#'but what if im truly just annoying others...'

[redeyegrl]

☆ crybaby ; jude bellingham

you were laid on the couch, your eyes fluttering due to the intense amounts of tiredness you were feeling whilst watching your favorite show on tv. you were wrapped around in your favorite blanket, head smushed onto the pillow that was laid underneath.

lately, these past few days haven't been too good for you. not only were you, yet again, bombarded with so much work, you were dealing with a lot emotionally. especially towards your best friend who currently is now in madrid playing for one of the biggest clubs ever.

you and jude have known each other for quite sometime but only remained as close friends. your friendship started with a follow on instagram which led to him flying you out to meet him for the first time. truly, you thought that you both might hit it off and actually become a couple but that conversation still hasn’t surfaced.

you didn’t want to be the first to tell him you liked him, but you also didn’t know if he felt the same way. even when he was flying you out, taking you to his favorite spots in madrid, holding your hands when you were both together in front of his teammates, to him giving you sneaky kisses late at night when you would stay over at his place. all of that and no sign of him wanting anything more than just being friends. call it a situationship if you will.

earlier today, you came across dating rumors regarding jude on social media and it made you almost completely unproductive. you couldn’t stop thinking about jude potentially being someone else’s boyfriend. after all, you knew you couldn’t control who someone decides to be with, but it always stung when you would hear his name attached to someone who wasn’t you.

your eyes slowly start to shut until you heard the annoying sound of your ringtone. "it's 2am, who the hell is calling me" you say incoherently. you rub your eyes to try and read the caller i.d, only to figure out it was jude. "what does he want" you say sitting up, slightly annoyed.

"hello" you respond in the most monotone voice possible. "well morning to you as well" jude replies, seemingly in a great mood. "it's 2am and i was trying to go to bed, if you don't have anything important to say, i would like to go back to sleep" you say in a hurry, rubbing your tired stressed eyes. "and what's up with you" jude laughs on the opposite end. "nothing jude im just tired. you know it's late over here" you slightly whine, knowing jude has the time saved of where you were living on his clock app.

"just wanted to let you know i'm up and about to head off to training" he tells you. well, he never did that before. nonetheless, you did find the reminder cute. "well, have fun then." you say before you were about to hang up.

"wait y/n, i have something to ask you" "he rushes to tell you. you on the other hand, truthfully didn't want to talk to anyone since you weren't in the mood. you already cried tons today, the last thing you needed was to talk to the one who made you so emotional.

"yeah go on" you allowed. "i beg you to tell me how you're feeling. are you alright?" he questions in soft tone. you could already feel the tears briming in your eyes, the heat of your cheeks starting to burn. "do you want the truth?" you whisper. "why would you lie to me?" he questions yet again.

"i'm not doing that great" you respond. you wanted to tell him you were okay so you could head off to bed, but something in you wanted to let him know you weren't. you started sniffling since crying always activates your sinuses. "y/n why are you crying? tell me what's wrong" he demanded delicately.

"i was online today" you say trying to collect yourself. "read some stuff that made me kinda sad" you say quietly, wiping away the lukewarm tears running down your cheeks using your hoodie wrist cuffs. "is that all? what do you mean" he questions, confused as to what you meant. "the dating rumors about you and --" you finally confessed.

all you could hear was jude's small laughs which made you want to cry even more. you had no clue what those laughs meant and you hated that him laughing was the way he would respond. "why are you laughing" you chuckle trying to hide your cries.

"y/n, i wouldn't be too worried about it" he confirms which made you feel a small bit alright. "if i was seeing anyone i would tell you, would i not?" he reminds you, which he was right about. "but what if you're hiding it from me" you pout, he giggled some more. "y/n, im not interested in anyone" he makes aware.

that statement made your heart sink. tears started to form all over again followed by your jaw slowly starting to quiver. "you mean that?" you ask him, hoping he would change his response. "i mean, those girls the media puts me with i'm not interested" he responds. "no, i mean, are you really not interested in anyone" you ask again, playing with the strings on your hoodie, starting to regret even picking up the phone.

"well there is this one girl who's always on my mind, and i sometimes still get nervous around her. she's so perfect in my eyes. she can get grumpy and she's always busy which annoys me. i would fly her over when i'd miss her, take her out to all of my favorite spots when she lands, we'd have secret rendezvous late at night, sleepovers at my house as well.. she's actually my best friend." he rambles as you can hear him walk his way to the car.

you started smiling just a little bit, your hand palming your entire face due to how giddy you were starting to feel. it was obvious he was talking about you. "well, i wonder who this great girl is" you playfully ask. jude laughs with you as well. "she's pretty. her name starts with a (-) and ends with (-)" he jokes, answering with the letters of your name.

"i really miss her too. thinking of bringing her over to me for two weeks. gonna maybe try and make her my girlfriend i don't know i don't know" he continues on with his playful antics. "wow, i think she would love that jude. shes so lucky" you play along, you both now laughing on the phone.

"so i'll see you next week?" he asks. you hum in response, now grateful you picked up the phone. "go to sleep y/n, i don't want to keep you up". you were very tired so all you could do was hum back. "one more thing before i let you go to sleep" he tells you, you put the phone on speaker and lay back down on the couch. "hmm" you respond.

"you're such a cry baby about me and i like that" he laughs.

#jude bellingham #jude bellingham x reader #judestories!

[s1l4s-l1k3s-t0m4t03s]

supporting a loved one in psych○sis (as somebody who experiences it)

please correct me if i have something wrong. feel free to add your own experiences and what helps you. my experiences are different from others and vice versa. i am not a d○ct○r.

•psych○sis definition - a period of time, ranging from hours to even days of weeks, of disconnect of reality, such as hallvcinations and delvsions.

hallvcinations: what are they?

•hallvcinations are senses that are not truly there. there are mutliple types of hallvcinations, such as :

○auditory hallvcinations. hearing noises, such as voices, ambiance, animalistic noises and whispering. in my experience, i hear things that align with travma, such as screaming.

○visual hallvcinations. seeing something that does not exist. this can be from seeing loose figures, colours in your visions like splodges and stars, and animals (these are just examples. they can interfere with real objects (for example, i see roaches in my food.)

○sensory hallvcinations. feeling things that arent there. these can range from light feelings of touch, to extreme pain. i personally feel hands over parts of my body, and feelings of being hit

○smell and taste hallvcinations. pretty self explanatory. smells like raw sewage with no explanation, things like that.

note:some of these may happen to you, and not be hallvcinations (e.g spots in vision can have other causes such as blindness) . some of these may happen to you and not be psych○sis.

how to help a loved one hallvcinating (from personal experience. i am fully open to adding on.)

-do not fuel them. they. can fully believe these are real. do not try make them concentrate on it, with comments like "what does it look like? what is it saying?"

-it is not a "ah its not real, just ignore it lollolll!!1!!". it is very real to the hallvcinator, especially if accompanied by delvsion.

-treat it as it feels. for example, if im seeing people, my bf takes me somewhere else. if i see bugs in my food, he'll switch it with his own plate or give me something different.

-aim to help, not to cure. dont baby them. we arent infants.

-bombarding people with "you okay????" isnt helpful. if they are hearing voices, the last thing they need is another annoying voice/hj/lh

-personally, when im hearing voices, i need noise cancelling headphones, or something to block out noise. but obviously, ask the hallvcinator first.

(edit, ive had this in my drafts for a momth by accident, woops. feel free to correvt and interact. sorry i never fimished it lmao)

#silas tag! #silas waffles #actually schizophrenic #schizoaffective #schizoid #schizophrenia #actually bipolar #bipolor #actually psychotic #psychosis

[seariii]

:0

#the sudden silence after the storm and the feeling fear starting to raise up #'am I being annoying?' #'we were all messing around... and i repeatedly asked for confirmation... so it has to be okay right?' #'but what if im truly just annoying others...' #'but what if...' ... my stomach is starting to hurt... #... sigh.... its okay seari. its late you are tired and the days have been a bit weird-feeling lately #she knows its a joke and she was laughing too. maybe just make sure she is still okay with it in the morning #come on lets calm down. spam like a couple mutuals and burry this post so its slightly more difficult to come across #seari talks #might erase

[wavebiders]

Boy, I sure hope everyone complaining about main character Imogen also had a problem with Percy, Vax, Fjord, and Caleb

#gosh golly I wonder what the difference is between her and the other examples #or are we still denying this fandom has any sexism in it at all? #its especially annoying because as much as im nowhere near the camp saying laura is always getting done dirty #she has for 2 campaigns in a row gotten very limited time truly in the spotlight #mostly a result of her favoring gradual internal journeys with her characters over the major plot stuff imo #but just this once her character is actually at the center of the main plot rn and of course people just cant handle that #critical role #cr spoilers

[xmoonlitxdreamx]

How do you say worcesteershsire sauce

Idk why ur asking this but unfortunately i studied linguistics in college so im gonna send a pointlessly specific answer.

I speak general american english & i usually say it like one of these (rough IPA transcription in brackets; closest word approximation in parentheses, but this may only work to read if u also speak gen american english):

[wʊs.tr.ʃɑɪr] (wuss-ter-shire)

[wʊs.tr.ʃir] (wuss-ter-sheer)

sometimes [wɔr.tʃɛs.tr] (war-chess-ter), but I think I mainly said that as a kid? I don't think it's an uncommon pronunciation in america tho. idk i might b wrong.

I think [wɔr.tʃɛs.tr.ʃɑɪr] (war-chess-ter-shire) and [wɔr.tʃɛs.tr.ʃir] (war-chess-ter-sheer) are possible pronunciations ive heard here too

None of these are how it's pronounced in the UK, i think. iirc I think it's [wʊs.tə] (wuss-tuh). I dont know much abt british eng tho so idk.

Sauce is [sɑs] (the "a" sound in "father").

Tbh i dont eat worcestershire sauce (i dont like most condiments) so i dont really say this word often LMAO;;

#sorry for annoying answer #also yeah i used [r] instead of [ɹ]. i was trying to be 2% less pretentious. #sorry if my transcriptions are wrong in other ways i havent been in school for like 4 years #replies #if you truly wanna know how i pronounce this word you can look up 'worcestershire sauce american pronunciation' on youtube or sth idk #i think the 'officially accepted' american pronunciation (like the one that shows up in dictionaries and stuff) is wuss-ter-sheer but #im p sure ive heard all of these. there's a lot of variation bc it's just a long-looking word and isn't a place here #also like the rule (?) of 'blahblah-shire' being pronounced 'blahblah-sheer' or 'blahblah-sure' isn't rly strong here so a lot of british- #placed ending in '-shire' get pronounced like '-shyer' #idk if this is what that ask was about but yeah whatever #(also was too lazy to use ipa for those last tags so pls bear w my rough spelling approximations.)

[dhmis-autism]

i feel like the original series was red guy centered, the first season was for yellow guy, and i am BEGGING AND PRAYING that season 2 will be more about duck!! i will probably cry if anything happens to him though lol 💀 everytime writers break a comic relief character i just OUGSHGS.. it gets me.

h well I don't think you're wrong about that! Webseries being Red Guys time to shine, S1 of the TV show being for Yellow (esp the last two episodes I think? Even thought outside of that, he does get a lot of focus/he IS the one who talks to the audience the most directly). From what I remember hearing, the pilot was pretty Duck-centered.

But I think even if he GETS his big moment in the sun, so to speak, it's NOT going to be as emotional as the other twos. On top of him just not being a very um… let's say sentimental character, he's just not the make-you-cry type! It's just not him imo!

IDK, I operate under the opinion that… in his weird little head, the most important thing that he values over everything is keeping the three of them together. Both because he thinks of them as a weird little family AND because he really doesn't have anyone else outside of the trio. We also know from the interview, and you could maybe argue from the Family episode ( Who do you love?/Anyone who loves me back., I asked every member of my family who they loved the most, and they all said me ) that being loved is something that he actually values QUITE a bit! More than you would assume on first glance! He's weirdly upfront about it haha!

In that way, I imagine that if they were to TRY to pull something to put him in the spotlight in the way you're imagining (i.e. something emotional and focusing on his issues like they did with Yellow & Red) it would either focus on his desire to be loved OR his dedication to keeping the three of them together. But I would argue they both already did that in the Family episode AND put him through the worst case-scenario in regards to those more emotional aspects of his character ( here I think the worst case scenario to him is the other two rejecting him, harshly, unambiguously and to his face, multiple times and the three of them separating ). AND THE THING IS… THAT ALREADY HAPPENED! THAT DIDN'T BREAK HIM!

He had his little pout over it in his dress and was like FINE! I DON'T NEED THEM ANYWAYS! So, I really don't think that big "character-breaking" moment is coming. If the Family ep didn't get him I honest to God don't think there's anything else the house could throw at him that could get under his skin.

#I REALLY TRULY DO THINK HES JUST GONNA KEEP BEING SILLY AND GOOFY UNTIL THE END OF TIME #just forever in the BG being funny and having the best lines #like. worst case scenario came and went and he is both so adaptable AND deranged that nothing is going to come from it ever #ALSO sorry! i think he likes being in the house lol #dude who loves repetition and stagnation and who is a complete social failure gets trapped in a time loop house with two other people? #of COURSE he loves the routine and delusionally convinces himself that the other two love him!! come ON now!!! #my dhmis postings #like im trying to think of what kind of drama can even come from his specific issues and #its like what if he figures out the other two dont think of him the same way? #HE ALREADY DID!!! #and he pushed on it and pushed on it and didnt relent until they were like PHYSICALLY seperated. #then he just convinced himself that HE made the decision to drop THEM actually. #and when that didnt work he got sad. then got over it. #again. i think he would TRY to find new friends but like. socially he is SO SO fucked lol. #hes annoying. hes loud. he NEVER stops talking. hes super upfront and DOGSHIT at communicating at the same time #hes mean. hes abrasive. he doesnt understand social cues at ALL. he has NO filter. and he refuses to work on any of that because to him #NONE of that is a problem. #like he wouldnt be able to get new friends if he TRIED. he is so completely entirely incompatible to anyone outside the group #it makes him REALLY easy to hate and i get why a lot of ppl do. HELL i get why a lot of IN UNIVERSE charas HATE him

[dirhwangdaseul-archived]

idk if i have stated in so many words before but kinda weird for people not to care about the brown men of the story on account of them being men

like most people did to javi irl what the yellowjackets did in the show lol, dismissed always, no more than the little kid, he was already dead

#and like i know you're not only being weird about their race but also that they get inbetween your girlhood fantasies #as if the story isn't based around the lord of the flies which is exclusively a look into white british boys behavior #so i ask of you what does that mean for who the yellowjackets represent like are they truly girlhood #or considering me and the other fans of color conferred and realised this shit wasn't even written with black or brown women #in mind or their ethnicity for input in the writing like idk adding kessell to the writing ffs anyway #so it's clear this was written with white womanhood in mind like #don't y'all think it reflects a particular female rage more trapped in time and space than entirely universality #which is ok if racist tbh but it still allows a look into a particular face of womanhood and not all encompassing #and again travis and javi were right there the tragedy is of childhood not girlhood there he didn't even get to be a person just the #annoying little kid in most of their eyes it's kind of sad #and telling y'all could dismiss javi and travis so easily before lile they're not brown men #fuck im angry #yellowjackets

[indigodawns]

.

#these are just some thoughts re: friendship as a result of tonight that i need to jot down somewhere but #realising that i really do have a strict and set idea of Good Friend(ship) and what that entails to me #and id written people off bc i wasn't yk ~receiving love or friendship the way id prefer and i was angry with them for that/hurt about it #did i communicate that to them though? nooo. was i fully right in that? also no. like just bc i felt unheard didn't fully mean #that they were doing something wrong. they were trying in their own way (and sometimes they weren't really or it just wasn't nice) #but that's about how we match and how we communicate right? this is so silly that's so basic but it never fully clicked for me like this #i was blaming them for stuff and building up resentment without ever expressing that (and i still haven't yk dhshsjd) #and i think where i went ~wrong was in thinking that bc i felt that way they weren't ~giving me what i need #when it's like... but did i pick up on the ways in which they DID appreciate me and show me love etc? did i give them ANYTHING to work with? #(ok yes occasionally but also... tangent but i was watching a variety show and they were teasing woozi about how #he gives interviewers/hosts literally nothing to work with. like no extra information for them to ask about or tease him for or anything #and i was like ohhhhhh. yeah i do do that sometimes with friends and it's genuinely smth i don't really know how to do like #giving casual information (but not too much and not too little???) so they can then ask questions etc. so then if im like ughh #they never ask (the right) questions or show interest (or let me talk but that's a different thing dhsjdjd) it's like... #well do i give them the chance to? much to think about thank you woozi) #anyways where was i dhsjsnsnsjns idk but it's soooo annoying that i haven't figured this all out yet #but im slowly letting go off a bunch of resentment that has truly no business being here and im trying to self reflect and all that #and im honestly doing so shit some days but others days it's? finding stuff that matters to me on a deeper level ig? #and all of it really does pale in the face of multiple genocides and it's. but yk. if i want to keep fighting #i need to build a strong foundation and sort my shit out as well and be present so im really really trying #and beating my stupid stupid depression and brain with a stick until i get there

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

things 10 does that make yaz feel like oh yeah this is her doctor alright: flying the tardis, when he gets all nerdy abt sciency stuff

things 10 does that make yaz stare in stunned disbelief: flirty as fuck?? timelords this timelords that

things 10 does that make yaz zone out for five minutes entertaining fantasies that are confusing in the way only things involved with time travel can be: brainy specs

#10: yaz. yaz. yaz. YASMIN KHAN #yaz: whAt #10: i was talking. you stopped listening #yaz: im listening #looks at him. still wearing the glasses. beat. he gets it. he grins #yaz: nO. no. no! no. it's not you. dont get any ideas! #10 smirking bc he knows the effect he has on girls and it's kind of annoying it hasnt been working on yaz so far: 😘 #yaz: you wish #i think my favourite thing abt the yaz&10 dynamic im imagining is that it is and will be always entirely platonic #like truly little sibling vibes theres a lot of chemistry they work together WELL. but none of it is even remotely romantic #was talking to leslie and they were like. at every cute blonde girl 10 would be like *wistful sigh* rose and yaz would be the same but abt1 #which is confusing in the way only time travel can be again #and they would have fun with it #start trying to one-up each other impressing cute girls #neither of them truly interested in actually inviting those girls on board #it's just a game it's a little competition. it's bonding between THEM #to be the most charming doctor #there really is a lot abt this vibe with christina that i think he'd have with yaz too #except the lord&lady thing i said #but maybe thats just bc theyre in the same period for 10 #christina doesnt get on board bc 10 is scared the same way as 13 was #but yaz wont give him the chance to not let her on board. she just walks in #yaz&10

[iwoulddieforienzo]

They’re fucking with us

#I have been burnt out on both these games for months but I got jumpscared by this guy and I must say. What #first it was Skirk and… I forget her name. but?? #um. hello? #the fact that they’re in the same universe makes this weirder. youre suggesting a connection here #Im just forever annoyed that despite being 2 different games they have the exact same design philosophy #you could shove any character from either game into the other and they would fit #(okay you’d have to drop some of the fancy weaponry but Chevruse has a Gun.) #and that’s because the designs themselves are meant to look as appealing as possible with little room for storytelling #ESPECIALLY THE WOMEN #and it bothers me A Lot even if I can recognize the intent. this is their business model it’s.. it’s whatever fine #but this is just getting a lil silly methinks #‘it’s just hair’ their hair is the most distinguishing thing about them. their outfits are similar in nature and they share a color scheme #it doesn’t matter how different their personalities are or that they’re in different games because they were made by the same company #in a connected universe #one of which is the most popular characters in the game since she was first teased #without a clear timeline of which game came first if they aren’t happening concurrently and the connected between them unclear #we can’t really say what the connection between these two is #I don’t truly care that much I’m just endlessly baffled that this keeps happening #snack time #genshin impact #hsr

[ozlices]

i have to make appointments & also let my doctor know id rather continue one of the new meds she put me on bc it actually helped but ive been completely unmedicated for 2 fucking days & the thought of doing Anything makes me wanna throw up im so over being a person

#mine #i rly do not have it in me to make appointments dawg i have medical trauma can i get used to one new doctor #before im tossed around like a gd hot potato to numerous others. i literally attend my appointments w my cane #what's not clicking abt me having VERY fucking low energy in the aftermath of sm straining stress bruh #but like i dont have a choice bc i could have some of my meds stopped if i dont see certain doctors & im just here like 🫠 #i feel somewhat stupid like damn i rly thought finally i had a chill doctor w common sense but no i still gotta fight for my gd life #just be given say over MY OWN GODDAMN WELLBEING #'oh well this causes physical health concerns' to be completely blunt idfc anymore. #truly i fucking do not #my body is a fucking nightmare my entire system resents at this point bc we always have some lvl of bs going on w it #we've no choice but to stop fucking caring bc the numerous mental strains we're dealing w worsen them ON THEIR OWN #& also like literally fuck off bc my body wouldn't be this shit if doctors actually TOOK CARE OF ME PROPERLY #before it got this bad. #there's no fucking fixing shit now by worsening my already overwhelmed & strained body/mind by making me a gd hot potato #if im not Actively Perishing or on the immediate brink of the risk IDC #I NEED TO FUCKING BE ALLOWED TO //CHILL THE EVER LOVING FUCK OUT// #//that// SHOULD BE THE PRIORITU #ive been strained for YEARS but esp since last year to a CONSTANT degree #can i fucking get one GODDAMN foot on the ground to pick myself back up jfc #im so tired & annoyed & sick of there always being SOMETHING #i just wanna fucking chill & finish my preps to stream again & get back to pursuing what i love please #im gonna LOSE MY MIND

[lith-myathar]

(sry this is a Post now but i utterly failed to be concise)

@lazysatyr I think it is a little bit. I'm not mad about individuals getting it wrong so much as I'm irritated with how and why that piece of misinformation became so prevalent in the first place. People liked the tragedy of it, they liked the idea that he was a "child" by elf standards when it happened. Makes him seem more sympathetic when everything we know about him pre-vamp says he was pretty terrible, actually. A fully realized adult making decisions that ruined lives and not caring. I think that's a pretty important piece of context for everything that comes after in his story. The way people just uncritically took that idea and ran with it, how it's been disseminated into fanworks and the internet in general to the point that it is very difficult for anyone to tell it's not actually canon is.... bad, imo. It's a misrepresentation. And while I totally get why it happened - it's very hard to read the dates on the grave and they fucked up by using DR - it still bothers me that so many people accepted it so quickly.

#what im saying is that i want people in general to be more discerning and pay more attention. i realize this is futile. #i also realize this really isn't THAT big of a deal. it just irritates me bc english was my favorite subject #and therefore i have a lot of feelings about how people interpret a text #also omfg fandom wikis are being AI generated now? this is truly the worst timeline. hate it here #(one other thing: people have become attached to the idea. so regardless of what's true i think a lot of folks just wouldn't care) #(that perhaps annoys me more than anything)

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#truly i have too modes. so fucking busy i cant breathe. cant think without a muddled lag. feeling motion sick as i walk #a path ive walked a thousand times over. or not busy enough. without thr pressure i revert to a liquid state and spill across the floor #i cant seem to do anything. at least when im busy i cant feel how miserable i am. at least for a little while bc i have to focus #idk how to find a balance. it always seems to be all or nothing. outside my control but directed by my control #ugh. after the month ive had the misery's caught up with me. also i havent been sleeping enough #i felt horrible all day in the lab ans i was like. i mean maybe its low bloodsugar? but then when i went home i felt 1000 times better #which is. ya kno understandable but not great #idk i can just feel the anger leaking out from under my skin. ive made the system unlivable. now im suffocating on the echo of pain #and i feel bad bc it must b all over my face. bitterness simmering in my words #i met with my boss today for a delayed meeting of a delayed meeting and showed her some preliminary data. she was excited and asked what i #felt abt it. and i dont feel anything abt it. nothing. i dont care i dont care i dont care i dont fucking care #set my datasheets on fire. burn them to ash. i wouldnt feel anything #and im sure some of that sentiment came thru bc she later texted me to reiterate how cool the data is bc no ones done a study this #extensive ans i dont kno how to reply bc again i dont care. theres no breathing enthusiasm back. that dim light has been extinguished. i #look forward to never having to think abt it again. #whatever the more pressing issue is that i cant get my brain to function enough to save me from the other problems i have boiling over #just me sabotaging potential future happiness from where i sit unhappily in the present #annoying. ugh i need to sleep. #unrelated

[faultsofyouth]

It's fucked up that the sober population straight up ignores how a huge portion of addicts have chronic illnesses

#was thinking about my stepdad and his plethora of health issues and how they shape his life #and then i thought about sewercentipede and Then i thought about the huge population of bipolar people who are alcoholics #and then after all that i thought about a convo i had with a straight edge friend who was like 'using illegal drugs Should result in jail #time because they could just Not do those drugs. they do it just for fun' #like i understand where he is coming from but i literally think he is wrong af. #i think the people who do drugs (esp hard drugs) recreationally are outnumbered 2 to 1 by people who #are self medicating with illegal drugs. i think most people totally ignore how chronic illnesses #and severe mental illnesses can hurt you on a profound level and because they dont know about that suffering #they do not understand the urge to numb that pain. and people have no sympathy for what they dont understand #lately im so bothered by people who share their opinions with me about complicated issues but clearly havent ever done any research on them #everyone thinks their opinion is so smart and special and no one is studying #especially not studying human behavior. most people think that socialization and political topics are a fucking joke #with 0 relevance to their personal lives. like no one is ever going to be truly informed about All the things #and i know i certainly am not but it is so annoying to speak with people who make no effort at all to learn about a subject #before they try and tell people the business about it. like that guy. his only understanding of drug use #comes from his own relationship to alcohol. but he was not an alcoholic he was just a perv who decided to go christian #like its so egotistical to assume that your experience and emotions can apply to everyone and yet he is not the only guy i know #who has no interest in any perspective other than his own but thinks his perspective is well informed #im sure women piss me off with this behavior too its just that atm i can only think of examples of men acting like this

[candyunicornsateme]

ok dont look at me but I’ve been listening to this song (called Nazareth by Sleep Token) on repeat a lot and thinking about Mysterion and fuck man it’s fucking me up. I need everyone to understand I am deeply passionate about intense brooding shit like this, like I want Mysterion content where his eyes are boring into your soul 

#rimble ramble #ugh also like Mysterion is so much more forward than Kenny #like the internal battle with restraint and #lIKE.....the Watching You vibe #oh shit thts whats under my pinned kysterion pic HMMMM #MY SUBCONSCIOUS KNOWS #idk if ill leave this up i just wanna gush about this band i just found #thanks youtube for knowing i love angsty music w guitar riffs #mysterion is a fighter he deserves the intense brooding music #kyle would truly feel like Kenny's a whole different person w Myst too like #fuck this is a whole other ramble man #ok im gonna attempt to draw i keep putting it off bc of shit brain #i should put thoughts like this into group chats but......i dont wanna be annoying lmao

[cryborgs]

#that disappointing game post is so fun and interesting to me good god #people will mention a game i like and it makes me go >:0 #but also idk i'm very up for criticism of the things i like. like all the mass effect games? you're so right lmao #i love mass effect but every one of those games is flawed #i will defend mea but also. it IS super flawed #the only ones i find truly annoying are when people are like 'ur baby brained if u can enjoy this' like ?? #idk i 100% agree bg3 is flawed and there are a lot of frustrating and disappointing aspects #also i like it 😇 #a lot of the writing is good. a lot of the characters are good. that doesn't mean im like. sacrificing my son to it and saying it's perfect #but also i said this before but it's just neat to see how different people's experiences are #like whiskey-trio it makes 100% sense that you were disappointed by ztd #i'm way newer to the series and wasnt anticipating and waiting for a third game #also tbh 🫣 vlr didnt really hit for me the way it seems to have for most ze fans 🫣 so i was already in a place of like #yeah these games are fun but 999 will probably be untouched #so. all that and all this to just say. i think it's neat how different people can be for no real reason other than. we have our own tastes #my siblings + i can be raised in the same environment by the same parental figures and come out of it so absurdly different #and why???? what makes people have the tastes + preferences they do??????? idk!!! #like vlr wasnt a knockout for me but i will slam my fists on the table and howl about aitsf. aitsf my beloved!!!! there's nobody like you!! #anywayssss pardon me #i think. thinking about things and talking about things is fun #tagged: ignore me