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Han & Leia + The Millennium Falcon

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it finally happened

december / 1979

i had sex with Adrianna… sex isn’t all it’s cracked up to be. it was awkward, and uncomfortable. but it was with Adrianna, and i’m not a virgin anymore. I had my confirmation today too, i guess i’m officially a man. i’m a real man now, whatever that is.

#man #sex #virgin #virginity

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― Lymelife (2008) “If I disappointed you somehow, I’m sorry.”

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december / 1979

talked to my dad tonight. had one of those real heart to hearts with him… he told me he wasn’t happy. he said he never lied to my mom, she just didn’t ever ask about it. isn’t that something? she never asked. i don’t know what kind of logic that is. man, why did my dad have to fuck her.

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december / 1979

Todd tried to start shit with me again today. i don’t know what happened; i snapped. i beat the hell out of him… i didn’t know i had it in me. but it felt so good. fuck him, fuck my parents, fuck all of them.

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Don’t ever tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody.

J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye (via bookmania)

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go islanders

december / 1979

in the bathroom, my dad wants me to go to the islanders game with him, but i can’t stand to even look at his face. i hear him and my mom screaming at eachother in the kitchen, she told him i know about him fucking mrs. bragg. all i hear from in here is screaming back and forth and i hate it. i can’t even believe my dad thinks he can even yell at her after all he did.

#new york islanders

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JUST LOOK AT RADARS LITTLE SMILE

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who is my hero now?

i want to kill my dad. i hate him SO MUCH. i know he’s fucking Adrianna’s mom, but he doesn’t know i know. i just watched him dance with her and my mom at the same time. THE SAME FUCKING TIME. i imagined myself stepping in all heroic and punching him for my mom, but all i could do was sit there and watch. i went outside to talk to jimmy and on top of it all i found out my brother isn’t even a real soldier… he’s a big pussy like Radar from MASH. my stomach hurts. i feel like i’m in the twilight zone.

#MASH #radar #twilight zone #army #soldier

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Literally one of the best shows of all time. This shit still scares me at night. Classic.

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pot is overrated

november / 1979

after the church party, me and adrianna went back to her house. she had pot and wanted to smoke it, but i’ve never smoked pot before. she rolled up a joint for the both of us and then showed me how to do it. man, i choked on that thing so bad. she told me that if i was a little older she might have considered dating me. what’s the use in telling a guy that? I CAN’T MAKE MYSELF ANY OLDER

well anyway, we’re smoking this joint and i didn’t feel anything. they say the first time you smoke you don’t feel anything, who knows. but it was this exact moment that i felt everything shatter- Adrianna told me my dad was fucking her mom. the two of them came up out of her basement and gave some bullshit excuse saying they were going to help some late clients at the site. it hit me like a train, i don’t know if it was what she said or the pot but i got sick and puked all over. i thought i knew my dad better, i don’t even know what to think right now.

#420 #420 blaze it #weed #pot #dad #cheating

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