Chapter 19: The Lighthouse part 1
. . .
Batman stepped out onto the snowy office doorstep of Edward Nygma, Private investigator, but the door behind him was stopped just short of slamming shut. Without turning, Batman waited.
“He was clever with my riddles, your little friend,” Nygma said from the doorway. “I...do hope you find him well.”
The door clicked shut. Batman turned to look one last time at the crisp green lettering across its snow-dusted window, knowing that the fresh paint would survive only a few more weeks at the most before inevitably surrendering to the grime that pervaded every other inch of the city. Hope that the same inevitability wouldn’t apply to the recently reformed Riddler’s fate was the sole reason Batman had entered and exited through the front door. That hope hadn’t been disappointed by what he’d found inside, though the ultimate purpose for his visit had been.
Within a few moments he was again steering the batmobile down Gotham’s uncommonly quiet monochrome streets.
“Oracle,” he said. “I haven’t seen Batgirl tonight.”
Oracle’s connection crackled through the speaker system. “No? Huh. Neither have I.” The speakers lapsed into silence. “She...does this sometimes. She just...drops off the grid for a day or two. I don’t know where she is or what she does, but she’s getting very good at avoiding my surveillance. I can’t shake the feeling that something triggers it, but she never talks to me.” She paused. “She talks to you.”
“We don’t talk.”
“Well--whatever it is you two do, you get each other. I’d be surprised if you hadn’t noticed her behavior yet.”
“I’ve noticed.”
“So. Are you...planning to stay a while? Because she’d love to hear it if you are, and--”
“The last lead went nowhere. I’ll stay until another comes, but no longer.”
“The usual, then. Are you still planning on Arkham?”
“I need to take care of something first.”
“So, yes. You can just say ‘yes’ Bruce.”
“Code names,” he snapped.
“Well I’m sure those shouldn’t be a problem once you find Batgirl, since you refuse to acknowledge that she even has anything other than a codename.”
Oracle disconnected. Batman scowled.
He finished his turn behind the shelter of a warehouse, parked, and reached into the storage compartment beside him before stepping outside and stalking around the corner. The sewage cover was in a secluded corner of the city, ideal for its sole, secretive occupant. Batman quietly removed the cover and descended the ladder. The still, lukewarm tunnel air reeked of a century’s worth of sewage, which disguised another, subtler stench, just as the plinking echo from the distant shadows disguised the chilling slosh of slow, heavy, footsteps.
Batman reached under his cape, and in the brief moments before Solomon Grundy’s sluggish form rounded the corner, he set the covered plate stacked with Alfred’s leftovers on a dry patch of stone and then swiftly hauled himself up and out through the hole above.
No one quite knew who or what Grundy was. A creature to most, barely alive--if alive he was at all--but the creature had a name, and perhaps being treated like the man he once had been could hold the creature’s danger at bay.
Returning to the Batmobile, Batman had run out of excuses to delay.
Batgirl’s whereabouts weighed on his mind, but still he was grateful that he was unlikely to find her at his destination.
He veered toward the edge of the city, between shadowed trees, until at last he reached the base of the hill that wound up toward Arkham Asylum. It’s sharp spires stood out starkly under the moonlight.
The gatekeeper admitted him with little more than an uneasy glance. The building was just as easily penetrated.
The hall on the upper level seemed to stretch to a mile of ignoring hostile glares and a distant but persistent giggling before Batman heard a voice call from the next room--a room, not a cell. He would never let them put Harvey in a cell.
But it wasn’t Harvey Dent’s voice calling to him. His heart sank.
“We almost thought you’d finally found something better to do than play chess with imaginary friends,” Two-Face’s voice rasped. The familiar disfigured face tipped against the glass to watch Batman approach the window. Harvey tilted his head and his mouth stretched into a smile that must have pulled painfully at mutilated skin. “Sorry, Bats. Your Harvey isn’t here today.”
Batman’s gaze flickered toward the half-finished chess game set up across the room. He hesitated.
“But you aren’t here for chess this time,” Harvey said, interpreting his silence. “You went to Eddie first, didn’t you.” He paused, and Batman took in the subtle relax of his expression. “What happened to that new little bird of yours...it shook Harvey up. Shook most of us up. Even changed some of us. Quinn and Eddie most of all. Unless we’re counting your friend down the hall.”
The giggling from the far end of the hall reached a new crescendo. Batman’s fingers curled around the edge of his cape.
“'Course,” Harvey continued, “We never changed a bit. We don’t intend to, no matter how many of these visits you put us through. We both know you ain’t here for me.”
“I’m always here for you, Harvey,” Batman said in a low voice. “You can choose to help me, or not. But...I am asking you to.”
“You aint talkin’ to Harvey,” the man behind the glass growled.
“Harvey,” Bruce repeated, tightly. “Your connections could lead me to Robin. I’m not asking this for myself.”
“Oh yes you are. Shut up,” he hissed, twisting around. He shook his head so hard that his whole body shuddered. “Shut up you pathetic little--” Harvey gripped his hair with both hands, drew and exhaled long, slow breaths.
“Harvey?” Batman asked cautiously.
The man straightened. “The coin will decide,” said Harvey’s soft voice. In Batman’s rush of relief he took an involuntary step closer to the glass. “What we want never really matters in the end.”
“But it does, Harvey. You don’t need the coin to decide. Robin’s just a boy--you want to help him, I know you.”
“You think you do. Somehow you still think you do, old friend.”
The coin rolled over Harvey’s scar-ribbed knuckles, and then with a flick of his thumb it went spinning into the air.
It landed flat in his palm. Batman took care to maintain a neutral expression as Harvey barely glanced at the coin before sliding it back into his pocket.
“Try again tomorrow,” he said.
The coin. Typically, Harvey would have announced the coin’s answer as final, but this time...this felt like an invitation rather than a rejection. Bruce hesitated, but Harvey still hadn’t turned, and he thought better of expressing his gratitude. “White bishop to B4,” he said.
Harvey’s gaze drifted to the chessboard, and he was rubbing his chin thoughtfully as Batman disappeared down the corridor.
He refused to hear Joker’s singsong voice calling after him.
“Maybe I snatched your little birdie, did you ever think of that? Did you ever think of how creative I might get the second time around? Aren’t you running low on friends, Batsy? Friends visit each other, don’t they? Battsssyyyy...”
He didn’t look back, quickening his pace until he was out of earshot. He must have rendered himself blind and deaf to all but the call behind him, because he blinked once, and then at the end of the corridor stood someone who had not been there before.
Batgirl.
His initial stab of relief at the sight of her quickly vanished. He hurried toward her, taking care not to touch her as he herded her away from the inmates’ probing eyes. She tilted her head quizzically, but followed his lead and moved further around the corner.
“You shouldn’t be here,” he whispered.
Behind her full face mask she smiled at him, and she twirled, tossing her gaze around the tall, night-shadowed corridor.
He shook his head. “No. It isn’t safe.”
She shot him a glare that accused him of hypocrisy far more eloquently than words ever could, and then spun around to stalk down the corridor ahead of him. Batman sighed, and followed. Batgirl slipped between staff and camera angles seamlessly, never once spotted, even as Batman strode erect behind her.
Once they were outside the building, she was already moving, ready to leave by whichever path she had come.
“Batgirl,” he murmured.
She looked at him sharply. He tipped his head toward the Batmobile, and she hesitated only a moment before coming with him. He could sense her curiosity as the door automatically opened for her and she crawled inside. This was a first for her, and as she looked around at the blinking lights and dials, the open wonder she radiated lit a flicker of warmth in his chest.
“There’s someplace I want to show you,” he said. “You’ve earned the right, Batgirl.”
She flashed him a smile, her entire being lighting up the way it did every time he called her by that name. Oracle must have never seen it, or if she had, she just hadn’t understood.
It took a matter of moments for her to find the food compartment. She hesitated just long enough to yank off her mask before she started devouring the additional serving of leftovers that Alfred had slipped into the compartment.
Batman kept an eye on her as he drove. Her eagerness would be amusing if not for the faint gauntness that still traced her cheeks despite weeks of experiencing Barbara and Alfred’s combined culinary skills.
She was nearly finished when her eyes began to wander back toward the dials. One of her hands darted out toward the gleaming yellow button that would shower tacks in the Batmobile’s wake. Already his own hand had snapped out to grab her wrist before she could touch it.
His eye barely captured the motion as her hands flashed out to twist his wrist until bones creaked and pain split all the way up his arm. His vision blinked black.
The car swerved.
Her grip on his arm vanished as instantly as it had come, and he just barely managed to keep the car on the road as he slammed on the brake.
He looked at the girl--at her wide, terrified eyes. Whatever she had just seen in his face, she twisted around to grab the door handle. Batman pressed the lock just in time, and she wheeled to look at him again, she was terrified...
“It’s okay,” he said softly, raising his palms to her. “You didn’t hurt me.”
She didn’t believe the lie, he could tell, but some of the fear left her face--some of it. And tears were forming.
She yanked forcefully at the door handle, glaring at him. He shook his head.
“I’m taking you to my home,” he continued gently. “I want you to see it.” He hesitated, and added, “You don’t need to explain anything to me.”
He carefully pulled back onto the road. They were already nearly to the cave entrance. He could only hope the drive would be long enough that she wouldn’t bolt as soon as he opened her door.
He still didn’t know how much she understood, or what he could say even if she could. By the time the car was pulling around the final bend, he had said nothing, he was hopelessly tongue-tied, and he could only hope that Alfred could supply what he must have failed to. Batgirl still looked pale.
The foliage-camouflaged doors slid apart and the car passed into the cave. As they slowed into park, the giant penny was in view, and had already captured Batgirl’s full attention. Batman unlocked the doors, and they both stepped out.
“Greetings, Master Br...” Alfred faltered, taken aback at the sight of Batgirl in person for the first time at all, let alone in the cave. He looked to Bruce, who shrugged an apology.
“She’s one of us, now,” he said, and Alfred nodded his understanding.
“Miss Cassandra, I presume?”
She blinked at him in surprise--likely surprise that she hadn’t noticed him.
Alfred didn’t wait for a response that clearly wasn’t forthcoming. “This way, Miss Cassandra. I prepared a few humble delicacies that I suspect will find a far greater appreciation in you.”
Bruce knew that she had noticed the dinosaur display by the way she gasped, just as the boys had, so many years ago...
The cave settled into silence, to Alfred’s confusion.
And Cassandra was still avoiding Bruce’s gaze.
Decisively he stalked toward the sparring mat, unclipping his cape as he went. The girl’s eyes followed him. He turned around, and beckoned to her. His combat ready posture communicated his invitation, but she hesitated, her dark eyes fixed on him, unblinking.
“Sir,” Alfred said, “I’m sure that the young lady must be tired after a long night on the town. Surely a sparring session could wait for another time...”
“Batgirl,” Bruce said firmly, his gaze unshifting from hers.
Anger sparked in her face, and then, in less than a blink she had already reached him. She wasn’t holding back. With every rapidfire strike that he barely deflected, with hardly an opportunity to strike back in turn, her attacks were a deafening crescendo of violent but flawlessly balanced art. He had seen it from a distance before, but experiencing it face to face was like hearing it for the first time. Hearing her.
Every furious strike shouted what she wanted to say, every feint and jab--and he replied in turn. Deflecting--you can’t hurt me--receiving a jab with silence--I won’t be angry if you do--a return strike--what do you need from me.
At that, her attacks seemed to grow more ferocious.
Her fingers skated across his still-aching left forearm, and then darted toward his face. His own hand snapped out to knock her hand away. Every time before, her lightning-fast reflexes had let her slip away before he could even touch her.
His hand closed around her wrist.
His other hand was already coiling back for a counter strike--but she wasn’t pulling away.
He went as statue-still as she had, and met her eyes, which had locked on his. They were wide, afraid--but unflinching.
Pounding heartbeats passed before her other hand whipped out. Bruce resisted the reflex to flinch as she lightly struck his extended forearm and then her own. She shook her wrist in his grip fiercely with her teeth bared.
Bruce stared at the girl, at her chin tipped upward, her entire body braced for the injury she demanded. And expected.
He released her wrist instantly, his palm stinging as though he’d been burned. She still glared at him, all but trembling with...anger?
“If...I might interrupt,” Alfred’s voice said uncertainly. “There is a fine dinner upstairs that is more than enough for the two of you, if you would care to, ah...reconvene at a later time?”
Bruce blinked, and glanced at Alfred as though he’d just been woken from a dream; Cass hissed through her teeth to regain his attention.
“I expect the both of you to join me upstairs shortly,” Alfred said, already moving toward the stairs. “In typical human apparel, if that is not too much to ask.”
“We’ll join you in a minute, Alfred,” Bruce called, without turning, this time. He drew in and released a breath. “I’m inviting you to stay in my home, if you would like to. Barbara’s place will always be open to you, but...if you ever need help, in any way...I would like you to feel safe here.”
He hesitated, steeled himself, and then reached up to pull back his cowl.
She recoiled in open shock.
Bruce blinked. For a split second he thought she must have misunderstood his words, but then he knew. For some reason he couldn’t fathom, it was his face.
Still staring at him, she relaxed slightly, and shook herself.
Bruce would have showered and changed as Alfred had suggested, but now, looking at the girl, he knew with certainty that if he let her out of his sight she would be gone by the time he returned.
“Alfred’s dinner will be getting cold,” he said at last, tipping his head toward the stairs. “And I know you’re hungry.”
They both ascended the stairwell in full costume, save for their masks, and as Alfred saw them stepping out of the grandfather clock entrance into the study, he slanted Bruce a chastising look. Cass was absorbed in the new room, and especially the roaring hearth, and behind her, Bruce shrugged helplessly at Alfred, who tipped up his chin in his own version of a shrug.
“I took the liberty of inviting Miss Gordon to join us for the meal, but she should not arrive within the hour. Until then, I’m sure we could show the young lady around. She will be staying here for a time, will she not?” He didn’t wait for an answer before rounding Cass to enter her field of vision. “To begin with, we might find you a change of clothing.”
Bruce hadn’t realized how tense he was until Cass returned and he saw that he was dressed in a tattered Gotham Knights hoodie and sweatpants--his own old clothing. He caught Alfred’s gaze lingering on him and suspected that avoiding the boys’ wardrobe had been intentional.
He had changed in that time as well, into slacks and a black turtleneck. Cass eyed his own new apparel critically, and Bruce pretended not to notice. He suspected it would take time to understand his new charge’s peculiarities.
But she wasn’t his charge. She couldn’t be.
Still, after only one night of worrying over her he’d already weakened and let her into his cave, into his home. It was for her own protection, but Barbara would never let him hear the end of it.
“We’ve still some time to spend before Miss Gordon’s arrival. What say you two help me decorate for the rapidly approaching holiday?”
Bruce whipped toward Alfred with a glare that had made the hardest of convicts melt; Alfred didn’t blink. His own expression stern, he said, while still looking at Bruce, “It would be a shame indeed if we should fail to make her first celebrated Christmas something worth cherishing.”
. . .
The girl wasn’t gaining weight as quickly as she should have been after days of subjection to Alfred’s cooking. While she did grow bolder around her new housemates, she still drifted about the mansion like the shadow she was.
The girl had taken to spending her days at the manor and her nights alongside Batman, but Barbara kept in touch with her through video communications. Barbara seemed glad, if a bit tentative, about the new housing arrangement. Bruce was less glad of her acceptance than he’d first expected to be, but the girl’s well-being superseded half-hearted frustrations.
Bruce was emerging from a post-patrol shower when he saw Cass pulling something out of the box beside Jason’s memorial--Dick’s Robin costume. She whirled around, startled by his hasty approach. He faltered, tried to compose himself, but he already knew it was too late to hide his initial reaction. “You can’t touch these,” he said stiffly, carefully taking the costume from her hands to put it away.
“Wh...” he turned, startled at the sound of her voice, for the first time--somehow both wispy and hoarse. “Why,” she forced out, staring at him with her brows knitted together.
He stared back at first, then came to his senses. He glanced at the case, at Dick’s costume still in his hands. “These belong...belonged...to my partners. My Robins. I keep them in memory.”
She reached down to pick something up from beside the box, and Bruce tried not to flinch. Two old tree decorations, two childrens’ school projects. Cass pointed at the name on the back of the bat-shaped red cardboard with a boy’s grinning freckled face cropped to fit in the center. She pointed from the name on the back to the name at the base of the case, and looked at him.
He shut his eyes, and exhaled the renewed ache from his lungs.
“Jason. His name was Jason.”
He opened his eyes and saw in her face that she understood. Hesitantly she lifted the other ornament, a crudely cut bird bedazzled with multi-colored sequins, with Dick’s round face beaming at him from the center.
Alfred called from the far side of the room. “Miss Cassandra is about to help me find a suitable tree on the manor grounds. I don’t wish to impose, Master Bruce, but your contributed manpower would be greatly appreciated.”
Bruce took both ornaments from the girl’s reluctant hands.
An hour later they were shaking off the snow by the back door. Alfred insisted on wrapping the tree in a clean tarp before they ended up trailing needles all over the carpets, but at last the tree was in its place in the sitting room, and Cass, with wonder, was helping Alfred to decorate it. Alfred at least had the grace not to press Bruce into participating in that.
Bruce watched from beside the fire. Leaning against the now decorated mantle, its warmth flickering across his damp clothing, he studied Cassandra’s movements as she hooked antique ornaments onto the tree. She was favoring her left arm, just slightly. She hadn’t reported any injury to him...but she never did.
Barbara had been pressing him about that. “She worships you! If you mistreat yourself, what do you think that teaches her?”
Whether or not that was true, Barbara had implied there might be more to it. As though the girl might be hurting herself intentionally.
He watched careful hands decorate the tree with gleaming bits and bobs, and for just a moment, he might have been in a Christmas past. He might have seen flickering shades of familiar faces, shifting and changing and then leaving with each passing winter. His hand wandered into his pocket, his fingertips brushing against frayed paper. The two ornaments had found a place on the tree every Christmas before.
His weight shifted toward the tree, just a fraction. But he stopped. The ornaments were frail. It would be best to keep them someplace safe. Out of sight.
His hand was still in his pocket when the nearest phone rang.
“I’ll get it, Alfred,” he said, already halfway toward the stand down the hall. “Wayne residence,” he said into the receiver distractedly, prepared to hang up immediately if it proved to be a reporter or crank caller.
After a few breaths of silence, he began to pull it away from his ear.
“They’re somewhere in East Norway,” said a quick, muffled voice. The voice was young. “I lost track of them after the Vardo motel. You--you need to hurry before Deathstroke moves him again.”
Bruce’s heart stopped. His mind spun with a thousand questions, but something nagging, and a little desperate, dragged his mind back to the voice.
“Do I know you?” he asked. His brow furrowed in puzzlement at his own question.
He heard a shaky breath through the receiver, and then a click.
Bruce stood there for a dazed instant, but then shook himself. He shouldn’t still be hearing ghosts.
He raced toward the clock to descend into the cave without looking at the startled faces behind him. “Batcomputer,” he called as he made down the stairs three at a time, “Call Oracle.”
He hadn’t even reached the computers before her voice responded. “Oracle speaking.”
“I need you to trace the last call to the manor. Hurry.”
“Already on it. It came from a payphone in Bergen, Norway.”
“Computer. Transmit automatic call recording to Oracle.”
“Recording received.”
In the pause that followed Bruce began computer analysis on the region in question.
“Batman...” Oracle said cautiously, “this seems a little overly...convenient. I just want you to consider the possibility that this might be a deliberate ruse to draw you away from Gotham--or away from wherever Deathstroke actually is.”
“It’s real,” he said. Even if he couldn’t pinpoint the reason, he’d never been more certain of anything in his life.
“Gotham can’t afford you wasting your time on another red herring. Cass can’t afford you to.”
“She has you.”
“That won’t be enough, Bruce.”
“You were the one who was so certain he was in Europe.” He hissed out, recalling her insistence on the significance of those zip-ties. “Or have you decided he isn’t worth saving anymore?”
He heard her suck in a sharp breath, followed by a silence. “That isn’t fair,” she said with cold quiet. “You know better than that. Of course we’ll help him, but you can’t keep jumping at shadows!”
“I’d appreciate Oracle’s eyes overseas, but I’ll go with or without them. Do not make me regret letting you in on this.”
“Bruce--”
He terminated the call.
He could equip himself and be gone within a few minutes. He could continue his research on the way.
He straightened, and stilled. He looked to his left, at Alfred and Cassandra watching him from the stairs. “I’m following a lead,” he said, deliberately pulling his gaze away from Alfred’s disappointed expression. “Don’t expect me back for a few days.”
It would take precious time to pick up Deathstroke’s trail. He would miss Christmas, but in exchange he might bring home one of the two people who had once made the holiday worth celebrating.
He had turned to head for the suit when a hand tugged at his arm. Cass looked at him firmly, jabbed a thumb into her chest and then pointed out beyond the both of them.
He looked her in the eye and shook his head with equal firmness. “This is something I need to do alone. Alfred and Barbara will look after you.”
She didn’t let go of his arm. He had to pull away, and he didn’t look back.
He wasn’t jumping at shadows or ghosts. Not anymore.
. . .
His left side fluctuated between waves of burning heat and numbness. He blinked as light pushed against the black, fuzzy edges of his vision, and forced his arms to push him up from the snow. One inch, then another.
His head was so heavy he could barely lift it--and then he saw him again. His boy. Dick was standing so close he could almost touch him.
He reached, and staggered.
“Di--” he broke off, the name catching in his throat. His vision blinked out again. He slipped. “R...Robin...” he ground out, pleading.
Dick was staring at him again, with that pale, hunted expression. Deathstroke leaned down, murmured something to the boy. Dick looked away, and Bruce felt as though something had been ripped out of his chest. Dick was walking around the corner, out of his sight.
Blackness returned.
+ - + - + - + - +
Alfred busied his hands with sifting and mixing, glancing at the cookbook only occasionally in case old age had begun wearing the finer details of cookie baking from his memory. Most other memories remained so clear and fresh that even on this Christmas, he found himself turning and expecting to see a different young face than the one that had perched barefoot upon the island counter behind him. Beyond her dark hair and youth, Cassandra bore little resemblance to any of his boys.
Still, there might have been something in her stare that reminded him of his first.
Alfred turned back to his task, which he had designed to remove that particular boy from the minds of both of the Manor’s remaining residents.
Cassandra was still wearing the oversized pajamas and tousled bed head he had found her with when he’d given up on waiting and gone up to rouse her himself less than an hour before. He had guided the sullen young lady to the kitchen with promises of breakfast pudding, and subsequently tasked her with test-tasting the chocolate chips he would soon add to the recipe if she deigned to leave him any.
He had politely requested that the young lady perch herself upon one of the provided stools, rather than his otherwise spotless counter, but she had either misunderstood or deliberately ignored him. It being Christmas, he had let the matter be.
Soon Miss Gordon would join them for the evening dinner. The master of the house was not expected.
Alfred had already resolved not to be disappointed, or angered, or afraid. It was Christmas, after all, and young Miss Cassandra’s first.
The holiday had meant something to the other two children Bruce had brought to their door.
To Dick, the Manor’s celebration had borne a confusing and bittersweet mismatch of similarities and differences to that of his circus family, who had been tight-knit but uncommonly isolated. Nevertheless, Dick Grayson had brought Christmas back to Wayne manor.
As for Jason...well. It had been both joy and sorrow to see his face when he first came down that morning.
Alfred drew a shuddering breath and forced his trembling hands to continue their task.
He forcibly turned his thoughts back toward more untarnished memories, though they still ached. He chose to remember how Dick had once used his uneven but spirited voice to fill the place with carols. Not that first subdued year, but in the ones that followed. His mother had liked to sing them, the boy had said, when Alfred had first caught him at it. The explanation had seemed almost defensive, but no murmur of complaint from any party ever rose against the habit.
Their little songbird had quieted before he left.
Alfred hummed lightly to himself as he began to dole out teaspoonfuls of batter onto the cookie sheet, demonstrating to her as he went. Her hand darted out quick as a flash and she already had the stolen batter in her mouth by the time Alfred leveled her with a scolding look. She smiled mischievously around her finger. Alfred forgave her. He continued his humming until the bowl was empty and the cookies had escaped Cassandra’s eager hands to find their home in the oven.
He piled newly dirtied bowls into the sink and set about his finishing task. A favored carol nudged to the forefront of his mind, and his humming turned to a murmured tune.
“I heard the bells on Christmas day, their old familiar carols play, and wild and sweet, the words repeat of peace on earth, good-will to men!”
He continued through stanzas as the poet mourned a country at war, which any old soldier would have little trouble relating to.
“And in despair I bowed my head; ‘There is no peace on earth,’ I said; for hate is strong, and mocks the song of peace on earth, good-will to men!
“Then pealed the bells more loud and deep: ‘God is not dead, nor doth He sleep; the Wrong shall fail, the Right prevail, with peace on earth, good-will to men.”
Alfred’s shoulders relaxed fractionally as he spoke the final verse, and the precious hope gleaming within it. Every prayer he made, and he prayed near as often as he breathed these days, he prayed in the same hope as that of the poet’s. Whether he and those he loved might see that hope actualized in their lifetimes was a different, unpromised hope that he nonetheless prayed for, desperately.
He heard soft humming behind him: rasping, and faintly discordant like an uncertain tune. He turned in delight to see Cassandra, her brows knitted together thoughtfully as she forced out the notes.
She didn’t look at him, but her notes grew more halting, until just barely, her lips parted.
“Aai,” she forced out in a thin croak, and her brows flew up, startled. She blinked, sucked in a breath, and tried again, “...Aii hhu--”
She broke off, staring at the floor, blinking furiously.
“That was beautiful, Miss Cassandra,” Alfred said gently.
Her face contorted. She shook her head fiercely, and before Alfred could blink she was already gone.
+ - + - + - +
Batgirl squeezed further into the crevice sheltered by the stacked boxes in a shadowed corner of the cave, and waited. Batman’s gentle friend--Alfred, he had called him--knew she was in the cave. He had come down after her, looking around and repeating that name they kept calling her. She refused to answer to it.
She would wait until it was time for Alfred to drive her into Gotham so that she could work again. Anything else was just waiting, and only Batman understood that. She buried her face in her arms, scowling. He should have let her go with him. Without him, without the work, she was just...being. It wasn’t enough.
But ‘being’ in the crevice, in the silence surrounded by nothing to drown out the boiling mess in her chest, was worse.
But Alfred was still in the cave, talking quietly to the computer. To Oracle?
Oracle wouldn’t understand. Oracle wanted her to speak, and she was tired of trying. Tired of wanting to, and failing. Oracle couldn’t see her like this. They already wanted to pity her. They shouldn’t.
So she waited.
Oracle came down into the cave, and called for her.
Batgirl waited.
If Batman didn’t come soon, she would slip out and go back to the city on foot. Work there, do something to justify being until he came back. He would come back.
She snapped to alertness as soon as she heard it: a roaring approaching the cave, entering it. Batman’s plane.
She pushed out of the crevice and bolted toward the landing pad. Alfred was already there, barely three paces away. He didn’t even notice her. The plane shuddered and went silent. The top hatch opened, and Batman, with slow, labored movements, emerged and began to descend the platform.
He was three steps from the floor when his left leg buckled under him.
Batgirl lunged for him. His faltering body had warned her only a fraction of a second early, and she only caught his shoulders before they both tumbled to the floor.
Alfred kneeled beside them and pushed back Batman’s cowl. Batgirl stared at his sweat-beaded face, unconscious. Alfred was saying the same name again and again, as if that would make Batman’s eyes open. He cupped Batman’s face, pressed fingers against his neck, and then slumped slightly in relief.
She helped him drag Batman’s weight toward the gurney, but even she grunted at the effort of hauling him onto the surface. Alfred immediately set about cutting away the burned and shredded costume along Batman’s side, revealing warped, inflamed flesh. Alfred barely hesitated before continuing his work, rifling through bottles and pads.
Batgirl stood with empty, helpless hands, and watched. Even as Alfred poked and prodded, Batman didn’t stir.
He was utterly helpless. Even a child could have killed him.
But Alfred moved with a purpose that told her Batman wouldn’t die. He couldn’t.
The girl watched, and waited.
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