#ALSO DEAR LORD THAT ENDING

[voidedjuice]

Reread through Specter's second oprec and screencapped some of my favorite moments

These ladies make me so emotional :(

Also, while i love and cherish the confident, suave and happy Specter post SN, I have to admit I've got a personal soft spot for the bitter, hopeless Specter here

#arknights #theres so much in here i go completely feral over #specter lamenting being unable to sing vs skadi at the end remarking she had regained that ability at least... #specters future plans she was so sure she could never fulfill because of her illness....... #skadis speech in the beginning about wanting to speak with specter again awough #I just love them so much #ALSO DEAR LORD THAT ENDING #specter going back to her previous state & rejecting skadi #then skadi just following sadly behind her. glad she had retained at least a small part of herself this time with her ability to sing #AAAAAAAAAAA

[itsafternoonpast5]

HOLY SHIT? got around to watching the new episode and it’s one of the best in the series. im absolutely shocked it’s so good

#camp camp #i had no expectations for the episode. thought it would be not very good consider the shows previous writing #but easily the best episode. nothing even compares to it #like CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT FOCUSED i would have never guessed #it’s so fucking good i cant do this #AND EVERYONE ELSE TOO :’) ahhhh ah it was so fun to watch everyone again #and neils earring gag LMAOO how it ended was so goofy. im a big fan of his loserness #also preston just like me fr fr 👍👍 #GODDD I cant get over how good it was #ALSO THE ANIMATIONN😭😭😭 every scene was so well animated. like the quality of the series JUMPED it rules #i need to rewatch it to get my full thoughts on it but dear lord im so happy with how it turned out #and max starting gymnastics :’) that’s so cool. i was hoping he’d be into photography but also something new is nice

[civilotterneer]

Listen closely, I have something to tell you:

I didn't know Echo had good and bad endings for some characters and just thought they each had 1 ending. I thought Leo's bad ending was just the Leo ending.

L: CIV! You've been making fanart of it for months now and haven't even gotten the rest of the way through Flynn's ending! You've literally only completed 2 endings! You can't just talk like you're not still missing most of the other stories!

Don't listen to her. I totally didn't do TJ's route first and thought I had it all figured out from then on.

L: Well maybe if you took a pause off fanart and actually read more of the stories YOU'D ACTUALLY GET MORE MATERIAL TO MAKE FANART OF!

Honestly though, I need more free time to actually do the other routes and see them. I've been so busy I've just been living off my bad Leo and TJ ending knowledge for the last few months.

Don't even get me started on Arches and Smoke Room either.

#furry #fursona #otter furry #3d render #civ #echovn #echo project #also dear lord Leo's bad ending #also dear lord how TJ's ending be sad #also dear lord how h0nry is Flynn and Chunter and i can't wait to see how to it goes terribly and i get another bad ending #as if Echo had any other choice other than bad endings #also dear lord there's so many more routes to make memes about

[justxaxstrayxkid]

Small and low quality Mizuchi ft smol baby Yato

It's been a while. I miss these posts :(

#noragami #mizuchi #yato #Noragami spoilers #i'm thinking of coming back to this blog #like posting frequently like i used to #not everyday but hopefully at least once a week #life has been so hectic #firstly i think last year i lost commitment for this blog cuz i was hyperfixating on a visual novel series #and that series literally took my attention away from everything i swear l #and then this year happened oh dear lord school is beating me to a pulp every damn week #started at a new school in november & it took me long to make friends #and on top of that most of my classes are ultra boring and the teachers pile on work like crazy #i have to push myself so hard and burn out at the end of every week to get every assignment turned in #only got a month left of school so yea but also nay cuz there's sm left to do #got a damn eoc exam tomorrow and then a physics exam the next day #i have a performance for my asl class which im so not prepared for in a few weeks #and then finals like the week after the performance i think? #oh and my algebra teacher said she's giving us another exam before the final #very fun!! i love being a high schooler XD

[ghost-proofbaby]

Not to indulge the BG3 " brain rot " but.... can we see what your tav looks like? Maybe hear a little bit about them? Sorry I'm just also on a BG3 kick right now

sure! don't apologize for that <3

this is my first tav, for my only currently completed playthrough. named her seraphina, she was a wild magic sorcerer elf and she romanced astarion, and she was 100% a goody two shoes. not to flex or anything. always gonna hold a special place in my heart. kinda sad i don't have more screenshots of her. also, i went through this playthrough without any mods!

and then my current playthrough is actually my first durge! i've made a couple so far (my bad), but this is going to be a redeemed/resisting the urges playthrough. her name is aruna, and she's also romancing astarion (what a shocker). she's a storm sorcerer elf you can tell i have a preferred class and race huh. i also caught the wonderful lil sideye exchanged during the gur encounter between her and astarion which i laughed at for a good five minutes. so far, this playthrough has been 100x more chaotic, and is definitely giving her and astarion sharing a brain cell (the blood of lathander quest is still a sensitive topic for our dear pale elf womp womp). she's simply bhaal's god's favorite princess with her crew of scary dog privilege while she fights the voices. (and yes, this playthrough i am using mods. sue me.)

i also have two bard durge playthroughs (one as a tiefling, one as a half-elf), and one of them in a multiplayer campaign with my friend in which uh.... we're gonna do full on evil ! wish me luck !

#terrified of the full on evil playthrough and losing karlach and wyll #gonna have to fight for my life to keep gale as he's been assigned as my stray cat in our playthrough #also at this point just assume all my tavs romance astarion lmao #i keep saying i'll romance gale or shadowheart and then DON'T #he just gives me those puppy dog eyes and i'm back in the house ya know #my first playthrough had a lil chaos but nothing compared to the durge one so far dear lord lmao #i did end my first one with telling gale to just fuck off and ascend to godhood if he really wanted to because i was so tired of him asking #like bro you're not my problem anymore stop #I ALSO KILLED SHADOWHEART ON MY FIRST ONE I'M TRAUMATIZED #HOW DO I SAVE HER??? HELP???? #also i didn't get to keep halsin in my first playthrough because i didn't notice the quest for him #AND I LOST THE LAST LIGHT INN SO NO JAHEIRA BC SHE DIED IN BATTLE #I WENT FUCKING THROUGH IT Y'ALL #thank u ily #ghost plays bg3 #<- that'll be my tag for bg3 stuff #also yes seraphina is the one who fucked the mindflayer my bad my bad

[dumbassnamedkhoshekh]

Have you ever had moments where you wish you could just take a break from being a person?

I don't mean dying, obviously. But maybe yes dying? If only temporarily.

What I mean is just taking a step back from existing so you can figure shit out without the interferences of daily life.

Say you've changed a lot over the past little bit. And you KNOW change is good for you and you know that it has to happen, but when you don't recognize yourself anymore and wish you could be anyone else?

I guess the way I envision it working is kind of like a coma or an astral projection, and in that period of physical unconsciousness you get to rearrange and update your personality traits like you're customizing a Sim of yourself.

I know if I had that ability, I would make myself kinder, more understanding, more hardworking, more reasonable, more genuine, more confident, a better friend, and overall a wiser human being. If it works like the Sims customizer does, I would probably even change some bits of my appearance, maybe making myself shorter or my nose a little smaller or my face a different shape. I suppose I have too many things I don't like about myself to know when to STOP.

But would I still be me? Would you still be you?

I'm pretty sure everybody on this site at this point is familiar with the Ship of Theseus thought experiment; for those who aren't, it poses the question: "if a ship's parts gradually decay and break off get replaced one by one until the entire ship is made up of new materials, is it still the same ship?" Similarly, if every single part of you was changed, would you still be you? Granted, an argument could be made that such a process already happens as you grow and experience life, and that the option proposed above would only speed up the process. Most people would agree that you are still you after all the changes you've experienced in your life, even if you aren't the "same" you as you were three years ago. But if those changes were to happen instantaneously? Would you even be recognizable by the people in your life?

Who knows?

I know I'm making this sound like a bad deal, but I can't say I wouldn't take the opportunity if it fell before me. God knows I could use it.

But that's the thing about opportunities: sometimes they fall before you, but you generally have a better chance of making something of them and of yourself if you actively pursue them, rather then waiting for one to fall in your lap like a stray autumn leaf.

"Look, kid, everyone wants to believe they are "chosen". But if we all waited around for a prophecy to make us special, we'd die waiting. And that's why you need to choose yourself."

My favorite quote of all time, from Eda the Owl Lady. Never in my life has it been more relevant than right now, when I'm literally looking for a shortcut to character development for myself. Unfortunately I am an absolutely terrible listener, so I've never really be able to take this advice to heart, despite knowing how much I need to. I guess finding the strength to seek out the things you want is a lot harder when you're already bearing the weight of your own expectations for yourself.

It's not easy. Nothing ever is, but making myself do something that would actually benefit me? Genuinely one of the hardest things I've ever had to regularly face in my life. There's a REASON I've procrastinated getting therapy for so long. Why does doing things that are good for me feel so impossibly difficult? Why am I like this? Why can't I just throw myself into a coma and swap around my personality traits like a little character customizer? Why can't I change the bad things about instantly? Why do I have to WORK for it when I can barely work on anything tangible? Why? Why? Why?

What if it's because it's not supposed to be attainable? What if my personality was like wet cement the first 19 years of my life, and I can no longer shape it now that it's solidified into concrete? What if making myself who I want to be is my Sisyphean task? What if? What if? What if?

I don't know if I can ever actually know the answers. I guess all one can do is keep trying and keep hoping science will one day invent a way to alter your core traits at will.

#depressing thoughts to end your day #why did a random idea i had turn into a full on existential vent AGAIN #this is why i should never be trusted with a brain #telling my doctor tomorrow that he needs to up my meds because dear lord i am a downer at 9 pm #but also why can't this be real #pondering #vent #tw body dysmorphia #tw self deprecation #tw self hatred

[starprincejelly]

It feels like it's been so long but it's only been 4 days wow, anyways I'm back on my bullshit and am working on a potential comic about Shadow raising Chao and exploring his very complicated feelings on stuff

#Please dear lord don't let my brain die for days in a row again I wanna keep drawing #tbh this is mostly for myself as I'm struggling with feelings too and wanna use drawing as an outlet #I feel like a lot of people would enjoy Shadow having a chao garden though #btw I'm naming the comic simply Chao Garden or the Chao Garden au #I kinda hate this cover but I was also running out of energy by the end so y'know #digital art #sth #sonic the hedgehog #shadow the hedgehog

[welcometoteyvat]

natlan leaks are slowly dropping it is so joever

#get thiswhite woman budget france euro costume out dear lord #also the chibi pyro archon color palette is literally so horrible it looks like an ms paint drawing #ugly alert..... #'it's an early leak' yeah yeah we all know how nahida ended up being designed #yeah yeah she's a good cool character with a cool arc but i will kill myself over her design. that honor also belongs to tigh.nari tbh #ramblings! #genshin leaks

[cherry-bomb-ships]

END ME I just laid down on the couch cuz cramps and I forgot I had two Funko Pop boxes resting on top on the couch and I shit you not they both fell and hit me in the head 😭😭😭 My life isnt even a comedy at this point its a damn cartoon hshsndvxjf

#and yes i immediately thought of the end of cr.ash 4 when cortex also gets hit on the head by a bunch of boxes 💀💀💀 #like dear lord i rly live like this 😂💀😂💀 #ruby rambles

[heretherebedork]

He is still singing.

Also didn't they start going out, like... two days ago? Like, officially going out maybe they day before or so?

So why does it look like they've been living together for months?!

#love in the air #lita #love in the air the series #love in the air series #bl drama #thai bl #thai drama #thaibl #bl series #thai series #the singing did not end dear lord #but also like they've just barely started dating #why does it look like Rain is living with him!?

[keeps-ache]

girl heplp i swallowed a bug i tghin

#just me hi #AAAUHGU #oh nO #maybe it was dust!!!! or maybe!!! it was a BUG!!!!!!! #or MAYBE my throat is dry. or MAYBE it waS A BUG-- #oh STARS the world is ending i've swallowed an unknown thingamajig!!! #/ooo spelled thingamajig right first try! nice :DD #/back to it though. #i've swallowed gnats (bad) and an ant once before (also bad) but not an Unknown Bug of Lego-Dot Size #what if it's #/dear lord there is so much dirt under my nails what the shizz #what was i saying #right. bug #:( #maybe it was a gnat. maybe it was dirt. either way. Horrific #//anyway‚ dramatics over. 'm going to get a shake :D #maybe it'll balance out the Bad Vibes of eating Small Mystery Horror :)

[iguessitsjustme]

I have a lovehate relationship with the ending of Chains of Heart. I liked that it didn't end with Ken and Lue/Din back in love and Ken having forgiven everything. If anything, it seemed like Lue/Din was going to have a lot of work to do in order to earn Ken back after the world's dumbest plan. And then he just...disappears again. Which I think is great because I think after all that, Ken can move on and start living his life again without Lue/Din.

But then Sai called and said that bullcrap about the 7th month of the 7th year and implying things and I hated that. Sai really and truly is the worst sister. Why didn't she stop Din? Why did she go along with his whim? I digress. I like to think Ken moved back to help his dad with the restaurant and he starts building a life there. His only connections to his life in Thailand are Hin and the parents. Who were all victims of Din's stupidity. They talk on the phone from time to time and Hin visits when Ken opens up his own restaurant. Ken's new life doesn't even necessarily need to involve new romantic love.

Ken can go back for Sai's wedding. He can see Lue/Din there. But it doesn't have to mean that they're together and that Ken has forgiven him. Ken can love Lue/Din. He doesn't need to be with him. Sometimes, love isn't enough for a relationship. This is one of those times.

#chains of heart #chains of heart the series #chains of heart bl #this is...i don't even know what this is #but i have feelings about the ending of this show #and most of them can be boiled down to #this show would have worked so much better if din hadn't done this shit on a whim #the amount of times i was literally saying #it didn't have to be this way. it could have happened any other way. it didn't have to be this way #din is a contender for biggest bl idiot this year i think #and not idiot in an endearing way #idiot in a dear lord please don't let that man have any other ideas #ken deserves better #but i don't see ken ever loving anyone else #but i also don't see ken forgiving lue/din after that

[britneyshakespeare]

i cannot stop thinking about henry vi part 2

#i havent rewatched it yet #i watched part one again (the bbc television production from 1983 directed by jane howell whomstve we STAN) #i havent watched a production of part 2 though... ever. not since i read it four years ago now #in which it was all in my head #AM I READY FOR WHATS GONNA HAPPEN TO THE DUCHESS OF GLOUCESTER THOUGH? AM I? #IM NOT SURE I AM #oooohohoh #shakespeare history plays are breaking my brain #i said i was gonna use july to detox before reading henry v but then i made a kanopy profile oops #margaret of anjou is gonna WHAT? she's gonna WHAT???!??!!? #SUFFOLK WHAT???!?!?!?!? #tales from diana #i also keep thinking about how. i initially had no interest in reading the english history plays whatsoever. lol #if it weren't for ned @sneez my dear friend being the number one henry vi fanboy inthe world... idk if id have read any of them by now #in truth i only started 1 henry vi bc of him. and i was a bit dismayed and daunted by the fact that it was one of 3 #about that king alone... and then to discover richard iii was the end of that tetralogy series. #but then like. i started that shit and i was like WHAATTT?!?!?!?!? #everyone told me shakespeares english histories are just elizabethan propagranda. no one told me that they're general hospital #seriously the medieval court drama is unmatched #i dont get a kick out of true crime like some ppl. for my real-life-intrigue fix i need deposed kings and lord protectors sorry #and several wars going on at once #the pacing in the histories are also nothing like the rest of shakespeare's works. i mean ppl make a joke about hamlet #how basically the whole play he does nothing but go insane and soliloquize until he dies #IT IS NOT LIKE THAT IN THE ENGLISH HISTORIES #PPL WILL BE BANISHED FROM THE REALM ON PUNISHMENT OF DEATH IN FUCKIN. ACT II OF V. SHIT'S CRAZY

[blackkewpie]

not to expound upon the political implications of fandom every chance i get but noel gruber is revolutionary gay representation because he wants to be fucked up and evil and it is so disheartening to see transformative works where they act like his wants and personality are character flaws. roadblocks in the way of the most conventional and milquetoast gay romance story ever put to word document. which isn’t terrible but the fact of the matter is noel gruber exists to say not every gay person wants to be normal or wants to have a normal easy heteroimitative life. marlene dietrich was a bisexual woman who endured mountains of hardship on every level and did important things and made important art. jean genet was a writer and activist who lived on the fringes of society doing survival sex work for most of his youth. liberace was never *out* out and was torn apart relentlessly by tabloids about his life. these are the people he canonically admires, he wants to be a starving artist and live a fantastic, queer, risky life that offends and challenges the mainstream. not because he is too naive to want a normal quiet life, but because he was raised in the bosom of the most banal, sterile, conservative small town existence he could have possibly been in and knows for a fact he wants the complete opposite. queer assimilation to the heteronormative standards of life has been a powerful tool in our survival, yes, but the point of that is to survive to make a world where that isn’t necessary anymore. the ease straight white cis abled society offers is one that exists at the expense of those who do not fit it. that is why the girl is fucked up. in a perfect world she shouldn’t have to be any other way.

#idk I just started reading a massively hyped transformative work in the fandom and jfc #it doesn’t hurt anybody and I know why it’s there #but dear lord #the amount of times they go out of their way to either implicitly or explicitly #punish or contort the aspects of Noel that make him fucked up #it’s just interesting #esp because they also make him trans which is why I’m reserving judgement #obviously they’ve done some of the work bc they’re not being weird about his gender expression #but OOOF you’re so close come on come on you can do it #also my other favorite character is constance and I can talk about black joy and radical acceptance with her for hours #but understanding what is oppressive about small conservative hegemony is crucial to understanding noel #and tbh thats his flaw to overcome by the end of the show imo #going from take me up and away above this small town cliche #to befriending mischa and sharing Constance’s joy during sugar cloud #realizing he did challenge people and was tragic and counter culture in his own way #in his own silly little small town #that’s the mountain he scales #to stop reducing his own accomplishments #but that has nothing to do with changing the fact that he doesn’t want to be like everyone else #and would have taken his queer rebellion further if he could have #ride the cyclone

[moonlit-dreamers]

Are you excited for the FNAF movie? Do you have any specific hopes for it? How do you feel on the franchise as a whole?

Go ahead bestie rant about that special interest.

hi :3

okay, for starters. yes im really fucking excited. i wanna go with my friends to the movie and i might go in cosplay but i only have stuff for a bloodmoon cosplay so it wont fit BUT ITS COSPLAY NONETHELESS. if im able to i might be able to whip something up rq tho.

uhhh hopes for it? i really hope markiplier is there since we already have cory, but it seems that hes busy making his own movie so probably not. also that one uh- that one bit in the trailer i hope thats a scooper bc i'd love to see that. i just wanna see how far they go with the violence bc im so intrigued. also golden freddy? pog? anyway-

franchise as a whole? overall its good ig? i dont really pay attention to controversies except that one time scott did something shitty and even then i wasnt even in the fandom at that time so- uhhh story wise? i honestly have no fucking clue. i forget the difference between william and michael afton 24/7 so i know jack shit about the actual story, no matter how many analysis videos i watch. too confusing. (the only way i remember is the fucking "MICHAEL DONT LEAVE ME HERE" sound and that reminds me "mm yes william said that" even tho i actually dont know the context of the audio. i love these stupid games and yet i know jack shit about them💀)

ive actually never played any of the fnaf games (except for a bit of fnaf 1 but i was a pussy and quit after night 2💀). i wanna get security breach (for obvious reasons) but that bitch expensive so... no-

gonna be honest, the fandom outside of the little hole that is the dca scares me. yeah, we can be pretty horrendous at times, but ive heard horror stories from friends and idk if i wanna leave my little hole so im just staying here.

if you want me to start another ramble just start talking about shit with psychology, genloss, au ideas i have (i have so fucking many it hurts), uhhh streamers and shit, i have some good queer book recs

idk man just send me shit and ill probably find a way to lose my shit over it idfk

#answering asks #dear fucking lord that was long #but yeah #also had to ask my friends wut i liked at the end bc i fucking forgot #i forgot wut my fucking interests were for a sec #but yeah now u have some prompts to spam me with ig-

[notsodailycake]

Pride month is here!!

Yeah I'm starting to think I won't make it this month-

I usually try to draw at least one thing for pride month, but like- with how things are going rn, idk if I can

Hoping I can prove myself wrong tho

But either way, have this comic strip as my contribution to this month lol

#i know yall don't mind it #or care #and would say i shouldn't worry about not posting and that yall are ok with it #but this is just for myself personally #i enjoy having drawings done for special events :') #but like I'm kinda full for the month :(( #also this creeps me in the realization that its getting closer to july and I'm yet to have my comic done for then #i didn't even sketch anything (/ó_ò\) #dear lord i thought i had more time #at keast school is ending so I'm HOPING i get more free time- #cake talks #cakes art #happy pride month #happy pride 🌈