What a shitty feeling… how lucky you must be to be amongst your friends and truly feel like you fit in… to not feel like an outsider… to not be the only one left out of the subtle glances and inside jokes…
How shitty it feels… when you realise you’re completely alone and these people are basically strangers to you…
It’s so depressing that you can’t control the overwhelming emotions that hit you like a fucking brick…
To be so absolutely and painfully lonely….
I’ve been crying in my car for the past 30 minutes, bawling my eyes out and my chest just fills with more and more despair…
How come, when I’m having a full blown hysteric breakdown, i realise that I literally don’t have a single person to talk to ? “What about your boyfriend?” ITS ABOUT MY FUCKING BOYFRIEND! How come I’m always the one who ends up looking like an overdramatic crazy person? How come when I’m finally going bonkers, he says “i was joking. Why can’t you take a joke and ignore me?” HOW COME!
HOW CAN I NOT HAVE A SINGLE FUCKING PERSON TO TALK TO ?
Im not crazy. Im not overreacting. It’s not BPD. Im not fucking crazy!
I hate having extreme frivolous feelings over stupid things. I hate my black and white thinking. I hate that I cry when he doesn't text me back. I hate that I always feel abandoned. I hate that I feel heartbroken when I can't see him. I hate that I always feel like the world is against me. I hate that I can't let myself be happy.
nothing sexier than that picture with the italian players on top of eachother after the win and the english ones going through the 5 stages of grief in the back
I was high off my ass last night and had this dream where I was in this dense ass forest and sitting there was a tall woman. She was so tall I couldn’t see her face but she was wearing gold and I was like “uh…hi?” And she said “I made you, do you know that?” And I nodded and she was like “I hear your thoughts. Why do you hate my creation? Why do you try to destroy yourself? I made you perfect as you are. Please don’t break my heart”. Then she started crying and it flooded and I woke up with fucking heart palpitations like what does it Mean™️????