#6.30 am how i loathe you

[ghoul-haunted]

awake, but god at what cost

#6.30 am how i loathe you #my bed is so cozy i dont want to get out of itttttttt

[missvifdor]

Azul trying to extort Ramshackle from my MC /OC / by imposing a deadline, except she can be tough in business as well.

My MC /OC /YUU: No but you think I don't do anything after class ?! My schedule is already very busy and I already have plenty of appointments! *Pulls a diary out of his jacket* 4 p.m. whining about my fate, 4.30 p.m. anxiety and depression, 5 p.m. figuring out how to beat starvation and not giving anyone the idea, 5.30 p.m. belly dancing, 6.30 p.m. dinner with myself and he's out of it question that I cancel again, 7:30 p.m. fight against self-loathing. I am booked. Well of course I could push back the disgust at 9 p.m. and finish in time to go to bed, count the sheep and gently plunge into madness ... BUT I HAVE NOTHING TO DRESS WITH!

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[femaleaspie]

When you are told to respect them but you can't!

I don't have much family as most of them died when I was young. But what family is left I'm close to, except three, my dad and uncles.

My dad didn't want me to get diagnosed. "As there's nothing wrong with you." Of course their isn't. There is something wrong with your attitude. But he's a completely different set of issues.

My uncles have worked with people on the spectrum. Which is brilliant. However saying "you don't have Asperger's because you aren't like the people we've worked with", it makes me want to rip off my face and throw it at them.

My uncles have for the last, coming up, four years belittle me for trying to explain how my Asperger's effects me in day to day life, when the subject is brought up. But apparently it's just an excuse not to actually do anything. Which is BS.

When I was at school, my tutor/homeroom teacher was a huge pain in the arse. She hated me and me she. She thought she knew everything. I don't mind that if you can follow through. She couldn't. But what was worse for me was that she had to inform my Assessors about what I was like in school hours. And she purposely messed up the form. Which put my assessment at risk.

My head teacher/principle disliked me, which I could deal with because I'm very annoying. Not in a pity me way, in a way that I'm annoying and I know it. He would purposely target me to say that I needed to put effort in and stay after school, even though I explained that the school day was exhausting me and I would sleep from 6pm that evening to 6.30 am each day. So I couldn't cope with it. My favourite quote of his was "You can't use your Asperger's as an excuse in the real world." A year after I left the was 'asked to leave'.

I truly believe the reason why people have such an issue with me and my Asperger's is that it took me till I was 15/16 to get the diagnosis. They had known me before the diagnosis and after. They see it as an excuse I see it as an explanation for years of doubt and self loathing.

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