#Cool Memories V

[thirdity]

Wariness of one's nearest and dearest, as though they were potential witnesses for the prosecution in your existence, evidence of guilt in a trial that is permanently suspended.

Jean Baudrillard, Cool Memories V

#self #other #people #responsibility #existence #quotes #Baudrillard #Jean Baudrillard #Cool Memories V

[poliodeuces]

mask off i do not like the theory that ramuda's cloned from rei's wife.............

#i cant tell exactly why alright i just do not like it at all..... #ive always been a fan of stella's scientist ramuda. i think it would be cool if the person ramuda's cloned from is just rei's colleague #or a close friend #like i Know his wife could also be both of these which is the only way ypu could sell the theory to me #as far as we know ramuda's clones are also made w being replaceable/disposable as one of its attributes #and i dont want to think thats what rei wouldve wanted w a clone made from his wife who he seems to love v dearly #aaaa idk. what i also want is to see rei have a friend #and nayuta not just be rei's dead wife #i mean shes not confirmed dead but i meant the trope #it's different from how gentsro's brother is handled bc it was hinted from the v start #i know the inherent drama of cloning your dead loved one bc it's a huge part of tales of the abyss lol #but ugh i cant arrange my thoughts coherently sorry... #i remember first having this thought seeing rei give one of the first clones a cigarette and i wanted it to mean something #as in to relive an old memory...bc out of all the first things he couldve done it was that #or does it just mean he was indifferent to the clone's health lol bc it's definitely a choice

[ask-seer]

"umm hi big brother Eli, may I let your owl please?" Little girl said it sweetly.

"Pet? Of course you can! As long as you promise to be gentle with her."

"Brooke loves when you gently stroke her feathers here. Also take in mind that owls are very smart so be careful and hope that you make a good first impression as she will remember this for the rest of her life. Owls are also-" Eli now continues to ramble about bird facts.

#identity v #identityv #eli clark #eliclark #identity v seer #|(┰⍔┰)| > answered ask #|(┰⍔┰)| > anonymous #identity v little girl #//Memory is cool. Totes love when they cancel attack recovery :") #// I did have one today that really helped and did timed body blocks and everything and omg BEST

[balladetto]

reasons to cup a face / always accepting / @gloryseized ( Shion )

GROUND, during a moment of intense emotional stress, the sender gently takes the receiver's face in their hands to ground them until they're calmer again.

     It happens in snapshot moments.

     As he registers the feel of a palm between his fingers, somehow heaving against him without toppling him over, Kane opens his eyes. He blinks — blinks again, and the inside of the Temple of Time comes into focus: a muted colour to the light that pours in through its stained glass windows as if the very air has mildewed. There's a silence here that unnerves him. He realises, at once, three things.

     Kane is in a body he does not recognise but knows, deep down, is his.

     He is holding onto someone he does not recognise but knows, deeper down, is his brother.

     This is a Dream. Which is different from a dream, 'cause this is the type — the only type — he can still vividly recall after waking, like echoes bleeding into reality. He's been getting these recently.

     Almost as though he's been waiting for these things to connect, the likeness of Shion wrests his hand from Kane's. He steps away. He's— so tall like this, figure looming, shadows on his face that can't be cut through, but so is Kane; so is the form he's been warped into, and they are two brothers divided by a space that shouldn't be making his breath quicken so hard.

     "I promise," Shion's image signs, a bold declaration with bold movements, and Kane — for the same reason he knows without recognising — wants to scream at him. What are you promising? Do you have any idea? You can't promise me something like that. You can't promise me something you've already broken!

     Don't leave me!

     The quiet stretches. He can't move. He's stuck in a moment he doesn't know how to break out of, hand vainly outstretched and wide eyes pinned on a face he can't see. His skin feels one touch removed from splitting apart the way his heart feels one nudge off from falling over the precipice of some knife's edge, yet he aches anyway, willing to be ripped open if it means his brother will be there.

     His brother will not be there.

     Kane watches in helpless horror as Shion turns, boots tapping out a decisive farewell march. He's distantly aware of the little light following after him — Navi, it takes a second to place, blue and a perfect fit and so out of place at the same time. They're going ahead without him, approaching the pedestal made for the sword on Shion's back, and Kane is struck with such a sudden desperation that his body, frozen as it is, trembles. Convulses.

     Stop, he can't cry. Don't leave me, he can't plead. It's only when his brother raises the Master Sword high, about to return it to its resting place, that the stone Kane's trapped in releases him. He stumbles forward — forces himself to keep stumbling forward, throat strained raw as he calls for his brother, but he can tell— he's too late. He's too late. The Dream stills, suspended on knowledge he can't look away from—

     Kane wakes up to arms binding his hands to his sternum and a hot face pressed into the back of his neck.

     For a second, the change thoroughly dazes him. He blinks, capturing nothing, and in its span: the world rearranges itself. Pain flares from his chest, throbbing in time with the harsh, too-fast breaths strangling him. The night is lit by firelight, casting a dim glow over cave walls and along the things in a campsite for two travellers. With how sticky his nose and cheeks and eyes feel, he thinks he's probably been crying. His brother is here.

     His brother is here.

     "Shh-ii—" he starts, and finds he won't complete the name.

     Shion jerks against his side, inhaling so sharply it sounds like it'd hurt before hurriedly pulling away from where he's curled around Kane. The motion has him nauseous with a fear carried over, snatching at a forearm the right size with hands the right size, but his brother isn't— isn't going away. He moves until they're facing each other, gaze searching for Kane's. This up close, he can trace every contour. He can delineate every crease, put an emotion to every feature — helped by a nearby fairy's shine. Yellow. Tatl.

     He— lets go. "Shion," he shakily, unnecessarily, forms with his hands. It's too cramped for brother to be signed well, so he repeats it again, and again, and again. The shape falls apart further each time, until it's little more than his left hand knocking atop his right.

     Don't leave me. Don't leave me. Don't leave me. If he could carve this into his skin so Shion can see and understand it when his voice and fingers are as useless as they are now, he would. And maybe some part of him really tried, maybe that's what the twinges running along the lengths of his arms are, but— his brother has never needed Kane's words to know what to do.

     Shion holds him gently. Carefully, palm and fingertips assured in their own tenderness. He presses a different message into the skin of his cheeks, the answer to all that goes unsaid but not unrealised.

     Don't leave me, Kane begs with a bitten lip, heaving shoulders, and a weird, awful certainty that he'll be ignored.

     I'm here, Shion swears with circling thumbs, eyes that reflect his twin's pain, and a steady, near irremovable warmth.

     Kane's voice trips over an ugly sob. He pushes his hands over his brother's, drinking in the touch with an overwrought exhaustion, and tries to match his breathing to the slow cadence of that terribly profuse love.

     ( What a strange Dream, he will later think as they drift back to sleep. A strange fear, he will correct, squeezing-hand-in-squeezing-hand. Shion would never leave him. )

#gloryseized #* gloryseized & kane / if i'm alive‚ my brother can't be dead. #( hi. i'd say sorry for the length and sorry being obsessed with them but. i'm really not sorry at all #[collapses on my face] HILARY. HILARYYYYY I AM SHAKING YOUUU #touching on what we discussed re: memories of adult timeline kane crossing over to child timeline kane #i imagine the tailend of those memories comes mid-mm so that's great!! that's so cool!! [bursts into a puddle] #also thinking about how kane would not develop the intense touch aversion grasshopper does. esp @ his brother. and god. GOD. #eternally emo over these two thanks 😭😭 TRULY THANK YOU FOR SENDING THIS IN!! ) #* lionheart / ic. #* lionheart / answer. #* ic / para. #* v / stars of unchanged fates. #ask to tag / #long post cw

[indieblueart]

Finally got around to drawing my IDV mains!

#out of context this just looks like memory and her cool gay aunts #IDV #identity v #idv entomologist #idv priestess #idv little girl #idv melly #idv fiona #idv memory #indie’s art

[mercyisms]

If you don't find harrow as interesting to discuss as the other characters I totally understand, but I have been dying to find meta from people much smarter than me about the paragraph from Crux in NtN: "Lady,..you've gone away again, my lady; where have you run?...Who are you this time, if not my Lady Harrowhark?" (pg 459, hardcover) Have you seen any? I'm surprised I haven't seen it mentioned more, but the NtN has a ton to talk about so

oh! well, i certainly do find harrow, gideon, ianthe, and so on very interesting. i just happen to have a specific illness that makes me very sure i remember almost everything mercymorn and augustine & co have said, and much easier to discuss. that is a fascinating little moment! it strikes me as something that is hard to write meta about, per se, because it refers to something concrete that the author clearly knows but hasn't quite surfaced in the realm of the novel. it's harder to analyze, though potent for speculation! depending on how much you trust crux and his read of harrow's childhood, it certainly suggests a pattern of dissociation or hiding. (again, not enough there for me to call it evidence, but it feels in line with, say, discussions of harrow as a person with schizophrenia? i've seen some thoughtful pieces on that before, though i'm not able to link to any off the top of my head.) it's a brief window into harrow's childhood that harrow herself may not be able to recognize and gideon, in gtn, certainly would not have been privy to. crux's rhetoric, though superficially soothing, is also, perhaps, a way of seeing the different ways harrow came to understand her profound duty to the ninth. i think what i feel certain about re: that moment is it very clearly sets up context for crux's interactions with gideon/kiriona, which strike me as the primary dramatic purpose for crux's return. the comparison between moment of (as best as he can manage anyway/undeniably twisted) tenderness and reaffirmation and the way crux treats paul (crotchety/resentful to outsiders) and gideon (undeterred, spiteful hatred) remind us a) the initial dynamics gideon/harrow were steeped in (and possibly how far they have or haven't come?) and b) how lmao deeply vile and personal crux's hatred for gideon is. it's that "why doesn't it feel good" that is, within nona, still the showstopper for me. (crux being a mutation of a father figure is important there, for sure.) if there was something more you had on your mind, i'd love to hear it! but considering those paragraphs without any further context... to me, they're wonderful bits of colour, but not necessarily enough on their own to suggest much. possibly there will be more to them in alecto -- also possibly it refers to something that will never make the narrative!? however, if people have cool thoughts please link them in he replies.

#thank you for the ask anon i'm v touched but very sorry i'm not more useful #asks #i'll be very honest i check a very limited number of blogs for cool thoughts so i'm not always up to date #though i love see what the people think #really very possible this could link up to something in htn that i erased from my memory while looping augustine spitting teeth into #his little sink again and again and again #i think what is definite is mostly kiriona pushing deeper and deeper into the ninth and reconnecting with how deeply hostile it is #& that being fuel for her to believe more fully in the narrative john has spun for her #it's also a moment for the narrative to try and give us not an objective but an outsider's perspective #we see aiglemene's fondness for gideon and loyalty to gideon (and notably Not towards harrow) much more clearly through nona's eyes #sorry if this is just fully renarrating the text for you #something something also mb about how per tamsyn there are two 'found family' (critical) narratives in nona (john + disciples / #nona / pyrrha / campal) but something possibly dramatically there to bringing them back to the initial 'found family' (awful) of the ninth #there is a parallel #uhh okay that is all i've got here #it's a fascinating line! but as i said i'm not sure it's anything we can crack here but perhaps someone else has more robust thoughts!! #ntn spoilers

[bergameow]

dudes from dunkin

#idk how to tag this one #since these r based on real people #but drew from memory #they wrtrer talking about adam sandler and i enjoyed their vibes #v cool #dunkin donuts

[yellow-artz]

Insert something about that one tiktok meme with the wolf

#idv #identity v #luchino diruse #idv Luchino #god #HES SO COOL #i need to get around drawing the others from this essence #the entire aesthetic is just so GOOD #i remember my first time drawing Horrendous it was based purely on memory #god he looked NOTHING similar besides the hat to what his design actually was 💀 #i made him look so goofy

[piplupod]

i want Andrew to front so he can make more art bc his art is so cool, but to do that /i/ would have to not be (anywhere near) front so im ... awoughhh snfkdl i just want more cool art of his to look at but he only did two pieces before switching out and I haven't noticed hide nor hair of him since then ;-; Andrew come back, i want more art fjfkfl

#he's hard to get a hold of for some reason fhfkdl #i think he might hold some of the worse trauma memories and feelings tho dnfkdl so he probably doesnt come close to conscious v often #so that we can like... function #but god his art is so cool fhkdld im going to rb it again sorry i just love looking at it #pippen needs 2nd breakfast #roundtable stuff

[aro-aizawa]

when i was a kid and i baked with my grandma i’d often get an allergic reaction, not generally due to me eating things i knew i was allergic to, mostly because i’d touch something and put my hands near my mouth and being like 5-8 i didn’t wash my hands everytime i touched something. anyways allergic reactions were common for me as a kid bc i was allergic to raw egg which is required in nearly all baking. as an adult i pretty much never have allergic reactions as i outgrew my raw egg allergy (i think) and generally am only allergic to hazelnuts now. anyways i was looking through my grandma’s decades old recipe folder and ended up getting an allergic reaction from something that was on the sheets.

#shut up danni's talking #nice to know that even when she’s gone she still envokes those memories #also found out my great grandma’s name was sarah enid but went by her middle name #which is cool as heck #also dw my allergic reaction was v minor its already dying down #it just swelled a dot on my lip a little and my cheekbone got a little red #mostly from where i’d touched the sheets with the back of my pen and with the hand i was turning pages w #and i used that hand to rest my head on so #but i took some anti allergy tablets and im fine #still rather funny scenario tho lol

[thirdity]

The champions of the digital adopt an absurd line of argument (absurd in the sense of Freud's story of the kettle): 1. It is a revolution, an absolute advance. 2. At any rate, we have no choice, the process is irreversible. But it must be one or the other: if it is inevitable, there's no point representing it as an ideal dimension. And if it's destined to win out, there's no point claiming it is best.

Jean Baudrillard, Cool Memories V

#technology #progress #change #ideals #values #quotes #Baudrillard #Jean Baudrillard #Cool Memories V

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#hhhh my body is tired. i couldnt sleep and then my day was upside down and i spent 4hrs transfering algae #i still have 1 work day until i go home. which is to say i will do 2 days of computer work and 1 day of manual labor in the field before i #go home. bc i have to get these fucking manuscripts done #but i guess it was an ok day. it wasnt yesterday where i left the lab by 12 for fear of bursting into tears. sometimes i just cant stand to #work sitting down. its really annoying #but i did have to say goodbye to our visiting phd student today bc she goes back to spain in the new year #which is sad bc shes really cool but she liked to do snail mail so im excited to be pen pals with her #bc ive never done the snail mail thing. shes like 5 to 10 years older than me? like old enough to have fully formed memories of the 90s #hhhh i still have to order Christmas presents. i just. i wish i could stop the present exchange. no body buy me anything so i dont have to #buy u anything. im so tired. #and i still have to make Christmas presents for my parents and sisters. with what time? #ill have to burn away my vacation time for that. hhhh i shoulf just sleep now #but i wont. ill pack bc i might as well while im being unproductive and i wont make time for it later so ya kno #i just wanna be home not doing anything but also i have many things to do and lots of things to prepare before i can do school visits #assuming i get more than one. and oh fuck thats right i still have that last application. tomorrow morning thsts what ill do. god dammit #the 4 hrs of algae transfering was my break and me being unfocused now #just 3 more days and 2 full day of traveling then i can whine at my parents abt how sad i am lol nah ill do that thing where u go #haha yea im in a lot of pain lmao so no one fully takes u seriously even tho ur saying something fucked up #that my mo bc i cant take my pain seriously. part of my brain detaches itself and thinks its all v funny #bleh. brain is goo #unrelated

[oatbugs]

a triangle and other things id like on my body

#bc alt j but also like . cool shape mathematically + delta as in everything delta represents including a change / transformation #still need ideas for a tattoo that goes along my entire spine though #ill defintely get the phi symbol tattooed at some point and probably psi as well #tifold knots mean a lot but also i feel the triangle covers it . same w R^3 spaces .. #and also like . 2n-3k-3>0 maybe somewhere bc in knot theory any smooth k sphere to which that applies is unknotted . and it represents sm #bc it has so many applications to like . diff areas of maths and bio and genetics and physics and everything everything ever . #some of my favourite axioms . including axiom of infinity + also a { } for obvious reasons (existence of an empty set is still an existence #but also like . idk theres more 2 it im sure you get it maybe) #something to do w angels more to do w manifolds #the letter v (a valley like the one i died and loved in + the longitudinal fissure + vogt dig for kloppervok + lots of other stuff) #an octagon formation that reminds me of breathing #(alders breathing keeping weeping leaves all sinking fever dreaming brothers sleeping wolves all creeping weavers weaving - wickerbird) #some forms of liquid swirls in red (red for wine or love or blood but mostly wine) particularly around the angels bc its a persian poem #and its where my name is from and it means a lot . a straight line with regular gaps inbetween it like the windows of a train #(particularly around or inside or a part of the angels maybe for many reasons . incomplete line / train imagery paired w holiness . hmm) #something to do w an opened up pomegranate (preferably close to the red lines) #a part of the night sky superimposed over itself (twice as many stars as usual) . in the dark times will there be singing ? there will be #singing of the dark times . #rippling effects somewhere around the wine swirls (diving into your grief and raising your head instead of drowning + the universe #isnt mine its me + to care is to accept that you may drown for it + my memories w vodka + a lot more) #dots going down veritcally (water falling off trees and the pipe of the building as the snow melted in the mountains) #the audio waveform of the repeating tune in the song dissolve me #maybe around where the wine lines ripple out a bit #archives #quartz clock

[15tarlit5kyline]

#Vapor Memory #Afterdeath Television #vaporwave #v a p o r w a v e #a e s t h e t i c #electronic #music #audio #musical #mood #atmosphere #aesthetic #cool #awesome #interesting

[overobsessedfanboy23]

What I heard about Arc V’s final 8 episodes prior to starting them: It does something completely different and stupid and gives no closure to the characters! Worst ending of any of the shows, brings the whole thing down for me.

Me: But Yuya rides a hippo riding a dragon though.

#yugioh #ygo #yugioh arc v #ygo arc v #arc v #yuya sakaki #I'll be honest i like the return to simple fun that Arc V had in the beginning #the final duel did leave things to be desired #there are some pacing and character issues #but I like the fun #and the mystery for that matter #we know sort of what happened #the dimensions went back to being the way they were #but not without consequence #now the timeline is messed up and no one remembers anything #it's just like what happened when the dimensions were initially split #Yuya is basically having the memory flashbacks that Leo had #that's cool to see in real time #although the Layra and Yuzu situations are confusing #I'll give you that

[crickwater]

okay my theory since ortus the lyctor showed up was that he is related to gideon (possibly her dad) and now we know he got in trouble for something nineteen years ago.... inchresting

#gideon being a lyctor's child would explain her survival #and her name in the labs..... omg what if gideon was ortus's name prior to being a lyctor and her mom was actually calling to him #it would also be v symbolically cool with gideon being replaced by ortus as his name and in harrow's memories. parallels and shit #also ortus is a ginger so that's basically proof his gideon's dad right