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This. 👆 I’m not going to misrepresent myself as part of Asian culture (I am not), but it’s important (to me) that as someone on the outside of that without full understanding of the finer nuances/circumstances of those beautiful cultures, I reserve my judgement instead of plowing ahead in ignorance. Thanks for the articulation, OP. I think it’s important to point this out. Was I disappointed that it felt like Sam chose grandma and didn’t fight for Mon? Yes. Did I also understand that I couldn’t comprehend the magnitude of filial piety since I’ve never been obligated to live by it? Absolutely. The mere fact that episode 12 happened how it did and two women GOT MARRIED is mindblowing to me. You barely see that in western media, let alone eastern (that I’ve seen).

Was it a perfect show? No, of course not. But if someone can point me to perfect wlw representation in media, please do so (not holding my breath). Considering it’s one of (if not THE) first gl’s in Thailand, I thought they did a pretty damn good job. Props to OP for calling out the judgmental nitpickers, props for idol factory for taking a chance on such a show, props to the crew/director/cast for their dedication. Participating in a production like that in a country where queer relationships aren’t even legal has to be difficult.

I think a lot of those comments/post criticizing how Sam and Mon only got together because the grandma allowed it are coming from those who aren't Asian. I understand that because the culture is different they might find it aggravating but honestly GAP is meant to be a happily ever after type of show (with telenovela elements of Lakorns) and being accepted by family is the ultimate Happily Ever After for an Asian person who is sapphic. Family is no. 1, there's duty and there's shame in disrespecting parental figures ingrained from birth for all of us. Almost all of your decisions and life choices are judged by familial acceptability. I genuinely teared up when the grandma said that Sam "has done enough" for her and it resonated a lot because 1. it said that Sam has fulfilled her duty to the family and 2. she is accepted. When Sam knelt down and bowed I felt and related to her relief and gratefulness even though I understand that it was the grandma that was wrong for her homophobia.

#well this turned into a post #but was literally thinking about this earlier today #meta #gap the series #khun sam #khun mon #monsam #sammon

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Finally watched the last two episodes of GAP…

What am I supposed to do now?

#gap the series #I hate to see a good thing end #and it felt like a rushed ending with almost no monsam screen time #I feel…slighted #but also so grateful to have a series like that for us wlws #glad we got a happy ending #do I have complaints? yes #but I am focusing on the positives

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No other show has ever made me feel as single as GAP has

And I’m pretty much ok with that because it’s a fantastic show that did its job

#and I for the sake of my barely existent mental stability I haven’t even watched episode 11 yet #want to watch 11 & 12 together to spare SOME suffering #but goddamn their chemistry and magnetic attraction makes me YEARN #gap the series #gap #wlw #monsam

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Showrunners really out here like

Love Scene - Episode 11 (Director's Cut)

#gap the series #gap #monsam #episode 11 #deleted scene #directors cut #nsfw????? 😉 #I literally can’t talk enough about their chemistry #director going straight for the jugular #and we appreciate that #wlw

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Episode 10: Well that was a roller coaster if I’ve ever been on one. Jeez. Idk what to even say. Loved the proposal and Tee/Yuki crumbs we got (wish there was more to that), def expected Sam’s friends to be like tied up on the couch at grandmas 😂 Neung…she left Sam to deal with Grandma on her own so I hate that about her, but also understand her motivations. Didn’t like that she called Sam weak but again, understand what she’s trying to tell Sam. It’s just not as black and white as she sees it, unfortunately. The scene between Grandma and Mon…wow. She literally pressed every insecurity Mon had in the space of 2 minutes. I literally can not even imagine what it must have been like for Sam growing up with that. If I was Mon, I’d have gone home too. It’s where she’s comfortable, she has support, and I’d have gone insane sitting in Sam’s house going over that conversation over and over. Loved supportive Nop and LOVED Sam’s obvious growth. She doesn’t get overly jealous and gives Mon the time to gather herself and speak. Absolutely loved that moment between them. And Sam’s face when Mon tells her it was Grandma. The acting, while sometimes shaky, was unreal in this scene. They were both incredible, in tune and nuanced. Beautiful, even if it was heartbreaking.

Alright, GAP. Wreck me.

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Episode 9: (Fuck being an adult who can’t dedicate uninterrupted time to this, firstly).

Poor Mon. I feel like she’s cried in practically every single episode so far, sheesh. And mostly as a result of Sam, which SUCKS. Sick of Kirk. Seriously. Loved the moment between Sam and Mon’s parents though. Very much. Sam, don’t pretend you were gonna say anything other than calling Mon a two-timing cheat during that fight. No ma’am, don’t try to say it was Mon’s fault for not letting you finish. You said what you meant in the moment and feel guilty later. Own it…which she did and I was very proud of that. Definitely some much needed character development for her. Growth is good. TopMon is my new favorite and that’s all I’m saying about that scene. (Sam you and I both had the same expression when she said stop. Dayum). Again, fuck Kirk. What world is this where all these queer powerful female CEO’s exist? I’d like to exist there too. Sam breaking up with Kirk was great. Sam outting Mon to both Kirk AND Nita? Not so great. Chin and Yha…interesting. Lady Sam not firing them on the spot…also interesting. But her comments about their adultery being immoral…setting up for future issues with her and Mon? Nervous. Adorable little weekend get away. Love that for them. Marriage?! After a month?! I don’t think U-Haul even covers that warp speed. The fact that Mon is such a confidence booster and steady strength for Sam (and those around her) but is so insecure herself…heartbreaking. Her saying she’s just a commoner was this stab in the gut layer to her character I wasn’t expecting. It also gave me (at least) context on a lot of her previous comments when it came to Sam that I realized I was lacking. I love it, because the depth it gives her, but I also hate it lol. Good on Sam for recognizing she was upset but changing her behavior and not taking it out on Mon. On to episode 10!!

Alright, GAP. Wreck me.

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They do have a happy ending though (in both books)

An important and critical update lol. Thank you, anon

#anonymous #anon reply

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Don't read the second gap book then🥴 it turns a big grey's-anatomyesque

Suddenly very happy I’m too poor to afford buying book one or two…

#anonymous #anon reply #why can’t the lesbians just live happily ever after

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Thank god GAP isn’t Grey’s. With Sam’s migraine and nose bleed, we’d be headed in a completely different (but equally depressing) direction

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Episode 8: pretty much the entire first half was “if useless lesbian was a person it would be Monsam”. I died when Jim showed up with the liquor. I’m just going to keep saying it at this point: I literally can not handle the natural chemistry that Freen and Becky have. It’s unlike anything I’ve ever seen and they’re incredible for it. They create tension like no one I’ve ever seen before. Seriously, hats off to them. But then they had to go and ruin it at the end. Sam’s fucking behavior again. I feel like if I was Mon, there’s a good chance I’d be walking away. I get why she isn’t but Sam straight up called her a whore out of jealously. So incredibly disrespectful and she’s now exhibited a repetitive pattern of this behavior. She needs to get herself together and show the fuck up for her girl. Mon, sweetie, I feel for you.

Alright, GAP. Wreck me.

#gap the series #phoenix watches gap the series #Apparently every episode is going to end with her in tears from now on and I’m not ok with that. #monsam

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Nah, for real, I’m mad at Episode 7 Khun Sam. Royalty or not, put ‘em up cuz you ain’t gonna come out here and treat my girl Mon like that.

Mon, good for you quitting anyway. Know your worth, ladies. (Sam, I know you can do better. Get it together)

#gap the series #phoenix watches gap the series #look I just have a lot of feelings about the way Mon was treated this episode ok #poor girl is just sunshine all the time and doesn’t deserve to be treated like this #I’m afraid to see what they’re going to do to her over the next few episodes if we’re already here #can’t stop watching though #it still has so many good points #monsam

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Episode 7: well, it was promising…for about .5 seconds. Sam ran after Mon and EVEN WENT TO HER HOUSE BUT DIDN’T RING THE BELL?! UGH!!! Girl, COME. ON. Then being downright rude in the face of Mon’s genuine concern and confusion to turn around and FIRE her because Sam has no idea how to communicate? Wild. And the fact that it came back to bite Sam in the ass when she’s trying to tell Mon she actually does like her. Peak lesbian behavior right there (Iykyk). Did not love the way Sam’s character was written during this episode, idk. Sure, they end up “dating” by the end - hilarious lead up and development of that (the 10 year long processing silence after “do you want to be my girlfriend?” “Sure” is iconic), but the behavior Sam engaged in throughout the episode because she couldn’t just tell Mon what she was struggling with was borderline toxic/abusive and definitely gaslighting the poor girl (yes, I’m aware this is all after the literal quid pro quo s**ual harassment that Sam engaged in so we’re really just splitting hairs at this point. Don’t come for me ok, I do really love this show to this point) GAP, don’t you do it. Don’t you make me hate this character! Final thought, and it’s opinion only; You can’t help the way you feel about something or someone. It’s out of your control. But you can control your behavior and your responses to those feelings. I need Sam to realize that and check herself because until this point I’ve enjoyed her character quite a lot.

Alright, GAP. Wreck me.

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Episode 6: Jealousy is attractive all of a sudden. Sam backing Mon against the wall in her own bedroom? Cornering her? Turning her face back when she looks away? They’re just really out here feeding the sapphics, eh? Top Sam energy ON POINT. Communication?? Sexy. Surprising twist on Nop’s part but we stan a supportive ally on this blog. Kirk annoys me. Begging Mon to keep his secrets from Sam - tacky of him. Mon putting literally everyone before herself kills me. That’s gonna bite her in the ass, I suspect. Can we pretend the wedding part never happened? These ladies gonna put me through it!!!

Alright, GAP. Wreck me.

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Episode 5: how are two people so fucking good AND bad at being gay for each other at the same time. Fuck Nop. Very much enjoyed Mon checking the fuck out of him. And per usual, THE CHEMISTRY. THE TENSION. UGH. The buildup to that first “kiss” was unmatched. Then the end. The awkwardness of learning each other…leave me melted on the floor. I live here now. Wow. There’s definitely some issues in the series but Sam and Mon’s compatibility isn’t one of them.

Alright, GAP. Wreck me.

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Episode 4 thoughts: Mon finding out she was in love with a lie sucked but it needed to happen. Sam’s a real person and Mon needs to get to know the real human before loving her (hopefully). Somehow I have a feeling I’m about to be put through the wringer with these two tho, judging from the very last scene. Just not allowed to have a happy couple, hm?

Alright, GAP. Wreck me.

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Episode 3 Thoughts: well THAT escalated quickly. Also, WHAT. We went from “your ideas suck” to “lie down here (IN MY BED)” in the space of an episode. THEY’RE WILD FOR THAT. You’re telling me there isn’t a spare bedroom in that whole big ass mansion? Not even close to believable but I love it. This show is kinda campy, a little cheesy, but I’m starting to get the hype. Can’t talk about the chemistry between the MCs enough. Casting directors knew what they were doing and I personally thank you for that.

Alright, GAP. Wreck me.

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Finished episode 2. Sam’s behavior gives me whiplash. Her friends are…interesting. Someone needs to explain why they call her Hon. Stupidity because where I’m from it’s insulting lol. But the headache scene was an intriguing flip from Episode 1 where Sam was always the savior. And Sam lost some of her defenses while vulnerable so more of that, thank you. Their chemistry continues to be great, very excited to see how the next few episodes go.

Alright, GAP. Wreck me.

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