t decide! And Malia (or Peter) would totally need to make them each one of these wolf lovey blankets. In the correct colors for Peter’s coat, possibly out of the yarn with his fur, so the scent could comfort them. I actually found a number of geeky hats, etc, that she could make for them (I may have gotten a bit carried away. Again. In my defense they’re adorable.) Now I’m also curious how the kids set up their own rooms in the new house. Also curious where Ben’s deductive skills might later lead him.

You are very welcome for that image. It is a lovely one isn’t it? And can you imagine some of the poses they’d do for photo ops (especially with how shameless Peter is?) I also think one of the kids would manage to convince them to go out into the Preserve in those costumes to get some nicely atmospheric shots for Malia’s blog. At least one of those ends up on one of the walls of the house (nursery if more fantasy themed, living room/den otherwise) I just wish I could have found better pics than Google was providing. I refuse to believe there are that few guys that do Red Riding Hood. I know I’ve seen it at cons before.

Ugh, I have SO MANY FEELINGS about slow dancing together, and singing to/with each other. Just. All the yes. Gimme. Which reminds me, I was listening to one of the Guardians Awesome Mixes the other day, and it occurred to me that "O-o-oh Child” would actually work fairly well for the playlist, or as a lullaby they sing to their kids (maybe a hand me down from another family member, sung together before everything went to shit, then separately as a tiny point of connection, they start using it again when the newer kids come along. Maybe they even catch one of the older kids singing it to one of the babies? Idk, I’m apparently having feels.)

Omg, yes, go to bed, lol! Sleep is helpful and useful, especially when sick. (I say, as though I’m not terrible about it as well.) Enjoy your day off, and the probable many hours of gaming it will entail.

This is the section I changed:

The condom breaking on Noah and Peter had been one hell of a spectacle between the three of them. After what happened with him they’d been on edge and actively trying to avoid another accident. Anu, however, had other plans for them and had caused another pregnancy scare. They could only hope that they wouldn’t have to face reality once again. When Peter had told him he had three heartbeats and his scent had changed, he’d freaked out beyond belief. Merlia had bought him a pregnancy test and Talia had offered to have a talk with his father when it came back positive. He’d declined. He really didn’t want to tell his father that he was currently pregnant. And if Peter and the wolves were to believed, with twins. His father would carve his babies out of his stomach before he allowed him to carry to term. A protective hand rested on his abdomen and he looked up to find Peter staring at him, smiling.

Originally I had written that Chris wasn’t worrying and that he didn’t know he was pregnant just yet. Thanks to our back and forth, I realized, wait a second that’s a really big plot hole and I need to fix that.

I think Malia not telling Stiles was a plot hole as well, but I didn’t catch it on time and it’s not glaring in this case. (I think, I hope.) Whoops.

I’ve finished the game by now and I am very torn on it. On the one hand, I was very emotional but it just got darker and darker as it progressed and we are forced to spend time with a character we don’t like. And the way they wrote that story just doesn’t work for me. Which is really sad because the first game was my favorite game ever. And my Joel cosplay was one of the first cosplays that let me be a dude. I realized I was trans and got comfortable with that fact through cosplay. And Dean Winchester and Joel were fundamental cosplays for this. (I’m also planning a really dope Peter Hale cosplay. I’m so excited. Lemme show you some pics of what I want to do with SFX)

So this game, it’s very intense for me and I couldn’t finish it because of its story. I watched the rest on Youtube and I agree with many that it’s not a bad story, it’s just not likable. And you’re not meant to like it, but when I play games I play them for the story and to know this story is so unlikable. It kinda kills me inside.

But it definitely drives me to write a really good likable story myself. Even if it gets dark, I want people to say yeah, ok. I get it. I understand why these characters did this. But I’m happy this ended well and my favorite characters got a happy ending together. That’s what I want Once upon a Time to mean.

"O-o-oh Child” would actually work fairly well for the playlist, or as a lullaby they sing to their kids (maybe a hand me down from another family member, sung together before everything went to shit, then separately as a tiny point of connection, they start using it again when the newer kids come along. Maybe they even catch one of the older kids singing it to one of the babies?

I loved this suggestion so much, I once again put it in the story. It’s gonna be sweet but also heart wrenching. I can’t wait to see your reaction.

And once again, I adore all of this. I just have a lot I wanna say, also in regards to your reviews and I’m trying to figure out what things I can talk about.

This story is rather full of men who are uncles, in fact. But not men who are from U.N.C.L.E., that's a different fandom entirely. Am I getting a bit slap happy? Quite possibly. Oh well.)

This had me hollering, thank you for that. I honestly don’t know what my uncle obsession is in this story. It just fits? But this was funny, my god.

"Please..." Melissa muttered. "Uncle Chris, you patented the kicked puppy look" Did you mean for that to be Derek?

Yeah, the lines were supposed to be :

"Please..." Melissa muttered.

"Uncle Chris, you patented the kicked puppy look"

I missed that one in the edit, but I fixed it! So there was a space that I missed. New line, new character saying something.

Had a moment of delayed reaction to noticing that Peter says "I've made these", not "I've had these made" (was too excited and reading too quickly the first time), and like, made as in carved himself?

I was wondering why that hadn’t come up yet, hahaha, but I see. And yeah, he carved it himself with his own claws. I thought that had a deeper meaning and that’s where the wood carving headcanon came from.

I think that’s everything that I can address right now. I’m definitely writing everything else down.

And I will definitely share a sweet little flashback today and find a good FC for John Hale. (Nathaniel, Talia, Merlia, and Peter’s dad.)

I’m thinking:

But if you have any suggestions feel free to let me know ^^

#ben says stuff #once upon a time comments #submission

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lostincalum · 7 years

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Best friends?- Ashton Irwin

AN: i really like this and i’ve edited it a bit, please give me some response it would be really appreciated

TW: none, maybe a bit angst?? idk

Word count: A bit over 1 700

Nobody had ever actually talked about it. Your constant need to always do extreme things. Name it you’ve done it. From skydiving to longboarding down a hill in a ridiculous tempo. You had moved to LA for the waves. That’s what you told everybody. And conveniently enough, your best friend Ashton lived there, so you crashed there, expecting him to be away for most of the time. But you didn’t expect him to actually be home. The last two years he had been traveling the world, and that’s kind of what you expected him to do. It didn't last very long. You had not taken into account that he would stay in LA to write out a third album. So instead of having time to shake the stupid school girl crush off, you were left with a lot more time to fall for him.

It was a little before sunrise when you woke up. No sunrays shining through the window and no warm gust of wind flowing through the slightly open window. Regardless, you sat up in the bed and rubbed the sleep from your eyes. Swinging you legs over the side of the bed, you winced as you put them down in the cold floor. Padding over to the chair where you kept all your clothes, that were not to dirty, you picked up a hoodie and pulled it over your head. Next on was a pair of fluffy socks and grey sweatpants. Unplugging your phone from the charger you saw you already had a message from Luke.

05:10 Ready for a morning sesh?

05:17 Yup, be here in 20?

You set the phone down as you started on a simple bowl of some surprisingly good porridge Ashton usually made for breakfast. It usually was only when both of you were home in the morning. You jumped a little when your phone pinged as you set the pan to boil.

05:25 On my way!

Rushing to your back porch you quickly took down your cold wetsuit and the surfboard that stood leaned up against the wall. you then jogged through the house to put it up against the wall in front of the driveway, so Luke could put it in the Jeep he drove for surfing. You hurried back into the kitchen to take the now finished porridge off the stove, and poured into a bowl and sat down on the kitchen island as you ate. When you finished you put the dishes in the dishwasher and headed to your bedroom to change into a bikini.

As you tied the string around your neck, you heard your door creek open. You turned around as you pulled the same hoodie over your head, welcoming the warmth.

Ashton spoke as your head poked free from the sweater.

"Hey, that’s mine."

You looked down at yourself before meeting his eyes. Then you realised that the olive green vans hoodie you had pulled on did not belong to you at all. You felt warmth spreading all the way from your neck and up to your cheeks. It did not help that he was dressed in only boxers.

"Sorry, did you want it back?"

He smiled at you, and shook his head.

"There is some porridge left if you want some, otherwise I have to go really soon."

Just as you uttered the last word, your phone pinged again. You looked down as you swiped it open and looked at the message.

05:46 I'm outside

"Actually, I have to go now."

You smiled sheepishly, and rushed out the door, Ashton following you.

"Where are you going?"

He looked down on you, with a crease between his brows, his never failing curiosity showing.

"I'm just going for a quick morning surf with Luke. Fuck, hand me that bag will you?"

You spoke as you pointed to the black bag you almost forgot, that was sitting on the floor. He handed it to you and looked on in wonder as you rummaged through it to see that you had all you needed.

"Bye, I'll see if we make it back before you head to the studio."

The wave you gave him did not quite seem to be enough for him, as he looked at you with something like disappointment in his eyes.

….

"So, how are you?"

Luke asked as you fiddled with your phone on the way to a secluded beach you had found a while a go. The waves there were not too big here.

"I'm okay I guess."

"I guess? What does that mean?"

"Well, a few days ago Ash brought a girl home, I felt completely and utterly pathetic, it was as if the bottom of my stomach dropped to the ground."

Your phone slipped to you lap, to cover your face with your hands.

"Ash has always been to blind to see what is right in front of him, don’t stress it, he will either come around, or you will have to make the first move."

"Oh no, I'm not going to make any moves. What if he doesn't like me like that?"

The frustration in your exclamation was obvious.

"Well, if he ever brings girls over, you are more than welcome to come to my place"

….

There he goes again, new flavour of the evening screaming his name over and over, as you were trying to sleep. Your heart kept clenching and tears were pricking at the back of your eyes. Before you even realized completely what you were doing, you sat behind the wheel of your cheap slightly beat up pic up truck. It didn’t quite fit in on this street, but it did everything you asked it to do. So when you pulled up to Luke's driveway you quickly pulled up the hand brake, took the keys out of the ignition, and stepped out of the car.

When Luke opened the door, he was wearing a pair of flannel pants and a grey hoodie, paired with a sleepy face.

"I'm sorry, I didn't really look at the time and all, but Ashton has this chick over and I couldn’t really do-"

Luke cut off your mini rant, by pulling you into the house and closing the door behind you.

"Look, I know it sucks and all, but if you really can't take it anymore, you should try talking to him about it. Not necessarily tell him you like him, but that you don’t appreciate him bringing home girls every night."

You looked at down at your hands, before meeting his eyes over the coffee table. You knew he was right, and you could not keep on doing this to your self. Being aroud him just kept on giving you more hope, that didn't really exist.

"Okay, tomorrow after I've gone back."

….

You sat staring at the door, from inside you car for what felt like hours, when in reality it was probably a couple of minutes. Stepping out from the car, you walked inside silently. Going straight to your bedroom only to see Ashton standing smack dab at the centre of the room with your phone in his hands.

"Where the fuck have you been?"

To put it simply, Ashton looked angry. That was about the last drop for you.

"That's none of your business"

The words came out silently, but sharp. You really did not want to start a fight.

"Of course it's my business, you are my best friend, you can't just disappear, and not tell me"

He exclaimed as he stepped closer to you. Your stomach dropped yet again as he called you "best friend"

"Watch me"

Defiance was clear in your voice. You stepped closer to him

"I will not watch you, what if something happens to you?"

Ashton almost sounded worried, and frustrated.

"I was at Luke's, I could't sleep."

The look in his eyes was definitely worried now.

"You could have come in to my room, i would't have minded."

"You would have minded alright, you and that chick you had over. I just can't do this anymore."

He went red all over, there was no doubt about it. But there was a questioning look to his eyes.

"Forget what i just said. I'll see if Luke has a spare room or some shit."

All the fight you had previously had in you, had now gone. You felt tired, and just wanted to get out of this house. Not Ashton though, it would seem like he had a little more left in him.

"No, you are telling me what's bothering you, you can talk to me."

And there it was, he was always the understanding, forgiving type.

"Not this one, let it go Ashton"

That ought to have hurt, you never called him Ashton, usually it was just "Ash"

"I will not let it go"

He all but yelled. Thats when it boiled over for you completely, and every second thought seemed to fall away.

"Cause I'm in love with you, I'm in over my head, and I can't live here when you only see me as your best friend. I'm sorry I've-"

Suddenly, his lips were on yours, you got the same rush you get after you've caught a wave. Everything else just seemed to fall away, everything felt right. For a second. You pushed him away.

"I don't want your pity Ash"

"This isn't pity, this is love. I've been trying to push away this crush I've had on you for ages. You just hung out with Luke so much, i thought you might like him."

You felt a pang of guilt in your chest.

"Looks like we are both at fault here"

The thought that this was reality seemed a little unreal. And unlike every other romance and relation, every other thing that had happened to you in your life, this felt different. you wanted to do this differently.

"Can we just take it slow though? I don't want to rush this"

The feeling of embarrassment could not quite be shaken. Ashton carefully put a finger under your chin and lifted it up, so your eyes met his.

"Of course we can take this slow"

Nobody really talked about it now, your need to slow down sometimes, and how Ashton helped with that. He encouraged your activities and sports, but he helped you mellow it out when it was needed.

#ashton irwin #ash #ashton fluff #5sos #ashton imagine #5sos imagine #5sos fluff #txhohood #cliffordchick #outerspxcehood #honeymoonmuke #okay im posting this again #with minor edits #i really like it #so please dont sleep on it #or give me some response #i would really appreciate it

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first post!

after fucking around with the editing of custom themes that was made ever so difficult by the tumblr theme, i think im finally done setting up my blog and its theme! i might try to mess around with the html a bit to insert a pic in the header or smth eventually or change the background, but ive been fighting with this website for like an hour and a half now and i am t i r e d.

who are u!

i’m camille! im 19, an aries and a white queer cis girl (she/her). i have a boyfriend that i luv very dearly and i’m from québec! my university is in ontario and it’s bilingual, as am i (my first language is french, and yes, i do have the french canadian accent, if you’re wondering). i am double majoring art and art history and i love it a lot! i’d love to specialize myself in english medieval history, especially in the fields of christian iconography and hagiography.

so, what is this blog?

this blog will be used to document my student exchange in london and the trip to the uk i will make preceeding that exchange. i’ll also document a bit of the process of applying for the exchange, bc it is quite a long one indeed!!!! i’ve been working on it since last semester and it honestly took a lot more time than i expected, especially because i have to make a preliminary schedule and some uni websites are especially hard to navigate. i might also talk about the planning that’ll go into the trip my boyfriend and i want to have before my semester.

what am i gonna do?

-travel across the uk with my boyfriend

-then study during the fall semester of 2019 in london in history

what’s the plan?

basically, i have quite a bit of money put aside for the trip and the exchange. i will continue to work this summer (im already pretty much guaranteed to have one, but it’s a haunted walk tour guide job and, although my hourly salary is quite good, i have very few hours; ill have to find another job if the one i have at the moment is only seasonal). then, in early august, my boyfriend and i will leave canada together and travel all across the uk. i have already traveled with him to his homecity (manchester, uk) and it was absolutely lovely! we’ll spend around a month/a month and a half traveling together and i’m pretty sure it’ll go extremely well, as our last trip did. we traveled pretty early on in our relationship, so i feel like after around 2 years and a half of dating, this trip will be even better than the first!

after the trip, my boyfriend will go see his family in manchester and go back home to canada. i, on the other hand, will be staying in europe. the university i will attend for the semester is the queen mary university of london. the semester there starts on september 16th, so idk if there’ll be some introductory activities or when i can start living on campus. i might just travel on my own or go see some family friends in france if i have to wait around. all i know is that it’ll be quite lonely. then, i’ll go back to london and try my best to have a great semester.

obstacles

there are a few obstacles that i’ll have to face to first of all be accepted but also to live there. first, there is the language barrier, which i dont think should be too much of an issue but??? who knows???

my first language is french and the accent in english that im used to is like the most basic, neutral, slightly canadian accent. anyone who deviates from that, i might have a hard time understanding. also, handing in essays in english is a bit scary. ive done it before, as my university is bilingual and i attend french and english classes, but it still makes my work a bit longer to do and my english doesnt have the same quality as my french. it also makes the process longer since i have to write my motivation letter in the language of the university ill be attending (so english) and i have to PROVE that i can speak/understand/write english....i mean i get the incentive but also....anyway, i can just basically show ive had more than a B+ in a class in english and it counts as a proof. good thing 3/5 of my classes were only available in english i guess.

also, my university does exchange programs in a way that you have three choices of university and depending on your gpa and your motivation letter, they give you either your first, second or third choice. my three choices are:

-queen mary university of london

-royal holloway university of london

-reading university

of course, reading was a filler. i would have wanted to put manchester as a choice instead, but the choice wasnt available for my program. i have a pretty high gpa (so far i have 3 A+ and 1 A, waiting for my last grade) and im trying to writing the best motivation letter that i can. ill have to upkeep my gpa to be able to participate in the exchange so fingers crossed???

where are you now in the process?

not many things are left for me to do for the application, and that’s perfect because i have until the 22nd to send in my finished application form (and we are the 9th, and my term has started). there are other things to take care off AFTER the application (like some meetings and obviously doing my schedule and booking my dorm room) but im not there mentally now,,, its a bit discourageing when i know how much work ill have during the term lmao.

so NOW what i have left is:

-receiving my last grade from last semester so i can enter my gpa and a copy of my grades’ summary

-take a picture of myself in front of a white background (lowkey waiting to get a haircut for that)

-i had to prepare schedules for each school with like what classes id be attending. i have to get approved my first school choice by my “department counsellor”. that was very unclear so i basically sent a message to two people + my department so like démerdez-vous lmao. when i get the schedule approved, i’m pretty much gucci!

-also my bf and i have to figure out the whole trip, but we’ll prolly start planning in april, after finals and when we have most of the money we want/know what kind of income we’ll be making this summer

-finally, ill miss everyone, especially my boyfriend...itll feel a bit lonely so i rly wanna keep busy so i dnt get too mopey. i always told myself i wouldnt stop myself from going away even if i had a significant other and i wanna stay true to that but it doesn’t mean it wont hurt...i know we’ll last for very long tho so this is just a few months out of many many more and we can withstand it for sure!

so that was a rly big post!!! had fun writing this and im excited to see what’ll happen! i should know if i’m approved in around march, so i’ll probably not update this blog a lot until then... can’t wait to be able to update it with lotsa good news, hopefully!

-camille

#preparation #personal #studyblr #student exchange

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