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This is so wholesome to look back on because I’m currently studying in my second year of uni to become a teacher and I love it :) I don’t have that Tc anymore, and I still just really want to be a teacher!

hello all <3

i’m not sure if anyone else has this dilemma but :

for the past maybe year and a half / two years i’ve wanted to be a teacher (i’m about to go into my last year of high school so i’m gonna have to decide upon this soon lol) and the thing is, i’m not sure if i want that career for the right reasons. in the sense that, do i want to do it because i feel i’d be good for it or because i’m obsessed w a fucken teacher so i want to do it to feel more like her, you know? however, when i dismiss the teacher that i like and i think about all the other ones i’ve had and liked in a completely platonic way, especially in primary school, i realise how much i’ve looked up to them and how i want to be that for another person. so i’m just not sure. shit ! crushing on a gal really makes you re think and overthink absolutely everything. i : hate this lifestyle ❤️ i know you can change your career at any time i just don’t want to get into the wrong thing for the wrong reasons <3 let me know your thoughts lmfao <3

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I wonder what she thinks of me

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‘you look nice today’ okay. Kiss me then.

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Your office smells and feels like something warm and familiar. The house of a loved one

And when I sit next to you it feels like we fit

And when you turn to me I find it hard to look at you, even though it’s all I’d like to do.

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And here I am, sat in class

Writing your name in glittery pink gel pen like a school girl

Thinking about the best ways to see the corner of your eyes crinkle

You are so beautiful

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I missed having a crush

It’s not so much of a crush as it is admiration but

This is sort of what it was like with her

Admiring her from across the room

Seeing her turn around and laugh at someone

The fact that she’s so intimidating it makes her even more attractive

My need to perform in front of her

My need to analyse her light brown eyes

My need to see her without her glasses

To see her with her hands in her pockets

To inhale her scent because she definitely has one

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Don’t know if this will reach anyone but I have a new little fixation so… time to post a bit again 😭 (I have a crush on my colleague who is a teacher)

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how i feel when i drop hints about my crush

☠️☠️☠️

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Any of y’all still active on here?

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+ just to add to my last post- I had a crush/situationship with someone a few months back… it’s over now but I found it quite incredible that I was finally able to have a ‘normal’ crush on someone my own age like hm! The development is insane. That being said though I’ve definitely still had my slip ups since graduating lmao, since I have my ex tc’s phone number sometimes I send her drunk pictures of me and my friends and she just doesn’t reply 😭 (understandably so) my friend and I also mutually chose to request her on Instagram at the same time 😭 then when I caught up with her a few months back she was like ‘sorry but I can’t accept your request until a year after u graduate…’ LMFAO I didn’t expect her to say anything about it but 😭 lovely of her. Anyways those were the last of my little life updates ~

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hiii to whoever is still active on here,

It won’t be too shocking to hear that I’ve moved on from her and this blog lmao, my life has changed significantly since the last time I posted. I’m in uni now so I am… not the same bitch I was a year ago 😭 (it feels so weird to write that bc I remember stalking tcc accounts and seeing that they wrote something like what I just did and thinking.. ‘that could never be me….’)

I did go back to visit my high school a few months back in about feb (?) I think and I saw her, caught up with her and just chatted for a while. She gave me a hug and her phone number, although we don’t text very much and when we do it’s quite brief. But yeah it just feels so weird that all it took was for me to graduate and step into the real world to finally get over this woman lmfao. I still think she’s beautiful don’t get me wrong and I do miss her but platonically, for once…!

So I suppose you can’t expect anymore posts from me, although I may come back to do the occasional lurk every once in a while. I will miss this community, we’re all a bit fucked but there was definitely a nice sense of unity in that … 😭

I still treasure some of my pieces I wrote about her and will continue to feel proud of my work, even if I can no longer relate to it. Who knows, maybe one day I will use this page to just post my general writing/poetry about anything.

I hope you guys are well and good luck to you all <3 💖💓💞💕💝💗

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maybe it is time to forget, after all

in just a few short days i will be travelling and staying locally with my best friends for a week

amongst people my own age

drinking every night

endless room for casual hook ups

with people who deserve me

and i deserve them, too

because they exist within my sphere

whereas you do not

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tell me i’m your first choice in your second life

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oh yeah. i drunk emailed her the other night.

it went something like:

ou so much don’t know what i’ll do without uon like litwrally don’t you know what i’ll do aound oh you and i’m not judge drunk

god i’m embarrassed. the fact that i have just graduated makes it so much worse because this is like. the last impression she has of me and what if when i ask if she wants to make plans in the future she will think about this and say...no.

but oh well. it’s kind of funny really

and she’ll do it again!

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hi! i haven’t posted in so long. basically, i had exams and my last one was exactly a week ago and so... just like that, i’ve graduated high school.

i feel so relieved of course but then; there’s always her

it was so bittersweet, i hung around her a lot on my last day, just sitting with her in her classes, doing puzzles and playing silly little games on her laptop whilst we have elaborate banter. such banter being what intiated our friendly bond back in 2019 :’)

i gave her a few gifts and a card- she didn’t read it in front of me but get this: as i was about to leave i asked her if i could hug her and she said yes :’) like... she literally hugged me then and there, in front of her class.

it was maybe the lovliest embrace i have ever received- i am not sure how to describe it. i said as i left ‘i’ll see you again, i know i will’ and she agreed.

so! even though i’m sad i won’t be able to see her on a regular basis, i do feel assured knowing that i will at least, see her again at all.

it might be the end of an era, of us at school but it is not the end of us just yet

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the feminine urge to be in love with someone you can never have