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riviaskestis · 2 years

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“You deserve love” (9)

jj x reader

not my gif! credits to the owner.

summary: after an unexpected event on a rainy night, two friends find out they have feelings for each other.

MASTERLIST

“What?” You asked once the sentence he just said went to your mind and you processed it.

“I have this opportunity to go to the city and open a store there.” He said softly.

“But dad, we can’t..”

“I know. I wanted to talk to you about this first. But, this is huge Y/n! Can you imagine my store in the big city?” He said with a shine in his eyes and a little smile.

“That’s all you’ve ever wanted.” You said softly. Your father got up and walked over to you to give you a big hug.

“And you, you can get a proper education and then go to a good college. Have a normal life..”

You stood back and broke the hug. “I don’t want a normal life, I want to live here dad.” You felt anger and sadness growing inside of you when you finally understood what was really going to happen. “And what about the store here? You’re just going to sell it? Just like that? And, what about my friends! The Pogues! I can’t...” The image of JJ appeared in your mind and your stomach turned. “Oh my god! What about JJ? We just gave him a job and now you’re going to take it away from him? After everything his been trough! I can’t do that to him.” You shook your head.

“Sweetheart..”

“No, dad. I need... time alone.” You walked to your room and shut the door.

The words of JJ came back to your mind and your heart went to your stomach. Tears were now coming down to your cheeks and you tried to keep yourself together. But everything that you were holding started to come out and you couldn’t control it.

That night you couldn’t sleep. Your mind was filled with thoughts and it wasn’t shutting off. The moment you felt that you were falling asleep, your alarm started to sound and it was time to open the store.

“In the city?!” Kie asked once you told her, John B, Sarah and Pope.

You were at John B’s after a long day working. You decided to tell them what was going on before it was too late and some big decisions were made.

“You can’t leave!” Pope said sitting down next to you.

“Maybe you can stay in my house!” Kie offered “I’m sure my parents won’t mind!”

“I’d tell you to stay at my house but I don’t think that living with your ex is a good idea.” Sarah said with a little smile and you shook your head letting out a little laugh.

“Or here!” John B said “it’s not as big as Kie’s house but... well, we have beer!” John B said while trying to cheer everyone.

You let out a little smile and then shook your head. “The thing is, I can’t let my dad go. But... I can’t let you guys either.” You said and then Pope hugged you, followed by everyone else.

“Don’t leave us Y/n!” Kie said.

“Guys! Air!” You said and the hug was over.

“The real question is, have you told JJ?” Sarah asked and you shook your head.

“No, I haven’t seen him today. He didn’t have to work... and, to be honest, I’m not looking forward to telling him.”

“You have to, Y/n.” Pope said.

“Yeah, I know..”

“Well, it’s now or never. Here he comes.” John B said quickly looking through the window.

JJ walked into the house and everyone went silent. He stood there looking confused and then brushed it off. He locked eyes with you for a second and then looked down, walking to his room.

Everyone turned to you and you sighed. “I know.” You said getting up and walking towards JJ’s room. But when you were about to knock on the door, JJ came out of his room quickly and then stopped once he saw you. He gave you a little smile.

“What’s up, princess?” He asked and your stomach turned when you heard the nickname. You knew he was trying to act normal around you so the other ones wouldn’t suspect anything weird happend, like the talk you had last night.

You were about to say something but then JJ walked to the living room, and you noticed he had his boots on.

“Hey, man, can I take your boat? I have to do something.” JJ asked John B and he nodded without questioning.

Your mouth opened trying to say something once again, but JJ was fast and he was out of the house in a matter of seconds.

“What the fuck?” You said almost in a whisper and then walked out of the house. You followed JJ into the John B’s boat and you stood next to it while JJ was already inside getting ready to leave. “JJ, we need to talk.”

JJ locked eyes with you but then his eyes went down to the lighter he was holding. “Uh, about the other night... I-”

“That’s not what I want to talk. Even though we need to talk about that, there’s something you should know first.”

He lifted his eyebrow and then stood closer to you but still inside the boat. “What happend?”

Your heart started to beat faster and you couldn’t keep the eye contact with him. You thought this was going to be less difficult.

“Last night, when I went home. My dad told me something. It’s not decided yet, but I think you should know. My dad got a deal yesterday, and it’s about... opening a store in the city.” You said quickly still looking at the ground. “And he wants me to move with him.” You finished and then came up with the courage to looked up at JJ. But he wasn’t looking at you.

He had his jawline clenched and he had his eyes on the boat floor. You knew he didn’t like the news and you didn’t blamed him. You wouldn’t like it either.

“It’s fine.” He said like nothing shrugging his shoulders and then continuing getting ready to leave.

You stood there confused at his response and his sudden ‘I don’t really care’ attitude.

“It’s fine?”

He nodded “I was right.” He said and then started the boat.

“You were right?” You asked more confused. “What do you mean JJ?”

“Everyone leaves in the end.” He said without looking at you and then he was far away from you, leaving you there with a heart beating faster and tears coming down your cheeks.

“Did he said that?” Kie asked with surprised. You nodded and then let your head rest on Sarah’s shoulders.

“And I feel fucking terrible! I told him, I told him that I would never leave him. He’s right.” You said closing your eyes and the feeling of tears wanting to come out your eyes appeared again.

“No, he’s not right. You’re not choosing to leave. If you decided to leave, it’s because you can’t leave your father. And to be honest, it’s not your decision, it’s your father’s. He shouldn’t be mad at you.. or anyone! This things just happen!” Sarah said gently touching your hair.

“I know, but that doesn’t take away the fact that I feel like crap.” You said softly and Kie grabbed your shoulders and the pulled you up.

“C’mon! This is not the Y/n that I know! The Y/n that I know since forever would look for the best option here, look for the solution! And the most important, stand up for herself! Don’t get me wrong, I love JJ, he’s my best friend. But he can’t get mad at you for doing something for your family. I don’t want you to leave either, and I’ll miss you like crazy if you do, but it’s your fucking decision and if it makes you happy, everyone has to understand it!” She finally took a breath after getting everything out and you stood there surprised.

“She’s right, Y/n.” Sarah got up and let his arm go around your shoulders. “Id miss you like crazy too, but if you want to leave because you think it’s the right thing to do, I’ll be there for you. That’s what friends are for, right?”

“Thank you guys..” you said softly and then sighed “The thing is, friends, right. But the other night.. JJ..”

“What Y/n?” Kie said impatient.

“He kind of told me he wanted to kiss me.” You said quickly and then sat down on the couch once again with your hands covering your face. “Ugh, I hate it here!”

“He said what?!” Kie and Sarah asked at the same time. They both sat down next to you.

“Yeah, he said that.” You slowly nodded.

“And what happened after that?” Sarah asked.

“Nothing, my dad wanted me to go home to tell me the news. And then, the next time I saw him and told him this. I didn’t told you guys anything about everything because-”

“Everting?” Sarah asked. “Y/n, is there something else?”

“Well, kind of.”

“Kind of?” Sarah and Kie asked at the same time.

“We almost... kissed.”

“What?!”

“I didn’t want to tell you guys because I didn’t want to make a big deal out of it! And I didn’t know it was that big of a deal at the beginning! And the rule!”

“Fuck the rule!” Kie said.

“You have to talk to him about it!”

“Talk about what?”

“Your feelings!” Sarah yelled.

“My what?! I don’t know what I feel!” You got up and started walking around the room nervously.

“C’mon! You obviously like him Y/n. Don’t deny it.” Kie said following you.

“He probably hates me after I told him about the news!”

“Now it all makes sense why he’s so angry!” Sarah said. “He likes you too.”

“I don’t know! Maybe...” you shook your head slowly and then stood still with millions of thoughts going around your mind.

“You have to talk about it. Otherwise, if you leave, you’ll regret it.” Sarah said and Kie nodded.

You sighed “Alright, I’ll do it tonight. I know he’s going to be at John B’s house.”

“And I’ll take John B out of the way, don’t worry about him.” Sarah said and you slowy nodded and the thought of actually talking about your feelings with JJ made your insides go wild.

You felt your heart bitting faster once you entered John B’s house. You immediately noticed JJ in the kitchen looking for something on the fridge.

“Hi.” You said softly with a smile on your face. He looked up to you and then came back to what he was doing seconds after.

“Hi.” He said with a dry tone. The air was tensed and you could hear your heart in your chest.

“JJ, we need to talk.” You said getting closer to him.

“Do we?” You stopped and stood there surprised. He sounded angry and his tone hurted you.

“Yes, we do.” You said getting frustrated.

“I don’t think we do.” He said quickly and then started to walk to his room but you stopped him by getting in his way.

“What is wrong with you?” You said getting angrier.

“Nothing’s wrong with me.” He said shrugging his shoulders and the way he was brushing you off and the situation made you even more angry.

“Oh, so it’s going to be like this then? You hating me for something that I can’t control?”

“I don’t hate you, Y/n” he said clenching his jawline.

“Stop ignoring the situation! Stop treating me like trash JJ!” You felt the anger inside grow. You couldn’t stand when he was acting like this, and you’ve had enough.

“I’m not ignoring the situation! There’s nothing to talk!” He said and you noticed he was getting angrier too. “You want to leave me and have a life on the fucking city? Fine! Do it! I don’t fucking care.”

“JJ! I don’t want that I-”

“What do you want to keep talking about it? Huh? It’s not like something I say it’s going to change it. Or what your dad wants to do. You’re going to leave us like everyone does. Get a better life. Do you actually care?!”

That one hurted. The fact that JJ had the audacity to tell you than you didn’t care was something you’ve never thought he was going to say. Because he knew, you cared.

“Can’t you fucking see it JJ? Can’t you fucking understand it? JJ, I fucking care about you! Why can’t you see it?! I’ve been there for you when you couldn’t hold yourself straight! Since I found out about your father I couldn’t stop thinking about it and I found every way possible to help you out of that situation! I would fight your dad if I could! I would give you everything I have if I could! Because I fucking love you!” You let everything get out and you couldn’t control the words that were coming out of your mouth. You realized what you said but it was too late to regret it. “And I understood your feelings, I did because I know what it fucking feels like when someone leaves you! But you keep pushing me away when all I want is to be there for you! One minute you want me and then the other you don’t! Do you know how that makes me feel? Like fucking trash!... I know sometimes things don’t work out! But I keep trying and trying and trying... and all you do is push me away.” The tears were coming down your cheeks and a pain inside your chest was growing. “And the worst thing is. No matter how bad you treat me, I’ll always be there for you. Because I fucking love you and I can’t help it.”

You couldn’t be there anymore, the pain you felt was something stronger than you could hold on to. You needed to get out of there. So your turned to the door and walked out. But then JJ talked behind you.

“I love you too. Fuck! I love you too, Y/n.”

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PART 10

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riviaskestis · 2 years

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“You deserve love”(3)

jj x reader

not my gif! credits to the owner.

summary: after an unexpected event on a rainy night, two friends find out they have feelings for each other.

MASTERLIST

“You think this looks good?” You asked Kie after trying one of her dresses for the fancy party.

“You look hot as fuck.” She said after giving you a look and standing next to you in front of the large mirror she had in her room.

You were in Kie’s huge room, because after trying to find something to wear for this party, you came to the conclusion it was pretty useless to look in your closet. You’ve never been to a party like that, so you didn’t have much fancy clothes.

So, after calling Kie for help she accepted excited and told you to come immediately to her house. After trying like four dresses you decided to wear the one you had on. It was a tight dark red dress that ended to where your thighs started and with very thin straps.

“Don’t you think is very short?” You asked Kie when you turned to her.

“Believe me, this is nothing compared to the dresses the girls use in this parties.”

You looked at yourself in the mirror again, you had to admit, you did look pretty hot. You were not used to seeing you like this, you were always wearing shorts and big shirts. Casual was your type of style.

“Well, who knows? Maybe I’ll get a kook boyfriend and mentally manipulate him so I can get all of his money.” You shrugged and then Kie give you a little smile.

“You’re scary sometimes, you know that?” She asked and you winked at her. “Here, have this.” she reached down and grabbed a pair of black high heels.

You shook your head “Uh oh, I’m not wearing high heels.”

“If you don’t use them, they won’t let you in and bye bye free food.” She said and you sighed.

“Fine.” You sat down in Kie’s bed and started to tied the shoes. You stood up and the feeling of being more tall made you lose balance for a bit. But when you got used to it, you walked towards the mirror and gave yourself a look to the finish outfit. Your legs looked longer than ever and the tight dress somehow became more shorter. Your hair fell in your back and the slight makeup Kie did for you made your skin glow. “Ok, I’m kinda feeling myself right now.” You said giving a spin and Kie let out a little laugh.

“Guys!” Kie’s mom yelled from downstairs “We’re going to get going! Don’t be late!”

“Ok!” Kie said and rolled her eyes. “My mom thinks that going to the party many minutes before it starts is going to affect our reputation.” She looked at herself in the mirror and sighed. “I hate this stupid flower crown my mom makes me wear. If the guys see me like this I will never hear the end of it.” She said and let out a little laugh.

That’s when you remember what JJ told you, that her and Pope have obviously something going on. Kie and you have been friends since you could remember, you were kind of hurt if something was going on and she didn’t told you. So you figured this was the time to ask her.

“Hey, is there something going on between you and Pope?” She quickly turned to look at you and it took her a second to think of an answer.

“Y/n, you know the rule.”

“Yeah, but sometimes rules are meant to be broken.” You said and shrugged your shoulders.

She slowly turned closer to you and give you a smirk “Y/n, is there something you want to tell me?”

“What? No! I was talking about you a and Pope. Don’t turn this about me!”

“Well, I don’t know! Your question was out of the blue. You want to tell me something? Something that has to do with a boy named JJ?” She asked and she crossed her arms around her chest.

“JJ? Wha- No!” You said and were confused about how the conversation turned to you and JJ.

“He’s been flirting a lot with you lately.” She said. “More than before. You have to be pretty stupid to not see that he has a crush on you.”

You opened your moth offended “I’m not stupid! And JJ does not have a crush on me!” She give you a smile and you took out your tongue to her like a child.

“We have to go before my mom kills us for getting there late, but this conversation isn’t over!” She walked out the room.

“I should say that since I was asking about you and Pope!” You said. Clearly Kie was avoiding the question and found the way to turn it around.

You followed Kie downstairs with a thought in your mind. Did Kie really think that JJ had a crush on me or did she just said that to escape the question? The thought of JJ having a crush on you made you feel little butterflies in your stomach.

It’s not that I like him but... wait, do I like him? Those thoughts were now in your mind and you tried to brush them off while Kie was trying to find her keys.

“Hey pretty ladies!” You heard some guys whistling at you and Kie. You were ready to say something back at them but then you noticed it was the Pogues.

You walked up to them and you noticed that they were observing you and Kie very carefully.

“What? You guys never seen a girl in a dress before?” You joked and they looked up at you with embarrassment.

You noticed that JJ didn’t look up and was still looking at your really exposed legs and your curves in that dress. You felt his gaze and your felt your nerves go up, you never had him look at you like that and you didn’t know how to act.

“What are you doing here?” Kie asked concerned about the fact that they were on Figure Eight.

“We wanted to let you fancy girls know that we’re having a party on the beach tonigh, so when you are free to leave, you know were to go.” John B said and you two nodded.

“Thank god.” Kie said. You let out a little laugh and you noticed that Kie gave Pope a little smirk.

You crossed your arms at her but she didn’t noticed. You turned to JJ who was looking at your chest, and not hiding it very well.

“Hey, blondie, my eyes are up here.” You pointed at them and JJ quickly nodded and scratched the back of his head.

“Yep, noted.”

You followed Kie to her car and drove off to the party. Once you arrived, you started to notice all the fancy people who were entering the big house, and immediately felt that you didn’t belong there.

“Food!” You said once you entered the house and Kie let out a little laugh.

The party was slow, it feel like time wasn’t moving. The music was awful so you couldn’t even dance. Kie’s parents were talking about some bussiness with some people and you noticed that Kie was as bored as you were.

“Wanna go to the backyard?” She asked and you quickly nodded.

“Whatever to get out of this.” She wrapped her arm with yours and walked to the backyard of the house, that looked like a whole park. “I think this is bigger than my own house.” You said while looking at your surroundings.

“Look who we have here.” A voice said behind you and you rolled your eyes when you recognised it.

“Rafe.” You said when you turned to him.

“You look good tonight, Kiara.” He said walking closer to you and Kie, followed by Topper and Kelce.

“Rafe, don’t you have something better to do?” Kie said annoyed.

Rafe turned to you and gave you a little smirk. “You look hot too, Y/n. Too bad you decided to be a Pogue.”

Your father’s bussiness took off a while back and you weren’t a ‘Pogue’ since you were twelve years old. That’s why he needed to take bussiness trips a lot. But you weren’t a kook either. You didn’t care to talk about it with the rest of the group. Money wasn’t something that you wanted. You wanted to hang out with your friends and your weren’t going to let money separate you.

“I didn’t ask for your comment, Rafe. Now, go away.” You said and wrapped your arm to Kie’s arm and started to walk away.

“Wow, are going to forget that fast the days that we spent together? You’re hurting me sweetheart.” He said behind you and stopped quickly.

“I’m gonna kill him.” Kie said and turned to Rafe.

“Hey, stop.” You said but Kie was fast and she was already closer to Rafe.

“Why don’t you stop bothering us and go fuck yourself.” She said and you heard him and his friends let out a big laugh.

“No need to do it myself. I have your friend to do it for me.” He said and you felt your anger grow inside.

“That’s enough!” You said but when you were about to get closer to him Kie’s father stopped you.

“What’s going on here?” He asked.

“Nothing, dad.” Kie said and walked to him “Can we go?”

“Your mother is going to kill me if I let you leave the party.”

“I’ll do the dishes when mom asks you.” She said and her father hesitated. “Please.”

“Ok. But be home before this party is over.” Kie hugged him and wrapped your arm around hers and walked out the party before Rafe could do anything else.

“I can’t believe you had a thing with that asshole.” Kie said while driving to the beach.

“I was younger and stupid.” You shrugged your shoulders and sighed.

You couldn’t believe yourself either. You were fifteen and in love. You couldn’t see his truth colors. It started as a love story but then it turned into a nightmare story. All of this happened before there wasn’t so much rivalry between the Kooks and the Pogues. The guys didn’t knew the whole story, but Kie did. The way he treated you, how he got his anger out with you. How his reputation was way more important than you. That’s when he made you chose between the Kooks and the Pogues. Of course, you could never abandoned your friends. So you chose them but that costed a broken heart. But now you were thankful that it was over and you decided that. You couldn’t be more happy.

You got out of Kie’s car once you two arrived at the beach were the party was. You noticed your friends and walked towards them.

“The life of the party is here.” You said and let your arm go around John B’s shoulders.

“Finally!” Pope said and hugged Kie.

“Beer! Beer! Beer!” JJ said while walking towards the group and he locked eyes with you. “Y/n!” He walked closer to you and handed you a beer bottle without breaking eye contact. “See, I do know that your eyes are up there.” He said and gave you a quick kiss on your forehead.

You rolled your eyes and let out a little laugh. You took of your heels and started to hold them in your hand. The beer was cold and you enjoyed the feeling of it touching your lips.

The music was loud and Kie made you go with her to the were the people were dancing. After a couple of songs with Kie, you decided to go after another beer bottle.

As you were walking with your shoes in one hand and an empty beer bottle in the other, you noticed JJ talking to a tourist very closely. She touched his shoulders and your stomach turned. You didn’t understand why you felt like that and a part of your body wanted you to be the one who was touching his shoulder. He locked eyes with you and you didn’t know what to do. So you tried to ignore your feelings and pretended to be watching an invisible watch on your wrist, and nodded. “On time” you said and he let out a little laugh.

You looked at where the beer bottles were and tried to focus on the party and not in the fact that you were feeling jealous. As you opened the beer bottle you felt an arm go around your shoulders.

“Is this JJ or Jack?” You asked once you saw JJ next to you.

“Who’s this Jack guy? Do I have to get jealous or something?” He asked and you let out a little laugh.

“Maybe.” You said and gave him a wink. He opened his mouth offended and you gently punched him in the arm. “What happened to the tourist you were talking to?” You asked once you sat down on a tiny stairs the beach had.

“Not my type.” He said and shrugged his shoulders.

“You have a type?” You asked jokingly raising your left eyebrow. JJ let out a little laugh and locked eyes with you. He wanted to say something but then he stopped. He slowly went down to your lips and you felt your stomach turned. He looked up and then to the people dancing.

You felt a pain in your hands and looked down at your shoes. You sighed and started to tied one of them in your foot.

“Isn’t that going to make it difficult to walk on the sand?” JJ said and you finished putting on shoe.

“I got tired of holding them.” You shrugged.

“I’ll hold them for you.” You looked up to him and he had a little smile on his face.

“You don’t have to. Beside, I already putted one on.”

“Let me.” He got up and kneeled down in front you.

He grabbed your foot that had the shoe on and you felt your skin rise when you felt his hands touching your lower leg. He started to untied it and you noticed he was very concentrate. His lips were tense and his hand was still gently grabbing your lower leg. His hair was messy and some of it was falling on his face. You’ve never felt more attracted to him than right now. But you didn’t want to feel like that. So once he was over, you stood up and looked down.

“It’s getting late. I probably should get going, thank you.” You grabbed your shoes and started to walk towards your house, but an arm around your shoulders stopped you.

“You didn’t think that a was going to let you go alone, did you?” He said with a smile on his face.

The walk was silent. All you could hear was the air blowing and the trees moving. You didn’t know what to say. Should you talk about surf? That was always a win with JJ. You were about to say something but JJ cut out off.

“Was the party fun?” He asked you.

“No, it was pretty lame. The only good thing was Kook food.” You said and he let out a little smile.

“You can call me next time and I’ll save you.” You let out a laugh and JJ looked at you offended. “I could!”

“Oh, baby, I know. But not before those Kooks have your head in their plates.”

“I could fight them.” He shrugged and you gave him a smile.

“Yeah, sure, five against one. Sure, blondie.”

“Stop calling me blondie!” He said and you let out a big laugh. “Or I’m going to start calling you..” he started to think and you smiled at him.

“Yeah, take your time. Blondie.” You said and started to walk faster than him.

“Y/n!” He let out a laugh and you kept walking faster to annoy him. He gently grabbed your arm and pulled making you turn around to face him. You were extremely close to his body and the air that was coming out of your nose was mixing with his.

He got even closer and looked down at your lips. Her let go of your arm and gently grabbed your waist, making you take a step closer and he touched his forehead with yours. You closed your eyes at the enjoyment of his closeness. He was about to close the space between your faces when you heard someone walking behind you.

“This is new!” A familiar voice yelled.

Rafe.

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PART 4

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riviaskestis · 2 years

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“You deserve love”

jj x reader (outer banks)

summary: after an unexpected event on a rainy night, two friends find out they have feelings for each other.

MASTERLIST

The music was loud on the beach tonight. It was filled with people, Kooks, Pogues and some random tourists that happened to be there at the beach.

You looked at your surroundings and noticed that John B. was very flirty with her girlfriend Sarah. Kie was dancing very closely to Pope, and you couldn’t find JJ anywhere.

Great, all of my friends are getting laid tonight but me. You thought as you were walking towards the beer bottles.

As you opened the beer with another beer, you felt an arm around your shoulders and a drunk JJ was next to you.

“Nice trick. I wonder who taught you that?” JJ said pretending to think when you both knew it was him who did it.

“Aren’t you supposed to be flirting with some tourist girl?” You said and then took the beer bottle to your lips.

He pretended to be offended by taking his hand to his chest “Is that how you see me, Y/n? I’m hurt.”

You rolled your eyes and let out a little laugh. “You’re a player, JJ. Just admit it. It’s your routine at every party. You arrive, get drunk and then you flirt with an even more drunken girl. It’s already 4 am, you’re out of your schedule.”

“Maybe I’m not out of my schedule, and you’re the drunken girl I’m flirting with tonight.” He said and you noticed he had a smirk on his face.

“In your dreams, JJ.”

“Oh, believe me, it already happened.” He said and you punched him on the arm. “Auch! It’s not my fault! I don’t control my dreams.”

“But you can control your actions when you’re awake, so stop it.” You wanted to be serious but couldn’t help and let out a little smile, but you hide it by drinking from your beer. “You know the rule.”

“So, you’re saying that if we weren’t on the same group, I’d have a chance.” He said and his smirk went even bigger.

“I didn’t said that.” You responded quickly and he shook his head.

“You said and I quote ‘You know the rule’. So, that’s settle then.” He turned to the other side and walked away, but after a couple of seconds, he turned again and walked towards you. “Hi, I’m Jack. Nice to meet you. What’s your name?”

You lifted your eyebrow while you were trying to understand what he was doing. “JJ, what the fuck are you doing?”

“JJ. I don’t know who’s this JJ you’re taking about, I’m Jack. I’m introducing myself to you, person that I’ve never seen before and never in a million years would belong in a group with.” He said and you let out a little laugh when you finally understood what he was doing.

“Oh, Jack. Nice to meet you, I’m Y/n.” You shaked his hand and he smiled.

“What a beautiful name.”

You had to be honest, he was good at it. You’ve been hit on many times, but he was different. He made you laugh and the conversation made you want to talk to him for hours. And the fact that he was extremely hot, made your thoughts go wild. And you hated that, because that meant that you liked what he was doing.

After what felt like hours talking to JJ, you heard a little flash of lightning come from the sky and you decided it was time to head home.

“Alright, it’s time for me to go. Can you go back to JJ now?” You said jokingly and he nodded, giving you a little smile.

“Why are you leaving so early?” He asked.

“It’s clearly going to rain any minute now and I don’t want to get home all wet. Besides, my dad’s not home, he had to go on some bussiness... stuff, and I can’t leave the dog alone a lot.” You said and give JJ a little smile.

“So, that means I can come over?” He said with the smirk back on his face.

You rolled your eyes and let out a little laugh “You never give up, do you?” He shook his head and you gave him a kiss on the cheek. “Goodnight, JJ.”

The walk home was different tonight. You couldn’t stop thinking about JJ, his laugh and the way he was flirting with you. Sure, he always give you a flirty comment, and you were used to that. He almost never stayed with you at parties. Everyone knew he was the type to leave with a girl around his arm, and you never gave much thought into it. But tonight, you liked the idea of him being with you.

When you arrived home, you said hi to your dog and checked if he had enough water. Once you took care of that, you headed to your room. The rain started to pour and you thanked your past self for leaving the party early.

Party clothes were off and you put your pijamas on, which consisted of a tiny shirt and short shorts. Nights could get really hot sometimes.

You closed your eyes once your body relaxed on your bed and his face came into your mind like a living memory. He was smiling and you felt your heart skipped a beat. You didn’t understand why you felt like that, JJ was your friend since you could remember and you’ve never felt something like this. But something changed tonight.

As you were trying to get some sleep, you heard your dog barked and you sat down in your bed. Your heart started to beat faster and you slowly got out of bed. The rain got stronger since you last heard it and the flashes of lightning appeared more often that before.

The barking was not something so common on outer banks, it was a safe place were you lived and never felt scared or in danger. But the way your dog was barking made you feel suspicious and walked towards him.

You couldn’t calm him down and your heart started to beat faster, something was going on. You tried to keep yourself together and walked towards the window next to your door so you could see if anyone was there.

Great idea, you dumbass, this is how horror movies start. You thought but your hand was already slightly moving the curtain from the window. You popped your head and because it was really dark and the rain was the main character this night, you had to take your time and focus everything that was outside. That’s when you noticed a blonde guy sitting on your porch. You recognised it immediately and you walked towards your door.

“JJ?” You said once you opened the door and he slowly turned to you. Your dog calmed down after smelling JJ and walked inside your house.

You grasped once you were able to see JJ as it’s fullest. He had blood all over his face and his shirt was ripped. You quickly grabbed his arm and pushed him in.

You walked towards your living room and turned on the lights, and the scratches were even worst. You noticed he also had marks on his left arm and his knees were red.

“JJ... what happened?” You said almost in whisper. He looked up to you and he had tears on his eyes. You quickly walked to him and wrap your arms around his body. He started to cry harder and his arms were strongly grabbing your waist.

“I can’t take it anymore!” He said and you felt your heart sink. You couldn’t see him like this.

“Was it Rafe?” You said with anger.

He shook his head and grabbed you even stronger. “My father.” He said in a whisper and you felt your eyes watered.

“Your father did this?” You asked with shook. You couldn’t understand how anyone could do this to him, and the one who is supposed to take care of him.

He slowly nodded and once he let you go, you went to your bathroom and grabbed the first aid kit you father always had for emergencies. You headed back to the living room and JJ was on the same position you left him.

“C’mon, sit on the couch.” He shook his head and sat on the floor.

“I’m all dirty, I don’t want your father to get mad at you.” He said and you felt even more terrible for him. How could anyone be so awful to him?

Once you were finished cleaning him up, you stood up and you noticed that when JJ was getting up, he was grabbing his stomach in pain.

“JJ...take off your shirt.” You said and he locked eyes with you. He hesitated but you got closer to him, grabbed his shirt and the pulled it up.

His stomach was filled with marks and bruises. They were big and it had to be a really hard punch to leave a mark like that. You gently touched the bruises and your heart sinked.

“I didn’t knew where else to go.” He said in a whisper and you shook your head.

“It’s ok. JJ, we have to do something about it.”

He shook his head “No.”

“JJ...”

“No! Y/n, I deserve it.” He walked away from you and headed to the door.

“JJ!” You stopped him by grabbing his arm, but not to strongly, you didn’t want to hurt him. “Look at me!” You turned him and you grabbed his cheeks. He had tears on his eyes. “You deserve love, JJ. You deserve to be loved. You are an amazing person who cares about others. We have to change this. Get you a better home.”

“You can’t.” He looked away but you made him look at you again.

“Stay here.”

“I can’t, what about your father?”

“You know him, he’s cool, we’ll tell him the truth and..”

“No, I don’t want any one to know.”

You couldn’t understand why he didn’t want that, but in this situation you didn’t want to upset him anymore so you nodded.

“Ok, we’ll think of something. Don’t worry.”

He slowly nodded and you noticed you were still grabbing his cheeks. He didn’t moved, so you didn’t either. You two kept looking at each other like you were admiring each other’s beauty. His blue eyes went down at your lips and unintentionally licked them. He was about to get closer when you heard a loud flash of lightning that made you jump.

“I think you can use one of my father’s old shirts. He won’t mind, he barely uses them.” He nodded and you walked to your father’s room. And once you had the shirt on your hand, you headed back to the living room. You walked towards JJ and handed him the shirt.

“Thank you.” He got closer to you and gave you a tight hug.

His arms were strong and you could feel your body getting worm. You two didn’t move for a couple of minutes, the feeling that you two gave each other was something new and it made you two feel weird, but didn’t want it to go away.

He locked eyes with you when he broke the hug and then his eyes went to your lips again. A feeling in you stomach made you want to get closer to him and unite your lips with his. But then, everything else came back to your mind and stepped back.

“You can stay in the couch, for tonight..” you said and he nodded “if you need anything, you know where my room is.” You gave him a little smile and walked to your room with a feeling of confusion inside of you.

What the hell is happening?

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PART 2

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riviaskestis · 2 years

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“Manipulating bitch”

jj x reader

not my gif! credits to the owner.

summary: her kook cousin is staying at the cut for a couple of weeks, and after she flirts with jj, y/n gets jealous. but she’s never going to admit it.

note: this came out longer than I expected😂 hope you enjoy!

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“Fuck my life!” You said after entering John B’s house. The rest of the Pogues turned their heads to you while you sat down at the couch and covered your face with your hands.

“What’s wrong?” Sarah asked concerned.

“Dude, don’t.” You heard Kie say. “In my years of knowing her, I learned that you don’t have to get closer to her. Just talk from a far.” You heard JJ let out a little laugh and you gave everyone the middle finger.

“Kie, I don’t think you’re going to be so happy about this either.” Kie furrowed her eyebrows and you sighed.

“Two words.” You said lifting your index and middle fingers. “Manipulating. Bitch.”

Kie’s face changed completely. “No...” you nodded and she face palmed her forehead. “Ugh!”

“Exactly.” You said getting up and grabbing the blunt you had on your back pocket and light it on fire.

“Who’s this ‘manipulating bitch’?” Pope asked and you turned to him.

“She’s my cousin, unfortunately.” You sat down on the counter. “She’s going to stay with my family for three weeks. Three!” You said putting your fingers up. “Apparently, she’s being a total brat and her parents want her to live the ‘Cut’ life. Typical! I don’t know why my dad keeps putting with his brother’s bullshit.” You said giving the blunt a good smoke.

“She can’t be that bad.” Sarah said.

“Oh baby.” Kie shook her head. “You innocent little baby.”

“She’s the worst.” You said and Kie nodded. “One day, my parents wanted me to take care of her, and because I didn’t let her go to a party, she set my bed sheet on fire.” Pope gasped and Kie nodded next to him. “Yeah, and that’s not even the worst thing. Another time, she tried to get me in trouble. She didn’t want to go this fancy party her parents were having so she jumped into a bush and blamed me, saying that I pushed her.” You clenched your jawline while having the memory on your mind.

“Yeah, she’s baaaad.” John B said.

JJ walked to your side and let the smoke in his mouth get out. “Ok, but, is she cute?” Kie rolled her eyes annoyed and you punched him in the arm. “Ouch!”

“The next one will be on your face if you say something like that! Don’t even think about it, JJ.” You pointed at him and got up from the counter.

“Jealous?” He said with a smirk and you let out a laugh.

“In your dreams, Maybank.”

“Hi Y/n!” Your cousin, Kim, said when she got out from the car. She quickly ran up and gave you a big hug. You patted her back and took a step back to free yourself from her. She always liked to pretend to have a good relationship with everyone, so they would do things for her if she asked. But you didn’t fall for her tricks since you were three and you were starting to think for yourself. “So good to see you!”

“Yeah.” You said sarcastically and you mother gave you a killing stare. You shrugged your shoulders and as you were about to walk inside your house, Kim’s voice stopped you.

“Y/n, could you carry my bags upstairs?” She asked with a sweet voice and you turned to her.

“You have arms, you can do it yourself.”

“Y/n!” Your mom gave you a serious look and you sighed.

You walked to her and grabbed her bags, giving your mother a sarcastic smile.

‘This is going to be fun!’ You thought sarcastically.

“I can’t believe my parents are making me stay here.” Kim said while looking around your old car with a disgust face.

“Well, and I can’t believe my parents are making me hang out with you.” You said in a whisper and you thanked the music for being loud enough for Kim not to hear you. You didn’t want to hear her high pitch voice.

“Where are we going anyway?” She asked while changing the radio. You bit your lower lip tying to not argue with her about it, you absolutely didn’t like when people touched your stuff.

“To my friend’s house.”

“You have friends?” She asked and let out an annoying laugh. You sighed and made the grip on the steering wheel stronger.

After arriving at John B’s house, you got out from your car and walked towards the front door without waiting for your cousin. You needed a good smoke.

“Wait for me!” Kim said but you were already inside. Pope, Kie and Sarah turned their head to you and then looked behind you. Kie rolled her eyes and continued with what she was doing before, which was smoking a blunt.

“Oh, I need one of those.” You pointed at Kie and she handed one that was on the table. You light it on and took it your mouth. Your body relaxed immediately and you let it fall on the couch.

“I don’t think your parents would like the idea of you smoking.” Kim said on the door and you rolled your eyes. “I’m going to tell them tonight. Or, if you... let me sleep in your bedroom, I’ll pretend I never saw you.” She said with a proud smile but you let out a little smile and locked eyes with her.

“I wouldn’t waist your breath, they already know.” You said taking the blunt to your mouth.

“You must be Y/n’s cousin, I’m Pope.” Pope said getting up and giving her his hand for her to shake. But she looked at it with disgust and after hesitating, she shaked it.

You turned to Kie and then rolled your eyes. She did the same and then turned the other way.

“Kiara, nice to see you again.” Kim said with a fake smile and Kie just nodded with the blunt on her mouth. “Sarah Cameron, nice to finally meet you.” Sarah gave her a little smile and you lost your thoughts while giving the blunt another smoke, until Kie sat down next to you on the couch.

“This place is a mess!” Kim said walking towards the kitchen and opening the fridge. “What a girl gotta do to get a glass of water around here? Jesus!”

“Dude, why did your bring her here?” Kie whispered.

“If I’m going down, I’m taking all of you with me.” You said and turned your head to where Kim was, now moving her phone around the room trying to get reception.

“Ugh! This doesn’t work! How do you guys live here?!”

“Where are John B and JJ?” You asked Kie and like a calling spell, they both entered the house.

“Finally! You guys took your time!” Pope said while helping the guys with the bags on their hands.

“Well, the grocery store it’s not as close as you guys might think it is.” John said.

“And, we had to carry this bags on the motorbike. It’s not as easy as it looks!” JJ defended himself.

“Well, the food is here and that’s all I care about.” Kie said with excitement and you let out a little laugh.

You didn’t got up from the couch and you noticed Kim was looking at JJ with a smirk on her face. She was watching him, more specifically, his arms. He had a shirt with no sleeves and you could easily see his muscles. And the fact that he was carrying heavy stuff and putting them away, his arms were more enjoyable than normal.

John B and JJ were so occupied with the groceries that didn’t noticed Kim in the room, until she walked to JJ and stood next to him.

“Do you have a motorbike?” She asked and for the first time, he turned to her. He looked confused at her trying to figure out who she was, but when he turned to you, he remembered.

“Yeah, I do.” He said and she bit her lower lip.

“That is a nice shirt.” She said touching his shoulder. Your heart dropped and you clenched your jawline without thinking about it.

At this point, everyone was looking at your cousin and JJ, Kie was trying to not rolled her eyes for the fifth time since she came into the room. Pope and John B were staring at you and waiting for your reaction. Sarah was still helping JJ with the groceries, but Kim was making it difficult since she was in the middle of the kitchen trying to get JJ’s attention. But he was too busy focused on the food and not paying attention to her compliments.

Everyone went back to putting the groceries away after noticing that JJ was, basically, not giving a fuck about Kim. You couldn’t keep your eyes away from her and follow her every move.

That’s when she, sneaky as possible, took a piece of bread and throw it on the floor in front of JJ.

“Oh, let me grab it.” She said with a smile. She kneeled down, giving JJ a perfect view of her ass. He widen his eyes and looked up. He let his arm go up in the air and giving everyone the look of ‘I don’t know what the fuck to do’.

“Not on my watch.” You whispered and walked over to where JJ was. You let your arm rest on his shoulder and when Kim turned to JJ, she locked eyes with you and then rolled her eyes.

“Can we go home now?” She asked annoyed.

“You can go, I’m staying here.” She gave JJ a last look with a smirk and then walked towards door. But stopped once John B talked.

“We have to get the beer for the party tomorrow.” You nodded and then looked annoyed at Kim, who was still on the door.

“Is there a party tomorrow?” She asked with a smile on her face.

“For you? No.” You said with a fake smile and then grabbed a beer from the fridge.

“Oh, well, I don’t think mom and dad are going to like the idea of you going to a party without me. You know, since you have to hang out with me. You don’t have a choice.” A proud smile appeared on her face and then locked eyes with JJ. “I’ll be there.” She winked at him and then walked away.

You sighed and without looking away from where she left, you said “The manipulating bitch, ladies and gentlemen.”

“She is the queen of the kooks, I never thought that I was going to meet someone that I hate this much.” Pope said.

“And she was all over JJ!” Sarah said sitting down next to John B.

“I mean, can you blame her?” He said with a smirk and then walked to where you were standing.

“I told you the next one was going to be on your face if you said anything.” You said and he lifted his hands on the air.

“Not my type.” He said and you sighed. “You know my type.” He pointed at you and your stomach turned.

“No brain?” You said and everyone laughed, but JJ just shook her head.

“You just called yourself a no brainier.” He winked at you and then walked to his room, leaving you confused and with a heart going full speed.

The music was loud as always when there was a party on the cut. People had beers on their hands and some of them were dancing around. You had your feet on the sand while talking to Kie about some girl that she was seeing.

“Then ask her out!” You said after taking a sip of your beer.

“I think I will!” She said nervous. Something caught her attention behind you and she rolled her eyes. You turned to where she was looking and you saw Kim entering the beach.

“I didn’t think she was actually going to come! She hates this kind of parties.” You rolled your eyes and took a bigger sip from your beer. You watched her walk into a group of people and how she stopped once she was next to JJ.

“I think now we know why she came.” Kie said and you sighed. You hated the fact that your annoying cousin was interested in one of your friends, especially if it was JJ. “Dude, relax your face. It looks like you want to kill her.”

You didn’t noticed that your jaw was clenched and the grip on your beer was stronger than before.

“It’s just... she’s so annoying!”

“You usually don’t let her get to you, expect if she’s with JJ...” she took a sip of her beer and you turned to her.

“What are you trying to say?”

“Maybe... maybe, you’re jealous that she’s flirting with him.”

You furrowed your eyebrows and shook your head quickly. “Me? Jealous? What? No! Why would I be jealous?”

“C’mon, Y/n! You like JJ! Maybe you two don’t know it yet, but there’s something going on there.” She pointed at your heart and you shook your head.

“No, there’s nothing going on. And you know the rule! No Pogue on Pogue.” You said taking the beer to your mouth.

“Fuck the rule! We made it when we were kids, doesn’t mean anything now. Besides, I think he-” she was about to say but was cut off my JJ appearing next to you.

“How are my favorite ladies?” He let his arm go around your shoulders and you took a sip from your beer trying to hide de fact that you were taking about him seconds ago.

“Fine! I’m going to get another beer.” Kie said before giving you a wink and walking away. You gave her a serious look and she just let out a little smile.

“So, where is your admirer?” You asked JJ.

“I have no idea. She keeps following me, but I told her that I was going to the bathroom. At one point I thought she was going to ask me if she could come.” He said and you let out a laugh.

“Yeah, if she wants something, she’s going to get it.”

“Well, I’m sorry to disappoint her, but she’s not going to get this.” He pointed at himself and you couldn’t help but let out a little smile. “But I like the fact that you get jealous when she flirts with me.”

You opened your mouth in surprise. “Why is it today? I’m not jealous JJ!”

“Oh, admit it! You couldn’t control yourself when she practically made a private show for me yesterday.”

You let out a laugh. “Sure, JJ, if it makes you feel better. Then yes, I was so jealous that I wanted to rip her hair out.” You said sarcastically and a proud smile appeared on JJ’s face.

“I knew it. You loooove me.” You let out a laugh and turned to where a group of people were now screaming in excitement. You noticed that they were celebrating that fact that they won a game of beer pong.

“Wanna play?”

“Don’t waste your energy, princess, I always win.”

“Is that a challenge, blondie?”

He locked eyes with you and he let out a smirk. “Bring it on.”

As you were walking to the beer pong table, with JJ’s arm around your shoulders, your cousin, stopped you two by standing in your way.

“Am I interrupting something?” She asked innocently.

“Yes.” You said annoyed.

“We were about to play some beer pong.” JJ said while making you walk again but after two steps he stopped. “Would you care to join us?” He asked to her, but without breaking eye contact with you.

“What?” You asked and Kim got excited. You realized that JJ was trying to annoy you and prove that you were jealous. But your proud self was never going to let him win. “You know what? Yes, Kim, join us.”

“I’ll play with JJ!” She said following him to the other side. You gave JJ a proud smile when he rolled his eyes.

“Kie! Play with me!” You called her and she nodded with a smile. “We better win.” You said to her in a whisper when she got next to you.

You grabbed the ball on the table and prepared yourself to do the first shot. And like you expected, the ball went perfectly inside a cup.

“Drink up, blondie.” You said and gave Kie a high five.

JJ did the second shot and it went into the cup. “Your turn, princess.” He said proudly and you grabbed the beer cup.

It was Kie’s turn, and fortunately, it went into the beer with no problem. This time it was Kim’s turn to drink, and she did it after giving JJ the look ‘Yeah, I drink. I’m cool’. You rolled your eyes and when it was her turn, she looked at the cups on your side and then turned to JJ.

“Can you help me?” She asked bitting her lower lip and JJ furrowed his eyebrows.

“Kim, you just have to throw the ball! C’mon!” You yelled at her but she didn’t look at you. It was obvious that she wanted JJ to do the classic ‘let me help you’ move and get behind her really closely. JJ walked to her and grabbed her hand, but staying next to her.

You let out a big smile when you noticed JJ’s actions and tried to not let out a laugh. She throw the ball after JJ gave her corrections, but she failed and the ball went into to the sand.

“Maybe next time, Kim.” You said pretending to to feel sorry for her. She rolled her eyes and then walked to the side of the table.

The rest of the game went normal, you and Kie got every shot and you were up by one. Everytime Kim and JJ would get a shot, she would go and give him a celebrating hug. You would try to ignore to stop yourself from pushing her away.

I’m not jealous. You kept repeating to yourself every five seconds. Somehow, not even you believed that statement this time.

“Ok, last shot. If I get this, we win.” You said grabbing the ball Kie was handing to you.

“Wait, we have to think of something to get if we win.” JJ stopped you and you furrowed your eyebrows.

“Like what?” Kie asked.

“Maybe, if you guys win, we” JJ pointed at himself and Kim “will buy you two dinner.”

You nodded “And what about if you win?”

JJ stood there thinking and a big smile appeared on his face. “Kim. You can choose whatever you want. But, if we win, Y/n has to go on a date with me.”

“Wait, no, it has to be a share price.” Kim complained and JJ shook his head.

“This game has no rules, so I can do it.”

You stood there without knowing that to say. Kie walked next to you and whispered in your year. “Dude, just say yes. We’re going to win anyway. You never miss.”

“Alright.” You nodded and JJ gave you a smirk. You lifted your arm and got ready to throw the ball.

You had two options, win, and get free dinner. Or, lose, go on a date with JJ and, for the first time, see Kim not get what she wants. JJ had a smirk on his face while his arms were across his chest. Kim was biting his lower lip annoyed and you let out a little smile.

Me and JJ on a date. You thought and your stomach turned. Am I about to do what I think I’m about to do? You knew that JJ asked you on a date because he wanted to annoy Kim as much as you did. Why other reason is there?

You sighed and the ball left your hand when you throw it. You watched the ball fly across the table and it looked like it was going to go into the cup perfectly. But it landed next to it, making it’s way to the sand after hitting the table.

JJ lifted his arms into the air celebrating with a proud smile on his face. You bit down your lower lip trying to fight the smile that wanted to come out. Kim just let out a simple ‘ugh’ and then walked away. A little moment of proudness came into your body. You turned to Kie who had her arms across her chest while looking at you with a lifted eyebrow.

“I’m sorry.” You said getting closer to her.

“Oh, c’mon. We both know you did it on purpose.” She tried to sound mad but a little smirk appeared on her face. She shook her head and when you tried to say something, she cut you off. “Don’t argue with me.” She winked at you and then walked away when JJ appeared next to you and let his arm go around your shoulders.

“Let’s just pretend you didn’t do that in purpose. And the fact that you got to annoy Kim was just a good side effect of your loss.” JJ said and you rolled your eyes but then a little laugh came out of your mouth. “Just admit that you were jealous?”

“What? Why would I admit something that’s not true?” You crossed your arms around your chest.

“It is true. I would admit it. If I had a cousin that had a thing for you, I would be fuming.” He said and you stood there processing what he just said to you.

“What?” That’s all you could say. JJ just shook his head and a smirk appeared on his face.

“You’re never going to admit it, do you?” He asked and you shook your head.

“Never.”

“Well, you lost anyway, what are doing then? I can ask John B for his boat and...”

“Wait, are we actually going on a date?” You asked.

“Yes, why would I ask you on a date if I didn’t want to go on a date with you?” He asked confused.

“I don’t know.. you wanted to annoy my cousin?”

JJ let out a little laugh. “If I wanted to annoy her, I would’ve kiss you right there in front of her. But that’s something that I want to do later.” He winked at you and then walked away, leaving you, for the second time, with a mind full of thoughts and a heart beating faster than ever.

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riviaskestis · 2 years

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“Smoking”

jj x reader

not my gif! credits to the owner.

a lovely anonymous requested; Can I please have a JJ from outer banks imagine where the reader hates weed (bc of past relationships) and her snd JJ get in a fight about him smoking?

note: hope you like it!

MASTERLIST

You rolled your eyes once the smoke came out of JJ’s mouth.

You were at the beach with your friends and the wind was blowing your hair. The water was to cold, so you decided to stay back and sit on the sand.

JJ sat down next to you after getting a joint from John B’s house.

“Do you have to smoke all the time?” You asked him and he lifted one eyebrow at your sudden attitude towards him.

“You always get angry at me when I smoke weed, why?” He asked and you rolled your eyes.

“You always turn into a dumbass when you smoke.” You said and moved away from when you were sitting so the smoke didn’t came into your face. “I care about you, that’s all.” You said and it came out more angry than you intended.

“Jeez, don’t get mad, mom!” He joked and you punched him in the arm. “Aw! What was that for?”

“I stand correct at what I said earlier, you dumbass!” You stood up and headed back to John B’s house.

“Y/n!” You heard JJ call your name but you didn’t stop. “Y/n!”

“Don’t follow me JJ!”

“Why you always get mad at me!? Did I do something wrong?”

“I just don’t want you to get hurt! What part of that you don’t understand!”

Once you arrived, you sat down and covered your face with your hands while trying to get your breathing to normal. You hated the way that memory of the terrible accident made you feel.

“Baby, what’s wrong?” He asked when he saw you on the couch.

“Nothing! Just leave me alone.” You tried to get up but JJ stopped you by gently grabbing your shoulder and pushing it down.

“No, I’m not leaving you. Baby, tell me, please. What’s wrong?”

“JJ! Stop!” The memories were coming back fast in your mind and you wanted to stop. You stood up and headed outside to breath fresh air. You had this before, so you knew what to do.

JJ followed you outside and stood behind you. He gently touched your waist and walked closer to you.

“I’m sorry.” You said after a couple of seconds when your breathing was back to normal.

He shook his head and gave you a kiss on your shoulder. “You don’t have to apologise to me. But I do need to know what all of this is about.”

You sighed and then headed back to the couch, JJ followed you and sat down next to you.

“When I was fourteen, I had this... boyfriend. He was bigger than me. He smoked all the time, way more than you. To the point that sometimes he couldn’t even remember his own name. One day, he told me that he hadn’t been smoking and that he was able to drive his bike. Stupid me believed him, so I got behind him. That’s when we got into an accident and spent three week in the hospital. He was in critical conditions, he almost died.” You finished your story and JJ nodded slowly. He touched your knee and squeezed it gently. “That’s why I don’t like when you smoke. Even tho you don’t smoke as much as he did, I’m afraid that because of it... I’m going to lose you.”

“Y/n. You’re never going to lose me. I promise you that.” He grabbed your cheek and gently pressed his lips with yours. “I may be stupid sometimes, but I won’t ever put you in danger. You’re everything I have. I love you.”

You gave him a little smile “I love you too, JJ.”

He wrapped his arms around you and immediately felt the worm of his body against yours.

“Now, tell me who this asshole is. So I can kick his ass for letting you go through that.” He said jokingly and you laughed for the first time.

I love this bastard.

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that one mistake - rafe cameron

requested by a lovely anon! hope you’re feeling better🧡 (i only changed the ending a little bit, for the life of me i couldn’t make it work. hope you still like it!)

summary: your relationship with rafe has become something filled with love and happiness after the months of helping him overcome his addiction. it seems like everything is going to be good, the fairy tale relationship you always dreamed of. but then, one little mistake from rafe makes you question everything that you and him worked hard for.

masterlist (author’s note: i don’t write for rafe but this is an exception since lovely anon wasn’t feeling very well)

warnings: mentions of drugs and addiction. a lot of angst.

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“Aha! You missed,” you said to Rafe after after letting out a loud chuckle as your eyes followed his golf ball passing the hole “you own be 20 bucks.”

“It’s not fair.” Rafe quickly replied without turning to see you. “The sun is hitting me.”

“Aw.” You walked towards him to wrap your arms around his waist. “You look cute when you lose.”

He looked down to you with a little smile on his face pulling your body closer to his. “You didn’t win yet.”

“Well, hurry up on losing!” You smacked the side of his arm. “I’m hungry.”

He let out a chuckle. “And you look cute when you want to win.”

“It’s your fault, you brought me into this game and now I want to win. Too bad!” Getting on your tiptoes you gave him a kiss on the lips to then unwrap your arms around his waist for him to hold your hand, and start with the walk towards Rafe’s ball.

“I have to tell you something.” He said without stopping.

“What?”

He looked at you and then hesitated, he bit the corner of his lower lip and you furrowed your eyebrows confused. Why’s he hesitating so much? “What is it?” You insisted.

“Tonight, there’s a party.” He said and you stopped with your walk. “Topper is gonna have it on his house and I want to go, y/n.”

You processed his words but it took you a long time. Months ago when you and him went through the process of getting over his addiction you made him promise that he would never go to Kook parties ever again. There it was where he would consumed the hardest, so rule number one of his recovery was trying to avoid parties at all costs. No matter how much his friends insisted.

“You can’t, Rafe.” You finally said.

“I haven’t been out in months, I want to take you out and see my friends. Summer is almost over and you won’t be able to be as free as you are right now, c’mon, just this one.”

“Rafe—” you shook your head again.

“I will be with you at all times, no alcohol— anything that would get me doing something crazy.”

“I just— I don’t know.” You couldn’t help but worry about him. All those months being by his side, feeling terrible but not showing it because you wanted to be strong for him. Every time he would mention something about going out with him, you tried your best to not think about the worst, but it was always there in the back of your head.

The fear of seeing him like that again.

“Y/n?” Rafe called your name.

You didn’t know what to say, you wanted to make him happy. But at the same time, those parties were filled with alcohol— and even worst, Kooks didn’t hold back when it came to drugs.

“I promise you, the moment we see something out of the ordinary, or even if you want to go, we’ll go. No questions asked.”

You hesitated. That did sounded good, maybe giving in but with conditions wouldn’t be such a bad idea.

“Alright.” Immediately, a smile appeared on Rafe’s face before giving you a little and excited kiss on the lips. “But— only for two hours. It’s a good start. You can’t just go and spend the entire night there even if it’s just a simple party. Got it?”

He quickly nodded. “Yes, ma’am.”

You rolled your eyes. “Don’t call me that.” You turned your head to the other side but before you could walk away, Rafe with a quick movement left a kiss on your cheek.

Even if he was being annoying he could manage to make you let out a smile.

The day continued and eventually like you expected, you won the game. Sometimes you wondered if he let you win, but even then, you enjoyed the win either way. It seemed kinda sweet that he did that, he loved to see you jump while doing a little celebration and that smile of yours glued to your face until the next day.

But today was different. The joy of winning was soon completely covered by the thought of tonight. The party.

A part of you was excited about it, going out and dancing, having a good time with your boyfriend by your side. Just like a normal teenager would want, but the other side of you just couldn’t stop worrying. One wrong decision and all those months of working hard just thrown to the trush, instantly. You trusted Rafe, you’ve grown to do so by seeing him with the enthusiasm of being a better person and actually becoming as healthy as possible. It was his friends and the people surrounding him that would get your worried to the moon, the Kooks are never to be trusted.

“You look hot.” Rafe immediately said when you walked out the door of your house. He was waiting for you while leaning against his car, with a huge smile on his face. “Is that the dress I bought you two months ago?”

“Yes—” you looked down to the light brown dress in your body “thought I’d use it again. I missed it.”

Once you arrived in front of him he wrapped his arms around your waist and pulled you closer, to look down at you with a smile on his lips. “And I missed seeing you in it.”

“You don’t look bad yourself, Cameron.”

He let out a smile and gave you a gentle kiss on the lips, before stepping away from you to open the door of his car.

As soon as you walked inside Topper’s house the sound of the music entered your ears as well as the smell of alcohol on your nose. It was so strong that you had to hold your breath for a little bit to get used to it. Holding Rafe’s hand you two made your way towards the patio where you knew the pool was, and like usual, Topper would be there too doing some crazy jump into it.

“Fuck yeah!” You heard some boy yell as soon as you walked outside. Rafe’s arm went directly to your shoulders and your eyes followed a very drunk Topper jumping into the pool, fully clothed.

“That’s my boy!” Rafe yelled with a huge smile on his face. You couldn’t help but let out a smile as well, seeing him like this caused nothing but your chest to get filled with a warm feeling.

“Hi guys!” Topper said as soon as he got out of the pool with drops of water falling from his body. “Did you two just got here?!”

“We sure did!” Rafe said.

“Dude you’re all wet! Why in the world would you go in with all your clothes?!” You asked followed by a kiss on the cheek from Rafe and a loud laugh from Topper.

“More fun that way!”

“I know!” You replied. “I’m mad because you didn’t asked me to join you!”

“Where can I get some non alcoholic drinks, Topper?” Rafe asked and immediately you smiled to yourself. Maybe the side that was worried was just being dramatic and nothing wrong was gonna happen tonight.

“In the kitchen! Then you can hang on the couches by the left side, nobody’s gonna bother you two there. If you know what I mean—”

You quickly smacked the side of his arm but Rafe just let out a loud laugh while pushing you closer to his body. “Topper!”

“I’m just saying! You have that option!”

Rafe pulled you to the side and walked you to the kitchen. The house was so big that you wondered how he still remembered the way to it. As soon as him and you had apple juices in your hands, Rafe without giving you the chance to say a word, walked you to the couches Topper talked about and when you arrived, you noticed that he was right. Only a couple of people were around you.

“I can’t believe I can finally show you off.” Rafe said when you sat down next to him as he placed his arm around your shoulders, pulling you closer. “Hey! Everyone! Look at my girlfriend. She’s the prettiest girl ever!” He yelled gaining a couple of eyes on him and all you did was feel the heat going towards your cheeks.

“Shut up!” You said covering your face with your hands. He gave you a kiss on the cheek and you look back at him, his eyes were shining while looking at you as a little smile was placed on his lips. You felt so safe around his arms and under see his eyes that you couldn’t imagine yourself somewhere else. He was all you needed.

“This reminds when we both went to that trip and we were watching the starts on the roof.” He said and you nodded, bringing the memory back to your head.

“Yeah— but then we ended up running away from the cops.”

He let out a chuckle. “It was your fault!”

“You decided to take a walk later!”

“Yes! But you wanted to get inside that old abandoned house!”

“I didn’t know it wasn’t abandoned! It didn’t looked like it.” As a another laugh came out of your mouth Rafe grabbed the side of your cheek to bring you closer to his, and place a little kiss on your forehead.

“Miss moments like that.” He said locking eyes with you.

“Me too.”

“I wish we could have them forever.”

“Running away from the cops?”

A chuckle comes out of his mouth. “You and me against the world.”

A giant smile escaped you lips. That sounds perfect.

Taking your face towards him you united his lips with yours as soon as you were close enough, that familiar warm feeling and your stomach getting filled with butterflies as he gently caressed your skin with his thumb. No matter what he did, he would always make you feel like it was the first time. All those beautiful feelings, those wild thoughts, his body against yours, it was like a spell his skin had on yours making you fall in an instant.

The love you felt for him couldn’t be compared to anything in the world. Not even the love you see in movies or shows, this was the most real you felt in months. And all of that just because he was kissing you.

Being in love is strange, sometimes.

“Hey! Rafe!” A strange male voice made you move away from Rafe, he rolled his eyes but as soon as he turned around to see the guy now walking towards you two he smiled at him.

“Hi.”

“Nice to see you back, man.” The guy said before sitting down next to Rafe.

He nodded. “Nice to be back.”

“Hi y/n.” The guy turned to look at you with a smile. “Looking good.”

You smiled at him, nodding. “Thanks.” He immediately turned to Rafe and lifted an eyebrow.

“You know, I’ve been thinking—” he said with a grin but then stopped by grabbing something from the back of his pocket. As soon as you saw that tiny package with a white powder your heart dropped to your stomach. “what do you think?” The guy asked.

“Are you kidding me?” You asked immediately grabbing Rafe’s arm to pull him away, but he didn’t move.

“What?” The guy asked confused. “Just a little bit. What do you say?”

You turned to Rafe expecting for him to say no, but you found his eyes glued to the packages as his his chest was moving faster because of his heavy breathing. He wasn’t saying yes, but even then, in those seconds you saw yourself by his side while he’s laying on the hospital bed, in pain and crying. You trying so hard to be strong eating your tears inside, almost breaking your chest apart in the process.

You remembered that so vividly that your throat started to close up, but you didn’t want to believe it.

He can’t say yes.

“Rafe? Why are you hesitating?” That’s all you could let out, your chest hurt so much that had to move away from Rafe on the couch by getting up.

“I think he wants to.” The guy said and that didn’t help to your throat wanting to let it all out.

“No! Fuck off!” You pushed the guy back.

“Excuse me?” He got up from the couch taking a step closer to you. That was when you felt Rafe by your side now.

“You heard me, fuck off.” You insited, even more firmly.

“You better calm down.” The guy was getting in your nerves, and that wasn’t good news. You took another step closer to him but Rafe grabbed your arm to stop you.

“Y/n.”

You quickly turned to him. “Y/n what, Rafe?”

“It’s his decision if he wants to or not.” The guy spoke again.

“Are you fucking serious?!”

A chuckle came out of his mouth. “You’re crazy if you think you can treat me like that.” He wanted to take another step closer but Rafe immediately stopped him by grabbing the neck of his shirt pushing him back, with strength.

“Don’t you talk to her like that.” He says firmly. “Ever.” His voice was so intimidating that a little bit of chills filled your skin, but the anger and worry in your chest almost covered it completely.

“You can go to hell.” the guy said once Rafe let him go.

“You go to hell!” Flipping him off, you followed him walk away with your eyes. Rafe grabbed your arm but you moved it with speed, not wanting him to touch you.

“Hey.” He says softly but it was too late, the mixed feelings inside you took over your body.

“No, you too go to hell.”

“What did I do?” He asked confused.

“What did you do? Are you serious?! Why did you hesitated?”

He didn’t reply immediately, instead he covered his face with his hands and gently shrugged his shoulders, frustrated. “I don’t know!”

“What do you mean you don’t know?! Rafe!”

“I don’t know, y/n!”

“We’re going.” You said firmly grabbing his arm to pull him away from the party without hearing an answer from him.

Ignoring the people around you, you made your way towards the front door to leave the house behind and walk towards his car. You didn’t hesitate on getting behind the wheel of his car and start your way towards your house once he got inside.

The way there was filled with complete silence. You didn’t know what to say, heaving the memory of those months going back to your head like that opened up a wound you thought it wasn’t gonna be touched in years, but there it was, just because Rafe hesitated you found yourself back and bringing all that pain back.

You knew that it was gonna be hard, Rafe would have moments like this but you also expected you to be stronger for him. Not have this mess of emotions inside of you because of some stupid moment like that. You loved him and you wanted to be there for him, but you also needed to be there for yourself. You had to be your number one priority and if you kept this up, it was gonna break you apart.

So, when the horrible thought came into your head, your next words you couldn’t help but let all the tears run down once you stopped the car in front of your house.

“Hey, hey, hey.” Rafe immediately said almost in a whisper when he noticed the tears going down your cheeks. He placed his hand on your skin and whipped them away, but no matter how many times he would do that, more were running down.

“I can’t believe that you did that. In those fucking seconds that you hesitated I saw you back in pain. And it— it broke my heart.”

“I’m sorry, I’m so fucking sorry Y/n. It’s hard for me and I don’t even know what I didn’t say anything when he asked.”

“I know. I know. I know that it hurts so much but—” you stopped. You hated that you were about to say those words, but right on that moment, it felt like the right thing to do for you “my chest can’t handle it anymore.” You said so softly that you wondered if he heard you, but once you turned to him and saw the confusion and worry in his eyes, you answered your own question.

“What are you saying?”

“It hurts, and it’s tiring to be in such high alert all the time. Sometimes it’s too much.”

“Are you breaking up with me?” His voice cracked and that made you hurt inside even more, but you couldn’t stop now.

“No— no. But I need some time apart.”

“What?”

“I love you, Rafe. I love you with all my heart, that’s why I have to step away for a moment and get everything right inside my head.”

He swallowed. You knew that he was trying his hardest to not break in front of you. “How long?”

“I don’t know. I know it’s hard, but you hesitated for a second and look at me, I’m a mess. I should be stronger if I have to be by your side.”

“You’re the strongest person I know.”

“I have to do this for myself too, I can’t stop worrying. No matter how much I trust you.” Your throat closed up once again enabling you to walk more. So covering your face with your hands you looked away from him.

“Y/n.” He said softly but that broke you even more than before, you needed to get out of this car.

“I’m sorry.” You said in a whisper to then unlock the door and step away from the car to walk towards your house.

You didn’t hear anything coming from him. You knew that he understood why you were doing this, it was for you and he wouldn’t come in between that. But this, what you just did, you never thought you would ever do something like this and the pain that I would cause you. Your chest felt like it was going to break apart as well as your heart, after jumping out of your body.

Sometimes when you love someone you have to let it go, because if it’s breaking you apart on the inside you’ll be nothing than emptiness one day and that’s the complete opposite of what you are. So no matter how much you loved him, you needed to do this. No matter how much it hurts.

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