#<- but altering my lifestyle to create lasting change is sooo much harder than just dieting and i have very little energy as is

[mooshroomgirlfriend]

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#i knowww im almost 2 years into my recovery but i am soooo close to a relapse its not even funny #i transferred to a university in a food desert and the only nutrition im getting is greasy ass fast food. im drinking sugary ass starbucks #drinks like water. not only is this DRAINING my bank account #but my clothes fit noticeably different :(( #i dont have money for a new wardrobe and im eating so unhealthy that my body feels AWFULLLL on the inside #im thinking a lot abt food again and i really don't know if i can find a way to solve these issues while avoiding a relapse #im scared right now. im scared of gaining weight im scared of eating unhealthily im scared of feeling hungry im just scared #im scared of everything. i thought my weight had finally stabilized... but now i need to find a way to alter my lifestyle #<- but altering my lifestyle to create lasting change is sooo much harder than just dieting and i have very little energy as is #sorry about all that its just that i dont have anyone i can talk to abt this rn but no one truly understands #so alas i post #musings