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Hannah Montana is fucked up because its entire POINT as a show is that children should be protected from fame and exploitation, but it stars a REAL little girl that's being exploited. Nearly every episode carries the looming threat of Miley being outed as Hannah and losing her peaceful teenage life to the ravages of fame. Her father in the show (played by her own father in real life) wisely protected her from the trauma of fame by making her wear a disguise and live a rather quiet, interview-free life. Meanwhile the REAL Billy Ray Cyrus sold his daughter to Disney Channel when she was 11 and forced her to read dialogue about how terrible it would be to face the public eye. Like... Jesus, dude. The fictional Robby Ray is 10x the father, and it's not even close. (It's also IMMENSELY funny that her dad doesn't use his real name in the show, while she does. Almost like he wanted a bit of a disconnect between his identity and his character. Something Miley didn't get.)

#it's not her actual real life birth name #but the point still stands yea

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Do students in the US actually use pencils on exams? What about a dokumentenechter Stift? Pencils are not dokumentenecht? The entire Bundesrepublik Deutschland would explode if you used a non dokumentenechten Stift in an exam.

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i don’t get hyped for games anymore i just watch an announcement trailer and think “huh neat” then forget about the game until i see a youtube vid about it 2 years later with WHAT WENT WRONG?😱 overlaid on the thumbnail

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my name's cougar but my friends call me mountain lion and my mama calls me puma and today's my first day at big cat high. i'm so nervous i hope they don't realize i'm not panthera >ܫ<

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Since the OP made their post unrebloggable (and blocked me. Both actions they are well in with their right to do)

I'm going to make my response it's own post because I think the point is important

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As someone who is autistic and has BPD and CPTSD and loads of trauma yes you sometimes need to change how you interact with others to keep people around

When I was 13 I hit the few friends I had when I was angry

I had to change that in order to keep those friendships

When I was in my early 20s if I was losing an disagreement with my husband I would threaten to kill myself. My husband told me it hurt him and was cruel and manipulative behaviour, because it was.

So I worked hard to change that to keep my relationship

It's easy to say "I shouldn't have to change for others" and that's true to an extent. You shouldn't change your interests or passions or dim your light. And you should have space to be imperfect and flawed and not have to pretend your ugly bits aren't real. But if something you are doing it causing other people harm you kinda need to change that.

That's called "living in a society"

People adapt to each other and make space for each other in their lives. You adapt to them and they adapt to you

You start being more diligent about throwing away the empty toilet roll because it really bothers them. They start warning you before they run the blender because you hate loud noises

I stopped threatening to kill myself because I was mad I was losing an argument and my husband stopped being so vocally judgemental amount media he personally dislikes

There is a certain type of person who heard the phrase "your emotions are valid" and took that to mean "my emotional reactions and my behaviour are always objectively correct because my emotions are valid and if you have an emotional response or react to what I'm doing negatively then you are wrong and you can't be hurt because my emotions are valid"

And that's a recipe for disaster

Your emotions are valid to feel. They are how you feel and there are reasons you feel the way you do

However, your reactions and behaviour are something you can learn to control and can be irrational

We live in a society and we as people change each other as we interact and that isn't necessarily a bad thing

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Really good Twitter thread originally about Elon Musk and Twitter, but also applies to Netflix and a lot of other corporations.

Full thread. Text transcription under cut.

Keep reading

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Just going to nip this in the bud now, but I will not be entertaining any "but what about/have you tried" suggestions in my inbox re: plastic straws.

If you message me about this, I'll be soft-blocking you.

I don't care how well-meaning your intentions are; your intentions don't mean shit when what you're actually saying is, "I am uncomfortable with your clearly stated needs as a disabled person and would rather you harm yourself than do something I have deemed immoral based on corporate greenwashing."

This is not up for debate. You either need to unpack the problematic elements of greenwashing on your own time and continue to be an ally to disabled people, or you need to own what you're actually saying and fuck off.

Anyway. Peace and love. Don't be ableist. Save a sea turtle, kill a big oil CEO ✌.

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Imagine being a patient of Hannibal’s but you just received actual therapy and then took his advice and you’re thriving, but then it comes out that almost all his patients killed at least one person I’d start wondering what was so wrong with me that he didn’t try to harness the dark urges within me, why wasn’t I worth shaping into a furry killer or some unsettling little freak with psychosexual tendencies? I’d need extensive therapy after.

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Okay so I just watched a video of a boy who once identified as trans still got bottom surgery after he realized he was cis and people were so fucking rude? Like just because this cis dude has a vagina people were calling him transphobic and wishing death upon him.

So this is a reminder that when we as a community advocate for bodily autonomy and gender surgeries that means everyone regardless of gender can do whatever they want with their bodies.

If someone who is cisgender wants top/bottom surgery THEY CAN GET IT. If someone wants facial plastic surgeries that we usually find creepy like buccal fat removal or eye lifts THEY CAN GET IT. And here’s the really controversial one but if someone wants to do things that harm their body like hard drugs or diy mods THEY CAN DO IT!

Because body autonomy isn’t just “I can get bottom surgery to pass” or “I can get an abortion” it’s also all the wild stuff that makes us uncomfortable and that’s okay.

#this #except maybe #I don't think the majority of people criticising buccal fat removal or BBLs or lip fillers and all that #are actually criticizing the fact that people get these procedures #but more the advertisement of the surgeries on social media etc without proper information about long term effects side effects etc #like with buccal fat removal the aging aspect #for example #and the comparison feels a bit unfair in the original post because like the whole hollow cheeks aesthetic is inherently connected to #unsafe diet practices #so like i don't have beef with the people who get them done #but we should be critical about why people want to look like that and how well informed they were when they decided to get it done #also eye lifts are controversial?? #i thought they are not even purely cosmetic but for some people a discomfort relieve too #when the eye lids are heavy and or saggy

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and also may i just add, the one psychologist who once told me that the human brain can only focus on one thing at once, is either very uneducated or has never met an ADHD person

currently i am having a mild panic attack ft. memories of past psychiatric traumata and a whole lot of anxiety about what's to come, while also kind of worrying about work tomorrow and my untidy kitchen ... and as a soundtrack to all that, my brain chooses to play "Whiskey in the jar" on repeat, specifically the Dubliners ft. the Pogues version.

ma'am the only times when there is only one thing going on is when i'm hyperfocusing on Civ IV. I mean even during like, sex, I will randomly get the gummy bear song stuck in my head and then remember how custom ringtones were a thing and hey maybe i should get a funny ringtone again, my current ringtone kinda gives me lil mini panic attacks because i am always afraid something Bad happened when the phone rings... oh wait lesbianism. * for legal reasons this is a made-up example not based on real experiences

woo i just e-mailed a psychiatrist about getting an appointment so that i maybe, maybe might actually some day be properly medicated for my adhd and not have to feel like i want to die or am actively dying most of the time!!

they were my second choice, first choice said on their homepage they're not taking any new patient which is. frustrating. considering they are ALSO a privately paid doc and I was under the impression that if you could pay them privately, you could get decent doctors in this country. oh well.

the doc i mailed is a recommendation and i swear if she doesn't take any new patients i will give up forever and not even consider it anymore. I will try to trust one (1) more psychiatrist. It's been a few years, maybe they have learned to be humans with empathy. maybe. maybe i am allowed hope.

if this doesn't work out, I will be in the forest, sitting under a tree until the bugs eat me, allright?

#i am sorry to everyone #who had to read this #i will try to go to sleep before its 3 am

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also like, apart from all the trauma from previous psychiatrists being awful people who should not be allowed anywhere near patients, i am very anxious about how what if she says I don't have it? anymore?

I mean sure I was diagnosed years ago and wasn't like a, "maybe kinda", it was a "yeah definitely", and i know that there should be no doubt, apart from the actual symptoms there is also the stuff like that caffeine makes me sleepy, which is basically a good indicator that stimulants don't work on me like they do for neurotypicals....

what if she thinks it's not bad enough??

woo i just e-mailed a psychiatrist about getting an appointment so that i maybe, maybe might actually some day be properly medicated for my adhd and not have to feel like i want to die or am actively dying most of the time!!

they were my second choice, first choice said on their homepage they're not taking any new patient which is. frustrating. considering they are ALSO a privately paid doc and I was under the impression that if you could pay them privately, you could get decent doctors in this country. oh well.

the doc i mailed is a recommendation and i swear if she doesn't take any new patients i will give up forever and not even consider it anymore. I will try to trust one (1) more psychiatrist. It's been a few years, maybe they have learned to be humans with empathy. maybe. maybe i am allowed hope.

if this doesn't work out, I will be in the forest, sitting under a tree until the bugs eat me, allright?

#hi it is currently 2.30 am while i am having this meltdown #and like that should be basically proof right? #not to my stupid brain #stupid brain is like #elmo fire gif

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wait shit fuck i just realized this means, if i get an appointment, i have to find all my diagnoses stuff. i have adhd man i have no idea where that stuff is :/

woo i just e-mailed a psychiatrist about getting an appointment so that i maybe, maybe might actually some day be properly medicated for my adhd and not have to feel like i want to die or am actively dying most of the time!!

they were my second choice, first choice said on their homepage they're not taking any new patient which is. frustrating. considering they are ALSO a privately paid doc and I was under the impression that if you could pay them privately, you could get decent doctors in this country. oh well.

the doc i mailed is a recommendation and i swear if she doesn't take any new patients i will give up forever and not even consider it anymore. I will try to trust one (1) more psychiatrist. It's been a few years, maybe they have learned to be humans with empathy. maybe. maybe i am allowed hope.

if this doesn't work out, I will be in the forest, sitting under a tree until the bugs eat me, allright?

[poetryofyouth]

woo i just e-mailed a psychiatrist about getting an appointment so that i maybe, maybe might actually some day be properly medicated for my adhd and not have to feel like i want to die or am actively dying most of the time!!

they were my second choice, first choice said on their homepage they're not taking any new patient which is. frustrating. considering they are ALSO a privately paid doc and I was under the impression that if you could pay them privately, you could get decent doctors in this country. oh well.

the doc i mailed is a recommendation and i swear if she doesn't take any new patients i will give up forever and not even consider it anymore. I will try to trust one (1) more psychiatrist. It's been a few years, maybe they have learned to be humans with empathy. maybe. maybe i am allowed hope.

if this doesn't work out, I will be in the forest, sitting under a tree until the bugs eat me, allright?

#adhd #mental health #please work please work please work

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#yes ❤️ please ❤️

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My deepest darkest fantasy is that I collapse on the street and I am rushed to the hospital. They perform a bunch of tests and find out I am severely deficient in some kind of vitamin. Then I start taking the vitamin and I become the happiest cleverest person alive because all my problems were caused by this one deficiency

#damn #it is very uncomfortable how much i relate to this

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this Conversation pit is ruining my life

#optimal will and hannibal therapy setting