Son excuse pour ne pas me répondre et me lâcher des vues ? C'est que monsieur a "une vie bien remplie". Il se moque royalement de moi là ? Qu'il me dise clairement que je suis juste un passe temps et qu'il évite de me faire perdre mon temps, et mon énergie. Je sais que c'est avant tout et surtout à moi de cesser de lui consacrer tout ça. Mais j'aimerais juste le revoir une seule et dernière fois pour pouvoir le rayer de ma vie sans regrets.
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PURPOSE OF LIFE ENERGY
Date: 31 October 2023
Duration: 59 minutes at 10:49 PM
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In June of 2023 I reached a phase of my decades old practice in which my hearing is interiorised during my meditations. Also, I seem to have lost all adrenaline tainted desires. I don’t think that all my desires are completely gone but I am very aware of life energies’ desire.
The meditational phenomenon of perceiving sound is a powerful blessing. Over the last few meditations, I have got used to ‘hearing’ clacks and clicks coming from the centre of my head. It isn’t exactly a pinpointed position but it isn’t scattered all over my head either.
Life energies in my head are taking on a purpose. The purpose belongs entirely to them blessed life forces. The purpose seems to be to make a turn and head in the direction of my forehead. I support life energy’s goal of moving forward in place of the upward rise that has occurred in the last 3 and a 1/2 years.
I support life energies’ aim by sitting for meditation regularly. In fact, I didn’t even bother checking on my phone during last night’s meditation when I felt like I was done meditating. I simply moved onto affirming for harmony.
I am beginning to think that the phenomenon of ‘hearing’ life energies movement in one’s head has something to do with life energies teaching the meditator’s inner gaze to be fixed in a particular way. We are wired to give attention to the sounds we hear.
Interiorised hearing enables knowing the route life energies are taking in the head. It is a brilliant manner in which life energies are showing where my attention should be. Such training is probably essential for further advances as a meditator.
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I’m rather iffy about 2nd person POV. I’ve had a few good experiences, but a lot more bad ones, and this is a good one. Also, I usually exclude /reader tags, but the summary on this one was too intruiging.
Wei Ting (you) is a fun character, and you can understand all of her choices, even if you don’t agree with them. (Also, I kept thinking of her as Wen Ting...)
9/10
Chapters: 20/20
Fandom: 魔道祖师 - 墨香铜臭 | Módào Zǔshī - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù, 陈情令 | The Untamed (TV)
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death
Relationships: Lán Huàn | Lán Xīchén/Reader, Lán Huàn | Lán Xīchén/Original Female Character(s), Minor or Background Relationship(s), Lán Zhàn | Lán Wàngjī/Wèi Yīng | Wèi Wúxiàn, Jiāng Yànlí/Jīn Zǐxuān
Characters: Lán Huàn | Lán Xīchén, Original Female Character(s), Reader, Lán Zhàn | Lán Wàngjī, Wèi Yīng | Wèi Wúxiàn, Jiāng Chéng | Jiāng Wǎnyín, Jiāng Yànlí, Niè Huáisāng, Wēn Níng | Wēn Qiónglín, Wēn Qíng (Módào Zǔshī), Luó "Mián Mián" Qīngyáng, Yú Zǐyuān, Jiāng Fēngmián, Lán Yuàn | Lán Sīzhuī, Lán Jǐngyí
Additional Tags: Reader-Insert, Angst and Fluff and Smut, Eventual Romance, Eventual Happy Ending, Eventual Smut, Slow Burn, they get together fairly quickly but it takes a while for them to be together, if that makes sense, Canon-Typical Violence, Somebody Lives/Not Everyone Dies, sorry nmj, Blood and Injury, Crossdressing, Pining, Angst with a Happy Ending, mianmian is a lesbian, lxc is pansexual, those facts are unimportant to the plot but important to me, Suicide Attempt, Explicit Sexual Content, Semi-Public Sex, Blow Jobs, Inappropriate Use of Gūsū Lán Forehead Ribbon (Módào Zǔshī), Hair-pulling, Pregnancy, Pregnant Sex, Marriage Proposal, Married Couple, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, this did start as a matchmaking fic but got derailed, No beta we die like wwx, The Cloud Recesses Rabbits (Módào Zǔshī), Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, forgot to mention but wen qing is also a lesbian, unrealistic idealisation of the process of having a child, Drunk Lán Zhàn | Lán Wàngjī, its brief but drunkji is there, Amnesia, Major Character Undeath, Canonical Character Death - Wèi Yīng | Wèi Wúxiàn
Summary:
'Ever since you were born, barely 15 minutes apart, you and Wei Ying had been inseparable. The loss of your parents and subsequent adoption by Jiang Fengmian had only made that worse. There was no way he was going to Gusu for three whole months without you. So, you disguised yourself as a boy. It was fairly easy, you and Wei Ying had always looked strikingly similar and now, the only noticeable difference was the way you wore navy blue where he wore red.
“And you are...?” Lan Xichen asked the group.
Bowing, Jiang Cheng, Wei Ying and you answered.
“Jiang Wanyin of Yunmeng.”
“Wei Wuxian of Yunmeng.”
“Wei Wuzhong of Yunmeng.”
Nie Huaisang whispered, “Xichen-ge,” looking if he wished he could disappear.
Lan Xichen greeted him with a familiarity that you found yourself oddly jealous of. You were puzzling over the feeling as Wei Ying conversed with Lan Xichen. He smiled again and you knew you were staring but you couldn’t look away. He had you transfixed by some mystical power.'
What if Wei Ying had a sister (and falling in love with the Wei siblings was a Lan thing)
or
How much does one person really change a story
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