#*time or money i've spent on them

[andromedaprime]

Over the weekend, I logged into my Flightrising account for the first time in over three years, and I immediately went bonkers buying Woody and Buzz dragons.

I gave Buzz a Sox.

#prideyear #woody pride #buzz lightyear #yes i spent actual irl money on the website to get gems to give them genes #i'm not proud of it but eh at least i can afford it and this is the second time i've ever done that for online games #flightrising #andy prime talks

[papermonkeyism]

Don't know that one. What's it about? What genre? Is it fun?

#I'm not gonna pay for international shipping for a book blindly again #Last time I bought a book based on someone praising how gay it was and how good it's representation was #It turned out the main couple had been a thing briefly in the past but wasn't in the book's present #And while it had many flashbacks to the past timeline it was less about seeing them be together and more like #Character A saying something and the story stopped happening so character B could explain the thing at character A #Like 'oh you're experiencing periods. This is what that means what causes it and how to treat the symptoms.' #And 'oh you're bisexual. This is the dictionary definition of the word this is the etymology of the word' #Like one of the characters was alledgedly street smart thief but for some reason she had never heard of periods before #I was told they had great chemistry but all I got shown was a person shaped dictionary and a blank wall that got things explained to #I was clearly not the target audience for that one (I know what bisexual means! Stop lecturing like I'm an idiot and let me see the story!) #Though at least that book treated animals like actual animals and knew how logistics worked #Unlike this OTHER book I once bought on internet recommendation #That had me continuously go 'that's not how falcons work. That's not how horses work. That's not how weather works. #'that's not how winter works. Have you ever even seen snow? For fuck's sake stop rubbing frostbites! You're gonna cause tissue damage!' #...... #Sorry did not mean to tag a wall of text #I've just spent too much money on books I bought on anonymous recommendation and ended up not having good time

[janiedean]

the more time passes the more it's obvious why I'm shit at expressing emotions and why I loathe doing it openly and it's a damned shame neither of my damned parents reads fantasy because maybe if i told them the more you are like this the more i end up like stannis baratheon's reincarnation if the damage isn't done already they'd get the fucking point

#i'm so fucking tired that every single time i have to express not feeling great/up to par/on top of things #it becomes YOU WANT TO BE A VICTIM AND BLAME OTHER PEOPLE FOR IT #jfc i want to rest #i've spent three years coped there with them with first row seat to parent one becoming completely paranoid but okay #and that's not even 5% of the problem #i'm too tired to stand i'm doing two jobs at once one of which is draining af #neither of them is even netting me immediate money #i've worked sundays for a whole damned month and a half #they have zero idea of half of the shit i'm dealing with #bc the mOMENT you talk about your feelings it's C H I L D I S H #and then 'why didn't you talk about x before' #idk didn't wanna get told it was my fault and i had to man up maybe #and like my father has a half excuse i'm not disclosing bc his business #and it's like what i suspect not anything anyone said out loud #but god my mother could fucking get a hint #yeah let's go to therapy for years so that every single time i patch a hole in the ship #CANNONBALL FROM THE OTHER SIDE HAPPENS #and it's worse all over again #meanwhile my stomach has been closed up since an hour and i can't even stand up #and then i feel like i shouldn't complain until i manage to move out #i just want to go in a forest for six months and stop being perceived tbh #i hope i don't regret posting these tags but jfc #At YoUr AgE I hAd A jOb AnD a BaBy #yeah okay sorry i'm not you #there's a fucking reason i'm never gonna have children it would wreck me and i know it #but since YOU did it then everyone can

[stairset]

Microdosing on having money by looking at virtual tours of apartments I can’t afford

#literally so annoying i won't be able to move out and get my own place for like at least a year give or take #i might finally be working full-time soon though #like currently i'm just working tuesdays and thursdays at my mom's work scanning medical records #but gamestop is having open interviews so i'm gonna go in monday #i don't actually know if gamestop is hiring full-time though #so if they're only hiring part-time i guess i'll just have to work two jobs #like maybe scan records two days a week and do gamestop the other three #so i'd be making money as if i were working full-time #and that'd hold me over for a while at least until i find an actual full-time job #but yeah even then it's gonna be quite a while before i can move out which is annoying #i just want a fucking place to myself #i've also thought about selling some of my old shit that i don't need anymore to make some extra cash on the side #like old dvds and action figures and whatnot that are still in decent condition #i could sell them on ebay or like trade em in at vintage stock or whatever #my mom always insists that we never sell that stuff cause she and dad spent so much money on them when i was a kid #and i get that. but frankly i don't care. #they bought them for me and i'm an adult and can do what i want with them so if i wanna sell em i can #and if they help me get out of here sooner then it's worth it #shut up tristan

[shiroselia]

GIVE IT UP FOR THE FUCKING??? INSTAGRAM COMMENT??? BEING THE ONLY OFFICIAL ACKNOWLEDGEMENT OF??? ONLY ONE OUT OF THREE CURRENT RADIO SILENCE PROBLEMS???

Omfg can this fucking company stop actually having their instagram comments be one of their main communication forms

#I have some actual beef with this with the critique stuff too cause SSE are fucking Great at responding to critique and listening to Ig #comments but if you actually send them forms it will be like the opinion was never expressed at all #But it's even worse with their announcement stuff #Like dude a fucking POST MAYBE #One of those kinda days where I question why the fuck I've spent more than half my life giving this company my time and money

[skegulium]

'maybe you'd have money to spend on your mom if you didn't spend hundreds on checkmarks'

maybe if your mother swallowed you back when you were being conceived, she'd have a child she actually loved instead of some nasty little mistake who goes online and doesn't even have the balls to send shit off anon

#ooc cal #what kind of heartless callous shit is that #oh no someone spent money at one point! #time to mock them! #i bet you fucking hate poor people huh #don't think poor people should have things like nice phones or computers or fridges #i've never been more disgusted in my life

[queernobi]

I'm gonna be honest, most of the way people engage with Tumblr is through the context of fandom, and I just. Can't bring myself to care about fandoms anymore.

Hell, not just in the sense of the community of fandom, but also in the veneration of certain figures that may define certain fandoms. Like, for instance, I just read a post about MCR where the person talked about the group in such a reverent way, almost as if they felt like they knew them, and while I'm not gonna go on some tired "parasocial relationship = bad" spiel, I personally just. Cannot put so much stock into an individual (or even handful of individuals) that I've never met to the point that I start speculating or theorizing what they might be thinking.

I just. Don't care that much? (Also can't bring myself to care that much about their tour given how much they charge for a fucking concert ticket, especially with the pandemic still ongoing, fucking wild.)

It's just a particular way of viewing the world, and while I don't begrudge people for it, it's honestly not a viewpoint I share anymore. If I engage with a piece of work to the point that I would consider myself a fan of it, then I engage with it on my own terms, not in fandom terms. If I like MCR (which I do), I illegally download their music like any respectable individual and move on with my fucking life. I just can't care about the people behind it beyond hoping they're doing well (which they are, if their concert ticket prices are anything to go by, like I cannot begin to tell you how ridiculous that is, I saw the Mountain Goats play near where I live a few months ago and tickets were like, $100 tops, it is genuinely ridiculous how much they're charging).

#fans #fandom #don't give me crap about illegally downloading their music #i spent a shit ton of money on their shit growing up #i bought multiple copies of the black parade including the version that came in that fuzzy box #i bought their b sides #i bought three cheers and bullets #i bought the life on the murder scene CD and DVD #i bought danger days #i saw them live in concert #i still have a SHIT ton of their t-shirts #i've ruined more mcr posters than i can count #i'm entitled to their free music at this point #like yes i would illegally download even if all of that wasn't true but still #i earned it this time

[blujayonthewing]

the older and more literally capable of spending money on things I get the more I'm infuriated to find out that sometimes things that are expensive ARE better

#paying for QUALITY is REAL??? UGH. HORRID NEWS #I'm cheap because I've always been broke so this is a slow process #thinkin about it because I was gonna tangent in the tags of the last post then changed my mind lmao but #me three years ago: why would anyone pay 50+ dollars for a pen???? #me now having spent probably that much over time on a bunch of pens but they're either terrible or have broken already: SHIT. FUCK. DAMN IT #the threading between the feed and the barrel of my very favorite pen just fell apart last year #no abuse! just there's only so much torque the plastic could take over time #so I spent a christmas gift card on a Nice Pen and it has- right out the gate- steel threading and I was like '... ah. I see' #sometimes things DO cost more because they are made of better materials and to better standards. sometimes things are an investment #awful news thanks I liked living in the 'spending money on [thing] when you can get them really cheap is just stupid' world 😔 #about me

[ilikeyoshi]

slooooooowly learning how to accept that my family loves me even when i'm so so so so mentally ill and feel like i don't deserve that love. :(

#i don't wanna post about all the ways my mom is taking care of me bc like #it's not embarrassing but i FEEL like ppl would think less of me. even tho we all been knew mental illness is evil #but anyway it's just. i've spent so much of my life desperately trying to prove some worth #and i feel like i've failed every single attempt at that #and yet. my family loves me anyway #and actively continues to help me #even though it costs them time and money and we don't know if that'll ever get better #no matter how hard i try???? #it's just. logically i know #of course this is how it is #that's just how love works #but i guess in a lot of ways i'm still fighting through the self loathing #that unworthiness born of countless experiences not being able to achieve what i wanted #and feeling like a failure for it #when all along they just saw how sick i was #yoshi talks

[theophagie-remade]

Just me and the boys (two sugar sachets) against the world (commuting for exams)

#i can't eat bc the anxiety of Both commuting and the exam messes with my stomach hence: sugar #not a Great substitute for actual food i'm aware ! but i need Something to fuel me no less #especially since now it isn't even 12 and i'm only getting out of there at 16:30 T-T nevermind the journey back #mytext #idk how i'll survive the semesters to come since they also want to revert back to in presence lectures only :') #like i get wanting the exams to be in presence only but the lectures too!? after all the money you've spent these past few years on #the internet connection the pcs and all!? #i've argued with people who were all like ''urr durr don't be lazy that's how things used to be before covid'' and i. 🔪🔪🔪 #okay!!! people used to ride carriages before cars became a thing why don't we revert back to them too then !!!!!!!! #and it's not even a matter of laziness because commuting Does mess you up man #why make people lose time and energy when you have an alternative Right There. an alternative you've invested in no less!!!!! #uni

[tw1stedthicket]

been off my meds now for like 4 months and i see why they put me on it i feel like i'm on the swing ride at a low budget faire ride that's not even a faire for the county as a whole but is just one of the ones that sits in a parking lot by a wendy's and a renovated blockbluster and manifests one day and disappears in 3 days time and i am just flying through the air at the mercy of god and the screws that haven't been replaced since August 10, 1995

#every month so far of this year has been rapid cycling between depression and mania #spent the last month disconnected & losing my grip & having more SI & couldn't have fun or enjoy things #i've been trying to cope & doing better but all of a sudden a couple days ago my mood shifted back #i am full of energy & don't need sleep & also am really trying not to be impulsive rn abt money #also can't tear myself away from the fun time videos #can't stop laughing at shit #lol i am also kinda having epiphanies? like damn i really see what this is about. #god it's really good i dont know anybody impulsive bc i stg i would text them rn and say “wanna drive to the south of the border rn” lmao

[patronsaintofposmodernity]

i need a full time job SO bad

#not right now but like. in three months after I've had time to rest and get my life in order #thankfully i don't need it for the money i need it because having so much free time is kinda driving me insane #keep in mind I've spent the last two years without a true day of rest because i was always supposed to be working on my master's thesis #so i just. forgot what it's like apparently #and it makes me so mad because when i was busy i was always making plans for all the things I'd do once would be done with grad school #and now i just can't do them!!!! #so yeah if anyone's hiring. hi #also im spending WAY too much time on social media and i can literally feel how it's rotting my brain so i need something to keep me #off my phone expeditiously #zai.ez

[telemiel]

it's fun to be 26 with shooting, aching pain in most of my joints while no doctor ever takes me seriously

#they themselves will admit that my pain and fatigue are not normal but then use that to dismiss my symptoms!! #'you're too young for arthritis' okay buddy then what IS wrong with my knees? oh we're just ignoring the problem instead cool #i don't pretend to have answers but i expect YOU my doctor to look for them? i feel like that shouldn't be unreasonable #and i'm pretty sure that i'm developing carpal tunnel (or something similar) because my hands fingers and wrists have now joined the party #nevermind the pain in my hips and shoulders #or my neck and my back #i just desperately want to not be in so much pain and exhausted all of the time #but now i've lost my insurance so i can't even see my doctors which is great #i spent the last week and a half doing overtime because i needed the money but now it's saturday and i can barely get up from my desk #because everything hurts so much #i have things i need to accomplish this weekend but moving is torture #so rip to all my chores and errands i guess #i've managed to wash my laundry and that's probably all i'm going to get to #this is a vent post and i'm sorry i'm just feeling especially miserable today #part of the problem is that i actually feel motivated to tackle my long to do list but my body won't let me today #so i'm frustrated as well as hurting

[honeyroha]

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#So I wasn't expecting to buy svt's entire discography this year but uh #Them reprinting their old albums made me go a little crazy #Having all their albums has been a dream since they debut but by the time I had my own money a lot of them were out of print #And I didn't want to get their new stuff cuz not having the first half of their discography would've just made me sad #So uhhhh I may have spent way to much money this past month #Thank god I've had dogs almost non stop for a few months now

[gallusrostromegalus]

Basically. I got screwed.

I am very sorry for how relatively quiet this blog has been but I've been dealing with a very unpleasant situation the last few months, and now I need help.

Essentially, I tried to help someone out, and she took advantage of me, and I have no way to recoup my losses.

Earlier this year, I moved into a new house. Before we sold the old house, a Now-Former friend ran into some trouble and was about to become homeless with pets and a small child. Not wanting them to be on the street, we offered to hold off selling the old house so she could stay there for a little while, if she could pay the cost of the mortgage on that house (because I could afford one mortgage but not two) while we helped her find somewhere more permanent.

I was not making money from this- since I was still paying the utilities and property taxes, I was actually losing money, but willing to soak that in order to help her save up and get her on her feet.

Instead, she:

Never Paid a Dime towards covering the mortgage costs like she agreed ($12,000 for the nine months she was there)

Trashed the house ($500 dump fees for the trash alone)

Let her pets piss and shit all over the house ($1,500 bio hazard cleanup, $4000 to replace the carpet and other damaged flooring)

Caused an electrical issue in the garage ($900 to repair)

Broke the washer, dryer and refrigerator ($2500 to replace)

Broke the fence ($1000 to repair)

When I told her I could no longer financially support her and that I needed to sell the old house, she illegally squatted there for a solid three months and I had to hire a lawyer and actually take her to court to get her to leave ($2,500)

The resulting stress has been, as you can imagine, stressful.

So stressful, in fact, that it aggravated a the medical conditions my husband had and made him extremely sick. He had to go to the hospital and take time off work to recover. Now the health insurance is trying to weasel out of paying his short-term disability claim.

So net, this woman has managed to cost me around $25,000 and that's not taking into account the missed paychecks and medical expenses. I do not have $25,000, and until at least $13,000 of that is spent to repair the damage she did, I legally cannot sell the house to even begin to recoup my losses.

Theoretically, I could sue this woman, but she doesn't have any money and it would be me paying even more money I don't have to get... Nothing. So I'm asking for help to cover the costs of getting the old house ready to sell, my husband's medical expenses, and other expenses incurred by this debacle:

If you can help out in any way-share, donate spare change, anything- I'd be extremely grateful.

Thank you.

#signal Boost #fundraiser #original post edited for clarity

[irrealisms]

i've seen a lot of people talk about mcyt as a constantly burning library of alexandria recently, and to some extent that's true. people are constantly deleting their blogs, going scorched earth with animatics, fanfics, etc., that they made. but i've also seen people (three in the last few days!) make this claim about VODs, when talking about large fandoms like DSMP and QSMP, and.... guys. that was true in 2020. that's not true anymore. archivists have been working tirelessly for years now to make sure that isn't true.

the dsmp VOD masterlist is here. in november 2020, it's missing 16 VODs, if i am counting correctly--which is still a fairly small minority, but it's a lot, and it sucks!--but in november of 2021, it's missing one, and that's because the cc of that VOD does copyright takedowns, not because the archivists didn't save it. no one in the archivist project is deleting VODs off youtube with no backups the way people are deleting fanfics. three months ago, one of my dsmp archivist friends finished coding a tool that let them reconstruct VODs out of twitch clips, and reconstructed six tubbo dsmp VODs from 2020. not only are we basically not losing VODs anymore, we are actively gaining VODs that have been lost for years, that were thought to be lost forever. the library isn't burning anymore; it's being rebuilt.

the qsmp VOD masterlist is here. it is usually a month or two behind the present day, to give creators time to archive their own VODs, but... look at it. in january of 2024, every single qsmp vod was archived. the same is true of december of 2023, and november, and the vast majority of months for the past year.

i'm not going to say that there isn't a problem. just a few days ago, i realized that a lifesteal VOD from last year was missing--that its youtube upload was messed up somehow, and no one noticed and it wasn't mirrored on the internet archive and the person who uploaded it deleted the original file. and now it's gone forever. this made me super sad! like i said: i'm not going to say that there isn't a problem.

but... look at the lifesteal VOD masterlist here. lifesteal's a smaller fandom than qsmp or dsmp. open the 2022 tab and you'll see months and months of lost VODs, of no one's VODs being saved, because there weren't any archivists saving them. then open the 2023 tab and see: they lost four VODs, over the course of a year. even in smaller fandoms, archivists are working. they're making progress. they're saving VODs. in 2024, lifesteal archivists screenrecorded five streams on tumblr live to make sure they would not become lost media. mcyt may be a constantly burning library of alexandria, but the people with fire extinguishers are dedicated. they're making incredible progress. i know people with petabytes of VODs saved, who have spent money on extra storage for this. i know people who are constantly running up against their storage limits as they download/upload to the internet archive/delete for space/rinse and repeat. a decent fraction of the time, my internet at home is slow because it's downloading VODs.

and these aren't the only mcyt fandoms with archiving projects! the outsiders smp VOD masterlist is here. origins smp VOD masterlist is here. smp earth VOD masterlist is here. rats smp VOD masterlist is here. there are so many others that i just don't happen to know about. the older and smaller a fandom is, the more likely it is to not have an attached archiving project, or for the archive to be missing a lot of VODs. but... guys, we've saved a lot. there are people out there, working tirelessly to save even more. yes, mourn what we have lost--the archivists i know are also the ones mourning the most for the VODs that are, in fact, forever lost media. but don't dismiss how much people have saved. we are making progress. we are losing less and less every month. the vast majority of the dsmp and qsmp still exist, i am not going to say they're the same experience as watching live because they're really not, but.. they're out there. people have put in a lot of work to save them.

if you have publicly available VOD masterlists or other mcyt archiving projects that aren't on this post, please add them in a reblog. i want this post to serve as a reference for how much archivists have saved in this community; unfortunately, i'm not super connected to every community. but i know that--for every person deleting things, there are people working, tirelessly & with little external reward, in so many different mcyt fandoms, to save things. and we should appreciate that more often.

#therapists dni #any british ants in the chat? #AND EVERYONE SAY THANK YOU TO FAIRY RAVE!!!!!!!!