#( just look after yourself okay? )

[novakiart]

spinneret fun! 🕷️ written by me & nevi

the rest under cut:

#spideypool #wade wilson #peter parker #spider-man #deadpool #i made this in one day fjdjjsjs forgive how weird wade looks in every panel but this is basically just a glorified scribble #also i think his badly drawn faces are funnt #more cringe losers based on nevi + my's au #again #they **** after this. #sorry? #mine #okay wait no I'm back #because put yourself in wade's shoes for a second #your bf's overactive super senses are telling him to get the hell out of dodge but he trusts you so much that he says nah fuck that #I'm safe I'm in good hands #to trust somebody more than you trust your own senses #okay /end #earth-748

[crybaby-bkg]

cw: Bakugou dies but comes back to life, “comes back wrong” trope, implied fighting, angst

When Bakugou died, you’re not sure how you went on living. Grief had taken over your life, sat you in the passenger side while it cruised off the highway into icy waters. And even then, you couldn’t find the energy to drown.

It’s why there’s a sudden uptick of energy when you’re promised to have him back. Some top scientists contact you months after his death, tell you to hurry down to the headquarters labs, come and rejoice for what you’re about to witness. And you’re horrified, to say the least.

“This isn’t my husband.” Are your first words when you walk in, watch the figure on the other side of the glass examine its own hands. It looks like your husband but—but his hair isn’t the right shade of blond all over. His nose bridge had a slight bump after a scuffle with a villain. He had a scar on his hand but—but it never looked like it was to sew a pinky beside the other fingers.

“Is that really my husband?” You ask next in disbelief, slowly entering the room. Bakugou’s head snaps up, his eyes a little brighter than you remember but—they hold so much emotion. So much memory, so much panic, so much guilt.

“I left you.” He mutters, his voice raspy and ragged, and you wonder if it’ll always be like this now. It makes you cry a little harder than it should, but you only embrace each other. He’s cold and his shoulders don’t hold the same mass and his back doesn’t carry the same scars. There’s one, jagged and rough, running down his back, and you think, you think that’s where they slipped a new spine in.

“Welcome back home.” You tell him, weeks after meeting him again, new and not totally—Katsuki. He’s stiff and he doesn’t immediately take off his boots when he enters, and it worries you. Makes you think if you’ve just let a stranger into your home, one that has stolen your dead husbands face. Makes you wonder if he’ll be as loving as Katsuki once was, or if he’ll become your monster looming over you with the guilt of not being able to rest anymore.

“I’ve missed you so much.” You whisper against his mouth one night, a little while after he’s moved back. You don’t know why you lay under him, why you let him nestle himself inside of you, why you let him hold you against his chest. Katsuki always ran his hands over your cheeks and neck whenever he held you like this, but this…man, only holds himself up with his hands resting beside your head. It’s alien, how he looks at you, how his hips are methodically measured with every thrust, how he kisses you every 8 seconds. You wonder if he’s more robot than Frankenstein monster.

“Why did you come back to me like this?” You ask him one night, barricaded in the bathroom away from him. You can hear his sobs on the other side, his pleading to be let in. He tells you he never wanted to come back if he had to be like this, that he’s sorry, please let him in, he misses the warmth of your skin, he’s never been so cold before, he’s never liked the cold.

“Is this considered cheating?” You ask yourself aloud one night, when Bakugou is forced back to the lab when he becomes too…un-Bakugou. To sleep with a man that is your husband in every way but? Your husband has been dead for a year now, and yet you stroke the chin of the man that tries so hard to be him everyday, but fails so miserably at it every time.

“I’ll come back to you right this time.” Bakugou promises to you when he’s strapped down to leave for the lab and before he’s sedated. But you don’t believe him—you never did. Your husband is dead, and this animated corpse has been nothing but a cheap mockery of everything you’ve lost and something you will never truly get back.

#I was writing this and then checked my dash and saw another post about this #and felt so guilty and almost didn’t post it aidjdkfj #but I love this trope too much to delete it!!!!! #I’ve written about this in my published book before and it’s one of my favorite things I’ve ever written #there’s just such a deep heartache about having to grieve someone #and then the grieving process being interrupted by the one you lost #and battling with their death even though you still look at them everyday again #but it’s just not right?? it’s not the same?? #they have the same face (kinda) but it’s truly not hem #not them* heck #it reminds me of a convo I had in a psych class about making a new cloned version of yourself #where the question was ‘is the clone/new version still you? or are they an entirely new person now?’ #and at first I said they’re still me you know? they have my face n body n memories #but my prof told me no!! after they have been cloned they are sentient and are now their own person making new memories apart from you #and I thought that was soooo interesting and it makes me fall in love w this trope every time #you’re my person but only a version. you’re who I love but a newer person. you’re not them. you’re everything I’ve missed about them #so heartbreaking I LOVE ITTTT #sorry I’m rapping it’s the sleep meds kicking in #okay bai #bakugou treats! 🍬 #—new treat in the streets! 🍫

[a-cakehound-or-critter-a-day]

1/26/2024 platonic love makes me happy :D also /ref for the dialog!

#{❤️Critters.exe💗} #<- block this tag if you dont want to see these! #{❤️Critters.png💗} #{❤️2024 Art💗} #{❤️Jackals💗} #cookie run kingdom #cookie run #Jackals #desert Jackal #desert jackals #was feeling a lil bad today so I doodled these lil guys! #I like to think that that specific jakal was just brave enough to befriend the mummies #and now everyone feels a little happier #I actually have a few “ocs” I guess? these two would be apart of that lil squad #the desert jakals name is enid and theyre a lil bit of an oddball but that lead to them making the friends they have now :') #and squit's the mummified one- it goes by it/its! :D #enid goes by she/her #i dont know im rambling now dfgjkhhjkfgd #i shall return tomorrow with another fun critter! dont forget to look after yourself okay? #tw zombies #tw mummies

[stackthedeck]

headcanoning booster gold as a trans man makes his name being michael jon carter so so interesting

#like okay giving yourself a name to match your twin sister is the kind of silly but sweet thing he'd do #and it makes the fact that he mostly goes by booster after her death even more sad #like it was their name not just his #but also like he gave himself his father's name for his middle name #and like of course he would #because his mom and michelle gave up on their dad but booster went looking for him wanted to give him another chance #he held space in his father in his life and it causes him nothing but pain #names are so much more interesting when the characters choose them #do you think michelle's middle name is ellen? i hope so #maybe if rani is legally registered as existing she lets booster and michelle give her a middle name because it's an earth thing #and she gets to carry a piece of their mother with her #i think about ellen carter a lot she really went through it #booster gold

[biblionerd07]

I actually had more sympathy for Jesse’s parents on this rewatch. Like overall they’re not some abusive monsters who never cared about him. They very obviously DO care about him. Their house felt safe enough to Jesse that he went there when the meth had him feeling paranoid and strung out. When Jesse calls his dad after being questioned by the DEA he mentions getting a job “in data entry, like we talked about”, and Jesse’s mom says “I can’t do this again”, and Jake says Jesse’s all they ever talk about, so they’re obviously in a cycle of trying to help Jesse and seeing him go back to drugs. It’s easy for us to kind of forget the ramifications, because of the scope of the show and because we love Jesse and are seeing his POV and definitely because Aaron Paul’s teeth and skin are nice lol, but Jesse is addicted to crystal meth. And he’s SELLING crystal meth! This is not just weed. It’s a pretty big fucking deal. And his parents talk about getting him help, and they let him come inside and sleep and eat a few meals and wash his clothes. Maybe you could consider that the bare minimum, but it is something. When Hank is talking to Jesse’s mom, she’s not dismissive of Jesse or uncaring. She’s obviously very sad about the state of Jesse’s life, and when she starts to clock that Hank’s investigating Jesse, she gets protective and makes Hank leave. They evicted Jesse from his aunt’s house, but to give them a bit of grace, his mom did find his literal meth lab in the basement lmao. Which they threatened to tell the DEA about but never actually did. They seem to be in that place with an addict where you’re trying to balance giving support without enabling; his dad even says they need to try tough love. (Personally I think it shows they don’t really know Jesse all that well because tough love is not the right method for him, but they probably feel like they’ve tried everything else.) When Jesse’s talking about that perfect box he made in shop, his initial lie is that he gave it to his mom, and when he tells the truth it’s clear he really regrets that he didn’t actually do that. In El Camino, I really think they want him to turn himself in because they think he’ll be safer and maybe they think he’ll get some leeway if he turns himself in rather than getting caught. It doesn’t seem like they call the cops when he calls and asks them to come get him; they rush out right away and all the police are in regular, unmarked cars.

But….

I can never give them grace or forgive them for that car decal that was Mom, Dad, and Jake but no Jesse. Like what the hell is that?? And it seems absolutely outrageous to me that his parents, with everything that happened between them and everything they’re seeing on the news, took the opportunity to talk to him and only said “turn yourself in.” No “I love you.” No “be safe.” His dad saying they hadn’t talked to him in a long time, since “way before all this” really rankled, too. They purposefully distanced themselves from him. They made sure to say on the news that they’re not involved in this because they’re not in his life. I really do think they cared and were scared for him. But at every turn it just seemed like they didn’t care enough to actually understand what he needed or how to get through to him.

#brba #jesse pinkman #el Camino #he really tries to keep Jake from following his path and oh my heart #I’ve always read Jesse as probably having undiagnosed or at least untreated ADHD #we know he’s so much smarter than anyone gives him credit for but he kept getting ‘apply yourself’ #he has to care about things to do them well #anyway my tragic baby boy #i love him with my whole heart #and I’ve always hated his parents but as I get older and rewatch I have more sympathy for them #I doubt he ever went to rehab before but they certainly couldn’t have afforded a place like he goes to ever Jane dies #plus he wouldn’t ever go before #he really only went after Jane bc he was so catatonic with drugs and grief that I imagine Walt literally just dropped him at the door #his dad sounds happy when he says ‘you look good’ when he sees Jesse after rehab but he’s still cautious #god I wish he would’ve just said yes Jesse come over for dinner tonight #I hope someday Jesse was able to find a way to get word to them that he’s okay #nothing they can trace to find him #but just to let them know #it always seemed like his mom cared more despite that slap #his dad wanted to be tough but I don’t think his mom did #and I’m not saying Jesse turning to drugs or any of this is their fault obviously #it’s just very sad

[onlythebravest]

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#lewis capaldi was asked if he reads fics and he said yes and asked for recs #and ppl are actually doing it #and they’re asking for fics which includes lewis x 1D boy to then recommend to him #if you have to recommend fics then recommend your own #don’t take someone else’s #it just makes me so uncomfortable knowing ppl are more than happy to bring fandom stuff to him? #after the whole niall debacle just the other week? #everyone agreed that bringing fics to niall was wrong so why is it now okay to recommend them directly to lewis? #if he wants to read fics on his own time fine (makes me want to delete my fics but fine) #but look up them yourself #don’t break the wall between fandom and the artist #don’t make it seem normal to send fic and fandom exclusive stuff to the artist

[maddy-ferguson]

fun fact about me: i'm insecure about so many random things that i've never flipped anyone off in my 22 years of life because i think my middle finger looks awkward and ugly by itself

#and like i say: brf slt #i felt like this especially when i would have been likely to do it semi-regularly like in middle school. but like i was thinking about this #the other day and i did it in front of a mirror just to check and it looked as bad as i remember like it's just not for me #i have a story abour middle fingers though or just about what one would call the finger #when i was in what an american would call the 5th grade (i can never do when i was x years old because it's not an accurate representation #of the class i was in since i skipped a grade and the grade is what matters more to me. when i was 9 and my friends were 10 i was saying) #we would always play this game called girls catch guys or guys catch girls where the girls would run after the guys and like tap them on #the shoulder and then they would go to prison and they would line up and another guy could set them free by like touching one of the #prisoners it was a very fun game except it's way more fun to be like the ones getting caught than to be the ones catching and we would #ALWAYS play girls catching guys and it was very unfair we would be like okay in the morning we do guys catching girls in the afternoon #girls catching guys so it's fair like normal system but the guys NEVER wanted to do it (and we would always give in because like we still #wanted to play ig and idk guys. female socialization) they never wanted to be the ones doing the catching it was so unfair because we also #didn't like it as much and we did it all the time? #and i remember this one morning we were fighting about this we had literally all agreed that it was fair this way but they didn't want to #do it and my second best male friend flipped me and my best (female) friend off and (very #important detail) he did it with both of his hands so like two middle fingers and i don't know why because i'm not even sure that that's a #thing but one middle finger meant fuck you and two middle fingers meant go fuck yourself and to us that was very different? and i remember #my friend and i we like knew what it meant but for some reason we were like. he did do the one finger before doing the two does this mean #he...loves us because it literally means he wants to have sex with us #but what's funny is we never talked to him again after that and i don't even know why that was our last straw because i remember i #genuinely liked him before that like i said he was my second best male friend! so like maybe sixth best friend overall that's not bad #and he's not the only guy friend who flipped us off that year like it was so random to stop talking to him after that😭 #like he was an actual enemy we really did not like him we talked about him in letters we'd give each other using a nickname etc #and what's even funnier is in our last year of middle schoold FOUR YEARS AFTER THIS a friend of a friend told him he should become friends #with well my friend and he was like hm i don't think so have you seen who she hangs out with? marianne *last name* like why do YOU hate #me😭 it was so funny like wdym it was mutual this whole time. i had literally moved on by then i didn't even care about hating him #anymore like wow...i think he's the only person i hated who actually hated me back

[youjustfeelthemforever]

Cried over an English test but hey I'm alive

#very pissed at the teacher #i wasn't there the day of the test but i was there when they were handed back #so i got to take a look at the format and it was pretty simple #describe each literary device listed and give an example #so i thought i would be doing that. i could do that #but i show up today and the test he gives me is completely different #it says to identify the literary device in each sentence. the thing is #EVERY SINGLE ONE HAS MULTIPLE OF THE OPTIONS #so i asked the teacher and he said “yeah but they all have one that's the most correct just trust your instincts” #AND IM JUST SITTING THERE LIKE HELLO?????? “MOST CORRECT”???????? #NONE OF THEM ARE MORE CORRECT THAN THE OTHERS #and i told him this!!!! and he said “just pick the most obvious one and don't second guess yourself” #OKAY WELL HAVE YOU CONSIDERED THAT WHAT IS IMMEDIATELY MOST OBVIOUS TO YOU IS NOT NECESSARILY THE SAME FOR ME #AND THAT DOESN'T MAKE ME WRONG??????????? #FUCKING HELL #LEARN TO. IDEK. LEARN SOME COMMON SENSE DUDE #my reaction must have been pretty extreme bc the girl next to me was like “hey you'll do fine” and asked how i was doing a few times #appreciate you girlie you're a real one #so yeah i cried two or three times BUT did not let the tears leave my eyes #one point with just out of frustration bc the teacher said something wrong. and then later he corrected himself #and even though it was easier after that i still cried bc i was losing my mind #anyway i normally like this teacher but this was fucking stupid #everyone stop whatever you're doing and only pay attention to me #ann rants

[l0stw00d]

hey. i dunno if anyone else needs the reminder, but check in with yourself. sometimes things can feel Really bleak, and that's a reasonable reaction, but like. Optimism and hope is what keeps me alive, even when it feels ridiculous. Maybe take some time to make sure you're looking after yourselves and feeling okay - or as okay as you can be, with everything going on. you're worth taking care of.

#lostwood.txt #trans rights #(but also you know. all the other stuff going on rn too) #been feeling really really rough and didn't realise just how pessimistic i'd gotten about everything. #and again - it's warranted. its Understandable and not unreasonable to be afraid right now. to be upset and overwhelmed. #but look after yourself. there will Always be opportunities for things to turn around. there will Always be people working to make it happe #and we're going to be okay. maybe not today or next week or next month but we will be. #imagining a better future is like. the first step to creating one. and you have to be alive to see it.

[they-call-me-hippie]

Guess who almost died in a car crash

#It's meeeeee #Ok but no it wasn't that serious just tense for a moment. You end up shaky for sure #Can't help but think about that tweet now like 'I'll be in an accident and open Twitter first thing' #There was a snow mound on the road that was too high and my stepdad drove over it and we started. SWERWING #It went back and forth between the two sides of the road twice and in those moments #I was almost prepared that we would hit the metal banister or topple sideways but we had the best possible outcome for the circumstances #And drifted one more time instead onto the snow-covered patch of a hill on the other side of the road but turned a 180 degrees #When thinking it over we were lucky to get off the road because in any other scenario I think we would have been hit by a car behind us #And end up actually hurt #I thank the snow for giving us the first fully white Christmas in years #But now that I think about I should have gotten a picture (hard to think about when you were almost in a serious accident) #It's strange the kind of acceptance you have over events like this I knew I could do nothing about the situation except shut up #And the strange thing is that it felt like a scene out of a movie. The front shield of the car gives you only a frame to view out from #But you were looking at it from a first-hand perspective yet thinking of it as if from seeing yourself from behind. Just a bit blurred #Just. Either we crash or we make it but be prepared. #I could tell he was shaken afterwards though. He managed to save us at least #And well. Given the familial circumstances it would have almost been ironic. As if a purposefully placed timing #The strangest coincidence was that my stepdad's neighbor just happened to be driving a taxi right behind us #So he stayed with us to help us dig the car out of the snow. And drove us to get more gas after the car ended up askew on the hill #People were at least kind enough to look up on us and ask if we were okay #Anyways. I'm going to bed now

[terryfuckingturniptruck]

Okay someone is going to be offended but whatever like fine if you find yourself as a lesbian thinking someone is hot and find out later they're a man and not a butch but like the way y'all are openly just pushing the idea that lesbians like men sometimes as if that's totally fine and that the man you thought was a butch is still okay to fuck knowing they're a man.

#like no stop this shit #i get mistaking people #i saw someone i thought was a dude but would make a hot butch at an airport #i actively did not pursue them or become interested bc i thought they were a man #but later they ended up sitting next to me on the plane and turns out they were butch! #then i was like oh fuck yes and my brain did some somersaults lol #but like if you find someone hot and it turns out they're a man like that's okay but like don't continue to pursue them? #the fact that you want to continue pursuing a man and still find them sexually attractive after that makes you bi/pan #like that's okay!! #i'm so tired of the word lesbian being watered down bc people who should not be identifying as lesbian find the label to be too rigid #like then maybe you are bi/pan and that would give you the freedom you're looking for #but everyone wants to be a lesbian soooo badly for some reason #you guys do know that the rest of the gbtq+/queer community is just as 'gay' right?? #like i'm not seeing bi/pan men (trans or not) trying to force being a gay man #i'm not seeing droves of people wanting to id as bi or pan or any other label #what is it about lesbians that you all feel the need to insert yourselves into our community and make things more palatable?? #fuck off and leave lesbians alone!! #like you guys writing all this crap about lesbians being attracted to twinks/gay men is making the whole 'bi lesbian' thing worse too!! #just stop it!! lesbians don't like men like that and you're just gonna have to deal with it and find a better label for yourself #if lesbian is too rigid and confining for you then you are not a lesbian #you are some other sexuality #why would you wanna be a lesbian if it's too rigid anyway?? just be the thing that fits you better? sapphic or bi or pan or whatev #t4t even if you're mostly into trans people and fuck the gender thing #see there's something for everyone so stop inserting yourselves into lesbianism if you're not a lesbian! #rant over #kfi txt #lesbian #butch #and before anyone has a meltdown i'm not a terf just a tired lesbian who loves being a lesbian (which includes trans women)

[chaotictarlos]

There are no words for how I'm feeling right now.

#i am going fucking FERAL #JUST. LOOK. AT. THIS. MAN. #HE'S SO DKAKSKKSJJD #Rafa why you so perfect???? #it's UNFAIR #I'm having a meltdown #how am i supposed to go about my day after this? #sir explain yourself #fucking stupid perfect pretty fucking man #I AM NOT OKAY #rafael silva

[soulrph]

Random advice question if you are still open for these: recently I have been getting overwhelmed with my draft/reply count. I know I will get to them and time isn't in my favor as a college student, but I often feel overwhelmed by them? Sometimes I worry I will never get to them? It's a weird, irrational fear haha. Is there any advice you have towards managing a reply count or anything regarding that?

hi my angel! first off, let me commend you for being brave enough to ask this question. it can be scary asking these things, so fair play to you for taking the first step, and congratulations on getting into college!

secondly: i'm going to present you a classic example of why you shouldn't be letting this overwhelm you. so where i'm from, when we fill out a government document, they ask you what your profession is, right? you might be a carpenter or a waitress or a doctor, OR A STUDENT!! college is considered to be a full-time profession, and it comes first, okay? nobody, and i do mean NOBODY is expecting you to sweep through your drafts and inbox on the regular while juggling assignments and deadlines. you're already doing so much, and that's plenty of stress as it is. your first priority needs to be looking after yourself. so drink plenty of water, eat good food (and if money's an issue, i happen to follow a tonne of people on instagram who provide plenty of amazing and cheap recipes for these difficult months!) and make sure to get plenty of rest and exercise, okay?

as for the drafts, you can tell people you're taking a little hiatus! just explain that activity will be slim to none until the holidays, as a result of your degree. everyone, myself included, does that! i used to have a job that was 66 hours a week, 6 days a week, and i'd tell people i wouldn't be around for a few months. nothing bad happened! people are far more understanding and appreciative of these things than your brain will convince you they're not.

anyhow! it's not an irrational fear, my darling. it's like when you see a waitress carry a huge stack of plates in a kitchen, right? it's stressful! it's scary! there's so many plates to clean off and wash and dry and put away! but they do eventually get finished off and cleaned. just one plate at a time, right? and you can do the drafts the same way, just one draft at a time! or you can delete them all. that's okay too! just make a little post and say that you're clearing out your drafts and/or inbox, and plan to start afresh. nobody will be angry, love, i promise!

this is 2022. almost 2023. we need to be looking after ourselves. it's just the rpc, my angel, and we'll be here to help you and have fun with you once you have the time!

#ooc. #cinnanon roll. #( i feel like my answers generally boil down to 'everything will be okay' ) #( but also ) #( ur so valid to feel overwhelmed rn!! ) #( but bear in mind that your brain won't be able to divide the stress between college and drafts ) #( so if you're stressed right now it might be mostly college related ) #( but you're also aware of the drafts so it's like 'the drafts are EQUALLY STRESSFUL' ) #( just look after yourself okay? ) #( this shouldn't be stressful ) #( the dash needs to be your stress-free zone! ) #( so do what you need to do ) #( and we'll be here when you're ready and able )