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my health insurance is refusing to authorise the things my doctor sent me to do and im so mad and sad because all i can do is call everyday and hear excuses and fight with them about them not giving a fuck about my health even tho it's fucking urgent because im getting worse as the days pass by, i don't know what else to do, i just want answers and a possible treatment, i just want to feel at least a little bit better, like this is SO unfair

#chronic illness #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #chronically ill #disabled #actually disabled #disability #disabilities #chronic disability

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Please help me. My name is Shirley. I am autistic and disabled. I ran away from my abusive parents a few years ago. I’ve been moving from place to place. A man offered me a place to stay when I was homeless. He knew I had Asperger’s syndrome and took advantage of me. I basically slept with him for shelter. A couple of months ago I was able to find my own apartment. Things went downhill when I was fired from my third job. It has been very difficult for me to find employment due to mental health issues. I have been transferring money out of my credit card to my debit card in order to pay my rent. I also have to pay interest, which makes it worse. My credit card is about to be maxed out and I could get evicted.

It would mean so much to me if you could donate or share the link to my GoFundMe. Thank you so much

https://gofund.me/a6fcefdc

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everyone talking about overdoing it on good days, but what if i just over did it on a bad day?

like, if you need me just don't, because it will take make an unimaginable amount of time to recover from this

#chronic illness #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #chronically ill #disabled #actually disabled #disability #disabilities #chronic disability

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so i kinda need help, i just got in an argument with my mom, i was crying really bad (all normal for now) until i started having, what i thought it was, a panic attack, but then i started screaming bloody murder that "help me, he's going to kill me, mom, he's going to kill me, where's dad? dad help me dad please come here he's going to kill you and then he's going to kill me please help me, where's my brother? *here i started screaming my brother's name* where are you? please come to my room he's going to kill you, please he's going to kill my little brother please pelase help help us help me I'm going to die, please don't let him kill my brother" and it lasted like 5? minutes i don't even know, and like it's the first time something like this happened to me, was this a psychosis attack? (idk how to call it exactly, in spanish we say brote psicótico) or what do you think it was? i was not having visual allucinations or hearing anything, but i was really sure i was about to get killed, thoughts? ofc im going to talk about this with my therapist but I'd like opinions of people who actually know what it could be/someone who went through something similar and not just some doctor that only talks from their studies

#mentally ill #mentally exhausted #mentally drained #mental illness #mental health #actually mentally ill #mentally fucked #psychosis #delusion

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something that isn’t talked about enough with chronic illness is knowing that going to your appointments and doing your exercises and all that will help but being in too much pain or too fatigued to go, so your just stuck in this constant cycle of knowing what you need to do to get better but not being able to do it because your sick

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I hate the look on able-bodied people's faces when you can't do a thing that you could do the day before. The look of disappointment, confusion, the "Oh but you could do it before. Are you SURE you can't do it?" Like yes, Brenda, I'm sure that I am in too much pain to function and move from my bed right now so going for a walk when I could move 50 feet yesterday without my cane IS too much.

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when the essay prompt lets me get a little autistic with it

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i was about to buy compression socks but im kinda scared cause im super sensitive to textures because im autistic and like they are expensive so if i buy them and then I can't use them im going to scream

#chronic illness #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #chronically ill #disabled #actually disabled #disability #chronic disability #disabilities #compressionsocks

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I've been told a lot that I could have hEDS and since then I can't explain the amount of times I look at something my body is doing and I'm just like "is this normal or am I hypermobile"? I genuinely can't tell

#chronic illness #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #chronically ill #disabled #actually disabled #disability #chronic disability #disabilities #probably heds #heds #hypermobile ehlers danlos #hypermobility #hypermobile eds

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Please help me. My name is Shirley. I am autistic and disabled. I ran away from my abusive parents a few years ago. I’ve been moving from place to place. A couple of months ago I was able to find my own apartment. Things went downhill when I was fired from my job. It has been very difficult for me to find employment due to mental health issues. I have been transferring money out of my credit card to my debit card in order to pay my rent. I also have to pay interest. This time, I’ve really hit rock bottom. My credit card is about to be maxed out and I could get evicted. I don’t think I could survive out in the streets.

Please donate or reblog if you are not able to donate but would like to help. It would mean a lot to me if you could donate or share the link to my GoFundMe. Thank you so much

https://gofund.me/a6fcefdc

#reblog #if you can't donate reblog

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I say we start treating able-bodied people the way they treat someone chronically ill

"oh? you got ran over by a car so you can't do the groceries? but did you try hard enough? like if you wanted to you could, you're just being lazy. the same happened to my cousin's boyfriend's dad's friend and he's okay, stop with all the exaggeration!! it was just a car, there's people who got ran over by a bus, don't be selfish. did you try doing yoga yet? also, this special herbal tea I saw on facebook will totally cure you"

#chronic illness #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #chronically ill #disabled #actually disabled #disability #chronic disability #disabilities

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I was talking to my mom about mobility aids and also said that I am going to buy compression socks/gloves and she got SO mad, she told me those things are for old people and that I'm not going to use any of those things, even if I pay for them myself, all because "you're only 19, you DON'T need them!!" I'm so tired

#chronic illness #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #chronically ill #disabled #actually disabled #disability #chronic disability #disabilities #mobility aid

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just came back from the doctor, she said that she's pretty sure my symptoms are all because of my bpd but still sent me to do a holter, an echo doppler and said that if there's anything weird on the holter then she will send me a tilt table test, I know she just did all that to prove me wrong but who won at the end? me, yeah

#chronic illness #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #chronically ill #disabled #actually disabled #disability #chronic disability #disabilities

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a bottom-tier autistic experience is being told throughout your entire childhood that you are just an overthinker when it comes to social situations and later finding out that your friends did, in fact, hate being around you and tried to communicate that through weird little hints

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I just woke up and the first thing I see is that my lab work came NORMAL, ah yes I'm so happy (no I'm not, I'm going to scream, it just means my next doctor appointment its just going to be absolute gaslighting)

#chronic illness #chronic pain #chronically ill #chronic fatigue #disabled #actually disabled #disability #chronic disability #disabilities

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Knowing deep down that you aren’t and most likely will never be anyone’s first choice when the people you love mean so much to you is devastating. Finding out that the people you hold closest call and text each-other all the time but not you? That makes me want to shatter into a thousand pieces. I feel as if I will never be truly *special* to someone in the ways I’ve seen the people around me be special to each-other. I’m the guy with the camera who can take nice pictures of the group. Never be in them. I’ll invite people over. But never be asked to hang out otherwise.

I don’t know if this is just me struggling with chronic illness related isolation or not but god damn it’s tearing me up inside today.

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me: I'm done grieving, I already accepted my illness and all it brings with it, it's totally ok

also me on a random tuesday: my life is never going back to what it was, I'm never going to be able to do the things I loved the most the same, it's over and I gotta learn to live with that but it's kinda impossible because I'm so young and I had so many dreams and so many things I wanted to do that I can't anymore, at least not without all this pain and suffering

#chronic illness #chronic fatigue #chronic pain #chronically ill #disabled #actually disabled #disability #chronic disability #disabilities