#꼭 먼 남이 되고 싶었어 이 사회와Propane이 부러워

[guess--monster]

today is my 24th birthday.

#it rained like it has every year since jjong passed #im sure its him wishing me a happy birthday #im really tired and honestly i dont feel very good. physically im fine #but yknow everything else... well it isnt so easy. #i have no idea what to do with myself or the day. i was supposed to be dead by now but instead here i am #im lost and empty and i think i just want to spend the day alone... its not a day about me anyways #i havent done anything but watch shows on tv that i dont want to see with my mom. #the day is almost night and still nothing has changed #i think ill drink some wine or maybe find a way to get high #and then ill clean or cry or both #now playing: Child by Mark Lee #꼭 먼 남이 되고 싶었어 이 사회와Propane이 부러워 #I need to blow up now #birthday