#;;tbd. maybe

[kimquatz]

process of drawing an OC: - you design them - you get attached to them - their hair gets bigger without you realizing it

#it's always the hair #tbd maybe LOL #one of my OCs rn their hair keeps getting longer every time i draw it... #i'm tryna keep it to their shoulder blades but at some point it started reaching their hips and i was like. Wait.

[inkskinned]

it is hard to explain without sounding vain or stupid - but the more attractive others find you, the more you're allowed to do. the easier your life is.

i have been on both sides of this. i am queer and cuban. i grew up poor. for a long time i didn't know "how" to dress - and i still don't. i make my sister pick out any important outfits. i have adhd in spades: i was never "cool and quiet", i was the weird kid who didn't understand how "normal" people behave. i was bullied so hard that the "social outcasts" wouldn't even talk to me.

i got my teeth straightened. i cut my hair and learned how to style it. i got into makeup. it didn't matter, at first, if i actually liked what i was doing - it mattered how people responded to it. like a magic trick; the right dress and winged eyeliner and suddenly i was no longer too weird for all of it. i could wear the ugly pokemon shirt and it was just "ironic" or a "cute interest."

when i am seen as pretty, people listen. they laugh at my jokes. they allow me to be weird and a little spacey. i can trust that if i need something, people will generally help me. privilege suddenly rushes in: pretty does buy things. pretty people get treated more gently.

i am the same ugly little girl, is the thing. still odd. still not-quite-fitting-in. still scrambling. still angry and afraid and full of bad things. of course it became my obsession. of course i stopped eating. i had seen, in real time, the exact way it could change my life - simply always be perfect, and things can be easy. people will "overlook" all the other things. i used to have panic attacks at the idea others would see me without makeup - what would they think? even for a simple friend hangout, i'd spend a few hours getting ready. after all, it seemed so obvious to me: these people liked me because i was pretty.

i worry about how much i'm being a bad activist: i understand that "pretty" is determined by white, het, cis, able-bodied hegemonies. if i was really an ally, wouldn't i rally against all of this? recently there's been a "clean girl" trend which copies latinx aesthetics: dark slicked-back hair, hoop earrings. i almost never wear my hair like that; i can hear the middle school guidance counsellor advising me that i might fare better if i toned it down on the culture.

the problem is that i can take pretty on and off. that i have seen how different my life is on a day where i try and a day where i don't. i told my therapist i want to believe the difference is confidence, but it's not. and when you have seen it, you can't unsee it. it lives inside your brain. it rots there; taunting. i get rewarded for following the rules. i am punished for breaking them. end of story.

pretty people can get what they want. pretty people can feel confident without others asking where they got their nerve from. pretty people can be weird and different. pretty people get to have emotions; it's different when they get aggressive, it's pretty when they cry with frustration.

of course people care about this. of course it has crawled into you. of course you want to be seen as attractive. it's not vanity: it's self-preservation.

#pretty in this post is a stand in for . literally all forms of normativity #warm up #tbd maybe idk #ps! hi!! i'm queer!!!!!!!!! it is how i identify! if you tag this 'q slur' i will fight you!!! #i am using it here in the EXACT way it is NOT a slur !! i am identifying as a queer person! #this is EXACTLY how people reclaim it !!! #it's like practically ACADEMIC in this usage!! #please do any reading into what the fuck the history of the word ''queer'' is before telling me #as someone identifying as queer #that i'm a slur. that the place i find comfort in is a slur #''well it makes me uncomfortable if people use it for me'' #im sorry to hear that dude. that sucks. i hope things get easier for you soon #but you don't get to take it from ME #in case you can't tell by the REST of this piece #i DID hear queer used as slur against me. i DID get bullied with it. i DID hear a lot of shit said #i also heard it about lesbians #about ''being gay'' #about pretty much any fucking term that could describe me. #i like queer. i like how it feels. and it's mine. #you don't get to undo the work i've done personally because it makes u uncomfortable #it's ahistoric to pretend like there are ''safe'' ways to identitfy if ur queer. #none exist. it has never been safe to be like this.

[lighthouseshepard]

cant get that gorgeous tumblr poll out of my head

#orpheus and eurydice #caspost #tbd maybe #tumblr will probably eat these image files but we'll see

[skaldish]

Y'all…I'm having a very disturbing realization dawn upon me. I don't really have a way of articulating this clearly yet, but I wanted to bring it up in case other people know about it:

I'm noticing that many people (namely white Americans) seem to act as branded-versions of themselves rather than who they genuinely are. Specifically, what I'm beginning to understand how insanely pernicious it is. I knew it existed because I grew up in it, but didn't realize how uncanny it actually looks when you watch it happen, nor what the implications are that we do this instead of connecting with each other as people.

It seems like any descriptor under the sun can become a brand, so long as it's understood that way more than it's understood as just a descriptor. "Man" is a brand. "Punk" is a brand. "Conservative" is a brand. "Left" is a brand. "Queer" is a brand. "Protestant" is a brand. "Catholic" is a brand. "Anticapitalist" is a brand. "Young professional" is a brand. "Good" is a brand. Words like "BIPOC" are also interpreted within a brand context.

I'm not sure if this is something that has always been there, but I only just noticed? Or if it's on the rise with commercialization? A bit of both? Something else?

#zan speaks #humanitarian issues #I am legit on the fence about posting this #but wanted to try anyway #feel free to ask for clarification is something isn't making sense #tbd #maybe #also I'm not trying to trap anyone into discourse with this I just genuinely want to know

[galedekarios]

if you are genuinely out there claiming that gale "succeeded" in everything he "wanted" by becoming a god and that's why it's a good ending for him, you truly are a testament to the slow and steady death of media literacy congrats lmao

#the entire boat scene in act iii beats you over the head that this is #perceived lack of self-worth and helplessness in the face of death and loss of faith #and indulging him in this is indulging means indulging his first impulse and instinct in response to #the first lifeline he sees for himself in years #unless you can be his lifeline instead #as a friend and as a lover #but that's all okay #it's totally okay for him to sacrifice everything including himself in a bid for power #because he still loves your tav sooo much when he ascends right #he loves them so much he couldn't contact them in six month to let them know he survived ascension lmao #jfc larian really crossed some wires bc the cutscene is pretty i can't #also if your bar for a happy ending for a character is if your tav gets a hug and some kissies while some nice music plays #then maybe you should be careful throwing words around like 'narrow-minded' and 'black/white' lol #ch: gale dekarios #vg: baldur's gate 3 #series: baldur's gate #text: personal #fandom critical #tbd

[emipon]

I’ve been working on Queen Amidala’s Parade dress 🕺

#fanart #Ish #cosplay #star wars #queen amidala #padme naberrie #padme amidala #sry maybe I should delete this lol this is my art blog after all… #This is part of the reason why I haven’t been drawing a s much lol #I just missed sewing and crafting …! #So .. #tbd #probably lol

[spicyraeman]

i am constantly thinking about how young Lae'zel is and how underutilized that is in fandom

#a lot of people tend to write her so.. worldy? #like shes a seasoned warrior with years of service under her belt #which she is but shes also like.. a child soldier #all that crazy shit she tells you shes done was prob done before she was even 18 #she didn't even get to finish her coming of age rite of passage!! #maybe its just bc im close in age #but all her actions and motives just scream 20yo #like even if shes got experiences of a 30-40yo she still THINKS like a 20yo #idk idk im just rambling #just too many thoughts on her #and not enough braincells to articulate them #tbd

[vldkeith]

celebrate by playing with knives today, voltronnies <3

#keith kogane #vld keith #keithtober #voltron #vldedit #klance #op💢 #maybe i’ll make another gif set later….tbd

[drawnfamiliarfaces]

Hello! I saw that you had a human design for the Tengu, and I wanted to ask: got any hcs for our bird demon as human? Or just hcs in general, wither will work

Hey! Bro- you won't believe it, but i literally was thinking about Humanized Tengu (for uh- reasons) when I opened tumblr just to see this ask, like deadass??? ad;kjdfdfsa Clearly it was a sign!

But I don't have that many hc about him tbh?? He was a very spontaneous creation for that day, so like here have just some basic info:

the original design i did for ninjavember is kind of how Tengu looked at the prime of his powers in human form, when it/he faced First Ninja.

He is very unnaturally tall, has bone white (practically ashen) skin, with the end of his limbs being dark grey (like literal ash/burned). His body is covered in blue markings like tattoos (very inspired by Law from One Piece haha) and his hair is a mix of feathers and fur-like hair (like birds). He is usually dressed in rich clothes, with his wings acting like sort of cape.

He likes to smoke the pipe ;) its less of actual smoking leaf and more 'energy and fire itself' type of smoking.

He is kind of an asshole, but he greatly (if reluctantly) respects First Ninja because he managed to defeat him and use his powers for his own means. He despises having his powers used by others, but he also kinda respects that it is for a noble cause.

When it comes to Ninjas who came after, he kind of feels like a dad who was forced to take care of kids he never wanted, and those kids literally suck life force out of him, lol.

And that's about all I got for now. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ But thanks for the ask i loved a chance to doodle him ;)

#que? #rc9gn #rc9gn tengu #rc9gn first ninja #listen the analogy of First contracting Tengu into an unwilling 'marriage' for noble cause and basically dumping adopted kids on him later #makes me cackle like a deranged person you dont even know #fun info his hair makes him look like a rooster and it freaks Randy out very much ;) #i actually got an absolutely dumb funny idea about his more modern design but i started laughing so hard that now i cant conceptualize it #into words or arts so. uh i dunno maybe ill post about it later tbd #i literally answered this ask the same day i got it and then i struggled to draw like fr and got distracted and shiet #man im drowning in wips <;D i cri #also i refused to aknowledge that i like to make Ninja deal with a certain type of people ok leave me and my fav tropes alone

[kimquatz]

oh yeah since it seems like people are all finally getting serious about moving to tumblr now-- just thought i'd throw in to alleviate and improve yall's tumblr experience, don't forget to install the xkit rewritten extension ^_^

#one of my favorite functions is the 'hide follower count everywhere' bc i hate looking at stats lol #tbd maybe

[parkitaco]

lucas sinclair is the kinda guy to have his first kiss with his bestie will byers at age twelve, more or less forget about it for four years, then suddenly remember and have a sexuality crisis

#thinking so many byclair thoughts rn #hmmmm #lucas sinclair #will byers #byclair #maybe i will write them. someday #tbd

[lady-arryn]

my gifsets have been flopping for at least a year now, but lately i feel like they flop extra super hard and it doesn't matter what i post or how much effort i put into it, it's a flop after flop and it makes me feel like no matter what i post it's just not good enough or popular enough. there are still so many things i want to gif and i used to feel excited about it, but now i don't :(

EDIT:

thank you all so much for the kind words, it's means so much!! :') it is very disheartening tho to hear how many gifmakers feel the same, it's one of those cases when i wish i couldn't say that it's good i'm not alone in this, because i wish i was alone!!! i wish other people's gifs would thrive, but alas :(

#tbd #idk maybe this is syper whiny but it's still true #(i do know there are a few people who like my edits and i hope you know i love you and appreciate you all <3)

[awerzo]

(WIP)

Girl help I just did linocutting for four hours straight, forgor about bodily functions and now it's 11pm

#wip #art tag #pathologic #tbd #? #maybe who knows #ouch owie fuck my hand #oh also #daniil dankovsky

[lil-lemon-snails]

Back with some magma doodles to share!! Last week's dfpu magma session had a lovely flower board that inspired some silly fairy sun art (ft. a certain citrusy snail that snuck in later hehe) I haven't drawn any fairies in a long time! Thinking about revisiting this design later to try and push it a little further... maybe make it more floral-y 👀 As always, thanks again @daycarefriendpickup for hosting!!

And if you'd like you can check out @lurking-loaf's moon counterpart here :3

v read more for an extra fun magma surprise v

You have been visited by the Party Worm o<):3c

#fnaf #five nights at freddy's #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf security breach #fan art #digital art #fnaf sun moon #sundrop #dca fandom #magma doodles #fairies #i was pretty happy w the little petal rays!! and silly stamen wiggly bits hehe #but i ended up sticking w his canon fit otherwise >.> thinking about maybe doing something more there? #in the future.... tbd hehe #but with spring coming i am in a big flower mood!! so who knows~ #snailems art tag

[enden-k]

sometimes self care is preordering a ratio plushie doll and getting a matching maid dress waiting for him

#youn going through a childs barbie doll phase but at least this time hes not cutting their hair short and drawing on them like back then #anw he should arrive around may apparently which is perfect bc its the month of my birthday AH perfect perfect #tho hmm... i should get another dress for my haitham plushie AHAHHA #maybe my kaveh one too #ill just put them all in dresses #MEN IN DRESSES >>>>>>> #babbles #tbd

[royalarchivist]

Guys, I really hate to be a killjoy but Fit did not call Pac "babe" in today's live.

#mod talk #TBD #? #Maybe #I wanted to post an edit with that earlier but I missed the ''good posting time'' window #And now I wish I posted it anyways because I keep seeing incorrect transcripts circulating (both here and on twt) #it makes me wince a bit because I hate seeing misinformation spread #Like if it's a matter of ''let me be delirious'' go ham but I'm seeing lots of folks who didn't watch the live taking people's word for it #Delusions can be fun but on Royal Archivist I'm always going to present the facts as-is. #Translations; transcripts; whatever it is - I'll always do my best to represent things accurately #which is why I always try to ask for clarification if I'm not sure about something #This is such a non-issue but I just saw a few people get bummed out when they found out the ''babe'' thing wasn't true and it made me sad #Anyhoo. Got a couple edits to share tomorrow so keep an eye out for that