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don’t forget to boycott eurovision this year 🍉

#eurovision song contest #eurovision 2024 #boycott eurovision #free palestine

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1,2,3,4 occupation no more

5,6,7,8, isreal is a terrorist state

#free palestine

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a collection of images. life of late

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i’m quite literally drowning in college work and with my dissertation. so naturally, i’m considering a ltec rewrite. polish her up a little. tie in those strands.

#cliona you don’t have time #love a procrastination project

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going through the ao3 bookmarks of an author i really liked and saw one of my own works there, the rush was unreal oml

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clio!! hi! theres this girl in my math class that looks a lot like you and i realized i havent talked to you in a while. how have you been doing?

ooh doppelgänger!! love!!

i’m doing great! i’m currently in india finishing up an internship, i’m going home soon and it’s crazy i’ve been here five months and i can’t believe how quickly it went. definitely excited to go home but sad to be leaving so very bittersweet.

loving life at the moment though! i’m doing a small bit of travelling through asia before going back home for the final year of my degree, and this year i’ll be living in a house with some of my best friends and it’s looking like it gonna be a great year so i’m really excited.

for now just taking it easy and making the most of of them rest of my time here! eating as much good food as possible and trying to commit it to memory!!

so lovely of you to think of me! how’re you doing?

#cw mention of food #cliona's corner

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Omg Clio hi!

hello my love! how’re you doing?

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James Doesn't Know

Scotty doesn't know that Fiona and me do it in my van every Sunday She tells him she's in church, but she doesn't go Still, she's on her knees, and Scotty doesn't know

In which Remus and Sirius are together. The kicker? James doesn't know

“Where does James think you are right now?” Remus panted, head tilted down to look at the sight before him.

Sirius looked up from where he was on his knees in front of Remus, lips red and glistening. “Detention.”

Remus groaned when Sirius returned to the task at hand, rather enthusiastically if he might add. Remus glanced around the room of requirement which had taken the form of a little library of sorts, Remus pressed against the stacks with Sirius before him. One would think that this was Remus’ idea, but Sirius had been the one to summon the room today. Interesting.

Remus gasped when Sirius did that thing with his tongue, pulling Sirius’ hair as he came and Sirius hummed around him as he swallowed. Merlin, Remus loved that boy.

Remus crept across the dorm, pretty sure the others were asleep. He pulled back Sirius’ curtains to find his boyfriend grinning lazily, an arm tucked behind his head. Remus leaned down to kiss him before climbing onto the bed, sliding a hand along Sirius’ jaw as he pulled him in for a deeper kiss.

“Wha-” Someone squeaked and the two boys tore apart, wide eyed and heart stuttering to find Peter gaping at them, jaw on the floor.

Peter opened his mouth as if to say something but Remus was already moving, off the bed and across the room in seconds, covering Peter’s mouth with his hand.

“Shh!” Remus whispered frantically. “Shh, Pete, I know it’s a lot, but you have to be quiet, James doesn't know.”

Peter’s eyes were wide as saucers as they flickered between Remus and Sirius, who was now standing, still as death at the side of his bed.

“I promise, I’ll explain everything in the morning.” Remus said. “But right now we can’t wake James, so we’re all going to sleep and we can have a chat in the morning. Okay?”

Peter nodded.

“I’m going to take my hand away now,” Remus warned, “But you’re going to stay quiet, right Pete?”

Peter nodded once more. Remus slowly lowered his hand and Peter smiled weakly at them, Remus returning it. The blond boy continued on his way to the bathroom, in which time Remus and Sirius stayed exactly where they were almost as if by moving they would break some sort of spell and Peter would start crowing from the rooftops that his two best mates were bent and banging. Remus watched Peter as he returned to his bed, the shorter boy smiling once more before climbing into his bed and drawing the curtains closed.

Remus breathed deeply, before crossing the dorm and pulling Sirius gently back to bed by his wrist. Remus closed the curtains. Tight. He cast a silencing charm, and only then did he wrap an arm around Sirius’ waist, pulling the other boy into him.

“Pads,” He murmured lowly into Sirius’ hair and Sirius smoothed up Remus’ sides.

“That was close.”

Remus laughed. “Too close.”

Sirius leaned up, a slow cocky smile taking over his face. Remus loved that look. For years it had meant Sirius was up to something, but recently, ever since this thing had started between them, Remus had seen a variation of the expression. Still his cocky grin, but there was a certain glint behind his eyes. The kind that made Remus’ stomach twist and heat.

“You shut Wormtail up.” Sirius said, stating the obvious, but still with that look. “Not sure that would work on me.”

Remus raised an eyebrow, tightening his grip on Sirius’ waist. “Mm, probably not.” He agreed, even as he twisted them to blanket Sirius against the bad. “It's a good thing then,,” He said, words punctuated with kisses, “That I have other methods.”

Sirius gasped as Remus licked a stripe up the column of his throat, and Remus took his silence for agreement.

“James?” Sirius breathed, fingernails digging in tight to Remus’ shoulders.

“Told him we were going to Hogsmeade.” Remus ground, as he thrust, Sirius’ hair splayed around his head like a dark halo. The room of requirement had simply given them a bed today. A California king, admittedly, but Remus wasn’t picky. He just needed a locked door and Sirius Black.

“Peter?” Sirius asked.

Remus halted, staring into Sirius’ eyes. “Same story.” He said. He angled his hips and pushed into Sirius slowly, delighting in the whimper that came from the other boy. “Now do you have any other questions, or will I keep going?”

Sirius’ pupils were blown wide with want, and he dragged his nails down Remus’ back. Remus knew there would be marks. Good.

“No.” Sirius shook his head. “No more questions.”

“You sure?” Remus teased, circling his hips and watching Sirius’ eyes flutter close. “Funny how you’re saying every other name except mine.”

Sirius’ eyes flew open. “Remus,” He breathed and Remus leaned down to press a messy kiss to his lips as his hips continued their fast rhythm. “Re, Remus, Remus,” Sirius cried, until he exploded with Remus’ name on his lips. Remus tasted the syllables on his tongue and followed suit.

“But why won’t you tell James?”

Remus sighed and adjusted the strap of the bag on his shoulder before he looked down at Peter. They were walking down by the lake, the summer sun dragging students out of the castle and out on the lawn to bask in the heat. James and Sirius were already under their tree, having finished Quidditch practice earlier than Remus and Peter got out of Astrology. They could see them a hundred feet away so Remus paused, keeping his voice low.

“It’s not that we don’t want to.” Remus said rubbing his face in exhaustion. The full moon was a few days away and already beginning to take it’s toll. “But we’re just not sure we’re ready yet. We don’t want the whole group dynamic to change.”

Peter frowned. “But-” He protested, his voice too high for Remus; liking. “But it wouldn’t change, it hasn't changed.” Peter said, lowering his voice once he caught a glimpse of Remus’ expression.

Remus nodded. “Yeah I know.” He sighed. “I would tell James right now if I could. But Sirius is nervous. James is all he’s got in terms of family right now. And Sirius is terrified to risk it. “

Peter’s eyes widened in understanding and he nodded, falling into step next to Remus once more.

“For what it’s worth,” Peter added, nudging Remus playfully. “I think James will be fine with it.”

Remus smiled gratefully at his friend. “Thanks Wormy,” He said, and his words were sincere. “I hope so.”

Remus pressed Sirius into the closed door of their dorm. They didn’t have long, but they had about fifteen minutes before someone noticed their absence from dinner and came looking for them.

“Miss you,” Remus breathed.

Sirius frowned. “We’re always together?”

Remus sighed and ducked his head to Sirius’ shoulder, kissing where it curved into his neck. “I know, I just wish I could be with you like this,” He said, demonstrating his meaning with a kiss to Sirius’ lips. “All the time. “

Sirius nodded, threading his fingers in Remus’ hair. “I know.” He said, hands lowering slightly so he could trace the line of Remus’ cheekbones with his thumbs. “I think maybe…” Remus watched as Sirius bit his lip. “I think maybe it’s time to tell James.”

Remus hardly dared to breathe even as his heart fluttered. He met Sirius’ eyes. “Are you sure?”

Sirius nodded, and Remus could see that he meant it in those wonderfully expressive eyes of his. Remus laughed, his arms tightening around Sirius to spin him gently before setting him back on his feet in the centre of the dorm. They kissed and it was electric, full of the heat and passion and love, but kindled now with something softer, more hopeful. Remus was so distracted, he didn’t hear someone coming up the stairs. He didn’t hear the door knob turn, didn’t hear the hinges squeak.

But he did hear when James Potter spoke.

“What the fuck?”

Sirius and Remus ripped apart and the pair burst into laughter at the sight of their friend’s face.

“Well,” Sirius said, and Remus was delighted to have Sirius grab his hand. “Looks like James knows.”

#remus lupin #sirius black #wolfstar #hp marauders #marauders era #smut #sort of #sexual content #not explicit though #but might mark it as #explicit #just in case #plot? idk her #this was fun #james potter #peter pettigrew #wolfstar fic

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The Only Exception

Hello again <3

I’ve got a tight grip on reality but I can't Let go of what’s in front of me here I know you’re leaving in the morning when you wake up Leave me with some kind of proof it’s not a dream.

“Your final exam is tomorrow, right Re?”

Sirius watched Remus look over to James from his perch on the common room windowsill. “Yeah,” He sighed. “I can’t believe you lot are already finished; someone remind me why I took ancient runes?”

Peter snorted; half bent over a table next to him as he studied the chessboard. James, seated across from him, was smirking as he bit into a chocolate frog, already secure in his victory. “Hell if I know.” Peter grumbled before advancing a pawn. James immediately struck, claiming one of Peter’s knights and Peter cursed.

Sirius watched in amusement as he painted his nails, boots resting brazenly on the same low table. Remus was flicking though a textbook, pages of notes strewn around him. Sirius knew that if he were to go upstairs, he would find Remus’ bed in a similar state – half buried in parchment. James whooped as he moved his queen. “Checkmate.” He declared gleefully, standing up and stretching as Peter groaned. “Right lads,” James said, looking at Remus and Sirius. “Who’s next to face the champion?”

Sirius was going to decline, but before he could, Peter piped in, demanding a rematch. Sirius finished with his nails and screwed the lid back on the little black bottle, while Remus carefully extracted himself from his seat. Sirius watched him unfold his long legs out from under himself and gingerly gather his papers together. “I’m gonna head to bed.” The tall boy mumbled. “Gotta get up early and all that.”

James and Peter looked up from their squabbling. “Night Moony!” Peter chimed. “Good luck in the morning, you’ll do great.”

“And even if you fuck it up,” James added, “You’ll be free for the summer.” Remus rolled his eyes, but ruffled James’ hair affectionately and nabbed another chocolate frog off his friend, James didn’t even notice, eyes already back on the chessboard. Sirius watched out of the corner of his eye as Remus ascended the stairs, watched for much longer than it had taken for Remus to disappear from view. He studied his nails, turning slowly from a light sheen to a more matte look as the paint dried. He waited as Peter lost once more, but felt so confident about his next victory, he started placing bets. Waited as James accepted those terms and the chessboard was set up again. And then, sick of waiting, Sirius stood up. “I’m off boys.” He announced, and head them say their goodnights, already walking away.

Sirius frowned as he found Remus’ bed empty. Empty and as Sirius had predicted, covered in parchment. He heard the hiss of the shower, and tugged off his robes, shrugging on a hoodie and a tracksuit pants, then padded over to Remus’ bed and carefully, so carefully, began tidying the notes.

See the thing was, Sirius was completely and utterly in love with his best friend. It was all rather inconvenient really. Sirius couldn’t count the number of detentions he got for being distracted when his thoughts had wandered to Remus. His productivity had dropped dramatically, Sirius remembered the days where he would spend all his free time plotting the next round of marauders signature mischief. Last week he had nearly spilled dragon’s blood all down himself in potions when Remus had moved past him, accidentally grazing his hand on Sirius’ waist as he passed. Sirius had a tight grip on reality, and yet couldn’t seem to let go of what was in front of him.

“Pads?”

Sirius turned to see Remus standing in the doorway, hair wet, towel strung around his hips. Sirius’ heart stopped for a moment, and he tried so hard to stop his traitorous eyes from focusing on the dip of Remus’ hips. He looked higher, and found they snagged on the other boy’s lips instead. Another mistake. “Just thought you might want to be able to see your bed.” Sirius teased, hoping his voice came out even.

Remus smiled gratefully and started pulling clothes out of his mostly packed trunk. They would all be leaving tomorrow afternoon for the summer. James and Sirius to the Potters, with the promise of Peter and Remus coming to visit next month. Sirius kept his eyes down and focused on the task at hand, looking up when a scarred hand joined his, sorting and collecting papers.

“I can finish up.” Remus murmured. “You can head to bed if you want.” Remus bore pants similar to Sirius’, but he wore a soft brown jumper, the cuffs frayed on the sleeves. Sirius recognised it as Remus’ favourite.

Sirius smiled, slow and soft. “Nah I can’t I’m too invested now. Gotta make sure all the red tabs end up together, don’t I.”

Remus shot him a grin and Sirius wondered if he should get himself checked out by Madam Pomfrey. Hearts shouldn’t flutter as much as his did, he was sure. “I’m going to miss you, you know.” Remus said casually, his voice slightly softer than it had been before. Sirius swallowed. “Well yes, I should hope that you will, given that I am incredibly witty, gorgeous, talented… need I go on?” Sirius joked. “Anyone who wouldn’t miss me is out of their mind.”

Remus shook his head, a smile on his face, then took the papers from Sirius’ hands, setting them atop his closed trunk, his bed now clear. Sirius fiddled with the ring around his thumb, taking a step back.

“I guess I should leave you to it.”

Long fingers wrapped around his wrist, and Sirius finally allowed himself look into those gorgeous amber eyes.

“Stay.” Remus whispered, his hand light, but his words heavy. Sirius’ heart clattered in his chest, his throat tight. So, he just nodded, wordlessly climbing into bed next to his friend. Remus drew the curtains with a wandless charm, and something stirred in Sirius’ stomach. Merlin, he loved when Remus did that.

They lay on their backs, staring at the ceiling. Sirius let his head fall to the side, taking Remus in. The curls that were getting quite long, falling over his forehead and nearly into his eyes. His eyelashes, long and swoopy, the white scar that mapped his face, leading to the clean cut of his jaw. Sirius let his eyes wander more south, looking at their hands, next to each other on the covers, millimetres apart. When he looked back up, Remus was gazing at him.

Sirius’ breathing hitched as Remus’ eyes dropped from his own, down to his lips, before returning back up. Soft, slightly callused fingers caressed Sirius’ cheek and Sirius felt his eyes close. This was a dream. Surely.

“Pads,” Remus whispered, barely audible, thumb stroking Sirius’ cheekbone. “Is this okay?”

Sirius’ eyes flew open. “Kiss me.” He said, brash and brazen and bold.

He saw Remus inhale, watched those honeyed eyes flicker. “God Sirius.” He breathed, before pressing their lips together.

It was soft at first, as if Remus was still waiting for Sirius to change his mind. Sirius thought that perhaps he might be losing it instead. He was going to be committed surely because there was no way this was happening, that it was Remus’ lips against his own. But when Sirius leaned into it, when he threaded his fingers through curly hair and felt Remus gasp against his own lips, he knew it had to be real. He had quite the imagination, but it could never have invented something as wonderfully detailed as this.

They kissed for what could have been minutes or hours or days. All Sirius knew was that he was perfectly content to do it for the rest of his life. When they pulled away, breathless and legs tangled under the sheets, Sirius smiled smugly at the puffy red of Remus’ mouth. He had done that. Sirius leaned forward, and pressed a small, chaste kiss to Remus’ lips once more. Remus let him.

“Well, that’s new.” Sirius muttered, mostly to himself but Remus burst out laughing.

“We can make it a regular thing if you want,” he said to Sirius, eyes glinting.

“If I want?” Sirius sputtered, rising to the bait. “Of course, I fucking want, you absolute twat. I’ve been in love with you for years and you have the nerve to insinuate I wouldn’t want that.”

Remus’ laughing stopped and the smile slid from his face. Fuck. Did Sirius already screw this up. For the love of Merlin, he was going to have to learn to shut his mouth.

“What?” Remus breathed and Sirius steadied himself, shuffling impossibly closer to press their foreheads together, his hand cupping Remus’ face. He hadn’t meant to just blurt it out, but that didn’t mean it wasn’t true.

“I love you. I'm in love with you.” He said, smiling softly, feeling impossibly free. “Have been for years.”

Remus’ arm tightened around Sirius’ waist. He kissed him, a smooth slide of their lips, Remus tugging gently on Sirius’ bottom lip with his teeth. His hand pressed firmly into Sirius as he dragged it up and down his back, the curve of his waist.

“I love you too.” He said, as he pulled away. “For years.” He added as Sirius let out a sound of disbelief. “And currently wishing I had the balls to do this ages ago.”

Sirius laughed, hitting Remus’ shoulder playfully. “You and me both.”

“I’ll see you over the summer yeah?” Remus confirmed, even though the plan was set in stone. They would see each other tomorrow, but Remus would probably be gone to his exam before Sirius awoke. And after that, they would be with the others all day and for the entirety of the train ride. This was probably the last time Sirius would have Remus alone for weeks.

“Yeah,” Sirius agreed, pressing his face into the other boy’s neck and breathing in deep. “Yeah, and then we have all next year.”

“You’d better owl me.” Remus warned, and Sirius hummed. “Of course, Moony. Right back at you.”

Sirius felt Remus’ breaths slow and grow deeper and knew he was close to falling asleep. He could hear the muffled sounds of James and Peter coming in, getting ready for bed. If they showed any surprise at Sirius' open curtains, his empty bed, Sirius couldn't detect it.

“Moony?”

“Mhm?”

“I know you’re leaving in the morning when you wake up,” Sirius said, slipping his fingers beneath Remus’ jumper and finding soft warm skin. “But maybe leave me with some kind of proof it’s not a dream?”

He knew Remus was smiling. Knew from the tone of his voice, the way his fingers twined in Sirius’ hair.

“Of course.” He acquiesced and finally, Sirius let himself drift into sleep, safely wrapped in Remus’ arms.

In the morning, he awoke alone, the bed cold next to him. His heart dropped for a second, until he noticed a familiar brown jumper folded neatly on the sheets.

“Definitely not a dream.” A piece of parchment atop it read. “Love, R.”

Sirius smiled a face splitting grin as he tugged off his own top and pulled the jumper over his head, Remus’ scent nestling around him. Clutching the note to his chest, Sirius lay down again and fell back to sleep.

This was going to be the best summer yet.

#sirius black #remus lupin #wolfstar #marauders era #hp marauders #first kiss #fluff #strong langauge #to be expected from me really #nobody was surprised

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It is Eurovision season once again! Are you watching?

Dearest 🥞

Hahaha yes it is!!! I’m currently in India so I’m usually asleep by the time it’s on. I haven’t tried to find somewhere to watch it either - I’m slacking this year, I’ll have to up my game!!

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Rain

You never realise some things have a smell until they're gone.

It's a cool summer's evening in India and we step outside once the storm has passed. It smells cool and sweet and I can't help but take several deep breaths. "It smells like home." I say. "Of course it does," She says. "It smells like rain."

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Absolutely obsessed w this <3

Thanks for the tag m’love @rainingsunlight

thank u @arsi-lehkonen for the tag 😚💖

rules! go to pinterest and type in “[your name] core aesthetic” and create a moodboard using the first nine images. you are not obligated to share your name

tagging: @rainingsunlight @with-the-words-all-wrong @icanbeyourjedi @lowcenterofgravity @tiredsemanticist (you don’t have to do this if you don’t want to <3)

#it’s chaotic but I like it better that way

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Hey! Are you watching the Eurovision this year?<3

But of course!!!

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Hey :)

I know you published it a while ago but I just recently read your fic titled Blizzard about Kasey's injury. It has stuck with me every day since I read it and I've gone back to read it again many times.

I had to quit playing hockey a few years ago for reasons I won't get into. I had played for quite a long time before I quit and I really loved it. How Remus explained the process could not have been more exact to how it actually feels. The stages he talked Kasey through are the same stages I am working through and it really validated how I feel about it.

Thank you for writing that piece the way you did. It made me feel so seen on a spiritual level, arguably more so than any other thing I have read.

Heya!

This was so lovely to see when I popped in, it's a really great feeling you get when the things you write resonate with other people. Particularly when I'm not very active but my work is still being accessed.

I'm really sorry to hear that you had to quit your sport too. When I wrote Blizzard, I wrote it because it was what I needed to write I think. I had to stop the sport I loved before I wanted it and Blizzard sort of briefly documented my grieving process.

To put it eloquently, it fuckin sucks, but it can be comforting to know there's someone out there who's felt it too. If you ever need it, you're always welcome here to pop in for a chat, but more than anything, thanks so much for telling me what this piece means to you. That really means the world to me.

Cliona x

#cliona's corner

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Nice dress and u look so cute 😔😩🥺💕

Aw thank you lovely!

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hi clío! haven’t heard from you in a while and ofc that’s totally okay, but I hope you’re doing well :))

Heya!!! So lovely to hear from you m’dear! I’m doing good! I’m in a bit of my rep era it would seem, I’m not v active but I’m vibing!

I chopped off my hair 🤪 and I had a super super fancy event yesterday so here’s me n mah fancy dress

I’ve a bunch of assignments and exams rn cause it’s that time of year so it’s stressful but it’s also super exciting cause we’re so close to finishing.

How’re you doing?? I hope life is being good to you!!

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Just wrote a lil response to the latest Vaincre chapter by @lumosinlove

(No spoilers but insinuation below xoxo)

Logan woke up. It was all just a dream.

Fin.

Tysm guys much love 😭💕

#vaincre #lumosinlove #sweater weather lumosinlove #vaincre lumosinlove #logan tremblay