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potionbarrel · 2 months

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not really fond of the cut off point for this one, but i wanted to get progress update 9 out in time for anniversary day! i'm STILL thinking abt this project and i really want to try and see it through!! community gardens i haven't forgotten about you....

happy 4th anniversary HLVRAI !!!!

#hlvrai #community gardens #gordon feetman #benrey #tommy coolatta #coomer #bubby #darnold pepper #howls like a DOG i pushed through art block enough to make more progress on this and share it!#i'm working at a veeery slow pace but i'm DOING it.#potionbarrel

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potionbarrel · 3 months

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the doggirls are touching noses. you couldn't understand ,,

(cute wolf belongs to @xenodogz 🧡)

#this turned out so cute and fun #the power of love or whatever. i'm not sappy abt this at all (blatantly lying)#furry #fursona #potionbarrel

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potionbarrel · 3 months

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trying to work on lighting and how i render it! i referenced a john wick screenshot for this one LMAO

#ocs #tulip #goldie #nowhere enough #lighting practice! i referenced a john wick screenshot #this was a lot of fun to play around with...#i really wanna study more intense lighting #i think this turned out looking really fun #potionbarrel

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potionbarrel · 4 months

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i haven't forgotten abt fallout au okay..... i promise..

#long ID sorry #hlvrai au #f4ais #bubby #joshua freeman #gordon feetman #benrey #tommy coolatta #potionbarrel

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potionbarrel · 4 months

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i don’t usually like posting pages from my sketchbook here all that much but. i think these are fun

#hlvrai #gordon feetman #benrey #darnold pepper #bubby #coomer #tommy coolatta #sunkist coolatta #i hope this ID is ok! it would’ve made it super long to identify each sketch #and i wasn’t sure if reading through all of it would’ve been tedious #if someone would prefer that though i can definitely change it!#potionbarrel

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potionbarrel · 5 months

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playing with colors and lines :o)

#hlvrai #gordon feetman #benrey #i'm always careful to try and check for gordon's gun arm being on the right side and somehow it completely got away from me this time. huh.#cw body horror #body horror #juuust in case #potionbarrel

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potionbarrel · 5 months

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my part of an art trade with my lovely friend @xenodogz!! woof did the sketch, i lined and colored!! thank you so much for how u drew my girl....

#my ocs #bailey #nowhere enough #she's SOOO so cute here. what if i died ten million times forever and ever #potionbarrel

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potionbarrel · 6 months

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something i drew for a bailey playlist! you can listen to that playlist here. self indulgent meanings for each song will be under the cut :-]

alphabet soup: bailey's thoughts on their parents when they're kicked out of the house as soon as they turned 18. they're relieved, they're terrified, they're weighed down by hatred and confusion. this song is them addressing that cruelty, angry at their treatment. apple pie: bailey starts a relationship w/ goldie & tries to use it as a bandaid for everything that happened to them, trying to convince themself that being loved will make everything better. paranormal: with dissociation and their nonhuman sides growing more and more intense by the day, bailey is losing touch with themself and who they wish they could be. struggling to feel like a person, battling dissociation, bailey wonders how can they be "tangible" enough for the polycule? do they have substance? you: following these periods of constant dissociation, bailey becomes apathetic, not taking care of themself, but justifies it by telling themself that because they can still care for and love their partners, that it’s okay. they're willing to wait out this low point because they have the three of them, they can weather this. coffee: bailey considers xemself dull, but tries to be “useful” to xeir partners regardless, overwhelmed by xeir perceived lack of worth. confess: catholic guilt: the musical. bailey tries hard to be the perfect partner, apologizing over and over for taking up space, confessing to everything they do “wrong.” dancing devil: a song meant to mirror how bailey talks to themself- the garden of eden is the farm they now have with their partners, but they regard themself as foolish for being so caught up in themself and past traumas that they can't even appreciate their freedom from their parents— they're trapping themself all over again, but this time, it's completely self-imposed. agoraphobia: bailey's been staying in the house all the time, directly following the lyrics in terms of their anxieties and how they're approaching these new low points. expressing their fear and their simultaneous acknowledgement and refusal of having a problem art school wannabe: starting to confront what's happened to them head-on, acknowledging that their problems aren't the end-all-be-all to their development as a person— they're not who their parents set them up to be. dear pressure: bailey's now being more honest with themself and partners about their avoidance of anything new, but simultaneously expressing how they want more for themself! why should they write themself off as this being the rest of their life? cold weather: they're so in love and in love with how much good they all do for each other, reflecting back on how much they've all grown by boosting each other up. how bailey has learned to let themself be loved in spite of feeling inadequate. grass eater: bailey owning up to their faults as just… part of the experience of being a person— "now i know i'm going to hell." embracing everything they've been ashamed of, or otherwise told to be ashamed of. the bottom shelf: bailey's happiness isn't going to come from other people or how they look at xem: happiness starts and ends with what bailey can offer xemself. xey work to stop giving xemself "shoulds." hello, good night: starting to hold onto a positive outlook- the bad is coming and going, but that means the good is, too. with their faults, bailey puts out just as much good, too. they can only be better.

#my ocs #bailey #meant to edit the blurbs a bit more but i gotta get ready for work HFGHFH #really happy w/ my playlist and how bailey's developed #nowhere enough #potionbarrel

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potionbarrel · 6 months

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cake date 🌹🍰🍓

#hlvrai #frenrey #gordon feetman #benrey #i forgot to post this oops oops #i like how benrey turned out here :o)#potionbarrel

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potionbarrel · 7 months

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gonna try out some oc-tober prompts and just. make whatever i want and as much of it as i want. so i have a creature page :o)

day 1- fave oc : bailey !! i have started projecting onto this guy so much they're so . important to me

#my ocs #bailey #oc-tober #hi doggy..#potionbarrel #ocs #i only ended up doing one oc tober prompt #and u know what? it’s one more prompt than i would have had :-)#nowhere enough

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potionbarrel · 8 months

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i cannot stop thinking abt demon benrey lately. he's done something irreparable to me

biggest shoutouts to @/restlessscribbler and @/pistachi0art for their really good demon benrey/gordon content that kickstarted the life of my brand new brain bug

#hlvrai #frenrey #gordon feetman #benrey #hlvrai au #demon benrey #they're so fruity with it. i'm feeling unwell #potionbarrel

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potionbarrel · 9 months

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