#'so basically' i say and then write an essay

[emmitaaa4]

I was just writing a cute little post about how Elain made Azriel’s eyes the brightest we’ve seen, and how he noticed her discomfort and knew what to say to make the light return to her eyes.

So naturally i had to mention her smile lighting up his shadows and Azriel following the sound of her laugh and how he came for her and how she devoured the sight of him and them just getting each other intuitively and communicating without words and—

Basically it turned into an essay on soulmatism. coming soon in theatres near you (i have a problem)

#this is me being normal about them #elriel #elain archeron #soulmatism #azriel

[vulturereyy]

Doodled a little Hegemol Pharom having a sit in his hometown... Background taken from a Hollow Knight screenshot :) Fully indulging in my canon character headcanons now. I have a previous post here that semi spells out what I think happened to Hegemol, but basically, I think he was one of the very first to succumb to the Radiance. Perhaps even targeted due to his proximity to the Pale King. But because she didn't yet have the influence over bug and mind she has at game time, her infection manifested more as growing illness, that slowly had him withering away as the dim light in the back of his head grew stronger. (It was during this time that the Maggot stole his armor; it seemed really unlikely that such a grand knight would just... let that slip willingly?) Again, most likely due to his proximity to the PK and his own will, Hegemol managed to stave her off to the very end. After months (years?) of slowly falling into her grasp, Hegemol finally met his fate at the hands of an infected siege. I imagine the City of Tears was only sealed off after the infected outside began invading the city in force. Hegemol was the one to pull down the gate himself with the last of his strength, shattering the mechanisms that raise and lower it in the process and succumbing to fatal wounds. This is why it's his statue that holds the city crest, made to commemorate the first of the Five Great Knights to fall. Hegemol had spent most of his years helping the denizens of Hallownest, and the city he called home would not be unsealed without his 'blessing.' The fact he broke the gate to close it is also why it shuts behind you upon opening; it wasn't repaired fully before the infection got to the rest of the city's inhabitants. Also I think Hegemol is the eldest of the Great Knights, and was born during the formation of Hallownest. He was from Dirtmouth originally, and his mothers were both confectioners lauded for their skill in making sweet jellies. They moved to the City of Tears fairly early on and were quick to support the PK's regime, mostly due to their existing ties with their noble customer base. Hegemol ended up joining the first wave of knights and worked his way up to the ranks, standing out by size of body and heart. Hegemol cared deeply for all of Hallownest, despite serving the upper echelons in the CoT for most of his run. When he fell, his fellow knights knew of his quiet desire to be lain to rest in the Howling Cliffs, so he could watch over his humble hometown and the way into Hallownest eternally. After the defeat of the Radiance, Hegemol found his life returned to him with the essence expelled from her body, but the injury and illness he suffered before his end still lingered. He managed to make his way back down to Dirtmouth and was taken in by the townsfolk to recover. With his distinct horns shattered and previous habit of almost never being seen without his armor, Hegemol took the gift of respite willingly. He told them his name is Pharom, and he claims he can't truly remember anything that happened. Really, he's just taking things slow... Enjoying life as a simple bug again and regaining his strength to help rebuild. Maybe one day he'll get the courage to see what became of his fellow knights an King. But I think this guy deserves a god damned break!

#'so basically' i say and then write an essay #i have like zero backing for any of this i just think he's cool #rotates hegemol in my head like a microwave #mighty hegemol #hollow knight #hollow knight headcanons #headcanon #pale king

[kurozu501]

do you ever just remember how one of the most effective things parvis said to get silence to lose faith in saria was essentially "do you really think she would ever choose YOU over everything?" and silence with her low self esteem really didn't believe saria would.

Then in the end saria really did choose them over everything, left her defense director job and her whole life up to that point behind for the sake of silence and ifrit. and silence still doesnt even know. do you ever think about that and lose your mind a little bit.

#turns out my pre lone trail jitters translate to reread the rhine lab manhua and lose my mind over it all over again #its one of those stories i could write multiple essays on #like silence's lack of self love #do you ever notice how in the final scene when she makes her big declaration about curing ifrit joyce and 'the many many infected' #she never mentions curing herself #how she runs into the flames looking for ifrit with no regard for her own safety during the diabolic crisis #even the funny gag moment with joyce is based on silence overworking herself and joyce pushing her to take care of herself #and here where parvis basically says saria would never choose you and silence instantly just accepts that as true #of course saria wouldn't choose her #even her big grudge against saria is anger on behalf of ifrit not for herself #this owl has such a big heart and so much love for everyone but herself #arknights #olivia silence #saria

[widevibratobitch]

when i say i am obsessed with him

#'indescribable insolence' <3333 #dumas writing aramis in '20 years after': #i am going to create a character that is so egdy sarcastic provocative and irritating to everyone around him #and im gonna make stirring shit being an asshole and gruesome murder his favourite hobbies #and he did just as he said. bless him. #most character ever #and what makes him even better is the contrast between 20YA!aramis and t3M!aramis. its hilarious. #my man really went feral. midlife crisis some call it. i call it character development of all time. i call it serving cunt. #aramis as a musketeer a soldier a man in a profession where you're literally paid for killing people: #sweetness and mildness personified writes poetry and theology essays in his free time never gambles dreams about dedicating his life to god #aramis as a priest: whooo boy i hope i get to fUCKING KILL A PERSON TODAY >:D #anyway. i love him a normal amount or something. #the three musketeers #alexandre dumas #anyway. i reread this scene and the charenton battle today because it's definitely in my top 3 aramis moments #also the english translation on the gutenberg page omits two lines of dialogue that i remembered from my polish translation #and it goes something like #de Chatillon says 'i think you're looking for a fight sir' to which Aramis basically responds with 'oh nooo you *think*? Imao'. iconic. #(and its even funnier cause that makes athos immediately go 'aramis stfu plz' and aramis just goes 'no <3' im obsessed with them) #vingt ans apres #do i have a #twenty years after #tag?? not sure tbh i think i dont but tagging just in case ig

[cowboyskeletons]

and sparrow's son loves the world so much and loves everyone around him and how can sparrow tell him that the world is cruel? how can he tell him that love will be punished and that cruelty is the only way to survive? normal's love scares him, he loves his son so much but that love scares him. he would do and has done anything for his son but he knows that it has led to his own ruin. and he loves his son but too much love has only ever harmed him and maybe he can take a model from his own dad and multitask.

maybe he can love his son but he hates him too, hates that normal can love and hates that normal can be loved and hates that normal can be so oblivious to the cruelty around him in a way that he himself lost when the world ended. he wants his son to have everything but loathes that fact that normal'll never try. that he just accepts life as it is. the way his dad did, when sparrow saluted henry and went along with the world's end and turned a blind eye to his wife's infidelity.

he sees himself in normal, maybe. maybe he hates that. because he lost himself, that day he lost his father's care and his mother's respect, and he can't bear to see himself lost again. normal needs to be cruel because otherwise he will be crushed and sparrow can't do that again. can't let himself be crushed again.

#dndads #dndads spoilers #i guess? #i'm sorry this is basically an extension of another rant i did on discord. so some points may not make complete sense but #i am so-- [wait i can't say normal fuck] regular. about the oaks #can you tell i think about them? can you tell?? did the art not convince you??? #sorry if this is incoherent i am supposed to be writing an essay due in an hour but instead i wrote this. #hashtag no beta (not even myself) we die like hermie #this mainly goes off of the most recent episode and when sparrow told normal he wasn't proud. that whole interaction #yet again the point turns incomprehensible halfway though but we stay silly #also “hate” really isn't the right word for what i meant? #like the strength of the word is #but the general sentiment is just left of hate. #idk man #can't stop thinking about them #asdfdhg edit because i just. wrote the wrong name for one of the sentences. oops

[aropride]

i really dont understand studying at all like genuinely i don't know what it is . i know about "taking notes" and "reading the textbook" and that's it . quizlet doesn't do shit for me because i don't know what to. do. with the cards. look at them ? am i supposed to just look at them . No one bothered teaching me actual skills bc i got good grades when i was 8 and now i am so hopelessly lost . why did no one think to teach me this for when stuff got harder than four plus three

#text #ive never understood flashcards . like what to do with them. how is that any more different or helpful than just like... writing a list on #paper of vocab terms or whatever #and like conceptually i know 'learning' is like. not only committing things to memory but also being able to engage with it which #is why teachers loveeeee group discussions and essays. but like. you read the text and then you go to class and Discuss but how do you #Learn what the text is saying like how do you . put it in your brain and udnerstand and remember it . #i think im missing something very simple because everyone else in the world seems to understand this fine #like where does the part where you go oh! i understand this and can explain it in my own words. Happen #how do u force it to happen if its not something ur autistic about #Like the only example i can think of rn of this is when i hyperfixated on hpa axis dysregulation + trauma a couple weeks ago #so i was learning stuff about it for Fun and not for school so no comprehension tests or notes or anything #and basically i'd just put on a webinar while i sorted seaglass or worked on sewing or whaever #and i can explain the concept fine. ur brain controls ur body so if it gets too scared ur body loses its shit basically. #but i dont remember most of the words. i still can barely define neurotransmitter #i can apply this to my own life but i confuse the hippocampus and the frontal lobe and the amygdala etc #and i couldnt point out any of them on a diagram #i dont get it . like i know a lot and simultaneously nothing at all abt it #how am i supposedto be remembering words and numbers AND understanding the concepts AND im supposed to do that between #reading the book and engaging in thoughtful conversation with my peers i dont understand

[spacedlexi]

it honestly frustrates me when i see people reduce the ericsons cast down to "just some teens in the woods" acting like theyre no different than any other group of lone teenagers from other existing properties and treating them like an overused trope

it is sooo important to acknowledge the "troubled youth" aspect of the whole equation. theyre not just some random teens in the woods clem stumbles across. these kids were abandoned by their families for their various "difficulties" and fucked up by The System before the outbreak even began. and then once zombies started roaming the streets their familes never came back for them and the adults that were in charge of taking care of them just left them there to rot in that old boarding school (except for ms martin who was like their lee 🥺 the only person who ever saw them as the scared traumatized kids they were and died protecting them)

the whole aspect of them already being fucked up by the adults that controlled their lives is like.....kind of important when discussing the whole "delta is stealing kids to force them to fight in a war they have no real part in and want nothing to do with" aspect of the season. and its important when comparing them to clem and her journey of also suffering at the hands of the adults around her forcing her to become self reliant. AND its important when discussing the "just trying to build a safe home (and future) worth fighting for in this world that wants them dead" aspect of the season as well

these kids were forced to come together to survive. and a Lot of them didnt... theyre the only family they have left and you can tell that even when they argue with each other theyre still a close knit group who looks out for each other. theyre a Real family before clem even gets there (and its why what really happened with the twins and brody and marlon hits them all so especially hard)

all of this is what REALLY makes ericsons such a perfect home for clem. its a Real community of her True peers. theyre not Just teens. they mightve had a layer of safety clem never had by at least having walls to keep them safe. and having the benefit of the school being hard to find. its the only reason theyre still alive when clem shows up. but theyre also some of the only people who can Truly understand where clem and aj are coming from. and its why it hurts so much when they vote to kick them out. but its also partially why she merges back into the fold so easily when she returns. plus the fact that shes Really the only one who has any idea what shes doing. shes their rock and she makes them feel safe because underneath it all theyre still just those scared traumatized kids ("EVERYONE is scared, clem..." vi was Definitely including herself in that 'everyone'), and on some level, so is clem

they saved clementines life. and she saved theirs. "the school was supposed to help them with their trauma, now they help each other" its about the LOVE the COMMUNITY the SUPPORT!!!! and thats the shit that makes good zombie media honestly 👌

#it speaks #twdg #there i go again writing another essay but i will Always defend the ericson cast theyre one of the strongest out of all 4 seasons #complaints ive seen about s4 typically include mentions of the teens as a trope being overused and im like.......did you even pay attention #the fact they were branded “troubled youth” and basically thrown away by everyone who was supposed to take care of them is SO IMPORTANT #these kids are Fucked Up but theyre Trying to make a kinder world #nobody talk to me i fucking love the ericson cast 😭😭😭 theres not a single one of them i dont like im serious #them using poor pilgrim of sorrow in ep3....ericsons is heaven to clem 😭 all the comments she can make about feeling safe there 😭😭 #clem being everyones rock but violet being clems rock back 🥺😭💕 waaaaahhh thats why it was over for me when vi stood up for them in ep 2 #vi having the courage to stand up to her group for aj........... yeah she had me in a vice grip after that. she fought for them so hard #and if it wasnt for her advocating so hard for them to stay they ALL would have been taken or killed #vi cared about clem so much she undoomed them all #and aj loved clem so much he undoomed her :') #s4 is just the perfect ending to clems story truly itll make me happy for the rest of my life im so happy for u clem 🥺 #tfw the media you like gets a good ending and the main characters are respected and it feels like it was made from a place of love #instead of being like...actively hostile to its fanbase and destroying its own characters for the Laughs #and when i say “good” i dont necessarily mean “happy” i just mean “competently written" #i wouldnt call it perfect but it survived both a cancellation AND the financial collapse of a major game studio. its perfect to Me #for what it is (and what it originally almost was with the clems house plot) we truly lucked out so fucking hard #truly a return to form of season 1 but with less despair and more hope which i appreciate :') #all the things ive liked over the years that were destroyed for me by bad or weird writing decisions... clutches onto twdg like a lifeboat #god i love s4 so much nothing has ever been More Specifically Written For Me Personally

[kacievvbbbb]

Nobara, Yuuji and Megumi all, I feel, represent three different ends of the morally good spectrum and I just think that is so intriguing . Like Yuuji is a bleeding heart, Megumi is a tsundere and Nobara is dangerously close to apathetic. I could write essays about their moral inclinations and how fascinating they are. Especially Nobara who, and this may be an unpopular opinion and some of y’all are not ready to hear, of the trio is the most like Gojo. Come on they are practically the same person especially when he was younger. And in this essay I will-

#jujutsu sorcerer #jujusu kaisen #jjk itadori #nobara kugisaki #I have so much to say about how they are basically the same person and I one day I will write this essay #if Nobara had the power Gojo did she’d behave exactly the same way and you can’t change my mind #yuji itadori #megumi fushiguro #gojo satoru #jjk

[brittlebutch]

finally found a place to read With the Light online and i'm thrilled; if you haven't read this manga i do Legitimately recommend it

#N posts stuff #like don't get it wrong it Is Not a series about being autistic it Is a series about raising an autistic kid #but also don't be put off by that because it's legitimately a series that I feel Loves autistic people with its whole being #it's kind of a teaching manga so it showcases a lot of different opinions/characters/conflicts/etc. but the Framing is very consistent #in that the manga is Extremely of the opinion that autistic people are People who deserve to be Valued and Accepted As They Are #the onus for change is never put on autistic individuals the framing is basically Universal in the 'the World needs to change #to be more accepting' -- it's a very Social Model depiction of autism that ALSO never veers too far into the #'autism isn't even Really a disability' fallacy; it's very much a 'A lot of autistic people will need constant support in a variety of ways #throughout their lives but that isn't the roadblock preventing them from having their own lives; ableism in society is the roadblock' #the first two chapters are the hardest to get through bc they take place before Sachiko has any real understanding of autism and #so she's isolated and stressed out and the ignorance makes it difficult for her to care for Hikaru properly (there's also a lot of #other characters Blaming her for what's going on which goes unchallenged at this point though that changes later); but after she #understands what autism is she's Firmly in Hikaru's corner for the rest of the series - you can skip right to ch 3 without a problem #if you're not interested in reading about that initial conflict #there's still a Lot of conflict ofc but by then the chapters have some of my favorite moments so i don't want to advocate skipping #them; like Hikaru's daycare teacher explaining how Hikaru's difficulty speaking is the same as other kids' troubles with #things like jump-roping/etc.; and then a mother who has An Issue with Hikaru's presence in her daughter's class realizing the #depth of the problematic opinion bc Her mother (who had a stroke) faces similar ableism from her peers #i'm cutting this post off b4 the tags get Too long but if you're curious but still hesitant man. send me an ask and i will Happily #write an insanely long essay about how much i love this series; i have all the books i'm not excited about the online availability #for Me i'm excited bc i've been wanting to rec this manga for like almost a full decade and i can finally give you a link instead of #saying 'well. you can find used copies sometimes' lol

[namira]

Sorry if this is Machiavellian or whatever but in school whenever we got assigned group projects that included a presentation I would deliberately partner up with the timid anxious kids because I've never minded public speaking and they were always fine with doing most of the writing in exchange for me being the one to do the presenting lmao.

#like I just hate writing essays so much man! #specifically high school essays where there is like nothing noteworthy to say about anything you're learning #cause it's all so broad and basic lmao

[darkseldarine]

Still baffled that I’ve met people who’ve been of the “drow are inherently evil” opinion. The word ‘indoctrinating’ is literally in Homeland to refer to how drow children are raised. Chapter five sentence two it’s just RIGHT THERE. It’s not even subtext it’s Just Text. What is going on.

#Drizzt read through #The answer is that for a certain subset of people it’s probably like a shibboleth #Pardon me if I’m rambling a bit more on this and if this is all poorly worded but it's just like. #Salvatore is writing what's (so far to me) pretty clearly a story about a society led by a cult #(furthermore with a god who has a VERY TANGIBLE influence) #And the mechanics of how this society works and how it affects people and how people move within it #And also how people (plural (not just Drizzt)) chafe against it in different ways #Reading it again makes some of the talking points I've seen people have feel so out of context that it’s kinda jarring #It’s like people are talking about a funhouse version of the material in the book hanging out on my nightstand #There's more I can attempt to say on this but I don't want to write an essay LMAO. I'm sure people have said all this before as well #(read: I'm sure that I vaguely remember a post that was basically about this) #so I won't reinvent the wheel :P

[popsicle-stick]

it is unfortunate that you can say you see a dogshit take by an american with 50k+ notes and that absolutely narrows nothing down whatsoever. for that i can only apologize 😔

well the original post was too long to screenshot succinctly and i didn't really want to put All That onto anyone's dash. doing us all a favour to be fair

#it was just this weird attitude that i keep seeing nowadays from americans in regards to british people thats like. We're Better Than You #which is indescribably stupid because then it becomes a pissing contest between two equally horrendous countries #from any other country i wouldn't bat an eyelid because they're probably right but it's just so funny coming from americans. like. say sike #(embarassingly) it was basically crowing about how appalling the wildlife situation is in the uk which is a real and complex issue #and i will save us all from the myriad tag essays i could write on this. but it was written from #an american perspective of 'we're so much better' which i find doubtful at best laughable at worst #it also frustrated me to ignore the huge number of charities and individuals in the uk who have been working so hard against the government #to rewild and reintroduce key species. is the woodland trust a joke to you??

[samcky]

Something i loved about Wakanda Forever was how female driven it was and yet, not a single cringy monologue about how Girls Get It Done! That movie gave us amazing representation without shoving it in our faces ever five minutes that they were giving us representation and asking us to be grateful for it.

#i just wanna say #bpwf did that with female lead movie #and iwtv did that with a queer leads #i know vampires and magical herbs and sea people aren’t real #but that was the most realistic representation of actual people I’ve seen in a while #i think that’s why it’s so important to write stories while considering what the characters you are trying to represent would go through it #and not writing stories about historically oppressed people being oppressed and talking in essays about it #it’s so simple it’s just plot+representation and yet so many movies and shows can’t do it #basically what the boys was saying with that whole girls get it done bit #wakanda forever #wakanda forever spoilers #idk if this is a spoiler but better safe then sorry or whatever

[vincent-sinclair-deserved-better]

so

may I introduce...

Cylas

They're in their mid to late 20s, use she/they pronouns, born and raised in Germany and actually have dual-citizenship. Something only few people know is that her German legal name - her birth name - is different, and that she changed her American name a while ago. Even less people know why.

Aside from her hair colour, on first glance one wouldn't find anything too extraordinary about them. Most of the time people don't take her seriously, being only 5'3" and having a "baby face", she is frequently even mistaken for a minor. However, one thing that does stand out is their accent - she likes to call it an "amalgamation of school English, American tv show influences, British English from living in the UK, and a German accent".

Additionally, with living in the South comes one important fact: warmer temperatures. This also means varying degrees of exposed skin - which she doesn't mind. But people are judgemental and just can't keep their opinions to themselves, so she gets a fair amount of comments on the variety of scars she has. One of the most prominent ones is a burn at the side of their head - they tend to jokingly comment that they'd been considering getting a sidecut anyway, and this way she didn't even have to pay money for it!

They also have some emotional control and regulation issues that they take medication and have therapy for. She isn't usually aggressive or violent, it does take a bit to push her to her limit. But don't be mistaken, her mind can be quite the dark and gruesome place. If it wasn't for laws and the consequences of possible violent actions there are a few people who'd be getting some alone time with her - and if there is one thing she knows, it's pain.

Aside from that, they work as a nurse and technically are or could work as a mechanic. They ended up not sticking with that though because even though they adored the work, the constant dismissive, patronising and condescending behaviour of customers just became too much. Bludgeoning the next person to call her "little lady" or doubt her abilities to death just wouldn't be a good look.

So, don't be mistaken: they may be short and not visibly muscular, but tbet are stronger than they looks.

@myers-meadow @bluecoolr @rottent33th @slaasherslut @cries-in-latino @the-pinstriped-hood

#cylas speaks #THERE IS SO MUCH MORE TO SAY AKSJFNSJW #like that she loves nature and gardening aaaa #i also totally intend for there to be art and writing #today just was essay day #my ocs #yes this is a self insert. big self insert. basically me but badass and... also much more traumatised. whoopsie #but yeah any similarities between her and me are one hundred percent intentional #cylas keir

[gideonisms]

what’s it like reading homestuck just because of the locked tomb… totally not because i’m also considering it 🫣

Well, as someone who understands the plot of harrow the ninth and is also listening to a podcast to help me understand the plot of homestuck, I still don't understand the plot of homestuck. Fortunately this doesn't matter because the point seems to be making various characters meet up and say things to each other. Overall, my main opinion is I would like to feed karkat a carrot. his little teeth are adorable and I want to watch him chomp and bite

#replies #and i wanna pinch terezi's cheeks. little weirdgirl in training i love her #in the podcast the hosts compare the serial/fragmented nature of hs to like. marvel and lost etc #but i will say hs is much weirder and more interesting than those things #idk that i'd necessarily recommend it but like if you want queer kids to talk to each other. they do that in this webcomic #it doesn't handle issues of race well and there are a lot of gay jokes at the beginning/jokes at the expense of disabled characters where #it's kinda like. come on man #the jokes get better over time but there's a whole section that does feel like things ur little brother's friends said to you in junior high #i mean realistically. like one of the characters is actually a queer kid in texas in 2009 so it. does track #anyway i'd say that it's one of those things that encapsulates a particular moment in online culture so well that #you do kind of get the urge to write a paper about it unfortunately #tamsyn muir did things with the weird hs internet language in the serendipity gospels that hussie could not pull off #basically muir could do hs but hussie could not do tlt that is my stance #i still haven't answered the question of whether you should read it. and i won't! #have a nice night apologies for the tag essay

[parkitaco]

Your jealous Will is perfection and I'm obsessed with it! I hope this incites more people to write more jealous Will fics bc he'd have the best most funny roasts for anyone dating Mike tbh 🤭 The fandom needs to explore this side of his character, like, Will is canonically jealous just like Mike is, the potential/set up is right there for the taking

omg tysm!!! i agree, jealous will is definitely a trope that hasn't been tapped into nearly enough both in terms of humor and angst bc there's definitely two sides to that coin!! i think the tragedy of will's arc in s4 (really everything from the rain fight on) has been talked about so much (which is not a bad thing!!! he's a sad boy and i would die for him) but like. pre rain fight will is such a bitch and i love it so much and he is canonically!! jealous!! (esp bc during s3 he doesn't have any emotional connection to el like. personally i believe him and el's bond is a huge part of the reason he chooses to lie abt the painting in s4, in addition to the distance between him and mike ofc) anyway. sorry for ranting and this might not be terribly coherent but basically. ty for reading and i AGREE can we start a jealous will renaissance pls

#also. for the record i do think jealous will is inherently tragic in many ways and i worked very very hard to make this fic comedic #however the issue with it is that #the tragedy around will's jealousy only applies if he genuinely doesn't think mike could love him back #(i.e. s4) #which is why i think the mike getting a bf thing is So Spicy bc #i think if will believes there's a possibility mike could love him back #then it kind of negates some of the angst factor #(which is not to say the same concept couldn't have been angsty but that's my two cents) #basically imo will knowing mike is queer is key to the comedy of any jealousy trope involving him #anyway. #sorry for writing an essay