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patterns-stuff69 · 3 years

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Dance on my grave

Chapter 6

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Turns out it wasnt as bad as the doctors predicted it to be. Midoriya is okay now and we were on a date together at the park.

He looked happy, but it felt like he was hiding something.

I didnt bother him though. He'll be okay.... I want him to be okay.

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Me and Shoto were on a date in the park. I didnt want to tell him that I felt worse right now.... but I didn't want to ruin his happy day.

The doctor told me to rest a bit since my condition would get worse if I didnt.

I never listened.

Me and Todoroki were hugging in the park. My face was nuzzled into his chest and his face was nuzzled into my hair.

My heartbeat felt weird and my breathing was shaky. Todoroki had noticed that I was breathing weirdly. He didnt say anything thought. He probably thought that I was just happy.

When we reached home.... we kissed for the first time. It felt amazing. My first kiss..... and probably my last.

Todoroki and I are cuddling. I was nuzzled into his chest, smilin. He mumbled something that I couldn't really understand.

I decided to speak up "What was that?"

He the kissed my forehead, speaking softly "I love you... so much.... I.... this.... this might sound crazy... but....I want.... to be with you forever."

My face heated up while a smile crept onto my face "R-Really? You mean that?"

He nodded "I mean it....." he kissed me again.

Tonight.... was the last night we held each other.

My health went down again. I was hospitalized. Todoroki couldn't visit me in the hospital. He had exams.

I was scared.... I was so so scared.... What if...we never see each other again? I... I would hate that.... we wont be able to fulfil our promises... we wont be able to love each other again.... and... we wont be able to hold each other again.

I felt so useless.... and scared. What if Todoroki moved on already?

I couldnt move. I couldn't talk at all. It's been months. The most progress I had was when my heartbeats became regular.

And then... I woke up.

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I was called in to see Midoriya. He was awake. He's okay....

I walked in to see him on an oxygen machine. He looked so pale....and thin.

It broke my heart to see him like this.

He smiled when he saw me. He spoke in a really soft and quiet voice "Todo... you... made it."

I sat down next to him, taking his hand into mine. It's only now that I realised that was hooked up to another machine, keeping him alive.

I nuzzled into his hand "Izu...." i sniffled softly "You're awake... I... I'm happy to see you..."

He looked at me with a sad smile "I'm happy to see you too..." he mumbled. His heartbeat changed.

"Todo.... I...love you so much... I....wanted to spend my life with you.." he mumbled "I wanted to get married.... I wanted to have kids with you... I wanted to be a hero." His voice began to crack.

"Izu... why.. why are you talking like this? We.... we are gonna be able to do all of that..." I mumbled.

Midoriya smiled softly "You'll be able to do those things...." he sniffled "I love you.... Todo....and... I'm going to miss you... can you kiss me... please?"

I tensed up and nodded. My heart sank when he said he was going to miss me. I stood up and lent down to kiss Midoriya. He kissed me back. After I pulled away, tears were streaming down his face.

"Dont be too sad... I'll be byt your side.... forever..." Midoriya mumbled as his heartbeat became weaker.

He squeezed my hand before the heart monitor made a loud beeping sound.

My breath hitched when his grip loosened on my hand and his breathing stopped.

I shook my head as tears started to fall. "N-No! No! Izu.... please no! Stop playing with me! Please.... let this be a joke... please.'

The nurses rushed in.

No...

No....

Not yet....

That was the last time I saw him.... and... I miss him.

I remembered our date in the park. "Izu...." i remembered how his arms felt around me. How his kisses felt.... and what his laugh sounded like.

I could never experience any of that.... ever again.

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Well.... this is the end of the book folks. Hope you enjoyed it!

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Dance on my grave

Chapter 3

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Me and Shoto had grown really close this week. I felt so sad when I had to go back to class because I wouldn't be able to see Shoto. His class was going on a camping trip.

I found out these feelings I felt for him was love.

How strange... I thought I would never be able to love someone romantically in my life.

I was staring at the board blankly. I was really bored and lonely. I was strong enough for my nurse to ket me go to class alone.

It was a new thing for me, but I didnt mind.

Mt mental health went down drastically though. The kids made fun of my illness and even shoved me around.

They kept saying that I'll never do anything great because I was so sickly and weak.

It really hurt me. I started to believe those statements. My nurse wondered what was wrong but I never told her.

I didn't want to bother her with my silly problems.

I wasnt worth any human sympathy, so why should I waste her's?

I hide my feelings and troubles from my therapist too. He doesn't even suspect a thing.

I sighed as I wrote down what Present Mic told us to.

I started to feel my eyes fall closed and my breathing became shallow. I passed out at my desk.

I soon woke up in a hospital bed, connected to a heart monitor and life support.

A light went off and a group of nurses rush on with a doctor.

My parents werent there. There was nothing that told me that they visited.

Just as I thought. I was a waste of space. A bother. Not even my parents wanted to see me.

Thwy hate me. Everyone hates me. Even Shoto.

I sighed in relief when the nurses exited. They left me alone with my personal nurse. She turned the TV on for me.

Thwy were talking about Shoto.

I spotted his last name.

It took a bit to click, but when it did, I freaked out.

He's a Todoroki?!

Why didn't he tell me that? Did something bad happen?

I was so surprised. I decided to ask him when I exited the hospital.

Who knows how long I'll stay in this place.

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I heard that Midoriya was in hospital. He apparently fainted in class due to his oxygen running out.

How dumb could his nurse be?

I sighed as I took my red and white hair out of my face. I wanted to see the TV better.

My heart sank when I heard that I was on the news.

Midoriya would surely know that I'm a Todoroki. That'll scare him off. I dont want that... I've grown feelings for him.

I can't loose him, not yet.

Chapter 4

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I was out of hospital and back at school. I feel like Shoto is ignoring me... and it hurts.

I was just walking to the cafeteria when I saw Shoto talking with that black haired girl from 1-A. I think her name was Momo.

Momo was giggling and blushing while Todoroki was looking at her like a boyfriend would.

My heart sank and I just rushed out of the cafeteria. Tears were brimming my eyes.

Why am I crying? Why does it hurt so much?

My nurse tried to follow me, but she couldnt. I ran into the boys bathroom, locking thr door. I went to a stall and closed it's door. I just started ro cry.

Why am I feeling this much pain?

Why does it hurt so much to see Shoto with her?

My heart monitor started beeping loudly.

I guess this had put a lot of stress on me.

What am I going to do now? I thought he cared about me.... but now he's ignoring and avoiding me.

Did I do something wrong?

I knew it.... he was just pretending. He actually hates me and that teddy bear was a fake gift. He didnt want to tell me his last name because he didnt want me to ruin his image.

I should just leave... forever. It'll make everything easier for everyone... especially mom and dad.

My vision was starting to become a lot more foggy and blurry. My breathing became unsteady and really quick.

It feels like something pressing on my chest. Why does it hurt this much?

I started screaming for the first time in the longest time.

It hurts a lot more than my illness. It feels like my heart is shattering.

Am I dying?

Maybe I am... that'll be amazing...

Before I knew it, I was passed out. The last thing I heard was the door unlocking. I saw a blurry face. They had red and white hair.

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I found Midoriya's nurse at the boys bathroom. She was looking at me with worried and angry eyes.

She pointed at the door "Help me open the door... please. He's in there. He looked troubled."

Before I could kick the door down, I heard a scream come from behind the door.

My heart sank and I froze the door handle. I opened the door and found Midoriya on the floor. His breathing was heavy and unsteady. He looked like he was having a panic attack.

"I think he passed out from a panic attack. We need to get him to the hospital." I spoke softly. I didnt want the nurse to know that I was scared. I need to remain strong... for Midoriya's sake.

We were in the hospital a few hours later. Midoriya was hooked up on life support and they had to put him into an induced coma.

I don't know why, but they had to.

I took Midoriya's hand into mine ans sighed shakily "I'm so sorry Midoriya... I dont know what caused you to freak out like this.... but.... it was probably my fault."

I asked the nurses to leave me alone with Midoriya for a bit. I wanted to tell him how I felt... I dont care if he couldn't respond. I needed to tell him.

I was talking with Momo to figure out how to ask someone out. She helped me by being a test subject.

I pretended that she was Midoriya. I confessed to her and she smiled, telling me that Midoriya would love what I told her.

I looked at Midoriya, sighing shakily. I brought his hand up to my forehead, starting ro cry, "I'm so so sorry....Midoriya... please.... forgive me for whatever I did.... I.... I love you so much... I know we've only known each other for a short time now.... but... I'm sure that I've fallen for you... When... when they used my last name on the news... I was scared that you would leave me alone.... just because I was a Todoroki..." I took a breath.

"I started to avoid you.... but... that was a mistake... Midoriya... please forgive me... I know you probably dont feel the same.... but I love you..." I sounded so damn sad and desperate.

Damn it. I promised myself that I wouldnt cry.

I then felt Midoriya's hand tighten on my hand.

I looked up at him, sniffling. I saw that he had a soft smile on his face and tears falling from his eyes.

He was still asleep though. I knew that he heard me.

Thank you....

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I somehow heard Todoroki confess to me. I tried to wake up, but I couldnt.

I used all of my strength to squeeze his hand and smile. I felt tears fall from my eyes.

I felt happy and complete.

Chapter 5

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It's been a month now and Midoriya was awake.

It was a relief to know that. He also accepted my feelings for him. He likes me too, surprisingly.

I felt the happiest I've ever felt in my life.... this is amazing.

I was chased out of his room though. They needed to check up on him and it seems that he doesnt need his personal nurse anymore.

The school is gonna let us share our dorms so that I can take care of him.

I was pretty happy about that. He also seemed way happier.

I was hugging him while he was catching up on work. He looked so cute when he focused. I really like it when he looks like this.

I nuzzled into his back and let ou a hum "Do you need any help Izu?"

Midoriya smiled softly and shook his head "Not really Sho.... I'm doing quite well." He mumbled.

I nodded and kissed his bacl softly before drifting off into sleep.

After a few hours, I felt two arms wrap around me. I opened my eyes and saw Midoriya hugging me. He was smiling softly "Hey Sho..... Sorry for waking you up."

I smiled and shook my head "It's fine. Are you tired?"

He nodded and nuzzled into my chest "Yes.... I'm very tired...." he yawned and closed his eyes, falling asleep.

He was getting tired a lot more easily thesw past few months. I wasnt really concerned about that. He told me that if he didnt feel well that he'll tell me.

I never thought anything of this, until he didnt respond to me the next morning.

I tried to wake him up, but he kept sleeping.

I called the hospital and a nurse who was accompanied with a doctor arrived.

They checked up on Midoriya and they frowned.

The doctor looked at me "He needs to be hospitalized again. His condition has gotten worse."

I tensed up and nodded "A-Alright..."

This cant be happening again. I cant lose him now.

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Dance on my grave

Chapter 2

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I had to skip school today to go for an emergency check up at the hospital.

My heart rate was irregular, so they had to give me medicine for that too.

I had to take the day off to get used to the medication. The school also let me stay in the dorms for a week.

Me and Shoto had planned to hang out. I swear I recognise him from somewhere.... and it's not from the sports festival or the villain attack.

I huffed as I watched some TV in the common room.

I saw Shoto enter with a gift in his hands. It looked like a... teddy bear?

Is that his?

He sat next to me with a smile "Hey Midoriya... I bought you a gift. I heard that you wanted a comfort item, so I bought you this teddy bear. I hope it's good enough..."

My cheeks became beet red as I smiled. I signed to him that I loved the teddy bear. It felt so special to me.

When he gave it me, I hugged it close to me. I was careful to not move my heart monitor.

Shoto smiled more and nodded "I'm happy you love it. It was the only one that reminded me of you."

My cheeks became a lot redder than before. I signed "It did? How much did it cost? I will pay for it."

Shoto chuckled and shook his head " Its fine. Dont pay for it... it's a gift."

I nodded and nuzzled into the teddy bear to hide my face.

He thinks about me when I'm not around? Why am I happy about this? Why is my heart feeling fluttery? Why do I feel like I'm floating on air? Am I sick?

My nurse noticed my actions and smiled "He seems really happy about the teddy bear. It looks like he's already became attached to it."

Todoroki bit his lip and I could swear that his face had a hint of pink on it.

He turned his face away. He spoke softly "I'm happy he does... I was scared that he was gonna reject the gift."

I gasped quietly and stared at him with an angry look on my face. He looked at me and I signed ti him "I would accept any gift like this. I am extremely lucky to have a teddy bear."

We hung out all day. When Shoto left, I became sad. Why am I feeling like this? We just met a fee days ago... and I'm already attached to him.

I sigh, cuddling the teddy bear close to my chest. I nuzzled into it's head, falling asleep.

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Dance on my grave

Chapter 1

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Today I was accepted into the UA's non-hero course.

I wanted to be accepted into the hero course, but my illness prevented me to do so.

I'm really happy that I still go accepted though. I'll have to walk around the school with a oxygen machine and a nurse accompanying me.

There can be no risks of me dying.

I have always been sick since childhood. The quirk my mom and dad gave me, made me extremely weak. I could control fire, but it messed up my immune system since it took out all my energy at once.

My parents thought it was normal, until I fought with Kacchan. He's my childhood friend by the way.

We were fighting to test our strength. I passed out and I was rushed to the hospital.

The doctor told me that I should never ever use my quirk again or else I would actually die.

Morbid, right?

Yeah. It is... but I cant control that fact. Fate handed me this illness, so I'll have to deal with it.

My mom was very worried the first day I moved into my dorms. That was after the villain attack with the students in 1-A at the USJ.

It was scary to know that a whole class could've died, but they were strong enough to escape.

I heard that Kacchan was in class 1-A a few days after the attack and I'm glad her survived.

We've grown apart after he went to a private school, but that cant be helped.

I hope we could become close friends again

I am currently sitting in my class writing an essay. I got held back after class to finish it since the oxygen tank had to be replaced with a new one.

I was almost finished with it until a boy with red and white hair stepped into the class to give present mic some papers.

I tensed up and finished my essay quickly. My nurse scolded me but I didnt care. I wanted to get out of the class as soon as I could.

He was from 1-A and I looked up to them. They were taught by all might.

Lucky.

I stood upand shakily walked to Present Mic's desk with my finished essay.

I could feel the guy's eyes on my back.

I shivered slightly when I felt his hand touch my shoulder.

I let out a shaky sigh, facing him. He had a soft look on his face.

He spoke with the softest and silkiest voice ever. "Izuku Midoriya right? I've heard Bakugo talk about you in class. Are you really as bad as he says you are?"

I furrowes my eyebrows, tilting my head. Was Kacchan spreading rumours about me? No... that couldnt be. He was always so nice to me back in kindergarten. Why would start being an ass right now?

I shook my head and signed ti Todoroki "No... I have no idea what you are talking about."

My illness makes it really hard for me to speak. I am so weak and pathetic.

Todoroki sighed "Well....He's been spreading things about your illness... saying it was something fron sexual intercourse with a stranger on the streets?"

My face paled and my breathing sped up. I signed to Todoroki "That is not true.... he is lying."

Todoroki frowned "Typical...." he scoffed softly.

I then realised that he knows sign language without me needing to ask him.

I tap his shoulder, signing "How do you know sign language?"

Todoroki hummed softly and smiled slightly. Present Mic seemed really surprised by his smile.

I wonder why.

"The old man forced me to take it.... I'm really glad I did. I wouldn't have understood you if I haven't." His voice was really calming to me.

I nodded and smile shakily. I signed to him "I did not catch your name."

Todoroki's smile fade and he sighed "Well... you can call me Shoto."

I nodded and signed "Shoto. That name is nice."

Todoroki smiled again and waved "Well... I have to go back to the dorms now. Do you have a phone? Or what's your dorm room number?"

I smiled and took out my phone. I unlocked it for him and handed it to him.

He took that as a sign to put his number in my phone. He gave my phone back and I check the number.

Shoto and a number. That was probably his dorm room nunber.

I signed "Your dorm room number?" While pointing at the contact name.

Todoroki nodded "That's it. I'll text you later. I have a lot of homework. See ya."

He left and I took another look at my pgone.

The first student to be nice to me and to give me their nunber.

I smiled softly, feeling a strange fluttering in my heart.

I brushed that off but my nurse saw my facial expression when that feeling happened.

She bumped my shoulder "Is he your new boyfriend?" She teased.

I quickly shut my phone off, blushing. I shook my hands in front of my face.

I signed "Of course not. Just a friend."

The nurse chuckled "Sure thing." She then bumped my shoulder again "C'mon. It's time for dinner and your medication."

I think I was feeling happiness for the first time in my life.

It felt nice.

Little did I know that it was love and admiration.

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Also please don't hate this book. I've really worked on this.

My fingers are cramping up, but I'm actually enjoying this book.

Please tell me what you thought and please do not hate on me. I'll be adding some OC's here an there. This an au story after all.

Also please dont read any future chapters if you are triggered by depressive and s**cidal thoughts.

Thank and remember that I love you.

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