#//that// SHOULD BE THE PRIORITU

[ozlices]

i have to make appointments & also let my doctor know id rather continue one of the new meds she put me on bc it actually helped but ive been completely unmedicated for 2 fucking days & the thought of doing Anything makes me wanna throw up im so over being a person

#mine #i rly do not have it in me to make appointments dawg i have medical trauma can i get used to one new doctor #before im tossed around like a gd hot potato to numerous others. i literally attend my appointments w my cane #what's not clicking abt me having VERY fucking low energy in the aftermath of sm straining stress bruh #but like i dont have a choice bc i could have some of my meds stopped if i dont see certain doctors & im just here like 🫠 #i feel somewhat stupid like damn i rly thought finally i had a chill doctor w common sense but no i still gotta fight for my gd life #just be given say over MY OWN GODDAMN WELLBEING #'oh well this causes physical health concerns' to be completely blunt idfc anymore. #truly i fucking do not #my body is a fucking nightmare my entire system resents at this point bc we always have some lvl of bs going on w it #we've no choice but to stop fucking caring bc the numerous mental strains we're dealing w worsen them ON THEIR OWN #& also like literally fuck off bc my body wouldn't be this shit if doctors actually TOOK CARE OF ME PROPERLY #before it got this bad. #there's no fucking fixing shit now by worsening my already overwhelmed & strained body/mind by making me a gd hot potato #if im not Actively Perishing or on the immediate brink of the risk IDC #I NEED TO FUCKING BE ALLOWED TO //CHILL THE EVER LOVING FUCK OUT// #//that// SHOULD BE THE PRIORITU #ive been strained for YEARS but esp since last year to a CONSTANT degree #can i fucking get one GODDAMN foot on the ground to pick myself back up jfc #im so tired & annoyed & sick of there always being SOMETHING #i just wanna fucking chill & finish my preps to stream again & get back to pursuing what i love please #im gonna LOSE MY MIND

[cazzofulmine]

the problem is that i have so many ocs from so many different settings and as much as i want to shitpost abt them all they really are Too Many

#i should probably organize my tags #as for now i have at least four active settings not counting The Ideas #whe have omag thats definitely the most 'important' both in priority and in like. depth #as in its the most developed w all the story planned out worldbuilding done for 95% and most characters fleshed out #then theres the 'pmd' for which i need to find a better name #id argue that this is THE most developed one tbh #bc its an easy setting that didnt take me long to create where i literally focused on the characters only for most time #so its actually the one thats most fleshed out and id say its almost on par w omag if it werent for the fact that omag is high prioritu #whereas 'pmd' v much isnt its just smth that im attached to #altho tbf i could try to make a project out of it in the future #then theres the actual pmd which is just yknow #literally pmd ocs #from my mystery dungeon au where 'pokemon' means mutated humans for the most part #bc im not a fucking furry and i cant imagine stories w fucking pokemon i just cant do it #thats v much not high priority and i just do it for the characters #then theres the renegades which is a project i like altho i only have 4 characters for now #who dont even have names for the most part cnskcnkdnd #wait no its 5. allen is the only one that has a first name then i have colomba earthquake and blacktail who only have hero names #then theres various ocs like raine and the dnd characters (for whomst i want to whip smth up in the future anyway) #and all the Ideas #the upside down city thingy and the devil thing w the lesbians #not to mention sky who desperately wants to become a story but thats gonna be a problem since he has an omonimous fjsjfksnd #mainly i need a tag for 'pmd' for now #and for the other main four #the rest will come on its own